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New Girlfriend IV
Lucy Bronze x Teen!Reader
Summary: Pokémon card trade night
"Don't," Lucy says as Ona watches her.
"I haven't said anything."
"But you're going to go."
"You're a good mum, Luce," Ona says earnestly," And I know she thinks so too."
"Are you sure you don't want to come with?"
"I just got off a plane. I'll stay here with Narla. Go and bond with your daughter."
"At trade night?" Lucy says in disbelief," And sweaty Pokémon fans? I'll try."
"Yes," Ona laughs," You're a real hero for that."
Lucy shoves on her shoes and coat, leaning up the stairs. "I'm leaving!" She yells," So you're either coming to trade night or I'm going to KFC!"
She waits barely a second before a thump comes from your room, sounding suspiciously like a game controller being flung at a table.
You come sprinting down the stairs, tying the drawstrings of the tracksuits bottoms that you've clearly just shoved on.
"I'm coming! I'm coming! Hi, Ona. I'm coming!"
Ona laughs. "Hi, y/n. Have fun at trade night."
"Mum couldn't convince you to come?"
"I think I'm happy getting over the flight."
"Your loss." You shrug, turning back to Lucy. "So, are we going or not?"
"I hope you're not playing on bringing that mouse with you."
You frown, looking down at the pocket at the very front of your jumper, where Ezio pokes his nose out of.
"I'll..." You laugh nervously. "I'll put him back. Don't leave without me!"
It's not often that you like leaving the house. For school and for Lucy's games and (more frequently now you're back in England) seeing your grandparents.
Most of the time, you don't leave the house because you want to, but rather because you have to.
Except for nights like these, at the local 'nerd shops' as Lucy calls them to trade some Pokémon cards.
"You've got everything?" Lucy checks as she finds a parking space out on the street," You didn't bring all your binders."
"I brought my trade binder and a few of my other sets that I need to fill up."
"Your...trade...binder?"
You roll your eyes, swinging your bag over your shoulder and slamming the car door shut. "Yes, my trade binder. It's got all the cards that are duplicates and I don't mind trading away for other ones."
"I don't get this," Lucy says, hands in her pockets as she walks up to your nerd shop," You don't even play the card game."
"It's not about playing the card game. It's...It's..."
"It's?"
"I just like it, okay? Is that too much to understand?!"
Lucy's teasing smile is wiped off her face. "Hey, no, wait. I'm so-"
"Leave it," You say, shoving past her," I wish Ona were here instead!"
Lucy watches you go in, hand still out and reaching for your shoulder.
People have told her so many times how good she's done at raising you. Your teachers have nothing but glowing remarks. You're smart and studious and you didn't interrupt in class. Perhaps you could talk more but that's not a life ruiner.
Her friends have always said you're polite and you speak well and you don't purposely try to get under their skin. You're nice and you're sweet and you're friendly with everyone.
But Lucy can never fully understand you.
She's always been moving, even as a child. She'd played football for as long as she can remember, always high energy, always going-going-going until she had no more energy to go any longer.
You're not like, not in that way anyway.
You're more reserved and solitary, happy to sit in your room with your gaming consoles and your YouTube videos and your mice.
This card collecting thing had happened when she was still with Keira and away for the weekend. Keira had bought you a pack while at the store and you'd been hooked ever since.
Lucy can't even remember the last time your allowance hadn't been spent on those dumb plastic booster packs. She's never understood it.
Keira used to take the reins on this kind of thing while they were still together so Lucy's way out of her comfort zone when she finally steps inside of the nerd store.
It's more packed than she thought it would be, with people of all ages.
She catches sight of you up ahead. It's hard not to when you're wearing the Assassin's Creed coat she got you for Christmas last year and your binders are kept safe in the Mario Kart backpack you usually use for school.
Lucy fights the crowd to get to you.
"Whoa. Are you Lucy Bronze?"
There's some little kid staring up at her, clutching a binder with wide eyes and their mouth hanging open.
"I am."
"Wow! Can...Can...Mummy! Mummy can you get my Squirtle? I want Lucy Bronze to sign it!" The kid turns back to her. "I don't have my Bronze shirt with me but can you sign one of my cards?"
It's not the weirdest thing Lucy's ever had to sign but it's certainly the weirdest place she'd ever signed anything.
"Sure, kid!"
"Thank you," The mother says as Lucy grabs a pen from a random table. "It means the world to him."
"Mum!"
The pen has just been uncapped when Lucy looks up, stopping everything she's doing to respond to you.
"Yeah, what's up? Are you okay?"
Her eyes rove over you, checking for bumps and bruises but coming up empty.
"You can't sign that!"
"What?"
The little boy's bottom lip wobbles and you nearly push Lucy out of the way to kneel down in front of him.
"You don't want her signing a common card," You tell him," Get her to sign this instead." You produce a card from your trade binder.
It's an illustration rare Squirtle from your Scarlet and Violet 151 set.
The little boy gasps, reaching for the card your offering but his mum stops him.
"This is trade night, Micheal," She reminds him," Give her something in return."
You gave him a grin, sitting cross legged on the floor.
"You got a binder for me to look through?"
The boy nods hurriedly, prying it out of his mother's hands to flip through.
"Which one do you like? Why don't you pick me one out?"
You give the little boy your 151 Squirtle Illustration Rare and he gives you a Paldean Fates common Fidough.
Lucy signs the new Squirtle card with a little frown, waving as the boy and his mother head off.
"Why'd you do that?" She asks, arms over your shoulder so you can't escape again.
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"I'm not stupid," Lucy says," I know that was a rarer card. I know you've already got like twelve of the card you got in return. Why'd you do it?"
You shrug. "I don't know. It made him happy. Does it really matter?"
"Yeah but..."
Lucy goes quiet, glancing back at that little boy.
She made him happy by signing his card. You made him happy by giving him one.
You've never asked her why she signs people's jerseys.
Lucy glances back over at you as you trade away cards for new ones and open packs amongst people that are just like you.
Her hand itches to open one with you but it's just a twitch in her fingers. She keeps it by her side though, refusing to interrupt this safe space you've built for yourself.
The staff here know you by name and Lucy doesn't want to ruin that for you.
So, she stays in the background, looking through the shelves and through the bulk items and holding some of your half finished binders of sets that you're yet to complete.
"You looking for anything specific?" One of the staff members asks, leaning against the table as Lucy looks up like she's just been delivered a fairly painful electric shock.
"No!" She says hurriedly, hoping to fade into the background like she's been doing for most of this evening. "No, I mean...er...My kid...?"
The woman laughs. "I get it. First trade night? Kid's excited? You have no idea what's going on?"
"Something like that," Lucy says," My-My ex-partner used to take her to these and my new one's waiting at home for us and I-" She sighs. "I have no idea what I'm doing."
"I get it. First time for anything. So, you looking for yourself or for your kid?"
"For her," Lucy says," I don't know. I'm just looking."
"Well," The woman replies," I'm happy to help any parent out of their depth. Any specific sets or Pokémon?"
Lucy tries to rack her brain for anything you've mentioned specifically before, coming up short for a little while before:
"Eevee?" She asks cautiously," No, not Eevee. The evil Eevee? You know, the black one with the ears and the rings?"
"Umbreon?"
"Yeah, that! She's trying to collect all of them."
"Ah, now that I can help with."
Lucy's hands shake as she approaches you.
You've found a little corner to sort through all your new cards, slipping some of them into binders waiting for only a scant few more.
"Hey," Lucy says, uncharacteristically nervous as you look up at her.
"Hey?"
"I...er..." She clears her throat. "I got you a gift. A few gifts, I guess."
She places her offerings in front of you and you shuffle through them, eyes getting wider and wider.
"You got me a Moonbreon?!"
Lucy finally makes eye contact, alarmed. "No?! I promise I told the girl Umbreon! I'll get you a new one. Crap. I didn't mean to make a mista-"
You crash into her, arms curling around her as she cautiously puts her arms around you as well.
"It's the nickname of the card, Mum," You say," I've been looking for one for ages. It must have been expensive. Thank you."
"Of course, pumpkin," Lucy says," Of course."
You look up at her, searching for something that Lucy hopes she's showing in her eyes.
"Do you...Do you want to open some packs with me?" You look hopeful and Lucy's throat goes dry as she nods.
It's late when you finally look to be winding down and people finally start looking like they're leaving the store.
You snag Lucy's sleeve.
"I..Can you open these for me?"
You hand over two packs.
One's in English.
One's in Japanese.
Lucy frowns.
"These look...old..."
"They are," You admit," It's the base set. Like, first edition."
"These must have been expensive."
You bite at your lip. "I traded away my completed Brilliant Stars set. These are probably worth more but I think the guy who had them just wanted them gone. I..I can't open them myself. Can you?"
"I can. Don't worry."
Lucy fights to keep her hands from shaking as she tears open the packets.
She swipes through each card. They're completely meaningless to her but you freeze.
"Is this good? Godzilla?"
"Charizard."
"Huh?"
"Godzilla's a movie franchise, Mum. That's Charizard."
"Oh, is it?"
You shakily offer her your Japanese packet. "Mum, here."
The second Charizard is in your hand a moment later.
"Whoa!" Lucy laughs," What's with all the hugging today, huh?"
"You're the best," You tell her earnestly," I don't tell you enough but you're the best, Mum."
Lucy smiles at you, kissing the top of your head. "Just want to make you happy."
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50 shades of Hotchner Aaron Hotchner
The billionaire’s Anchor will be out Feb 14th-25 part two
♡ ︎ Summary , “You get the chance to interview the the billionaire who is the unit chief agent Aaron Hotchner who owns the BAU in end up falling for him but that doesn’t happen till part two/three this is your part of the story , part two will be his story . It’ll all fall in to place .
