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Hey! I saw another anon ask if matt would sometimes snap at adhd!reader.
Can I request a fic for that please?
Thank you <33
matt hadn’t meant to snap at you—really. but he had such a long day and when he stepped in through the front door and you started rambling to him about something, he just lost it.
matt stepped through the front door, lugging his backpack with him as he let out a huff, shutting the door until it clicked. his head was pounding and his body was exhausted—having had to run errands all day with chris and nick.
he hadn’t even been in the house for more than five minutes before you came bouncing around the corner, having heard the sound of the front door—knowing matt was now home for the day.
“baby!” you yipped, making your way toward him and hugging him quickly. “how was your day? hopefully everything went okay, it was pretty lonely without you here. but i appreciate the little note you left me.” you rambled, pulling away as you looked up. “wanna hear about what i did today? i did quite a bit and i’m actually pre-“
“y/n. enough.” he barked, interrupting your words. your eyes went wide, looking at him like he just hit you. your mouth closed, body slumping slightly. “i can’t deal with this right now.”
his words stung, eyes stinging slightly. he was so—so cold. you nodded, stepping back from him. “fine..” you muttered, turning around and quickly walking away toward the stairs. you could feel your angry bubbling under your skin—he never snaps at you, what did you do?
matt knew he messed up, hands coming up to rub his face, fingers rubbing his temples as he took a few deep breaths. “fuck..” he whispered, setting his bag down as he took a few moments to let you both cool off.
when he finally made his way to your room, he could hear your music playing faintly through the closed door. he sighed, bringing his hand up and knocking against the wood. “go away.” you said, voice faint through the door.
“sweetheart..i’m sorry for snapping at you. i didn’t mean to—i had a long day and i know that doesn’t excuse the tone i gave you.” matt said, resting his forehead against the door. he could hear you sniffle, the sound of sheets ruffling before your feet pattered to the door.
slowly it opened—matt stood up straight. his heart ached when he saw you, a frown pulling at his lips. “i’m so so sorry sweetheart..” he whispered, reaching his arms out, giving you the choice to accept his embrace. you stepped forward, leaning your body into his as his arms wrapped around you.
“you could’ve just—just talked to me.” you muttered into his clothes. “i would’ve understood.” and matt nodded, rubbing his hand up and down your back. “i know..i know and I’m sorry. you didn’t deserve to be snapped at, you didn’t do anything wrong baby.” he reassured, hugging you tighter.
you sighed—the anger melting away. slowly you pulled away from his chest. “just talked to me next time..tell me what you need.”
a/n : blurb (i need to make a long fic soon) ALSO IM FINALLY GETTING TO MY REQUESTS HOLY—
#ᯓ★ strnilolover#matt sturniolo#matthew sturniolo#matt sturniolo x you#matt sturniolo x reader#matt sturniolo fluff#matt sturniolo imagine#matthew sturniolo x you#matthew sturniolo x reader#matthew sturniolo fluff#matthew sturniolo fanfic#matthew sturniolo imagine#matthew bernard sturniolo#matthew sturniolo blurb#matt sturniolo blurb#sturniolo#sturniolo triplets#ᯓ★ strnilolover adhd!reader au
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In case requests are open, can we get headcanons for Kings and how they react after having a nasty argument with the mc? Bonus if the mc just yells “I hate you!” mid way
Thank you!
WHB kings having an argument with reader
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A/N: Kinda wrote this more as a general argument HC's so I hope you don't mind U.U
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It's kinda hard to have a mutual argument with Satan with his whole anger kink
The moment you start raising your voice at him, he's all red in face and begging for more
Maybe even hit him as hard as you can? *puppy eyes*
Now, if you actually manage to get Satan angry, he'd instinctively prepare to kick or punch you, but stops himself in the last second
He may be pissed, but he still cares about you and doesn't want to hurt you
So instead he'll just stomp away to try and clear his head
Afterwards he'll come back to you like nothing serious happened and try to talk things out with you
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Mammon is another one I can't exactly imagine getting into an argument with you
He's simply too reserved
That still doesn't mean he doesn't care
He does, but he's more apologetic than that
All he simply states is the truth and he understands that it may upset you
Just from the dynamic he has with Satan, it's clear he doesn't take stuff said/done in an affect seriously
But if you were to say some hurtful stuff, he would feel bad and calmly as you to take those things back after you've gotten it out of your system
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Oh, good heavens!
