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frogpaste · 7 months

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How do people make syllabaries?? I'm trying to construct a logosyllabary for my balto-slavic conlang, and my mind is melting.

Mine would have separate vowels for ь, ъ, and ѣ alongside hard and soft versions of all the normal vowels... even if I group some together, there are very few single-syllable words in any of the swadesh lists I've been looking at which allow for a convenient pictograph to start with.

My brain is a little wyrm in a metal cage, and every time I learn something new, I bash my head against the bars.. the cage gets bigger, but I get a headache.

#linguistics #syllabary #logographic #conlanging #this makes my brain suffer help #scripts #conlang

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lucabyte · 2 months

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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

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#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks #hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature #ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual #isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete #they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot

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hinamie · 2 months

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domain expansion

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk 264 #yuuji #help she entered a fugue state and finished a painting in 7 hours again #I still wish with all my heart that wed gotten megumi but HOLDS UP YUUJI THATS MY BOYYYYYYY #god his face is Messed Up i feel so bad #but i do think this is how ill go about drawing the injuries from now on :'>#just a Mess of flesh tones on that boy :((((( maybe shoko can kiss it better #anyway towards the end of drawing this my llsif pilled brain supplied 'domain expansion: happy party train' and i think its a keeper #yuuji if u havent picked a name yet pls consider thank u <3 #a train station tho......as much of a vibe as it is i SUFFERED #the high ceilings full of pipework...the parallel lines....thank god i make the rules and dont actually have to detail it all #i love u vague lines that convey Essence Of Room #i think it works !!! i feel like im waiting fr a train n watching time slow around me as the lights stretch #btw the rake brush is SO good fr making lil bits of stretched light like u r squinting . i love it i have fun #anyway enjoy !!! him!!!! we r truly in yuuji kaisen i never Once doubted my boy

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medicalunprofessional · 4 months

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never change, man !

#phantom of the paradise #potp #swan potp #nightmaretheater #65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp #Look into my beautiful mind boy #Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw #but i had to push a specific look for this piece #hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look #Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan #I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That #as awful as he is he desperately needed help #it might seem like vanity on the surface #but i think its… more than that #long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry #It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again #i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems #he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away #anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal #sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick #i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad #*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha #sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please #adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse #to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like #the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this #sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol

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crystalpallette · 4 months

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get you a girl who can give you everything

this started a long long time ago when I made a joke about how sega should put ringo in more dresses, and then my friend reminded me that oh yeah!! I can do that instead!!! and then one thing led to another and we joked about punk ringo and I drew that too. using ringo like a dressup doll is so cathartic it's kinda crazy

some bonuses (original designs, timelapse) under the cut bc I like these designs!! I might do some more with them!! please disregard the band poster in the first second of the timelapse that's something else!!!

#everyone look at my girl isnt she so pretty #puyo puyo #ringo ando #my stuff #please look at the timelapse it nicely packages a week of suffering into a minute :)#you cant tell at all from the recording. but all those teeny tiny scallops on ringo's dress? i drew all of those by hand #because the scallop brush i downloaded didnt look right. it never does why do i have that #plus the lace cutouts on the bottom i also drew by hand because i wanted them to look kinda like bunches of apple seeds #but thats not really a thing you can search for- 'lace brush that looks like apple seeds' is wildly specific #there's probably an identical brush to what i painstakingly drew by hand but dont tell me about it i want to think i did that for a reason #punk ringo on top was a lot less work on the lineart bit except for that godforsaken guitar #i had to make sure it looked right and it took forever #but what punk ringo gave me the most trouble with was posing #i knew i wanted an arm out to mirror lolita ringo but thw initial draft was meant to be her holding the guitar the opposite way she is now #(as in her hand was gonna be backwards)#and do you know how hard it is to balance a guitar like that. i had to grab my guitar and do a photoshoot to see what was most natural #while still having leg up arm out #this was fun to do even if i had about three crises in the middle of it #i tried doing my old rendering style again after a while and it was fun too #lolita ringo gave me a bit of trouble in the fact that my brain couldnt handle the dress being shaded but the apples being flat #but we got it lmao. i dont know if ill ever do this again it took too long #but maybe half of the time was because suddenly halfway through everybody needed my help for something or other that required me to leave #anyway wow thats enough rambling. i should go to bed now

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mokeonn · 7 months

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I think the most upsetting thing about being a recovering addict is seeing how other people talk about addicts. A vast majority of Americans fucking DESPISE addicts and they are constantly demonized at every turn, God forbid that addict is homeless. It's honestly shocking to see how fast addicts are brought up as a "gotcha" to shoot down arguments for social or housing programs.

