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sirbird · 3 months ago

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Sorry y’all my inner child needed this

#my art #mlp art #mlp sona #my little pony #I know alrigjt I know don’t come after me #if younger me knew I could now draw myself as a Pegasus she would have lost it #this is what I mean by the adhd is hitting #I’m over here thinking about fandoms I haven’t thought about in years #I’m in the trenches rn

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 9 months ago

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Bros before Ho(oh my god is that Hanguang-Jun?)

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #WWX really was unhinged for saying he was going to always be at JC's side and then immediately asking about LWJ.#The D in ADHD stands for Distractible. The second D stands for DooowawawaWaaaah (ADHDers know what I mean)#Their conversation is such a knife twist in this flashback. WWX truly and genuinely does mean it when he says he wants to support JC #And that JC hopes for that too! Tragedies hit the hardest when you can feel the lost futures characters would have together #And I feel it here in this scene so painfully. There's complicated feelings between them but it wasn't what broke them apart.#The rumours and the twisted family dynamics that tried to pit them against each other likely wouldnt have worked.#It set the stage for JC to have an inferiority complex which then grows into his responsibility complex.#WWX even calls it out! That JC has to be the responsible one in the dynamic.#And it sucks to be in that unequal position with a sibling or a not-sibling.#You don't get the love *or* acknowledgement but you do get the pressure to be the 'better one' in the face of the other's misbehaviour.#But I digress. There was a world where they did became the twin heroes of yunmeng jiang and stayed together.#And we'll never see it. That world is gone now. And just like Lotus pier -even if they tried to rebuild it - they will never be the same.

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deoidesign · 6 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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ratcandy · 4 months ago

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I NEED TO GET DIAGNOSED! (violent explosion sounds and terrified screaming follows shortly after my proclamation of suffering

#this is in reference to multiple things. honestly. physical and mental #the lump ? who is she #the possibly undiagnosed adhd that my therapist rec'd i get tested for and my mom already has and is also pushing me to get tested for?#don't know her. who is that.#don't even get me STARTED on the OTHER thing my therapist + a separate counselor + mom said I need to get checked for. that. can wait 👍#we don't need to unpack that one. right now. :)#i mean every time it was brought up it was followed by ''but we don't need to get into that if you don't want to'' and you're so right #bestie I don't want to get into that. I came here to get told i have an anxiety disorder and get meds and instead what you hit me with #was thAT!!!!!!#GET ME OUT OF HERE.#clamtalk

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avpdgirlfriend · 1 month ago

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why did i have a dream that i was being stalked and harassed that was genuinely so stressful

#what even prompted that.#also people kept leaving the fucking front door open or unlocked even though they knew this guy kept trying to come into our apartment #i had to keep checking tbe door all the time and once i had to hit him with the door so he wouldnt come in bc it was unlocked and he had hi #hand on the door handle trying to open it before i was able to lock #stressful as fuck.#i was intending to tell someone downstairs like a landlord or door man i guess? i dont know.#i kept meaning to tell them to not let him enter the building anymore but i kept forgetting. ok #adhd prevails #also not my actual apartment the hallway was indoors and my mom hates those

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userboxvariety · 3 months ago

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*does a super massive love beam at you* YOUR USERBOXES ARE SO COOL!!!!!! How many requests do you have in your inbox rn???? I wanna request but I don’t wanna if there’s too many TvT

there r currently 31 requests in my inbox :DD !!

#mod laios (★)#WAHHH TYSM BTW ❤️❤️#i will never get used to people complimenting my userboxes actually #ily little people on my blog #all 100+ of you JJSJDS #ik 31 sounds like a lot but guys pls keep sending requests #ill get to them eventually and with love LOL #i do kinda miss making self-indulgent userboxes but like then that means less time to work on requests #and i feel guilty cus some of ur requests date back to last month TT waahhh #dw ill get to u guys eventually #school is just rly drowning me at the moment BJSJSJKDS #answered (★)#< NOOO MY FORMAT…#i cant move it rn cus im not on my laptop TT #maybe if i reach 50 requests ill close my inbox #HEAVY MAYBE #bcus what if i get hit with the sudden motivationator #huge hit or miss with the adhd honestly

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freyadragonlord · 3 months ago

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In a perfect world i would love to reread ORV like, once a year.

