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hereforthepotions · 4 months ago

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Thinking about a toxic relationship dynamic between a mortal and a deity or supernatural being where the mortal is the abuser.

#they taught the gods how to love like a human #how to see each dawn like it could be their last rather than fromvthe perspective of the artist who painted those lights dancing in the sky #how to hold and be held #to see and be seen as less than a god #to open their heart to the rawness of love and life and loss #and then they left the heart of the gods broken and bleeding #writing #relationship dynamics #ship dynamics #writing prompt

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egophiliac · 10 days ago

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do you have youtube channel?

technically yes, but I just use it to host unlisted videos for embedding, so there's nothing, like, public on it. :') sorry! I basically don't post anywhere except here and occasionally on pixiv (in case it's not obvious, I suck at social media).

#god help me if i ever have to rely on it as a career because i will immediately die #i like being in one place where people can follow or block as they choose and not have to keep blocking me everywhere #fediverse seems like it would be ideal for that but i haven't seen any that have the thing that i really like about tumblr #which is that tags can work both as a cloud (like if i tag something as 'art' it shows up in the tag feed for 'art)#and also isolated (if you come to my blog and click the 'art' tag you can see only my posts tagged 'art')#(if there's a term for that i do not know it)#i might just be missing if there are any like that though #the people who i tend to look to for this kinda thing are mostly interested in straight-up twitter clones #which is...let's say less than ideal for posting art or organizing anything #so at this point if tumblr goes down i'll probably just take it as a sign to quit social media entirely ( ᐛ )#(my apologies i did not mean for this to turn into a tag novella)

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strobbylemonade · 4 months ago

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101 - a dummy's guide to loving and becoming human again

#it's been literally 1 day since ive started thinking about these two and i'm severely mentally ill #do they even have a ship name. i saw 'crowclock' but surely we can do better.#limbus company #yi sang lcb #dante lcb #limbus company fanart #strbylmn art #i. WAAAAHHH WAHHHH #hear me out. yi sang has self worth issues and sees himself as less than human. and he easily develops attachment to inanimate objects #dante struggles to form proper attachments because they don't know what the normal pace for forming relationships is. and they hate being #seen as less than human. so we run into this crazy ass relationship where dante likes yi sang for how human he is and yi sang likes dante #in part because of their head. so they love each other despite neither of them seeing themselves in the way the other sees them.#DOES ANYONE HEAR ME. AAAGHHHHHHHHHH #also supreme amount of gender fuckery as a result. GOD. I'VE MADE MYSELF MENTALLY ILL

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cloudysarts · 6 months ago

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"What?! Fuck you, Stolas! You spring this 'feelings' bullshit on me-- are you fucking kidding?! Can I get a fucking minute to think after everything you put me through, you pompous, rich asshole?!"

~i don't support vivziepop or her shows + this art/redesign is from my rewrite~

(unblurred ver under the cut)

#Helluva Boss #helluva boss critical #hb critical #spindlehorse critical #helluva boss redesigns #helluva boss rewrites #hb redesigns #hb rewrites #yarnsnake #blitzo buckzo #blitzø #blitz #stolas #stolas goetia #stolitz #anti stolitz #helluva boss spoilers #the full moon #this episode......was SOOOO BADDDD LMAOOOOSDFHJKSDFJHKSDFHJK #the cherubs??? the agents??? PLEASE #it was like laughably terrible. ive seen hardcore stolitz lovers be dissapointed as fuck #i mean i was excited for this episode bc ive been praying on stolitz' downfall for a long time but oh. my god.#i didnt expect LESS THAN 5 MINS OF SCREENTIME???? HELLO?????#i will say. VERY satisfying to see blitzo tear stolas apart with his teeth for 2 minutes. like yes bitch fuck him up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i wish he wouldve done it more. fuck you stolas indeed #if i see one more person saying 'it was both of their faults :(' or 'blitz is so mean >:(((' im going to snap. you are all so fucking stupi #anyway. i just had to get this off my chest. TEAM BLITZ SWEEP #THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU KING #cloudysarts

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago

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2009 Brazilian Grand Prix - Jenson Button

