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jerevision · 3 months ago

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Me @ Bluza: why did you rip out my heart and tear it to shreds and please can you do it again

#joker out #bluza #this is sad in the most comforting way #idk if that makes sense #midnight musings #midnight bluza-ings

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crescentfool · 10 months ago

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reunion 🌸

#persona 3 #persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #makoto yuki #ryoji mochizuki #aigis #ryomina #lizzy does art #HELLO EVERYONE!!! march 5th is upon us again so i bring... my contribution for this year. my third year drawing for it!#i made the thumbnail for this a few weeks after last year's graduation day #i thought it would be fun to lean into the ryominaigis angle of graduation day (you could read this as minato/aigis if you like-#but i feel like most people would read it as ryoji/minato)#IN ANY CASE working on this made me very emotional over this game :') (specifically minato)#i really enjoy how p3 ends it's such a nice way of wrapping up the narrative's messages and themes #working on this. minato's kindness was at the forefront of my mind throughout the piece #and i really wanted to capture how. ultimately it was his decision to sacrifice himself- to do the great seal #while to an outsider's perspective it is. sad that minato passes. i think becoming the seal is something that minato-#actively welcomes. in the same way that death (ryoji) is a comfort to him because death was housed in him for Ten YearsTM #AND I ALSO GOT REALLY SAD OVER AIGIS TOO. i still get fucked up over how in fes's animated cutscene for 3/5 they portray-#her as human and not drawing the robot parts so i wanted to do something smilar here...#but also i am very sad on aigis's behalf because she discovers her humanity through minato and realizes what she-#wants to do and then. well. minato is like. he's ready to pass on (even if he's scared) and im like. OH MY GOD THIS TRIO GETS ME MESSED UP #this was more coherent in my head LOL BUT ough i like drawing p3 and working through my feelings about it...#anyway! happy (in quotations) march 5th. i love this game to bits. it's so fun to draw for this day every year and see how i've improved #if you've read all this thank you :) lizzy appreciates you all very much. mwah! <3

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dykedvonte · 2 months ago

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Curly had two days to act and Swansea had two months.

I think it’s just interesting that every defense of Swansea not immediately acting are the same ones that are argued against for Curly. “He didn’t want to alert Daisuke or makes things worse for Anya either Jimmy!” I mean people also assume that about Curly and the crew. “He has to think about his plan of action and a right moment!” Again so did Curly, power and authority aside, he still would have to think of what he had to do. “He makes sure he doesn’t have to be around Jimmy!” So did Curly and they only do this to an extent, both give Jimmy more than a few opening to keep harassing Anya.

This isn’t defense of Curly nor a damnation of Swansea. Their actions are very parallel to each others in tragic and sour ways when it comes to how they approached helping Anya. In the grand scheme of it all they both did the same thing: Nothing. No action either took stopped the inevitable outcome of her death nor Jimmy’s continued damage to themself.

The only real difference is Swansea didn’t like Jimmy which is pretty substantial, but also just as damning as Curly knowing how bad Jimmy could get to an extent. He had even less of a reason to wait, even more of a reason to act seeing as he was now worried for Anya AND Daisuke. He is not bound by the possible procedure as Captain and actively does not care about what happens next. So what does it matter if he acted in the moment? Why did he wait? I think he’s just as morally complex and grey as Curly and we hold him on a pedestal that still perpetuates things in rape culture the game critiques.

It’s not just enough to dislike and be abrasive to predators/abusers like Jimmy. It’s not enough to just put yourself between them and the other person. It’s not enough to hold tensions when you know someone is vulnerable. He and Curly do the exact same things but on different sides of the coin. I ask how is it better to not turn a blind eye but still not really do anything about what you are seeing? Not until it affects you atleast…

The game makes a big point to not put men doing the bare minimum or who wait to do more on pedestals and I’m actually surprised so many are missing that point.