Like damn, I'm already dealing with trying not to abuse this substance and getting my life together, which is hard enough on its own, I don't need the knowledge that the average person thinks I am the scum of the Earth. I don't like knowing that if I am ever homeless or in a tough living situation, I will be one of the first people thrown under the bus. I'm already going through enough, I'm already the victim of a very upsetting illness, I don't need to deal with the vile hatred of the average person in my country, too.

#simon says #i wanted to vent because i saw a post talking about 'i would rather help everyone. even addicts too' and I was so upset #like that is such an odd thing to clarify but also they had to because you just KNOW if you dont it'll be assumed they're excluded #or people will write comments wanting to exclude them #and it's so fucking sad and upsetting #ill see posts saying to make things better for homeless people and a majority of the comments are arguing because addicts are mean #'oh they dont wanna get better' if I was homeless my sobriety would be the first thing out the window #it's just so upsetting to see and hear nearly every other day #like im suffering from a mental illness that makes me crave and want to actively abuse substances that harm me #and im the bad guy here???#im the bad one for destroying my body because my actual brain demands it??#fuck you.

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gxlden-angels · 9 months

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My therapist and I have determined I have what I'm gonna call James Brain

It's basically a moral OCD subsection where it feels like every "bad" action is just as bad as any other "bad" action. Something like snapping when you're hangry feels like it's the same as robbing that person at gunpoint. It's based on the verse that's usually interpreted as all sins being equal:

"For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it." James 2:10

#If you or a loved one is suffering from James Brain you may be entitled to financial compensation #Basically have a compulsive need to self correct #I no longer have to repent but my brain still wants SOMETHING to fill that void so now it's self correction #so it's a weird moral compulsion to make sure I perfect myself after a situation with a negative reaction from me or others #my therapist is helping me learn to pick and choose what's important and what's not #cause not everything matters all that much and I can say that #but I can't *believe* it enough yet to implement it #I'm slowly but surely getting there #I've even started playing fortnite more #also I'm stuck at walmart waiting for a scooter pain and agony on planet earth #ex christian #religious trauma

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latiaskull · 7 months

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OK im gonna say it, HELP MY BRAIN CANT STOP THINKING ON ANOTHER CROSSOVER OF KHR, BUT NOW GOJO!SKULL AND THE WORSE IS I DID FOUND A FIC AND I LIKE IT A LOT ( 👀https://archiveofourown.org/works/51590353 ) BUT I CANT MAKE MORE AUS STOP ME I DIDNT FINISH THE AUS I MADE, BUT IS JUST PERFECT THE STRONGEST WITH THE STRONGEST 7 JUST MAKE SENSE TO ME OK? BUT THERE IS SUGURU TOO AND I CANT SEE THIS BASTARD WITHOUT SUGURU IS JUST- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

SOMEONE STOP MY BRAIN I CANT WITH MORE AUS I HAVE TO FINISH OTHER DRAWINGS BUT MY BRAIN IS JUST JAJA GOJO!SKULL GOES BRR PIPIPIIIIIIIIII

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cloudd-nyne · 5 months

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#having a creative rut feeling #gonna rant #im basically a giant baby and i don't handle angst very well #and i constantly worry that im just. idk mentally weak or a deeply uninteresting person bc of it.#every big fantasy artist i see is usually very into making sad or angsty pieces and like i wish i was like that #like i fall into this mental hole very very often that im just holding myself back with how many subjects i dont write or draw #but also like when i DO write dark subjects it doesn't make me feel any better??#i dont like feeling sad or angry bc once i am its extremely hard to get back out of it.#and thats scary for me.#but also i want to make art that means something instead of my nonestop slew of smut and feelgood content.#i genuinely feel so trapped by my own emotions and its sp frustrating.#i keep getting told how good for you it is to get the negative feelings out but it never helps when i do it #i just feel. worse? i dont feel good.#i kinda wanna delete the one cloud post bc it just doesn't feel good.#ugh #idk i want to have good intelligent things to say and thoughtful art to make #and everything i make feels soft and cheesey and lame.#not that i find those things lame #but just that it feels like im stuck in baby brain.#when i was a teen i would write horror stories!!! i still love horror!!!#but if i make someone suffer in fic now it feels me with this awful awful overwhelming sense of dread and guilt and i end up so upset #im frustrated at me bc this is such a fucking weird sensitivity to have. im tried of telling myself its okay #bc i WANT to feel mentally free enough to create shit that isnt just uwu soft.#i don't think im making sense but like.#you know #I've literally been bullied out of fandom spaces for only making soft content #multiple times.#so idk maybe this is a learned sense of shame #but i feel like a big over sensitive baby and like I'd be able to do so much more if i wasn't #vent ish

