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Okay I’m. Usually. Usually I don’t enjoy human aus and usually I hate drawing transformers as humans because it feels so wrong to my brain.
But then I stumbled upon Dream of something more by Gemma_Inkyboots and aaauuuhh fuck. Here’s the pile of the most vague and unspecific and undetailed fanart. Because I’m being torn between “I can’t drawing human designs” and “If don’t draw something for this fic I die”.
#maccadam#transformers#dratchet#ratchlock#drift#deadlock#ratchet#it’s kind of mermaid au#but I ….auuhh I can’t design mer Deadlock spare ne#*me#I’m struggling haha#at first I was like#oh okay I see. This is about mer falling in love with a human and then deciding that he needs to be a human too so he can be with his love#but something#SOMETHING was so interestingly off#and then I realised that….oh fuck#it’s not about ‘finding your love’#it’s about finding your way back to your love even though you have a fucking amnesia and don’t remember you are loved#Deadlock is so damn confused half of the time because he jUSt found Ratchet#but Ratchet already knows him and loves him and cares about him and he missed him so much and he thought Deadlock was dead???#………yeah….great fic#fic fanart#Deadlock thinking that Ratchet’s clothes smells like home and Ratchet’s food tastes like home is…..#*dies*#the fic is unfinished#there’s 2 chapters left I think? But it’s SO worth reading eheheh
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even though he seems to have objections about the vampiric diet, really it feels like he's playing it up, acting in line with the human morals he's "supposed" to have (killing & eating people is wrong)
of course there's nothing he could really do about it, but daniel literally sits there and watches a guy get escorted off to be lunch for armand and only has some short jabs about it in response
he's even curious about it all, another thing he can add to his book
really, his priority is always his book and his own life. i do wonder how he would've reacted to someone being killed in front of him (since the fox seems to disturb him), but it's clear by the time he's speaking with louis in the finale he has no issue with taking lives to feed himself. imo it's something that was present and lurking within him for a long time before becoming a vampire
#lines up nicely with his book counterpart#hes excited by how easily vampires can kill and knowing that armand has just fed on someone#he wants to watch when armand goes out to hunt#he has to be forced into his own first kill and it upsets him only for a moment and then taking human lives becomes exhilarating#in his case i think its that before being turned he already considered himself halfway between living and dead for a long time anyway#“imagine killing like that just taking life any time you want it just doing it#sinking your teeth into another and taking all that that person can possibly give”#<- normal thoughts from a normal boy's head#iwtv#daniel molloy
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Prompt:
Jason, after coming back to Gotham and taking over the criminal underworld— is burnt out.
He’s exhausted, he can’t sleep, he’s pretty sure he broke some ribs somewhere along the two month mark of being the Red Hood and he just wants to go home.
So he does, entering the Cave near deliriously while Batman and Robin are out on patrol, shattering the stupid memorial he comes across while he’s at it, and— huh, well, that actually looks like a pretty comfy spot to take a nap. He’s just gonna— one minute. He just needs one… minute…..
When Bruce and Tim return to the Cave it’s to a dead boy passed out in the shattered remains of the memorial case, wrapped up in the tattered cape Bruce pulled from the rubble in Ethiopia.
#jason goes home#sleep deprivation#is nothing to sneeze at#it makes you really loopy#Jason then wakes up to frantic pulse checking and what not#Bruce definitely thought someone had the audacity to dig up his dead son’s body to mock him with it at first#before he realized that#hold on a minute#he looks older#Tim is freaking out because his favorite Robin just came back to life#and god help him he’s making sure it’s permanent#even if he has to dunk him in a pit#(joke’s on him Talia already did that part#(everyone say thank you Talia)#jason todd#batfamily#batfam#bruce wayne#dick grayson#robin#tim drake#red hood#Nightwing#Batman#prompts
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Noh Sangcheol, seeing Go Jung-woo injured was reminded of his dead wife…
The trauma was so vivid he even had nightmares.
백설공주에게 죽음을 expanded version
#백설공주에게 죽음을#black out#when he woke up Jeongwoo was gone and he started searching for him#so “I'm a good civil servant” was just to cover up the fact that the injured JW reminded him of his dead wife#I wonder if GJW heard him#I wonder if this was the reason he kept clinging to him#or Maybe JW slept for the first time in a long time because he felt safer with the detective#ughh my head hurts from both implications#wow the JW/YW parallels have always been canon#NSC subconsciously thought of GJW as his wife🧐#GJW had already slipped in his circle of attachement#he just kept denying it to himself
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I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.
they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.
teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.
