#they said it changed but that didnt seem to impact anything

[andragoras-in-vanity]

i finished veilguard, my life has no meaning, also what yhe FUCK was that post credit scene, im afraid. and i cant wait for the next one tbh. i hope my rook gets to be a lil well remembered hero who stays ready as the veilguard but has decided to protect thedas from demons and twisted spirits using their expertise as a mourn watcher and my likely connection to the fade, ya boy would spend time learning ancient elvhen funeral practices from bellara and how they effect the fade too.

i just want my boy to have some peace with his husband, go on ...safer adventures...cause his heart nearly gave out a few times and itll take a while to put it back together again. hes always going to be looking for harding and honouring her too, i want to think she was the one he went to when he had panic attacks. i think hed be searching spirits and the fade, and hed go visit hardings mom (would probably cry more than she does too especially if she looks like lace). hed have tea with mahanon and visit the griffins, and the caretaker a lot, but when its all over and everything is mosty recovered and he visits vorgoth and myrna he gets a lecture from myrna and a begrudgingly relieved hug, and vorgoth doesnt really say much but takes him aside and pats his head like when he was child and would hide from his lessons because they made him feel dumb.

i love dragon age, i never want the series to end, i need to revisit inquisition again

[hauntingblue]

Jayce telling vi she won't make it on her own.... okay mr. projector...

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

am i the asshole for yelling at my friend when i found out he had sex in my car?

i (26f) lived with my friend John (26m) when we were in college. John didnt have a car, but i did so i did most of the driving when we needed groceries/whatever we needed to go out for (it was a college town so it was mostly walkable, so we didnt need to drive every day). i have issues with other people using my car, especially when im not there (if anything goes wrong id rather it be my fault than have to deal with someone else totaling my car). but John had a girlfriend (Sarah) who also didnt have a car, so he would sometimes borrow my car (with my permission ofc, he never took it without me knowing) to take her on dates. when they were gone, i would constantly be nervous that something went wrong. there would be times they would go to a movie, then they would be gone for longer than the movie's runtime and i would get so anxious that something happened, then find out that they had just gone shopping/to dinner/etc after the movie ended. i never bothered saying anything because i didnt want to seem like a control freak saying "you can only borrow my car if you tell me exactly what you're doing and when you'll be back"

anyways, fast forward to now. i got a new car a couple years ago, John and i no longer live together (not because of any problems, we just got our own places after we graduated), and he is still with Sarah. one day John, Sarah, a few of our other friends, and i were all hanging out.

then at one point, Sarah made a joke about having sex in the car after Yesterday (the beatles movie from a few years ago). then i said "hold on, didnt you guys borrow my car to see that movie?" and everyone got really quiet. i turned to John and said "you had sex in my car???" and he tried to laugh it off but didnt deny it. and i got MAD. i was yelling at him and admittedly was pretty harsh (like calling him insensitive for violating my trust & property)

he said something along the lines of "i'm sorry, but it was a long time ago and theres nothing i can do to change it, and you dont even have the car anymore" and i realized he was right, and that screaming at him wasnt going to accomplish anything, but i was still mad so i left and went home

i asked some of my friends that were there if i was being crazy, and they basically said that it was understandable that i was mad, but yelling at him in front of everyone just made them uncomfortable and killed the vibe for the rest of the night, and there was nothing any of us could do about it now. no one told me how Sarah reacted, but she has really bad anxiety so knowing her, im guessing she didnt take it well that i got mad about something she said, and i do feel bad about that (though, in fairness, i assume she knows common decency and would know that having sex in someone else's car is wrong)

anyways, i dont think im the asshole because i think i have a right to be upset about that, and even though it was a long time ago i JUST found out about it so it wasnt that long ago for me. but i know i might be the asshole just because i yelled at John in front of our friends and made everyone uncomfortable over something that he can't do anything about anymore, and since i dont even have that car anymore, it has no impact on my life

tldr: my friend had sex in my car years ago and i found out about it and tried to fight with him about it in front of a bunch of our other friends, and it made everyone uncomfortable. so, am i the asshole for getting angry years after my friend had sex in my car? 🚗

What are these acronyms?

[ilynpilled]

Do you think that Jaimie could have exonerated himself for killing the king and that his silence is driven predominantly by a desire for self victimisation and pride? Or was he in a hopeless situation with it?

i think ive already discussed this at length on here, but for the short version: while you can endlessly debate whether he would be believed, whether he has reason to believe that people would absolve him, whether they would actually absolve him, how it would have changed things, and would revealing the existence of hidden nukes be a thing that prevents or speeds up the process to another tragedy, for me personally the whole “why didnt jaime just simply exonerate himself by telling everybody why he did the kingslaying” premise is a kind of reductive way to engage with his pov highlighting how the honor system in westeros operates, how it is inextricably linked to feudalism, and the impact of that at an individual level on someone whose coming of age is defined by the experience of witnessing and partaking in the enablement of a mad tyrant whose power to brutally harm innocents is directly reinforced by said honor system.

jaime is confronted with a very grim reality that violently tears down the figure of the knight (among other things) which is a pretty life-shattering revelation to him personally. it changes his relationship to his society and harms his ability to maintain faith in his previous values. the end result of the wilfully blind and complete prioritization of vows, honor, and sworn duty is complacency that allows the situation to escalate to unlawful and brutal executions, the repeated abuse and rape of the queen, the start of a war, and a mad tyrant being given the chance to burn a whole city and claim half a million lives. this is something he witnessed with a front row seat. the bitterness and lack of faith in the existing ethical frameworks and the way things seem to work is an amalgamation of everything that led up to the kingslaying, not just the aftermath. i dont think we can isolate it to anger due to receiving scorn for the act, which is more like a nail in the coffin.

there is a lot more to where he ends up as an individual than just pride and a desire to victimize himself, and acknowledging this is not apologia lol. i dont believe that not allowing him that achieves anything but reduce the complexity of his character. he has plenty of reasons to find the way his society works deeply hypocritical and absurd, and it plays a big part in his decision to not explain. not everything that goes wrong for jaime has to be entirely because he’s a narcissistic dick, nor will the issues his character identifies magically disappear after a confession.

[lyss-sketchbox]

My thoughts on Inazuma vs Natlan so far. Is that Inazuma dropped the ball. There's no questioning that. It was rushed and the resolution lacked weight, and it almost definitely needed a lot more space to breathe and probably would've benefited from the 5 act structure instead of speedrunning with 3 acts (such as needing actual time spent with the Watatsumi Resistance rather than spending like 30 minutes tops).

HOWEVER. I feel like the initial Act I-II of Inazuma did a great job established the STAKES. It showed us the very real damage being caused by the various unjust decrees and why people are fighting. Natlan I kinda felt like did a lot of telling instead of showing, and any potential stakes feel kinda... Unserious? Because no one's really seriously hurt and even if they're saying Natlan will explode soon, I'm not really feeling like it's as dire as they're trying to sell it.

BUT IVE BEEN INFORMED YOU CAN DO NATLAN OUT OF ORDER??? Like you could in theory do Natlan BEFORE Inazuma thru Fontaine (with the quick-start function) which is why Natlan is more 'self-contained' which is absolutely insane to me?? Like HELLO???

Overall, I feel like the concepts and plot presented in Natlan is fine. But they didn't do a good enough job of selling to me these things. Like the whole child soldiers stuff kjadf like we actually dwelled on it for longer than a millisecond, we'd probably realize that's super fucked up!! But instead we gloss over it, making the whole quest seem fairly light-hearted despite everything.

Rubs my hands together ok anon lets talk cuz yeah i have thoughts

About inazuma

I definitely agree with you that Act 1-2 (especially 1) of inazuma did well setting up and showing how much negative impact the shogun's rule has impacted the people:

Vision holders literally losing a chunk of themselves (or worst, their lives) from their vision being confiscated.

Non-vision holders risking their lives for helping said vision holders (the resistance)

International traders being stuck in the nation, repressed by local government, and scammed by local traders just to keep business alive.

