#this idea haunts my brain 24/7

[self-esteeem-to-match]

Here’s a little devastating thing that I could write but I don’t have the energy: miss missing you but Patrick returns to his normal self as he’s dying and sees that he killed Pete. We had just enough energy to crawl into Pete’s arms so Pete can hold him one last time

[craacked-splatters]

ur crossover prison dimension au intrigues me @imagionationstation do u have any more stuff to share about it? 👉👈

Sleep deprived so feeling a lil loopy(sorry for any incoherent babble) but Shsjdks yeah yeah adding this 2 the "stuff 2 draw for" pile here

I kept coming back to this au. More specifically the part where Dee and Leon r trapped in the prison dimension. Like Rise animators did a cool job on animating the squishy fleshy organic dead alien race stuff in the movie! Look at this!

Ooey gooey icky ew ^^^ I love it

And also the prison dimension looks so sick and cool

I imagine surviving in a dead wasteland full of decay and corpses and echoes with a lunatic hunting u down 24/7 wouldn't be fun. What horrors do u think they would witness while trying not to bleed out and die? What trauma would Kraang inflict on these two? Revenge and rage are the only things fueling that war criminal & truly I don't think there's anything holding that guy back (for the love of everything I hope the bois don't have to fight any other rise kraang tech, it's genuinely terrifying they're literally gonna die Do NOT let that maniac get their tentacles on anything else besides the weird corpse armour they're wearing plz & thank u)

These poor kids. Leon went from the movie events to this, and Donnie literally got poofed to atoms before popping up in the middle of a child murder. Wowza how overwhelming. The one thing that keeps popping up into my mind is the two of them huddling together under some ruins or holding hands bcuz they're too afraid 2 end up separating and dying alone. How strange would it be. To have a different version of ur brother(- not quite a stranger bcuz there's still similarities that he shares with ur own, he's a brother, he's not urs but there's another versión of u running around, there's a whole nother universe bcuz of course there is and somehow ur still bros in it and he's here instead of his home he's right here) how strange it must be to this different face, different voice and eyes and mannerisms an entire new soul as ur only anchor. To be the only thing to keep u from falling apart. To see each other as a constant reminder of what they wished they had, of wanting to their families, of wanting to just leave this hellscape where things don't make sense and just go home.

But when they do finally get rescued there is no feeling of safety or realness or even a home to greet them. Only a sense of wrong & confusion & hurt & the equally trembling hand holding ur own and those scared haunted eyes that followed u since the horror show of the prison dimension.

(Trauma bond!! Yay🎉)

How would Leon and Dee interact with each other at first and how did it change as they continued to survive? What was it exactly that made them start clinging to each other? Would it become a habit for them both to go reaching for the other even when nothing is said or done?

And and!! I was thinking about the 2 angst paths u set out too. They're both sooo good!! Honestly u have such a big brain where do u keep coming up with these genius ideas! The custody battle route is very angsty :)) heehehehe. Rise splints and Don having no problem stopping Dee from going home with his family for Leon is so sweet and also AUUUGHH!! They're literally willing 2 do whatever is needed to keep their family safe & happy and I cry but then I remember the 2012 fam being the same & then i cry again

Also ur so right d 2012 bros have never been apart for long, they literally spent 15 yrs of their life together bcuz together meant safe and safe meant home. They're literally heat seeking missiles for each other even in the show. With them it's either they all die or none of them do. How painful it must be to be ripped apart so suddenly like that :((

Um anyways so yeah very good au👍 will continue to doodle gonna sleep now

[connorsnothereeither]

oh those fic asks look so fun!

Brink 7, 14, 16, 24?

(I like hearing people talk about the things they make :D)

Ooooooh these are very fun questions thank you Arlo <3

7. Casting ideas are tricky and I can’t go through a ton cause Brink has so many characters, but I will say I think it’s funny to imagine Michael Sheen and David Tennant as Brink!Mopper lmao-

Outside of casting I think a miniseries probably suits Brink better given the various sub plots. My brain stylistically jumps to Mike Flannigan’s work. Haunting of Hill House and Midnight Mass specifically are big inspirations for Brink and Blood so I think that sort of style would be really fun.

14. There’s a couple images that are really vivid in my mind tbh. THE image I think is probably the visual of the corruption mould, rotting people away from the inside almost, but that’s probably followed by the image of Brink!Jamie clawing at the door of the basement, since that’s just one that’s really ingrained in my brain.

16. For some reason I tend to have difficulty writing Brink!Sherbert scenes? I’m not sure why, they just never quite capture the vibe I envision/I never know what to write for them. DREADING however, there is a very intense scene in the next two upcoming Brink chapters that I both dread writing (because of how much it hurts me) and dread posting (because of how I think people will react) 🧍

24. Hmmmmmm okay a random fact is that the cryptid “The Beast of Gévaudan” is not only canon to the universe of Brink, but it will become important in one of the ongoing plot lines later in the series lol. It’s not important that people know about that cryptid, but plot wise that cryptid will become semi-important ajfsjsgsksg

[keithal]

in honor of @iwtvfanevents a meal to remember event, here's an iwtv fic rec post with a twist: all of these fics range from 20-50 kudos ONLY. no popular fics. my blog is first and foremost a supporter of small businesses.

a song of blood and teeth by exastris_scientia (@keepoffthetardis): asoiaf au! there's nothing i like better than an intelligently written au, and this is definitely the best one i've seen in the fandom yet. i recommend reading it even if ur unfamiliar with asoiaf (i've never read a word by george rr martin and i still enjoyed this a great deal)

vacation by bandedbulbussnarfblat (@bandedbulbussnarfblat): just thinking abt this fic sends me into hysterics. never before have i been reading an armandaniel fic and sat there like "no i agree w the toxic psychopath vampire. that's a fucked up thing to do :/"

a memory is a ghost (regret, regret) by flowerplots (@enterprisery): reading this the first time knocked me backwards thru time. AMAZING louisdaniel fic written by one of the biggest brains to ever brain. flowerplot's ideas are always so unique and such a delight to read.

a memory is a memory (is a memory?) by flowerplots (@enterprisery): GOOD LORD. this is a follow-up to the previous fic that somehow made me even more insane. leans hard on the idea of not being able to trust a word being said because none of it happened but it all happened. except of course when it didn't.

when teeth bite in by patrokla: short but INCREDIBLE. my brain turns over theories abt what happened post-1973 interview and how it connects to present-day dubai like a rotissiere chicken 24/7. i love the prose in this fic especially. i think abt "[Daniel] would say it, but he’s experiencing a distinct melting sensation. He’s only barely corporeal. He's losing himself" every single day.