♡︎ Paring fem!reader ! Aaron Hotchner
♡︎ This is IB the trilogy of 50 shades of gray 
—♡︎—♡︎—Headlines —♡︎—♡︎—♡︎— Reader is a college student small age gape .. Studies english literature —Reader is beautiful intelligent not really upper class not lower class either She has little trauma with an Ex . Also she is an intern with Vogue magazine.
Mr Hotchner is a billionaire unit chief agent that owns the BAU headquarters in this scenario he’s has never been Married This is based off the fifty shades but it’s in a different AU . Was talking with @hoe4hotchner About this one . Your name for the best friend in this fic is Ib :) 🫶🏻💕
♡︎ Content hurt/Comfort/slow burn emotional/angst 
♡︎ Content warning trauma with an ex Drinking is mentioned but not consumed anxiety slow burn
♡︎ Word count 5.9k
♡︎ Author notes I’m hoping I’m not forgetting anything this is the first time I’ve ever written anything long like this let’s just say I had way to much fun with this one still learning to write Hotch an the team please be kind
This is inspired by 50 shades , in my own writing this took some time to write about four days maybe longer .
But I had so much fun
Your thoughts are welcome but please be kind …
The longest fic ever omg …
I did proof read this about four times I like how it sounds if I missed anything in the description please let me know but in a kind way please thank you
Omg guys I loved how this turned out I hope you do too eek .. get it Reid all I can say lol …
♡︎Background outline♡︎
You are a 25-year-old college student pursuing a degree in English Literature at a prestigious university in Quantico, Virginia. Known for your striking beauty, intelligence, and keen observational skills, you’ve earned the quiet admiration of your peers and professors alike.
you’ve grown up with a grounded perspective, valuing hard work and independence.
You are deeply driven, throwing yourself into your studies with unwavering focus. Mondays, Tuesdays, and Thursdays are dedicated to class, where you immerse yourself in analyzing the works of literary giants and crafting essays that showcase your sharp mind.
Wednesdays, however, are different. On this one day each week, you step into an entirely new world as an intern at Vogue magazine.
The hustle and glamour of the fashion industry couldn’t be further from your quiet life on campus, yet you’ve found a way to excel there too.
Whether assisting with features or observing the fast-paced brilliance of the editors, your time at Vogue challenges you in unexpected ways, pushing you outside your comfort zone.
Though shy by nature, you possess a subtle confidence that emerges when you're with your best friend, Rebecca—a free-spirited extrovert who often brings out your more adventurous side.
Coming from a comfortable middle-class background, you have never known the extremes of wealth or poverty. Instead, you’ve grown up with a grounded perspective, valuing hard work and independence.
You are deeply driven, throwing yourself into your studies with unwavering focus.
Your world revolves around literature, where you find solace and inspiration in the pages of classic novels and the complexity of human emotion. Yet, beneath your poised exterior, shadows linger. You’ve been grappling with the suffocating presence of your ex—a toxic figure who refuses to let go.
His threats come in the form of ominous text messages, late-night phone calls, and echoes of the emotional manipulation you endured during your time together. Each interaction leaves a mark, the sting of his words reverberating in your mind long after they’ve stopped. Rebecca is the only person who knows the full extent of what you’ve been through.
She is your anchor, the one who reminds you of your worth when the memories threaten to pull you under. Still, you can’t help but feel that your life has become a balancing act between striving for a brighter future and outrunning the shadows of your past.
This is the moment that changes everything: your decision to pursue an interview with Aaron Hotchner.
Now
Balancing everything had been a challenge lately. You were in school on Mondays, Tuesdays, and Thursdays, and on Wednesdays, you interned at Vogue magazine. The internship was exciting, but it only added to your growing nerves—if this interview opportunity ever happened, you wanted to make a good impression.
You had spent the last few days diving into Aaron Hotchner's past interviews—every case, every experience he’d shared online. The man was an enigma, and you couldn’t help but admire his brilliance and the way he carried himself. But now, you were stuck. What if, by some miracle, you got the chance to interview him? You needed questions—good ones.
Sighing, you turned to your best friend, Rebecca, desperate for help.
She glanced at you, rolled her eyes, and grabbed a pen. With a smirk playing on her lips, she scribbled something across the first line of your notebook and slid it back toward you.
“Here’s a question,” she said, feigning nonchalance.
Curious, you leaned forward to read it, and your eyes widened in horror. “Are you gay?”
You nearly choked. “Rebecca!” you hissed, your cheeks flushing instantly. “Seriously? Gay? That’s your idea of help?”
“What?” she replied with exaggerated innocence, twirling the pen between her fingers.
“He’s not married or anything, so it’s a valid question. Besides,” she added with a pointed look, “you need to lighten up a little.”
You glared at her, but she pressed on, her voice softening. “Look, it’s been six months since you and…you know…broke up.
I know he still haunts you with those stupid messages and calls, but you can’t keep living in that shadow.
You need someone who can make you feel again.
It doesn’t have to be Mr. Hotchner, but it should be someone.”
Her words hit a nerve, and you felt your throat tighten. You wanted to argue, to tell her she didn’t understand, but deep down, you knew she wasn’t wrong.
Rebecca’s grin returned as she watched your reaction. “Oh my God, you’re blushing!” she exclaimed, her voice tinged with teasing delight. “You totally have a crush on him, don’t you?”
“Do not!” you shot back, the heat in your cheeks betraying your denial.
“Sure,” she said, laughing. “Your face is practically glowing right now.”
Groaning, you buried your face in your hands, already regretting asking her for help. Rebecca’s laughter echoed around you as if to punctuate your misery.
Taking a deep breath, you peeked at her through your fingers. “For the record,” you mumbled, “I already did something. I sent him an email.”
Rebecca froze mid-laugh, her eyebrows shooting up. “You what?”
“I sent him an email,” you repeated, your voice barely above a whisper.
The weight of your own words hit you, making your chest tighten with a mix of nerves and excitement.
Rebecca’s jaw dropped, but instead of teasing, her eyes sparkled with curiosity.
“Well, look at you,” she said, a slow grin spreading across her face. “Guess you’re braver than I thought.” her voice light but impressed. “Miss Literary Genius stepping up her game.”
“I had to,” you said quietly, your eyes drifting to your notebook. “If I want to stand out—for Vogue, for school—it’s not like I had another option.”
Rebecca tilted her head, studying you. “You know,” she said softly, her teasing tone gone, “this could be a good thing.
You’re capable of more than you give yourself credit for.”
You gave her a weak smile, but inside, the nerves churned. It wasn’t just about the interview—it was about the possibility that Aaron Hotchner, the enigmatic, untouchable billionaire, might actually respond.
And if he did, everything could change.
—♡︎—The Email—♡︎
Subject: Request for an Interview for My College Research Paper & an opportunity for my internship at vogue magazine.
Dear Agent Hotchner,
I hope this email finds you well. My name is [Your Name], and I’m currently a college student majoring in English Literature at Liberal Arts University college in Quantico, Virginia. And I’m an inter for vogue magazine and for one of my courses, I’ve been given the opportunity to write a research paper on a topic of my choosing, and I decided to focus on the Behavioral Analysis Unit within the FBI.
Your work as an agent and leader of the BAU is fascinating to me. The way your team delves into the complexities of human behavior and criminal psychology aligns with many themes I’ve been studying in literature—how human motivation and character drive stories and actions.
If you are available, I would be deeply honored to interview you as part of my research. I believe your insights would add incredible depth to my paper and provide a unique perspective that no amount of online research could match. I understand how demanding your role is, and I would be happy to accommodate your schedule to make this as convenient as possible.
I’ve prepared a list of thoughtful questions with the help of my friend Rebecca , and I hope to use this opportunity to learn more about your work and the BAU’s impact on both the field of criminal justice and society as a whole.
Thank you so much for considering my request, Agent Hotchner. I greatly admire your dedication to your work and your contributions to making the world a safer place. I look forward to hearing from you and hope this email reaches you in good spirits.
You can reach me at any time via email at 578-865-2134 [email protected] or on my phone at Please don’t hesitate to contact me if you need any additional information.
Sincerely,
[Your Name]
[578-865-2134]-fake
Days passed, and you found yourself obsessively refreshing your email and checking your phone for missed calls. Nothing. By day four, you started convincing yourself it wasn’t going to happen.
Maybe your email had been too direct? Or maybe too casual? The thought made you cringe every time it crossed your mind.
5:45pm
That Wednesday, you had just gotten back from your internship at Vogue.
The exhaustion from juggling classes, work, and this looming interview weighed heavy on you—until your phone rang.
The number was unfamiliar.
You stared at the screen, the phone vibrating in your hand. Was it spam? A wrong number?—“Your Ex?
Summoning a shred of courage, you swiped to answer. “Hello, this is [Your Name].”
“Good evening, this is Aaron Hotchner.”
Your heart stopped.
Actually, stopped.
For a moment, you couldn’t breathe, let alone speak. The deep, confident voice on the other end sent a jolt through your system.
Your brain barely processed the words before your legs carried you out of your room and down the hall.
“Rebecca!” you hissed, practically kicking her door open. She jumped, startled, as you clutched the phone like it was a lifeline.
“It’s him! What do I say? What do I do?”
Rebecca’s eyes went wide as a grin spread across her face. She motioned wildly for you to calm down. “Breathe! Breathe! And answer him before he thinks you hung up!”
You closed your eyes, forcing yourself to inhale deeply. “I’m sorry, Mr. Hotchner,” you finally managed, your voice shaking only slightly.
“I wasn’t expecting your call—it’s such an honor to hear from you.”
