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Its still insane to me that my reading comp scores went from below avg to above just because of fucking touchstarved demo
#like.....what the fuck#redstrewn talks#for the GRE at least#but i had shit english score for the SAT#i engulfed book quotes bc of this fucking demo#thts pretty insane to me
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>______< I am not okay
#he loookssssssss soooooo boyfrienddddd wht da helllllll#his face card is insane#like r we serious#he is so beautiful his beautiful droopy eyes#his pretti hair#his lovely piercings omhdhddjdbdbd#I am so in love with him r we srsssssss#I didn’t think genshin could release another male character tht would have me this unwell#now here I ammmmm#his witl teefies#I need him to breed my ****
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she miss on my hollo till i way .
#insane sentance insane. hate how this is how i express things now using this meme format. but also love it#anyway heyy guyss did u know tht. miss holloway <3 unfortunatly many of u DO NOT !!! go watch nightmare time its so good#actually the miss holloway eps r the witch in the web and killer track so go watch those but also go watch all of nightmare time#if u havent yet. im reccomnding it like its any other show not part of the extented hatchetfield universe but honestly.#go watch it anyway. if ur confused ur confused idc. but also watch the other hatchetfield stuff first#anywayyy going to change my blog theme and im thinking of doing a poll of potential themes#like i id last time but im also worried u guys arent gonna vote for the miss holloway one when ITS SO GOODDDD !!!!#its literally soo pretty promise me ull vote for it if you like it most even if u dont know who tht is#flappy rambles#starkid#nightmare time
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no one care me & i hate my best friend so fucking much like he actually doesn't care abt me as a person at all outside of her own problems and (explosion sfx) (explosion sfx) (explosion sfx)
#i should not try to be friends with people that know him bcz ultimately they will prefer him and be on his side against me#tht sounds so fucking dramatic lol btu the fucking um. ''everyone secretly hates me'' thing that is confirmed over and over again#nd like. i do not actually matter to people#need to stop looking at thistle's stupid blog because i literally saw part of a discord screenshot and went insane over like#my dms being riight at the bottom of the sidebar. when i felt bad the one time hers was 4th?5th? cause it felt too low#pretty sure thats stupid#but its just like. god u have so many people u care abt over me &#i need to be put down
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ik the doctor said this pain was muscular but idk im still convinced it’s a cyst .. i mean either way it should go away but like ?? they did say if the pain didn’t go away in 4 to 6 weeks i should go back so. i’ll do that if it persists
#less than 1% of ovarian cysts before menopause r apparently cause for concern so like. im not worried#but i AM convinced tht it’s not jst regular muscle pain#cause as far as im aware an ovarian cyst won’t cause pain when pressed down on unless it’s of a significant size#or along those lines so like. it’s not like they could tell if it IS a cyst without an ultrasound#but i still think it is. i hope im wrong cause muscle pain is probably easier 2 deal with but like. is what it is yk#im jst tired of being in pain tbh. my jaw is driving me insane#n i cant sit in like any position w the pain down there#n the jaw is causing shoulder n neck pain too ….#and of course my breasts always kinda hurt cause they’re huge and they hate me#and THAT cause my arms to hurt too sometimes#and ofc my knee is feeling left out so she’s playing up too#im jst like. so done w the pain by now#im getting less sleep. i cant sleep a whole night in one go it’s always split into parts#n ive always had trouble getting to sleep anyway so there’s that too#i look absolutely exhausted as well#like ive always had pretty significant grey bags under my eyes thts jst how im built#but recently i swear they’ve gotten darker n deeper#im jst soso tired. i feel like i can’t do anything#like i wash the dishes with plans to do more after but i finish n im jst. tired n i hav to sit down#i wanna do things. but everything makes me tired#wow this turned into a bit of tag rant huh … anyway#plum.txt
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I absolutely hate the whole 'snape loved lily' plot twist. People often equate it to the way Sirius still loved and missed james years after his death and went to insane lengths to protect his son, but tht was so not the case with snily.
Coz snape and lily had such a toxic, imperfect relationship in canon, but instead of treating it tht way it was never addressed. It wud hv been so interesting to explore this, but the series just doesn't.
