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it just feels like i forgot how to be a person
#thats just ocd making me insanely#self aware#to a damaging degree#possible adhd/autism and all the stuff That Alone comes with#why am i getting worse as i age#just wanna lay down and let nature take over me#minnie post#watch me cave tomorrow . and get weed#minnie when her meds dont work and she has to wait until the 29th to get more#hopefully upped too#ahhh i remember when those pills made me feel happy and normal
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Prompt 271
��Grandmother is visiting,” Damian suddenly said with no warning and with his usual not-quite demanding tone.
“Who?” Tim wasn’t the only one to startle, seeing as Bruce had practically froze, a downturn to his lips in a silent show of confusion.
Damian scowled. “Are you deaf Drake? Grandmother is coming to Gotham to, quote, make sure I am being properly cared for.” None of them had known that Ras was with anyone actually. At least Tim was pretty sure that would have been in the files.
“Oh?” Dick didn’t quite crouch to Damian’s height but it was a near thing. “She-” “He,” Damian corrected, interrupting him. They all exchanged a glance before Dick continued.
“Is he coming to the Manor or…”
Damian scoffed again, a tiny bit of a flush against his face. “No, Grandmother will most likely be staying with Akhi-”
Now wait one moment-
“YOU HAVE ANOTHER BROTHER?!”
#DCxDP#DPxDC#Prompts#Deadly Decisions#Danny & Ras are the homoerotic rivals that no one knows if they’re flirting or attempting a murder#It’s actually both they’re just also both Immortal#Danny to Jason: You can become a crime lord if you finish college- you’ve said you wanted to get a degree this is ur chance#Dusan (nodding): Mother has made all of us finish at least our basic education nephew#Why yes this does mean that RH has just made the heads in a duffel bag debut & the bats have no clue it’s Jason#Normally Danny wanders the universe but RAS (affectionately derogatory) HOW DARE U TRY TO HIDE THE GRANDCHILDREN#Morally Gray Danny#He’s well over 300 and that has an affect lol#Also has some fun fae vibes thx to his ghost half & human half finally balancing out#Let Jason & Damian be brothers#Tiny Damian: Akhi look I found a frog :>#Jason (newly not brain damaged & has no clue who this small child is): …. That’s great#Tiny Damian: *GASP* Akhi you can talk now :D#Fuck it- all the Al Ghuls deserve fangs from ecto contamination#Is Danny actually Dusan & Talia’s mother? No one knows and no one wants to ask the probably immortal fae being okay#Danny brought Damian a ghost hound puppy & Jason an original signed Pride & Prejudice book#How come Bruce wasn’t aware of Danyal? Talia forgot to inform him that the mother she was speaking of is in fact still alive#He disappears for a decade sometimes longer she was using past terms how was he supposed to know
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never gonna get tired of Aabria and Brennan playing dnd together, they know each other so well, they are so fun, they're clearly having so much fun ''does Evan have a grenade??'' ''idk will you let me? :)'', ''you know what I'm gonna ask'' ''yeah I throw myself in front of Sam, absolutely'', ''I'll give it to you, if you detach your shadow'' ''.....(pause, clearly aware that with Aabria as a dm, this will have Consequences) yeah I do it, I want to get all of them'', ''is my shadow back with us?'' ''no :)'' ''okay. (concerning)''
And that's just this episode, but there's so many little moments in all of their campaigns that really read as ''I will fuck you up <3'' ''I know and I am walking into it with open eyes <3'' from both of them, never hold any punches, because they know the other one doesn't want them to, just. Inflicting emotional damage on each other for funsies is a love language I guess?
It's beautiful
#aabria iyengar#brennan lee mulligan#mismag spoilers#dimension 20#mismag 2#you get this to a degree with a lot of ppl not just these two#but they're even more so bc they both dm for each other and play with each other at times#so we get to see the dynamic in all these different constellations and man it's so good in all of them#if it's Brennan dming it's Aabria having alert and building a tank of a wizard and fucking up all his little guys#and then Brennan inflicts emotional damage#if it's Aabria dming it's Brennan figuring out all her little riddles and punching her little guys#and then Aabria inflicts emotional damage#(they also inflict emotional damage on everyone around them)#(even more so when they're both playing pcs. battle for beyond was insane y'all)#is this post a bit parasocial i mean i guess so#but this is tumblr i'm allowed#if aabria sees this.... you know what it's fine aabria you've seen worse i'm sure#you and brennan are amazing at your jobs is all i'm really saying
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"I miss when you were pure, at least you didn't pull shits like this."