#random thought but. yeah……#I mean think about if crystal happened to be killed somehow pre-demonic intervention#she would’ve been deemed deserving of hell by the standards we’ve seen. no doubt about it. if the dragon guys were pulled to hell then yeah.#she would be as well. simply put- she was a bully#she was also a teenager. not a fully developed person. a very damaged and neglected teenager at that#it’s kinda like the criminal justice system right. it’s like. hey you really think sending them to be tormented is the most humane and#efficient way to heal these kids of what makes them act out and allow them to grow and improve?#Crystal’s such a good case to look at because she’s. well. to compare to The Good Place which you can probably already tell I’ve watched 800#times and adore with all my heart. she’s kinda the michael of the group#no one knows it at first but she’s actually kind of a terror to people most of the time. but she’s put in a situation where she#suddenly has a support system- people who care about her and want the best for her- she’s given a purpose and realizes how much better it is#to use her powers to help rather than hurt (well. sometimes helping can involve hurting but you get it)#and by the time she’s regained her memories and has a place in the agency it’s much easier to reflect on her life and be like huh!#this system kinda fucking sucks!#not that edwin wasn’t an example unto himself but he was a ‘clerical error’ not a ‘rightfully’ condemned person#with his situation someone could argue that the problem isn’t with the system being wack as a whole- it should just be maintained better so#these ‘errors’ don’t happen and all the good kids go to their afterlives and the Bad Evil Kids go to hell.#yes yes I know they’re not in hell forever (hopefully) but uhh Simon was still there for over a century and for fucking What?#gay self-loathing and catholic guilt? his intentions were clearly not Truly Evil and more than anything he seems to have been punished using#how much he hated himself for being gay and how guilty he felt for it all. like shit aren’t those feelings enough of a punishment? if he had#lived through that ritual and edwin hadn’t– do you think he would’ve been Okay? I think it would’ve crushed him. chronically#man. anyway#this was an especially long ramble huh#rambling#edwin#edwin payne#dead boy detectives
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playing as arthur morgan is just: born to explore, forced to quest
#I have so much more time to explore as john marston but he doesnt have the same curiosity about the life and the world that arthur had#like I already found some places I hadn’t discovered as arthur and my first thought was#arthur would have loved this :/#but I always felt like I couldnt go explore because I needed to do stuff for the gang#like am I the only one who can do all these things??? apparently :///#also I MISS ARTHUR😭 I dont kin john like I do arthur#rdr2#arthur morgan#red dead redemption 2#my posts
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wait this is myyyy third? betta that was just given to me bc it sucks and is ugly. As an adult, I've never paid money for a betta fish. Tbf I didn't pay for the ones my parents kept when I was like 4-5 but those were still formative creatures in my life and I assume they were paid for.
#Puppy and worm were both acquired by going into a mom and pop shop and saying hey this thing is basically dead#can i get a discount if i wave the returns policy and what not?#(like it helps that ive cleaned tanks in both of these stores and was already a regular at them at the time of purchase for sure.)#and Nipy i got via emailing a guy in Houston saying 'your fish are beautiful and i trust your genetics are as good as your fish look'#'can i buy dome of your actual trash bc my garbage fish i get on discount make my heart happy but are not set up to live long lives'#and they guy said sure just pay shipping bc this thing was legit going to end up a feeder bc of all the xare hes going to need#nipy self amputated his fins because he didn't like how the water felt pulling on them so i had to do daily water changes instead of run#a filter and his tank only had soft fake flowers from michaels and that was enough to get him to cut it out.#idk man the only animals i have ever intentionally went out of my way to plan for and acquire were my first two cats#literally every other pet just. Showed up in my life. usually because their previous owner realized how hard it was to care for them#and dumped them when they were already half dead on Me. Age 8 and onwards.#Cardio i did intentionally acquire but that was less me wanting a cat and mote me wanting to prevent this 6 week old kitten i found#under my van getting ran over.#Literally everyone in my life thought i was going to keep that rabbit#but no!!!!! I Dont Have A Livable Place for a Person.#that is the only reason animals haven't gotten dumped on me in the last five years#The fish's ecosystem is easy enough to keep steady and my cats have heat admiters but all my actual animal care stuff is in boxes
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i just watched all of us strangers and um, that shit hits hard
#mescal my new crush with three of my all time favourite actors?! lgbtq rep?!#you bet i was watching that#(spoilers ahead >>)#but fml the tag under it said ''fantasy'' so i sort of went in with a hint#except at first i thought it was like a dystopian thing or an alien thing#and then it just got worse when my only two options turned out to be ''he sees ghosts'' or ''he suffers from schizophrenia''#😭😭 and the last scene omfg the scene where he founds him dead bro I FELT THAT COMING#i wasn't expecting to read the guy was already dead since the first day they show him?!#like stop. why did i even go digging further#yeah it made sense bc of the smell but 😭😭 i was already destroyed you didn't need to fucking kill him alright#let's not even begin to unwrap the whole rollercoaster with his parents bc i've got my issues myself and ugh#idek if anyone's gonna read this but i needed to vent#listen it was a good film but it has some touchy subjects frme#at least it wasn't all in his mind 😭#fml it'd been some time since a film destroyed me like this#films#all of us strangers#paul mescal#andrew scott#rambling
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SOS
I need extraction, NOW
I went to bed to get cozy and transfer my poetry into my notebook. My boyfriend burst in and CAUGHT ME
NOW HE WANTS TO READ THEM AND HE'S BEING WEIRD I SAID NO
Someone help, 911, anyone?