Local government bloating the price of everything!!! (And being able to get discounts only if you have connections)

Corruption even in the highest positions (gestures at the Kujou clan)

Fatui meddling that lead to the deaths of many for profit

The shogun literally programmed her robot to be that heartless because she herself dont give a shit about any of these issues. As long as her eternity stays.

Fr after venti and zhongli, getting an archon that acts as a proper ruler of a nation AND an antagonist sounds COOL AS FUCK. The booba sword scene while yeah, boobs wooo, also was a wonderful show of her authority over her nation.

After that they tripped and fell in Watatsumi. While i appreciate the environmental story telling of Watatsumi's and Shogunate's bases during the war, we barely get enough time to do... ANYTHING of substance. If i remember correctly, we became team captain, then do a bunch of training and defeating vagrants (on our own because friendly npc fighters didnt exist yet) and thats it. Where is the plotting? Wheres the planning? It was all just an anime training montage we barely get to see or feel. I genuinely feel like we couldve just replaced the entire Watatsumi arc with 'the fatui is selling delusions to people with confiscated visions to help them cope with the lost so traveller go to the delusion factory' and NOTHING wouldve changed. Hell it wouldve made ALOT more sense why yae came to save us at the end if the whole thing happened in Narukami.

Also after all that SHOWING they did alot more TELLING about wooo how smart kokomi is she is so smart and cool and the savior of the resistance. Like girl the fatui had their grip on your soldiers to the point they almost didnt want to surrender their delusions what are you on about. While you can argue she was only a priestess before the war and had no war intellegence skills, the people prop her up as such, kujou sara took her seriously. So she has to have some merit. Well im not seeing any (fight me on this i dont fully remember what happens in watatsumi)

Also at the end we fight the literal dictator of the nation with the power of friendship then everyone and i mean EVERYONE forgave said dictator...... cool. They would definitely benefit from an extra act so that watatsumi adds to the idea that this civil war and the shoguns current decree is causing damage.

About AR

The thing is that the requirements for you to start Natlan AQ is to be AR 28 and finish Liyue AQ (which requires AR 29 for the entire thing). While starting Inazuma requires AR 30, Sumeru needs AR 35, and Fontaine needs AR 40 (highest AR requirement by far).

Id argue that each nation is supposed to be a self-contained story. Even so, based on AR requirements theyve been chronologically in order because you NEED to complete the previous AQ to start the next. EXCEPT for Natlan.

While this is obviously to be more open to new and returning players, it really.... decreases the stakes, like you would assume the more we progress the tougher challenges we will have to face. But Natlan? Nawww you can go to Natlan without fighting the dictator 👍

About Natlan

I AM ADDRESSING THE CHILD SOLDIER THING FIRST BECAUSE YES. THEY DEFINITELY DID ALOT MORE TELLING THAN SHOWING HOW THIS CHILD APPARENTLY CAN BE SENT TO WAR WITH A REAL CHANCE OF DYING!!!!! I talked about this before because they ironically did alot more showing how child like Kachina is which adds more to the FUCKING CHILD SOLDIER THING.

HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY WITH THIS??? Oh its our nations culture, its just the culture shock, OKAY YEAH BUT THE TRAVELLER AND PAIMON ARENT NATLAN NATIVES AND THEY DONT FEEL ANYTHING ABOUT THIS????? Wow yey cheer for the child to go to war! BRO SHE DIED AND WE WENT JACOOZIING WHILE WE WAIT FOR HER TO RETURN FROM WAR...............

ITS VERY OBVIOUS INFANTILIZATION BECAUSE IANSAN DIDNT FUCKING GET THE SAME TREATMENT. You know, the other small girl character there, nah she went to war just like Kachina, lived, and stood by the Archon and WAS READY TO THROW HANDS WITH A HARBINGER IF THE ARCHON DIDNT FUCKING FIGHT HIM HERSELF.

Everything just feels so.... chill? So relaxed with no stakes at all. I mean yeah the Abyss is creeping into the nation's roots but instead of sending armies we make it a tournament. Yeah people die in these excursions but we can revive them so we can ignore the horrors of experiencing death. Yeah the flames are dying so the archon has to give up some of her power to keep it lit but its okay! The harbinger is a gentleman that wont take this opportunity to do some scheming. We need the power of the chosen one of each tribes to save natlan but hey cant rush it! We got a year after all teehee.

Man. Head in hands. What the fuck.

Not even gonna go into the whole the archon is human but mavuika is the one that got reincarnated to retake the role just in time to solve a national crisis thing. Because i dont even know if THAT is accurate.

If they somehow trip and fall worse than inazuma id actually be amazed because the bar is very very low.

[ganondoodle]

not sure if i have talked about this before but i also really hate how gorons are treated in totk

they are one of my fav and i know they are unpopular and were always kinda slot into the "big fat stupid rock people" role, but i do think totk is one of or the worst case yet; all regions get some life threatening event (ignoring how stupid it is to put the issues you need to solve in the exact same spots as in botw with most changes being also reversible so the actual changes to the environment of the map are largely some small rocks sprinkled about) and they get .. drugs (haha)

like i dont wanna downplay anything but their problem being that they are obsessed with eating (>_>) some drugged rock that makes them mean and lazy (even if the reason is fine ... if i remember right and didnt make up that they had to dig elsewhere for food bc of death mountain losing its lava flow, the execution is my problem -like the vast majority of this game is a ok to great idea with passable to horrible execution of it) and arent even a danger to you (which i thought at first when you approach goronia the normal path and two gorons start to walk towards you if you come near saying creepy shit- i thought they are gonna attack me or lure me into a trap but again .. only to find them wanting me to pay to be let through (i think??) and all other drugged ones are largely just ... eating or lying around ........

like it would have been cool if that drugged rock stuff made them actually agressive, like the friendly easy going rock people being turned into something akin to a starved animal after eating poison bc they were at risk of starving sounds alot more .. impactful and scary (even if it would still be about food, which idk about you but the only kind of fatter npcs, even if non human, being made all about food is .. hm, aside from other possibly bad implications from this, but im trying to roll with the idea of it)

and then poor yuno being put in a stupid (stereotypical?) wrestler outfit and hes LITERALLY being mindcontrolled is so ...... ugh (again, idea is ok but- you get it) and then him being told by two CHILDREN that that obviously not zelda might not be zelda and it not only being the only time that idea is openly said until its "revealed" that hhhwhat?? it was a fake one?? in the mid battle of the "story" and he doesnt even believe it (both bc haha hes stupid and cant understand such a thing and also link not being able to tell anyone ... even his friends ....... ) is just so disrespectful, its ok not to be the smartest guy in the room (tho in totk pretty much anyone is made so much dumber for no reason...) but it being so clearly the gorons that get treated like this just annoys me so much, you know no one of the other races would be treated like that

(not to reach a little but it also plays into how koga is portrayed, like i love him to death and there are things that largely the gameplay only implies of him not being that incompetent, but hes clearly meant to be laughing material, the boss of the band of 'evil' assassins being lazy, incompetent and 'childish' is funny right?? and although i hc that the either super thin or super beefed up appearance of yiga members are just an appearance like their disguises of normal people to seem more unified and less indentifyable- that is still only a hc and then koga being the only character that is visibly fatter (aside from ... the gorons and .. king dorephan??) it puts a pebble more onto the pile of pebbles of little annoyances)

also yuno saying, post mid "story" battle, that no one actually knows anything about ganondorf aside from him being evil and it going complete ingored and never mentioned again feels like the type of thing a games does when they are critized for soemthing and instead of changing it they put a line in the game essentially saying "yeah we know but we are not gonna do aynthing about it lol" (like thinking of the line ashe from league of legends, whos design has been critized alot bc shes running around in a stupid tiny dress in the snow lands of their world, got when her dialog was updated that made her say sth like "yes im wearing a little dress in the forever winter land, deal with it lol" which perhaps was supposed to be a joke but it just feels like a "lol we know, fuck you")

[trudemaethien]

uno reverse I would like to know your know your headcanons about Sev. also on Fi? Both of them seem like such jumbles of contradictions to me but in opposite directions

Sev

A. (Realistic):

The reason why he didn’t make it back up to the RV point during/after Order 66 was because in addition to losing comm-contact with Delta, his leg was crushed and he ended up losing it. Has a variety of prosthetics over the rest of his life. Also I like to think about The Ground On Kashyyyk and what a man might have to do to survive there alone and injured. But that’s more of a C headcanon 😈

B. (Hilarious):

my hc for sev’s deep voice (and all the different voices of delta squad) was that they were vocoder mods. furthermore, i headcanon delta squad uses them to sing a mean barbershop harmony LMAO it’s their squad hobby okay?