“That’s quite alright,” he replied smoothly, a hint of warmth in his tone. “I read your email, and I’d like to discuss your interview proposal further. Are you available to meet in person sometime this week?”— “Let’s say Friday?
Your heart raced as you clutched your phone. "Friday works great, sir," you replied, trying to sound composed despite the excitement bubbling inside you.
"Great," he said calmly. "I’ll send you the details. Is this number okay to use?"
"Yes, sir," you confirmed quickly, barely able to contain your enthusiasm.
"Good. I’ll send you a message once everything is finalized. Thank you for reaching out."
"Thank you so much, sir, for this opportunity," you managed to say before the call ended.
As the line disconnected, you let out a squeal of joy, practically leaping onto your best friend Rebecca’s bed. “Rebecca! It’s actually happening!
I’m going to interview him—Aaron Hotchner!” you exclaimed, clutching a pillow to your chest.
Before you could process the moment, your phone buzzed in your hand. It was him.
The message read:
Hi, this is Agent Hotchner. Just a quick reminder about our interview on Friday at the BAU office at 9:30 a.m. If you have any trouble finding the office, don’t hesitate to reach out, and I’ll help with directions. See you then.
—Special Agent, Unit Chief Hotchner owner of The BAU
You stared at the screen, your hands trembling slightly. "Rebecca," you whispered, holding up the phone, "He texted me."
The excitement bubbling in your chest made it impossible to stay still. Friday couldn’t come soon enough.
Your heart raced as you exchanged details with him, somehow managing to sound semi-professional despite the adrenaline coursing through your veins.
The second the call ended, you collapsed onto Rebecca’s bed, clutching the phone to your chest.
“I’m meeting him,” you whispered, eyes wide.
Rebecca shrieked, grabbing your arm and shaking it.
“I told you! This is huge! You’re meeting Aaron freakin’ Hotchner. Do you know how many people would kill for this opportunity?!”
You nodded numbly, your excitement quickly giving way to nerves. “Oh God… What have I gotten myself into?”
Rebecca’s eyes lit up with mischief, and she clasped her hands together as if she had just come up with the best idea in the world. “I know what we’re going to do.
“Oh no, don’t even think about saying no—we’re celebrating tonight!”
You barely had a chance to respond before she announced her plan with a decisive grin. “We’re going to a club. Get ready. You deserve this.”
Rebecca’s energy was infectious, and before you knew it, you were standing in front of the mirror, adjusting the sleek black skirt she had practically forced you to wear.
The gold-strapped top you chose shimmered against your skin, catching the light in a way that made you feel... confident.
Pairing it with black tights and small black heels, you had to admit the outfit was perfect—just the right mix of bold and elegant.
As you reached for your earrings, you caught Rebecca’s reflection in the mirror.
Rebecca stood behind you, her arms crossed and her head tilted, studying you with a proud smile.
“This is Instagram photo-worthy. Seriously, you’re glowing. Come on, we need a little photoshoot before the Uber gets here!”
Before you could protest, Rebecca had already grabbed her phone and positioned you against the wall.
The next few minutes were filled with laughter as she directed you like a photographer at a magazine shoot. “Okay, now give me a smirk. Perfect! Tilt your head a little… yes! That’s it! Oh my God, these are so good!”
Rebecca even pulled you into a few selfies, making exaggerated pouty faces while holding the camera high. She burst into laughter, flipping through the pictures. “Look at us! We’re gonna break the internet.”
As the Uber pulled up outside, Rebecca grabbed your hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze.
“You look amazing. You’re going to have the best night. Trust me, you deserve this.”
Her words melted some of your lingering nerves, and you found yourself smiling for the first time all evening. Rebecca had always had a way of pushing you out of your comfort zone, reminding you that life was meant to be lived.
“Okay,” you said, letting out a steadying breath as you grabbed your purse. “Let’s do this.”
With Rebecca by your side, you stepped into the night, ready to celebrate in a way you never had before.
As the Uber driver dropped you and Rebecca off a few blocks from your apartment, the thumping bass of the club music filled the air.
The neon lights outside flashed rhythmically, casting vibrant colors onto the sidewalk.
Rebecca practically bounced with excitement as you stepped out of the car.
“Are you ready for this?” she asked, her grin contagious.
You nodded, though your stomach was fluttering with nervous energy. Approaching the bouncer at the door, you handed over your ID. He glanced at it, then stamped both your hands with a glowing ink before motioning you inside.
The moment you stepped into the club, you were hit by a wall of sound—music thumping, people laughing, and the hum of conversation blending into a buzzing, electric atmosphere.
Multicolored lights swirled overhead, casting an ever-changing glow on the packed dance floor.
Rebecca turned to you with a gleam in her eye. “Let’s get a drink first!”
You smiled, letting her lead the way to the bar. As you weaved through the crowd, your gaze wandered around the room.
A group of people near the corner of the bar caught your attention. They were laughing and talking animatedly, the camaraderie between them evident.
You didn’t think much of it until you reached the bar with Rebecca and placed your drink order.
Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed a familiar face in that same group.
“No freaking way,” you gasped, your voice barely above a whisper.
Rebecca turned to you, handing you your drink. “What? What is it?”
You nodded toward the corner, your heart skipping a beat. “Look. Over there.”
Rebecca’s eyes followed your gaze. When they landed on the man you were staring at, her jaw dropped. “No. Freaking. Way.
That’s Mr. Hotchner himself. See? I told you tonight was meant to be fun!”
You buried your face in your hands, groaning. “Oh my God, this cannot be happening.”
“Come on,” Rebecca said with a grin, tugging on your arm. “We’ll deal with that later. Let’s hit the dance floor!
As you were making your way to the dance floor, a tall man accidentally bumped into you.
“Whoa, sorry about that, ladies,” he said, flashing a charming smile.
You smiled politely. “Oh, it’s okay, sir.”
He chuckled, shaking his head. “Sir? Come on, now. I’m Derek Morgan, but you can just call me Derek.”
You introduced yourself, but before you could finish, you heard someone call your name from across the room. You froze, recognizing the voice immediately.
“Oh, great,” you muttered under your breath.
Derek’s brow furrowed as he glanced toward the source of your discomfort. “Everything okay?”
You let out a sigh. “Not really. That’s my ex.
I haven’t seen him in six months, but he won’t stop harassing me with calls and messages. I’ll be fine, though.” You offered a polite smile. “It’s nice to meet you, Sir.”
“Just Derek,” he reminded you with a smile and nod before heading back to his group.
When Derek rejoined his friends, he leaned in and spoke low enough for only them to hear. “Hey, guys, keep an eye on that guy over there.”
JJ glanced toward your ex, then back at Derek.
“Those girls he’s bothering?
“Emily chimed in , They’re beautiful.”
Derek nodded. “Right, but that guy’s trouble. Stay sharp.”
Aaron Hotchner and Spencer Reid , who had been quietly observing, straightened up. “Got it,” they said, There tone calm but firm.
As you tried to make your way to the dance floor, your ex suddenly appeared in front of you, stepping into your path with a forceful presence.
Without warning, he grabbed your arm.
“Come on, dance with me,” Nate said, his voice laced with a sense of entitlement.
You pulled away sharply, your heart racing. “No, Nate. No.”
Rebecca, sensing the tension, stepped forward. “Leave her alone, Nate.”
He sneered at Rebecca, getting right in her face. “What are you going to do about it?” he challenged.
You stepped in between them, trying to keep the peace. “Stop, Nate.”
“You think you can do better than me?” he spat, yanking your arm toward him with force.
You winced as you tried to pull away again, your voice trembling. “Nate, please…”
Rebecca didn’t hesitate. She stepped right in front of you, blocking Nate from getting any closer. “I said, leave her alone.”
At that moment, you noticed two figures coming up behind Nate—two men in suits.
You didn’t recognize them at first, but the intensity of their approach made you feel a flicker of relief.
Hotch and Reid exchanged a glance, both knowing what needed to be done.
“Let’s move,” Hotch said, his voice calm but firm.
Reid nodded. “Right.”
They reached Nate, moving with purpose, and Reid spoke up first, though his voice wavered slightly. “Sir, I’m Dr. Spencer Reid.”
Nate just laughed, clearly dismissive. “Okay, Dr. Please, leave us alone.”
But Hotch didn’t wait. He stepped forward, his gaze locked on Nate, commanding the situation.
“Take your hand off her.” His tone was unwavering, and it made your heart race in a different way—one of safety.
Nate scoffed, sizing Hotch up. “And who are you? Some guy in a suit?”
Hotch didn’t flinch.
“No, I’m with the FBI.” He flashed his badge, and Reid did the same, pulling his badge from his jacket pocket with practiced precision.
Nate’s demeanor faltered. He let go of your arm, his eyes wide with realization. “Whoa, okay. I didn’t want to start any trouble.”
Spencer added, his voice firm but measured. “Leave these ladies alone.”
Nate stepped back, defeated but unwilling to admit his wrongdoing.
As he walked away, Hotch’s eyes never left you, his gaze steady and protective.
Reid glanced over at you with concern. “Are you guys okay?”
You nodded, feeling both shaken and somehow grounded by their intervention.
Spencer, after sharing a brief look with Rebecca, turned to her with a smile. “Would you like to dance?”
Rebecca grinned and nodded eagerly. “I’d love to.”
With that, they made their way to the center of the dance floor, where the soft rhythm of the slow song started to fill the space.
As they began to move together, you found yourself standing next to Hotch, the noise of the crowd fading around you. The moment felt suspended in time.
The song continued to play, and with it, a quiet anticipation seemed to linger between you and Hotch.
The distance between you both felt palpable. As you stood there, your nerves betrayed you.
After a long, almost unspoken pause, Hotch finally broke the silence. “Would you like to dance?” His voice was calm, steady, like everything around you was perfectly still.