SAVE ME, I THINK I'M GOING TO DIE, I HAVE NOWHERE TO HIDE MY NOTEBOOKS NOW THAT HE KNOWS OF THEIR EXISTENCE
I might just have to bury myself in the yard with them tonight. Or do I get rid of him instead?
Either way, here's to staying up later than I'd like until he falls asleep 💀
#NO#secret#secret poetry#I am weird#real people can't ever know about this#how dare he#come into OUR room#unannounced#knock first next time#I am already dead#poets on tumblr#writing#poem#poetry#spilled ink#spilled thoughts#spilled poem#spilled writing#original writing
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IM ACTUALLY IN TEARS . WERE GETTING THERE
#vi rambling#pokemon#im so. im inconsolable#LUCIUS IS ALIVE. THE LITERAL DYING GIBEON HAS TO COME FACE TO FACE WITH LUCIUS PRESERVED THROUGH TIME.#AMETHIO IS FIGHTING WITH THE KIDS.#FULLY SIDE BY SIDE WITH LIKO DOT AND ROY#im literally fucking . crying rn why was this buildup bit with halo playing have me in tears#i need to yell about this with literally fucking anyone can anyone hear me#we literally see amethios mom next episode... she really is gibeons daughter.... dont fucking talk to me#im actually shaking i have so many thoughts and its all so jumbled.#so about the actual episode . it was so SO well executed. it gave roy his spotlight the stakes of this fight were so high in a way that#made their creative strategizing so affective and rewarding to watch. friede needs to stop with the self sacrificial tendencies.#but it was really good. i got emotional when terapagos got to climb rayquazas head after so long#just all around... so good and theyve grown so much#then writing to their families. their connection to their lineages. made me so so emotional#the only criticism i have is that diana wasnt shown. but i concur#it was so sweet theyre all back together. for rakua. at long last.#now for the next few episodes. just to get it out of the way:#WAAAHHUUUURHEHWHWHWHWJRKWKDIEUDUWHWIDIWKFKEKKELLW AHHHHHHHHHH#I think lucius still being alive was very well called. i think it's fascinating. and so unbelievably tragic that rystal died thinking#lucius is dead and now lucius is back and shes long gone. the romeo and juliet of it all but said very positively#the layers of lucius addressing liko... so many generations down the line...#gibeon having withstood all these centuries being already old and decaying and now facing lucius... preserved eternally young#just like the legend he paved in his wake. he's eternal.#it makes me wonder if this was all to save lucius in the first place. and now lucius is screaming at him to STOP.#i wonder if lucius would be glad to see gibeon survived... or mourn his fate...#and most importantly. AMETHIO#im so pleased. the tides have turned. i know some have been complaining about lack of buildup but i couldn't agree less#we're 80 episodes in. i agree he could use More screentime but the screentime he did have was so incredibly effective in building#chatacter progression. im literally running out of tags one second
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almost 4am can't stop thinking about the meaning of the idiom 'to have blood on [someone's] hands'—to be responsible for a person's death—combined with the fact that Zach is the one we are specifically shown with Daryl's actual blood on his hands (once for real and once in a dream)... Not Josh who had been holding the sword Daryl fell onto, but Zach who took the sword out.
