#this series will have abuse

[kraymerman]

Memories of Past Sins - Christmas Gift

I've been inspired by a post of mine actually getting some attention (when, I'll be honest, I expected it to get nowhere), so I made what is hopefully the first episode in a short miniseries. I won't say what, or who, the story is actually about for the theatrics of it, but it concerns the backstory of a very particular drone.

Darla! It's about a drone named Darla!

For any pc viewers that see this post (or any viewer for that matter) I'm sorry that it's so compressed. One complaint I have posting images to Tumblr is that I have no idea what the correct sizings are until I spend all day on a piece, just for it to become blurry when I make it too small without realizing it. I tried to upscale this one as much as possible, but it's not perfect. Be rest assured that, when (hopefully not if) I continue this series, the rest of them will be big enough. I have a size in mind now that should work.

[khaopybara]

❝Tan taught it to me. He said you would like it. He said it would seduce... I shouldn't have listened.❞

LINGLING SIRILAK as FAHLADA THANANUSAK and ORM KORNNAPHAT as EARN SANITHADA episode 7 of THE SECRET OF US

[alicenpai]

i love...wanpee...........🍊🍶🧡💚

[yudidoodles]

I knowwww this probably isn't how this bit is meant to be read but like,,, its very funny that when asked "how do flirt" they reply with how they treat each other

[profoundwebhead]

i adore percabeth but also as someone who claims infodumping as a love language… the whole annabeth talks about architecture with percy because he’ll listen and percy listens to annabeth talk about architecture because she’s one of the first and few people that make him feel like he fits in. makes him feel like he’s at home… and mortally anchors him to this world… is everything to me.

nobody does it like them

percy’s love language is physical touch btw

when the wars are over and annabeth and percy just sleepily sit next to each other or lay in bed and maybe they are holding hands or one of them is leaning on the other’s body or just… just them.

the warmth and being close and the rise and fall of their chest with every breath, showing that they are still here and still alive and with one another?

it’s everything to them but it’s percy’s love language to have someone as amazing as her in a way he never believed he could because she was too good for him

and annabeth having percy in a way she never believed she could because she was never going to be enough for him, due to her abandonment issues and neglected childhood.

[casually-eat-my-soul]

I might get hate for this but I’ll it always find it funny that Scott pushes Derek to work with the argents (season 3 ish) and and struggles to understand why when he refuses to; When Scott himself refused to work with Derek for the longest time becuase Derek killed Peter.

Like brother in Christ, I get it, objectively Derek kinda manipulated Scott into helping kill Peter, by promising that he would be able to kill Peter and turn human (he did say it was a fat chance and just a legend). Yes he knew that the legend was bullshit but telling Scott was the best way to get him to help.

Dereks been a werewolf his entire life. He knew that he couldn’t kill Peter alone and that the risk of letting Scott kill Peter on a chance of turning human wasn’t worth it. — Best case it happens Scott turns human, Derek maybe becomes an alpha werewolf (the spark transfers) and still creates the hale pack — maybe derek stays an Omega, goes feral and gets hunted down. Or maybe Scott turns into an alpha doesn’t handle it well, goes feral, and than gets killed by either 1 Derek or 2 hunters.

So yes maybe he did manipulate Scott into helping but in the end there is some logic behind Derek killing Peter. So I get the betrayal behind not wanting to be around him

On the other hand pushing him to work with the argents when they killed his family and tortured Boyd and Erica isn’t and not understanding why he doesn’t want to work with them is objectively funny. Even stiles could read the room, shot out to the one scene “would you rather I burned his house down”

[claudiadpdl]

imagine consuming a piece of media like iwtv and boiling it down to "the abuse show" and telling people they should kill themselves for caring about the romance of it (which is a fundamental part alongside the grieving and healing from the unavoidable loss of your child). i honestly do not know how someone could watch two entire seasons (assuming the books weren't read because there's no way you'd say something like that otherwise) and come away with that specific opinion. watching a fucked up show about fucked up people and an exploration of said fucked up-ness with this exhausting mindset of 'ethical correctness' only hurts you in the long run. and beyond that? media literacy needs to be a mandated class in grade school.

[izzystizzys]

i think if i was commander fox of the coruscant guard and some wrinkled raisin of a man who i was bound under pain of death or torture to protect along with a planet’s worth of ungrateful, uppity rich fucks who couldn’t be bothered to consider me sentient much less deserving of a smidgen of civil rights, looked me in the eye and went i’m going to catch and store a massive, eldritch space monster right smack dab in the middle of all the Most Important And Very Breakable people and places on this planet under the most flimsy, whack-ass excuse you’ve ever heard and also it’s your circus and your monkeys-

well i think i would simply have punted him out the window

[hawkogurl]

[kelin-is-writing]

And I’m feeling… Not very good…

[pix-writes]

"Ford is grateful for your patience and willingness to be involved in his life, especially as he knows he wasn't good at opening up to you when you were starting to become friends let alone a relationship." This is from Stanford HC, and I find it very interesting! How would he act at the beginning of the relationship? What does it take for him to become friends with someone, and that evolves into romance?

