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frogpaste · 10 months ago

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How do people make syllabaries?? I'm trying to construct a logosyllabary for my balto-slavic conlang, and my mind is melting.

Mine would have separate vowels for ь, ъ, and ѣ alongside hard and soft versions of all the normal vowels... even if I group some together, there are very few single-syllable words in any of the swadesh lists I've been looking at which allow for a convenient pictograph to start with.

My brain is a little wyrm in a metal cage, and every time I learn something new, I bash my head against the bars.. the cage gets bigger, but I get a headache.

#linguistics #syllabary #logographic #conlanging #this makes my brain suffer help #scripts #conlang

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lucabyte · 4 months ago

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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

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#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks #hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature #ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual #isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete #they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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domain expansion

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk 264 #yuuji #help she entered a fugue state and finished a painting in 7 hours again #I still wish with all my heart that wed gotten megumi but HOLDS UP YUUJI THATS MY BOYYYYYYY #god his face is Messed Up i feel so bad #but i do think this is how ill go about drawing the injuries from now on :'>#just a Mess of flesh tones on that boy :((((( maybe shoko can kiss it better #anyway towards the end of drawing this my llsif pilled brain supplied 'domain expansion: happy party train' and i think its a keeper #yuuji if u havent picked a name yet pls consider thank u <3 #a train station tho......as much of a vibe as it is i SUFFERED #the high ceilings full of pipework...the parallel lines....thank god i make the rules and dont actually have to detail it all #i love u vague lines that convey Essence Of Room #i think it works !!! i feel like im waiting fr a train n watching time slow around me as the lights stretch #btw the rake brush is SO good fr making lil bits of stretched light like u r squinting . i love it i have fun #anyway enjoy !!! him!!!! we r truly in yuuji kaisen i never Once doubted my boy

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medicalunprofessional · 7 months ago

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never change, man !

#phantom of the paradise #potp #swan potp #nightmaretheater #65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp #Look into my beautiful mind boy #Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw #but i had to push a specific look for this piece #hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look #Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan #I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That #as awful as he is he desperately needed help #it might seem like vanity on the surface #but i think its… more than that #long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry #It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again #i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems #he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away #anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal #sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick #i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad #*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha #sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please #adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse #to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like #the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this #sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol

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fairylando · 7 days ago

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don't ask me why, but me and my friend were talking about how carlos is going to be free from fraudrrari in less than 20 days and we ended up comparing him to the virgin mary (i swear it will make sense and we both grew up in christian italian families as atheists) and... how her given festivities actually add up with some of his important dates ??? buckle up!

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⭒ "Festa dell'Assunzione di Maria" — august 15 she was raised to eternal life without bodily death, and very close to it carlos announced he signed with williams.

⭒ "La Natività della Beata Vergine Maria" — she was born on september 8th, he was born on september 1st (BOTH VIRGOS)!

⭒ "L'Immacolata Concezione" — december 8th, "from the first moment of her conception, the Blessed Virgin Mary was, by the singular grace and privilege of Almighty God, and in view of the merits of Jesus Christ, Savior of Mankind, kept free from all stain of original sin."... and what happens on december 8th? his last race in fraudrrari, exactly.

she was the lightly brushed by melancholy blue print after all!

#il vaticano hates to see us drop this hits ngl #i show my hatred for this religion by blasphemingly ruining their iconographies with these posts😋#you thought you saw everything with carlos being san sebastiano NOW GET READY FOR CARLOS BEING THE VIRGIN MARY!!!!#another hit post if i know my chickens well #no but fr #what were the fucking odds of the dates being actually so similiar???#carlos sainz jr and christian iconography? sign me tf up #virgin mary #frauddrari's worst nightmare bc they're always comparing the other one to the pope and carlos gets compare to LUCIFERO #SAN SEBASTIANO #LA VERGINE MARIA #c'è chi puo' e chi non puo' 😮‍💨#carlos is just so mystical and lovable you can't help but compare him and worship him like a god #(he's just a man and im a 23yr old teenager with mental issues and a lot of time to think)#this being said #he also gave birth a lot this year #and he's finally about to be free of sin🥴#is this considered web weaving?#leave it to him to be so poetic in just living that my brain automatically does this #lando being god's lamb and him the virgin mary GET A BETTER DUO #maybe its because maria was always a figure that stuck with me more than anyone in the bible and her sufferings and her not having really #much of a choice in her life and having to accept her faith... idk #but this makes sense in my head #carlos sainz jr web weaving #carlos sainz jr #carlitos #cs55 #f1 #formula 1 #carlando

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moeblob · 27 days ago

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explaining to a coworker I don't socialize out of work bc of The Anxiety. then later explaining why i have gray in my hair.... it's... still The Anxieties...... goin' gray since my early 20s........