Arguments with Levi go as bad and are as frequent as you can imagine
9/10 of those times end with being hung from the ceiling once he's fed up with you
The words 'I hate you' don't even make their way out of your mouth before you're left gasping for air and pathetically kicking your feet in mid-air
Thankfully, since it's you, Levi won't "forget" about you so you're not at the brink of suffocating
Instead, he'll just let you down, give you a few seconds to catch your breath and ask you to apologise to him
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"I hate you!!"
"Pshah... No you don't. You love me"
Beelzebub's too carefree to actually take anything seriously
You could activelly try to cut him up into pieces and he'd still make jokes about you being kinky
Anger doesn't work on him
Have you seen any of his interactions with Bael?
I HC him having the same ADHD thing as me:
When someone yells at us, we just zone out and wait for the person to finish just to ask them to repeat themselves again, but calmly this time
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Belphie is somewhere between Mammon and Leviathan when it comes to arguments
He's too tired to get mad himself and will just let you express your emotions openly
But when he's fed up, you're quickly swallowed up by his void and kicked out Nifleheim
And not even Beleth can save you if you forcibly wake Belphie up just to pick a fight/yell at him over something
That's a big no-no
His country may be militant, but you're no drill sargeant to pester him whenever you want
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If you're arguing with Asmo, I recommend you watch out for what you're saying
Any iteration of the words 'fuck', 'suck' or a bodypart like 'dick' and 'ass' can veeery quickly turn the whole situation legs up
...Or maybe make Asmo turn you legs up
I mean, you will end up like that eventually (there's nothing better than angry sex), but still, you might wanna voice your point before you're unable to say more than his name, if even that
And what else can possibly follow up a hefty argument?
That's right! Makeup sex!
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I imagine Lucifer being used to arguing and screaming since all the other three Seraphims used to fight for God's favor all the time
So when you come storming into his greenhouse to pick an argument with him, he'll just calmly continue drinking his tea and answer you like it's nothing
But, if something mean and personal slips your tongue, expect to get the silent treatment until you chase him down and apologise with absolute sincerity since he can sense lies from a country away
#what in hell is bad#what in “hell” is bad?#whb satan#whb beelzebub#whb lucifer#whb leviathan#whb mammon#whb asmodeus#whb belphegor
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[God, I wish I was there when their parents showed their ugly mugs so I could punch them both... or at least threaten them, one way or another]
[Star notices Diamond's distress and, without a word, reaches out to rest a hand over theirs, squeezing gently]
... that's a good point with Sneeg... but maybe he'd have tried to keep in contact with you. You're his baby sibling after all, and have you seen how he is with his siblings? I think he would have done his damndest to at least try to make your shitty situation a bit better.
But... if I was there at that school with you and Addy... I'd have probably been weird with you two... I was never very good at school - I was smart but the whole thing just didn't work for me. It... well, it didn't give me the best social status, with or without the chronic pain and mobility aids and meds... And even without a that shit, I still have horrible ADHD and... possibly autism? I'm still not sure on that one
[They focus on their hand over Diamond's, thinking back to those years, those kids and all those awful names they got called, the times they started fights... and the times they didn't but still got hit. It always pissed Mama and later Nick off to no end. And they did try to stop it, and it worked sometimes... but sometimes it only made things worse]
[Eventually they just learned it was best to keep quiet, let the little pricks have their fun so they could go away. It's what got them injured the least]
[... That doesn't mean it worked. It made them feel terrible... sometimes it felt better to get hit, to bleed, than to be hurt verbally, to be hit where it really counted...]
[Star doesn't want anyone they care about to feel like that. They close their eyes to hide their own tears as they squeezed Diamond's hand again, wanting a hug but afraid to ask]
It would've been nice to have some other kids in my corner. I fought a lot, mostly over stupid shit, but I think it would've done me some good to fight for someone, ya know? Get a kickstart on my protective streak, heh.