You swallowed, trying to steady your breath. Your response came out as a soft, almost hesitant nod. “Yes.”
Without missing a beat, Hotch stepped closer and pulled you gently into his arms. The warmth of his touch was immediate, a powerful presence that settled in the pit of your stomach. There was something so unexpectedly comforting about his strength and the quiet connection between you both.
Neither of you said a word as you moved together, the music guiding you. You could feel the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear as you laid your head against his chest. The world seemed to shrink down to just the two of you. The way he held you, his hand at the small of your back, was both reassuring and electrifying.
In the distance, you could see Rebecca and Spencer, the two of them enjoying their own rhythm on the dance floor. Their laughter mixed with the music, but you couldn’t help but notice the way Rebecca kept glancing over at you and Hotch, a knowing smile playing on her lips.
You stole a quick glance at her, your gaze sharp, silently telling her to stop teasing you. But she didn’t even flinch, her smile only widening as she caught your eye.
Your focus returned to Hotch as you both continued to move together, the slow dance grounding you in a way you hadn’t expected.
As the music filled the space, Hotch finally broke the quiet. His voice was soft but steady, as if he were reading the air around you. “I bet you weren’t expecting this tonight.”
You glanced up at him, your breath catching slightly. The warmth of his gaze sent a ripple of heat through you. “No,” you admitted with a quiet laugh, “not really. I wasn’t expecting you to be here.”
Hotch let out a low chuckle, the sound somehow calming yet undeniably magnetic. “I meant me saving you from disaster, of course.”
The words hung in the air for a moment, and you couldn’t help but smile a little, even as the conversation turned more serious. Before you could speak, your mind drifted back to Friday—your interview with him. The nerves you had then felt so distant now.
You hesitated, unsure of how to word the question that had been on your mind. "When did you realize it was me?"
Hotch’s gaze never wavered from you as he answered. “When Derek pointed you both out to me.”
The admission caught you off guard, but you masked your surprise quickly. “You did a background check on me?” you asked, your voice laced with both curiosity and a hint of disbelief.
He nodded, but there was no malice in his expression. “I mean, I had my tech, Garcia, do it. Your photo was attached to your file.”
You couldn’t help but chuckle, shaking your head at the unexpectedness of it all. “Oh,” you said, a little breathless. “I see. It’s... very impressive.”
Hotch smirked slightly, his eyes glinting with amusement. “Well, I like to know who I’m dealing with.” His tone softened, and his hand instinctively adjusted the way he held you, his touch warm and grounding.
You tried not to let the thought linger for too long, but the subtle tension in the air between you two was undeniable. Every shift of his hand, every look shared between you both, seemed to make the room shrink.
As the slow dance continued, you found yourself drawn further into his presence. You weren’t sure whether it was the proximity or the steady rhythm of his heartbeat against your ear, but everything felt different now. The connection between you wasn’t just physical—it was something more, something deeper.
From the corner of your eye, you could see Rebecca still dancing with Spencer, her gaze flicking between you and Hotch, her knowing smile more evident than ever. You couldn’t suppress the small glare you sent her way. But even that felt secondary to the unspoken pull between you and Hotch.
The night was unfolding in ways you never expected, but somehow, it felt like everything was falling into place, one slow dance at a time.
As the night came to a close, you and Rebecca had the chance to meet the rest of the team. Garcia was just as vibrant and lively as you’d imagined, her bright smile infectious. JJ’s warm energy was comforting, and Emily had an air of quiet confidence. Rossi, ever the seasoned professional, gave you a kind nod. Derek was smiling, still a bit playful, as you turned to him, grateful for everything he’d done tonight.
You offered Derek a hug, your voice soft but sincere. “Thank you for looking out for me... and for Rebecca.”
He smiled warmly, pulling you into a brief but genuine embrace. “Anytime. Stay safe, alright?”
Rebecca, meanwhile, was chatting away with Reid, exchanging numbers with him as they laughed. You couldn’t help but glance at Hotch.
Every time you looked, his gaze was already on you, steady and unwavering, like he was silently taking you in from across the room.
Rebecca, clearly sensing your distraction, turned to you with a mischievous grin. “You okay over there?”
You offered her a quick smile, trying to shake off the feeling that had settled in your chest. “Yeah, just... taking it all in.”
Hotch’s voice cut through the moment. “Would you both like a ride home?” His tone was calm, yet there was something in it—something that made you feel both comforted and a little on edge.
Rebecca immediately agreed, her smile widening. “Yes, please. I’m not about to try finding a cab tonight.”
You nodded, not sure what to say. But you knew you couldn’t say no.
Reid, ever the gentleman, insisted on riding with you all, clearly wanting more time with Rebecca. You could see the small smile on his face.
As you all stepped outside into the chilly night air, the cold hit your skin, but it didn’t seem to matter.
Hotch moved toward you, opening the door of the black SUV. You felt a flicker of warmth at the gesture, even though the night was crisp.
Reid did the same for Rebecca, and for the first time all night, she was quiet.
You glanced over at her, wondering if she was feeling the same undercurrent of tension that you were.
Without a word, she reached for your hand, her touch grounding.
You didn’t have to say anything—it felt like there was an understanding between you two, unspoken but clear.
Once everyone was settled inside, you spoke up, your voice breaking the silence.
“We’re just a few blocks from here. Just take a couple left turns, and I’ll tell you when to stop.”
Hotch gave a short nod, his gaze meeting yours for a brief moment. “Got it,” he replied, his voice steady.
The engine hummed to life as the SUV pulled away from the curb, the soft sound of the tires on the road blending with the quiet stillness of the night. But the tension, the pull between you and Hotch, was still there—lingering
As you arrived at your and Rebecca’s apartment, Reid turned to you with a kind smile. “It was nice to meet you,” he said sincerely.
“You as well,” you replied softly, your voice tinged with shyness.
Reid stepped out of the SUV and circled around to open the door on Rebecca’s side. As she got out, she turned to you, placing a reassuring hand on your shoulder. “Be good to her, Hotchner,” she said firmly, her voice filled with protective warmth.
Hotch met her gaze in the rearview mirror and gave a small nod, a silent acknowledgment of her words. Then, his attention shifted to you, his dark eyes calm yet piercing.
You tried to focus, but your thoughts were spinning. One question had been circling in your mind ever since Rebecca had scribbled it in your notebook. It felt too big to ignore.
You looked up at Hotch, hesitating for a moment. “Can I ask you an off-the-record question?” you finally managed, your voice tentative as you wrestled with your nerves.
“Of course,” he replied gently, his tone inviting trust.
Before you could stop yourself, the words tumbled out: “Are you… gay?”
Hotch’s brows knitted together in confusion as he processed your question.
Your eyes widened in panic. “I’m sorry—I don’t know what came over me,” you blurted, flustered and immediately regretting your boldness.
Before he could respond, the sound of his phone vibrating cut through the moment. He pulled it out, his expression sharpening as he read the message.
“It’s Reid,” Hotch said, his tone calm but clipped. “He says your ex is waiting for you on the steps.”
Your stomach dropped, a cold wave of fear washing over you. “What?”
Hotch hesitated, reading the message again. What he didn’t say aloud was the rest: He’s got Rebecca. He’s holding her arm.
“Hey,” Hotch said firmly, drawing your attention back to him. “It’ll be okay. We’ve got this, all right?”
You nodded shakily, though your hands trembled. Together, you stepped out of the SUV and made your way toward the apartment.
Your heart dropped when you saw Nate—his hand gripping Rebecca’s arm as Reid tried to intervene.
“Get your hands off her!” you shouted, rushing forward despite the fear gripping you.
Nate turned, his face twisted with anger. “Oh, so you’re with the suit guy now?” he spat, his voice venomous.
“Nate, let her go,” you demanded, your voice stronger this time. “Let her go now.”
Hotch stepped in beside you, his presence commanding. “You need to leave. Now,” he said, his voice low and firm, brooking no argument. “Unless you’d prefer I call my team and have you in handcuffs for harassment. Got it?”
Nate hesitated, glaring at you and then at Hotch. But something in Hotch’s tone—or maybe the promise of a full FBI team arriving—made him think better of it. With a muttered curse, he let go of Rebecca and stormed off.
Hotch stepped closer to you, his arm brushing against yours protectively as he watched Nate leave. “It’s okay,” he said softly, his steady presence grounding you.
You turned back to Rebecca, rushing to her side as tears welled in your eyes. “Are you okay?”
“I’m fine,” Rebecca said, her voice breaking as she pulled you into a hug. The two of you clung to each other, the weight of the moment spilling out in shared tears.
“I thought I had him,” Reid said apologetically, looking at Hotch with guilt in his eyes.
“It’s fine,” Hotch reassured him, his tone firm but understanding. “You did everything you could.”
The four of you stood there for a moment, the tension easing as you realized it was finally over—for now. But as Hotch’s hand rested lightly on your back, you couldn’t help but feel safe, like everything might really be okay.
Hotch turned to you as the tension began to fade, his presence still steady and reassuring. “Good night,” he said gently, his dark eyes meeting yours. “If you need anything, don’t hesitate to call.”
You nodded, feeling a warmth in his words that helped ease some of the lingering panic.
“Thank you,” you said softly.
Reid stepped forward, offering Rebecca a comforting hug before giving you both a small smile. “Good night,” he added warmly.
“Good night,” you and Rebecca said in unison, your voices subdued but sincere.
You and Rebecca headed toward the apartment as Hotch and Reid got back into the SUV. The low hum of the engine reached your ears as the vehicle pulled away, disappearing into the night.
Once inside, you both stopped for a moment to catch your breath, the events of the night weighing heavily on you.