My thinking behind this part of my HCs is what Ford has been like through the series, he is shown throughout multiple media in the GF series, that he has continually pushed people away as part of his wound of feeling isolated due to his intellect and polydactly. Through this wound he's actually developed over the course of the series and his time in the portal a lone genius hero archetype that he wants to fit into, to compensate for the hurt he has continually felt from others and being an 'outsider'. (I could go into this in more depth about where this comes from in his childhood and how it affects his outlook when he comes across bill/building the portal, honeslty, but this is the jist of what I want to get across).

(rest under cut)

It's only really once we get to weirdmageddon and post-oddpocalypse, that Ford's arc comes full-circle into healing this wound for good --> as we know Ford has a fair few people in his life who love/care for him, in the past (Bill era) he was unable to see it, but once he exits the portal he begins to care for the twins and value them (and stan, even though he doesn't show it); this makes him take a similar route in trying to defeat Bill still largely on his own, because he doesn't want the people he loves to be in danger and blames himself for Bill's hold on their dimension, thus Ford thinks it's his problem to deal with --> Once they start working together to defeat Bill is the turning point for him to realise that he was wrong and that in order to defeat Bill, you have to work together. [I think he even says that he realises he was foolish for thinking he had to go it alone and that there are people who love him that he can share the buren with, I think in Journal 3 or TBOB (can't remember which rn).] I would argue that it's not until Stanley's great sacrifice in order to save the kids/the world, after screwing up the circle magic thingy, that reality hits him like a ton of bricks and he starts being more open and quickly starts to heal his biggest character wound.

So, considering this in a potential relationship, I think Ford, is generally closed-off, which hasn't helped him in the romance department in his life in the past! Whilst I can see the judgement of others and his outsider status socially would impact this as well, being closed-off and individualistic means that when he does come across someone who would be a good prospective partner, he just... assumes they'd not be interested or overlooks them because he's doing something important and isn't thinking of romance in the moment, so if the other person flirts with him he's not good on picking it up. [I'm finding this all terribly relatable!]

With the insecurity from his wound on top of this, it doesn't make for a good mix, Fiddleford, for example, was not only an assistant but quite a great friend to Ford that he didn't appreciate at the time and due to the added influence of Bill wanting to isolate him from people, Fiddleford ended up having his attempts of deeper connection being thrown back in his face! Whilst a lot of this was unintentionally done on Ford's part, he did tell him when he left that he "didn't need anyone". In the past at Backupsmore Uni, he says that there's not a lot of people he finds 'smart enough' to be on his level to be friends with - which is textbook classic defensiveness to reverse that 'no-one understands me' mentality into something that props up his ego instead. Pushing people away means that he won't have to face the rejection he continually experienced in his childhood, but it means he's potentially pushed away people who could like him as well!

So, I think that in the beginning of a budding friendship/potential relationship, Ford would not be the best at connection or communicating his feelings openly, he'd likely step on other people's toes (metaphorically) in social situations, without realising or meaning to offend someone.

That said, I think it'd be easy for him to become interested in someone who is clearly talented and intelligent, someone who similarly values higher education yet also has a similar love for that which doesn't fit the norm/is bizarre. Perhaps someone who is also deemed a societal 'outsider'. He's been feeling lonely for so long that if you're persistent and kind and can get him to talk on the subjects he loves, he'll start to see you as a friend. I think that being kind and thoughtful with gestures (acts of service) and gifts either to him or his grand-niece/nephew are other things that will make you stand out from the crowd, too, for him to see you as a genuine good person and friend.

However, he will struggle to open up and to let out his natural self (nerdy, passionate, dedicated, 'weird'), so it will take a while to deeply connect to Ford if you're friends, and even longer for him to realise you're interested in him romantically and to act on it.

I think in that stage of 'good friends that are attracted to each other', he would have fallen for you fast; but at the same time he doesn't trust that you are romantically interested in him, even if you have said that you are, part of his mind tells him that it's a trick, a joke. You might think you want to be with him, but you'll leave him soon enough when you realise he's so inexperienced in romance/relationships etc, etc. I think a lot of his old wounded mentality would surface and he's try to push you away, if you get together post-weirdmageddon, or would just shoot you down intentionally/unintentionally if you get together beforehand. Furthermore, he has been a 'loner' for most of his life, particularly after 30 years in the portal, so it's difficult at first in a relationship to share the more mundane things, since he's used to being on his own.

Ford would overthink things to the point of anxiety at the very beginning of a relationship and make it more awkward than if he just relaxed! ^^' He's a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to planning dates, too (reminds me of dipper with the list lol), though it's sweet, cause he cares so much to make it good for you! Once it goes wrong a couple times, you'll both find the humour in it and he'll realise he's being foolish again and relax a little. You'll have to give him reassurance and go at his slow pace in the start of a relationship and he'll find some confidence, probably quicker than either of you anticipated too! He's liked you for a long time by the time you get together, so whether he intends to or not his passionate nature leaks through ;)

[akirathedramaqueen]

You know what I love about this show so much?