[Someone knocks on the door]
D? It's- it's Star. I saw what happened and I...
Can I come in?
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[The knock came as they were still hiding the bible. The dread that they had just gotten rid of filled their body again.]
[Shit. They were going to get caught. Someone was going too know.]
[For a brief moment, even though Star said their name, Diamond's mind raced to believing it was HETCH at the door here to scold them for everything. For all their attention seeking behavior. For not fucking dropping it. For not knowing better. For egging trackball on.]
[They gave Star no response. Just stood there frozen.]
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Sorry y’all my inner child needed this
#my art#mlp art#mlp sona#my little pony#I know alrigjt I know don’t come after me#if younger me knew I could now draw myself as a Pegasus she would have lost it#this is what I mean by the adhd is hitting#I’m over here thinking about fandoms I haven’t thought about in years#I’m in the trenches rn
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Bros before Ho(oh my god is that Hanguang-Jun?)
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#WWX really was unhinged for saying he was going to always be at JC's side and then immediately asking about LWJ.#The D in ADHD stands for Distractible. The second D stands for DooowawawaWaaaah (ADHDers know what I mean)#Their conversation is such a knife twist in this flashback. WWX truly and genuinely does mean it when he says he wants to support JC#And that JC hopes for that too! Tragedies hit the hardest when you can feel the lost futures characters would have together#And I feel it here in this scene so painfully. There's complicated feelings between them but it wasn't what broke them apart.#The rumours and the twisted family dynamics that tried to pit them against each other likely wouldnt have worked.#It set the stage for JC to have an inferiority complex which then grows into his responsibility complex.#WWX even calls it out! That JC has to be the responsible one in the dynamic.#And it sucks to be in that unequal position with a sibling or a not-sibling.#You don't get the love *or* acknowledgement but you do get the pressure to be the 'better one' in the face of the other's misbehaviour.#But I digress. There was a world where they did became the twin heroes of yunmeng jiang and stayed together.#And we'll never see it. That world is gone now. And just like Lotus pier -even if they tried to rebuild it - they will never be the same.
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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I NEED TO GET DIAGNOSED! (violent explosion sounds and terrified screaming follows shortly after my proclamation of suffering
#this is in reference to multiple things. honestly. physical and mental#the lump ? who is she#the possibly undiagnosed adhd that my therapist rec'd i get tested for and my mom already has and is also pushing me to get tested for?#don't know her. who is that.#don't even get me STARTED on the OTHER thing my therapist + a separate counselor + mom said I need to get checked for. that. can wait 👍#we don't need to unpack that one. right now. :)#i mean every time it was brought up it was followed by ''but we don't need to get into that if you don't want to'' and you're so right#bestie I don't want to get into that. I came here to get told i have an anxiety disorder and get meds and instead what you hit me with#was thAT!!!!!!#GET ME OUT OF HERE.#clamtalk
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why did i have a dream that i was being stalked and harassed that was genuinely so stressful
#what even prompted that.#also people kept leaving the fucking front door open or unlocked even though they knew this guy kept trying to come into our apartment#i had to keep checking tbe door all the time and once i had to hit him with the door so he wouldnt come in bc it was unlocked and he had hi#hand on the door handle trying to open it before i was able to lock#stressful as fuck.#i was intending to tell someone downstairs like a landlord or door man i guess? i dont know.#i kept meaning to tell them to not let him enter the building anymore but i kept forgetting. ok#adhd prevails#also not my actual apartment the hallway was indoors and my mom hates those
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*does a super massive love beam at you* YOUR USERBOXES ARE SO COOL!!!!!! How many requests do you have in your inbox rn???? I wanna request but I don’t wanna if there’s too many TvT
there r currently 31 requests in my inbox :DD !!