Both of them r awful friends to each other. Snape's faults r obviously pretty clear (aiming to join a terrorist group tht believes ppl lyk his friend shouldn't be alive...yea tht doesn't need to be mentioned twice lol). Don't get me wrong, lily was completely right to cut Snape off, but it wasn't lyk she was a good friend even before tht. Can u ever imagine Ron or Hermione almost smiling if Draco was exposing Harry's underpants to a crowd of jeering students? Nope. They wud throw hands, period. Can u imagine any of the marauders doing tht to each other? (their internal dynamics might not be the healthiest but they wudnt stand for it if an outsider bullied their friends). Absolutely not. Coz it's not about these characters, it's just... not how u react when ur 'friend' is getting tormented (or anyone else for tht matter, but friend in this context specifically). Also can u imagine Ron or Hermione relying on school rumours saying tht Draco saved Harry's life without asking Harry about his version of the event first? Nope. Can u see what I'm getting at here?
Lily wasn't even a good friend to Snape to begin with, but he loved her until the end (irrespective of whether u want to see it as romantic or platonic). Now, I cud buy the narrative tht lily was the only person who was ever kind to him and thts y he clung on to her, but thts not how canon sees it. The source material doesn't address the nuances of this relationship in any meaningful way other than 'snape loved lily and tht is y he switched sides'.
Which is y the reason he switches sides, and his continued love for lily until he dies at 38 seems sort of shallow to me. Coz it wud be different if he'd hurt someone who truly loved him, but thts clearly not the case (u cud say tht lily loved him and did wrong by him too but tht isn't canon, given tht canon doesn't think she ever wronged him to begin with). Just feels lyk he was gaslit by the author tbh
#severus snape#pro severus snape#anti lily evans#anti lily potter#the prince's tale#deathly hallows#young snape#snape's worst memory#anti snily
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alice in borderland — suguru niragi “eye candy”
contents : suggestive themes, smut
a/n : a small crumb while i am busy with life smh
“Stop looking at me like that.”
There's a frown plastered on his face, eyebrows scrunched as if he's looking at something absolutely disgusting yet the slight upward tug of his lips tells you otherwise.
“Like what?” You asked him, confused as to why he's looking at you the way he is.
Cuddling on the sofa of your apartment—a temporary home in this madness you call borderland, your limbs in a mess of tangle with his as you're sprawled atop of his body, his arm around you and the other behind his head.
Niragi was a constant wild child but moments like this makes you remember that even someone as wild as him needs normalcy in his life too—that at the end of the day, he is a human too.
His arm tightens around your figure for a brief moment before relaxing, the flex of his arm seems unintentional. “Acting like you don't know? Tsk.”
“I wouldn't know unless you tell me, Niragi.” It was amusing to watch his frown transform into a scowl, the evident shade of red, no matter how small, bright on his ears as he glare at you.
It is quite adorable, ever so tough and cocky bastard, Suguru Niragi who crawls from death every damn time is flustered underneath you. His bandages cannot even hide it.
Instead of responding right away though, his arm that was behind his head shifted to reach over your face, settling on your jaw as his stare is on level with yours—eyes steel and cold softening until his lips curved into a damn small grin.
“Like this.”
Rugged, rough, and dangerous is what everyone who would see him describes him.
Yet the way he places his kiss on your lips is tender, soft and gentle like he's afraid to taint you but his hand that's gripping your jaw is firm and commanding, telling you to stay still.
What was the look you were showing him? You could've asked and persisted but he swallows your every breath, the parting of your lips merely serving him an opportunity to kiss you further, deeper, more.
The arm that's around your body draws small scratches of patterns and shapes, a slow dance and kiss as he attempts to close the 'non existent' space between the two of you with the proximity you already share.
Hips slowly gyrating against yours in a slow motion, not to get you off, but to simply feel you and your warmth.
For someone as lust driven and hungry as he is, just being with you was enough.
“Shit, you're so..” He couldn't finish his words, no, with how your taste left him speechless and the way your eyes flutter like a butterfly kissing your lids slightly open to look at him as he parts from your lips got him fixated on you.