#man its rough when people who dont have anxiety have to ask a million questions that the answer is just The Anxiety #like im sorry i dont socialize or want to have a conversation while three other people are in the room talking #its just a lot of overstimulation ok im just suffering please stop asking me things...#i get the loop of im failing a social interaction in my brain which makes it harder to win at a conversation #like every normal person would consider conversations as something you can lose or fail or win (?)#had another coworker who ive only really seen ? but he argues with the one asking me about my hobbies n social life #and so i saw him today and he was i think probably training or showing another guy around #and he was real quick to say no to helping me and im lik e???? i didnt ask for help?#and the other guy was like is that a constant thing? and he said no not me yet but he had to assert dominance #and i looked at him and told him very plainly #i am a pushover with anxiety you dont have to assert dominance at all i promise #and he actually looked kind of taken aback and guilty for snapping on me for no reason so then im like #oh great just me saying i hope to not cause problems caused a problem #anyway ........ i wanted to draw a halloween thing but i just dont have the spoons rn

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crystalpallette · 7 months ago

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get you a girl who can give you everything

this started a long long time ago when I made a joke about how sega should put ringo in more dresses, and then my friend reminded me that oh yeah!! I can do that instead!!! and then one thing led to another and we joked about punk ringo and I drew that too. using ringo like a dressup doll is so cathartic it's kinda crazy

some bonuses (original designs, timelapse) under the cut bc I like these designs!! I might do some more with them!! please disregard the band poster in the first second of the timelapse that's something else!!!

#everyone look at my girl isnt she so pretty #puyo puyo #ringo ando #my stuff #please look at the timelapse it nicely packages a week of suffering into a minute :)#you cant tell at all from the recording. but all those teeny tiny scallops on ringo's dress? i drew all of those by hand #because the scallop brush i downloaded didnt look right. it never does why do i have that #plus the lace cutouts on the bottom i also drew by hand because i wanted them to look kinda like bunches of apple seeds #but thats not really a thing you can search for- 'lace brush that looks like apple seeds' is wildly specific #there's probably an identical brush to what i painstakingly drew by hand but dont tell me about it i want to think i did that for a reason #punk ringo on top was a lot less work on the lineart bit except for that godforsaken guitar #i had to make sure it looked right and it took forever #but what punk ringo gave me the most trouble with was posing #i knew i wanted an arm out to mirror lolita ringo but thw initial draft was meant to be her holding the guitar the opposite way she is now #(as in her hand was gonna be backwards)#and do you know how hard it is to balance a guitar like that. i had to grab my guitar and do a photoshoot to see what was most natural #while still having leg up arm out #this was fun to do even if i had about three crises in the middle of it #i tried doing my old rendering style again after a while and it was fun too #lolita ringo gave me a bit of trouble in the fact that my brain couldnt handle the dress being shaded but the apples being flat #but we got it lmao. i dont know if ill ever do this again it took too long #but maybe half of the time was because suddenly halfway through everybody needed my help for something or other that required me to leave #anyway wow thats enough rambling. i should go to bed now

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podcastdyke · 1 month ago

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"Lean on me" and "let me help" really reinforcing this theme (i dont know if theme is the right word... the motif?) of connection and reliance on this show. No matter how strong or smart or resourceful you are, you can't make it through this life alone. And you are that much smarter and stronger once you learn to accept being loved and sharing your burdens. Suffering just for the sake of it is not heroic!! Life and existance is a team sport

#malevolent #life is literally a team sport for john and arthur i guess #im not an english major but listen. there is so much about learning to share in this show #im not sure how to properly word this thought out yet but the noir detective is a very lonely character #arthur has to learn that suffering doesnt make him better. there is a selfishness to his unwillingness to take johns help..#.. when john is freely offering. why is it so difficult for him to coexist. why does one always have to be in the lead #my post #sorreyyy for rambling my brain is being fried

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mokeonn · 9 months ago

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I think the most upsetting thing about being a recovering addict is seeing how other people talk about addicts. A vast majority of Americans fucking DESPISE addicts and they are constantly demonized at every turn, God forbid that addict is homeless. It's honestly shocking to see how fast addicts are brought up as a "gotcha" to shoot down arguments for social or housing programs.