C. (Heart-crushing and awful):

I think he feels things very deeply, remembers things people have said forever, and is nursing a lot of pain under that surly exterior. Who called him psycho? He knows. He believes it’s true. He’s internalized all the abuse, partly because he takes things literally (hc neurodivergent sev hello), and partly because he’s never had anything other than a steady diet of grueling, thankless achievement and dehumanization (and if he ever dared to let himself hope for better, it would only bring pain at the inevitable downfall). He couldn’t and wouldn’t articulate any of this if his life depended on it.

D: (I substitute my reality):

if he ever unbent his ori’jagyc pride enough to let someone fuck his ass, he’d become the worlds neediest and most demanding bottom forever. Nah, I do like him switching but it think it would be fundamentally life-changing and paradigm-shifting for him to have a prostate orgasm. 😌

Fi

A. (Realistic):

He likes glimmik for the rhythm so he also dances and beatboxes and calls cadence and does his exercises in tempo. to take it kinky, i bet he’s into impact play. as a medic, his favorite thing is taking a pulse (and hearing it beat alive alive alive)

B. (Hilarious):

He has a finger😉 in every branch of the Repcomm Polycule™️, like a free bouncing rubber ball in a rube goldberg machine. like the nursery rhyme: put in his thumb and pulled out a plum and said what a good boy am i!

C. (Heart-crushing and awful):

what because canon wasn’t enough? well okay you asked for it: so what if after his injury he didnt get his memories back intact and barely remembered omega squad? He was only with them for a year and change. Please imagine Niner and Dar coming home to him like that from Imperial service. Please imagine how Atin would feel about it. Please imagine how awkward it would be for Corr. They all know him and he doesn’t know them. Imagine how Fi might feel about it. Parja Bralor is his closest friend now.

D: (I substitute my reality):

He and Parja are really good friends and got married as a double beard situation for one another. Maybe they have a little queerplatonic sex with each other for fun and comfort but they are not the loves of each others lives.

from this meme

[megamind2010]

11 and 17… I have only passively observed caseybug but what I have seen fascinates me I need to know more

they fascinate me as well im glad other people have this experience too

11. How are they seen by people around them - family, close friends, colleagues, or strangers?

in the words of some of the people around her

dad: she's so smart and talented and strong but relies on herself too much. theres a tangible distance between us... but maybe thats how she wants it

alex: way too well-adjusted for all the shit we went through (and that i put him through). big fucking nerd but the hardest worker i know. above all... reliable

seb: literally the smartest person in the world so cool so awesome i miss when she used to pick me up and help me pretend to be superman even though i know she thinks superheroes are stupid

ted: insanely smart, talented, cool under pressure, determined to a fault. if they have one flaw it would have to be their severely underdeveloped funnybone!

michelle: craaazy talented and smart... but for some reason he hangs out with casey. so there must be a pretty big blind spot in that intelligence... I'M KIDDING!! DON'T TELL EITHER OF THEM I SAID THAT

booster: i don't get her :( she's so different to ted, i seriously don't understand how they get along so well?? obviously a competent hero and whatever but seems to have it out for me for some reason

coworkers: bishop... yeah... he's certainly got the brains for this job, and the old boss seemed to really take a shine to him. not one for after-work drinks though. pretty frosty in general. not that he's unprofessional! just clearly not interested in mixing work and personal life

other heroes: standoffish, prefers to work alone, sometimes pretty abrasive, but she's got ted's approval, so... ladybug's clearly one of the good ones

strangers: this guy on the train didn't even look at me when i said hello. what a bitch

and of course who could forget... casey: she's a bitch and so mean to me and a total embarrassment when it comes to PR and rude and spiteful and judgemental and ugly and stupid and pisses me off and tall and strong and lets me live in her apartment without paying rent and always saves me when i need her and... and... idk. i dont like her

17. What are three moments in their life that impacted your OC the most?

her mother dying for sure... nell was at home with alex and a babysitter when it happened so its not like she witnessed it or anything but it was definitely like. the moment her life trajectory changed

again another death that she didnt personally witness but found out about after the fact... ted dying. not so much of a material impact on her circumstances like with her mom but emotionally. Big stuff

hrmmm i could say "sending the first letter to casey" because that really was the first domino in a life changing sequence of events but it wasnt really impactful in and of itself... and casey in general is more of like. a slow acting poison or gradual mold growth than "one moment"... maybe casey leaving or making the decision to go and save casey after they broke up bc if he hadnt done that then caseybug would have simply ended forever and it was a big moment for Nell Emotional Awareness And Communication

honourable mentions: becoming ladybug, ted coming back to life, dying (felt like a cheat answer)

[noahczreny]

i want to hear all ur rwrb movie thoughts x

OOF OKAY buckle up this is gonna be a long one. i'll put everything under a read more because i really really didnt like the movie and also it's gonna be spoilery

but i will leave my one opinion that has no bearing on anything above which is THEY FUCKED THE TURKEY SCENE WHICH IS ONE OF MY FAV SCENES IN THE WHOLE BOOK. i wanted alex to say "puttheturkeysinmyroomputtheturkeysinmyroomputtheturkeysinmyroom" to the fucking president and then have a complete meltdown about the gobble and it DIDNT HAPPEN

also i should probably mention that ive read this book like 7 times and it's my comfort read so im v close to the source material

i really feel like they took out all of the heart in the story. i was reading that variety article that said they wanted to take out everything that wasnt focused just on the relationship or whatever but everything in their lives is what makes the relationship so GOOD and relatable. they took out all of the angst and pining and buildup and made the characters so flat and i didn't believe a single thing about their relationship.

the characters truly felt like different people. alex had none of the desperation that he does in the books. we dont see him teetering on the edge of everything and barely holding it together while pretending everything is completely fine. we don't see him working SO hard to ignore everything bad in his life while pretending he's just this golden boy who has his whole life figured out. we don't see him working so hard towards his almost unattainable political goals while simultaneously trying to prove himself. we don't see his meltdowns and panic attacks and insomnia. we don't see henry being the boy who just wants to be a writer but is forced into this role that he doesn't fit into. we don't see him spilling his guts in emails because he can finally talk about all of the things he's kept hidden and found someone he can finally be himself with who doesn't just see him as the perfect little princeling. we don't get to see his deep grief and depression or his anxiety about being out in public and always being on display or the constant battle he has about his duty to his country and just wanting to be himself. he kinda just turned into this broy prince dude who was kinda concerned about being gay and also being a prince but also sorta didnt really seem to care?

the fact that they made alex kinda know he was bi before the story started also completely changed his entire character. we don't get to see him figuring out parts of himself with henry, we don't get to struggle with trying to figure out what it means to be bi and also want the reddest parts of the US to relate to him. we don't even get the convo he has with nora about him being bi, it just got turned him whether or not he likes henry which felt way less impactful. also, keeping his parents together made parts of the story not even make sense. like why the fuck did they go to lake house to meet his dad if henry had already met him because his parents are still together?

the secondary characters were also SO FLAT and basically nonexistent. the fact that pez was called percy the entire time annoyed me. like i know that's his name but i feel like they toned down his character so much and part of that was never calling him pez. bea was basically nonexistent and was just like the sweet little sister (which, also, why the fuck did they change the birth order??). taking june out was a HUGE blow to alex's characterization and the storytelling as a whole and nora was so bland. she's one of my fav characters in the book because she's so fun and chaotic and movie nora was just like ,, idk cool and chill and was a total different character. also making henry's mom just be absent because she's travelling or whatever and then not be there when they're talking to the king was such a weird choice. also don't get me started on miguel, i can't believe took out raf just to put that jealous fucker in. aghhhh. also zahra was much less of a boss bitch than she was in the books. when she called shaan and was all snippy i was like ma'am you sound SILLY right now.