You drive him mad.
And he's already insane enough.
He dives right back in when he felt you take a breath, the sweet sweet air you breathe in being taken right away, teeth grazing your lower lip, biting it to ask for your permission yet never waiting enough before he pushes his way through.
Every curve, every nook, he explored it like he's an adventurer on a quest—call him one because you are his world he is willing yo conquer.
Suguru Niragi is both rough yet gentle, tough yet soft, it is only you who get to see his vulnerability. “It seems last night wasn't enough for ya', pretty?” He murmurs through the kiss, sending vibrations through mouth as a small chuckle escapes his lips, once again capturing yours.
“I'll make sure you won't look at anyone the same damn way you're looking at me now.” It wasn't just a mere statement, but his tone sends a promise.
If it was merely an innocent kiss before, now wasn't.
It's aching, the core tht burns inside you as he pushes you into the pillow. The soft velvety pillows muffling the noises that you fail to contain with how he is moving. “Oh.. mhm, Niragi.. ”
It's like you're in a trance that you can't break.
Your wrist bound behind your back as Niragi uses it to his advantage, moving faster as he holds onto you. “Ya' like that, darlin'?” He drawls next to your ear when he leans, pressing a small chaste kiss on your shoulder, it was sweet, loving—
Until it switches back to him absolutely ravaging you like a madman.
“mhmm.. hah, y-yeahh..”
His hips repeatedly hitting yours, abusing the spot that he knows will make you see stars, knowing every damn well of your body.
The curve of your back, arched beautifully and every noise that breaks from your throat gets him going. Your legs are shaking from the intensity yet always lifted for him to take.
Niragi let's go of your wrist to take a hold of your neck, wishing to see your expression, “now why are ya' holdin' back your moans?”
The squelch squelch squelch is a repetitive melody to the room, hand twisting your neck so he can see what look you are making.
“There you are..” You could hear the smirk from his tone, lilt and amused upon seeing your face. Almost mockingly teasing until his lips finds the side of your mouth, “no one is here but us, scream all you want.”
“Wanna hear my name from your lips.”
Fast, deep, rough, then turning slow—after a thrust, his body gyrates and you can't help but follow after his. The stimulation is addictive. “Hah... Fuck, it feels damn good.”
His hand traces your body, fingers following the curve of your spine and to your ass where he palms the globe of it, feeling every inch of you and watching how his dick goes in and out of you.
The length of him pushing into you until your body flinches at the heat of the passion, squirming against him. Both trying to get away and push into him, asking for more, you don't know.
Maybe it was due to the heat of the moment that there's droplets kissing your skin, his sweat from the lovemaking—from how he's fucking you full, but something tells you that it's so much more. Your eyes, barely open and conscious glances at him briefly, until you couldn't with how he makes you close it by hitting the spot that brings you to heaven and back.
“Wanna see you look at me, like- hah.. like how you did earlier.”
“H-how exactly?” You still ask, small little droplets continues to touch your bare skin—tears of his love, vulnerability..
“Like I'm yours.”
Trust.
#gender neutral reader#aib x you#aib x reader#alice in borderland x you#alice in boderland x reader#suguru niragi x reader#niragi x reader
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Chappell Roan lyrics memes and prompts
Because I want to, below you'll find #50 memes and #4 prompts besed of off Chappell Roan songs. feel free to reblog and use them if you like, changes to pronouns and similar are up to sender.
Memes:
"Maybe it's the way the honey drips off of your lips, maybe it's the taste of your caramel apple kiss"
"All that sugar loving, it belongs to me"
"You know how you get me"
"you can disregard my virgin ears and say what you like"
"You wanna win me over now?"
"Goddamn, let's never get old"
"I bet you wonder what I am doing when I'm alone in my room"
"it comes easy when I'm thinking about you"
"I love being bad for you"
"I'll be your goddess"
"Bet I know exactly what you're doing when you're alone in your room"
"tell me if you're having trouble and I'm sure I could help you"
"Cut me slack while I figure it out"
"I know I've been acting strange"
"Twist me, licorice, Speak with your fingertips"
"Can you meet me by the swimming pool, after hours, when the air is cool?"