#no matter how many times i have seen him kissing the camera i still combust and fall onto the floor every time i see it #JENSE SINGING WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS ON THE RADIO I FELT SO UNWELLLLLLLLLL JENSEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!#AAAAHHHH HES SOOOOOOOOOO YKNOW???? HES SOOOOOOO!!!!!!#ANYWAYS I LOVE BRAWN!!! BEST TEAM!! BEST UNDERDOGS!!!#i fear that i am dreadfully painfully wholeheartedly in love with him....#god ive not even delved into the pics from this race bcs i think i will melt into the floor and sob when i do #also i am not immune to a man loving and supporting his son sob sob sob ;;; jense and his dad always make me feel so warm #again ty to lemon for pointing me towards the one clip!!#usually these posts are just moments from the main race archive but these all came from 3 dif videos so that was v fun as you can imagine..#im not quite finished the season yet but i can still commentate on this bcs now the wcc and wdc are tied up #but its wild bcs this season took me longer than the last one but since it had less races it still felt shorter/faster to me somehow #for the midseason i was practically lined up with the current season(i.e. watching Monaco 09 the same week as Monaco 23)#so it was pretty fun to experience both and see the differences(i think i like 2009 better hehehe) but now i have majorly overtook 2023 #jenson button #jb22 #brawn #brawn gp #2009 brazilian gp #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #season: 2009

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yellowlaboratory · 22 days ago

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omg did you see that our boat show is ending.

literally want to cry and bawl my eyes out. im so saddddd

i can’t believe this my favs are leaving us.

i have seen it. then I spent 20 minutes gaslighting myself into believing it wasn't real. now I'm still working on processing it. like I'm truly cycle through the stages of grief.

sending you a massive hug 🫶🫶🫶

(and i'm taking any and all recommendations for new upcoming hyperfixations)

#outer banks #obx #I knew I would never be ready for this show to leave me but I'm a lot less ready than I thought I would be alksdjfhlkasjdf #I genuinely believed we were locked in for a s6 #and I think s6 feels like something I could be okay with you know #liv and I were talking about how we aren't angry at all about the way that its ending #when the writers and the cast know and we can appreciate it #but it still feels just slightly premature and that just makes me very sad #s4 has been locked in in a way that we haven't really seen from the writers room I think #I mean it's still obx but in terms of pacing and character work #I could use 2 more seasons of that #also thank god for brizz and liv they are seeing me at my worst klsjdhflkajshdflkas

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sonknuxadow · 1 month ago

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society if sonic games didnt always leak a few days early

#i swear to god it happens every time . and its always target specificlaly putting the game out early too #the fact that stuff is leaking now AND digital deluxe players are going to get it early #AND im not gonna get to play it until a couple days After the normal release date . im actually going to die #wouldnt be so bad if the people who are managing to get the game early #would at least just keep it to themselves and people who actually wanna see the leaks. like come on man #its coming out in less than a week you arent gonna die if you dont publicly post all that stuff right now #thankfully i havent seen anything too major but its still so annoyinggggg

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mariemariemaria · 11 months ago

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Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so*#and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this.#love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 5 months ago

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i have to think about chilchuck and laios forever

#random thoughts #dungeon meshi #the fact laios is holding back so much anger and he's the one who chilchuck lets out so much of his anger on #like you've seen how many times he beats on him and degrades him and laios just takes it #they're both holding so many secrets from their party like???#chilchuck's entire personal life. laios's interest in monsters and kensuke.#the fact laios somehow hid his interest in eating monsters from the entire party before this???#laios is estranged from his parents and very close with his sister. chilchuck is estranged from his wife and very close with his daughters #chilchuck thinks laios knows him better than anyone else in the party. chilchuck canonically thinks laios is dangerous and unreasonable #which like? reductive but accurate.#laios holds the lives of those he cherishes above all else. the world could go to hell for all he cares as long as those he loves are safe #chilchuck fears intimacy and could never admit how much he values the people around him unless under severe threat #god. i have to read dungeon meshi again. i need to analyze them #one self-sacrificing dumbass and one self-preserving selfish dumbass #laios has problems putting his needs first when it comes to those he loves. i can easily see that conflicting with chilchucks selfishness #i do think after chilchucks failed marriage he would become more hypervigilant in his relationships once he allows himself to date again #like he doesn't necessarily understand what he did wrong but he knows he did something #god the irony of someone so perceptive failing to recognize his wife's needs #imagining chilchuck recognizing laios is not satisfied by something and he asks him abt it and laios is like 'no im fine dont worry abt me'#like fully sincere. laios is used to denying himself what he needs for others #ran away from home when falin was being mistreated. sacrifices his body in the end when he becomes The Big Guy #suppresses himself to try and make others like him more or at least dislike him less #do you think he'd suppress himself at first when in a relationship with chilchuck out of fear of driving him away #chilchuck's perception vs laios's poor masking fight fight fight #god they both fear each other leaving. laios because he fears being like his father and driving chilchuck away like his dad drove him away #and chilchuck because his wife left him and he didn't fully understand Why.#the fact chilchuck thinks laios should act like more of a leader. do you think he fears becoming a poor leader like his dad?#chilchuck trusts and values laios as a leader and that scaring the shit out of both of them 👌👌👌#this is why they're switches okay