#super dark times#+ part of it that's insane to me is: Josh COULD have easily ALSO gotten (literal) blood on his hands—we see him go to check for a pulse#after Zach did... but we don't see his hands during that—they're left out of the shot! we just see his face. and when we see his hands next#there's no visible blood on them (if any got on he theoretically wiped 'em off ig? similarly Zach's hands when seen AFTER the shot of him#touching Daryl ALSO don't rlly show blood anymore—we see his hands in the leaves tho so it prob went there) BUT SO there was a CHOICE made#to give us a close up shot of ZACH pulling his hand away from the wound with blood on it... but to NOT do the same/smthn similar with Josh.#and yet ZACH is the one who CAN'T ACCEPT THE ROLE HE PLAYED IN ANY OF ITTTTT!!!!!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!#this post brought to you by me rewatching the Zach + Charlie on the phone scene and needing to just. stop and scream at Zach being#like 'Josh‚ or fucking somebody else‚ they went up there and if they found Daryl alive—' LIKE BRO. YOU *KNOW* HE WAS DEAD.#YOU KNOW. YOU KNOOOOW. YOU WERE THERE. YOU KNOW HE WAS ALREADY DEAD. the denial. the trying to find any fucking way that#there could be even a sliver of a possibility that it WASN'T even PARTIALLY his fault.... shifting the blame entirely onto Josh...#[plus like. the 'somebody else' only added in after Charlie was giving him shit for trying to complicate this more—at first he was#straight up saying Josh was the one that fucked with the body]... aghghghsfd he makes me INSANE#also fwiw. i'm forever a 'Josh didn't harm anyone on purpose until AFTER his fight with Zach at Zach's house' truther. that provides#at least SOME sort of motivation to push him over an edge into... the shit that happens. anything before that just fuckin' doesn't make#sense. To Me. ive already written a lot on my thoughts about all of that though [uhhh in the tags of my gifset of the fight at Zach's house#anyways. im also NOT trying to say 'ah so we should Just Blame Zach' because nah nah this whole thing was a fucked up accident. they're all#to blame. plus Josh did horrible shit at the end On His Own there's no way of getting around that—but the messiness of how Zach handled the#initial incident and how that ripples out across the whole movie is simply soooooooo... ghghGHGhghGHGhghghgh. To Me.#in conclusion: im soooooooo normal about the characters in this movie (<- lying)
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Hello! I am here to ask about your Dior headcanons re: the political cohesion of Doriath. 👀
Oh man, I didn't expect anyone to actually take me up on that!
(Okay so I got partway into writing this and then realized I should probably note up front that I tend to stick to the Silm (& LOTR/the Hobbit where applicable, but they... aren't, here) as the most authoritative version of canon, and I can get into why and where the nuances/exceptions are there (I do say tend to stick, it's not hard and fast!), but that's mostly a side note here: the point is simply that I don't really factor other drafts or the poetic Leithian into my take on Doriath, Thingol, Dior, etc, just what we're told in the actual Silm. I also read the Silm as an in-universe history text compiled by in-universe scholars, who, being people, are going to have their own biases and blind spots, even when they're doing their best to be accurate!)
So, this is a two-part thing: #1, there's the political cohesion of Doriath before & at the time of Thingol's death, which i talked about in the tags of the post that prompted this ask but is kind of necessary as context for the Dior part to make sense, and #2, there's the actual Dior headcanons. Both of these parts are very long because I've never really seen anyone else suggest any of this stuff and I want to explain where I'm coming from thoroughly enough that it actually makes sense to people who aren't me, but the TL;DRs:
TL;DR 1: I think Doriath was probably a hot mess politically after Thingol died, with tensions between various groups of Sindar and Laiquendi in the leadup to Thingol's death & Melian's departure, and more political tensions afterwards between those who wanted Beren & Lúthien to come be the new rulers, and those who thought they should stay gone, with someone still in Doriath taking over.
TL;DR 2: I think Dior became Eluchil, potentially at the request of some portion of the Iathrim, hoping to help prevent Doriath from devolving into civil war, and saw dealing with the Silmaril-Fëanorioni situation as a lower priority than stabilizing Doriath's internal political situation until it was too late.