But I happen to be a slow reader...... it's been a month and a half since i started my second read and i'm still not done!

My dreams are not sustainable :(

#this is why the Apostle piss me off #what do you mean you reread this novel 99 times #with what time #there's other books in this world i want to read as well #my plans are thwarted by my adhd and slow reading speed #orv reread #i am at the battle with the 999's calamities #so i should be done before the end of august #but gosh #i was faster the first time #that first read hit hard and I went into hyperfocus

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11-angry-bees · 5 months ago

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living in a household with only neurodivergent people and then finding out that like 90% of the things your family does are considered 'not normal' by normie standards is so fucking funny to me

#what do you MEAN your dad didnt spend 5 years researching which car to buy #like no wonder nobody caught it until i hit adulthood #we all need to be on meth i guess #autism #adhd #196

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raksh-writes · 6 months ago

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Oh my god, I just got hit with Such a hardcore urge to do a fresh reinstall of Skyrim and rebuild my mod list from the ground up that it's making it Impossible to focus on anything else and I was supposed to be writing a paper for one of my uni classes today, like why, brain??? Why NOW??? 😭😭

Feels like Im not gonna be able to get my hands on anything else until I do it and it might as well take the whole day ahhhhowpghhiulaergnilaengnalg the fuck is this, help 😭😭

#personal #Raksh's gaming adventures #Skyrim #is it because I started thinking about the Kaidan custom follower mod? maaaaybe #it's my friends fault tbh #we've been discussing all sorts of games for months #we're gaming buddies now in that way lmao #we got to talking Skyrim few weeks ago and I guess the thought has been building in the back of my head #and now it hit me full force #possibly bcs I have some free time this week and no pressing deadlines??#I mean I need to write and send this paper over before the month ends so #it's not registering as super urgent to my brain #I was just trying to be responsible by writing it early but #I just can't focus rn 😭😭#it really is NOT leaving me alone #what in the HELL is this?? some undiagnosed ADHD thing Im unaware of??#tbf I have no idea if I have ADHD but a lot of the symptoms seem to fit so I dunno #and this is WEIRD #like yeah okay maybe if I Force myself to write the paper I will (at least a bit of it)#but the URGE #overwhelming ngl #and I just found out there's a way to reroll the Anniversary update to Special edition so it IS possible to do a fresh reinstall #I NEED #euihfniladnglang;jad #okay Im gonna go #at least try to start the paper and then we'll see I guess #(watch me reinstall and build a whole new modlist before the day ends jdagjinidngjd)#I also need to do a backup of all the files I have #good thing I never deleted any of the downloaded mod files #there are some there not available anymore on Nexus and I NEED them

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sprinklethetangerine · 7 months ago

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I think this is a pretty reasonable situation to cry in, right?

#ughhhhh #you know what becausd i hate myself (not really dw) this isnt gonna be a vaguepost #if youre reading the tags buckle the fuck up #so last week and the week before were spring break for me #and the week before was jjst full of studying and exam stress to the point where i couldnt attend my archery lessons #cause all i was doing at that time was either studying or feeling like shit for not studying #but when spring break hit actually THE VERY SECOND it arrived I had to go to another city about two hours away to visjt family #and guess what? I STAYED THERE FOR ALMOST THE WHOLE ENTIRE SPRING FUCKING BREAK #so i couldnt even do most of the shit i wanted to #and even there i couldnt enjoy my time #why? because ALL I DID was study. my cousin tutors me and I was failing these 3 specific subjects #so she was helping me withtgem and she wouldnt leave me be #and when my (undiagnosed) adhd made me shit at focusing and my mind keot wantering and i kept looking away because i was understimulated #i got shouted at which was not very fun #whats worse is she did it in front of people. literally in public.#then we come back home THANKFULLY and she comes with us. because of course.#and now all my time all of it except for one or two hours of the day is just studying #the only free time i have is when she sleeps #and school. literally never in my life have i been happy to go to school and yet id rather be there than here.#but what choice do i really have #its either this or fail the exams #it gets worse. on thursday i was really tired from school. i came back and PASSED OUT #and by passed out I mean PASSED OUT #idk if it was cause it was hot outside or school just drained my energy but i could barely exist at that point #then my cousin finds me on the couch sweaty and basically dying #what does she do? she wakes me up like “alright time to study”#so yesterday i did charity work and it involved carrying a lot of heavy boxes and stuff so i naturally came back drained and tired and she #STILL WANTED ME TO STUDY so the second we got back I just slept and i was practically comatose so she coukdnt even wake me up #i slept for 11 hours and woke up to MORE STUDYING HURRAY and then at 5 i went to archery class and we got back at 8 and she WONT STOP #i just want to go home. im so tired. physically and mentally and emotionally. i just wanna go fucking home.