taking out all of the mental health rep also made me really sad. so much of the story was exploring grief and depression and anxiety and adhd and addiction and that just didn't exist at all. if they wanted to just make it a love story then that's fine, but you can't tell me that two guys in their situations would be neurotypical and not deal with any sort of grief at all.

and the EMAILS. my god, who was fucking in charge of that change because i seriously c a n n o t. where was the poetry and the angst and the historical references? why were they just like "hi im in texas, miss you" and "im reading this cool book, miss you too". so much of their relationship development happens in those emails and there's so many iconic lines and we got none of that. it also made it feel way less impactful when the emails got leaked. was there really so many scandalous things in those emails? between these flat ass characters? you can't convince me anyone actually cared about those. also the fact that miguel leaked them made NO sense. what did he have to gain? he was just mad that alex didnt wanna hook up with him again so he decided to be jealous and petty? i don't understand. also if they didn't fuck the emails they wouldn't have had to awkwardly shoehorn the "history huh" line into the museum scene. i half expected alex to turn to the camera and wink like he was in the office or some shit.

they also changed the timeline enough that everything felt so weirdly paced. they apparently aged them up, which i didnt even realize when i was watching the movie, so the love story would feel "believable" or some shit, but why can't 23 year olds be in love? why do they have to be older? also henry being like "i want to be make love tonight" EXCUSE ME SIR? in this hotel room? book henry would fucking NEVER.

my last gripe is alex's coming out speech. first, why did they have to change it? the speech in the book was SO good and impactful and the one in the movie was just ,, bland? where was "love is indomitable" and "he is my choice" and "im the first son son of the united states and i'm bisexual. history will remember us"? also why did he make the speech before even talking to henry? he essentially outted him to the entire fucking world without even having a little chat with him first which was truly fucked.

WAIT MY ACTUAL LAST THING was why did their outfits suck so much in the show. where was alex's bomber jacket during the reelection? he looked like an office bro and i was not into it.

[spruzu]

A Sonic Prime fanfic

This is the fanfic that was based on day 29 of the fanart challenge i just finished. Some parts arent as good as others and the ending is kinda rushed. Also kinda cringe...

This is a, per say, headcanon of what happened after Sonic prime. I hope you enjoy!

Everything was fixed. Sonic has his friends back well... the original ones. It felt great to have everyone back, to not have to worry about going from shatterspace to shatterspace the paradox prisms. But something still felt wrong. Sonic had so many questions that needed answering. Were the shatterspace still a thing? Where did shadow put the paradox prism? What happened to everyone? Were they dead?... Was nine dead? He didnt want to think anymore, his thoughts felt as though they were swallowing him whole and- "SONIC!" An exclamation was heard from beside sonic. He turned around, it was tails! "Only too you 3 minutes to respond. Are you ok? You've been kinda ''spacey-outy'' this evening, especially after that fight with Eggman." Tails came and sat next to sonic on their sofa. He had a slightly concerned look on his face. Sonic wishes he could have explained the story to him and his friends but Eggman just had to interrupt. "All good lil' buddy! Just thinkin' about stuff. You know!" Sonic responded, putting on a smile. Tails squinted his eyes, judging Sonic for a moment then decided Sonics response was good enough for him. "Ok, well i'm going to bed. You should too, you seem tired." Tails got up from the sofa, Sonic heard a click of his bedroom door shutting. Sonic hadn't noticed but, body felt droopy and worn out. He decided to head to bed as well. "Maybe i'll have less on my mind in the morning." He said to himself. --- New yoke. Why was he back in new yoke? He spun around and spotted Renegade Knucks and Rebel Rouge as he did so. He ran over to them, "Yo! Guys! How-" he gets cut off. "It's ALL your fault sonic. None of this would have happened if you had listened to your friends." Rebel raised her voice as she spoke. "What do you mean?" Sonic answered, raising an eyebrow. "You know exactly what she means." Knucks frowned, "We wouldn't have gone through the pain we did if it weren't for. you. This is ALL YOUR FAULT!!" Knucks threw a punch at Sonics head but before he felt any impact he was swept into boscage maze. "Sonic." Prim's voice came from behind him. "We wouldn't have suffered if it weren't for you." "We wouldn't have had that argument and almost killed off the forest if you hadn't interfered." Thorn came in front of him. "We wouldn't have starved if you didn't break that prism hedgehog." Knarly scowled at sonic. "Guys! You- you know i didn't mean to... Im sorry i'm impulsive and i didn't think!" Sonic said, his voice trailing off as they all came charging at his body. The scenery changed again. "You... I would have been the greatest pirate in the whole seas if you hadn't broken reality." Dread whipped out his sword and pointed it at Sonics throat. "Woah! What happened to being friends? You know i'm sorry, you all do. What happened? I helped you fix the problems." Sonic put his hands up as a self defence mechanism. "That. Doesn't. Change. ANYTHING!!" Dread swung his sword. Sonic was in the grim... "Sonic." Nine pushed Sonic the the ground and stood over him. "You ruined my life. You only cared about your self. You're a selfish, entitled, idiotic and stuck up enemy. I never liked you... I hate you. WE hate you." Sonic realised everyone of the different versions of his friends were stood around him. He also saw his other friends... Amy, Knuckles, Rouge... Tails. They were all dead, pools of blood surrounding them. "We had to kill them, just like you killed our hopes and dreams Sonic the hedgehog." Shadows voice swirled around his head. "I'm sorry, i didn't mean to... Please just... I don't want- why..." Sonic couldn't get his words out. He was staring at his dead friends, then the rest of his altered friends, then shadow. Sonic didnt know what to do. He curled up in a ball as voice started shouting over him. "Were dead..." "This is all your fault." "You imbecile." "I hate you, i NEVER liked you." "No one will ever like you." Sonic began to scream. He shouted for anyone, he wanted it to stop. His throat felt like it snapped in two, he continued to scream... and scream... and...

"SONIC!!!" Someone had their hands on his shoulders. His duvet covers were tangled in his legs. Tears were streaming down his face, his throat felt like someone had held a knife up against it, sweat pasted his forehead and body. "Its me, its tails." Sonic threw himself onto tails' body and sobbed. "Ive got you, take deep breaths. It wasn't real..." Tails rubbed his back as Sonic sobbed and hyperventilated. "It was though. Parts... Of it. I- i cant- i'm... I'm so- sorry." Sonic sobbed. Tails didn't know what to say. Why was he sorry? "Don't be sorry, it's ok." Tails attempted at comforting Sonic again. Sonic buried his face into Tails' shoulder and continued to sob. He was mumbling other words but tails couldn't make them out.

Once Sonic had calmed down he sat away from Tails and rested his head against the back board. "I'm sorry 'bout that. I didn't mean to make you feel awkward or anything haha... I probably woke you up to." Sonic voice was tired and monotone as he spoke. "Sonic... How many times am i going to have to say this? You don't need to be sorry!" Tails sat in front of Sonic, Sonic moved his face deliberately not making eye contact. "You may have woken me up but i'm glad you did. You were in distress and i cant just leave you be to comfort yourself. I'm your best friend Sonic, your brother... I want to be there for you like you have been for me." Tails took Sonics hands as he spoke, Sonic looked at him with a tired smile, eyes red and swollen. "Now, do you want to talk about it? Your dream?" He spoke gently as to not seem like he was forcing sonic into it. Sonic paused for a moment then said, tapping the space next to him, "Make yourself comfy because the dream relates into a wholeeee different story you haven't heard yet." For the rest of the night, Sonic told Tails about what happened with the shatterspaces. When he finished it felt like a slight weight had been lifted off him. Maybe he should open up more.