1. The political cohesion (or rather, lack thereof) in Doriath prior to Thingol's death
So, okay, the thing about Doriath is that we don't actually have any real idea of like... how much the Iathrim liked being the Iathrim? We're never told about any intra-Iathrim conflict, but a) the Silm was probably compiled mostly by surviving Gondolindrim or their descendants, so they wouldn't know about anything liike that unless surviving Iathrim told them, and after the Second Kinslaying I don't imagine many Iathrim would've been eager to talk about how things had actually been tense/messy/etc when they could remember everything as having been perfect until it was ruined by the Fëanorionrim, and doubly so after the Third Kinslaying, so why would anything like that make it into the Silm?
and b) what we do know about Doriath is that it wasn't really Doriath as we know it until Morgoth came back to Middle-earth, and everything went to hell.
At the start of the first age, you suddenly get Doriath (the fenced land!) being the one protected area of a continent that used to be totally free and open. How many Sindar actually didn't particularly care for Thingol's style of leadership, or simply preferred to live nomadic lives, going basically wherever they pleased, until suddenly that wasn't safe anymore, and you were only guaranteed survival if you were close enough to Menegroth to be within the Girdle when it went up? ditto how many Laiquendi had no interest in swearing loyalty to Thingol right after their own king had just been killed, but again, made it to safety and stayed there over taking their chances on their own in the outside world? (None of this is meant as any insult to Thingol himself, by the way; he can have been a good king who did his best for his people and still rubbed some of his new subjects-by-necessity the wrong way, through no fault of his own or theirs.)
I think it's entirely possible that there were always potential political tensions under the surface in Doriath that just... never got written about, because they never boiled over into actual political conflict, and so it was never the sort of tension that had any bearing on the historical record.
Except then Beren & Lúthien happen to the world, and a few years later the Narn, and in the blink of an eye suddenly the only king Doriath has ever had is dead, and the only queen Doriath has ever had is gone and the Girdle with her—and more than that, the only rulers the Sindar had ever had for three thousand years before Doriath existed.
And where a few years earlier I think the Iathrim would probably have turned pretty universally to Lúthien, now she's abandoned them for her human husband—and while she's my favorite character in the entire legendarium hands-down and I don't blame her, I think that's another place there might have actually been some very mixed feelings among the Iathrim that nobody wanted to admit to later because how could anyone have been upset with Lúthien—and on top of her abandoning them for him, I think it's extremely probable most of Doriath did not actually get over their xenophobia about humans in general or Beren in specific when Thingol did (we know for sure at least some of Doriath didn't, cf. Saeros insulting Túrin's mother & sister to his face), but again, who's going to admit to having had a grudge against the holy couple of Middle-earth after the fact, you know?
Conversely, there could've been a sizeable faction of Sindar who had been totally loyal to Thingol until everything happened with Beren & Lúthien, but who found his actions towards them and/or Finrod to be where they drew the line, and while (unlike B&L themselves) that faction stayed in Doriath, there could've been a new, additional tension on that front.
Finally, for all we know there were multiple factions within the Laiquendi of Doriath, with political tensions stretching back to before their king died, rooted in who-even-knows!
2. Dior
All of that, of course, sets up a very, very messy political situation for Dior to walk into.
The Doriath stuff is arguably more speculation than actual headcanon, but here's where the unambiguous headcanons come in: I don't think "Dior Eluchil set himself to raise anew the glory of the kingdom of Doriath." Obviously that's how it got written down, but bluntly, I can't see Beren and Lúthien having a kid that stupid or, like, power-hungry and arrogant?
What I can see is a situation where the messenger that brought word of Thingol's death and Melian's departure asked Beren & Lúthien to come take over as the new king and queen, we promise we're not mad about you leaving and we won't be xenophobic to your husband anymore we swear it's fine now pretty please, Beren & Lúthien said no, and the messenger either asked Dior as a second choice, or said "okay fine none of that was actually true but Doriath is falling apart and we need a leader ASAP and there's about eight different contenders* (mostly kinsmen of Thingol or Laiquendi) being backed by various factions and it's going to devolve into civil war any minute so if you care at all—" and Dior said "would I do?"
(* Ask me about my Galadriel headcanon)
I don't think Dior necessarily wanted to be king of Doriath, and I don't think he saw the throne as his birthright or anything like that; I don't think anyone involved, from Thingol to Lúthien to Dior himself, ever considered the possibility of Thingol dying and needing an heir! I think it's possible he was asked, or at most that he offered, and either way, I think he saw becoming king as taking on a responsibility for the sake of others.