#dollya art#dol pc#lya the blossom#sydney the fallen#dol sydney#cw noncon#degrees of lewdity#dol#something something about Prayer Room Sydney#I thought I did some damage on him#and thennnnnn he beated Lya to fucking d-#oh well#cw nosebleed
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thing that solidified the idea that Asha is the female version of Theon was reading her ADWD chapters and realizing that she wasn’t trying to manipulate Theon into self-destruction and did genuinely want him to leave Winterfell with her and her men in ACOK. girl did not grasp that sexually assaulting her younger brother was going to result in him not being able to trust her ever again, on par with Theon not realizing that betraying Robb and proclaiming himself the prince of Winterfell was going to make everyone hate him.
#asoiaf#asha greyjoy#theon greyjoy#doc#our squid queen#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#asha might not have the same degree of brain damage as her male relatives but she is still ultimately a greyjoy
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When the only person who might understand what happened- understand. Not sympathize or empathize or comfort you but understand what happened, isn't there anymore. Or: 'A Man Made Me Do Something I Didn't Want To', for when you can't talk about it or look it in the eye [Patreon | Commissions]
#Tuvok#Kes#comix#idk how to tag this bc of the allusion#st voy#star trek voyager#bea art tag#comix page#star trek#this is not a one to one allegory nor is it meant to be - I am specifically focusing in on the loss of bodily autonomy that occurs when#Kes and Tuvok have their bodies taken over purposefully by men for various reasons which all boil to power. 'Because I could' and Because#they thought Kes or Tuvok wouldn't be able to stop them from doing so. Because they thought they had the power to do so so why wouldn't#they? But again this is not one to one - I interpret and will continue to interpret these instances in many different ways#But something that sticks with me in canon is how 'impervious' Tuvok is made - There is that scene at the end of Warlord which#shows that Kes is affected by what just happened to her - she's confused and hurt and doesn't know what to DO now that the in-the-moment#fight is over and it's time to just keep living and Tuvok comforts her but when he will go on to be taken over again and again and again#there will be no one to comfort him - no one HE can go to - and the narrative doesn't say that there should be. Even when he's#taken over by the BORG (an experience which had a lasting traumatic impact on characters like Seven or Picard - granted they were connected#for a lot longer) this is only mentioned offhandedly. One wonders why it occured at all. There's also how the other two main Vulcans#T'Pol and Spock - when they are forced to act emotionally or are in situations that affect their emotional equilibrium there is a big deal#made about it and they are hurt and ashamed and given some degree of care and comfort by those around them but when Tuvok#is forced into similar situations it is simply assumed he'll get over it - not even just by the other characters but the narrative itself#takes it for granted Ex: 'Workforce' where he forgets ALL his Vulcan training or 'Meld' where Suder's influence#unintentionally makes him lose it and try to kill him...THOUGH I think Suder hugging an unconscious Tuvok is perhaps the closest we get to#someone comforting Tuvok after he's been through that sort of ordeal. I'm not saying Tuvok would WANT others to be hugging him#and offering him emotional comfort etc (he's Vulcan) but I find it interesting that the narrative assumes that the black body (even alien)#is more 'durable' than its white counterparts. 'Stronger'. Assumes that there is no interiority which recoils and sustains the damage#when hurt. That there is nothing worth exploring because there is no impact from the impact. A crater lands and the Soil beneath it is#untouched
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kurunthokai, 168 — “what the hero said to his heart”
#i did this in a rush. that's why some things look wonky and weird and T-T#me drawing vague shapes then scribbling over them#here is some pavayatri for you#goldenmodel#pavitr x gayatri#literally whatever you call them#i tried translating slash rewriting the original kurunthokai poem#but it's in pure tamil so most of the words don't really line up with modern tamil/english#so i put my degree in bad writing to use. hopefully this does the poem justice#anyway yeah. have these babies#i love pavitr and gayatri so much!!!!!#i saw this poem and immediately thought “you know what would be absolutely sick. asm121 redraw”#and then I DID IT#no i am not sorry. not really. dw i gave myself psychic damage while drawing this#“the night gayatri singh died” be like#gayatri singh#pavitr prabhakar#spider man india#atsv#atsv pavitr#spider man#artoftheagni#its 1am rn if you have any beef with me please wait another six hours. i hate staying up so late
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even tho she gets into a lot of fights, pc-chan has relatively low pain tolerance (no masochism buffs whatsoever)
finger flick template
#degrees of lewdity#whitney the bully#dol#real reason why she hates the finger flick is bc it hurts a lot#but it doesnt actually do damage#and therefore does not warrant the 'umm actually its self defense' card#maqui art
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bear wears this every chance he gets and tim fucking hates it (but his cults anonymous group loves it so ha! suck on that timothy)