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kesoyotes · 1 year ago

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quick doodle for Undertale's 8th birthday ... I'm getting old

#this game shaped me so much both as an artist and as a person so i wanted to do something real quick ...#idk what kind of adhd energy hit me at 11pm but here we are #hbd undertale u still mean so much to me #undertale #undertale 8th anniversary

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victorinoxghoul · 11 months ago

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i have got to get medicated again this is getting out of handddd

#fisherman's ramblings #this is light enough that it can go on main idc #but just got hit with a wave of horrible Depression Feels and it's like. wow okay i was literally just sitting here. my day was good.#where the hell did you come from #AT LEAST IT'S NOT PSYCHOSIS (hopefully) THO FUCKKK THAT SHIT #hopefully the doc was right and my psychosis delulu shit will subside if i treat the depression. we'll see #same with adhd i gotta get that sorted out. if i want to do school stuff.#i never did find meds that worked tho!! so. we'll fuckin seeeee!!!!#shout-out to the doc at the ward who just gave me an atrocious amount of adhd meds to the point where i'm pretty sure she just could've put #me on tranquilizers and had the exact same effect #i was out of it for actual days even after i got out of there... why did she do that....#the ``symptom`` she was trying to treat was an extension of paranioa. from the psychotic episode i was having #so naturally the fuckin?? adhd meds didn't work LMAOO??#SO SHE JUST KEPT UPPING MY DOSE??#girlypop what was the REASONNN #sorry didn't mean to ramble in the tags.#actually no this is my blog i can do what i want

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mikurulucky · 11 months ago

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Ya know, the one downside to living in a past era was the limited knowledge and acceptance of autism. Like, I've always been the kind of person who felt they were "born in the wrong generation" or "born in the wrong location", but it wasn't even until adulthood that autism acceptance has grown into what it is now and it also wasn't until adulthood that I found any online communities for folks on the spectrum that I can actually relate to and connect with.

Initially, I thought my dad was the only one who suspected I had aspergers and that my mom thought I didn't have it. I suspect dad had some trouble explaining that to me because my mom did suspect as did my teachers. Since it was the late 90s/early 2000s, I went undiagnosed so I wouldn't deal with the stigma, yet I got bullied anyway in grade school.

That decision for them must've felt like a damned if you do damned if you don't situation for them when they found out about the bullying, I imagine. I've suspected I was autistic since I was 19 after all and I'm honestly glad me and dad weren't the only ones who suspected it.

Sometimes I wondered if my dad was on the spectrum as well and went undiagnosed until the very end. He was born in an era before autism was even understood or known by anyone after all, and autism was thought of much differently than it is now. I always felt I had more in common with him than with mom after all, and autism is hereditary, and looking back, him being autistic as well or at least sharing some traits makes a lot of sense to me.

Now I really want to get screened, if only so someone else can confirm it officially. At least now, I have my mom, my past teachers, and my past partners to back me up and not just me. That makes me feel better.

When my mom told me about her suspicions, I felt quite betrayed and felt like crying. Then that turned into me being angry at the world for not being accepting of anyone who's different. Like, REALLY angry at the world. Royally pissed off even.

But now that I know more people I knew actually had the same suspicions I ended up having as a young adult, I kinda feel at peace.

#i mean it did take a while for me to fully process what my mom said and for those emotions to process #like it took a lot for me to finally ask my mom about it and the knowledge just hit me like a shit ton of bricks #guess this time i was ready to hear it. it was just the right time ig #autism #neurodivergent #suspected autism #i also somewhat suspect adhd but idek man #mental health #family #rambling #rambling at the void #also after mom explained all that shit i thought more about my experiences in childhood up to now and everything clicks right into place #guess you could call it an aha moment but for me it was more of a eureka moment lol

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foxgloveinspace · 1 year ago

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oh my god you gave permission to send vids and i lasted all of 30 minutes before needing to send something 😂

BUT!!!

iv crying 🥺🥺🥺 the love for iii these last few shows has melted my heart and clearly the bands too

https://x.com/vesseltoken/status/1734391886901616999?s=46

i cannot suffer alone with this one i’m so sorry

Well, as I watch this and suffer. here, sleep token official instagrams account second to last pic…. Our boy AdamRosssi knows what we want, haha.

