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lonesomenecromancer · 22 days

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okay maybe going back to school is a good idea after all. waking up at 7am feels REALLY different from waking up at 2pm (like i did almost all summer). its 3pm right now and i feel like ive already done so much and then i get reminded that i got out of bed at this exact time yesterday

#im a person with a healthy sleep schedule!! (either 4 hours or 14 no in between)#i should make a tag for all those posts ive been making #this is basically my diary now??????#whatever i guess. better than screaming into the void of my notes app #which already has like 100+ notes. and i kinda get lost in which ones are important (even after segregating them)#mmmmmm gotta think of a good tag name. will take a while #something tells me that this year is almost entirely gonna consist of me posting vague vent posts #block me while you still can /j

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robinmage · 6 months

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one thing i really appreciate about jinshi's character is how he has NEVER once actually had any intention of succeeding the throne. every time the idea is brought up he immediately detests it. so hes giving maomao as much as he possibly can, even though maomao has many qualms about it due to their difference in social status, but jinshi DOESNT CARE because hes NEVER cared about or wanted the status of crown prince! its been nothing but a burden to him! from his perspective the ONLY thing keeping the two of them apart are outside influences. he has no doubt within himself-- hes horribly down bad, in fact. but unfortunately his stupid JOB is getting in the way of him skipping off into the sunset with his favourite little cat

#jinshi literally maiming himself infront of the emperor and empress: “can you please fire me so i can marry the girl of my dreams”#emperor: “no. now go to the west capital relatively unsupervised with the girl of your dreams andpromise REAL HARD u wont something stupid”#also not to mention i think maomaos problem isnt that she doesnt want to marry jinshi bc she doesnt care about him-- she cares abt him A LO #which is precisely why shes convinced herself she cant marry him. she wants whats best for him and #she wholeheartedly believes that marrying her is the EXACT OPPOSITE of whats best for him.#like she has. yknow. not the prettiest of backgrounds. growing up in a brothel might do that to you #shes mentioned before- shes basically a commoner. she has her biologicaldad but hes more of a wildcard selfmade man with no real connection #and she doesnt even like him.#but she just CANNOT comprehend that someone would sacrifice so much for her and ask for nothing in return but her company #i just love them a lot your honour.#the apothecary diaries #the apothecary diaries spoilers #for the anime/manga onlies #READ THE LIGHT NOVEL #kusuriya no hitorigoto #kusuriya no hitorigoto spoilers

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soulmvtes · 23 days

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feeling a bit sad tonight

#i can't believe summer is basically over #i feel like i hardly spent time w friends n did anything really #like i know i did but still idk #and i'm sad because i feel so disconnected from everyone right now #like idk i feel like ive made so much progress this year mentally but i have no one to talk abt it with which is sad #and just in general the things going on in my life #they were onto smth when they said not to trust how u feel abt ur life after 9pm lol #i'm actually really looking forward to sept / autumn and im doing okay its just idk #diary #tiyas thoughts

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hanzajesthanza · 6 months

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andrzej sapkowski in the witcher presents his reader with many curious and refreshing takes on the fantasy genre, such as "what if dragons were good" and "what if elves were incels"

#i joke it's more like what if the ethereal being had angsty mournful man feelings #that he has feelings but can't work through them because #overemotionality is considered base and human so he's basically been bottling all of this for centuries #the elbow-high diaries #plus that his only purpose was really to be with lara and now she's gone and so what does that make him #i'm not getting all MRA lmaoooo what i'm saying is that there needs to be two to make a baby so he was one-half of that #and destiny didn't work out as planned so ... this is all that's left #reading ch 5 of lotl for the first time: THIS IS SO MESSED UP WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO CIRI!!!#reading ch 5 of lotl again and again: my god EVERYONE here is so messed up and SAD. well except eredin #eredin is like cool im gonna go fight a unicorn #'what are you talking about he wanted to kill auberon?' but not in a very intelligent way he was like to ciri 'so you wanna... kill him?'#imo book eredin is kind of a meathead and it's kind of refreshing with all these 4D chess players around

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pink-lemonadefairy · 13 days