[inqilabi]

I’m kind of surprised you started dating a lot more and are open to Islam recently, you’re one of the reasons I stopped entirely, which neither is a wrong thing to do. It’s kind of hard to do it alone but I just prioritized friendships in the time I’ve been following you. Which actually is closer to 10 years now I think, definitely since way before the pandemic. Anyway it’s just been on my mind to send this ask for a while now, you seem so successful that when I get to be where you are I know I’ll be even less interested in marriage and dating, but I guess that’s also a plus for you since you said you want kids. Good luck with it all, It’s great you were able to reconcile yourself and Islam, I’ve never felt like religion could be fulfilling, especially when you have views on gender and politics that go again the core tenants of a patriarchal religion. But I can see how the immediate community has its appeal and people are judged overly harshly when they don’t conform to societal and gender expectations of be a woman/man then have a partner/kids, and it’s not like there aren’t other good things too. Anyway I’m glad I followed you when I did because I got a new perspective and it made me more of a brave, accountable person, I’m not really afraid of being lonely and I can take accountability for my wrongs too, knowing that socialization is so deep I need to think about why and what I’m doing. You a few other people impacted me so deeply when I was 16 and trying to leave my parents home

wow this is a very sweet message. But almost makes feel scared that i had an impact on impressionable young teens I dont think my views on Islam have changed, certainly not as much as my view on dating. I still have the same criticisms of sunni jurisprudence. I think i just have less of exposure to that community now as i did back in the day, and it just use to rile me up. I was just angry, justifiably so, and wanting to dismiss everything - and it showed up in the tone of my writing.

I mean i still can't go around muslim events saying the things i actually believe. Sunni jurisprudence is undeniably patriarchal. But so long as they aren't like getting very preachy, doing halaqas and sermons on how to oppress women, im okay. In my uni days, MSAs were actually doing exactly that. That's why i was so critical. But i see now this type of thing seems to be dying down, atleast in my area. i dont find religion fulfilling but i do find likeminded people fulfilling. I still associate more with like academic type folks who either research religion, anthropology, write critiques. I went to a party full of marxists the other day. I didnt agree with everyone there. But i suppose, its discussion that's fulfilling. And sometimes muslim community and gathering can be very dismissive and not receptive to discussion. Which is a shame because in the islamic golden age, that's all they were doing.

i was honestly planning to be alone, and my plan was to solo adopt a kid if i wanted a child. I felt this way all the way up until like summer of 2022. then something did change. and i didn't want to be alone. if you had asked the 2013-2022 version of me, i would have balked at the thought of me wanting a partner. I was almost proud of it. Proud of being a single unattached woman with no men in her life. I suppose the only thing I can say now is that it's very hard to predict how and what you will feel and want at some point in the future. I was certain that I wouldn't want companionship and kids. Half my blog was dedicated to it. And that is kind of scary. I actually wrote about this on my blog back in the fall of 2022. It scared me how much something had shifted so suddenly, something that was a such long held state. If that could change, what else could change?

At your age, i would say prioritize career first ofc/financial freedom etc. If you dont have that, you wont feel ready for anything else. And ofc keep expanding your friend circle and forming connections through local activities or travel.

[daydream-comet]

OH YEAH :3 i'm curious. what are your favorite parts of v-force/2002? i'm personally big on the digital sacred beasts (or atleast, that plotline from yuya onward, the first 15 eps of the season are kind of a blur to me) and.. ok i can't say zeo's plotline was pulled off Well but i love zeo as a character they are SO fascinating to me.

Well my favorite plotline from the season itself would be Zeo's one, while if we're talking about vforce as a whole then the movie's. The movie had a interesting plotline, and revealed a lot of info about the sacred beasts as well, though not everything was fully disclosed, it seemed they were heading somewhere with it but with grev sorta diminishing the presence of the sacred beasts I think it was dropped. Oh, and the cave scene. I....have a lot of talk about that one, I'm a bit too crazy and delusional about that particular scene to the point it'll need a separate post if its own (if I ever overcome my social anxiety and copy paste everything here)

Zeo is definitely one of my favorite characters in vforce (its the hair that started it I swear I want his hairstyle so bad) and surprisingly he was like one of the things I vividly remembered from my childhood when I was rewatching the series (now that I think about it, my fuzzy memories of beyblade as a child were mostly 60% vforce, 30% season 1 and 10% grev. Mainly because i think i missed a lot of grev as a child when it was airing and mostly caught onto the other two seasons). And yea while i do think if like the writers would've been given more time Zeo's arc along with the other arcs wouldn't have been so rushed, but still i think they did a good enough job, because I was definitely hooked during the final arc. Zeo is also an interesting character to analyse, like he was like first character to give the team a sense of normalcy because throughout the entire season everyone they had met was out for their asses and they couldn't catch a break nor could they have a normal beybattle like they used to without significant consequences. Also wished we got more of Zeo's existential crisis, how it affected and changed him and how he recovers from it and accepts himself (we see in that slideshow final ending in grev with Zeo looking through the window holding a violin. So it seems he found comfort in his hobby). Also that Zeo finding out about his true identity also helped him grow and mature in a sense (a person can't grow up without having to endure hardships, can they?). Like when we see him later on he's stronger and smarter.

Like here Zeo knew exactly what to say to get under Takao's skin (and Takao's emotional attachment to Zeo amplified the impact, along with Takao still trying to grasp as to why Zeo is doing this) and that Zeo is right here in a sense. They didnt interfere due to multiple justified reasons (they wanted to, but couldn't. And even if they did, not much would've changed), but it didn't change the fact that they didn't do anything, and Zeo just rubs some salt on the fresh wound. And in the jp voice acting, while it was faint, Zeo kind of sounded sad when saying "no one will come to help you". If we think about the situation Zeo is in, its....true. no one really can help Zeo even if they wanted to, all they could do was offer words of consolation and comfort. And Zeo was doing all this for self preservation (and I guess daddy issues, Dr. Zagart is....incredibly questionable), but deep down i guess he knew that there really wasn't much he could do to become human, become the 'real' Zeo who died long ago. He just didn't wanted to live his life as a phony, it was all just an act of desperation (just look at him breaking his arm and still going on, isn't that a good example?). And like at the finale while Takao does offer closure to Zeo, the fact remains the same that Zeo can't become someone else and must learn to accept who he is, which he slowly starts to embark on (and if Takao, or anyone really, would've said that earlier it wouldn't have had the same impact, Zeo needed to find his way on his own terms)

And as to the impact Zeo had with his words on Takao, he's literally repeating Zeo's words here and musing over the complicated and conflicting scenario for the majority of the episode while everyone is rightfully shocked to see it coming out of his mouth, not really aware of that little exchange he had with Zeo previously.

All in all I love Zeo, I love the small moments where vforce really gets to shine, I just wished they got more time to expand and explore the entire storyline they were working upon into like two seasons instead of dumping it all into one season. I am, uh, understandably kinda crazy over this show and won't stop overanalysing it. This post is pretty much word vomit and probably doesn't make much sense. Uh. Bye.

[lesbovalentine]

wait guys can i be a little hater about totk i haven’t done that on here. and like for the record i’ve been having lots of fun with it even if i haven’t been able to play for a while. but also

idk how to do a read more on mobile. idk if u even can i didn’t use mobile when i used to make posts more. like five yrs ago. ill add that when im on my laptop next soryyyyy

anyways NUMBER ONE. sticking with the nonlinear storytelling. i think it worked for botw, felt immersive with link uncovering things about his past on his own, etc. i don’t understand the point of it here and i think it takes away from the story lol. especially with the dragons tears where they like try to foreshadow and they try to show u characters and a storyline but succeed in actually letting us know the characters hardly at all and all foreshadowing fails because you can get them in any order which also brings me to the end cutscene of minerus temple which for some reason is just 70% recapping what the dragons tears said? then the temples didnt feel very rewarding to finish just because you didnt learn anything new unlike the divine beasts you just got nearly identical scenes for all the dead sages changed only by speech patterns and approximately 3 lines from the new sage. id rather just have a scene with the new sage then the sameee cutscene with zelda every time. and i truly believe the scene after the last geoglyph dragons tear wouldve been way more impactful for me if id gotten the last few in order. i felt a drive to advance the plot for about three days and then nothing. because there is SO LITTLE plot it feels like. you get these fragments here and there and while ive been loving to explore this changed hyrule its like. i was so excited for new plot especially bringing back ganon back into the mix after so long and all we got were crumbs. come on now.