Who Wore it Best? by whimsy_walrus: lestat and daniel slept together in new orleans. this is canon to me. i fantasize abt hacking into rollins' computer and replacing whatever s2 script's been written w this instead

Toward the Blue Peninsula by adreadfulidea: obsessed with gen claudia-focused fics and this one has gotta be my favorite one in existence. i hope in this universe where claudia escaped to europe she lived happy eternity writing poems with emily dickenson the vampire

reliquary by weathermood (@weather-mood): LOUIS' CANE. i'm always thinking abt louis' cane. and what does the wonderful weathermood do? give me even more reason to obsess over it. this fic HAUNTS ME.

happy reading! :D

[ethicaltreatmentofcowplants]

Bachelorette Rolls

When you don't have an original thought in your brain, what else is there to do but steal? 😉 Thus on the days that each household remains onsite, I am grabbing the idea of @akitasimblr's and doing a daily roll of the (virtual) dice in order to determine everyone's fate.

[2] Today is New Skill Day - for one of your Sims, at least. One lucky Sim will receive the ‘make happy’ cheat, and be given a skill building item of the Watcher’s choice that goes in their inventory. A new skill building item will also be added to the lot. [3] Let’s celebrate Rebate Day! One new skill building item and one new livestock animal of the Watcher’s choice will be added to the lot. [4] Love wins - well, Love Day at least. The Sim with the highest level of friendship (with little to no romance) will go on a short date with the bachelorette. To make up for the time spent offsite, the remaining contestants will also gain one point towards their current highest skill. (If a tiebreaker is needed, the second sim will go on a date once the round is over.) Finally, the main dwelling will receive the ‘romantic aura’ trait for the next 24 hours. [5] Today is New Year’s Eve - in our hearts if not on the actual calendar. A bar, a stereo and a keg will be added to the lot, and after chore time, everyone will receive the ‘make happy’ cheat (all the better to see it through until midnight, my dears…). The lot will also be given the ‘party place’ trait. [6] Yes, this one is from an earlier edition of the Sims, but it’s too good to pass up. Today is Goosebumps Day! There will be candy, costumes, music and dancing. There will be an evil rooster or hen joining our ranks. There will also be the haunted lot trait. Oh, and with the ‘vampire nexus’ trait added, Vlad also might pay us a visit. Watch out for things that go bump in the night… [7] Arr! It’s Talk Like A Pirate day - and what do pirates do? Steal. Yep, one comfort item and one animal will go missing, ne’er to return (for the rest of the round at least). On the plus side, the lot will be given the ‘cat hangout’ trait for the day, as our feline friends are an essential to have on the high seas. [8] Geek Con is on! And no, while we’re all still stuck on site, several themed skill building items (a chess set etc) will be added to the lot. Each housemate will also temporarily be cheated the ‘focused’ moodlet. [9] Oh no - it’s Neighbourhood Brawl, and time to watch out for those flying handbags. The lot will be given the ‘mean vibe’ trait for the next 24 hours, and another lot challenge that the Watcher will roll for. [10] Night On The Town means that for ten in-game hours, the entire household travels offsite to a venue with both a bar, food spreads cheated by the Watcher (or a pizza delivery), and several freely accessible skill building items present. The ‘convivial’ trait will be active on the lot. [11] Winterfest can truly happen at any time of the year, and it is happening today. Each contestant will have the opportunity to give the bachelorette a gift of their choice, and receive one in return. Points may be rewarded or retracted depending on how well-received their gift is. No pressure though… [12] Once again harkening back to the Sims 3, today we are celebrating Leisure Day. Instead of being forced into midday servitude, the contestants will have a break from chores and instead receive one point towards their current highest skill. We will also receive a golden hen or rooster to help us out with the gardening, and the ‘clothing optional’ trait.

[prahacat]

5 things I like to write about

got tagged by the lovely @cocotter and just had to fill this (really like to write about the things I like to write about)

Decay. Mostly the decay of the mind, as my characters become so obsessed with an idea that it erodes their morality and drives them to make increasingly desperate and dumb decisions, often ending in tragedy. There's just something so tasty about writing a slow descent into madness. <3

Loneliness. Perhaps it's my love for introspective passages, but I tend to isolate my characters. They're stuck in remote settings, trapped in some kind of twisted reality only they experience (hello time loop horror), they feel like they have no one to really talk to, or they're just stubborn idiots who are unable to open up. Either way, they're lonely and longing for a kindred soul.

Grief. In a lot of my fics, the characters are haunted by loss, mourning either an actual death (sorry, Qui-Gon, you got fridged again) or their broken family relationships. Very often, this will be one of the few things they can actually bond over. I love to explore how they cope with their grief or find healing (unfortunately, they mostly just deal with it via 1)

Nature. This is more tricky to incorporate if you're writing fics that are set on Coruscant or aboard cold spaceships, but I love to sneak in a bit of nature-related world-building if I can. My fics will often feature descriptions of nature, cute animals, therapeutic gardening, or characters taking a stroll in nature to collect their thoughts (and I don't care about the canon stance on this, I want Dooku's palace to have gardens and greenhouses and all that pretty shit)

Obi-Wan and Dooku. Fairly obvious, I suppose :'D But the list wouldn't be complete without them. These babies are rotting my brain 24/7, there's all kinds of potential here and I'm never gonna get tired of squeezing them for tons of juicy goodness.

Tagging @rochenn @wibzenadarksiderwithasoftheart (if you haven't done this one already)

[practically-an-x-man]

2, 4, 15, 23, 24, 28 for whom the ask tolls?