Like damn, I'm already dealing with trying not to abuse this substance and getting my life together, which is hard enough on its own, I don't need the knowledge that the average person thinks I am the scum of the Earth. I don't like knowing that if I am ever homeless or in a tough living situation, I will be one of the first people thrown under the bus. I'm already going through enough, I'm already the victim of a very upsetting illness, I don't need to deal with the vile hatred of the average person in my country, too.

#simon says #i wanted to vent because i saw a post talking about 'i would rather help everyone. even addicts too' and I was so upset #like that is such an odd thing to clarify but also they had to because you just KNOW if you dont it'll be assumed they're excluded #or people will write comments wanting to exclude them #and it's so fucking sad and upsetting #ill see posts saying to make things better for homeless people and a majority of the comments are arguing because addicts are mean #'oh they dont wanna get better' if I was homeless my sobriety would be the first thing out the window #it's just so upsetting to see and hear nearly every other day #like im suffering from a mental illness that makes me crave and want to actively abuse substances that harm me #and im the bad guy here???#im the bad one for destroying my body because my actual brain demands it??#fuck you.

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icewindandboringhorror · 21 days ago

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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"

I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming

#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with #elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the #grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything #but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd #nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable #are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that #is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant #amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear #masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations #arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will #go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring #annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then #YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated #while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol #I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are #saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to #get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined #with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with #others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then #when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O #also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming #looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj #I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a #person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some #more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all #of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol #I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to #contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***

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gxlden-angels · 11 months ago

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My therapist and I have determined I have what I'm gonna call James Brain

It's basically a moral OCD subsection where it feels like every "bad" action is just as bad as any other "bad" action. Something like snapping when you're hangry feels like it's the same as robbing that person at gunpoint. It's based on the verse that's usually interpreted as all sins being equal:

"For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it." James 2:10

#If you or a loved one is suffering from James Brain you may be entitled to financial compensation #Basically have a compulsive need to self correct #I no longer have to repent but my brain still wants SOMETHING to fill that void so now it's self correction #so it's a weird moral compulsion to make sure I perfect myself after a situation with a negative reaction from me or others #my therapist is helping me learn to pick and choose what's important and what's not #cause not everything matters all that much and I can say that #but I can't *believe* it enough yet to implement it #I'm slowly but surely getting there #I've even started playing fortnite more #also I'm stuck at walmart waiting for a scooter pain and agony on planet earth #ex christian #religious trauma

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latiaskull · 9 months ago

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OK im gonna say it, HELP MY BRAIN CANT STOP THINKING ON ANOTHER CROSSOVER OF KHR, BUT NOW GOJO!SKULL AND THE WORSE IS I DID FOUND A FIC AND I LIKE IT A LOT ( 👀https://archiveofourown.org/works/51590353 ) BUT I CANT MAKE MORE AUS STOP ME I DIDNT FINISH THE AUS I MADE, BUT IS JUST PERFECT THE STRONGEST WITH THE STRONGEST 7 JUST MAKE SENSE TO ME OK? BUT THERE IS SUGURU TOO AND I CANT SEE THIS BASTARD WITHOUT SUGURU IS JUST- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

SOMEONE STOP MY BRAIN I CANT WITH MORE AUS I HAVE TO FINISH OTHER DRAWINGS BUT MY BRAIN IS JUST JAJA GOJO!SKULL GOES BRR PIPIPIIIIIIIIII