SECOND speaking of plot what was with all that emphasis on the sky islands in trailers when its the DEPTHS that r so much bigger. and there is like NOTHING about them in the plot of the games — they’re just an extension of the sky islands and overworld, really, in everything but aesthetic appearance, and they’re never relevant in the story despite how huge it should seem that there is clear evidence of zonai civilization there which is for some reason identical to whats in the sky? everyones like omg look in the sky and only josha cares about the underground in a sidequest that means very little.

THREE everyones already said something about the disappearance of guardian tech and its already been countered with a “well they must have dismantled it all to avoid it being used against them again” and thats all well and good but the complete lack of mention despite working closely with the sheikah tech researchers is INSANEE whered the massive divine beasts go?! its like the events of botw never happened no one talks about it ingame!!!!! no ones ever like well ever since we cleared all those broken down guardians from the field by fort hateno, or we’ve been using the old tech to learn from to create this new slate that is nearly identical in function to ur old one but we’re gonna for some reason always act like this camera or sheikah sensor r totally new and exciting. ???

[blu-wingz]

whats up its stampede saturday and ive GOT SO MANY THOUGHTS

trigun/stampede/manga spoilers blah blah im normal

ok so what the fuck /pos

ok so fuck. i know i said i had thoughts but ah to put them into words FUCK

disclaimer: i’ve read the manga and seen 1998 trigun so i know whats up.

The Tesla scene. god. they made it much more gruesome and i loved it. KEEPING HER ALIVE ooooh that hurts. but i wish they had a whole episode to explain tesla, what the humans did to her and how this drastically changed the twins’ POV of humanity and their place in the world. bc god that scene was only like less than 2 mins long and i dont think they did her much justice. maybe they will dive into it more but i doubt it since they have to deal with A GIANT PLANT MONSTER

that thing is gorgeous btw. the animation style is so good, that doesnt need to be said but god the studio is using the medium so well. im sure some botany fanatic is gushing about the flora symbolism. and i’ve no clue how July will perish now. anyway, vash is gonna feel SO guilty after this. oh goodness.

VASH HANGING ONTO HIS LAST REMNANTS OF REM THAT HURT LIKE A BITCH FUCK. AND WHEN NAI TOLD HIM “i did this [The big fall] all for you” “so its my fault”. OH BOY I DO LIKE TO SEE VASH SUFFER BUT BITCH THAT FUCKING HURTS. man. seeing him as a husk, a void vash, and it hurt. and him asking if he knew meryl and roberto, fuck!! ouchie!! and also Knives reading the Bible and deciding “yeah humanity is fucked and heres the proof” is SO FUCKING FUNNY. lmao. the implications that he was inspired yet disgusted by the bible sm that he despises humanity and also started a religious cult. oh my god.

Wolfwood wasn’t in a hurry to leave. he didnt want to get involved but he wasn’t rushing to the exit to move on with his life. he was hanging around just in case. of what? idk. this tristamp WW is a bit more mysterious for me and i like it. He didnt make Meryl leave either. didnt bother to stop her. that says so much about him.

oh and poor meryl. for a sec i saw the vines unleash in the room and thought it was gonna be like that volume where she sees what Vash’s feels/sees bc she touches his feathers. i got so scared. bc damn it. every moment in the manga has its impact and trying to shuffle them around to fit this new story hurts me personally /sarcasm. again, i LOVE this new show. im thankful for this new cake but sometimes i see remnants of the manga and i miss the original story. anyway, i cant wait to see what will happen to July, WW and Meryl.

also wtf happy birthday twins i fucking guess. idk if it was hinted before but what a jumpscare. but not a terrible jumpscare as the fucking plants being impregnated by Vash or Knives of the fucking core or whatever the fuck. like yeah. i know the metaphors of motherhood and shit but fucking. i didnt need that imagery personally. and i dont wanna think about it anymore. yall can have it. whatever. it just makes me uncomfy, nothing serious lol

it seems like they keep touching, briefly, on plot points from the manga but not exploring them fully. and i get it. its hard to explain anything from og trimax in 22 minutes, much less 12 episodes. and also i cant blame them so much. maybe watching this live is skewing my view of the entirety of the show. i am definitely re watching this when its finished. i fucking love trigun. and so i won’t comment much on the event order or whatever. i should just let it go. Its a new show with remnants of the manga and its so cool.

.anyway last episode is the day before my birthday so yipee! bday gift for me lol

edit: VASH HAS LEG PROSTHETICS WOOW how did he lose em hmmm

[emmacreatures]

STARED AT.

Omg its been a minute but hello! Starting off with some updated Ka'am x Quaritch and lyle and the recoms! Sorry for my dissapearance, I've been busy with work, finally got a hang of it and will be continuing to be busy, but!!! finally got some time to write. thanks to the fantastic Niku, they found this perfect soundtrack where they described this.. Almost horror like look that Ka'am would give and it made me see this like scene which I had to write down! I actually have the continue part of this in the making, but it isnt done yet. Apologies if i'm rather rusty too and make some mistakes aaa, hope you guys enjoy nonetheless

This was the song that Niku shared which gave us both incredible insp: https://youtu.be/p1-DbSpdZ3M (especially from 1.10 and up. the drums and just hejdbd)

As ka'am and his own clan were driven more far away from the omatikayan.. Ter'ran at times did pretend he was still part of them, so he could listen around, to tell Ka'am what was happening in the clan and any kind of information. Ka'am had grown older.. Darker, but incredibly trained that quite a few had noticed, and therefore joined him along the way. Feeling like his ways would be some that could be more impactful than a whole life back at the normal clan. Ter'ran was one of the first to join, and while he may be a close friend, he had to behave good enough not to be seen through by ka'am. He didnt know how the man had evolved his own instincts and tricks.. But man, even at times he was terrified on how well Ka'am could read people. Just by a sigh or change in stance. The clan especially joined him when they dared to look at him. His eyes had darkened, which was.. a so called fact to no longer be loyal to eywa. The eyes are a door to the soul, and usually when eyes were darkened it showed they get their energy somewhere else, other than the great mother, and make their own path in life. Some expected it to be a myth, but as the clan from Ka'am noticed his growth, they too wanted to follow that path. Ter'ran had gently made his way over to the omatikayan, seeing that, while Neytiri and Ka'am couldnt get along too well, she still hoped he'd come back. Ka'am was strict on rules. He knew what was mandatory. but despite she knew that he and jake couldnt get along, she at times still yearned for her brother to come back, yet not having a clue where he was.. or what he had become overtime. Being a true shadow in the dark. Ter'ran himself was surprised, but more importantly, he heard the humans were expanding their area again, called bridgehead.. And fast, making most of the clan at the omatikaya rather distance themself. Having heard all this information, he knew it was time to head back. The group and himself had found a place nearby the old shack to form their own home. They knew no one was allowed, as it was a perfect place for rebels to form a place they'd call their safe ground.

Ter'ran got back in one piece, also having seen bits of bridgehead before heading to Ka'am.. Who sat in a chair, being silent, smoking some sort of special mix they made themselves that was rather powerful stuff. Breathing it out as he stretched his neck, he heard someone come closer, giving a hand signal to make them step inside.. "I've returned.. And I have news" Ter'ran said, still not knowing how to call Ka'am. Does he say olo'eyktan, master.. Despite he was loyal, he knew he had to be careful with his approach. Ka'am without a doubt would correct him no matter their friendship that always had been there. ""did they care" Ka'am only said, breathing out once before putting the mix to the side.. Letting it go out of his noseholes. "Your family.. Or well sister, they still search for you it seems.. they still wish you'd be around. They have no clue you're here" Ter'ran said as he didnt look at Ka'am, knowing well it was the best way to respect. "They could've.. If they respected me. Anything else" Ka'am said as he turned to Ter'ran as he sat with his back to him. Slowly having stood up to sit down in his direction. "thats indeed not all.. there are new.. aliens.. on ground. They have weapons. Have human clothing. They seem trained well" Ter'ran said as he had heard and saw them.. Making Ka'am stand up as his ears twitched. A silence hit, before he'd make Ter'ran look at him. Even ter'ran at times got a chill down his spine thanks to ka'am. "call everyone together. we'll go hunting sooner" He said, his voice low and threatening, for Ter'ran nodded quickly before almost running out of the place they were at, making a specific noise like a bird or animal to call everyone together..