“Man, what a night,” Rebecca muttered, breaking the silence.
“Not exactly the kind I was hoping for,” you replied with a soft laugh that didn’t quite reach your eyes.
“I’m so sorry,” Rebecca said, her voice trembling.
You turned to her, shaking your head firmly. “This isn’t your fault, Rebecca. Do you hear me? None of this is your fault. You didn’t know Nate would show up at the club, and you definitely didn’t know he’d be waiting for us here.”
Rebecca let out a shaky breath, her eyes glistening. “I guess none of us expected to meet the FBI tonight either.”
At that, you couldn’t help but giggle, the tension breaking just a little. “Yeah, not exactly a normal Wednesday night.”
Rebecca gasped, her hand flying to her chest in mock offense. “Oh my God, you’re laughing! Who are you, and what have you done with my stressed-out best friend?”
You grinned. “What can I say? I’m full of surprises.” You paused, the weight of the evening still heavy but beginning to lift. “I need a hot shower,” you added, stretching your arms.
Rebecca perked up. “Pizza?”
“Absolutely,” you said with a nod.
“I’ll order it,” she offered, already pulling out her phone
“Great. Extra cheese, please,” you called over your shoulder as you made your way to the bathroom.
The sound of water cascading from the showerhead was a soothing balm, washing away the tension of the evening. You leaned your forehead against the cool tile, letting the steam wrap around you like a comforting embrace. For the first time in hours, you allowed yourself to breathe deeply.
When you stepped out of the shower, the faint aroma of freshly delivered pizza filled the apartment. You grabbed your phone from the counter, smiling at the text message that had come in while you were in the shower.
Hotch: Stay safe. We’re here if you need us. And to answer your off-the-record question… No, I’m not gay. It was nice meeting you tonight. See you Friday for your interview. Also… Reid is absolutely crazy for your friend.
You couldn’t help the smile that spread across your face as you read the message. A warmth bloomed in your chest, the earlier embarrassment of your question melting into something lighter—something you couldn’t quite name yet.
“Pizza’s here!” Rebecca called from the kitchen.
“Perfect timing,” you replied, setting your phone down as you padded into the living room, the smell of pizza making your stomach rumble.
Rebecca handed you a plate, raising her eyebrows when she saw the faint blush on your cheeks. “What’s got you smiling like that?”
“Nothing,” you said quickly, taking a big bite of pizza to avoid further questioning.
But as Rebecca turned back to the TV, you glanced at your phone again, the message still glowing on the screen. You couldn’t stop the small smile from returning.
Maybe tonight wasn’t all bad after all.
The next couple of days flew by in a blur of school assignments, internship tasks, and the lingering emotions from that unforgettable night.
Before you knew it, it was Friday—the day of your interview with Hotch.
You were both nervous and excited, knowing the interview wasn’t just for your school paper but also for Vogue, the magazine where you were interning.
Rebecca had insisted on driving you to the BAU office, claiming it was the least she could do after everything that had happened.
“Why are you so calm?” you asked, staring at her in disbelief as she hummed along to the radio.
“I’m not the one interviewing an FBI Unit Chief,” she replied with a grin. “That’s all you.”
You sighed, glancing down at your nearly blank notebook. Despite your best efforts over the past couple of days, your mind had been an absolute mess.
You’d written a few questions, but none of them felt right.
“I can’t think,” you muttered, running a hand through your hair. “Help me.”
Rebecca gave you a sympathetic look as she pulled up to a stoplight. “Okay, how about this: start with the basics. Ask him what made him want to join the FBI.
Then maybe something about the most rewarding part of his job.”
You nodded, jotting her suggestions down. “That’s good. What else?”
“Hmm… maybe ask him about the hardest case he’s ever worked on or what it’s like to manage a team under so much pressure.”
You scribbled furiously, feeling a small spark of inspiration.
“Also,” Rebecca added with a mischievous grin, “you should totally ask him how he manages to look so intimidating all the time.”
You let out a laugh, shaking your head. “Yeah, because that wouldn’t be awkward at all.”
Rebecca shrugged, her grin widening. “Hey, it’s a valid question.”
By the time you arrived at the BAU, you had a decent list of questions, though your nerves were still in overdrive. Rebecca parked and turned to you, her expression softening.
“You’re going to be great,” she said firmly.
You took a deep breath and nodded. “Thanks, Beck.”
When you walked into the BAU office, you couldn’t help but be awed by the energy of the space. Agents moved with purpose, phones rang in the background, and the atmosphere hummed with quiet intensity.
A receptionist greeted you and directed you to a conference room where Hotch was waiting.
As you entered, you spotted him standing by the table, reviewing some papers. He looked up as you approached, his calm and collected demeanor instantly grounding you.
“Good afternoon,” he said with a small, welcoming smile. “You must be here for the interview.”
“Yes,” you replied, extending your hand. “Thank you for taking the time to meet with me, Agent Hotchner.”
“Call me Hotch,” he said, shaking your hand firmly.
You settled into a chair, opening your notebook as you tried to steady your nerves.
“Are you ready?” he asked, his tone professional yet kind.
You nodded, taking a deep breath before diving into your first question.
“What made you want to join the FBI?” you began, your voice steadier than you’d expected.
Hotch leaned back slightly, considering your question. “Originally, I worked as a prosecutor.
But I realized I wanted to be more involved in preventing crime rather than addressing it after the fact. The FBI offered me the chance to make a difference in a more hands-on way.”
You scribbled down his response, already feeling more at ease. “What’s the most rewarding part of your job?”
He paused, a thoughtful expression crossing his face. “Knowing that we’re able to bring closure to victims and their families. It’s not always easy, but when we solve a case, it reminds us why we do what we do.”
“What’s the hardest case you’ve ever worked on?” you asked next, your voice quieter as you sensed the weight of the question.
Hotch’s jaw tightened slightly, and you could see a flicker of something—pain, maybe—flash in his eyes. “Every case involving children is difficult,” he admitted. “Those are the ones that stick with you the most.”
You nodded solemnly, feeling a pang of empathy. “How do you manage the pressure of leading a team in such high-stakes situations?”
Hotch folded his hands on the table, his tone steady. “I trust my team. They’re some of the most capable people I’ve ever worked with. We rely on each other, and that makes all the difference.”
As the interview continued, you couldn’t help but notice how thoughtful and measured Hotch was with each response. Despite his stoic exterior, there was a quiet strength and kindness to him that made you feel completely at ease.
By the time you wrapped up, you had pages of notes and a new level of admiration for him.
“Thank you again for taking the time to do this,” you said as you gathered your things.
“It was my pleasure,” Hotch replied, standing as you prepared to leave. “And remember, if you ever need anything, don’t hesitate to call.”
As you walked out of the BAU, you couldn’t help but smile. When you glanced at your phone, a new message popped up from Hotch:
Hotch: Stay safe. We’re here if needed. Also, it was nice meeting you again. And Reid wasn’t kidding—he’s definitely interested in your friend.
You laughed softly, tucking your phone back into your bag. As the BAU disappeared behind you, you felt a sense of pride—and maybe something more—that you couldn’t quite put into words yet.
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quiet afternoons
The small café was a cozy escape from the rush of the outside world. Its soft lighting and the hum of quiet chatter blended seamlessly with the clinking of mugs and the rich scent of freshly brewed coffee. Jay sat across from you, a comfortable silence between you as you both lost yourselves in the pages of your books.
His gaze flickered to you now and then, a soft smile playing at the corner of his lips. He didn’t mind the silence. It felt peaceful, knowing you were just there with him, no words necessary. He admired how you would get so absorbed in the story; your brows furrowed in concentration, your fingers lightly tracing the edges of the pages.
You weren’t much of a coffee drinker—he knew that. You preferred hot chocolate or fruit smoothies, something sweet and comforting. But today, you’ve decided to step out of your comfort zone and try coffee for the first time. Jay couldn’t help but find it endearing how you nervously stirred your cup with a little smile.
As the minutes ticked by, Jay noticed the gentle way you put your book down, the faintest furrow between your brows as you slowly pushed your coffee mug aside. You had finished it.
Without a word, Jay slid his mug of coffee across the table, the warm steam still rising from it, a small gesture that spoke volumes.
“You don’t have to say thank you,” he said quietly, meeting your eyes, his voice low and smooth. “I just know.”
You blinked in surprise, but there was a warmth in his gaze, something that made your heart flutter. You smiled softly and took the mug, feeling his care even in the simplest moments like these. He wasn’t flashy with his affection; Jay was quiet, but it was in the little things that he showed how much he cared. The way he would slide his coffee toward you when he noticed you finished yours, or how he’d glance at you occasionally, making sure you were comfortable.
The truth was, you didn’t need to say anything. His attention spoke louder than words ever could.
“You’re so smooth,” you teased, giving him a playful side-eye as you sipped his coffee. It was bold, strong—just like him. But it felt oddly comforting, especially with the way he was sitting there, so effortlessly cool and yet so thoughtful at the same time.
Jay chuckled softly, leaning back in his chair with an almost shy grin. “I mean, you are my girl. You deserve all the princess treatment, right?”
You laughed at that, the way he said it so casually but with that glint in his eye that said he meant every word. Jay was quiet, but when he spoke, he made you feel like you were the only person in the room.
You looked over at him, feeling warmth in your chest, not just from the coffee but from his presence. You didn’t need grand gestures; moments like this, with him in his quiet way, were everything.
“Well, in that case, I’m lucky to have a prince.” You winked at him, teasing him just a little.
Jay raised an eyebrow, a playful smirk tugging at his lips. “Careful, you’ll spoil me.”
“Impossible,” you replied with a grin.