#mod laios (★)#WAHHH TYSM BTW ❤️❤️#i will never get used to people complimenting my userboxes actually#ily little people on my blog#all 100+ of you JJSJDS#ik 31 sounds like a lot but guys pls keep sending requests#ill get to them eventually and with love LOL#i do kinda miss making self-indulgent userboxes but like then that means less time to work on requests#and i feel guilty cus some of ur requests date back to last month TT waahhh#dw ill get to u guys eventually#school is just rly drowning me at the moment BJSJSJKDS#answered (★)#< NOOO MY FORMAT…#i cant move it rn cus im not on my laptop TT#maybe if i reach 50 requests ill close my inbox#HEAVY MAYBE#bcus what if i get hit with the sudden motivationator#huge hit or miss with the adhd honestly
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In a perfect world i would love to reread ORV like, once a year.
But I happen to be a slow reader...... it's been a month and a half since i started my second read and i'm still not done!
My dreams are not sustainable :(
#this is why the Apostle piss me off#what do you mean you reread this novel 99 times#with what time#there's other books in this world i want to read as well#my plans are thwarted by my adhd and slow reading speed#orv reread#i am at the battle with the 999's calamities#so i should be done before the end of august#but gosh#i was faster the first time#that first read hit hard and I went into hyperfocus
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living in a household with only neurodivergent people and then finding out that like 90% of the things your family does are considered 'not normal' by normie standards is so fucking funny to me
#what do you MEAN your dad didnt spend 5 years researching which car to buy#like no wonder nobody caught it until i hit adulthood#we all need to be on meth i guess#autism#adhd#196
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quick doodle for Undertale's 8th birthday ... I'm getting old
#this game shaped me so much both as an artist and as a person so i wanted to do something real quick ...#idk what kind of adhd energy hit me at 11pm but here we are#hbd undertale u still mean so much to me#undertale#undertale 8th anniversary
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i have got to get medicated again this is getting out of handddd
#fisherman's ramblings#this is light enough that it can go on main idc#but just got hit with a wave of horrible Depression Feels and it's like. wow okay i was literally just sitting here. my day was good.#where the hell did you come from#AT LEAST IT'S NOT PSYCHOSIS (hopefully) THO FUCKKK THAT SHIT#hopefully the doc was right and my psychosis delulu shit will subside if i treat the depression. we'll see#same with adhd i gotta get that sorted out. if i want to do school stuff.#i never did find meds that worked tho!! so. we'll fuckin seeeee!!!!#shout-out to the doc at the ward who just gave me an atrocious amount of adhd meds to the point where i'm pretty sure she just could've put#me on tranquilizers and had the exact same effect#i was out of it for actual days even after i got out of there... why did she do that....#the ``symptom`` she was trying to treat was an extension of paranioa. from the psychotic episode i was having#so naturally the fuckin?? adhd meds didn't work LMAOO??#SO SHE JUST KEPT UPPING MY DOSE??#girlypop what was the REASONNN#sorry didn't mean to ramble in the tags.#actually no this is my blog i can do what i want
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Ya know, the one downside to living in a past era was the limited knowledge and acceptance of autism. Like, I've always been the kind of person who felt they were "born in the wrong generation" or "born in the wrong location", but it wasn't even until adulthood that autism acceptance has grown into what it is now and it also wasn't until adulthood that I found any online communities for folks on the spectrum that I can actually relate to and connect with.
Initially, I thought my dad was the only one who suspected I had aspergers and that my mom thought I didn't have it. I suspect dad had some trouble explaining that to me because my mom did suspect as did my teachers. Since it was the late 90s/early 2000s, I went undiagnosed so I wouldn't deal with the stigma, yet I got bullied anyway in grade school.
That decision for them must've felt like a damned if you do damned if you don't situation for them when they found out about the bullying, I imagine. I've suspected I was autistic since I was 19 after all and I'm honestly glad me and dad weren't the only ones who suspected it.
Sometimes I wondered if my dad was on the spectrum as well and went undiagnosed until the very end. He was born in an era before autism was even understood or known by anyone after all, and autism was thought of much differently than it is now. I always felt I had more in common with him than with mom after all, and autism is hereditary, and looking back, him being autistic as well or at least sharing some traits makes a lot of sense to me.
Now I really want to get screened, if only so someone else can confirm it officially. At least now, I have my mom, my past teachers, and my past partners to back me up and not just me. That makes me feel better.
