#this is totally healthy

[ninja-grace]

my schedule today :D

wake up

go back to sleep

wake up

go home

do laundry

go back to sleep

wake up

go to work

go home

go back to sleep

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

Having to get your life together so your therapist doesn't feel bad about himself.

[wherethewaterstarts-andyouend]

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[theglamorousferal]

Ahahahaha I love not feeling hunger pains it's totally okay to not eat until 7 pm and even then I'm forcing myself to eat something.

[nothing-impt]

Screw you. Pancakes your Polites >:(

[thenightshadowqueen]

I think one of the things I will always love most about Merthur is that I adore loyalty taken to the extreme. I love someone abandoning all their morals and reframing their entire belief system around one person. I love someone willing to do absolutely anything for someone, no matter how horrendous it is. I love someone who would let their love kill them if they wanted to.

I adore loyalty taken to the extreme, and Merthur, specifically from Merlin’s perspective, is exactly that.

[mossy-aro]

ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.

when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!

that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.

but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!

joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.

and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.

tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.

[jokamachai]

He’s fine you guys

[emderperq]

i realized i hadnt drawn these two silly lovers yet and I think thats a crime

if anyone hasnt watched Nerdy Prudes Must Die I very much recommend it!! It’s a musical posted on youtube by Starkid and its apart of the Hatchetfield trilogy (aka a masterpiece of musicals)

[its-not-a-pen]

He’s a little confused but he’s got the right spirit…

[sequesteredbhaalspawn]

Thinking about how Gortash was a "corrupting" influence in The Dark Urge's life. About how he distracted them from their duties, who they are suppose to be, what they're suppose to do. About how Gortash was, rather it be intentionally or unintentionally, undoing their indoctrination in Bhaal's church.

Bhaal's Church tells them they're a monster, no one will love them, they are a danger to all. Everyone is better off dead if they are alive. Durge didn't teach themself all of those self deprecating point-and-click dialogs.

Gortash tells them are not a monster, that their brilliant, that he likes them, their not a danger to him- everyone would better off if Durge (and himself) ruling them.

Like Gortash never actually just straight up tells Durge that being Bhaalists is bad (in fact I don't think he thinks that even, he doesn't care if they're a Bhaalists or not, if anything he would simply not like the extent Bhaal's influence over them), or ever tells them they should leave Bhaal's Church, but he does tell them they're the opposite of everything Bhaal's Church says they are, and we know that clearly has influenced Durge in someway (to the point of writing the prayer of forgiveness).

It's just neat.

[auspicioustidings]

Bet Soap shuts down all the diet talk around the office girls by generally being outraged that they're talking about how they should do this diet or that diet (all of them wildly unacceptable to him from a health standpoint, like fuck off you work on a military base 400 calories for a day is NOT ON) and then loudly saying he is going to fuck some self worth into them while already taking his clothes off. There is a massive sigh and Gaz drags him out of there while profusely apologising (but also telling them to meet him at lunch and if they want to talk about good eating habits he can help).

Soap will spend the rest of the day pacing and grumbling under his breath about how much he would die to get stuck into these girls and how he cannot believe they think they're not hot as fuck.

[eff-plays]

Ascendant girlies are like "Omg you have to pass a Persuasion check to convince Astarion not to do the ritual! That means you're coercing him and forcing him away from doing what he truly wants!"

Meanwhile I was genuinely surprised at how easy it was to convince him not to do it. Like I thought I'd have to pass two checks at least. That he'd have counterarguments. Maybe even use different arguments depending on their relationship up until this point.

Some ppl really stumble at the first hurdle, huh.

[valiantcat]

Here's another Daeran commission from about a year back, also made by awesome Loran De Sore. I guess it will be the last one for quite some time, while I find another artist to commission and some new ideas.

Loran's tumblr (mostly inactive) and twitter.

[starstriix]

Jock Week 2024 — Day 4: Injury (again)

I don’t have any art for day 5 so I wanted to make 2 for Injury. Enjoy!! :D

[niyebex]

I missed alenoah