Jay’s smile softened, and for a moment, there was nothing but the two of you and the quiet comfort of being together. There was no rush, no pressure—just the simplicity of sitting across each other, sharing a peaceful afternoon.
As you both settled back into the silence, Jay’s hand casually reached across the table, resting near yours. He didn’t need to hold your hand or say anything more; his presence was enough.
And in that quiet moment, you couldn’t help but think that this—this—was everything.
The quiet hum of the café seemed to melt into the background as you and Jay sat there, the world around you fading away, leaving only the soft clinking of spoons stirring mugs and the delicate rustle of your pages turning. There was something about this moment—so simple, so gentle—that made you feel like you were floating.
Jay leaned over slightly, his gaze softening as he watched you with a fond smile. His fingers brushed against yours, the contact light, but enough to send a pleasant shiver up your spine. He didn’t need to say anything; it was in the way he looked at you, the unspoken words in his eyes that made your heart swell.
You looked up from your book, meeting his gaze and smiling shyly. “You know… I don’t think I’ll ever be able to drink hot chocolate again after tasting your coffee.”
Jay chuckled softly, leaning closer with a mischievous glint in his eye. “That’s because I make everything better, babe.”
You rolled your eyes playfully, but the warmth in your chest grew even more. He was always saying things like that with such confidence, but somehow, it was never annoying—it was endearing. He knew how to make you feel special, even in the smallest of moments.
“You spoil me,” you said, your voice teasing but with a hint of affection.
He raised an eyebrow, a smug smile spreading across his face. “Well, I think you deserve to be spoiled.” His voice softened a little, the usual playful tone giving way to something a bit more sincere. “You make everything better, too. I mean, look at you. You’re so cute with that book in your hands and the way your nose crinkles when you read. How could I not want to spoil you?”
Your heart skipped a beat. The way he said it, so effortlessly, made your cheeks flush. You couldn’t even respond, the words caught in your throat. You could only stare at him, feeling like your heart might burst from how sweet he was being.
Jay chuckled again, but this time, there was a hint of playfulness mixed with affection. “I’ve never seen someone so shy after a compliment. But that’s okay, I think it’s cute, too.”
Before you could muster up a proper response, Jay slid his chair a little closer to yours, his arm brushing lightly against yours. The proximity made the air feel warmer, the space between you both charged with something sweet and tender. He reached across the table again, gently pushing your mug of coffee closer to you.
“You know, it’s not just the coffee,” Jay murmured, a soft smile tugging at his lips. “It’s the way you laugh when you get a joke, the way your eyes light up when you talk about things that make you happy. The way you’re sitting here with me, reading and sharing thoughts. It’s everything about you that makes me want to be with you forever.”
The words hit you like a wave, and for a second, you couldn’t even breathe. His sincerity, his quiet affection—it made your heart flutter in a way you hadn’t quite expected. The world outside faded into the background, and for just this moment, it was just the two of you, lost in the quiet intimacy of each other’s presence.
You finally found your voice, though it came out softer than you intended. “I feel the same way about you, Jay. You make everything better, too. Even this quiet café, just… being with you.”
Jay’s smile grew wider, the corners of his eyes crinkling with that familiar warmth. He leaned even closer, until his shoulder brushed against yours. “I’m glad,” he whispered. “I love how everything just feels right when I’m with you. Even when it’s just us sitting here, no rush, no noise, just you and me in our own little world.”
Your heart couldn’t take it. It was too much. Too much sweetness, too much warmth, too much Jay.
Before you could respond, he reached over and gently tapped your chin with his finger, guiding your face toward his. His eyes were full of affection, and you could feel the tenderness in his gaze. He didn’t say anything—he didn’t need to—but the way he leaned in, just slightly, as if waiting for your cue, made you feel like you were both the center of the universe in that one moment.
You didn’t hold back.
The kiss was soft, sweet, and perfect in every way, like something out of a dream. His lips were warm against yours, and the world around you seemed to slow down, as if the universe itself was giving you this one beautiful moment to savor. It was gentle, nothing hurried, just the quiet exchange of affection between two people who didn’t need words to understand each other.
When you finally pulled away, both of you slightly breathless, you couldn’t help but laugh softly.
“You’re way too smooth for me, Jay,” you teased, a playful smile on your lips.
He shrugged, his eyes twinkling with mischief. “I’m just giving you the princess treatment, like I said. You deserve nothing less.”
Your heart swelled at his words, and you found yourself leaning against him, resting your head on his shoulder, basking in the warmth of his presence.
For the rest of the afternoon, you and Jay didn’t need to say much. The silence was comfortable, filled only with soft laughter, gentle smiles, and quiet exchanges of affection. It was the kind of date where every little moment felt like a piece of heaven, where even the smallest gestures were enough to remind you just how lucky you were to have each other.
And when the coffee was finished, and the books were put away, and the café began to empty out around you, you knew one thing for sure.
You were exactly where you were meant to be. And Jay, with his quiet charm and endless warmth, was right beside you.
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Damn, this matchup's format is very interesting. I never thought of doing it this way, but it's practical if you were considering multiple characters for a matchup.
Let's dive into your vision.
Of course, Karasu is one of my most recurrent matches. I totally understand your point, and I think we would definitely get along well when it comes to being sassy against our opponents.
I can imagine him as adventurous but also cautious. I'd gladly help him step out of his comfort zone. And yes, I could totally play the psychologist for him—the crow deserves to be treated well.
I'm more surprised by Sae! I've never really been matched with him before, except for an appearance matchup once, but I can really see your vision for us. I think we'd have a very laid-back yet competitive relationship. We'd challenge each other, but my cocky side would definitely add an interesting twist to it all. In fact, I can picture something a bit like Shidou and Sae.
I could imagine this matchup that would encourage emotional growth
Ah, we'll see. I'll ask for an in-depth matchup with Sae one day. I'm curious to read someone's point of view on this cocktail.
Regarding Isagi, I think he'd be disturbed by me at first. Like, he wouldn't know how to act around me or with me. The unpredictable bothers him, and I'd love to play with him about this. From a more realistic perspective, I'd definitely be attracted to his wisdom and cleverness. His analytical skills are really interesting. He's good at finding the right answers that allow him to win over his enemies. I like that. I think I could also share deep, intriguing conversations with him, in between teasing and provocations.
Hahahaha, no, I'm not surprised to see Kaiser here. By the way, the pink ribbon suits him well; he should definitely wear it on the field. It would disturb his opponents and help him win, unless he finds that strategy beneath him, which I understand.
Anyway, I think the two of us would definitely share a love-hate relationship. Always verbally fighting in public but having a different kind of chemistry when we're alone. I can't help but think we were raised in similar ways, so it's hard for us to show our feelings in a proper, conventional way. I think fighting and teasing is one of my love languages, among others.
Would DEFINITELY travel with you, i could definitely see Kaiser and you seeing all over the world, both learning about the historical significance of the country, and the social construct in said country, (i think he would particularly like France, in the French Revolution)
I'd love to visit places and try new dishes with him. That's one of my biggest goals in life—eating a lot of good shit. That's my main reason to earn money, alongside traveling. And I'd love to visit Germany, especially the Christmas markets. But I'm not sure Kaiser would be thrilled about that.
if you were cold, or even if it was just slightly cold, (50f/10c or colder for reference) Kaiser would give his jacket/scarf to you, regardless of if you say anything or not, he’d notice if you were in any discomfort or cold.
That's really good to hear that; I hate being cold.
Would try to study you, maybe youd try to study him?? (Would try to study each other secretly??)
We'd probably end up constantly psychoanalyzing each other, to be honest. Just to find each other's weak spots and gain the upper hand. It's also a way to show our interest—deep, endless analysis about a subject, even if it means losing sleep over it.
It would take so long for Kaiser to admit he likes someone (aka you) but it would happen eventually.
I picture him as the kind of guy who shows his love through violence and degradation, since that's the only way he knows how to communicate.
On his birthday, (dec.25/typically christmas day) if you tried to cook him his favorite food, bread crust rusk, he would be in pure shock, Kaiser would not know how to react. (In a good way)
I'll cook him chicken with potatoes.
Honestly Kaiser would play with your hair and mess it up, kind of aggressively if im being honest, but would be SO gentle if you were sleeping and he was playing with your hair
And I'd gladly play with his.
Kaiser would say multiple times he would be able to support the both of you financially, however, i think you would be independent and want to work, Kaiser would respect that but remind you there is always an option to lean back on him.
Honestly, we'd probably spend all our money on food and travel.
As for Ness, I get your point. If Kaiser exists, then Ness wouldn't pay attention to me. But in a world where Kaiser doesn't exist but I do, then the story would definitely repeat itself.
Thank you so much for this matchup, you're really good at this. I'd love to do another exchange in the future. It was a delight to read during my lunch break!
Match up, for.. @tigreblvnc!
From reading about your personality, i would say you’d be best with a s/o who can hold their own in a intellectual conversation with you, someone who can entertain you, but at the same time have a deep conversation with!
(Scroll all the way down for actual results)
possible candidates-
1st runner up.. Tabito karasu!
Karasu’s sharp witted, and charismatic, he would directly contrast your well grounded and goal-oriented personality, while still holding similar views and interest as you. However, while you prefer precision and intellectual depth, his playfulness could bring out a more relaxed version you!
Pro:
You and Karasu would go on a lot of adventurous dates, ex: amusement parks, outdoor activities, and escape rooms, esc.
I could see so much late night deep talks with you and him.
If you got upset abt something, like someone who pisses you off, and you wanted to rant abt it, Karasu would listen in pure delight.
Con:
You might get mad if Karasu doesn’t take situations seriously.
His insecurities might be a problem for you, I dont see him as a type of person to reflect these feelings in a relationship, so if you 2 discuss about these feelings, or if he manages theses feelings by himself, I don’t see there being a problem.