#like I’m sorry two months? he couldn’t have explained it at all to Daisuke?#he’s no better than Curly and it’s likely Anya found comfort in the fact that Jimmy would at least avoid being around Swansea #tho everything he went off to drink or passed out she would be acutely reminded that things are still taking precedent in his head #she is not his top concern nor is seeking justice for her like he is admittedly more concerned about Daisuke he doesn’t mention her #outside of the fact that they were def talking about what Jimmy did and likely the fact he might’ve crashed the ship but pls don’t mistake #his final acts as being majority for Anya. the game keeps showing how these men keep prioritizing things over her even when they say they #won’t and it’s sad it’s so sad that we keep trying to say but what about him like they all do it #it’s not intentional but that’s what’s also bad about it like I doubt she made a suicide plan with him two months in advance #these characters are acting to get out of this and she knows her ending is not happy if she leaves or not she’s taking that choice to do it #and hell Swansea might not have known by the way he speaks to Daisuke and Jimmy that that was her plan to khs #likely either to just keep her and Curly locked in med bay until they got rescued or died #but it’s all speculation and thinking and I can only implore people to think why are you giving Swansea more credit?#cause I see him bittersweetly so used to the negatives he cares not for futile efforts #two months vs two days and each time nothing was really done for her other than prolonging her suffering around Jimmy #Swansea slept outside utility was drunk most of the time and it’s clear Jimmy was able to have access to Anya whenever #I mean look at the teaser where they sit at the table he is far from her with Daisuke #like it’s just frustration at this point thinking any guy on that ship was doing good by Anya specifically and not for their own reasons #like at least Curly was direct on the issue he still did mostly Jack shit but Swansea doesn’t even let Jimmy know he knows #and that’s another issue in rape culture of men avoiding calling other men what they are even if they hate them like #the game plays with the idea of knowing vs acknowledging and neither truly acknowledge it as a part of their actions #against Jimmy and god no one did better than Anya for Anya. they just weren’t heinous like Jimmy #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #curly mouthwashing #captain curly #swansea mouthwashing #anya mouthwashing #nurse anya #it’s not all men but all men can and do play a part especially in the extreme scenario mouthwashing deposits

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ricesinspo · 5 months ago

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☆ — reactions to screaming and crying II. by @ricesinspo, credits appreciated!

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[★] running to someone else because you're not sure what to do, "help! they're crying, what do i do?????"

[★] running to someone else, but to 'report misbehavior', "ugh they're being annoying! stop them!!"

[★] asking "what's wrong?", only to give half-hearted advice that is barely assuring, if even at all.

[★] sitting by their side; as in being just there. perhaps you're not quite sure how to help.

[★] staying quiet. saying nothing. staring disapprovingly for a while, then, "... are you done."

[★] "you know this is hard for me too, right? you're making this even harder. so stop it."

[★] "what's wrong with you?! say it! don't just scream and cry as if anyone's going to understand!" (<- is the person making it difficult for them to open up)

[★] "you know crying won't solve anything, right?"

[★] "what happened? this isn't like you at all..."

[★] ^ the above but more condescending, "where did my good and cheerful child/friend/[relationship]/[name] go?"

[★] "suck it up."

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#writing inspiration #writing prompts #writing #writeblr #angst #angst prompts #sad prompts #situation prompts #reaction prompts #imagine your otp #ricesinspo #no comfort today sorry #first two prompts definitely fit better in a 'child reporting to trusted adult' context. but it doesnt matter really #i kid you not 'are you done' is one of The most insensitive ways to respond to someone experiencing emotions like wtf #not going to rant but if youve ever had someone tell you that youd understand

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joshuamj · 8 months ago

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She just wanted a friend :(

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #pomni #gummigoo #tadc spoilers #the amazing digital circus spoilers #josh art tag #okay but this ep was really interesting in the subtle ways it showed that pomni didnt think of the others as friends #like i suppose it shouldve been obvious #but i think myself and many other members of the fandom knew from the pilot that they would end up friends and we realized the potential #and then combined with the time between eps #i kinda forgot that they werent really friends #pomni actually spent most of the pilot separated from them in exit maze hell #and was Going Thru It the rest of the time #but this eps pomni dynamics with the rest were super interesting #esp how she wasnt really receptive to ragathas friendliness #and then the ending!! how a funeral of all things gave her comfort and hope!#i think that showed her that these truly are real people #not just like part of this weird digitap hell like caine #and that even if she abstracts she will be remembered #and people will be sad about what happened to her and mourn her #the scene of everyones (minus jax's) hands grabbing her as she falls makes me so emotional 🥺

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rosekasa · 2 months ago

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there is something so. intensely frustrating about feeling incapable of showing up for people the way that they want you to