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derangedthots · 2 years

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i won't be writing it anytime soon but accelerated timeline jaceluke fic with side/unrequited jacemond+jacegon from aemond's pov.

jace presenting as an omega on dragonstone and the rumors saying he was calling out for his good sister baela when his younger brother, fourteen year-old prince lucerys, immediately presented as an alpha and staked a claim before lady baela could arrive from high tide.

the blacks returning to court for vaemond's petition and aemond+aegon see luke, seventeen and almost 5'10 now that his dynamic has finally settled with broad shoulders, messy curls, and tanned from sailing their ships around dragonstone, exiting the carriage and offering his arm to help eighteen year-old beautiful, smiling jacaerys down and into the keep.

jace talking with rhaena abt finding her the perfect betrothed during their stay meanwhile luke has his hand around his waist as they walk and an absolutely shit-eating grin at aemond and aegon as they pass. vaemond's petition and alicent's plans with otto may or may not unseat lucerys velaryon from his position as future lord of the tides, but they will not remove him from his brother's bed😏

#help i love making aemond suffer #i should be sleeping but i've been thinking abt this for the past few days it won't leave my brain #jaceluke #jacemond #jacegon

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jitteryjive · 1 month

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i’m a bit embarrassed to post this cause back in ye olden days of my blog i’d frequently vent and i don’t wanna gunk it up again but. vent art is here and i like it

#forgot to mention. this is the same emotion as the track let’s make up from miitopia #this is not intended to be rom/etc. im having a tender moment with my favorite OC #jokes aside. while it releases a lot of frustration i don’t get anywhere making sad trench art so i’ve started drawing #comfort received from someone who’s gone through similar circumstances since. i don’t get that irl #my brain’s been processing a lifetime of trauma whether i like it or not and it’s healing to realize i subconsciously wrote a character #who didn’t exactly go through the same things but ended up in the same places #i don’t know. i think if ruth were real and i told her everything he would just want to help someone else whose aftermath of suffering was #the same. also because ruth is very kind #also self portrait is back!!! i might start drawing myself more who knows #oc stuff #crime express #my art #vent art #artwork #self portrait #ruth dextrose #1930s #rubberhose #toon

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trans-cuchulainn · 8 months

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I think people watch those things as punishment because they don't have the means, time, extra money, etc, to do anything meaningful to help. So at least they can acknowledge and bear witness to the horror, even if they're not able to actually help.

right but like. "at least they can do this" makes it sound like doing that is actually materially useful, and i'm not convinced it is. i think in many cases it is only increasing the number of people suffering in the world. i agree that people are doing it because they feel powerless in other regards but in the majority of cases i think it's harming more than helping

#wasn't supposed to be continuing to engage with this topic on this blog #muted the post for a reason #please send this ask in irish to my irish-language sideblog so i can respond to it without breaking my no-discourse-in-english rules thanks #my feeling is that many of us are powerless to intervene in major world events and that feels extremely shitty #but there are very often problems closer to home that we CAN help with #and they might be smaller problems and therefore they don't feel like we're Making A Difference #but for the people who are helped by a small everyday action they are important #and that is all part of putting good into the world. and we are not powerless there #but if all of our energies and emotions are focused on the situations we cannot change/help with #we are going to overlook the things we could've helped with in the meantime #and if we are filling our brains with despair and suffering and misery #we are not going to think 'how can i put good into my local community today'#we are going to think 'god. everything is terrible and i can do nothing to help'#and that is neither useful nor sustainable #answered #anonymous

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wanderingmausoleum · 1 year

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most annoying thing i’ve been seeing online lately is ppl in the adhd/autistic communities posting benign relatable posts and being inundated with comments from neurotypicals being like ummm everyone does that and you’re literally promoting harmful self diagnosis :// stop acting like everything is a symptom and it takes all my power not to tell them to shut the fuck up because not everything is about you, is the audhd community not allowed to make funny relatable posts without you insufferable cuntbags assuming the worst and reading shit into it that was never meant to be there