Meanwhile, over at the recoms~

Quaritch, Lyle, mansk, the whole group, had been dropped off by admiral orders to test if their hypothesis was right on being unnoticable with the recom bodies.. And low and behold, it was. As they scavenged the area, not knowing some had noticed them, they went on, being cautious of everything that passed them.. "Follow me" Quaritch said with his hands as the crew walked behind him, in the deep jungle of pandora. Lyle was close behind on him. "Stop.." Quaritch then said outloud, sensing something was watching them. "What is it colonel.." Lyle said with a frown, as every recom started to look around them.. "Lyle, with me. All else, stay here" Quaritch gestured with his hands, making them nod as they stood watch, while Lyle with his sniper silently followed Quaritch who seemed very weary of his surroundings. "Colonel? Status, what are you seeing" "Thats the thing Lyle.. I feel like something is watching us, but where." He said dominantly, looking around as it had become dark already.. Their skin shining while it definitely was more difficult to watch through pandora.

'go there, I'll go here' Quaritch gestured again with his hands, seeing Lyle took a comfortable spot to rest his sniper, whereas Quaritch held his weapon while moving, trying to pay the best of attention to whatever could be around.. Ka'am and his clan saw all of them in perfect sight. Ka'am told half of the group to focus on the ones that were told to stay at a specific spot.. For Ter'ran and him divided to watch the other two that seemed to be the most leading types.. Ka'am, with his dark paint on his body and around his face, was almost completely invisible, especially in the dark and due his abilities.. But as he noticed the man with his gun in his hand, sense he was watched, he took that as a challenge for the first time in a while.. considering he usually stayed away from everyone, like a deadly shadow. Ka'am raised his head as he watched him without moving himself anymore.. only his tail was the thing that gave any sign of being alive. Quaritch narrowed his eyes as he could sense it more.. Looking into any direction.. Until he eventually got a chill down his spine, noticing two yellow eyes looking directly at him. Never in his life had he met anything like this. Not moving an inch the second the contact was made, he felt his own heartbeat raise for some seconds.. he met eyes that almost felt like the devil. a part of hell might would describe. He couldnt even express or explain what he felt, but he could sense this was a dangerous approach.. Even though the man had 50 years of experience in a younger body. The entire energy made him nope out.. Yet intrigue to the max. The eyes he saw didnt even twitch.. It was a glance so sharp it would cut wounds. Quaritch was not the type of man to be impressed nor scared easily at all, but this was so out of the ordinairy to experience.. He knew, from his gut he had to be careful, or it would all be over soon. It would be the first time Quaritch was this careful.. Possibly making others suddenly doubt his approach.

Lyle noticed the man look at something in the shadows, deep jungle of pandora.. Eventually noticing what seemed like a shape.. Pointing at it. Quaritch knew he was looking at a killer. Never in his life had he ever experienced something like this. Considering pandora was a new world, and seeing it through new eyes, he questioned himself, yet as well could tell from his senses that he was right of what he was thinking. "Colonel" Lyle called, for the sudden words he never expected, were heard. "step back." Quaritch said, as Lyle didnt realize.. The way he pointed at ka'am, made 5 other members point at Lyle.. Making them stuck in a life and death situation. "step back? I have him right under my view" "I said step back." Quaritch said almost angry, slowly stepping backwards himself as the eyecontact he had was still ongoing. He felt the eyes stare at him.. Sensing the greatest danger he might've ever felt..

Ka'am from afar could sense the man saw what he was capable off.. and for the first time, got respected in a way he didnt expect from a man like their kind. He could tell he was feared in a twisted, almost admirable way, but quaritch had his own view on things.. letting Ka'am do a thing for the first time, to make an exception out of him.. out of killing him in sight like he would've, along with the ones he was with. He heard the sudden english to make them step back, seeing it as a sense of respect, as he could tell, the man telling them to do so, wasnt the usual type to behave on such terms. And by that.. Ka'am made a specific hand movement to make everyone stand still, and not make a killing.

"What was that all about, are you nuts. There are clearly people out there trying to KILL us" Lyle said for Quaritch tightened his neck. "do not talk to me like that Wainfleet" he said as he walked away, having broken the eye contact that seemed to have dissapeared into the shadows. "we would not have won." Quaritch said as he walked to the recoms, making Lyle stop him. "WHAT?! we were with 7".

"And if you paid well attention, they had surrounded us, 5 of which were aimed at you because you pointed at him. Be thankful their leader didnt point at us yet" he said dangerous, threatening to lyle. "excuse me?-" "You heard me. he was looking right at me." Quaritch said as Lyle rolled his eyes "Yeah I saw THAT. Thats why I had him in my sight-" "Shut up for a second. He looked at me, Like a prey, full in their element. If we would've attacked we all would've been dead by now" Quaritch said, being so sure of his words that he himself couldnt even explain. But his gut said so. As the silence was around, and rain started to fall, keeping a glare on lyle who seemed.. surprised. "since when does a group.. or one individual stop us.. or you" he said daring, noticing Quaritch being displeased with Lyle's approach. "not once have i been wrong have i. The only reason we're alive, is because we didnt do anything. He spared us" "And why would he.. Huh? They're blue monkeys, did you forget we dispice their species Colonel?." lyle said blatantly for Quaritch glared at him again, meaner this time. "he was or is, the exact example on why we humans didnt survive here on this world. remember the horrendous danger on this planet. Think again wainfleet. Your cockyness almost got us killed if it wasnt for me." Quaritch warned lyle to slow down his argument, making the cocky man still continue. "well the so called danger only seemed to look at you" he said for Quaritch was done. "Feeling confident are we? We may now be like our enemies, but that doesnt mean we're up on their systems yet. They're ahead of us." he said as all the other recoms were silent, listening. For Lyle folded his ears. "this is his territory lyle.. he knows every inch around this area unlike us. We'd be dead if we'd ignore his warning". "Warning, who spoke of a warning. He just looked at you".

"you want to get us all killed, be my guest" Quaritch said as he pushed the man to the side, planning to leave this area for now as most others did follow.. But Lyle wasnt done fucking around just yet.. "Screw this. I dont have time for being careful." Lyle glared as he looked back at the jungle, coming up with a bad excuse so that he could go in there on his own.. totally asking for trouble.

Meanwhile, Ter'ran had approached Ka'am, who was silent, having watched them all. "What the hell was that about.. We could've easily gotten rid of them." Ter'ran asked as he swallowed to receive a rather unfortunate glare from Ka'am. "Do not make me be unkind to you Ter'ran, you know better" Ka'am said as he suddenly heard some twigs break.. Breathing out to sense one had returned on his own.. But it wasnt the man he met eyes with.. "Seriously. since when is quaritch such a pussy by being looked at by those blue monkeys, I'll show them." Lyle said as he held his sniper up.. Looking around as he felt like he was the smartest man around. Ka'am could sense the man's disrespect, getting angry.. "he has no respect. Get him." Ka'am said low, for the whole clan started to point at the man.. As he himself dissapeared back to his own area.. The clan started to get lyle.. who really thought he was the toughest around. "Fucking get some colonel.. I can easily survive out here just you wait." Lyle said before he was surrounded by at least 5 navi.. But one of them got him with their own made tranquilizer.. Getting him knocked out after a few minutes "Fucking bitches- Y'all are damn sore losers." He said while trying to fight which he actually managed just fine, until the chemicals started to hit.. Getting him to their hidden area.. Tight up.. And stuck.

TO BE CONTINUED👁👄👁

[adarkermiserablecrow]

I finally watched 6x11, 'In another life' and boy did some writer put their whole pussy into this one.

And I have Thoughts about this which I am gonna share with the class, because I have been crying/yelling at my tv/hysterically laughing for 45 minutes now, and if my neighbours are going to hate me, the least I can do is hop on here and be annoying.

It got really long and ramble-y so I'll put it under a cut.