#i wish people understood that it's so hard to be present in their lives and that closeness for me isnt about frequency of contact #but how open we feel during that contact #my brain is such a difficult place to live in it is so loud and so busy all the time #24 hours a day is a constant monologue and argument with myself for everything and it means that i just dont have the capacity to talk to #others most of the time #and like. i know this is so unreasonable. obviously we have to be present in the lives of people that care for us #but it just feels like every day i have to like. get on a stage and perform to every person in my life that cares about me so i can meet the #criteria of being a Good Friend or Good Girlfriend or Good Fan Artist or Good Mutual or Good Server Member #i feel like it is such a blessing to be seen by others as someone to expect things from #but as more people have started to love me it feels like i have to 'go out and perform' more and more and i am very exhausted #i wish i was someone that was easy to love and care for in the way that i am. and i dont mean that self deprecatingly it's just #i know im very hard to care about and love. because i disappear all the time and come back in a big flurry as soon as i get the energy back #and im just feeling it a Lot More lately because im starting to think this isnt going to be a short term thing i have to do before i start #feeling comfortable with a person #this is going to be my whole life #if i get married im going to have to 'go out and perform' and be a good wife and be affectionate and happy and not closed into my own brain #for days #if im going to make friends with colleagues I'll have to go out when they invite me and have to reply ro their texts and i cant just go #silent for weeks while i try to negotiate with my thoughts and then reappear once i make the slightest breakthrough #im very tired and sad. i want companionship but i feel like the kind of person i am is not fair for people who would be my companion #vent post #♡alizeh talks♡

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sysig · 1 year ago

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Utterly Defeated (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #<Sticking to my tag so they're all together ♥#Dexter Favin #Max Vyer #But really that's ZEX in there! What's left of him anyway ;;#ZEX #Hhhhhhh it was so goooood and saaaaad <3 <3 #Helix is a tragedy - on repeat in my mind ad infinitum #I made most of these upon initially reading - and then I had to sit on them through all of October!! Can you imagine the impatience??#I've been absolutely chomping at the bit for these hhhhh feelings!!! So many!!! Max's eyes and ZEX being behind his single remaining ;;#Dex wanting him to be safe and knowing he used to and now he can't offer it anymore I jifdsahfdjsaf #Have I mentioned I love them lately I love them <3 <3 All of them! Dex and Max and ZEX! And DAX I'm sure ZEX misses him so badly #In a way it was good that I had a bit more time to set it down and come back - I reread it very recently hehe <3 #I still get teary at some scenes ah </3 It's so beautifully sad #But it also gave me some time to finish ZEX starting to shape the word ''Max'' and then back off it ahhhh it hurts!!#The rest were at least all lined at the time - came back in to tone some recently but they were all ''finished'' October 1st ah #Especially of Dex waking ZEX to call him by his title hhh they both just want peace so badly but it looks so different to both of them #Lingering on his scar and then carding through his hair <3 Comfort and softness and it's all not enough #His scar is quite fun to draw as well ah - scars tend to be like that haha ♪ The stitches and discolouration give it a unique look!#And the way his hair pulls back from it ah #I had a lot of fun with his hair hiding his bandaged eye as well - just barely peeking out always just enough of a reminder #And all his lying-down poses - his hair is fun to pose like that as well #One of the original Landel doodles of ZEX talking about what Hell would look like for a VUX really struck me as well #Dex can't help him in so many ways ehn </3 He wants to! But he wants Max and he just can't have him anymore #Hhhh it was such a good read <3 <3 <3 Thank you again to Zarla it really made and still makes me happy to read it ahhh ♥♪#Now that I've (finally!) gotten my thoughts out I can read the other!! Yay!!