#bear is in every x anonymous group out there#pain anonymous narcotics anonymous alcoholic anonymous cult anonymous the list goes on#his sponsors have a group chat and are very involved in making sure he doesn't relapse!!!!#also i firmly believe that tim has nightmares about the sacrifice#like that quickly becomes the thing he sees most when under fear toxin#and!!! my personal opinion on the aftermath of the cult is that bear doesnt get superpowers from it#while it's cool and i really do enjoy the fics to me sometimes you fuck up your life and you dont get anything cool from it#sometimes u just have to live with the damage you caused to yourself. sometimes you get yourself almost sacrificed by the cult u#joined when you were scared and angry and grieving and you fuck up your life and they almost kill u and all you have left#are the broken pieces of what you used to call your life. all you have left are the friendships you've ruined the degree you fucked up#and the long list of jobs you've gotten yourself fired from. and to me!! me personally!!! that is more interesting than magic powers#also ik he didn't really get sacrificed but shhh play along for the mem#bernard dowd
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i’m so serious if there is a buck nde where eddie is totally fine i will actually throw a small silly fit. this is a warning
#nobody heeded my warning the last time i said i would throw a fit and they all got mad at me when i said fuck tommy kinard…….look at us now#sorry but (bitter) they literally never reckoned with the lightning strike at all even a little bit#didn’t do anything with it. at least eddie processed the shooting to a pretty satisfactory degree…….#and well i would like to inflict maximum damage on buck which is not getting hurt himself but watching eddie be hurt <3
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Do you think if Curly could still speak clearly, would he try to communicate with the crew/Anya/Jimmy? I know it's unlikely he would say something, realistically, he is in too much pain to talk and in no state to think clearly, but still
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I actually have a bit of experience with burn pain! I was accidently boiled (scalded) as a child and remember some of the experience.
The pain was not so debilitating or mind numbing at first. It's like the initial contact is numb and then it's like horrible mainly because of the exposure it causes to nerves and such. I do remember that while it was hard to think, I could focus, mainly on wanting the pain to stop, who was around me and where my parents were. I clearly recall fighting in the ambulance because I was in pain and didn't want people to touch me. I was pretty freaked out and in a similar postion to Curly (i was doped the hell up and theres like a picture of me wrapped liked a mummy smiling super hard). Curly is clearly cognoscente enough to track people with his eyes, stifle himself after Jimmy starts abusing him and to start panicking when Jimmy brings out the knife at the table.
I think the issue is he likely can't talk. His jaw is likely broken or somewhat damaged and he has no lips which means it's gonna be inherently harder to form words and sentences. That all said, we know his vocal cords are relatively intack as he can scream and laugh and audibly cry. You can still make sound without intact vocal cords but they would sound inherently different than what Curly is doing in game.
If he could talk I think he would still be in so much shock and grief he'd just blame himself or be desperate for comfort. He blames himself and would be apologizing for letting the ship crash. I think through the way he talks about it would tip the others off that it wasn't him. He's likely repetitive and repeating things in a similar vein before he ran in to the cockpit: "I should've-"s and "If I only-"s but mainly also not wanting Jimmy around him or actively being quiet around him. I don't think his sentences are super coherent and he knows that but he's understandable. I think he'd try hard to answer questions but depending on whose asking him and how, it's all a matter if he can handle the stress.
I don't think his psyche is broken but the dude is probably having like PTSD flashes, dissociating harder than before the crash and so hopped up on pain killers his mood is shifting drastically.
#i do say water scalds are less damaging and more superficual but still they are very painful just somewhat easier to heal from#i had third degrees and other than discolration and some sensitvity on my face i healed fully but this is less about the healing and the#physical pain cause it hurt bad anytime i moved too much but it just felt like one big painful fucking itch like you want to rip what littl#skin left off like a scab#but yeah hes talking to them but it just sounds like half sentences cause he cant form them or realizes what he's saying and it#it either hurts to finally admit how upsetting or sad it is or he's finally understandin jsut how bad he messed up and how miserable he was#in his life to allow someone like Jimmy to do all this and affect his head so bad#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#ask#anon#curly mouthwashing#captain curly
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I read a Hound Ruby fic recently called I can almost hear the Hounds that I really enjoyed and it got me thinking about these two again.
Something that's been on my mind since I last drew them was that I wanted to find ways to distinguish Penny's look more from her usual appearance; she has the red lights and the twisted ahoge and she was scraped up a bit but I wanted to go further.
So I'm leaning more into the cyberpunk nightmare that is Penny's existence. While with Salem she probably looks as I drew her previously but once they leave they lack the resources to keep her in top shape in the absence of Watts' or military funding.