Thank you!

For Whom The Ask Tolls

2. Tell us a scary story?

Like from my own life? Nothing immediately comes to mind, honestly. I'm a big fan of the macabre but not a devout believer in the paranormal, and I enjoy creepy things (so what I see as "scary" might be a little skewed, I just think it's cool).

If I would've believed anywhere was haunted, it was my great-grandfather's house. He passed away when I was a kid, and we went to his house pretty often for a few years while my dad tried to get all the estate stuff sorted out with his (mostly estranged) sister and other extended family. That whole house felt a little off to me, but that might've just been that it was associated with my first real experiences with death, and it was an old house (old and creaky, a little rotted, some weird smells).

However, there was one room I remember vividly, above all the others. It was an extension off of a larger bedroom, and thinking back on it now it strikes me as a closet that was renovated into a baby's room (so the baby's crib would be near the parents but still in a separate space). It was a pretty long, thin room, painted pink with feminine wallpaper, and with a wall decoration next to the door that had Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep printed on it (I mainly remember this because I found the "if I die before I wake" especially creepy as a kid). There were also a lot of old-fashioned dolls in the room, including some laid out in an old wooden crib, and one of those spoon carousels from back when spoon collecting was a big souvenir thing.

I can't say anything particularly spooky happened there, it's not like I saw a ghost or one of the dolls jumped out of the crib or anything, but I can't describe how very off this room felt to me as a child. I was fine enough with the rest of the house, maybe a little creeped-out just from it being a new and very empty old place for me, but that room gave me the creeps like nothing else. And the biggest part is, this was when I was maybe 7 or 8 years old - I was never interested in dolls much, but I was too young to know about the creepy doll trope and other than that it just looked like a pretty normal if old-fashioned room for a baby girl. It just creeped me the fuck out for no discernible reason.

It's worth mentioning that my dad had two sisters - one is still alive and we don't talk to her much, but the other passed away from brain cancer as a young adult and it's kinda regarded as the tragedy of that side of the family. I don't know if that ever was her room and I don't believe strongly enough in the paranormal to really feel like her ghost is the reason I got such unexplainably bad vibes from that place, but it's the most distinct paranormal memory I can think of.

4. Talk about three characters you relate to and why?

Angel (Warren Worthington III) - grew up with a strict, emotionally neglectful parent who pushed extreme expectations of success and perfectionism on me; medical trauma that first emerged when I was 12 and went ignored for years, caused by a genetic mutation; being successful in a lot of venues but always feeling vaguely out-of-place and unbelonging; found family and a deep love for friends and community

Polka-Dot Man (Abner Krill) - see above about emotionally neglectful parent, medical trauma, found family, and feeling like an outsider; representation of chronic fatigue/illness and rare medical conditions

And since I wanted one that wasn't just another of my blorbos:

3. Katie Mitchell (Mitchells Vs. the Machines) - oldest child, queer, trying to get into the film industry, very passionate about weird art, struggle to connect with and be understood by my family, comes up with creative ideas that usually end up working even if they're odd

15. Talk about a cryptid?

Ohohoho buddy I'm in Appalachia, we've got cryptids up the WAZOO. Or at least... people claim so. Personally cryptids are one of those for me that fall under the "I love to hear the stories because they're fun to listen to, but I don't really believe they're unexplainable like that" bubble - there's a whole bunch of Bigfoot-like "hominids" like the Tennessee Wildman that are most likely either black bears with mange or just people spotted living out in the forest (like they DO in Appalachia), the Not-Deer that really just sounds like a whitetail with CWD or rabies to me, the Wampus Cat or other panther-like cryptids that are probably just cougar sightings.

Adrenaline is a hell of a drug, and so is the ingrained fear response to things like CWD or rabies - there's a reason things look so off with diseases like that, or just predators in general, and it's biological memory much more than it is anything paranormal.

There was one time when I was in college, my friend was taking a walk out in the forest and managed to record this freaky shrieking noise coming from the woods and sent the video to us because he was SURE he'd encountered a cryptid.... right up until I told him that's the sound of a female cougar in heat. It does sound like a woman screaming her lungs out, I'll grant him that much.

23. Spooky music?

Hell yeah!! I love Ice Nine Kills and Harley Poe and other music that plays off of horror like that, I think it's really fun.

24. Do you like horror or spooky video games?

I don't play a ton of video games myself, and most of the ones I enjoy playing are either goofy games like West of Loathing or survival/adventure games, but I do really love watching playthroughs of horror games

28. Recommend a read?

We Sold Our Souls by Grady Hendrix! It was the first book of his that I read, and since then I've become a huge fan of him as an author (I think I'm all caught up now on what he's written, or at least close to it). It follows the lead guitarist of a metal band 20 years after they broke up, when she discovers that the lead singer literally sold all of their souls to the devil in exchange for massive fame... and is planning another mass soul-sacrifice at his upcoming music festival.

[invisibleraven]

20 questions writer meme!

I wa tagged by my beloved @bananakarenina <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3? In total across 5 fandoms, 124, 84 of those are JatP, and 5 of those are prompt fill compilations.

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 1,674,136 uploaded as of right now, and I know that over 1 million of those words are JatP.

3. What fandoms do you write for? Currently just Julie and the Phantoms, but in past I wrote primarily for Glee/Glee RPF, and Teen Titans. There's no other fandom really interesting me enough to write for it at moment.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I'm going to limit this to my JatP fics, but if you wanna check out my stories in my previous fandoms, well here's my AO3

And giving yourself to me can never be wrong my collection of smut prompt fills with 235 kudos

I Know Who I Want To Take Me Home the first installment of my Semisonic Sunset verse with 192 kudos

But came the dawn the show goes on (and I don't want to say goodnight) my PeterPatterLina soulmate AU with 169 kudos

Maybe this news can wait Part three (and the only non smutty part) of Semisonic Sunset with 124 kudos

Better walk the line my single dad Reggie PeterPatter fic with 124 kudos

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Honestly no I don't. I tried, once upon a time, but I just felt like no one really cared what I had to say, and then I didn't have the spoons for it, so I stopped. I know I should though, my brain just doesn't seem to like letting me.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Hands down it is Haunted by the moments of what we used to be because every comment I got on it was some variation of how very dare you.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Generally I try to give all of my stories a happy ending, but for this one, I'll go with Yellow Wood  because it gave everyone a happy ending, no matter the path taken.