"I've got things I don't know how to say"
"I just want you to make a move"
"oh god, tell me tht I'm not insane."
"if you could have anything, what would you want?"
"And if you change your mind, I will understand"
"Whatever you decide, I will understand"
"If you really wanna leave I'll never make you stay"
"But ever since that day everything has changed, the way I write your name, the cursive letter A"
"I guess we could pretend we didn't cross a line"
"I really want your hands on my body"
"I kinda wanna kiss your girlfriend if you don't mind"
"I've been a good, good girl for a long time"
"I know what you tell your friends, its casual, if its casual now then baby get me off again."
"I tried to be the chill girl, that holds her tongue and give you space. I tried to be the chill girl but honestly I'm not."
"Baby, why don't you come over?"
"Guess i didnt quite think it through, fell in love with the thought of you."
"I heard you like magic, i got a wand and a rabbit."
"So baby let's get freaky, get kinky, let's make this bed get squeaky."
"Who can blame a girl?! Call me hot, not pretty!"
"You don't have to stare, come here get with it!"
"No one's touched me there in a DAMN HOT MINUTE!"
"So tell me now, all your perversions... Am i doing research, in a mini skirt, at the library in your hometown?"
"Do you picture me, like i picture you?"
"Do you feel the same? I'm too scared to say, half of the thing I do, when I picture you."
"Its fine, its cool. You can say that we are nothing but you know the truth!"
"I don't wanna call it off, but you don't want to call it love. You only wanna be the one that I call baby."
"You can kiss a hundred boys in bars, shoot another shot trying to stop the feeling."
"You can say its just the way you are, make a new excuse, another stupid reason."
"I'm cliche, who cares?!"
"Touch me, baby, put your lips on mine"
"Boys suck and girls I've never tried, and we both know we're getting drunk tonight"
"No need to be hateful in your fake Gucci sweater"
"I thought you thought of me better"
"I've heard so many rumors, that I'm just a girl that you bang on your couch"
Prompts:
'Muse A is waiting museu B in the hallway, in a mini skirt and gogo boots.'
'Muse A asks Muse B to a dinner with her parents at theie house, but after a little teasing, muse B fuck muse A in the bathroom while her parents are still at the table. '
'Muse A and Muse B are friends and classmates, muse A never been with another girl before, but she have curiosity and certain feelings towards her friend. They have sleepovers and go out a lot. One night, they get a little drunk and finally make out'
'Muse A is a proud LGBT (choose if bi, pan, lesbian, etc), meanwhile muse B is still in the closet, they make out but muse B is still trying to "be normal", so they keep going to bars and kissing boys trying to forget Muse A.'
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cal life update wow!
yweha guys so instead of rotting on tumblr, i actually made a lot of imporvements in my life after i went on hiatus hehehehe most improtant of all: i learned how to socializ e and Not be awkward to some extent n that makes me so happy cuz my scoial life irl became so much morelively aaaaa<3 i think the only thing that stayed w the old me (cal pre hiatus) is that im still a fucking mlbb player unfortunately! but like... the othe rgames i used to have? gone! absolutely gone haha except Sky cuz i still love sky and recently redownlaoded haha but yeag i think i changed alot,,,,,, i actually touch grass now gusy!! i go outside pretty frequently w friends and yk the funniest part. the grass didnt hepl my thirst for fictonal people yay (im doomed) LIKE its not that bad anymore but i still catch myself acting insane liek cal pull ur shit togeyehr ur supposed to be nomral now erm anyways! yes thts pretty much it ive been Thriving and uhem perhaps nor that much in the love life section i realy want the fucking ground to consume me on that part of my life in both a good and bad way!! <3 HALKJEKHJD
yeah so ty for coming to my yap session ill stay for like a while cuz i wanna tlak to peple here hehe and then ill goback to hbbernation
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GUYS GUYS I just had a thought right now it s theory time babey
Had anybody seen the recent update of qsmp newsletter I saw the jaiden part where it had a text saying "when I don't remember you..."
