#this went in several directions

[incesthemes]

the great tragedy of supernatural is that it has lines it's not allowed to cross. it can't depict textual incest or even too much maladaptive affection; it can't show the reality of prolonged homelessness or food insecurity or the actual dangers of fraud and theft; it can't delve too deep into the lasting effects of abuse and neglect or trauma; it can't talk about political issues in any meaningful way—it can't contain anything too morally objectionable or uncomfortable for viewers. it has to build and maintain a fantasy that lets people ignore what they don't like. and that's a shame because of its roots in horror, so instead of being free to explore the themes and elements that form the show's foundation, a lot of it is left to subtext, to subtle nods, to "if you know you know" moments.

what the show does manage to depict on screen is rich and captivating, but at the end of the day it has an image to maintain that doesn't align with the reality of its own themes. the show is at odds with itself and its executives, and over time it gets progressively scrubbed clean just like the gritty, low saturation, high contrast lighting of early seasons. it departs even further from its horror foundation, relegates more and more of its worldbuilding and characterization to subtext, or even just memories of the past.

i just think it's a shame that despite its (original) genre, it faced so much opposition and so much sanitization that it never really had a chance to go all-in with its world and characters, and that what little it was able to depict was sucked away over time until it became a ghost of the american gothic horror it once was.

[cerealmonster15]

i forgot grunt meant like henchman or whatever for a second i thought they were like yeah leonas bitch ass grunts and growls are partial proof to savanaclaw being an athletic leaning dorm lol

[segernatural]

what is castiel's greatest regret?

link to panel is here, timestamp: 20:54, images below cut

when he was god he could've fixed the world but failed to

'he harboured his feelings for 10 years without actually sharing them, and waited until he was about to die to share his affections'

he never really patched things up with his angel brethren in heaven

he never actually felt like he belonged on earth

(likely connected to above but) he had very few friends

he had a very, very limited wardrobe

as cas looks back on his life, it's probably nothing but one giant sweep of regret

misha did book-end it with:

"Well, I think, in the big picture, Cas... the thing that I like about that character is that he always tried to do the right thing, always tried to do what he thought was good and righteous. And sometimes he made mistakes, but that was always his North Star, and I quite like that about him."

[icharchivist]

still thinking about how one of the first da4 trailer had a Titan waking up and trying to figure out at which point in development was it decided that ALL the Titans being made Tranquils were just like dead and therefore their time is over, despite also The Descent implying that a whole in the Veil stirred a sleeping titan and Cole saying "[the titans] want to wake up but they can't" in Trespasser.

Like, maybe it's my bias talking and I'm willing to admit that but I don't think the fate of the Titans was completely overlooked in Solas' original plan. I just think that once DA4 took the approach of "let the past go and focus on the present" the Titans had to be wrapped up, and since we never actually talk about Solas' motivations in game, it's left unclear whether Solas wanted to do something for the people he created Tranquility on -- but the original draft seems to imply that something was supposed to happen.

[monstermoviedean]

i've been so nervous about accidentally copying other people's posts and ideas and well! it happened! sorry! if it happens again 1) sorry again and 2) you all are welcome to send me the original post, i will happily reblog it and delete mine.

[smile-files]

today i'm going home so i can get my flu shot and vote with my family... hopefully both go well

[swallowtail-ageha]

Uuuugh this lady at ceramic that brought her son in and is like "oh well i brought him there to teach him boundaries" and MOTHERFUCKER YOU COULD HAVE DONE IT IN THE TWENTY YEARS YOU HAVE RAISED HIM. DO NOT DROP THE RESPONSABILITY ON ME (who is also autistic) AND THE HEAD CERAMIST JUST BECAUSE YOU SEE "OH WOMEN"

[hooved]

nothing makes me block someone faster than them writing paragraphs about how much they hate odo in the tags on my posts about him

[tequitoclown]

The only thing I miss about Twitter was when there was a Nintendo Direct or some form of video game news. Everyone would live tweet that shit so you'd refresh the page at every announcement and see 6 people screaming about the announcements.

Just pages of "LET'S FUCKING GOOOO" or "THIS LOOKS LIKE SHIT!" or "NO FUCKING WAY" or "WHAT THE FUUUUUUCK"

It sounds silly but I miss the level of hype. That's the only thing I truly miss about Twitter.

[troublcmakcrs]

I was writing a reply earlier, and it made me realize Craig suffers from pretty severe depersonalization, most prominently as a teenager, but it follows him into adulthood, too. I've got some more research to do before I hit him with an actual diagnosis of the triple-D's (Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder), but he is definitely experiencing Symptoms, and they do become debilitating and affect his relationships with other people.