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#probably my last sunny walk at home :(#keeeeellll meeeee #i think one of the things i hate about going back to uni is not being able to experience autumn and winter at home like i used to #it’s weird because i’ve always loved them and considered them my favourite seasons.#but last year (and now this year) i’m realizing that oh! i think it’s because i got to come home after a long day and be in a safe familiar #space. and at uni everything is still a bit unfamiliar and not very comforting so the long cold days get so much harder #but i will surviveeeeeee #counting on gilmore girls to get me through it!! and also love is blind s7. i LOVE having things to look forward to every week it makes tim #fly by so fast. last yr every friday night was reserved for me and i ate frozen pizza or takeout and/or my favourite snacks and #watch my comfort films :( i cooked a lot those nights too 2 save money but yeah. it was rlly nice to have that comfy safe time to myself #i think it rlly got me thru uni.#ik it’s gonna be so hard to get back into a routine but im trying to tell myself that i need to like. focus on the basics first. adulting #can be so hard & i wanna do everything at once! i wanna b perfect in all areas. always do my hobbies. etc etc but i #i couldnt even get out of bed to make myself meals sometimes 💔 so i need to like remember if i don’t journal or read a whole book in a day #not the end of the world. and most importantly i need to be EATING and staying active and SLEEPING FIRST and foremost cause then hopefully #i won’t feel like a zombie.#okay anyways.#feeling sad feeling tired feeling unmotivated but also feeling a teensy bit excited for finally BEING ALONE!!!!#i have my cardiologist appt tmrw so maybe that’s why i feel so yuck also. just thinking abt it makes me wanna throw up #i hope everything goes well #anyways bye bye #♡ dear diary…

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lasisgood · 11 days

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My brother joined my game of bg3 and he tried to talked to Astarion and he just said. I'm not here for chit-chat and I'm like ah he's jealous. He doesn't like my brother. Then my brother kept trying to talk to him and he's like no.

#bg3 #it's basically a diary now lolol #astarion #my brother plays games with me

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sotogalmo · 2 months

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My Garrett Schmidt playlist is now at. 12 hours and 11 minutes. Guys I'm deep into this hell hoke

Anyways here is the playlist :333 ↓

#time diary(?)#audrey/kellie's time diary #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf movie #garrett schmidt #audrey/kellie's art #the icon for the playlist is my art :3 #my garrett schmidt playlist #trust me i know some songs dont even fit. but c'mon #Garrett is dead. and he haunts the narrative with no real personality only “quiet and concerned little brother who is helpless”#and that's it. so. let me have fun #hes basically my oc now. so #Spotify

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lucindasthighs · 2 years

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thinking about zarakiki lesbians again.... thinking about zane learning what healthy family dynamics are. No hitting and yelling, no politics, no one crying into the long hours of the night, no death- just two moms and their daughter in a barn.

And maybe, for the first time in Zane's life, family can be all that matters.

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catastrxblues · 9 months

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#okay i actually want to rant a bit 😭 - not advised to read this because then you might get brain damage #because oh my god??????? weird #(was going to write an entire diary but nvm here’s the gist of it)#basically i was coming home from this chem thing right #i used the train as i always do when it comes to this. and because the new station just got a shiny renovation it is now connected to the #new mall in front of it (we have two now it’s an addition to the first one). and guess what 😭#i had to go in and get to the first mall because my dad said he’d just pick me up at the lobby instead of the bus stop in front of #the station entrance right.#and when i was on the elevator going up on a call with my mom about food orders 😭#the guy i used to have a very very VERY heavy crush on in middle grade got to the elevator leading down just as i was on the landing 😭😭#and i had to make sure i wasn’t hallucinating so as he was descending and his back turned to me i examined the back of his head and i’m #pretty sure it was him. curiosity killed the cat i should’ve remembered that shit because you know what my stupid ass did??#i was already walking away on my way to cross to the first mall but then that curiosity got the better off me and i steppedonto the elevato #leading down 😭 and followed him out into (apparently) the fucking bus stop #oh my goddd I JUST REALIZED this is my the one moment help #except i don’t think he recognized me because i was never even friends with him lmao. wrote tons of poetry about him ✅#actually had one proper conversation with him ❌#i was delusional and kept alone with my thoughts living in my head do not judge me #but seriously even though i don’t really care about him anymore this would’ve been (unfortunately) SUPER important to middle grade me #she would’ve taken it as a sign or something and write like five pages about it #and i just keep thinking about that #funny how things change because IF YOU KNEW how many credits and exaggerated compliments i gave him in my old journal #oh you would’ve laugheddd #like i used to SPEND SO MUCH TIME pondering over him it’s so 😭#i used to have an oc and i think i based it on my idea of him and then i think that idea of him was even the reason i started to TRY to #write poetically. and i used to relate every taylor swift love songs to him (esp the ones in debut lover and rep and fearless) IT WAS SO #FUNNY LOOKING BACK AT IT NOW #i think he did see me though. i put on this act as if i was searching for someone confused and then (my go to) pretended someone called me #and then i whisked off as if to find that someone #i’d like to think i look pretty cool though. not because of anything (def not my looks because i was SO TIRED from that extra chem lessons