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thedevotionaltour · 9 months ago

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even for period typical ableism it still drives me nuts for karen to go oh poor matt how can he deal and get around as if he hasn't been blind most of his life at this point and living on his own by himself as an adult for his entire adult life after college and has also lived in the city his whole life like girl use your damn brain he can get around by himself just fine. good god. like take five seconds to use your brain. literally adult man who lives by himself if nothing else that should tell you he is fine and when he needs assistance has the knowledge and ability to go get it you act as if he can't even walk on the sidewalk by himself. he literally shows up to work by himself. it drives me up the wall sometimes how she sees proof of him functioning fine independently literally witnesses it on the daily and still thinks these things. like again foggy isn't great either bc again the period typical ableism (and just general ableism in the world outside of this period as this is a common attitude of viewing disabled people as helpless and unable to function even if they are people who do live independently (and im not touching on people who do need extra support and caretaking in this context. as this post is about these characters in the context of a story. so im talking about what we see there instead of any truly meaningful nuanced way) but the writing here is like. Particularly this way due to the time) he has a modicum more of understanding that matt is literally a capable grown adult man. literally told karen matt is a big boy who can handle himself and then karen went b-b-but you forget he's blind as if foggy hasn't known him for years of his life and is his best friend like PLEASE SEE HIM AS AN ADULT. I AM GOING TO GO INSANE. PLEASE RESPECT HIM IF YOU LOVE HIM SO DEARLY. AND EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T. JUST RESPECT HIM AS A PERSON!!!!!!

#i think it's particularly maddening bc we have seen characters be able to understand civillian matt is like. more than just Blind Man.#i am always highly aware of period typical writing and can remember the context etc etc but sometimes.#sometimes it truly. truly does drive me up the wall. especially when other characters have been capable of not being That Level #of infantalizing. again foggy still isn't much better in a lot of respects he is just as capable of and has been as infantilizing #and insulting as karen has been. for sure. on multiple occassions. no questions asked. but i dont think he does it to the extent karen does #as in we dont see it on page just as much. it's just a bit less. so we see karen focus on it far more. to an almost exaggerated extent #part of that is the romance plot of ohhh i cannot possibly love a blind man while foggy is matt;s best friend of many years #so of course it will be in the way of the stan lee and old romance comics schools of writing that this goes down and is written like this.#of course we see her focus on it a touch more in a different way bc she's still getting to know matt and hasnt witnessed him #for about like a decade(? they met in undergrad right?) function on his own the way foggy has. but jesus christ man. good god.#at a certain point even with the period time context it does just still leave a bad taste. at certain points it becomes less eye roll #and far more maddening and hard to push down. bc it is gross. no matter what time period it is.#again. both of them are pretty disrespectful towards matt about it at this point even if mostly in their inner monologues or dialogues #with each other and not super to matt's face about it every time. but still. sometimes karen drives me far more crazy about it than foggy.#becase at least foggy can in fact recognize every now and then. matt is a perfectly capable grown man who can function and thrive.#and is someone who lives independently but also can know how to get assistance when needed.#while karen at this point has never really once given matt the benefit of that assumption despite witnessing his capabilities.#because even with his act of trying to fit the image ppl have of him. he still functions within that! and shows he can do things!#and ask for help when he needs it! even within his act of making himself smaller and quieter for others.#he's still like. adult man who lives his life. and does stuff on his own time.#i cant really speak about matt on any more deeper level than that in regards to his disabilities. i am not disabled.#i only speak as a reader and someone watching what these characters do and have proven to be able to do and how they act.#so i can only talk about karen and foggy's behaviors and attitudes in that regard.#and also as a person with like. basic understanding of other ppl living their lives. that all ppl live their own damn lives however it is #like most ppl on planet earth.#i apologize if any of my wording here is bad or if i dont talk on it well as none of this in the real world stuff is my lived experience #and you are free to go hey. incorrect. think about that or word that differently.#ok i promise im done now it's just. EUGH. UGH!!!!!#static.soundz

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mantisgodsdomain · 1 year ago

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Playing 3DS games after having seen the overall fandom response to release and long-term impact and the way it's looked back on and such is... bizarre, honestly? Like, maybe it's just because we got our introduction to gaming in the 3DS era, but it's incredibly strange to know that games we knew and loved and would have considered relatively mainstream just... didn't stick in people's minds.