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puppyeared · 4 months ago

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guy who only asks questions if they feel insightful enough to be worth asking and only hangs out if there is smth to do together <- deeply uncomfortable of the idea of wasting someones time

#yes i was constantly accused of not paying attention for asking questions i didnt know someone already asked why do you ask #maybe it does sound a little sad when i put it as 'i feel most comfortable when i feel like im not wasting the other persons time'#but its more like i want the other person to feel like im putting thought or at least care into it even if i dont express it very well #its weird feeling like im not giving back enough in the conversation but not knowing why or being confused by the idea #of someone who just likes to listen to me talk and not waiting for their turn to speak like i do like. arent you tired of it yet>?#how are you not thinking of ways to get out of this conversation yet??? it fascinates me bc ill never understand it #i like how we are now talking abt not letting yourself feel like a burden for asking for help and letting people help you #but i am on the other side of the spectrum where i want to feel needed when we hang out or else i wont know how to let u know me #yapping #diary #I hate feeling like this cuz it feels like im coming up with new and creative ways to defend myself instead of being myself

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radioroxx · 3 months ago

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hmmmm mal du pays thoughts tonight

#radio rambles #i should go to bed but. it is on the mind #isat spoilers #<- for the . wall of tags to come #imm wondering what most people hc mdp to like. be #i know its most popular to see it as siffrins sadness. i do think thats p neat #and probably the intention #but im. juggling around the idea of? siffrin system moment? mdp as a headmate? if yall see that vision?#most inspired by that ‘do u hc this character as a system’ post abt siffrin #and i voted no then but now im like genuinely changing my mind JFKFKF #it makes sense in a way. and into my mdp hc that it. wouldve split while sif was very young #splitting due to stress which leads to a lot of. gestures vaguely. mdp’s whole thing #a mix of stress but also this sense of longing to. belong somewhere. to not be alone #many years ago it was about the loss of their home. and much later on became more related to its feelings towards their family #mdp is a scared child to me . idk about yalls hcs for it but thats what im sticking to #a scared child who maybe grew up a little alongside the body. but still Young and Scared #its not as often or eager to front as siffrin is. i can imagine it being much more hover-y or . POSSIBLY. cohosting if its feeling up to it #uhm. ok well #so i typed this out and now im actually really sad about mdp jgkdkf where is mdp recovery #now im kinda thinking about it fronting for once to properly meet the party and. and receiving comfort. and and and #wow christ im upset #also also glancing over at marias sibling au for character dynamics here….. sillies…..#ps not relevant to my mdp thoughts but fyi im imagining siffin in headspace looks very much like their body #the difference being. much darker clothes. more stars etc. maybe different hair #think like how a lot of ppl style their human loops. thats kinda how i imagine sif in headspace #SPEAKING OF LOOP #i think given the time he spent with them it woulf make sense if they split a loop as well #and ofc other members of the party jgkfkf #im not gonna get into my hcs there because ill b taking away from my mdp hc post BUT #thinking. always thinking

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pennyserenade · 7 months ago

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guys we have to take peaky blinders from the straight cis men i’m not even fucking around. i have like five more weeks of school left but after that i’m about to go strong with this agenda bc tommy shelby can’t be understood by them they way he needs to be understood. he’s trapped! they’re thinking his toxic masculinity is a good thing! they watched him try to kill himself sixty times between the years 1924 to 1934 and they thought ‘we need more men like that.’ they don’t know anything about his white horse and the purity of childhood he’s been chasing his entire adult life. they don’t understand the injustice of it all. it doesn’t make them sick to their stomachs!!!

#misc.#it might actually but not nearly enough for my comfort #i think peaky blinders is very brilliant in the way it handles the masculinity of that time #in the way they depict it as a fucking miserable and inescapable existence that does nothing but creates more misery #the fact that there’s multiple generations of shelby men who were born and breed and taught violence and anger #and all they ever do is suffer at their own hands #i think all the fucking time about arthur shelby and that scene where he beats that one man who is helping his wife #and how lady grinning soul plays in the background and how later he tells tommy #he’s a good man but his hands are the hands of the devil #and it’s so fucking pathetic and sad. and these cis men don’t understand the depth of it #they don’t get that these reticent cool men they take to be the apex of masculinity #have spent so much of their life wishing they weren’t the way they were #and everyone suffers. everyone. the poison of patriarchy is the most potent

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arsenicflame · 3 months ago

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hi so, checking in (sorry, its personal bullshit again, ill get back to the fandom stuff you actually wanted,,,, eventually)

things. are going bad. like, really bad, like last january bad. like im about to lose all my personhood again bad. im hoping its still just going to be a small blip and things will start upticking soon, but. im bracing for that not to be the case. it feels different to me

i vaguely mentioned earlier in the week taking a bit of a step back, and ive decided to extend that into a full break. my queues probably going to run out before im back, though i have slowed it down some. thatll be the only noticable difference for 99% of people. i wont guarantee any dm responses on here, but ill do my best for the couple of people who have me on discord

i didnt really want to do this again but it gets messy in my head, and ive found the best way to control the clawing beast of attention and need and the things that make me want to be a person i dont want to be is to cut it off at the source. its not nice, and it hurts, and it definitely kills the chances of making friends but. i promise you its better than the alternative.