8. Do you get hate on fics? Currently no, but when the blacklist was a thing that happened, my name was second on there, so that kind of sucked.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Out of my 84 JatP fics, 24 are rated E, and my smut prompt fills are currently sitting at 80 something chapters, so you tell me. In honesty, I don't write smut as much anymore, as I find it a little more difficult to write and the response to anything rated above a T is vastly lower than anything else. But when I started in this fandom, it was what I was known for; see my point regarding the black list.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? I actually kind of hate crossovers? If I'm looking for a fic to read on AO3, I always click the Exclude Crossovers choice. I'll write any and every AU I can, and I might add minor characters from said AU, but that's rare, and that's as close as I get.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Unfortunately yes. There was a person on WattPad who went and stole a bunch of different smutty JatP fics over a year ago, and one of mine was amongst them. They were reported, and the fic was taken down. This is why now my fics on AO3 are only available to registered AO3 users.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? No, but if anyone ever wants to do a translation or podfic of any of my stories, they have my permission as long as they credit me and send me a link afterwards!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? No, and no one has ever asked. It's something I'd love to try if the chance ever came along, and had the right idea.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? I mean I can't pick just one, I've been involved in fandoms since I was a teenager. Like for Teen Titans Raven/Beast Boy will always own a piece of my soul. In Glee, Kurt/Blaine was such a formative part of my life. And even with Jatp I don't think I could choose between Rulie and PeterPatterLina, they both mean so much to me. And those are just the fandoms I've written for!

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? *looks at my GDocs which is a WiP graveyard* Oh gosh there's so many.

16. What are your writing strengths? My brain is not being kind to me ATM, so I don't think I have any? Like maybe how much I write? Does that count?

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Everything. Editing especially.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I have done this quite a bit, even if it's just plugging what I want to say into Google Translate. So I know it's not entirely accurate, but I think I have been getting better about it.

19. First fandom you wrote for? The first fic I ever wrote that wasn't done like on a dare was a smutty fic for the anime Trigun that still exists on my ff.net page if you find it (no I'm not linking it) that I wrote in high school. It is Not Good.

20. Favorite fic you've written? I give the same answer to this question every time: But came the dawn the show goes on (and I don't want to say goodnight) and I don't think that will ever change.

Honourable mentions

-For better or for worse (Even if it's just tonight) 

-So Close To Reaching That Famous Happy End

-Yellow Wood

-Dress You Up In My Love

Not tagging anyone, but if you wanna do this ask game, go to!

[freeuselandonorris]

7, 24, 32 for the writer ask!

writing asks!!!

annoyingly i filled most of this out and then tumblr ate my answers SO take two!

What is your deepest joy about writing?

so this isn’t joy, per se, but i had a conversation with @lost-decade recently where i mentioned that i think a lot of my attraction to writing comes from the fact that i am, at heart, a horrible little control freak (positively unheard of in kink community etc etc) and thus it is very satisfying to me on a deep lizard brain level to put characters in situations and then make those situations conform to my wishes. my writing output always goes up dramatically when i am feeling overwhelmed or uncertain in life and i think this is a big part of it.

but also, i am a person who gets obsessed with things! i am all or nothing! i get obsessed with people (or rather their public personas, fourth wall and all that) and media and scenarios and kinks and tiny little details and big philosophical concepts. writing lets me poke at all those things. picture me like gollum holding a snow globe, shaking it up over and over again to watch how the flakes fall.

24. How much prep work do you put into your stories? What does that look like for you? Do you enjoy this part or do you just want to get on with it?

i’ll talk about fic first as that’s what people on here know me for writing-wise. the answer here is: it depends! for my slutty little one-shots i tend to do very little research; stuff like crosstown traffic or a lot like life are largely unplanned or inspired by one real-life event that sparks an idea (although i guess you could say i researched the njoy plug in a lot like life in the sense that i own one lmao).

with longer fics, particularly RPF, i LOVE fitting my fic timelines into real-life events. this is particularly satisfying with motorsport RPF because the races give the year a very particular and easy-to-research structure. so for longer fics like there was always warmth between us i watched a ton of youtube videos and clips of max and daniel for both timeline inspiration and characterisation (although honestly i read that fic back the other day and my dialogue for them is so generic at times gjrskjfs), plus i wrote it relatively soon after the season itself.

with the toto/christian sequel to all the blood runs hot before it’s cold i’m working on, i wrote myself some notes of what themes i want to explore, plus a timeline of last season so that i could tie those themes into the arc of the season, like so:

i probably won’t use all those notes in the final piece, but it gives me a structure to work from.

for original writing, again it depends. for short stories and poetry i tend to free write for a bit beforehand until something appears from the ether that i can use as a starting point. for my novel-in-progress, when i wrote the first draft i basically did…maybe a page of planning? this was a bad idea. it was a mess. i resisted planning for ages but eventually i had to admit that for long-form pieces i cannot adequately structure my writing without one. so i went back and wrote a very elaborate plan using the six-arc story structure, which allows for much more freedom than a traditional ‘save the cat’ style beat sheet. highly recommend. i try not to do too much research beforehand (which is hard given i’m writing a novel about AI, something i have very little practical knowledge of!) because i just get bogged down and end up procrastinating.

jeez, that was an essay.