Like, take the Gen 6 Pokemon games. Those were great games! One of the single things about X/Y/OR/AS that we don't see people talking about but that stuck in our mind was how the developers made an effort to make it so that every single Pokemon in the games prior was spread between just those four games! We remember that just the sheer variety of potential Pokemon available was enough to get us a start into challenge runs simply by virtue of how much variety could be added to a playthrough by the sheer amount of potential on offer!

We remember spending hours just... hunting around the region to figure out where those last Pokemon we needed to fill the 'dex were, wandering around to try and find Hidden Ability pokemon from Horde battles, getting to actually interact with our Pokemon in Pokemon Amie.

Yeah, there were more obscure games out there, and yeah, they impacted us as well - Pocket Card Jockey stands out in this regard, as an extremely fun game that we're pretty sure was played by maybe three people, maximum, but it's not quite the same. These were games that we played ourself! These were games we saw other people playing, that we played with people over the internet, that felt like they were well-known! We were under the impression that these were mainstream interests, not Niche! it feels... singularly bizarre to realize that, for the majority of people out there, this game was a forgettable disappointment.

#we speak #nintendo 3ds #obviously theres the nostalgia factor and such since the 3ds was the first gaming console we ever owned #as well as our ONLY gaming console for like. right up until ~2 years ago we think?#but like. youre telling us that x/y is less popular than sun/moon?#you mean there are real actual people who think that hgss's following mechanic was more notable than xy's entire bottom screen?#you don't like petting pokemon? pat pat?#we went into hacking our spare ds today and getting some games off of hshop #and like. gods. do you know how fucking bizarre it is to go into the games that shaped our...#well. maybe not childhood but certainly a substantial part of our teen life #and discover that all of the games that we remember loving the most are like. seen as Forgotten Entries or Black Sheep?#this doesn't just extend to x/y btw #we see a lot of people dunking on like. gates to infinity? and like yeah gti wasnt the most POLISHED entry out of em #but it was still an incredibly enjoyable game that had massive impact on later entries in the series #gates to infinity's core themes carried forward into super mystery dungeon to the point that psmd can read as a direct continuation of it!#its like. augh! youre telling me that when we say we loved gti we're expressing an opinion only shared by like three people?#what are we? the Random Black Sheep Unloved By The Fandom As A Whole Guy?#...well. we mean. we kind of are that guy judging by our taste in characters but STILL #you cant tell us that the games that made up most of our communication outside of our family for over a year are Forgotten #and just expect us to like. be okay with it #when we said we were going to get more weird we didn't mean learning people think the 3ds games are The Worst In The Series #what do u MEAN u genuinely think that xy is the worst in the series and have proof we are playing it right now and its very fun #how about our proof huh. we are using a mothim for our nuzlocke run and having a great time. if u think its too easy turn off the exp share #we are in your house and home #we are also mad that swsh doesnt let you turn off the exp share from when we played it in a totally legal and not piracy related way

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carsickcrow · 10 days ago

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i need to transition….i am losing my mind thinking about going into adulthood being seen as a woman it makes me want to. i was gonna say either puke or rip my hair out but. it doesn’t make me want to do those things actually. it just makes me feel bad.

#like. every time i remember that the perception that i and some friends and kind people have of me is not the perception that society as a #whole and even my dear parents have of me. i feel sick. i will always be a girl to my parents no matter how “supportive” they claim to be #how am i supposed to convince them that i need to get hrt. how can i do that what the country i live in is filled with so much hate for #people like me? god. i need to change my name i need to go on testosterone i need to get top surgery i need to be a BOY.#as much as i don’t care about how other people see me in principle and as much as i believe i am already a guy because. i am. i need to be #seen as one. i need to. i cry everytime i think about this. because it’s always felt so inaccessible to me. to transition. even with a #relatively accepting family. but i always believed that once i turn 18. i could do it. and i would feel so much better. but i turn 18 in #less than three months and it feels more impossible than ever #i just want to feel like myself.#remy rambles #rant

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lorephobic · 1 year ago

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oh no. the audience that i curated by posting about films and actors is going to learn that i don't actually know anything about films and actors.