So wear and tear take its toll and they end up needing to use less than optimal parts as replacements; maybe they can scavenge parts from the Atlesian Knights on occasion too. The result is: she ends up looking more obviously mechanical.
#rwby#penny polendina#ruby rose#nuts and dolts#grimm ruby#hacked penny#hackhound au#art#fan art#my art#That fic was so good#so happy to have come across it.#I don't know whether Penny has skin all over her body#but if she does then they would likely transplant it to cover damaged areas#it's not something they can easily get more of#Looking at the Penny blueprint from her first appearance#it seems to indicate that she can rotate her hands and feet 360 degrees around#although that would probably damage her skin#and it looks like she only has two toes on each foot#only her big toe is separate#the others are one object#the more you know~
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sigh hope everyone’s having a good [insert time of day]
#camping wasn’t as relaxing as we thought it would be#truth be told we only stayed one night#the spot we were at was a crazy walk from the car up and down hill#and then we were all alone all the other spots were empty#so every single sound put us completely on edge#so neither of us slept#we got completely eaten up by bugs#and I got some first degree burns around my mouth and nose which#man I already hated my body now I’m just disgusted every time I look in a mirror#which I’m doing a lot of since I’m cleaning my face a lot#spent all today just trying to rest#anyway#we’re gonna try and start moving things tomorrow so hopefully we’re getting closer to normal#hoping my face clears up enough before my doctors appointment on Monday because I don’t want to talk about it with the doctor#i should but its not that bad#its having heavier psychological damage than physical atm#i feel gross
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When you idly think about Celegorm possibly being most like Nerdanel of all the sons of Feanor, and then you start thinking about Nerdanel getting a post-Darkening moral decay arc all of her own to mirror her son(s)'s.
#tolkien#san shoots the breeze#Like. My central celegorm thesis is that he becomes what he becomes because he has a specific moral/social worldview#that is actually heavily based on 1) common cultural understanding of said worldview and 2) direct positive intervention from the valar#like he is an acolyte of a specific god and that goes with specific rights and responsibilities for everyone involved#and once the noldor arrive in beleriand that specific framework *collapses*#because the valar can't be fucked and the amanyar don't have the same religious&cultural expectations#so he upholds his end of the bargain as long as he can (both emotionally and materially)#but when it all collapses (structural damage from what happened to ardehel#and then complete collapse from the bragollach) he breaks HARD#and I think there's space for something similar with Nerdanel#who was likely raised in fairly close contact with aule and who stays faithful to the valar as feanor starts to go off the rails#who makes all the 'right' choices! and her reward is the obliteration of her family#and quite likely at least some degree of social ostracization for her association with her husband and children#not sure what her final straw would be though#...possibly it could be celebrimbor's capture and death actually. hm.#Anyway! I just think Nerdanel should be viciously violently angry with basically everyone for at LEAST a century but likely longer
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Nobody warned me when I started aa that I'd fall in love with Just Some Guy Phoenix Wright btw he's such an endearing loser to me. and he looks very pretty in his new suit. I smooch him
#bla bla bla#aa#ace attorney#he is smart but also dumb#he is kind hearted but also a bitch#he is so normal but also a cryptic weirdo#I love him for that#he also suffers physical and emotional damage to a degree I never expected#phoenix wright
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i have an absolutely vital question: what would neon future scoundrel consider the worst thing about fallen berlin
it can't get away with anything anymore. quiet permanent murder? pretty much everyone has an online identity. bribery? tracked on 7 different websites from the moment the transaction goes through. strangling one of its employees to death because they dared to talk back about its horrible anti-labor business practices? it immediately gets clipped and reposted and it has to spend the next 2 weeks trying to undo its cancellation on twitter.
also its friends. it misses having those. not that it was ever exactly good at having them... but it misses them all the same.
#the silverer is still around but they're probably in a constant state of hardcore bickering#the scoundrel just isnt sure what her damage is. honestly. you help the internet intrude on fingerking territory SEVERAL TIMES#and SUDDENLY a snakegirl is pissed at you. shame on her. she's not invited to all the microtransactions they put in everything ever#ask#fallen london#fallen london spoilers#the scoundrel in the neon future is a weird mix of desperately horrendously lonely and also the worst guy ever#like#more than usual#it spends the first few years embracing its space bat awfulness to a comical degree bc it's still trying to stave off its breakdown#it's happy. it swears it's happy. it swears this is everything they've ever wanted#it Swears. and it has to be true. it just has to be. they couldn't have done all of this for nothing.#they couldn't have lost everything for nothing#right?#sad pitiful little foolish creature
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