Im pretty sure ppl had went to youtube and saw what it came out,
IT WAS specifically the first vid tht popped up and enters the song AND the lore of marceline and the ice king bcs it replayed the scene of the episode of the song. What I'm tryna get in here is tht the ice king USED to take care of marceline when she was younger, but now since he went insane from the powers of the crown. It made him forget about her thus went to their seperate ways until she grew up to be an adult.
What I'm thinking about the Jaiden lore here is tht Jaiden is the ice king and cucu is marceline. When cucu brought Jaiden to the federation, they gave Jaiden a book which it shows:
Cucu said Jaiden helped them and specifically cucu too. Sooooo I'm thinking she became a caretaker because if she became a caretaker of the subjects/experiments here and later on something big happened and she had to be removed by the feds and had her memory wiped (which is bad bcs they have the power of doing tht and can remove her memory at any given time) annddddd yes but I'm not so sure on my theory who knows....
Just me being crazy bfr she comes back huhuhuhuu
#theory#qsmp#jaiden animations#jaiden qsmp#q!jaiden#qsmp jaiden#qsmp cucurucho#cucurucho being sus lmao#im craving for more jaiden content waabashahaba#cucumber#nvm quackity lore came out again hddhjejehsji end me#CUCU IS AN ISLANDER AS WELL?????#he got brainwashed instead#nvm they both did#im going locoloco HAHAHAHAAHHA
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have i ever mentioned tht whenever i think of the web i just go "thats just my mom?"
(putting a break in here bc after typing everything out, its more of a ramble than i thought it would be)
like. specifically in my own weird as hell way. as well as like *insert my conpantheon and soft polytheism, certain aspects and presentations can be forms that make it easier to talk to and influence humanity*
for whatever reason i look at like. moon/primordial void/mother as being very very VERY Web . using Smirkes detailing of the Fears (which . i think its a lot more nebulous than that but whatever)
also its DEEPLY funny to me that like. my system name for the longest time and even now tbh was Maratus, with collective name Mara for short. Maratus is the peacock spider genus
as well as my Thing abt weaving fate together, getting into tatting lace and crochet, wanting to get even more into like. honest to god spinning and weaving and knot magic and stitch magic in my practice
AND ALSO. final nail in THAT coffin. someone did an energy reading on me once and straight up got fullblown spider demon vibes off of me? w the concept of "you can literally spin ur own web" as something they noticed. which is just. FASCINATING.
+ my energy being called sticky and/or web-like on multiple occasions
like. thinking of terms that i would consider myself w the Fears that ARENT the spiral (bc i am first and foremost an Avatar of the Spiral).
Child of the Web feels a lot better than any of the others? bc im not a Victim, Avatar, or even really necessarily Marked imo. its just like. thats who created me? thats who made me and who built me out of nothing? thats who legit created my soul? if nobody has my back, i know my Mama has my back! its a more personal relationship than anything else honestly. just like. wholeass that is my Mother and i am absolutely my Mother's Child. you *could* consider me marked from birth but idk that doesnt feel OR sound right
(also im a pretty doll :) i mean Doll and dollself are legit. identity at this point. both for coping reasons and xenic reasons. in both marionette AND bjd ways. im not human! and have never ever felt human!)
+ Marked by the Lonely . bc yeah former Victim WOOOOO my childhood was AWFUL!
ik theres an Eye association w me but i have no idea what it is. shrug. research is my hobby and i legit live for doing it. also it def feels nice to chew on info when im researching, very satisfying. no i dont think im an Avatar, and im definitely not a Victim. the Eye just straight up doesnt scare me. tbh i think theres *potential* for Avatarhood fr me at some point but if it happens it happens idrc either way. i just exist!