ill see you when i see you, i guess. i hope its soon. i hope this isnt how it feels to be. i hope the feelings that have existed this week go dormant again. but itll be what itll be. i can't change that

#i know these things do not matter in the long run but it feels important to me to say #easier to concentrate on public presence than the emotions of it i guess #nyxtalks #vent #not going to lie to you my friends. im scared #the problem is ultimately. it all feels rational in the end. it feels weighted and worthy and not just a product of mental illness #so i can sit here and feel as in control of my headspace as i want. its just i agree with my darkest thoughts #am i even a person worth the effort? all evidence points to one very clear answer #anyway #it scares me. ive felt more at home in my skin these past few months. had some rough spots for sure but. i hoped this would go away for muc #longer. i hoped i could at least get a couple of years #i dont know. i live in hopes of an impossible future where the dark doesnt get so dark you know? i think thatd be nice #i still can't function in any of the ways a person should. but at least i wouldnt be such a burden then #itd be easier to carry. if it was lighter #i dont really know what im saying im just. scared & sad & spending my entire day at work catastophising (and sm stuff there is NOT helping)#and all i really want is to lie curled up with my friends and not move for days and be held and comforted and feel a love that is true #and i dont even think thatd change things. i dont think anything can help me #even in my most fantastical scenarios i dont change. im just easier to love that way #ok im going to shut up now i dont think any of that had a point. its just rambles for me and me alone #ill see you when i see you. dont know when but i will be back. i can promise you that much #i have plans to keep for now at least

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topicaltropic · 6 months ago

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oops! all wips

#dndads #1st img is morgan . tried to solidify the type of person that would marry glenn & jodie and its like #manic pixie dream girl meets wife under bedsheets. fun loving carefree extremely irresponsible i imagine shes as much a bad mom as glenn is #a bad dad #close family dinner for each day of the week #i imagine its very depressing cool for kids sad for adult/college life meals #i had like a pmv/animatic of tmbg erase to nicks everything but ill never finish it sadge!#comic in the middle i was gonna do like a immediately after the final where willys defeated and schools out for summer norm and scary run #into eachother while theyre walking home #and scary would ask whats wrong and normal would be like #well knowing that the entire world ended because of me has been sort of weighing #on me yeah“ and then scary would go ”normal...do you wish that *was* the reason?“ which would lead normal getting dumbstuck cuz she hits #the nail on the hammer. and then hes incredibly defensive and hes like uh b buh NO !!! MAYBE !!! and scary would share her experience #but itd make normal more resentful cuz hed be like well it all worked out for you in the end with you and your dad and you mom who all love #you. and then scary would get irked and start to call him out but then now that the bottles been uncorked his resentment would start #spilling out.#“you burned my house down! i thought it was *my* family that had the connection with the doodler ! but why- when- ”#and normal would be so frustrated and he couldnt get his words out and hed refuse to look at scary while she looks at him w/ the hardest #look of conflicted sympathy and pain #and all she could say would be stop comparing yourself to me and shed mean that in the most compassionate way possible and norm would just #be like i know #and then the bus would come and scary would have to go but shed look back and then be like “am i still coming over saturday to play #and him busy crying would just give a thumbs up #god now that i write this out maybe i will draw it i have a little bit of time left why not #to me i think scarys someone normal would have the easiest time being mean to #one because of his latent misogyny and this like unconscious superciliousness he holds towards her yet shes the one receiving the #validation he sorely craves and knowing if theres anyone he could talk to and whos understand what hes going through its her so though he #isnt able to be emotionally vulnerable or engage in a deeper level but he does feel comfortable enough to lash out at her #last pic is if nick woke up post doodlerized and found himself on cassandras couch (where the teens placed him) and shes there to greet him

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distortedmoondisc · 1 year ago

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!! Main Story, Episode 165, "Present"