#unless a post is saying ‘doing this thing means you are definitely neurodivergent’ then 9 times out of 10 it’s not meant to be a fucking #diagnostic tool and anyone with a brain should be able to tell that it’s not #funny relatable posts DID help me figure out im neurodivergent after years of suffering on my own but they weren’t the only tool #incredibly funny because isn’t straightforward language like a hallmark autism thing too.#like if it was meant to be a diagnostic post it would Fucking Say That #don’t pretend that’s what it says because you’re an ableist dbag who’s scared of ppl understanding and accepting themselves #don’t pretend to have well meaning concerns when ur rly just afraid of having to accept that being nd is way more common than you thought #‘stop trying to diagnose everyone’ directed at the most benign relatable/educational posts has the same energy to me as #the fucking ‘the queers are trying to convert ur children’ rhetoric #what’s that? are you afraid of people (even young people) gaining a better understanding of themselves and accepting and celebrating who—#they are?#are you afraid of accepting that people know themselves better than you think you know them?#these types of ‘well meaning concerns’ are what made me suffer in silence and prevented me from getting a diagnosis for years 👍#anyway. angry post because this shit makes me so mad #mental health #neurodivergent #audhd #speaketh

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1roentgen · 10 days

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#incurable yap disease #i wonder if theres a medicine that makes people shut up bc surely i need it. i just feel bad for talking a lot idk but ig i just wanna #i wanna eat/drink something but i dont know what #maybe i want an ice cream #popsicle stick #if i go to 711 i will probably buy alcohol lol #i had bamboo soup and baozi for lunch today #wasnt that much but im not hungry rn #bored #im currently reading ‘the myth of sisyphus’ by camus #its pretty dense for me i gotta say. although a lot of it so far does resonate very much #i also cant help but compare many points to some basic buddhist #concepts. For example suffering being an inescapable fact of the indifferent universe and the ‘weariness’ or ความเบื่อหน่าย that arises #in rare moments of clarity #philosophy is kind of a lot to get into but i drive myself crazy by thinking so much anyway may as well give my brain actual substance yk #honestly it just feels like my thoughts are sludge these days #horrible mixture of unidentifiable shapes and liquids #ie egotistical angstlord nonsense and brainrot internet memes #there is nothing worthwhile or interesting in my head so i am not a worthwhile or interesting person when u really get down to it #i read a quote recently somewhere; how u spend ur day is how u spend u life #theres gotta be something more than this state of non-oblivion #if i die right now #well no thanks to me but ive had a pretty good life. so i wouldn’t say it was all wasted #but i just dream of something more. existence at another level #something more purposeful #man i got a stomachache maybe i am hungry #watch me say all this then change nothing

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chimerahyperfix · 3 months

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loveletter brain

#siiigh. it’s in my brain now. it just lives here ig #can’t stop thinking about it…. it makes me soooo upset…….#oughhhhh poor thang. trapped in another timeloop. trying to help someone who you just make mad #because you aren’t approaching this situation with them as a human being. but as a test subject. or smth #you don’t take into account their feelings or their friends and you fail to help them until they snap and attack you #they attack you with intent to hurt— maybe even to kill?— and you bleed your not-blood and cry your not-tears when he’s gone #because it hurts. it hurts. you know you know you know. it’s the same thing over and over.#there was no escape for you and you gave up and shed everything that made you. you. and now he will too.#you don’t want this. for him for you for the ones you love and the frozen and everyone in between you never wanted this #you just wanted to help.#and you aren’t helping him. your making it worse. you think scientifically and mindlessly and it destroys him #until he turns it back around on you and loops to a place you can’t reach.#but that traps you on the floor. a whole new type of cage. and you just have to suffer until they give up too and you die to the reset #FFFUCKINGGGG SCREAMMINGGGG. LOVELETTERRRRRRRR #sasasaap spoilers #ddont be sad; loveletter #in craft and cages #chimera rambles

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unkandily · 26 days

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Pro tip: google is no good with mental health you just have to suffer through it

#I was looking up how to help anxiety and depression and it was like “meditate”#Bitch I can't turn my brain off??#Getting in my own head would only make it worse #I probably just need meds #I'm going to eat chocolate chips and read Jay ferin fics that'll fix me #kandi's suffering

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