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I like how we were talking about coincidences and one *just* occurred!
Someone where I live actually recently got hit by a train. I don't know any of the details but I do know: the train was immediately stopped, and it doesn't take THAT long to clean up, since the train was leaving the same day that the accident occurred.
Now, away from the solid facts I know about the incident and onto my own theories about what would happen: I feel like it would just crush a lot of bones and then as the train slowed down, you would eventually loose the air pressure holding you against the train, and would fall. Some limbs would be crushed or torn off, but you probably wouldn't be shredded to bits.
Also, open caskets are ONLY offered if the body is in good enough condition. You can request it, but the request is only accepted if they are able to make the body presentable. So, thankfully, no Frankenstein monsters during burials :3
As for my shower thoughts.... I watch a lot of book/show/movie breakdowns where they go in depth about the symbolism of certain scenes. About how EVERY. SINGLE. DETAIL. ment something in certain media. How much of that is actually decided by the creator, and how much of it is people looking WAY to hard into things?? I remember having to write a THREE PAGE ESSAY on the symbolism and literary tools used in ONE paragraph of a book once and... I just could not for the life of me belive the author intended for this one paragraph to have three pages worth of meaning in it. I don't think I could ever write a paragraph with three pages worth of meaning in it (at least... on purpose).
What's your favorite genre? Mine is fantasy or thriller (not the blood and guts kind but the constant suspence kind. To much blood and guts can actually turn me away at times)
Also, sorry this is so long, and goodnight, I'm heading to bed!!!
- J
ah, wow. what a coinkydink. also, thank you for the fun facts! i will treasure this information.
my teacher has us do this ReadTheory thing where we read passages and then complete a quiz about the passage, and some of the questions are so analytical and they even start using wording and phrases that the teacher couldnt understand at times. i get where you are coming from when you say people look too hard into things. ive seen theories about Aus that i follow that are literal ESSAYS. it makes my jaw drop every time. sometimes in a good way tho :D
as for my favorite book genre, id have to say fantasy fiction. mainly animal based for some reason. like Familiars or Wings of Fire. i dunno, i find them interesting. (although, the turning away from blood and gore thing is one thing in which we differ. there are some authors who can go into such gruesome and amazing detail when it comes to stuff like that, and i love reading it. maybe im just a psycho lol)
I wont give you a question since you are going to bed :) sleep well and have a good day tomorrow! i have school and the theater practice so i likely wont be on a lot this week. maybe at night or early morning tho!
arrivederci my friend!
#you ask#i answer#goodnight J!#this has been quite enjoyable#i shall see you again sometime in the near future i hope#:)
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concept: "folding fitted sheets" to the tune of "crawling in my skin"
This got a sensible chuckle from both my wife and I.
#ask ffs#linkin parks new stuff has been quite enjoyable#but it’s very funny that Pandora doesn’t know where to put them so we keep getting linkin park on my wife’s Walk the Moon station which#not really where that goes
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anyway listen to Romeo
#points at your shoes#first of all. your kicks aren't even pumped up#bnha#hizashi yamada#present mic#mha#mic simulator redux now has just over 120 plays. Not quite level with the original yet but. there's time...#congrats to me on drawing one acceptable shoe#mic enjoyers don't unfollow me when i start drawing other stuff challenge made slightly more possible by an actual mic post#i have been thinking about him more recently and that cannot be good news
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#canon’s art#persona 4#persona 4 golden#fanart#art#yosuke hanamura#souji seta#yu narukami#ryotaro dojima#souyo#me when i drop a souyo post bomb and leave#these have been drawn over the course of a week (they’re out of order but wherever#just an explanation as to why some things look different hehehe#these guys are quite silly!#can’t get over yosuke being the biggest daft punk enjoyer#that’s like. always at the forefront of my mind.#lil indulgent hc!#also i do quite enjoy the short hair..#imagine he has freckles in all the ones where he doesn’t (normal)
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the secret key to writing in character dick grayson is that dick does not get enjoyment out of relaxing or doing fun things. its a hard mindset to understand because it's the opposite of what you or i as fandom people experience, but Dick is never shown to do things for fun. if he's watching a movie or playing a game, it's almost always to spend time with other people, not because that's his impulse (and lowkey he sometimes ruins it for other people by never being able to turn off his brain)
now, this is not to say that he's unhappy, or that he doesn't experience happiness in his day to day. but he doesnt get that from the things that we, as comic book readers and fanfiction writers, get enjoyment from.