32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?

oh lol there are SO MANY. i have a few of them tattooed on me. let me answer all three of those with the first example that comes to mind:

for poem, ‘turning and turning in the widening gyre / the falcon cannot hear the falconer’ from the second coming by wb yeats haunts me. the whole poem haunts me, actually, for reasons that should be obvious upon reading. but those lines utterly terrify me.

for novel, again there’s hundreds but the one that first came to mind was ‘you can always count on a murderer for a fancy prose style’ from lolita by vladimir nabokov. lolita is one of the books i’ve re-read the most because it is a complete masterpiece, and this line embodies that to me. it’s clever, it’s funny, it’s defensive, it slides in a fantastically important plot point in the shape of a joke. amazing.

from fic, this is maybe a random example but the first one i thought of was this line from darkest little paradise (F1, pierre/charles) by heroics: 'Charles clutches him for another moment, squeezes the back of Pierre’s neck, resists the urge to drop to his knees right here and let Pierre do whatever he wants with Charles’s soft body.' i don’t know what it is about it, something about ‘soft body’. it’s just a line that has really stuck with me as a beautiful example of a dynamic (both in the relationship sense and, a bit, in the kink sense) described with such restraint.

eta: fuck at risk of making this post even more unnecessarily long i just realised i would be utterly remiss not to mention ‘She wants to know where this moral fortitude was when he had her flat on her back in that dark little cottage. Wonders if he had to fuck her to find it. If she has to always be the one to pay for it.’ from @widespindriftgaze’s astonishing taskmaster RPF masterpiece broke both early and late (part 2 in a series), which i have never managed to read without crying.

thank you for asking! ❤️

from this writing asks post. i love shit like this (as you can see from how fuckin long this got); please feel free to ask more if you're reading this!

[my-name-is-bunnyfoxy]

Ramona: Talking to the moon

Okay okay okay... OKAY... I NEED TO SHARE THIS IDEA I HAD OR ELSE I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL AND WILL BECOME A GHOST WHO HAUNTS ANYONE WHO SHIPS RAMONA

I've been listening to the song 'Talking to the moon' by Bruno Mars quite a lot lately. I especially listened to it while drawing Ramona drawings because I ran into the song in a Ramona playlist on spotify and saw it fitting for it. But then, like the person with a giant imagination and person that talks to herself 24/7, I ended up coming up with a whole scenario for a possible music video, that I hope to do at some point when my brain finally tells me 'alright, you can animate now you dumbass'. LET'S START.

We begin to a scene of Raph in his bedroom on his bed. We see he is drawing someone, it's Mona Lisa. He takes a deep breath and sighs as he closes his sketchbook. He recalls how several of his friends made fun of the idea that Raph actually got with a salamander alien from another galaxy.

Slash: "Hehe. You sure Raph you didn't accidentally get high while in space?" Catty: "BAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA THAT'S THE STUPIDEST THING EVER HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA" Lotus: "Let us meet her in person and if we don't meet her we know your taking drugs." Emina: "Awww. Is she your imaginary girlfriend? If so that is adorable! I hope you'll one day find the girl you dream of her to be."

These were some of the many comments Raph has gotten. He got up from his bed and went out of his room. He decided to leave the sewers for a while.

It was late at night and the sky was almost pitch black filled and covered with bright sparkly stars. We see Raph jump from roof to roof. He was still thinking about Mona. He stopped as he looked at the moon. It was a full moon. Gorgeous and beautfiul. It shined across the city, creating a sort of blue-ish dark purple like moonlight (how the f do you describe these things-??). Raph sat down on the edge of the roof. His green eyes tilted up towards the moon. Sitting by himself, all alone. It was just him and the moon.

His hand slowly reached out to it as he thought he saw glimpses of Mona in the moon. He looked down and pulled his arm back. He closed his eyes as he felt the moonlight hit his green like skin that also had diamond like shapes all around his body (Raph is a diamondback-terrapin in my AU along with Leo and Jennika). Raph thought of Mona and all the things they have went thru. He opened his eyes once more and looked back up at the moon. Wondering of Mona Lisa was still thinking about him and hasn't forgotten about him.

We cut to a new scene. Also if you wanna make it more fun with the song make it cut to a female cover of sorts. This time it shows the planet Salamandria, Mona Lisa's home planet. We find out that Mona became the talk of the town after the Salamandrians reclaimed their planet back from Dregg. Everyone found out about the turtles and their gang and how they were friends with Sal Commander/G'throkka and Mona Lisa/Y'gtthba and also how Mona fell in love with Raph and became his lover.

The female salamanders would gossip about her and question if she is okay in the head. They also thought it was embarrassing of Mona that she would choose a creature of lower rank and from a disgraceful planet. The males kept telling her that all he is trying to do is seduce her and to be with a real man. And that all he will try to do to her is try and impregnate her and make her bare his children that he will then not care about (babygirls acting like they won't also do the same to my queen and they act as if they don't want my girl to carry and deal with billion trillion gazzilion kids). Sal would defend his friends and especially Raph and that Mona made the right choice falling in love with him.

Mona hated how Raph was seen by her people. She was able to see how judgemental they were towards people all because they were a lower rank compared to them. Also she found it hypocritical that people said she made the wrong choice picking a low rank creature when many of the people that said it are lower ranked salamanders and she doesn't even know them. The things they said kept being repeated on and on in her head. She didn't like it in the slightest.

She walked thru Salamandrian and saw a few hills. She decided to climb a bit. She actually enjoyed doing that. Even as a kid she loved it. Mona kept on climbing until she saw the full moon shining in the dark sky. The stars shining bright as always. She sat down and crossed her legs together. She did a similar thing like Raph did in his segment. Reaching her arm towards the moon, having small glimpses of Raph, but then she looked down. She hugged herself and sighed. Mona wondered if Raph was still thinking about her and hasn't fallen out of love with her. As she closed her eyes she thought of Raph again and hoped he was truly the love of her life. She was really hoping she wasn't just being some stupid fool.

Now the male and female cover mash together and we see both Mona and Raph side by side. Both finally speaking and calling out if either one of them can hear each other calling them. Only to once more look down. The moon was still there shining brightly.

Finally we show both Raph and Mona side by side. Doing what they were doing in the earlier scenes. Both staring at the moon, reaching their arms towards it as they see glimpses of each other. But then they look down and close their eyes. Slowly, both got up and began to walk away with sad like expressions. They missed each other a whole ton and they were wondering if they will ever see each other or will they forever be far away from each other? Neither don't know...

