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ropebunnykant · 2 years ago

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my toxic trait is thinking i can shave any amount of time off my drive if i go fast enough in the high speed lane

#got in the car at like 8:15 after finishing dinner and was convinced i could make it home by midnight #despite the gps saying it’d be a 12:48 arrival time #like girl there was no way that was happening #literally arrived two minutes LATER than that 💀💀#like tbh there was road work and an accident and also an ungodly amount of traffic for 10pm #also i somehow thought i’d be able yo stay up and watch home school. as if i didn’t have to turn the air conditioner full blast #to keep myself awake the last hour #anyways. good fucking night #liz rambles

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 5 months ago

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should i sleep for a hundred million years or purposefully stop sleeping just to see what happens

#i have slept 2 hours and haven’t been able to fall asleep again for like 3 hours and i was really tired and mad abt it but now i am not #tired and not mad abt it so maybe the path i should be taking is to stop sleeping. sleeping a lot gives me little energy and i’ve been #having trouble sleeping anyway so maybe i should use this to my advantage and run my little sleep deprivation experiment that i was #originally planning to do a couple years back but then got sooo eepy sleepy that i didn’t really get far. but maybe that’s bc i wanted to #go 72 hours straight w/o sleep so i could record my response to it. i should be more subtle i think. maybe only a few hours a night #and more 30 hour waking periods. do not listen to a single thing i say ever i’m an unreliable narrator btw. i think i could trigger smth #fun to happen i:m a good age for sleep deprivation to do something fun and interesting to me and i want to play god #but i’d get kinda sad being awake all the time bc sleeping is like my number one coping mechanism. then again the pain of losing #that on top of the physical and mental consequences of sleep deprivation would be like so cool. it would pain me so much #but i find that compelling. do not listen to a single word i say i will realize this is dumb later but rn i do kinda want to think abt #running my little experiments and trying to ruin myself further. i’m such a good thing to think abt experimenting on bc i’m so affected #by things i just wish i had more force of will Does anyone want to kidnap me and keep me awake for 72 hours (i’m thinking electrocution #will be involved) and keep notes i fear i’d give up and i wouldn’t keep good enough track of things which would be so sad #obvi it would be unethical but i’m cool w that. i would also want it all on camera for review purposes. hmm i’m digging this idea. 72 hours #is not very long and i doubt there would be lasting consequences so it seems like a good idea. however i’d want to do this when i have #things to keep me busy and restricted access to places to sleep. okay i must think on this further pay no mind to what i say unless u have #suggestions like how to keep yourself from giving in bc i always have difficulty w that one

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miharuhebinata · 9 months ago

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nuggeto

+ original sprite for comparison

#wondering how &/or why i made this? well because i needed to keep myself awake today and also wanted to practice using the sketchbook app on #my phone. as for how: i actually traced the original sprite #then colored in the hair by hand. in the middle of that though the quality suddenly got annihilated and i hadn't saved in a while #so i just decided screw it. i finished the pink highlights by hand then used the color picker/paint bucket tools to fill in the rest of the #coloring (which i was originally planning to do also by hand). then i opened a new sketch & drew the symbol on his shirt and layered that #on top (idk why but i thought that would be easier than trying to trace it and i...think i was right? either way i like how it turned out!)#then i just cleaned it up a bit- retraced some of the lines and such. and *then* right before i went to finally post it i realized i forgot #the red squares on the right side of his jacket. so i just spent the last hour or so adding those #i was also gonna add a bit of shading too but i'm fucking burnt out at this point so screw that lmao #honestly it doesn't really matter i'm very VERY happy with how this turned out :)#nagito komaeda #danganronpa #sdr2 #🖌 tag #🍄 tag #send tweet

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cubot · 10 months ago

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I played Stardew for so long today that my shoulder hurts..........

I took some breaks for the rats and to read a webcomic and to eat food and all that, but I was just watching Youtube on one screen and Stardew on the other.

I did not get any chores done.

#ramblings #uh oh #well i got two more weekend days #here's to sleeping 6 hours and then doing SOMETHING OFF MY LIST #and then i can play stardew again if i want #only 6 because i slept 15 hours the other day and then 12 hours last night and i can't keep doing that to myself #yeah it's 4 am right now but i wanted more awake time so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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electricpurrs · 1 year ago

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ive been sleeping so badly and eating so badly i can like sense my physical health deteriorating. i can feel every vitamin deficiency i have as my cells shiver and die like a wilting flower

#i fell asleep three separate times today. i can barely keep myself awake but i cant sleep at night #ive been just taking naps that dont last longer than 4-5 hours #and of course ive barely been eating. being asleep during the morning and afternoon doesnt help #i dont think ive eaten anything today since breakfast #i could crumble to dust at any minute #🧃.txt

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 2 years ago

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Oh my god. You know it’s getting bad when you start doing things you don’t even want to do to procrastinate on something you really do want to do.