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cloudd-nyne · 7 months ago

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#having a creative rut feeling #gonna rant #im basically a giant baby and i don't handle angst very well #and i constantly worry that im just. idk mentally weak or a deeply uninteresting person bc of it.#every big fantasy artist i see is usually very into making sad or angsty pieces and like i wish i was like that #like i fall into this mental hole very very often that im just holding myself back with how many subjects i dont write or draw #but also like when i DO write dark subjects it doesn't make me feel any better??#i dont like feeling sad or angry bc once i am its extremely hard to get back out of it.#and thats scary for me.#but also i want to make art that means something instead of my nonestop slew of smut and feelgood content.#i genuinely feel so trapped by my own emotions and its sp frustrating.#i keep getting told how good for you it is to get the negative feelings out but it never helps when i do it #i just feel. worse? i dont feel good.#i kinda wanna delete the one cloud post bc it just doesn't feel good.#ugh #idk i want to have good intelligent things to say and thoughtful art to make #and everything i make feels soft and cheesey and lame.#not that i find those things lame #but just that it feels like im stuck in baby brain.#when i was a teen i would write horror stories!!! i still love horror!!!#but if i make someone suffer in fic now it feels me with this awful awful overwhelming sense of dread and guilt and i end up so upset #im frustrated at me bc this is such a fucking weird sensitivity to have. im tried of telling myself its okay #bc i WANT to feel mentally free enough to create shit that isnt just uwu soft.#i don't think im making sense but like.#you know #I've literally been bullied out of fandom spaces for only making soft content #multiple times.#so idk maybe this is a learned sense of shame #but i feel like a big over sensitive baby and like I'd be able to do so much more if i wasn't #vent ish

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derangedthots · 2 years ago

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i won't be writing it anytime soon but accelerated timeline jaceluke fic with side/unrequited jacemond+jacegon from aemond's pov.

jace presenting as an omega on dragonstone and the rumors saying he was calling out for his good sister baela when his younger brother, fourteen year-old prince lucerys, immediately presented as an alpha and staked a claim before lady baela could arrive from high tide.

the blacks returning to court for vaemond's petition and aemond+aegon see luke, seventeen and almost 5'10 now that his dynamic has finally settled with broad shoulders, messy curls, and tanned from sailing their ships around dragonstone, exiting the carriage and offering his arm to help eighteen year-old beautiful, smiling jacaerys down and into the keep.

jace talking with rhaena abt finding her the perfect betrothed during their stay meanwhile luke has his hand around his waist as they walk and an absolutely shit-eating grin at aemond and aegon as they pass. vaemond's petition and alicent's plans with otto may or may not unseat lucerys velaryon from his position as future lord of the tides, but they will not remove him from his brother's bed😏

#help i love making aemond suffer #i should be sleeping but i've been thinking abt this for the past few days it won't leave my brain #jaceluke #jacemond #jacegon

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jitteryjive · 4 months ago

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i’m a bit embarrassed to post this cause back in ye olden days of my blog i’d frequently vent and i don’t wanna gunk it up again but. vent art is here and i like it

#forgot to mention. this is the same emotion as the track let’s make up from miitopia #this is not intended to be rom/etc. im having a tender moment with my favorite OC #jokes aside. while it releases a lot of frustration i don’t get anywhere making sad trench art so i’ve started drawing #comfort received from someone who’s gone through similar circumstances since. i don’t get that irl #my brain’s been processing a lifetime of trauma whether i like it or not and it’s healing to realize i subconsciously wrote a character #who didn’t exactly go through the same things but ended up in the same places #i don’t know. i think if ruth were real and i told her everything he would just want to help someone else whose aftermath of suffering was #the same. also because ruth is very kind #also self portrait is back!!! i might start drawing myself more who knows #oc stuff #crime express #my art #vent art #artwork #self portrait #ruth dextrose #1930s #rubberhose #toon

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oidheadh-con-culainn · 10 months ago

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I think people watch those things as punishment because they don't have the means, time, extra money, etc, to do anything meaningful to help. So at least they can acknowledge and bear witness to the horror, even if they're not able to actually help.

right but like. "at least they can do this" makes it sound like doing that is actually materially useful, and i'm not convinced it is. i think in many cases it is only increasing the number of people suffering in the world. i agree that people are doing it because they feel powerless in other regards but in the majority of cases i think it's harming more than helping

#wasn't supposed to be continuing to engage with this topic on this blog #muted the post for a reason #please send this ask in irish to my irish-language sideblog so i can respond to it without breaking my no-discourse-in-english rules thanks #my feeling is that many of us are powerless to intervene in major world events and that feels extremely shitty #but there are very often problems closer to home that we CAN help with #and they might be smaller problems and therefore they don't feel like we're Making A Difference #but for the people who are helped by a small everyday action they are important #and that is all part of putting good into the world. and we are not powerless there #but if all of our energies and emotions are focused on the situations we cannot change/help with #we are going to overlook the things we could've helped with in the meantime #and if we are filling our brains with despair and suffering and misery #we are not going to think 'how can i put good into my local community today'#we are going to think 'god. everything is terrible and i can do nothing to help'#and that is neither useful nor sustainable #answered #anonymous

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