Finally, the music ends and it's over....

Damn I wrote this really fast which surprises me lmao- Anyway- To my brain: PLEASE LET ME GET MOTIVATION TO ANIMATE THIS PLEASE I BEG OF YOU I NEED MONEY TO FEED MY 10 MILLION KIDS AND HUSBAND AND WIFE WHO CURRENTLY LIVE IN THE SEWERS AND HAVE TO EAT RATS IN ORDER TO SURVIVE PLEASE HELP-

[lazyneonrabbitt]

Hey Rabbitt!

I have a genuine question for you about the puppies. Do they stay 24/7 as their furred selves or do they change back and forth? Also, if they’re always the fur babies they are, when will they be able to change?

This is a very interesting question, and one I've been putting off answering on my own terms as it's been haunting me personally as well, but I'll bite the bullet and answer.

I don't think I'll be giving the kids a human form amy time soon. Not in the official character art and all that anyways. I may give them a human form in xReader works eventually, but as Sherry's kids they'll stay shifted. Neither her or Daryl have an answer to why they never shifted back as usually would happen, but neither of the pups seem bothered by their forms and the close family have all adapted to having the little furballs around.

I planned on giving them human forms when I first drafted their concepts, but personal anxieties kept putting it off and shoving the idea aside.

When working on art for the AU, Sherry is technically me. I'm absolutely terrified of having kids (shocker, right?) and keeping her and Daryl's kids as pups is better in my head? Weird words from a weird brain. Who knows what the future holds, but for now they're two adorable furballs all the time.

Thank you for asking! 💚

[evasgelions]

Christmas 2023

Christmas, a holiday I remember fondly growing up: baking cookies, visiting family members, looking at the houses lit up with hundreds of lights, movies, tv specials, and festive music filling the radio stations.  And who can forget about Santa Claus? There’s a religious aspect of it too, but that isn’t what my child brain was looking forward to. That was a normal Sunday morning for me. Just like other aspects of growing up, at some point the Christmas season starts to lose its sparkle. The magic that you experience as a child fades away over time. The memories of waking up before sunrise to bask in the glory of the Christmas tree. The plastic branches adorned with lights and ornaments. The stacks of gifts piled high all around. Something I once loved so much has now become something entirely devoid of meaning. 

Christmas is supposed to mean something right? The birth of Jesus, savior of the world. It’s sacred, is it not? Even from an entirely secular view, the Christmas spirit is the driving force of the holiday. Aren’t we all meant to be joyful, giving, and kind to one another? Isn’t that the condition you must meet to avoid a stocking full of coal? I once thought so, but as I grow and see the world for what it really is I’m not so sure this was ever the case. 

I am an adult now, so it’s no surprise that I’m not as jazzed for Christmas as I once was long ago. The strange thing is, it feels like I'm in the minority. My coworkers have been decorating the office and buying little gifts for everyone all month, we even did a secret Santa. I don’t want to sound ungrateful here, I like the idea of trying to spread the joy that they all obviously still experience. I just don't feel the same way.

Since the relentless bombing of the Gaza strip began on October 7th, celebrating a holiday that seems to do nothing but print money for the already wealthy corporate executives feels wrong. Buying gifts for my loved ones used to be a fun experience, aside from slight financial stress. This year, I can only think about how the corporations that supply the manufactured cheer are complicit in the crimes against humanity occurring not just on the other side of the world, but here in the United States as well.

With access to news 24/7 I have learned a lot about how the world works. Prisons in the south are using their inmates as actual slaves. American factories have been exposed for violating child labor laws by employing young children to work with dangerous chemicals and machinery. TikTok after TikTok showcasing the horror of endless bombs dropping on a highly populated civilian area. Images of children covered in dust with eyes that tell a story better than any words ever could. We also can’t forget about the deplorable conditions of the cobalt mines located in Congo and elsewhere. Men, women, and children forced to mine the precious mineral by hand so that we in the West can continue to get the newest iPhone, just like the one I received for Christmas when I was 14.

These images have stuck with me, I couldn’t forget them even if I wanted to. Walking through any big box retailer, I am haunted. The batteries powering the season's hottest toys represent the suffering of enslaved peoples across the world. The new pair of name brand tennis shoes were made by a human who would not be able to afford the same luxury. The holiday bonus offered by some employers, is cursed by the federal taxes taken and sent overseas to fund never ending wars in the name of American imperialism.

Where I once saw a beautiful gift wrapped up in a bow, I now recognize the true meaning of Christmas all along: mindless consumerism. I can admit that I am cynical, but I don’t know how to see anything else. When you open your eyes to the suffering that I naively thought was in the past, you can’t go back. While hope is hard to have, the only thing I can do is fight for a better tomorrow.  

[alectoperdita]

i know violetshipping is your otp but do you have any heartshipping headcanons/thoughts?

The one that I think about the most, which is probably not enough because brain is violetshipping 24/7, is the shred of resentment that canonverse Ryou might nurse toward canonverse Yugi pre-relationship or even early into the relationship. Basically playing with the dichotomy of Yugi missing his other self while Ryou is more in the "good riddance" camp toward his own. They both lost something categorically similar after a technically similar experience, but their experiences weren't even in the same ballpark. And maybe some jealousy at how Yugi seemingly got "the better end" of the deal when it came to spiritual hauntings.

Otherwise, they have a lot of shared interests that would be great ways to deepen their friendship/relationship. While Yugi isn't a horror fanatic in the same way, I don't see him as squeamish. Who else is Ryou going to watch the latest horror flick with? (Definitely not Jounouchi, bless him, I love my boy, but he would be annoying as fuck at a horror movie. I am also a scaredy cat and forcing your friend who is not into that stuff is both a dick move and a recipe for an unfun group hangout.) They'd both be into European board games that would take two hours to set up and explain the rules of where others in their friend group might have checked out after 30 minutes.

There's a lot of depth to be plumbed in their one-on-one friendship/hangout time that will feel categorically different than Yugi's friendship with Jounouchi.