When my mom told me about her suspicions, I felt quite betrayed and felt like crying. Then that turned into me being angry at the world for not being accepting of anyone who's different. Like, REALLY angry at the world. Royally pissed off even.
But now that I know more people I knew actually had the same suspicions I ended up having as a young adult, I kinda feel at peace.
#i mean it did take a while for me to fully process what my mom said and for those emotions to process#like it took a lot for me to finally ask my mom about it and the knowledge just hit me like a shit ton of bricks#guess this time i was ready to hear it. it was just the right time ig#autism#neurodivergent#suspected autism#i also somewhat suspect adhd but idek man#mental health#family#rambling#rambling at the void#also after mom explained all that shit i thought more about my experiences in childhood up to now and everything clicks right into place#guess you could call it an aha moment but for me it was more of a eureka moment lol
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oh my god you gave permission to send vids and i lasted all of 30 minutes before needing to send something 😂
BUT!!!
iv crying 🥺🥺🥺 the love for iii these last few shows has melted my heart and clearly the bands too
https://x.com/vesseltoken/status/1734391886901616999?s=46
i cannot suffer alone with this one i’m so sorry
Well, as I watch this and suffer. here, sleep token official instagrams account second to last pic…. Our boy AdamRosssi knows what we want, haha.
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Oh no……
#just. one photo of vessels hand close up hahahaha.#hihi!!!#friend Exie!!#(your new tag❤️)#welp. you’ve fucked me up good is what you’ve done here.#(also I do not care how many asks you send me in a day ok. I mean I do think there is a limit#so like. if you hit that that might be uhhh. something haha. gosh I’ve never hit post limit before?? wow)#(oh like. tumblr has a limit on how much you can post in a day and I think there’s a limit on asks too. if you didn’t know#idk how long you’ve been on tumblr now that I think about it… I’m assuming a while cause I figure you used to be a trc blog but I am unsure#hahaha. I have a feeling we where/are in different sides of the trc fandom tho🤣🤣. if you didn’t know I uhhh… used to write Ronan x Gansey#fics😅😂. I have some ideas for future ones too maybe but we’ll see.)#so you def know about post limit and I just… over explained.. but now I can’t delete the tags cause they lead up to trc talk#I’m so glad the guys know we care about them. idk I’m not very emotional#these tags.. dang. the adhd fingers strike again. *blows off my fingers like they are old timey smoking guns*
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Do you have any celebrity crushes?
HMMM I do have many celebrities I find attractive but I don't know if those count as celebrity crushes, per se? Because I think that for it to count as a crush there has to be a certain degree of... proactivity to it, or at least be a little be more involved than just looking at a person who happens to be a celebrity and think "wow, you're hot, Nice" lol
THAT BEING SAID. I have a well-known, well-documented weakness for women of metal & rock, such as Alissa White-Gluz (this picture explains it all), Cristina Scabbia, Floor Jansen, Melissa Bonny, Taylor Momsen, Lzzy Hale—the list goes on and on lol. Also Ethel Cain gets a special mention despite not making that kind of music simply because of her vibes.
Then, because the bisexuality will not let me rest: VV, but specifically 2000s era VV (not to say he isn't hot now, he very much is, I just fucked heavily with the gender vibes he had going on then). Also Brian Molko, for the aforementioned gender vibe reasons. And Hozier.
Then, stepping away from musicians, we've got Rhea Ripley—which, disclaimer: I do not watch wrestling at all, I just saw gifs of her on tumblr and immediately went 😳 Um Hello Ma'am What Can I Do For You—and Michael Mando and Rhea Seehorn and, and. And actually let's stop here. I've got to keep a measure of dignity don't I. (also I forgor all the other people I've ever seen. I'm lucky I managed to squeeze this much information out of my brain honestly so I'm taking it as a win.)
#Maia speaks#this was going to be a short answer and then—what's that? it's THE BISEXUALITY coming in with a steel chair!#and THEN it was going to be even longer than this until the ADHD forgetfulness hit. 😔 oh well.#if this shows up in any tags I do apologise & promise I didn't mean to spam or anything!
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