It would be one thing if it were something like a hobby; but the thing I want to do is also extremely necessary to my life.

#Hhhhhhngh #for three weeks I’ve been doing this #I’ve had all the time in the world #and I have a sneaking suspicion that I’m doing this out of a subconscious desire to prove to myself that I’m actually fucked up in the head #Which is already proof enough that I have that desire in the first place; but I keep going because it’s not enough #I only ever feel like I need care when I’m at my absolute worst #And suddenly after being so exhausted that I fell asleep at 7:00 some days; I’m staying up until 2:30 AM and waking up at 8:00???#and I feel fine and perfectly awake; but still can’t manage to get myself out of bed until 10:00 because Comfy #I sit and I read for an hour; then I go on my phone and emerge at 5:00 PM #If I go in the bathroom it takes forever to get back out because I end up talking to myself in the mirror about god knows what #I feel like I need some kind of… idk… very strong stimulant in me so I can actually care about things #not that stimulants work like that; but I need to have some kind of catastrophic life event… to get beaten up or something #something to put pure fear and concern in my veins #It is summer and there is almost no chance of me getting kicked or catching a football in the wrong place #and I don’t have to run right now either #I could do something #I know how #But even that is a damned if you do damned if you don’t situation; because that ALSO makes me not want to do things #At least then I’d have a palpable (literally) excuse but uh…. I’m still kind of getting over the last time #I am on my phone all day and I recognize that’s bad; but the thing I need to do is to send an email… which is on my phone; so there’s that #hypocritical #idk there’s something about using limited supplies to deal with a problem that needs more and hoping for the best #it excites me #Makes me feel like a big boy who can handle serious situations #But if I create the problem then it means nothing except that I cannot handle problems at all #I should not have all the responsibilities I do because I am not entirely in my right mind #I am thinking about it though #It’s tempting #get behind me satan

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slav-every-day · 1 year ago

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#to keep myself awake until a normal person time to go to bed #I’ve baked cupcakes #I’ve crocheted #I’ve done some decorating of a poster board #all while listening to the new Hozier album #so basically my empty apartment has been just sad girl arts n crafts for the last couple hours #slav #slav every day #voltron

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zukkaoru · 1 year ago

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what

#guys does it take info from last month or. what is happening here #i haven't cleared this floor this month #also how was i in the first ten. i did this one at the very end of the month #probably ON new year's eve trying to keep myself awake until midnight #i really thought it was info for the current month tho #it says the lists update every hour??#does this just mean there aren't ten people who have completed it this month yet so they're snatching info from last month?#or did it glitch and count my completion from last month towards this month bc i did it so late #i'm confused

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kraviolis · 1 year ago

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anyways i got sidetracked from what i was originally gonna post. now that im off my medication for the foreseeable future (with minor exceptions like whenever my mom shares their adderall with me) ive become more acutely aware than ever before exactly how genetically predisposed to addiction and substance abuse i really am

#krav talks #im actively craving alcohol at any time of the day #and only after i got drunk ONCE #the cravings arent severe but its more of like “man drinking would make me feel so much better rn a drink sounds so good”#sorta the same as basically craving like a donut or something #ive experienced this before with smoking when i was like 15 and stole a pack on my mom's cigarettes #i would have a smoke every morning when everyone was asleep but never developed a full addiction bcus i literally forgot where i put them #but that nicotine craving has never gone away #and ive kept a close eye on it since then bcus FUCK being addicted to nicotine that shit is so expensive #i literally cannot afford to be addicted to anything i can barely buy myself shampoo rn #but if someone offered me a cigarette.... yeah i'd take it #im doin the same thing with alcohol rn. well im being a little more indulgent #bcus alcohol isnt as cancer-inducing as smoking #and its more socially acceptable #but yknow. keeping an eye on it. being self-aware of my own habits.#last night i really wanted to drink but instead i had like 7 coffees so im all good #oh im 100% addicted to caffeine honestly #for a brief moment when i was 18 im pretty sure i was close to an adderall addiction #but then i stayed awake for 72 hours that one time and heard people whispering my name and thought my food was made of maggots & ants #so i cut that shit out for the most part. my brain functions & sleeping habits have never been the same since then :)

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nothingweirdhere · 2 years ago

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i give up. i quit. where’s the option to go back to art school, i don’t want to be a lawyer anymore. i’m done with defending this bitch, in fact i hope edgeworth gets the chair—that’ll serve him right for OBJECTING TO HIS OWN FUCKING INNOCENCE