Also love the idea of Yugi realizing he doesn't actually know Ryou that well or Ryou not being a person that shares much of his inner life/feelings despite his friendliness. Like great guy, tries to be helpful, but months down the line, you realize you've revealed all sorts of fears/insecurities with him, but you don't know the first thing about his favorite color or music or if he's ever felt sad.

TLDR; Their fluffiness/softness is endearing, but their potential for angst is also off-the-charts.

[ten-shi-fandoms]

Lyric prompt list:

If you want to participate in this say which prompt you want a fic for, the character/fandom, and use one of the hearts on the key to specify what kind of fic you want it to be.

Some of the fics will already have a heart by them signifying that I already have a idea for a fic, but if you wish to request that prompt then go ahead but the type of fic is up to me.

I will be adding more lyric prompts as days go on so one day there may be twenty and the

Heart Key:

❤= Fluff

🖤= Angst

💚= Suggestive/lime

♥= Smut

💔= Smut/suggestive with angst

❤️‍🩹= Angst to Comfort

💖= Fluff with comedy

Prompts:

1. "I can see my baby swingin'."

2. "Hit me and tell me your mine. I don't know why but I like it."

3. "I think I'll miss you forever. Like the stars miss the sun on a morning sky."

4. "Will you still love me if I'm no longer young and beautiful?"

5. "Evil. Don't know what to tell you she's evil, most definitely."

6. "Paradise is a hell-colored flame sky, is it nice to feel free and wild?"

7. "You are my strange addition."

8. "Have I fallen for a lie? You were never on my side." 🖤

9. "A whole garden of flowers and my name etched on a rock. Oh this could've been avoided all I wanted was to talk." 🖤

10: "Heaven is a place on earth with you."

11. "Kiss me hard before you go. Summertime sadness. I just wanted you to know, that baby your the best."

12. "Go easy on me, baby."

13. "You make me feel like a fool. Waiting for you." 🖤 or ❤️‍🩹

14. "In the back of my mind. (In the back of my mind), You died (I killed you) and I didn't even cry (I didn't even regret it). No, not a single tear (I can't believe I said it, but it's true). And I'm sick of waiting patiently for some on that won't even arrive (I hate you). 🖤

15. "I don't care, how long it takes. As long as I'm with you, I've got a smile on my face."

16. "Heart to Heart."

17. "And I'm not your protagonist, I'm not even my own. I don't know anything, I don't even know what I don't know." 🖤 or ❤️‍🩹

18. "And I love, my boyfriend. He is good to me. He's a good man. He takes care of me when I need it. He's the one I want to have children with."

19. "Mind over matter. Does it matter to any of us?"

20. "You can tell from the scars on my arms, and the cracks in my hips, and the dints on my car and the blisters on my lips." 🖤 or ❤️‍🩹

21. "Alone again." 🖤 (angst of some kind)

22. "Whatever I've done, I did it for love."

23. "Let me into your heart."

24. "The other woman will never have his love to keep." 🖤

25. "Who is she? A misty memory. A haunting face. Is she a lost embrace?"

26. "Am I in love with just a theme?"

27. "A love immortal such as mine, will come to me eventually. Immortal she, returns to me."

28. "It still hurts. Watching him fade away." 🖤 or ❤️‍🩹

29. "I'm feeling so tired. Really falling apart." 🖤(angst of some kind)

30. "I wish I knew you wanted me."

31. "I just wanna be yours."

32. "I'm liquid smooth, come touch me too. And my skin is plump and full of life. I'm in my prime."

33. "This 60/40 isn't working. I want 100 of your time. Your mine."

34: "Lucky is she, who lives unaware. Who doesn't get bothered by those who don't care. Lucky is she, who lives unaware. Who doesn't get bothered by all that's unfair. Unlucky me. Who knows way too much. Who fights to make changes to make changes and music and such. Unlucky me, aware all the pain. All 'cause I have some brain." 🖤

35. "I can't save us. My alantis we fall." 🖤

36. "I watch the moon. Let it run my mood. Can't stop thinking of you."

37. "I found love where it wasn't supposed to be. Right infront of me."

38. "You were out of my league. Got my heartbeat racing. If I die don't wake me, cause you were more than just a dream."

39. "I love you, so. Please let me go." 🖤

40. "Your coming back. And its the end of the world. We're starting over and I love you darling." ❤️‍🩹

41. "Your so traumatized. It makes me wanna cry. You dumb bitch. I loved you, I loved you, I loved you it's true. I wanted to be you and do what you do. I lived here, I loved here, I bought it, it's true. I feel so embarrassed. I feel abused." ����

42. "Someone loved me. Someone fucking loved me. Someone fucking loved me and I fucking loved them to." 🖤

43. "Please understand I am trying my hardest." 🖤 or ❤️‍🩹

44. "We were to close to the stars. I never knew somebody like you somebody." ❤️‍🩹

45. "The city's yours."

46. "Say yes to heaven, say yes to me. I've got my eye on you."

47. "He's in my eyes. He is in my ears. He's in my blood. He is in my tears. I must be made of steel. For i just threw out the love of my dreams."

48. "Everyone is dumb."

49. "I dug two graves for us my dear. I can't pretend that I was perfect leaving you in fear." 🖤

50. "I'm the sweetest girl in town, so why are you so mean? When are you going to ditch that stupid you got? It's me you should be seein'." ❤️‍🩹

51: "Talking to the moon. Trying to get to you."

52. "I wish you could see that I'm a person too." 🖤 (angst of some kind)

53. "Feel like a brand new person. Make the same old mistakes."

54. "Before I die. I wanna do something nice."

55. "I'll never smile again. Until I smile at you."

56. "Is she divine? Is it the wine? La seine."

57. "We fell in love in October. That's why I love fall."

58. "We'll meet again. Don't know where. Don't know when. But i know we'll meet again some sunny day."

59. "So please, hurry leave me. I can't breathe. Please don't say you love me."

60. "It's just that I fell in love with a war. No body told me it ended."

61. "I'm so lucky, lucky."