(Which, like, "well here's a potentially impossible task that I'm going to take up even though probably no one thinks I'm actually capable of it, but it's my duty to help others as best I can" sure does sound to me like an attitude one might develop when raised by Lúthien "I kicked Sauron's ass cast a sleep spell on Morgoth and persuaded the Valar to find a loophole in the fabric of reality" Tinuviel and Beren "I stayed by my father's side as an outlaw to give my mother time to lead the rest of our people away hopefully to safety knowing I would never see her or any of them again (and then spent several years being a giant thorn in Morgoth's side for good measure)" Barahirion, where "apparently my grandpa I may or may not have ever met died, guess that makes me the king of a place i may or may not have ever been" does... not.)
I also think he either took on the epithet Eluchil, or was given it by whichever factions of the Iathrim accepted him as king, when he actually became king. Obviously he's going to be referred to as Dior Eluchil even before that in retrospect because that's how he's thought of later, but that doesn't mean it was actually a name he always had, you know?
The final thing is, I think if Dior essentially walked into a political situation five seconds from devolving into civil war, it makes his inaction regarding the Silmaril prior to the Second Kinslaying make more sense: the Fëanorioni have been sitting around doing nothing about the Silmaril in Doriath / with Beren & Lúthien this whole time, the letter saying "hey that's our Silmaril give it back now" is probably just a formality, and Dior's only been ruling for a couple years, there's still plenty of people dubious about whether he should be king at all, he might well be subject to at least some of whatever xenophobia remains about humans in Doriath, and in general all the work he's done on stabilizing the kingdom will absolutely come undone again if he screws up; he's trying to keep a kingdom from falling apart, the Silmaril thing can wait.
Of course, it wasn't a formality, and it couldn't wait, but why would Dior have known that?
#shrikeseams#replies#doriath#the silmarillion#dior eluchil#lotr#lotr meta#i guess?#character: dior#jesus christ this is so much longer than i meant it to be i'm so sorry#also my lunch break was supposed to end twenty minutes ago WHOOPS please forgive any typos i have no time to fix#also there wasn't a good place to stick this in#but i also think everyone in doriath probably has PTSD about thingol's death#(many of them may also have had PTSD already esp the laiquendi or those of the sindar who had to return to menegroth in a hurry#when the first waves of orcs showed up#but anyone who didn't already almost definitely does by the time dior gets there#because holy shit our king is dead the girdle is gone none of us are safe now and he was murdered before the girdle even fell#so have we even been as safe as we thought all this time or were the last couple centuries a lie?)#but yeah those are my dior headcanons!! idk if that picture of doriath or dior in particular are to anyone's taste but mine#but if nothing else i like the idea of dior getting to be... an actual person? and someone i can see having been raised by beren & lúthien#and he doesn't really get to be either of those in the silm and i rarely see him in fanworks getting fleshed out like other characters do#and i think that's kind of a shame#you know?#also yes i am completely ignoring that dior's name theoretically means ''successor'' bc like. why would they name him that#that is from an early draft and there is no way to know if ''dior'' would even have stayed his name#if tolkien had gotten around to updating all the names in B&L/CoH etc into modern Sindarin#never mind if it would have meant anything remotely similar#this is mostly a first-draft post written in one sitting in the space of 45 minutes partially while late for work#i have Definitely left many points out and i am sorry if anyone has questions about things i probably have answers / can elaborate further?
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blessed be (lorscher bienensegen) | telling the bees (wiþ ymbe)
Telling the bees [1] [2 - Colleen English] [3 - C. W. Hagge] // "Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years from Now" [remixed, abridged], Matthew Olzmann // "About Suffering" [remixed, abridged], Elisa Gabbert // "Bees, Honeycombs, Honey", Hayan Charara // [Albert Camus] in "A Time of Bees", Mona Van Duyn | Len Redkoles, Steve Caplan, Bruce Bennett, Andre Ringuette, Emilee Chen