The kindness. The understanding. The redemption.

And that's in the setting of fucking Hell. The irony.

The characters are deeply flawed. They make a lot of mistakes. They fuck up even trying to fix things.

But they are trying. They have a lot of virtues, too, even though they don't see them themselves. They slowly but surely process their problems. They work around their trauma and the conditions they were raised in, deeply affected by it, hurting but still powering through, learning, and developing.

Although we are far from the end of these characters' journey, the SpindleHorse team does an amazing job of making these characters sympathetic, believable, and real. They give you the information and the opportunity to understand how complicated things are, how both sides of the conflict can be understood and blamed at the same time.

And the main thing? The forgiveness and redemption. You want these characters to do better, to be better, of course. But you also want them to be loved, despite the fact that what they did was obviously wrong.

You, as the viewer, already forgive them, and you just want them to forgive themselves. To allow themselves to be loved.

When I watched the show and saw them making the same mistakes I did, some horrible things I wouldn’t forgive myself for and struggled with for years, I suddenly understood the struggle. I empathized with them. I wanted to give them a hug. I wanted to comfort them and promise that things would get better and encourage them to give it one more try, one more talk. I wanted to scold them for self-loathing because I know all too well the kinds of dark places it can lead you to sometimes.

And then the thought comes to mind, "Can I afford a bit of this empathy for myself too? Just allow myself to live with the fuckup and allow myself to be human?"

It didn't fix me. But it eased my turmoil and taught me to understand it better. It taught me some empathy, too, and I thought I was the one with the emotional ingelligence of a nightstand. Well, I still kinda am, but at least I learned to listen to people sometimes.

I just want to thank the whole team who worked on Helluva Boss for all the self-reflections I experienced with their creation.

Thank you.

[dropthedemiurge]

Chun Sangwon: Frustrated bisexual + second lead syndrome

+ bonus (good main character posing like a bad guy is just trying to figure out how to make everyone happy)

[dreadfuldevotee]

Carol Cutshall I know your game, Rolin & Co. I've got you beat. Color (in terms of wardrobe, specifically) in IWTV so far has been representative of a kind of vibrant inner life and honesty in characters. It's the reason why it's so jarring go from seeing Louis in his beautiful multicolored array of stylish clothes in New Orleans to his solid, un-broken string of Couture Minimalism All-Black Ensembles in Dubai. Even in just comparing his unassuming browns and muted tones of Paris next to Claudia's self discovery in pastel. So, to then turn your eye to Armand; always in black, white, greyscale and browns so dark that in most lightings- they end up functionally black.

And then I think about how his rare pops of color, outside of his green shirt in Just Start The Tape, are orange and red. Adoration of the Shepherd continues to be a interesting painting to tie to Armand, this time in the detail that our only image of Armand before his turning is him in a bright blue gown. And in thinking of all these things at the same time, mentally, I am whacked in the face by a piece of trash on the wind which has this The Vampire Armand quote plastered to it

Anyways, anytime someone goes "Oh I hope to see Armand in color in S3" I think the monkey's paw curls

[transmascutena]

when someone comes out of episode 31 and 32 still believing nanami is in love with touga

[bonefall]

what concerning behaviors does bramble show in fatherhood? Genuine question I didnt read PO3 and I haven’t really heard anyone talking about that

I can't go and grab book quotations at the moment, hopefully I'll have time to make a big thing on this later this month (the breeze one took a couple days), but he has some odd trends.

NEVER once stands up for Breezepaw while seeing Crow openly, flagrantly abusing him, even responds to Crow's "I HOPE YOU'RE NOT STOPPING SO THESE LITTLE BASTARDS CAN REST" comment with "dont worry im not"

Completely ignores every sign that Lionpaw is being abused by Ashfur. There are several.

Quick to anger. Though he never "HITS" his children the same way Crow did to Breeze, he does a lot of "cuffing" and can be pretty mean to his kids verbally when they disappoint him.

When Hollypaw witnesses Ashfur physically abusing her brother, she tries to tell Brambleclaw and he tells her that it's fine.

During that, he launches into this big speech about how Ashfur came to butter him up, tell him how strong his son is, how good of a warrior he'll be, that beating the shit out of his teenage child was just a misunderstanding.

And then he segways into telling Hollypaw how Mature and Responsible she is, and how he needs to Rely on her to Keep Her Brothers In Line. All of this, REMEMBER, was in response to Hollypaw trying to tell her dad about her brother being abused by a teacher.

But in spite of all this, the narrative basically holds him up as the pinnacle of fatherhood. The Three are constantly thinking about how much they love him as their dad, BEST dad in the whole world, perfect amazing cool.

None of his flaws are addressed, as usual. He seems egotistical, emotional, and even sometimes oblivious to what's happening in front of him as he focuses on his OWN feelings at all times... and that's all without getting into OotS and his post-reveal behavior, which is a whole essay topic.

But I will end it off with this; the way he acts in OotS was never out-of-character. It's very consistent, actually.