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ameliora-j · 3 months ago

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harry styles , niall horan , and louis tomlinson were all sitting down in different areas of the world — maybe writing music , drinking a beer , watching a movie , eating dinner… and at the same time each of their phone screens lit up with the same thing

a notification from a groupchat that’s been untouched for over a decade…

THE BOYS

zayn malik: did you hear?

zayn malik: are you guys okay?

#no i’m not okay #i will never recover #ever again #this hurts deep #one direction was my entire childhood #my chest hurts #and i can’t breathe #one direction #liam payne #rest in peace liam payne

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star-struck09 · 2 months ago

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I fear the sadness will consume me alive one day.

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bixels · 8 months ago

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Scary Sunset.

I'm concepting things way outta order in this story, but I'm sure you can piece things together. Context is for a storybeat where, after defeating and capturing Adagio (thus having all three sirens in her possession), Sunset enacts her revenge plot to release the sirens on Canterlot as Thea discovers she's been manipulated. In a confrontation, the two scuffle and fight over the siren orbs while Sunset struggles with her conflicting wants and emotions.

#mlp #sunset shimmer #twilight sparkle #twiset #the orbs are the glass balls sunset carries on her back btw its in her cast line up art #deep down sunset hates thea. she was named “twilight” by celestia. the time of day succeeding sunset. she was always her replacement #but at this point in the story sunset's also fallen for thea. so it's also a conflict of wills in sunset. love or hatred.#hence the “don't make me do this” language. she's rationalizing her hatred and violence as thea forcing her hand and getting in her way #when in reality she doesn't need to do any of this. it's her last stand and outburst to cling to a life of revenge that she's grown too #fond of. because she knows thea has the power to change that and disrupt her identity as a pathetic victim who fell from glory #and that's scary. thea's a very scary thing to sunset because suddenly sunset wants something and to be someone new.#she suddenly wants to change. to be better for someone else. and she never thought or believed that could be an option for her #anyways toxic yuri yayyy #my art #the grand galloping 20s #character design #i hope i got across the pained conflicted emotions in sunset's face tho i belabored over them these past 3 days #i hope a look of anger and dissonance and guilt and “oh god i don't really wanna hurt you please just obey me” while trying to intimidate #is readable. if so it's all in the eyebrows babey

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hinamie · 5 months ago

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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk megumi #megumi #looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops #i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear #i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle #fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain #god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow #lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear #had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it #the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes #its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair #nothing else feels Right #but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it #i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment #smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1 #his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see

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inkskinned · 1 year ago

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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

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hollis-art · 5 months ago

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is this anything

#gonna be totally honest i dont remember what gul dukat is like #but he feels like the kind of guy to rile you up only to go “but im a little guy! you can't hurt a little guy!” even though he isn't #can uou guys tell i put so much love and care into this? (i did this in like 10 minutes maybe. it came to me in a vision)#gul dukat #benjamin sisko #star trek #star trek deep space 9 #ds9 #star trek fanart #fanart #i cant even tell if this is a coherent drawing i just felt the overwhelming need to make it

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bunnieswithknives · 4 months ago

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(nature au) you said that while dale dislikes dev using a cane in the house he doesn’t really care too much, but what if dev used a cane in public? i can’t imagine dale would be okay with that at all. he’d be pissed, like confiscate the cane kind of pissed

Originally the gag here was just going to be Dev clinging onto his dads arm for dear life while he shivers like a chihuahua but he is just. So small.. I couldnt get it to look reasonable

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#The horror of putting Dev in a situation where he would 100% be wearing his sunglasses #Like NOOO the perfectly construction expression of horror I was going to give him #fop nature au #fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop dev #dev dimmadome #dale dimmadome #fop dale #fop peri #art #digital art #fanart #I cant tell if I got the tone right with this one #Theres a very careful balance I try to strike with comedy vs horror and Im not sure if I got it #I also try to keep a sort of balance when depicting characters that are just straight up awful #I dont like depicting characters as cartoonishly evil but I also dont want to make him seem overly sympathetic #or like he's 'deep down a good person' because he's straight up not #He's awful and selfish. What he's done to his son makes him deeply uncomfortable with himself #but that discomfort means absolutely nothing when he refuses to change or become a better person #and he does refuse to change. changing is hard #he still keeps hurting Dev at every turn and maybe to tries to justify it to himself as being for Devs own good #but regardless he is still refusing to listen to him and hurting him even more in the process #idk im rambling #I like to keep the abuse balanced out with these nothing little concessions on Dales part #tbh even this concession didnt come from the good of his heart he just wanted to avoid making a scene #also because the visual of Dale deciding CARRYING him everywhere is better than just letting him have his cane is very funny to me