#remember when i was like 'if i was insane-' yeah i literally started this the next day. was already downloading photos. finished it in 2??#days & it has been here so patiently waiting for me to add on the tags :)))) wanted to drop it with nothing like haha lol how is everybody#however. chronic yapper. ALSO IT'S A SCREENSHOT SO I COULDN'T DO IT BUT OOOO THE URGE TO MAKE THE CITATIONS LINKSSS ONE OF JOEL AND#CLAUDE KEEPER & ONE OF JOEL SCORING FOR HONEY & ONE OF HIM IN THE FLAMES FOR DEATH BEES ARE PRODUCTION ANIMALS YOU KNOW.#len redkoles first photo credit as always. len we love you. always coming through with the narrative & fun shots!!#i swear it's on a tk post from oyb teex that was just like 'len redkoles one of us' and the answer is yes of course. ALSO before i begin#please direct all complaints to alexandra whose fault this parially is <3 bc i tweeted about the trade &she was like 'danny b learned from#the richie/carts fiasco' and i went ”well danny knows from his own trade too OH MY GOD-' and also as always the tweet that was like#they should call philly a boneyard w/the way ships go there to get wrecked. good thing they got the naval museum in philly or w/e it was#ANYWAYYYY philly city of brotherly separation actually... brief aside i do have a beautiful little joellabee real bee au w/telling the bees#which is part of where that comes from bc it's joel getting told abt everybody's trades BUT also i had poem bits i scrapped bc they couldn'#fit but they do here in the appendix so. amend it as footnote after 'whales hunted to extinction' insert there in the blessing. lindros#explosive benzene transformative mercury also i liked the shot AND I ACTUALLY GOT KEVIN & YANDLE PIC LAST BUT I LOVE IT i was going to put#cutter on the seagull stomach one but then he fit so well (thank u len) for the bitchy line of like paper plastic & it needed to be a 2-set#bc 'everything's worse' made me laugh so hard w/him. but i am so happy bc i wanted kevin in it & then 'jet fuel' (we got him from the jets)#then i had edited the line it used to be plastic but i couldn't have that twice & the article also had shrapnel so i was like. well it's#that or styrofoam & then i went OH MY GOD YANDLE'S BROKEN IRON MAN STREAK. SHRAPNEL. STOP. also not me going BOB WAS THERE??? (and jagr???#bernie parent traded then coming back & saying he was better for it bc he got to learn from one of the greats... still regarded as one of#the most upsetting trades lmao & LISTEN. TORTUROUS LUXURY DANNY B BACK CLAUDE IMMEDIATELY GONE OK IT'S BRRING IN THERE. ALL THOSE OLD IDEAS#raff let go willingly is purely for me also. he ain't dead he's just in lausanne & i still have not transcribed “das größte ist vorbei” &#ALSO hinting at tzjd narratives dropping it running away. jamie staying the summers in philly & being so fine & happy vs trevor. &OFC WAYNE#i've used that photo before by god i'll use it again. flyer for a day to end it there. ALSO MIKE LIKES JEFF JEFF LOVES MIKE SEND POST &if i#had more photo editing skills &thought u'd still know it was bee i'd've made him a ghost &edited him out. i have SO many alts for suffering#the philadelphia flyers suffering#joel farabee#philadelphia flyers#am i HAPPY with this idk but it needs to get out of my drafts my tummy hurts. and that's why this is 'for a swarm of angry bees' bc this#is the evil version telling the story of what could've been if morgan didn't go with him. blessed be(ō) - bee/be thou a charm for happiness#liv in the replies
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even now i cling tightly to my glass slippers
#undescribed#bonk.png#uninhabited planet survive#mujin wakusei survive#caption is a line sharla says in episode 17 even tho im referencing swan lake with the dress colors#the whole glass slipper thing interests me bc i love fairytale theming n chako says luna's are already broken but like.#luna almost drowns TWICE for her dad's backpack (first time literally happens like two episodes before she gets sick 😭) n after the second#time strands her she admits to herself that deep down she still wants her (long dead) parents praise n that influences her#+ after sharla n howard come back controlled by survive while everyone is suspicious of howard luna's the only one that has a clue something#'s up with sharla but she just like ignores it bc she missed her. i think she's holding on to those shards chako!!#also thats why theres some blood on luna's hands in the third pic bc of glass slipper shards n also shes a bleeding heart 👍#i kind of wish there was a counterpart episode to 38 bc they dont get back in contact with luna until the end of the episode after she was#washed overboard during a storm at sea n to their knowledge there was no land nearby it probably wouldve given less of an impact to when#they think sharla n howard are dead but idc i like it when characters are unsure if they should be grieving or not#ALSO i understand that survive isnt that stupid n wouldnt reveal what hes doing when hes trying to survey luna's powers however#i do think he couldve toyed with emotional stress more rather than just physical danger bc sharla is luna's bestie she was ride or die day 1#for her n survive literallyhas full control oversharla is able to convincing act like her n just having nanomachines in her body upsets luna#so her bestie having them in them is AWFUL n would be distressing even without the knowledge that sharla is just being puppeted#and isnt even conscious related i dont think her n howard would have problems from the possession angle bc they canonically dont remember it#so any emotional troubles would come from the memory gap one second theyre dying n suddenly theyre in the computer room n luna's crucified#anyway love sharla n luna's friendship lots ive been rewatching n they genuinely are ride or die day 1 which is probably related to the#loneliness both experienced (sharla explicitly being excluded n bullied with it only getting to where its notactive by the start of the show#n luna implicitly bc of her being an orphan saying its just her n chako canonically being an independent with no suggestion she has anyone#else n the thing about parental praise) also they both so touchy with eachother ive only rewatched the first ten so far n in like at least#half of them they hug eachother n in almost all theyve clung or reached for the other in some way#like pre rewatch i thought i was exaggerating how quickly they became eachother's favs but i wasnt 😭😭#like theyve known eachother two weeks max at this point i get it these two had no other friends pre episode 1 but oh my god