#have probably watched less than ten movies this whole entire year #and also before saltburn the only movies id ever seen in theaters more than once were #knives out because i happened to be with two groups that were both seeing it #and puss in boots the last wish because i genuinely honest to god think that its a beautiful movie LMAO #saltburn posting

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taketheringtolohac · 5 months ago

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:/

#incapable of seeing people and not crying after it seems!!!!!! I’m glad that I get time alone but now I’m Super Alone again which.#I am just tired. of being alone all the time! not having friends around! not seeing people! being ignored!#and just like. I’m tired of being so good at everything else in my life except for having relationships and having my shit together #but then not being able to figure out how to find friends or make anyone interested in me or whatever #like I don’t really even want to date someone except for the fact that it would make me less lonely!#and it’s also just so ridiculous bc like. idk. I just have no idea how to even like put out into the world that I would like to be seen!#and seen as someone who is attractive! and wants to have friends! just. god. they should make a being in ur 20s that doesn’t make u sad.#like I don’t hate being fat in the same way as I used to but I do know my life would be easier if I was skinny. and I would be like pretty #or whatever! just. ugh. it doesn’t help that I’m not perceived as like anything other than woman half the time either. I need. a hug.#and more friends I can talk to who aren’t dating each other. I have those but they don’t. talk to me.#so it’s. whatever #roxy talks

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chibishortdeath · 7 months ago

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Hmmm I kinda want to make a side blog for RPG Maker game development related things to be able to talk to more experienced people in that community, but at the same time I both don’t really think I’d get much attention and don’t want to accidentally spoil my own game (^^ ; ).

I have a rough story, concept doodles, a tileset, some character sprites, an enemy that walks around but can’t initiate battle yet (if I even decide to have a battle system), a couple rooms with some events, and a functioning run button, but I’m still lost on how to do much else at the moment. Especially since this program has the ability for scripting, meaning I’ll probably have to learn and actually retain another coding language.

So, I’m not very far at all lol. Idk how well that’d go over on the established fandom website, but eh.

#text post #incoherent rambling #project update #game project #I’m still also debating whether or not I can actually even make a proper horror game too #It’s the rule of like just being a horror fan doesn’t make you good at horror being afraid of something does? ya know?#I am trying to go with things that scare me personally but it’s been difficult #either things aren’t concrete of concepts enough or are wayyyy too oddly specific to make anything about #which is quitter talk I know but how does one translate the childhood heebee jeebees of watching top ten gaming videos past bedtime 💀💀💀#or like the way too broad general fear of lack of control without making it too on the nose or too vague #truly a balancing act writing is #kinda ironically I am also a little bit less afraid of hospitals after having been to one for myself rather than family members #which makes things both more and less difficult???#on one hand I have better references for them now but on the other hand I’m desensitized to it 😔#I think I get used to things a little too easily for a lot of things to stay scary #the thing was a scary movie the first time I saw it and now it’s a comfort film #funger was a very scary game until I first died and reloaded a save with little consequence and now it’s just a spooky but fun rpg #but then at the same time thinking about a movie studio logo before a movie that scared me as a kid cause there was a monster in it #still gives weird left over shivers but actually seeing it doesn’t anymore for some reason #I feel like that’s how it’s worked with most things I’ve ever been afraid of in my life besides concepts like death control or idk drowning #ugh writing is HARD #but actually making a functional and fun to play game is harder oh my god do I not know how to make puzzles #I have made swivel chairs that can be knocked and walked over but that’s about it and idk what to do with that knowledge lmaooooo #and I don’t want the entire gameplay loop to be read text search room get key repeat cause that’s boring #I have also desperately tried making a stamina system but there’s not much help with that online especially not in the rpg maker forums #the no necroposting rule sucks all the threads for questions I have never get answered and never will cause no one is allowed to due to age #anyway idk what to tag this probably won’t get seen since it’s not my usual anyway but eh whatever I’ll think about this #hopefully I remember the passwords to two blogs 💀💀💀

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mithrandirl · 2 months ago

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why did i just see a blazed post about hating rop and all their reasons it's awful blah blah blahhhh why can't people just be normal?? that is so mean. just. don't be mean??? literally so simple.

#and from an hp url no less. pot kettle etc etc #god. sometimes tumblr just makes me sad lol #just let people enjoy things????#i know it feels like what you post doesn't get seen by anyone unless they reblog it or whatever. but like i promise people see it lol #i am 1000% sure everyone knows the criticism of rop by now. really don't see the point in BLAZING IT fuckkk #kinda surprised staff let that through. literally no other point to the post than hate. FOR TUMBLR USERS who like the show #i'm tiredddd of this #filter the rop tags and move on. it made my life way better lol

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