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fordford · 1 month ago

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i think actually the grossest thing i've seen is ppl being like "au where bill gets sent back to the shack to get redeemed!!" it literally makes me fucking sick. it is never an abuse victim's job to heal their abuser. what the hell is wrong with you people

#j3.rtf #imagine getting physically and psychologically tortured by someone #and then god shows up in your dreams to tell you that you are his only chance at redemption #that is an actual thing i read #do you people not fucking hear yourselves.#do you not realize the sentiments you are putting into the world???#'it's ok girl YOU have the power to fix him!'#'i know he's hurt you and everyone you love multiple times but keep trying! deep down he cares!'

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r3nblade · 28 days ago

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#honkai star rail #fanart #hsr #dan heng #jing yuan #jingheng #hengjing #general how did u not explode with him #i cant belive how silly n dramatic they acted during their first meeting on the luofu like walking pass by eyes closed you two are dumb #oh i hate them #im not him he says #and he proceeds to protect n hold him and barely let go when he got hurt #DAN HENG YOURE EMBARRASSING STAND UP #anyways general in deep thought

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lucy-moderatz · 11 months ago

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Sentiment is the greatest weakness of all.

#tv: star trek: deep space nine #ds9edit #trekedit #julian bashir #elim garak #garashir #it's about the significant held glances #but honestly #everything about this episode #the context the setting the hurt/comfort #fandoms dream of this kind of thing #how incredibly straight said no one #things i made

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hemlock-dreams · 2 months ago

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I love MJ. Peter must have really been devastated by her being affected when he was outed as Spider-Man. I have a few questions! You mentioned in the original universe she had a relapse — was it just the same universe changes that made Peter a criminal that caused there to be an MJ that was an addict? Would the venom have caused her to die in a while like most people, or no because Peter became her supplier and had presumably good control? Wouldn’t she have known the reasons he had hesitated to kiss long eventually, since he had to tell her everything to help with the venom thing? And does his venom just… come out automatically after a bit with anything, or is it possible for him to have situations where it’s not involved at all for a time? I’m sure he misses her and usually MJ and Peter are friends before they get together in many canons, so I’m really happy that he’s able to be her friend in the new universe and didn’t lose her entirely 🥺 even if he basically had to reform the relationship from scratch. (Also if Peter and Marko were such good friends, why was he willing to put him and his loved ones in danger by telling everyone?) all of this is very cool and fun ty for sharing.

So OG-MJ was an addict before she ever knew Peter(and before everything with the knock off venom.) She had been sober for two years at that point, and continued to stay sober for a few years after she and Peter officially got together.

However, Peter was always gone, flaking on all their special dates/anniversaries etc. He'd make plans and then never show up, or cancel at the last minute. And despite being super affectionate with his words, was always really physically distant. All of this left MJ feeling really alone and angry, as she was dealing with her own abandonment issues (foster care).

Eventually, everything was just a perfect storm of frustration (struggling with her boss, Peter flaking on another date, a new job opportunity not coming through) that she ended up reconnecting with some old friends who convinced her to try 'this sick new upper'.

The issue with manufactured venom (gonna call it Aurora) is that in it's impurity, it had extremely degenerative effects at lower doses. Peter's venom, while just as bad, was 'cleaner'. He can secrete it at will, but his body starts automatically pumping it when he gets excited (not to mention his fangs do not retract!!!) (They are very sharp!!!)

As for Marko, he'd been Sandman for a while before he revealed Spiderman's identity. Not only was he mentally very unstable, but he'd been very bitter over Peter going 'straight'. They were supposed to be ride or die, but Peter kept drifting away and eventually cut ties with him when it was obvious that Marko was never going to leave the lifestyle.