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maybe bsol is that time jen tepper mentions when she was so upset about a review of a show of joe's that she broke a glass (&/or threw it out a window)
#could be anything ofc but i sure went sighhh i'll read the nyt review for science; i'm already assuming it's a piece of shit#(it was; thus predictably; a piece of shit. even the nyt rave for a show i liked was basically a piece of shit)#the only thing that makes raves higher quality is they might have actually bothered giving more info abt the show#& otherwise have devoted more thoughts & less space to just the critic's dogshit directionless griping. but barely; so#anyway i was like oh i can search twitter easily for a word as distinctive as bloodsong (except also a ship name for some videogame)#then i was like oh my god at a post from jenashtep about like oh it's the anniversary of two days in a row Events#first when the nyt bsol review was published second when i went to your apartment to make sure you weren't dead#(wait she didn't say To Make Sure You Weren't Dead she says Because I Thought You Were Dead....throw a glass situations)#like well damn also hmm....(also first thing the nyt would've covered at all i think. tbs never played in ny....or nj evidently)#one can only imagine. bsol is so [it does feel very christmas extravaganzay to me in ways. not the same lord knows but]#that like I'm riled fourteen years later finally listening to a boot which leaping into the arms of someone lifting up an Audio#same as xmas like sure i can't be like oh it's about this that the other precise moment though there are ones that extra rile me#can't say it's so obvious like i could Elevator Pitch explain to a rando why i Gasp or get weepy or just have some very special experience#plus i've never even gone lol. the way they can't stop the xmas show b/c it's a musical that just crops up a weekend a year lol#i'm so already like oh of course this is something i'm obsessed with forever now :) unsurprisingly & like it's so idiosyncratic god bless#(also unsurprisingly bloodsong seems to have been broadly warmly received; save by the Newspaper Of Note(tm) taking a dump & calling it a#day like will was saying abt tbs l.a. like oh audiences loved it local online coverage loved it just the less than halfassed review by the#Big Paper didn't & was like ''why isn't this a whole other thing'' called it a day)#anyway like hey I'm absolutely on fire for Outlaw for Not In Your Soul You Don't for Last On Land for Friendship Song to name a few#for what ended up being my proper angle of entry like oh that means a funny little villain then? (yes) like boy is that a banger alone#think thusly nominated for off bway relevant awards; got more than one nom....hey for one thing fourteen yrs later a rando can be obsessed#like that same rando cherishes the memory a livestream livechat interview where i said Black Suits Forever & they put that up onscreen so#joe had to pause like sorry i got distracted someone said black suits forever that's a line from the show & it's So that that show of mine#that never played in new york....like That's Right lol. i'm slamming the xmas fanart up to your window for year three joe Joseph the Show#(he did also see the bsol fanart which i more discreetly made a reply given he saw that Yay Krampusfucking reply last year lol)#anyway uh um. oh yeah wait also bloodsong is lifechanging sort of to me personally i'm just like. so relatively evenkeeled about it like#well of course :) & it counts as lifechanging when i get anticsful Posting. & it's lifechanging Any shows Any songs that are any kind of#impactful. speaking of like individual numbers in cabaret shows or the entire show or the album or concert or anything#as i reblog Outlaw again yelling or go god damn one Understands how last on land is the penultimate song on album#or i say to myself Whenever I Eat A Noodle; I Like To Think About The Hwheat That It Used To Belong To
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I have written 619 words of just notes on my first draft. I haven't even got into the second-draft outline yet. I'm still making notes on things I hate about my first draft.
And I'm not even halfway through the first draft yet.
Wish me luck.
#writers on tumblr#writeblr#writer thoughts#writer problems#this is going to be very brutal#we will#as my old drama teacher used to say#slash and burn#my poor first draft#he's already dead dammit
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