The change is a subtle one that grows steadily worse as time passes, and at first, I would imagine very few people notice it. People don't take notice of the way Craig has become increasingly stiff, monotonous, robotic, and apathetic because... well... that's just Craig. But he stops answering texts from or spending time with even his closest friends because it requires more than the bare minimum of socialization out of him, and he can only manage the automatic and mechanical responses to most people. Going through the motions of life because he has to. Piloting the vessel he somehow came to be in possession of around the world because people would find it more odd if he didn't.

He becomes a much better student, leaning more heavily into his studies, because it allows him to engage in a lot of mindless repetition that comes most easily to him in those days and actually relaxes him in a way that few other things and the expectations that come with them do.

He often thinks about how he doesn't exist and bristles easily when other people speak to him, their perception of him clashing miserably with his own.

His nonexistence is a concern for him, and he is prone to tears when he suddenly awakens back into being and has to confront every feeling at once, although he tries to hide those tears from people and put himself back together as quickly as possible.

He often leaves his concept of personhood wrapped up in other places and things, and at his amusement park job, he finds a sense of being in the rollercoasters he works with, often viewing them as more alive than he is. He intertwines his existence with them and comes to feel that he only exists because they do. And he sees the world of the amusement park as much more real and substantial than the one outside. Whenever he leaves his job in the evenings, his energy rapidly depletes, and he goes back to feeling hollow and like he is navigating the rest of the world through a thick fog.

He is not disconnected from reality, though, and he understands the world outside the amusement park is the real world and that he must at least try to pay attention to it, although he struggles to reconcile his knowledge and his feelings.

Craig is, unfortunately, also resistant to the idea that he is "crazy" after putting up with Tweek for so many years. He feels like the more normal of the two of them and adamantly insists to both himself and others that he is not mentally ill and that everyone must feel as he does sometimes -- never mind that his "sometimes" has lasted multiple years. He tells himself that the agony of getting hollowed out every time he leaves a certain location, the way he blinks and suddenly it's been two months since the last time he texted someone (having a shaky relationship with the concept of time), or how the world seems more desaturated than it reasonably should be with only small pockets of vivid color here are there... are all just... quirky things about himself. The same growing pains that everyone must experience. He'll shake it off eventually, any day now.

He gets better at like... being aware and trying to work past it as an adult, although it is less of an acknowledgment of his mental illness and more of a resolution that he has got to be around for the people he cares about, and he starts working to repair a lot of his neglected friendships. He does, however, still experience periods where he gets "spacey" and seems/feels suddenly empty. He tries to stay in existence for as long as possible, but he still slips out of it now and again.

[kratomqueen]

tiktok makes me so embarrassed to tell people i have adhd

[opheliaweeps]

I wanna write fanfic about ‘an action hero’ (2023) and there is no one around to stop me

[unproduciblesmackdown]

one in a million when i watch smthing in the horror genre and don't end up disappointed to/and/or pissed off about it so like "also yeah i liked it. ooo" is like relative to that an off the charts rave review of media of the millennium. also i did think about mh a lot along the way so would recommend its affect/effect if you like mh's horror too

[lunarflare64]

Gods we wish AO3 would fucking separate the age regression/de-aging tag, they're two very different things, and the first is quite literally a trigger for us personally (loss of control, even if its willingly given up, is not escapism for us. Seeing characters willingly give it away/fall back to that state to cope is an actual nightmare to us. Literally. We've had nightmares about it. Not against it generally, you do you, BUT PLEASE KEEP IT AWAY FROM US), the other is something we actually enjoy for specific characters (as long as they don't keep their memories. *points to the nightmare thing*. Honestly de-aging with memories intact should have its own tag too.)

This is a very easy thing to have strong opinions about. It would be so much better and safer for everybody if the tags were separate. Because right now everybody is stuck with context clues from the other tags, which isn't a guaranteed thing, leaving guessing to be the only other option. Every time we have to deal with this we can only wonder how the hell AO3 fucked this one up

[jvzebel-x]

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[orcelito]

ok so like. between Sentido and In the Next Life, the kudos discrepancy is obvious (it being a tristamp vs trimax fic)

but honestly, the engagement with In the Next Life is honestly rly encouraging. a 10.8% comments to kudos percentage for Sentido vs 30.8% for ITNL

it was a lil discouraging at first how few kudos it got bc i just got off the high of super fast growing Sentido. but like, when you think about it it makes a lot of sense. the general tristamp fic with a simple setup & effective character exploration using a structure i havent seen otherwise.

vs heavy heavy HEAVY trimax spoilers fic. like this fic is made For Me to cope with reading trimax. but for ppl who dont read as fast as me or havent started it after watching tristamp. if they care about spoilers, this is not what theyre gonna be reading

so it makes sense! and im no longer disappointed, especially considering how sweet all my commenters have been.

im just gonna keep goin at it. im writing this for Me, and either it'll get more attention or it wont. it's enough for the people who are here now to continue this journey with me.