...honestly Victim of the Corruption would also apply to me but i take a very "if i dont see it it doesnt exist" approach to that and its not anything active in my life . fr the most part. so shrug
YKNOW. the Dark would be called my parent too. i dont think of that part of things as often as i do my Mom but like. Child of the Dark also fits here. i mean . "Born from dark water, daughter of the rain and snow" is something that i take fully as identity. (yes thats a line from Landscape by Florence and the Machine). also it connects to my former beliefs abt Leviathan = soul parent and what is he but associated with the abyss, water, and darkness
ngl its also funny looking at that from the concept of like. my eyes practically cannot handle any direct sunlight. it hurts them so bad ;;v;; like my eyes are ridiculously sensitive to light and i have insanely good night vision somehow. i know literally nobody else like that. also the concept of the Void is deeply comforting actually. vantablack :)
also unrelated slightly but A Fathers Love is my favorite episode out of literally all of the ones ive heard on TMA. like its just the best one ever
#thinkin more abt stuff!#primordial waters of the void = the dark#lunar scary mom = the web#to me at least#also gestures at past life things
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To awnser pretty anon- formaldehyde is used for commercial preservation and seeping the liquid 100% clear. Like for studying proposes. I used isopropylbecuse it turns cloudy with age and makes the stuff inside look super old/ ancient. So it goes perfectly with the ‘sea witch but if the sea witch was a little crazier’ aesthetic.
Also I get the fiction vs reality thing lmao, my twin is HORRIFIED of anything even remotely bloody/goery irl. Like passed out at seeing a paper cut type Squamish but can read blood and gore novels all day lmao.
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are u trying to become ursula.... bc thts iconic. just having random organs and stuff is like iconic and cool honestly.
im kind of insane where sometimes the word blood triggers me and i shrivel into my skin and i want nothing to touch me ever again.
and then sometimes im writing this shit. so its not even just purely fiction is ok and reality isnt bc fiction isnt always ok either.
but i have found im ok with topics that would usually trigger me if im the one writing them? i have more control and i know its coming so I can enjoy it more than if i was reading it in a random fic.
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wanted to save the sophia fic for when i could js sit and relax w/o ANY interruptions, and ong it was worth the wait pls anything angst + jealous gf trope i WILL eat up 🙏 my obsession w sophias been so bad recently ever since my fyp on tt OUT OF NOWHERE js became a compilation of sophia edits pls they want me dead so this did it for me and lara was SO real abt fumbling pretty girls cs idk wht i'd do if i fumbled manon AND sophia omg thts js an insane combo but so glad everything was resolved at the end or else i wouldve jumped 💔 but ANYWAYS u write angst sooo well like i fear the day where u might write a full on angst w no fluff or happy ending...like i'll prob BAWLL not even joking
ATOP PLS I LOVE U that sophia fic was my 100th time doing angst + jealous!gf fic i fear… 😭😭😭 perfecting that trope to its best i guess !!! or maybe putting it to retirement. who knows 🤫🤫 no legit ive been getting sm katseye edits nd i am SO happy bc during this summer there was a katseye edit drought nd gosh im so happy theyve grown sm 😵😵😵 pls and all the sophia edits. IMA TWEAK OUT SBB SHES SO DROPDEAD GORGEOUS likekekek she is glowingggg👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👩 reader fumblinf manon AND sophia iss o funng 2 me like yesss go girl!loser !!! 🫡🫡🫡 loser/downbad reader u will always be my favorite thing to write. will ALWAYS work loser reader to the bone !! and THANK U baby im gonna kiss u stopp☹️☹️☹️☹️ i have a lil angsty fic for manon in line heh ❤️❤️💞💞 no fluffy ending probably. 😵😵😵 perchance toxic manon…!
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klavier very clearly having a facade over all of what he does is sooooo fun. Mind you i havent revisted aa4 (besides serenade) in ages so idr anything. i don't even know who klavier is. but it's funnnnn. i know a lot of ppl are like "he CLEARLY has a crush on apollo" and i think he 100% does attach to apollo in some regard but its fun, to me, if how he talks to apollo is still largely facade. that playflirting? that play insulting? it's play... it's pretend. it's a cover!
but rly idgaf abt klavier so intensely so you'll never see strong analysis of him from me, but like, he has a few lines tht just stick w me. mostly this one
THAT'S SO FUN. BC IT'S NOT TRUE IN THE SLIGHTEST. it's not even a good attempt at bullshitting. he says it, im pretty sure, with that dumb fucking pretty smile on his face, For the cameras ass smile, and its such a blatantly empty statement tht i adore it. Like why are you saying that!!!