Have you guys heard Aira saying よしよし to Hiiro? Now you have 🥺

#the context behind the scene makes me incredibly sad #(hiiro being hurt by rinne disowning him)#but aira trying to comfort him this way... makes me so ...#🥺🥺🥺🥺#i imagine him patting hiiro's head or rubbing his back #aira is the sweetest most loyal friend to hiiro on this arc of the main story and i think about this all the time #hiiai #hiiro amagi #aira shiratori #enstars #ensemble stars

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farseerofv0id · 11 months ago

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*scrolling through the tag for the first time*

"Mizu is a trans man and so it's transphobic for the creators to show part of his life as a woman or talk about him with she/her at all"

*absurd amount of self control not to engage in what would become a fruitless discussion, ultimately keep scrolling*

"Mizu is a woman and it's disrespectful to women to call her a trans man because it takes away a 'strong woman' representation"

*scream into a pillow*

#blue eye samurai #the character themself doesn't care at all about their gender #which leads me to headcanon them agender BUT #they could end up being gender binary either way #they just don't have time/comfort/opportunity etc to think about it #that's an interesting character to think about the whole spectrum of gender #(and that's both a bit funny and a bit sad that even outside their show they can't escape the narrative (being gendered))#i'm bad at explaining stuff sorry #in conclusion: stop telling people what to do 0_0 #and stop seeing everyone that disagree with you as automatically *bad*#most people seeing mizu as a woman arent transphobic #no more than most of those seeing mizu as a man are misogynistic #EDIT i think i've find a better way to say what i want to say #it is interesting for the story/the character/yourself to see or having seen mizu as a trans man or woman or nonbinary #and what they are intended to be/will maybe revealed to be doesn't matter and won't (or shouldn't) change that

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eonars · 7 months ago

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um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing

#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school.#what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this #when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it #tbf like all that other shit up there aside #this did actually come at the perfect time #i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person #i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was #in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while #kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before #and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters #even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity #and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell #so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone #and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore #im the most ready ive ever been #2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit!#im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement #entirely on my own #like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog #i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then #im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now #anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself #but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years #became a stable genius as it were #whos a lot more clearly defined and present #but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid

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sysig · 1 month ago

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Feeling and looking good 🌈 (Patreon)

#Doodles #Even tho it hasn't been that long it still feels like I while since I've been in my doodle rotation lol just a lower density for a while #I forget if I mentioned the first time my favourite chair broke? It doesn't feel familiar in my head so I'll give a quick rundown lol #I frequent a rocking chair <3 It's the blue one I sometimes draw digitally :D And it's starting to show its age haha #I'm not very gentle on furniture - as evidenced by it breaking Again lol #There's a specific screw in its front-right support that takes the most pressure from me getting up and sitting down #It gets stressed and stretched and is more prone to breaking just from use and it's a very integral piece!#This time it broke Really good like I thought I could fix it myself - I could not lol the screw casing had to be removed from the wood pft #But it's fixed now! Back to rocking :) Yaay <3 #Small silly set of wanting attention haha #Got it in small increments! But got it! Fully! Always happy for it haha #What was that joke doodle I made once - something like ''I have to be talked to every [XX] hours or I'll get sad'' lol #I mean it's not Untrue pft #I enjoy it <3 #And the last one! Multimedia art actually!! Ah!#The latest CJ the X video about fashion Spoke To Me - I mean most of their work tends to lol but this one...yeah #Being raised in disparate little pockets of culture unfixed from a larger cultural language and feeling lost for it......../yeah/#And I do find a lot of comfort in the question being reframed from ''What do you like'' to ''Who are you? What are you?''#I don't know what I like! Not style-wise not on this body that I'm in possession of! I like what's comfortable but that doesn't Say much #Using fashion as a signal to others that I'd very much like to be viewed a certain way and learning the ''words'' to communicate that! Ah!!#So I looked up some What-and-Who fashions I wanted to emulate and ended up in an outfit of my own clothes that looked really great on me!!#Tank top with rolled-up sleeves on the button down over it - defuser necklace - my favourite black pants and shoes with Tamagotchis hehe #And of course my rainbow bracelet <3 I felt quite handsome :)#It's not something I've done again since with different clothes but it makes me Want to! I want to be seen by those I'm winking at haha #I think it's quite lovely :)

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