2nd runner up.. Sae itoshi!
This was a rather unexpected as a matchup for me, however the more i thought about it, the more i thought this could be a good match! Things like, ambition, both confident/not scared to confront someone, and the same ability to analyze people!
I could imagine this matchup that would encourage emotional growth, and one of intellectual challenge,
Fun headcanon(s):
You two would secretly be so protective over each other
like someone is bothering you or being stupid, and you just didn’t have the energy to combat them, Sae would straight up tell the person to shut up and leave without a second thought 😭
Fashion would complement each other.
You like traveling? Well i have good news for you.
Would also be interested in trying different dishes.
He would buy so much lavish bs for you
like a ridiculous amount
He would be giving, small, but thoughtful gifts.
3rd runner up.. Isagi Yoichi!
Ok, so, definitely a back and forth, hate and love relationship between you and Isagi on field, would he possibly hate crime you if you tease him constantly (which you love doing)? Probably, but would you two still have a respectful relationship where both parties can learn from each other? Yes!
Despite you having similarities to Kaiser and Karasu, I would argue that you’re more grounded and mature, which would probably make Isagi like you better, regardless if your on field or off.
Fun heacanon(s):
You 2 would help each other learn
Would trend on blue lock tv/live
He would admire so much how you can stand up/confront people in injustice, especially if they are higher ranking, or “superior”.
Con(s):
I dont see isagi traveling alot
Final results.. Michael Kaiser!
Lmao are you surprised? So, out of everyone in blue lock i think you’re the most similar to Kaiser, it kinda scared me at first. But, because you’re so similar to Kaiser, in personality and hobbies, i think you’d be the best match for Kaiser in all of Blue Lock!
Kaiser’s need to act likes he’s better than others, and your aggressive way of confronting people, would make Kaiser more than interested in you, whether you do it to him, or even your own teammates, but, despite Kaisers arrogance and how he’d totally bother you, he admires how you hold your own in a fight for your beliefs.
Kaiser’s cocky and confident personality would match your direct and blunt nature, i would definitely see you two constantly challenge each other’s ideas, opinions, and even small decisions, usually all in good fun!
Fun headcanon(s):
Would be giving love-hate relationship.
Would DEFINITELY travel with you, i could definitely see Kaiser and you seeing all over the world, both learning about the historical significance of the country, and the social construct in said country, (i think he would particularly like France, in the French Revolution)
On the topic of traveling, he would LOVE to show you around Berlin, Germany (maybe even the slums he grew up around if he trusts you enough)
if you were cold, or even if it was just slightly cold, (50f/10c or colder for reference) Kaiser would give his jacket/scarf to you, regardless of if you say anything or not, he’d notice if you were in any discomfort or cold.
Would try to study you, maybe youd try to study him??
(Would try to study each other secretly??)
It would take so long for Kaiser to admit he likes someone (aka you) but it would happen eventually.
I think you try are help kaiser to become a over all healthier person. Not in a way that will completely change him, but in a way where he’ll be able to process emotions without planning on murking the person.
On his birthday, (dec.25/typically christmas day) if you tried to cook him his favorite food, bread crust rusk, he would be in pure shock, Kaiser would not know how to react. (In a good way)
Honestly Kaiser would play with your hair and mess it up, kind of aggressively if im being honest, but would be SO gentle if you were sleeping and he was playing with your hair
Would be viewed as that one power couple, from your intellects to your clothing style.
Kaiser would say multiple times he would be able to support the both of you financially, however, i think you would be independent and want to work, Kaiser would respect that but remind you there is always an option to lean back on him.
Bonus! i wanted to add Ness to your matchup but i honestly have no idea if Ness would hate or love you.
Omg 😭 im honestly disappointed with how i did on your match up, i took way longer than i usually take, and the way i described you seems so repetitive.
+ i tried to incorporate everything you told me in your matchup so somethings might seem out of place.
I made some references in Kaisers part, if you need a refresher or don’t know, check out Kaisers profile from the egoist bibles.
Thanks 💕 dm for any questions!
#kaisuo marriage 2030#michael kaiser#sae itoshi#isagi yoichi#karasu tabito x reader#sae itoshi x reader#isagi yoichi x reader#micheal kaiser x reader#alexis ness#kaisuo#my matches
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Yeah I gave into the SpyXFamily AU too
Not sure if these designs stay but wanted to do smth
#I typically draw them in the game's clothes but wanted to try my hand at some own designs for this one#to get out of my comfort zone if anything#I love the different interpretations of this found family and kinda think this AU would fit them pretty well#ofc that said I'm just in the beginning phases#alhaitham#alhaitham genshin#dr ratio#hsr dr ratio#Sumeru spyxfamily AU#found family#I still have not learnt how to tag and never will<3#my art#my wips
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she knows what her skills are for
#and that is a lot of shipping#and also force umbra to do something because he's been a coward for anything about excalibur#okay ramble time#you know before i actually draw these warframes im not really into them#but knowing their skills and staring at their design for hours in order to draw them kinda change my mind about most of them#by most i mean those i drew before#im just not really into mag okay#if you've been seeing my work you may know why she's not in my target range#anyway i still drew her. mostly because i don't really wanna skip warframes this early into this warframe portrait art chain stuff#and also the reason im starting this chain is to kinda get out of my comfort zone#about rendering and the amount of detail warframes have#im still skipping a lot but i tried#okay that's it#warframe#warframe mag#my art
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This a piece from a bit ago (my art style has changed a bit since then) but it's still one of my favs
#Mha#Bnha#mha art#mha fanart#Bnha art#Bnha fanart#my hero academia#Art#Drawing#traditional art#Illustration#Artwork#Artists on Tumblr#Art on Tumblr#I just got a white gel pen in case you couldn't tell#Mina#Mina ashido#No tracing#Not trying to brag but I'm actually really proud I managed this without tracing anything#Also don't ask me why the background is crooked I wanted to draw it like that#I tried to get out of my comfort zone and play with it#And it being crooked has only mildly upset my ocd#You know I gotta give my girl some muscles#Also I showed this to my uncle and he almost immediately went “Her chest is bigger”#Guys he's onto me 😅#He also tried to flip through the rest of my sketchbook after I handed it to him without asking#Clearly no one has thought this man the unwritten rules of art#Pls never flip through people's sketchbooks without asking#We have secrets hidden in there#chipsdraws
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no rest for the wicked
(part of a larger project i'm working on, but i liked how this one looked on its own)
#tgcf#heaven official's blessing#xie lian#crown prince xie lian#rain master's hat#my art#good things about bigger projects: makes me get out of my comfort zone - makes me practise skills i don't use often - very satisfying#bad things: can't post anything for days and days where's my instant gratification???
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I literally do not have anything smart to say here, this drawing literally only happened because my siblings were telling me I should post my brainrot doodles on here, and my anxiety-ridden ass couldn't do it, and decided the only solution was to spend days (read: the entire latter end of April) working on a proper drawing because "if I'm going to post anything on tumblr, it better be a full-ass drawing"
#little fire's art#dragon ball#kaioshin#db shin#grand supreme kai#north supreme kai#south supreme kai#west supreme kai#idk the proper tags#and I don't really care rn#I just want to get this posted so I can hide in the Void for a million years or so#anyway#normal db fan: MY FAV CHARACTER IS [insert super duper powerful character here]#meanwhile#me: *holds up Shin* blorbo...#but hey this drawing did make me make some big steps out of my comfort zone for art#so I guess my db brainrot is good for something??#also for the record I DID finish this a couple days ago#my anxiety just prevented me from posting it here until now#but technically it's still a contender for April's art piece for the end of the year art summary#I'M NOT GOING TO MISS TWO M0NTHS#Feb sucked bc my tablet said fuck you and I had to replace it#if anything looks wonky pose-wise just remember I don't use pose refs much#bc I hate myself#no really#I just about drove myself insane one night trying to figure out how to draw Shin's right arm#bc the angle is weird and idk why I did this to myself#shut the fuck up Fire
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I'm going to be a certified library professional in a few short weeks, I have a solid understanding of the need to read broadly and should have a strong personal commitment to doing so, but more often than not, I end up reading fanfic for the one relatively obscure YA universe that has engrained itself into my very being rather than reading literally anything else and I don't know how to feel about it
#feel kinda bad on a professional level like i am an incredible hypocrite#but genuinely nothing can make me feel the same way that a well-written Tortall fanfic can#these characters have lived rent free in my brain for 15+ years i could not get more connected to a fantasy series than I currently am#i have been doing my best to read other things but even then i haven't branched out from fantasy!!#I've read some Discworld and i want to read locked tomb and my partner is reading us the rangers apprentice series#but i simply do not read nonfiction!!#or even mystery or scifi or horror!!#I need to do more but the fanfic is right there in my phone! i dont even need to go to the library#which is absolutely absurd to say as someone who genuinely loves to go to the library#so on one hand i feel bad about not reading anything else but on the other hand I like it!!#once i don't have the chaos of being in school and house hunting i really need to crack down on myself#because i KNOW i will enjoy other things#it's just a matter of forcing myself out of my comfort zone even when the comfort zone feels so cozy#yes this has literally just been a vent post about my frustration with my own reading habits
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Mini Silverborn Countdown
If you’ve been around for a few years, you’ve seen me vaguely mention a “Silverborn Countdown Challenge” several times. It’s been delayed and changed as many times as the book itself, lol.
If anyone wants sort of a low-stakes, very chill and spaced out version of this ye olde never tackled challenge to complete in the next year before Silverborn, I propose what I’m doing:
Every 3 months leading up to the initial release, I am creating one thing based on each of the books.