it's funnnn because klavier, obviously, music is like, His Escape from it all, like it rly does seem as if music is his stronger passion over prosecuting (though i know they're probably equal). so conceivably this could be a really expressive moment for him. but instead he's like. Bc die girlies. ^_^ And like that's it. ....OKAY?
klavier to me has such a like, weird, attaching sort of behavior, i think. he attached to kristoph bc brother, and modeled after him. and then he attaches to daryan, as partner, and best friend, and right hand man (real thing he said, i swear). so it makes sense if he also attaches to apollo...almost as soon as kristoph is out of his life, basically?! oh he's insane. he's like. i need you to bounce off of. i need you to seek the truth with me.
but all the while, he's a little freak who hides everything behind a pretty smile. ...
Crazy .......
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5/14/23
listening to no romance by tirzah on repeat right now~ i bought these glasses at a closet sale that mara and sara threw with a few other girls. was so cute <3 i had a chat with my therapist on friday about how i tend to run away from romantic encounters. any person or romantic interaction rooted in reality i avoid all together. i clearly have a fear of intimacy but it's strange because i still desire connection. in fact, a big part of my everyday sadness is due to the fact that i don't have a romantic partner to share my life with.
i know i'm very picky, that's part of the reason why i prefer being alone. i don't like many people (at least in a romantic sense.) i like one person every now and then. which is pretty insane because i am constantly meeting cool new people. it's just very very few ever scratch the surface for me. i wish i could change that about myself.
this tirzah song is ironically reflective of my love life since 2018. i didn't mean to listen to it on repeat it just happened. i've been pretty miserable since 2018, in a romantic sense. i've been pretty miserable in a romantic sense almost always honestly. but especially from 2018 to now i've experienced really traumatic and painful interactions that felt worthlessly cruel.
i suppose i learned a lot from those people but i really wish i was given some semblance of love in between the pain. there was no such thing though. only pain, through and through.
i faced every obstacle during this time period. it all only got worse. my physical health, facing potential death by the age of 24 (luckily i'm okay now, i'm 23 so tht would've sucked lol) being completely isolated and alone, having stalkers and when there came to be someone i did like romantically something would always get in the way. it would be impossible for us to make it work. my *no longer* male best friend got into my paranoid ex's head in 2018, causing us to break up because he wanted me for himself. he's one of the few people i'll always have a feeling of immense disgust towards. but after that the only thing that brought my life aspects of positivity was music.
making music throughout the difficult times in my life has gotten me to this point where i am able to have a career i'm proud of, to make art i'm proud of. the cost was very large though. i had nothing to live for except for the music. and i think that shows in what i've released so far, at least i hope it does.
i want a real partner though. i want to experience romance. i want that. i haven't had that since 2018. i'm scared but i'm going to try my best to make it happen. with someone i genuinely like.
i have a person in mind.
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Hello! How's your week been?
I was wondering if you would be willing to write a Hunter x Basilisk!Reader? I think it would be interesting considering Hunter just found out he's a grimwalker.
