#thoughts of self destruction

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[stump-not-found]

A Lifetime Served in a Little Cup

pt.1 / pt.2 / pt.3 / pt.4

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bill, babygirl, the red flags get outta there

[insatiablexi]

[injuredsoullessfrog]

[rainywhispersblog]

[foxlungz]

I just want to give up I’m tired from the bottom of my fucking soul like I don’t want to do this shit anymore like let me rest please I’ve had enough

[iwillnotseeheaven]

[w1sh1ngw3ll]

“You look like you’re about to cry.”

No I just wanna k1ll myself.

[doomedmanic]

the worst kind of anxiety is when u don't know what u are anxious about, yet you feel like something is about to go horribly wrong

[nabbibutterfly]

I wanna cry, scream, hurt myself, and die so bad, but I just don't have energy for anything anymore...

I feel so damn exhausted

[themindofmine]

I feel like I’m already dead but I have to keep on living

[4amcutie]

I’m like 99% sure everyone I know actually finds me so fucking annoying

[dioradd1ctbitch]

not eating anything when everyone around you is eating feels so empowering

[lostmf]

By @hel7l7

[foxlungz]

They should invent a way to kill yourself that doesn’t disappoint anyone

[awkwardxbatman]

i dont know how to ask for help without feeling like a burden