Then one day, during a fight with Spiderman Marko just...recognized the body language, the words, just...something clicked, then broke. Because not only did Peter leave Marko, the guy who had his back all those years in prison, his supposed 'ride or die' was also fucking Spiderman. The guy who had been actively fucking up Marko's life for years. The enemy.

Payback was an easy decision for a guy who held tight to grudges.

And for the kicker, he didn't even sell the information, just gave it to JJ for free-- that's how much he wanted to hurt Peter. Later, he would really regret it, but it would be too late at that point.

After Marko threw Peter's life into the fire, he and MJ had a blowout fight. At the height of it, MJ told Peter to 'prove he loved her' and used her own addiction as a way to control his time and attention after being starved for so long (kind of holding herself hostage).

Yeah...it all kind of went to real shit after Lmaoo

Once again, thank you SO much for the support and all these amazing asks!! <3 <3

#hunting!spider lore #mary jane watson #flint marko #MJ furious and heartbroken that she had to find out Peter was Spiderman from the fucking BUGLE #MJ's abandonment issues are the real bad guy here. Also Peter with his performative relationship gestures but never actually being there #Marko and MJ are just two casualties in Peter's endless quest for Martyrdom #They'd given so much to Peter but he never really gave back-- so they took it from him by force to hurt him the way he hurt them #Eventually MJ's real addiction became being able to control Peter's time and attention- crack for someone with abandonment issues #Peter confronting Flint was the second time he ever went into Burn legit almost killed the guy #Peter out here being Flint's confidante when he was Spiderman all along really sent Marko off the deep end the BETRAYAL

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bl-recs-and-reviews · 1 month ago

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He said FOUND!!!! HE FUCKING SAID F O U N D ! ! ! ! !

What do you mean "met" Gaga?!?!?! In what world would you translate "mitsuketa" with meeting?? Even the dictionnary agrees with me!!!

#miseinen #our youth #like most of the time the mistakes only hurt a little and it's sort of bearable #BUT THIS????#are you fucking kidding me???#you're stripping people of the deep layers involved in the narration?!?!?!?!?!?!#not under my watch #snow rambles #translation stuff

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uncanny-tranny · 2 months ago

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To my fellow US Americans: If you are planning on arming yourselves because of the election results and what might be on the horizons, I urge you to be a responsible gun owner.

Take as many classes as you can. Get certified in gun safety, even if it's not required to own a gun in your state. Get a gun safe. A good gun safe. Lock your gun up. Don't leave it armed. Don't wave your guns or gun-owning status around and don't pose with guns like they're toys. I'd say not to make gun buying an impulse purchase, either. You are investing in something that holds great potential risk to yourself and others - treat it like a responsibility.

I'm not here to argue about if Americans ought to exercise the second amendment in the way it currently exists. That's not the point - we have always had the second amendment, and I doubt it's going anywhere. I am more interested in making sure we don't see a surge in accidental, negligent gun ownership.

As a queer person in the US, I can understand the mindset behind people's spiked interest in arming themselves. I'm not arguing against that. As a child of gun owners, I know just how huge a responsibility it is to own a gun, and I hate the general attitude we Americans have about guns. Please don't contribute to that. If you own a gun, it is you inherent responsibility to take care of that gun (which is why I can't own a gun yet - I don't have the resources to pour into proper ownership).

#politics #us politcs #gun ownership #gun responsibility #gun tw #gun mention tw #sorry to lecture people but i hold a deep respect for death and therefore regard guns in the same way #i have few means to realistically arm myself - i don't trust who i live with and i don't have the money to invest in classes/safes/ect #part of me isn't even sorry about treating gun safety like this. i have seen way too many news stories where people didn't take it seriousl #and you know every time it hurts innocent people. it hurts children and bystanders and pets and people who never needed to experience that #be a more responsible gun owner than a cop. don't let yourself somehow be WORSE than a cop. that's a level of shame noone should replicate #i'm really scared that we will see more negligent gun ownership and that impacts all of us. i'm really not looking forward to it #i can't be an armed queer man if someone accidentally shoots me dead because they didn't know their gun was loaded

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kelin-is-writing · 3 months ago

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