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icewindandboringhorror · 6 months

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misc photo diary stuff.. also this unintentionally all matches sort of lol.. warm toned photos?

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that --#1 & 2. A very pale dusty warm sort of sky. Love the tone of it. All shades of gray skies are amazing.#3. Some flowers outside of a building I walked by. I like the chunky petals and interesting muted color #4. bapy son enjoying the sunlight #5. Picture of a moon and I think two stars or maybe planets or something near it? :0 #6. little lines drawn onto the carpet with sunlight from the window blinds #7. The moon illuminating the clouds to an unuusally bright degree. Very inchresting.. It isn't even captured well in photos but in real lif #it kind of looked like everything in the sky was glowing #8. They had heart shaped strawberry biscuits at popeyes this February (I think for valentines day month?)#9. All of the various rocks I've picked up on the ground outside over the past few months. Now that I have a rock tumbler I'm always on the #lookout for interesting ones. Though I'm not sure what all of them are or how well they'd actually polish. I know there are rules about tha #and stuff lol. I do think it's neat how when they're all next to each other there's so many different patterns #and colors and stuff even though they were all taken from basically the same small span of just sidewalks and places along the city #I never travel to different states or anything or even go hours away within my own state.#photo diary

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naughtnixnothing · 1 year

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jude "i can see you being my addiction" duarte and cardan "you can see me as a secret mission" greenbriar

#taylor read tfota and wrote i can see you for them #like you brush past me in the hallway and you dont think i can see you??#cardan literally smirked while saying this i can confirm this #and i've been watching you for ages and and #i spend my time trying NOT to feel it??#this was one of his diary entries #WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I WENT TO TOUCH YOU NOW??#WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF THEY NEVER FOUND US??#WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF WE NEVER MADE A SOUND???!!#and then there's #“we kept everything pROfesSiOnaL but something's changed it's something i like”#which was basically jude's pov in twk #this song is literally them #thank you for listening to my TED talk #jude duarte #cardan greenbriar #the folk of the air #tfota #the cruel prince #the wicked king #the queen of nothing #jude x cardan #jurdan #judecardan #taylor swift #speak now #speak now tv #speak now taylors version #i can see you #sntv