🥺🥺🥺

Oh no……

#just. one photo of vessels hand close up hahahaha.#hihi!!!#friend Exie!!#(your new tag❤️)#welp. you’ve fucked me up good is what you’ve done here.#(also I do not care how many asks you send me in a day ok. I mean I do think there is a limit #so like. if you hit that that might be uhhh. something haha. gosh I’ve never hit post limit before?? wow)#(oh like. tumblr has a limit on how much you can post in a day and I think there’s a limit on asks too. if you didn’t know #idk how long you’ve been on tumblr now that I think about it… I’m assuming a while cause I figure you used to be a trc blog but I am unsure #hahaha. I have a feeling we where/are in different sides of the trc fandom tho🤣🤣. if you didn’t know I uhhh… used to write Ronan x Gansey #fics😅😂. I have some ideas for future ones too maybe but we’ll see.)#so you def know about post limit and I just… over explained.. but now I can’t delete the tags cause they lead up to trc talk #I’m so glad the guys know we care about them. idk I’m not very emotional #these tags.. dang. the adhd fingers strike again. *blows off my fingers like they are old timey smoking guns*

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incorrectskyrimquotes · 2 years ago

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I may end up doing some ~experimental~ writing to tell Eryn's full story

#shh dont tell my main im not asleep #anyways what i mean is ill write it out as a summary with snippets of dialogue #basically the same writing style ive besn using for the liveblogs but longer #with the authors voice also being rather informal #if nothing else itd be a fun challenge bc i typically write in a strict past tense limited 3rd person style #i often find present tense very distracting when im reading so i avoid using it #itll still be in 3rd person though but perhaps not limited to eryns own perspective we'll see #also i have absolutely 0 timeframe on when ill get started #a) bc christmas is in a week #b) anyone with adhd or has loved ones with adhd already knows but theres a HUGE shortage of adhd medication right now #im to understand adderall has been the hardest hit but i believe ritalin was hit very hard as well #that is all to say i am having a TIME right now trying to like. focus and do stuff.#and i WANT to write this i really do but fjskkgigjjd dopamine machine broke

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goddevouringserpent · 2 years ago

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Do you have any celebrity crushes?

HMMM I do have many celebrities I find attractive but I don't know if those count as celebrity crushes, per se? Because I think that for it to count as a crush there has to be a certain degree of... proactivity to it, or at least be a little be more involved than just looking at a person who happens to be a celebrity and think "wow, you're hot, Nice" lol

THAT BEING SAID. I have a well-known, well-documented weakness for women of metal & rock, such as Alissa White-Gluz (this picture explains it all), Cristina Scabbia, Floor Jansen, Melissa Bonny, Taylor Momsen, Lzzy Hale—the list goes on and on lol. Also Ethel Cain gets a special mention despite not making that kind of music simply because of her vibes.

Then, because the bisexuality will not let me rest: VV, but specifically 2000s era VV (not to say he isn't hot now, he very much is, I just fucked heavily with the gender vibes he had going on then). Also Brian Molko, for the aforementioned gender vibe reasons. And Hozier.

Then, stepping away from musicians, we've got Rhea Ripley—which, disclaimer: I do not watch wrestling at all, I just saw gifs of her on tumblr and immediately went 😳 Um Hello Ma'am What Can I Do For You—and Michael Mando and Rhea Seehorn and, and. And actually let's stop here. I've got to keep a measure of dignity don't I. (also I forgor all the other people I've ever seen. I'm lucky I managed to squeeze this much information out of my brain honestly so I'm taking it as a win.)

#Maia speaks #this was going to be a short answer and then—what's that? it's THE BISEXUALITY coming in with a steel chair!#and THEN it was going to be even longer than this until the ADHD forgetfulness hit. 😔 oh well.#if this shows up in any tags I do apologise & promise I didn't mean to spam or anything!

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