1. Coma Buckley family: I think it's really interesting that, in the beginning, it's implied that the buckley parents dote on evan to daniel's detriment (''oh i didnt know you remembered he had a brother") but not neglecting him like they neglected Buck irl. Daniel seems well-adjusted, implied to be a caring doctor ("maybe you should listen to your patients") but also a bit aloof, oblivious (not noticing anything weird about doug - a bit more on that later). It does seem like a picture perfect family, on its surface, with bickering siblings and family dinners, but it sets up a very important theme that runs throughout the episode: this dream life, buck being a teacher and on good terms with his parents and having his brother be alive, comes at the expense of his ability to help. First and foremost, his ability to help his sister escape, offer safe haven, because in this reality he never left PA. And later on in the episode, people insist that he has the ability to fix anything in the coma, but that was disproved at the very beginning when he tried to help maddie and failed, and failed to get daniel to help. From the get go, we see that even in here, not everything is fixable, and we're told this later on as well, when bobby says 'you cant bring me back to life in this dream'. The point here is that at the beginning we're dealing with buck who wants the happy family he never knew as a child, the neglected kid who wishes his parents would be the kind of people that they were in the dream, happy and involved in his life. But at the end, having been through the rest of the dream, it's his parents in their new shiny caring version that try to hold him back, it's his parents dragging him down. But, this is his subconscious, so in reality, it's that wish of having a happy family and the resentment towars his parents that is dragging him down, and he recognises that, and he forgives them, because thats the only way he can move on, return to life. Many people complain about the parents' redemption, and maybe ill change my mind when i watch the rest of the season, but I dont think it was a redemption for them. It was all on buck, he forgave them, he chose to move past it, and let them into his life. In the end, back in the real world, his parents still don't really listen to him, when he says his apartment is fine, he does not need a couch. Buck tells maddie he doesn't mind them. That doesnt mean they're meant to have changed, Buck is the one who changed. And, the choice to go hard on the father/son dynamic with bobby, and buck telling daniel his family is different out there, adds a layer: he doesn't really view them as his parents anymore. He doesn't get hung up on it now, but he lets go of the idea that they would ever be the doting family he needed as a child, and recognises that he found that family elsewhere. He accepts them as people in his life, and rejects them as parents. It ties into Chimney's storyline with his own father, how Chim and Buck both move toward forgiveness, and it also ties back to the sperm donor storyline and the argument between chim and buck's fathers. The point of the buckleys' 'redemption' is that buck forgives, even if he does not forget.

2. Buck's other fixes: it has been established that this all happens in buck's subconscious. The way he slowly realises the impact his life has had on others is just... The starting point is maddie and yeah I said that already, but then he finds chim and hen pretty much the same, and he assumes the only person he's ever helped is maddie. But then he finds out about bobby and eddie, and it occurs to him for the first time ever that he helped them too, got them out of a tough spot. It's not a sure thing that things would have turned out that way in buck's absence, but the point here is for him to realise that he helped, he was needed. It's particularly strong with Bobby, who appears like a little psychopathic gremlin in the dream, drinking here and there and guzzling down pills, and essentially tells buck that, in the dream, he can fix almost anything. And it all snowballs into buck realising he helped bobby, essentially by annoying him. And it's so important that at the end of the 'i made you mad and i made you laugh sometimes' speech, bobby calls that 'being buck', because it's essentially saying that buck helped bobby just by being himself. Again, this is the way buck's mind conjures it up, but it's no less important that he comes to the conclusion that being himself was enough. That he doesn't need to be someone else to help the people he loves (and to me that sentiment calls back to s4, him climbing that crane to protect everyone, and bobby saying that's who he is - not a compliment).

3. Eddie. This part may be the buddie shipper in me getting high on copium, but I think eddie's absolute absence from the dream was connected to him never stepping foot in buck's room irl, except to bring in chris. I mean, in the coma buck was with chim, irl chim is by his bedside. Coma, he's talking with bobby, irl bobby has busted out the rosary beads. It wasnt a hard rule as far as I can tell, though we know buck had some awareness of the room and the goings on, he could hear them (thats why i think the copium might play a part in this paragraph). But also, it feels so important that the people who tell buck explicitly to come back and get better are essentially proxys. Athena on behalf of bobby and Chris on behalf of eddie. And, in the coma, Eddie does not physically appear, but he is the first flash of irl buck remembers (not chim, but eddie's 'go get em') and also, of course, the last 'fix' of buck's, bringing the total of people he helped in a big way to three: maddie, bobby, and eddie. Doesnt really tell us anything about buddie, but it does reinforce the strong relationship between the characters, platonic or not. (Also, eddie 'pain is weakness' diaz crying even a single tear in public feels like a Big Thing).

4. Daniel. Honestly? The chase in the end of the episode and the subsequent argument between buck and daniel (who, yes, is also buck, but ill keep calling daniel to avoid confusion) might be one of my favourite scenes in the entire show. Maybe one of my favourite scenes in any tv show ive watched. First off, that part of buck represents essentially every self worth issue he has. It's the part of him that is the most broken, tells him he isn't needed, isn't wanted, he's spare parts that turned out defective (a sentiment buck has expressed out loud in s4 and it was the 118 reassuring him he is much more than spare parts). And all of this stems from buck's childhood, so it makes sense that it took on the appearance of daniel, since daniel was the source of it all, through no fault of his own, even long before buck knew of his existence. It's daniel's death that brings on the grief that swallows the buckleys and leads to buck's childhood being the way it was. Things would have been different had daniel survived, or so buck believes. Beyond that, daniel's ignorance of maddie's situation reflects on buck blaming himself for not seeing that his sister was suffering (which buck even says out loud in the kitchen scene in this episode). And, when the switch flips, daniel becomes buck, the part of buck that is broken and hateful not to others but to himself, buck borrows a lesson from bobby and manages to break free of his own low self worth. I dont think thats the end of that, but buck's jourmey this episode was all about realising that he is needed, so he could look in the mirror in this scene and say no, you're wrong, they don't want me gone, they care about me. And, as someone who deeply relates to having that voice in your head, and to buck in general, it's so powerful to see a character manage to overcome that. It's so powerful to see buck, textbook people pleaser that he is, realise that he's talking to himself and say 'oh you're me. I dont have to feel bad about not listening to you', and use the first real artifact of firefighting we've seen in the coma dream to break free and return to his life, his real family. And, oliver stark's acting in this scene, whew - buck being confused and emotional but still relentless in pursuing his goal, and the other buck being cold and cruel and also relentless in his insistence that he is just not worth it, not needed. Just - chef's kiss. I cant really explain how much that scene spoke to me, because it is tangled up in how much I relate to buck as a character, and thats a whole other can of worms.

5. Random things. I appreciated that the traumatic events that happened to buck over the course of the show were at least acknowledged. Given that most of the other characters (barring chim, I think) have had storylines about dealing with trauma, it's a bit glaring that buck never really did. Sadly, I think it's too late for that now, aside from if they do something with the lightning going forward. But I am glad they were mentioned, because the man went through a bombing and a tsunami within six months of each other, and it was never really talked about. The bombing led into the lawsuit plot and then was resolved, and the tsunami trauma storyline was about chris (not complaining, it's just how it was). I do wish those traumas had been explored, but I really do think we're past that point and am happy we're at least acknowledging them. (Also, the implication that the tsunami left him so deeply traumatised that it's present in his parents' coma house, supposedly a safe haven from everything real, as a ferris wheel that 'doesnt fit with anything' because trauma stands out in your mind, im-).

Another thing is the lighting, the cold, grey hues of the real hospital, versus warm colour in the coma dream which gradually gets colder the closer buck gets to waking up, and the return of warm lighting in the end, when buck wakes up in the hospital and his family is there to see him. Also, people irl dressed in drab, muted colours, vs. the characters in the dream being more vibrant, esp buck in that green sweater which btw was a gold star choice from the costume department.

Basically everyone put their whole pussy into this, from the writers to the crew to the actors, and while it's not the only time this has happened, I'm really glad it did.

The end. Pretty much. Ive probably managed to forget some things, and maybe I was Captain Obvious abour others, and wrong about some, but this episode made it right to the top of my list of favourites right away, and it'll probably keep me up tonight lmao. Thanks for coming to my TED talk, hope it made sense.