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bunnihearted · 7 months

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#i feel so lonely now bc i have no one to talk to sksksk #my sisters gets mad whenever i try to talk 2 mom and she just slammed doors nd got irritated at me #nd my mom is so stressed nd in a bad mood so she just got annoyed when i tried saying smth to her #so ig i should just vent to my bestfriend beloved diary confidant thats been here for me for 5yrs<3333 #anywayyy today was rough.. i woke up w a headache after 3hrs of sleep :((#but still had to get up nd get ready nd eat boxed mashed potatoes for breakkyy 🤢🤮 (it's so gross after eating it everyday lol)#then w my hunchback nd achy stomach i went to school. it was frustrating bc ppl r so fkn rude #they bumped into me at the bus nd i had to sit like a weirdo caging my left stomach side from everyone. had to elbow some dumb fkn guy bc he #pressed his backpack into my side. so i had to basically push it away from me lol he thought i was so weird. but move tf away asshole??????#got to school nd checked myself in the mirror nd i was so pale i look like absolute garbage its annoying :((#it was next to insufferable to endure class bc my head hurt so bad (it was the worst part i think) nd i couldnt sit up straight so my back #hurt so bad too sksksks :<#but i managed to write a little but on my assignment #then i left a bit earlier bc i couldnt stand it anymore i was feeling so bad #wrnt to the library bc i had to return some books. could only carry two small ones tho so have to go back multiple times sksksk #felt soooo bad but ate some more disgusting mashed potatoes nd took a nap w an ice pack. took a migraine pill even if it upsets my stomach🤣#now a few hours later i feel better physically #buuuuuut im so miserable im not even kidding #idc if it sound pathetic or fatty but genuinely that moment w a cup of coffee nd a small chocolate treat everyday makes me feel sm better #like im not kidding!!!!! it does a lot for my peace of mind sksksk T-T #im so miserable bc i cant eat anything still im so hungry :((#and im weak. im pale. my skin's dry. it's itchy bc of malnutrition... i feel faint nd dizzy nd slow nd just not good at all #im so frustrated i hate this sm i wanna feel strong and healthy!! i dont wanna be constantly hungry. i wanna go to the gym nd go for walks #i wanna be able to sit up straight nd not get back pain!!!#i know i know it's only been 8 days since surgery and it takes time to heal i get it..... :(#but theres just too much going on and im so sick and tired of it all #mostly i just wanna be able to eat and feel strong bc i feel so weak nd i miss food so much sksksksk

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sillimancer · 2 months

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I hate that there are entire slices of the internet that are no longer accessible because Flash is dead

#my diary #I have like a memory of these animated music videos that were submitted as part of Gorillaz's Search for a Star contest back in 2004 #and I've NEVER seen the two specific videos I'm thinking of anywhere else #and I don't remember who made them #so I tried to see if I could find them again via the wayback machine and sure enough the website doesn't work because of flash #ruffle isn't working (I assume it doesn't work w/ archived web pages)#so basically I'm just fucked because the world is fucked #we talk a big game about how burning the library of alexandria was one of the worst things ever #the library of alexandria is on fire in front of you right now you don't fucking care #internet archive lost 500k items today because of copyright #probably the vast majority of my adolescent internet experience is wiped off the face of the earth #it's so fucking devastating I hate it to death

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hanzajesthanza · 9 months

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the witcher official cookbook is good of course, but i am fully aware of myself that i bought this not for its recipes, but entirely just to read maybe like, a little less than four pages of sapkowski talking about how much he likes making soup

#also to support the legitimacy of witcher because all fantasy medias have not just A Map now but another thing: A Cookbook #there’s also those ‘official guides to the world of…’ but ive found they take the magic away not introduce more #like the recipes look good and everything and i like to cook and bake indeed but i actually just needed to access more soup lore #the fact that he mentioned the beauclair feast was an added surprise and made me smile so much my cheeks hurt #me: ‘i wish someone else besides me would remember beauclair in winter in lady of the lake’ | the actual author: i rember.#calanthe mentioned. beauclair mentioned. fish soup mentioned. thats basically all i want #i already knew that the fish soup was his own recipe because he said it in the f8 key interview like over 20 years ago #but that he bragged about it again was nice #he’s too funny. ‘epicurian physiques’ had me rolling #the elbow-high diaries

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tianshiisdead · 8 months

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send me some asks (thoughts or literally anything else) on mr japan please please idc if ur not even following me im bored and sad 🙏 i might even draw some of it pls pls pls

#hetalia #hws japan #aph japan #diary #rmmbr when i said my health was better? lol! spoke too soon #i am now basically confined to the house bc i dont trust myself to walk outside without passing out or getting hurt #waugh i hate this BODY

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lavenderedhoney · 10 months

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Insurance problems 🙃🙃🙃

#first planned parenthood's system had a problem filling my prescription #and then they took a long time to get back to me on it #now my insurance wont cover it and i have to wait for planned parenthood to talk to them abt it #i hate it here. im so fucking sad lmfao #they said itll cost $270 out of pocket if i cant get any coverage #FOR BASIC T GEL. BC PLANNED PARENTHOOD ONLY GIVES OUT BASIC STANDARD FORMS OF HRT.#text #t diary

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