62. "All I want is you now. All I wanna do now. Is wait for you to call me. Baby I'm so sorry." 🖤 (angst of some kind)

63. "I wish you, never had meet me." 🖤

64. "We could've had it all." 🖤

65. "I just hope she don't wanna leave me. Don't you give me up."

66. "The red means I love you." 🖤

67. "I swear (Swear?), I won't leave you (I don't believe you.)" 🖤

68. "Love's gonna get you killed but Pride's gonna be the death of you and me." 🖤

69. "Are you falling in love? Got a feeling you are."

70. "And I'm so sick of love songs, so tire of tears. So done with wishing you were still here." ❤️‍🩹

71. "Please don't go (I'll eat you whole). I love you so. I love you so." 🖤 (angst of some kind)

72. "I guess I should stop looking out for you like I always do. When you, start looking out for me to instead of leaving me staring at my shoes?" 🖤 or ❤️‍🩹

73. "This is a love song for a girl who will never know it's about her." ❤️‍🩹

74. "Pacify her. She's getting on my nerves."

75. "I'm so sick of myself. Rather be, Rather be. Anyone, anyone else. Jealousy jealousy, started following me." ❤️‍🩹 or 💔

[particular-one]

PLEASE THE NEW DAN HENG WAS SO GOOD 😭 my angst heart loves that the fact he never got to hear reader's last words would haunt him forever. He probably lays awake at night in bed imagining the event all over again and daydreams you dying in his arms instead of by yourself while he got help 😢

You so get me on the Oikawa simping. If you ever decide to release the hottest mixtape on why he's the most dedicated lover then I will stream it 24/7 😤. And mr.tetsurou!! He would never willingly make a fool of himself but once you get some alcohol in him 🥴 all his repressed feelings are about to come out!!!

I can't think of any requests but I see you currently have 8 in your inbox so I'm soooo looking forward to it on top of whatever you have in your drafts! Also I saw that you're closing matchups soon and that you're willing to do additionals so can you do 3 more for me with the info I sent since you already posted mine, please? (Only if you have the time and energy of course!!! I won't be too greedy for your writing and interaction now heheh) for the fandoms.....ummm...argh, this is so hard because I literally am in all those fandoms 😭 If any characters from any of your given fandoms jump out at you then I'll take them but if nobody comes to mind then I'll choose genshin, honkai and you can literally choose the last one for me hdjsks IM SORRY IM SO INDECISIVE 😣 we literally have all the same fandoms so it's so hard for me but I promise I'm not picky and I'll love whatever you write anyways so no stress LOL

I'm sitting in the doorway and just took my shoes off as I write this bc i got the notifs that you posted but i hope youre having a good day/night wherever you are!!💕💖

-🐰

teehee oh that was definitely the intention. i think it just adds to the heartbreak even more that he should have stayed by ur side for your final moments.... oh well! i love to give my comfort characters the biggest hug but simultaneously dump a truckload of angst on them .... whoops. wooHOOO oh yeah. watch me become oikawa's defense lawyer AND brand new pr manager, just going "dw sweetheart i will take care of you".... but in all seriousness, there is just so many layers to him that i really love abt him!! tbh he's probably the first few characters i really invested in analyzing, which is what got me into literary analysis and writing haha. waaa thank you! 🥹 ngl most of the stuff in my inbox are matchup requests but i rlly enjoy writing those anyways. i still have an angst idea that i would like to write out (it's been sitting in my brain since yesterday ngl) but i still have one more final to finish so maybe later this week! oh! but an anon did request for a scenario for kuroo and oikawa based on our convo so! 👀 hopefully i can get that out pretty soon<3 and on the topic of the matchup, definitely, yeah!! i think i did genshin for u already BUT i can always do a second genshin since there's lots of charas if u'd like :> keeping the last fandom a surprise till i post it. thanks for the ask as always and take care of urself! <3

[liquismothhh]

Hello fellow romanists i wanted to write down some of my hcs for roman cause i cannot stop thinking about him. he is like a worm in my brain.

tw for things (sh, incest, sa, ed)

-already made a post about this but roman has a long history with self harm. it all started when he was a kid. he bruised easily and he loved it bc he would get to pick at his bruises and make them worse. he would try to show them off to logan but he never cared enough to ask roman if he was ok.

-related to the last, post s4 he would constantly pick at his forehead stitches and made a really bad scar that would haunt him for the rest of his life, rembering the downfall of his career and his family legacy everytime he looked in the mirror.

-another post s4. he kept in contact with mencken bc he liked that he liked him and hoped mencken would offer him a seat at the white house. once roman asked him about it and mencken told him no because he is "completely incompetent" and that broke roman into a million pieces but sticked to him to the end of his term regardless.

-mencken and roman jerked off together in the middle of a meeting after one of them mentioned lennon and mccaurtney did it and that must have been why they came up with such good ideas together. roman never forgot about it and when he tried to talk about it, mencken acted as if he didn't know what he was talking about. roman jerks off thinking about it to this day.

-his "sex thing" started when he was 13 and watched a lot of porn, like 24/7. he developted a really bad porn addiction in his 20s that ruined his view on sex and women. the only thing he would get off to was hardcore bdsm humiliation shit and step-sibiling incest porn.

-in college he had a preppy girlfriend who caught him watching his weird porn and called him a freak and a sicko and that got him so hard he had to go jerk off to the bathroom mid argument. the handful of time he tried to had sex with her he had to go to the bathroom to watch porn just so he could get hard. after he would just come out of the bathroom and immediatly initiate sex but he would get limp half way through.

-he once tried to have real sex with a guy but he ended up having a panic attack bc he could not stop picturing that logan was the one touching him.

(i could say a thousand more things about his sex thing but i think i will just write a fanfic about it)

-anorexic or bulimic. caroline tried to talk him out of it and forced him to eat healthy foods but he couldn't keep it down or just out right refused to eat. ken and shiv know about it but they dont care cause they are the same, just a little less extreme. when they were younger connor would invite the sibling for dinner at his house to encourage them to eat, but after everyone went home connor had to give all the food away, otherwise he would have thrown it away.

i think these are enough for today. will probably write some of these into short fanfics/ character studies.