Hello! My week has been great thank you for asking :) Sorry that it took me so long to write your request 😅
I made these in to HC since you weren't too specific on what scenario i sould write, so sorry if this isn't what you were asking :(
Anyway, since I'm dumb feel free to correct my mistakes if I get anything wrong :)
To start things off the first encounter with Hunter and how he acts around you depends on what the scenario is
If he met you in a forest in your non basilisk form he would freak out and run away. Since, well you're a basilisk
But if he met you in the Noceda household he wouldn't be as scared
Yes he would still be very cautious around you but he'll warm up to you pretty quickly
Since we kind of know how exactly the hexsquad reacted the first time they saw Vee, assuming that Luz already told them about Vee when they were still in the Boiling Isles, let's make things easier for me and just say that you never appeared during the time that Luz was in the mirror world (idk how else to call it)
So the hexsquad would be pretty surprised but seeing Vee and Mrs Noceda so calm around you makes them somewhat relax
They would still be on edge for the most part but they will learn to warm up to you
Now back to Hunter
He would be extremely cautious around you, since he clearly remembers Luz only mentioning only one basilisk
So expect the cold shoulder around him and always feeling eyes on you when you knew no one was around for at least two weeks or so
The more Hunter inspects you the more he feels amazed
As we know Hunter is a huge nerd and he probably came across a book about creatures such as basilisk's at least once, and he probably knew tht they were extinct. So him seeing a basilisk, let alone two basilisk's he is amazed
But still because he knows the awful stories that are portraid in books he is very cautious, more around you that is, since again as I mentioned, Luz probably mentioned Vee back in the Boiling Isles
Now, onto the more fun part to write
When Hunter finally comes to the conclusion that you are in fact not a danger (which the others realized weeks before) he will feel a lot more comfortable
For example he will actually start talking to you and get to know you better
But as the days pass you two seem to grow a connection
The two of you would talk more. Go on walks around the park just to enjoy nature. Do fun activities together such as cooking (you're doing all of the work while Hunter watches). You even shapeshift in front of him to different people and do stupid stuff while Hunter laughs his ass of and tries to copy you
And then there's that one feeling that makes hunter question reality. You could probably guess what feeling I'm talking about
At first he wouldn't understand exactly what's going on with him, because of his time being Golden Guard he never exactly had the time to explore his emotion's
Plus the whole thing in Belos's mind got him even more confused on who he is and if he can even feel what others feel
And so he does what any curious boy does and goes to Luz to ask her about this weird thing he's feeling, of course him not knowing that the feeling is in fact love, or more realistically the feeling of like liking someone, he mentions your name
And to say Luz would be excited is an understatement
She would be squeeling like a fan girl and running around the room, jumping around as she talks to herself excitedly on what your shop name sould be
Hunter is just looking at her with one of his brows arched as he's asking why she's excited all of a sudden
When Luz explains that the feeling he is going through is love he'll be shocked
From then on hell me more awkward around you. Constantly fiddling with the ends of his sleeves and fingers, blushing insanely and his ears would wiggle slightly when you spoke up
Everyone would slowly pick up on Hunter having a crush on you (Luz probably told them a bit later on) but you would be the only clueless one, just thinking that Hunter's going through an awkward stage or something like that
Luz and Vee would probably drop little hints to you, not obvious hints of course, but they would leave you slightly confused
Hunter will be scolding them 100% but they would just make him even more embarrassed by making kissy faces and acting like him
But let's get into the thanks to them episode a bit more
You would notice that Hunter is acting strangely but you just brush it off as mood swings or something like that
But you would get a bit more worried when you saw Hunter running in to the woods and Luz running after him with a scared expression
You being curious, wanting to know what the hell is going on, you follow them
And the next moment you're fighting with a possessed Hunter
Your heart breaking every time he would get hurt, still knowing and trying to tell yourself that that wasn't Hunter
When Hunter finally comes back to his senses and throws the titans blood in to the lake (?)
Your heart dropped when he jumped in. Already getting ready to jump in, but Camila was already one step ahead of you
Pulling him out of the water you were the first one to run up to him, hugging him close as tears build up in to your eyes
But flapjack was there to save the day, jumping on to Hunter's chest, and well... You know what happened next
Now, everyone was walking through the portal, Hunter the last one to enter, but he turned towards you
As he looked in to your eyes, and took in every single detail of your face he slowly walked towards you, grabbing on to your hand
And after a short but emotional confession he put his lips onto yours, putting a had on his cheek you turned your head slightly, smiling in to the kiss
You two pull away slowly and Hunter brushes your knuckles with his thumb, but the moment was ruined when the portal starts to flicker
He quickly runs through it and you're left there with a dumb smile on your face, looking at the portal as it slowly faded away
You were cut out of your thoughts when Vee starts to re-enact the moment you shared with Hunter
Leaving you embarrassed and leaving as Vee teased you while following you, suddenly remembering tha the keys to the car were still with Camila
But you couldn't help but repeat the kiss you and hunter shared over and over in your head. Already getting excited at the thought of seeing him again
Damn, this is way longer than I expected-
Anyway, I hope you enjoy this and feel free to correct any mistakes :)
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