January — Nevermoor
April — Wundersmith
July — Hollowpox
#nevermoor#nevermoor fanart#nevermoor fanfic#silverborn#silverborn countdown challenge#thank you theo for reminding me to post abt this on here. I am stealing the “mini” moniker (?) in return. lol.#this was in my drafts and I forgot to post it. happens a lot lol.#anyways if you’re reading this happy new years !#nine masterpost ver 1.0 dropping tomorrow evening prob bc I have had a headache all day and that’s the next time I’m free#now time to sleep. zzzzzz. perhaps I’ll have a prophetic silverborn dream. who knows.#I love giving myself set times to draw nevermoor things or just think about the series bc otherwise I go insane#literally thinking abt this stuff 24/7 it’s all I want to draw. But then I have to hold myself back + then end up never drawing anything lol#I have three big things planned for this like big pieces to work on over awhile and get myself out of my comfort zone#but idk what to draw for this first one. aahhhhh. excited for wundersmith and hollowpox though.#also I want to do a little animation for nevermoorian new years. which is on a leap day this year! how fun!!#I have an eternal nevermoor to-draw list that only gets bigger#sorry to the person that requested some Christmas stuff last year. I missed out and was gonna do it this year. then no time. so next year? 😅#also 🏆 to anyone that ever reads my ramblings in my tags. I am so insane about nevermoor especially. <333
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👉👈 so @silverskye13 i saw this and..............
had to make an aron helsmet!!!!!! this was really hecking fun to think about actually like what she'd be like n design (which. is a poke at the rp server she was from actually) and also made me sit down and think more on my other minecraft ocs i have sittin around and why they ended up getting redesigns lkdsfh BUT YEAH i!!!!!!!! aron!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#what do i. tag this as. sdklfjslk#i mean ig since it's like??? she's a concept from it i should???#redstone and skulk#aron#nora#<-- adding in that tag now that she's named#a lotta the stuff aron goes through in her character arc in the rps has to do with like. she has her stuff that she's comfortable doing#and stuff that she's not#and after trying and trying and trying to go outside her comfort zone and help ppl around her in a Better Way#feels like she's just not good at it and should give up and go back to what she was doing before#-only to find out through A Lot Of Events that no she actually was learning even tho she didn't realize it and she was getting better#and she was actually helping#and also. it was. kind of impossible for her to go back anyway. jlsdf.#sO i thought her helsmet would be more of the 'stick with what i know and don't leave that' kinda thing!!!#leaning into her minecraft roots; she was originally a redstoner/demolitionist (i mean she's still a demo but)#so her helsmet would- if following that idea- be Really Hecking Good at redstone#but only stick to redstone bc No I'm Not Trying Anything Else#also aron had a lot of problems trusting people she shouldn't and it really bit her back so there's that aspect too!!!#...also is it just me or does this pic feel very Camish like i don't know what it is about the style bc i tried smth different#and when i finished i looked at it and went 'huh. this looks like camish drew it.'#I WILL ALSO!! make more!! of my other minecrafters!!! i just underestimated how much thought i would be putting into making helsmets sdlkfj#but they are bouncing around in my brain!!! and i will draw them once i can get them to stay still long enough to realize what they are!!!
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“Will felt rather than heard the horrified scream that tore painfully through his chest...”
a bit of an experimental piece! inspiration taken from chapter 10 of @henrysglock ‘s fic Paper Faces. i had this visual stuck in my head all week and had to get it down somewhere :p
#my art#tw hanging#will byers#stranger things#anyway uuuh i hope u dont mind me drawing for ur fic. it just really got my drawing juice flowing in my brain#gotta grab the inspiration wherever i can get it!#have lots of other little doodles from various scenes too but#idk if they'll turn into anything LOL dont have the time or stamina in my poor fucked up hand#this isn't perfect but uuuhhh it was fun to get out of my comfort zone :3#also i know that eddie is supposed to already be on the ground but i hope u dont mind i took some artistic liberties lol#just. will with like. 50s horror movie lady screaming face. now lives forever in my head bc of this scene
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omg I just stumbled upon your art and WOW it’s amazing!! What program do you use? Any tips for a beginner artist too? Sorry totally [not] asking for a friend
thank u! i mostly use ibis paint x and sometimes clip studio paint too! :D
i don't think i'm much of a pro to be out there telling on beginners but, if you're looking to improve in certain aspects, i'd recommend studying art fundamentals. i like searching for tips on youtube and i personally love watching pikat's videos; they give pretty solid, good advices for studying art :)
overall, i think the most important part about drawing is having fun, as cliche as this sounds, it's true. stressing over your art might actually bring down the quality of it, so don't worry so much about making masterpieces! do what you like! ^_^
#gatinho answers#getting out of your comfort zone and experimenting new things is a super important step for improving too!#like#i used to always do bust up drawings#no backgrounds or anything#and i was super scared of doing anything else because i >didnt know how to anything else<#and you know#if your goal on art is just to make silly stuff#u dont need to know fancy things if u dont want to! thats totally fine#but i like exploring every part of art and i want to make every type of illustrations#so not gettin out of my comfort zone is pretty rough to achieve my goal!#i managed to get out though :-) and its super fun to learn new things#ofc its normal to get stressed about art every once in a while. it happens to everyone! really#usually on those moments i just take a step back to relax and go back to my comfort zone#so i dont explode lmfao#but when i feel like im ready i go back to studying!!!! yay!!!!#and thats how i deal with making art without spontaneously combusting lol#srry for the ramble 😭✊ i could go on for hours
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ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD
Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!
#I want NO MESSAGES regarding this. let me just be upset and alone#you spend most of your life trying to not succumb to sick brain but honestly I don't think it's worth it in the long run#my life is for better or worse....decent. but I've lost the drive and happiness to really DO anything a long time ago. like whats the point#the only reason I havent killed myself yet is cause Im too lazy (and dont have access to a gun for a quick getaway)#and I'm saying all this DESPITE having stuff to look forward to in the near future. it's like AUGH whats the POINT IM always gonna suffer#why does mental health take such a toll on ppl. this shit sucks ass. and I still feel excited for things in the future too? somehow?#but I also really want to die so. idk man. idk. maybe if I fall in love with someone then I can be distracted but all my walls are up#what's the point in anything anymore. *I* have to take the steps to improve myself and my situation#and I'd rather die. anyways who wants to make a pact that once we reach 40 we will marry each other#that might be fun#also my brain has gotten so bad that I am literally considering joining a hiking club to get out more and I FUCKING HATE HIKING#but I should probably do something out of my comfort zone to push myself and who knows maybe I will find a new passion#but let me tell you about the anxiety - oh BOY it's starting to act up again. hahahha#ah well sometimes you just need to scream your feelings out in the tags to get a lil clarity from the brain fog#one day I will fucking die/kill myself but for now I'll just try to make the best out of. whatever the hell this stupid life is. *shrug*#(but hey if any professional hitmen are reading this. feel free to. heh. you know ;) )#also I need to get back to art#gotta do my paid work and that one pic I lined months ago. and clay stuff *continues to bed rot another week because hahahahahahaha*#ah I wish I didn't fail all those years ago. then I would be free. I wish I was free#ok goodnight I promised myself that I would do paid work when I wake up tomorrow so hopefully no more migraines -pray emoji-
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OC RNG stuff.
-Lucinda is engaged to the oldest prince in a family of nine where there are 8 brothers and then the youngest is the only girl. She adores her future husband. -Ink Blot is a really dumb mage who acts as a street performer using fake magic despite being an actual mage. He just wants to be the center of attention. -Ruby and Luce are from the same plot (thank you RNG I love the dream wardens). They're part of different pairs and basically just patrol to keep dreams in check. Ruby and Luce also don't really meet each other in canon. Their routes don't overlap but they both interact with the main duo which is Colette and Marcus. (Ruby wants to beat Marcus up while Luce wants to kiss Marcus for what it matters.)
#i really love luce hes just so calm and collected in front of marcus and colette to try and look reliable#but hes actually one of the younger wardens who is made to replace his partner's old partner#so hes with sil and sil is just watching him for the first decade like why is he so awkward#when will he warm up to me or the other wardens he meets why is he always so tense#and then something happens and luce is sent into a panic because he learns that marcus used to laugh with sil and the retired warden#hes like ???? WHY DOES HE HATE ME ? WHAT DID I DO? and sil is like the guy is older than me and doesnt do change well#thats all there is to it he got used to my old partner and youre a wrench in the comfort zone hell get over it tho#and when marcus laughs for the first time in front of luce it is SO over for luce he would do anything for marcus#but then you get marcus who is telling colette i have to say things took an unexpected turn with sils partner#i went from fine with robert to being abandoned by robert to do you think luce is cute cause i think hes cute#and marcus is very much IM SO GAY which is fair cause colette is like MM YEAH SAME#and then you guys gotta realize i love my silly lil prince group where the oldest bro has a really cool future wife#and then the second oldest is like hey bro im stealing your wife for the afternoon and lucinda is like i see i see#and then the second oldest and lucinda just spend the entire afternoon dancing and shes happy to indulge him#then the third oldest is the original main one where he and the castle witch are on a mission to help another kingdom#but like the fact the oldest has an arranged marriage with a woman he loves#and the second youngest is in love with the son of two castle aids#who happens to be 40 and very worn out with stress from having to turn the second oldest down all the time#then the third oldest has a crush on a prince from the kingdom hes trying to help but the crush is on like an 18 year old#so the 2nd and 3rd oldest are constantly bickering over what the other sees in their crushes#anyway hi i love my ocs (gestures to them)#and ink was a really minor character in the plot bc it was mostly me paying attention to a dumbass vampire#and this thief who had to help the dumb vampire get home bc he has no sense of direction and had been abducted
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