Dick is the definition of a workaholic. His only enjoyment comes from a job well done, helping people, and sometimes adrenaline (as his only real canon hobby is...skydiving)
Further reading: Flash Plus Nightwing (1997) (hating on the Hardy Boys)
Nightwing (2016) #43 (being unable to take a night off)
Nightwing (1996) #140 (skydiving)
The Titans (1999) #3 (being a terrible film watcher)
#dick grayson#this is unlike all of the other batboys#who i think you could argue have hobbies or enjoyment#dick has had a job his *entire life*#he started performing professionally at age 4 and lived at his parents work before that#while tim as a ton of hobbies he enjoys#and jason was a pretty normal kid growing up#Dick never had free time#and i think this also influences how he deals with damian#because damian also never had free time#but the comics have been showing us the journey of damian learning to have fun#thats something that dick and steph did#but dick never learned to have hobbies as a kid and he still doesnt#this is not to say that you cant headcanon bc ofc you can#but if youre wondering why things dont feel quite right....
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im so obsessed w them that I made fanart AND my own playlist
#気になってる人が男じゃなかった#the guy she wasn't interested in wasn't a guy at all#gays bonding over 90s grunge and dad rock#no like u don't understand I'm a wlw who was raised on rock and blues since as far back as I can remember#reading this manga has been SO en#SO enjoyable#I can't believe I didn't get into it sooner!!!!! And I love the NOFX Green used all through the series omg#Also re the fanmix#I know Aya and Mitsuki are super into 90's grunge and hard rock specifically#but I added in some diff stuff from betwee#Also I tried to the playlist follow the chronology of the story and might continue to add to it/edit 🤔#Anyway I'm really interested in the way both charas relate to music? I feel like they both see music as a place for enjoyment and discovery#but Aya is quite aware of and#secure in her emotions so uses music as an outlet for them: a way to arrange and communicate how she already knows how she's feeling#while Mitsuki seems more to use music as a way to actually understand both the world around her#but also herself... I love them both so muc#god my tags are horrific but writing tags on the tumblr app is literal hell#aya oosawa#mitsuki koga
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#jwhscreens#reshade has been such a game-changer for me. like. quite literally. it's added another facet of enjoyment for me personally
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No no ikr. The ENT fandom is so quiet around here. And honestly I'm just excited to see art of my favourite dudes, because we rarely get fanart around here, and when we do it's usually Trip or T'Pol solely. Malcolm gets left in the dust quite a lot so I'm happy you drew him as well - and so well done too!
Anyway, ramble over, lol.
OMG... Well I think I can see why a lot of fanart is of Trip and/or T'pol (those two seem like they're doing some heavy lifting for the show/are just a lot of people's faves. I've got a few half baked ideas in mind for them myself.) but the rest of the crew as a whole do deserve more love I think! :]
#(I'm hijacking this ask to talk about some ENT thoughts in the tags LMAO sorry 😭🙏)#I've been watching it for the first time with some friends who are also watching it for the first time with me like 90% of the time.#When Reed was introduced we did our silly little “omg. why is he british 😰” jokes but personally-#he has grown on me a lot. Very much my type of character so far I think... :]#ive got a few sketches involving him that wont see the light of day because they require five levels of inside jokes from my watch party 😭#but god. for the most part I like all the main crew characters#the only one I'm not 100% on is archer and i dont even know how to articulate why.#like I don't HATE him. but he is also very fun to dunk on.#and i enjoy scott bakula very much. its crazy how like. not intriguing or charming I find his depiction of archer mmmmmost of the time#which sucks bc i KNOW it could be awesome. but its not really there for me yet.... oh well.#but god. i wish i could go back in time and force some improvements into the way the show was handled.....#my list of demands. quit the excessive sexualisation of t'pol and hoshi. can we PLEASE stop underutilising mayweather. and honestly-#i think a bit more dramatic visual variety between the main human cast would help a bit#now its time to end MY ramble yet again 😭 i feel like if i talk about ent for too long i'll inevitably start complaining-#despite me still having a mostly enjoyable time... all that stuff just really feels kicked up to 11 compared to previous treks tho 😔#but its only bc i care 💔 i see so much potential where the writers really borked their shit#telegraff#themurdochmemesteries#i might get around to a few more doodles or meme redraws but i can never guarantee anything when I have a whole queue of stuff-#that needs to be done before I can draw whatever I want. but by god. the ideas and concept drafts are there. 💪💪💪😤#:] <3
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Guess who :3c (Patreon)
#My art#Webkinz#Diamond#Ukadevlog#Ghostkinz#Ta-dah! My November behind-the-scenes project was this! The poll was for this reason! Though I already knew I'd start with her haha#Have a little preview to start us off - I have Lots of thoughts to each part of development I ended up in but I want to roll them out slowly#Not everything all at once anyway haha - thoughts get all jumbled now that I'm on this side of things pft#I wasn't able to finish A Version I'd be willing to publish in just a month - even then I only worked on Ghostkinz about 3 days a week so#But for the time I spent I'm quite pleased with how its shaped up so far! :D I got to implement a lot!#Actually learning-then-implementing-then-learning-then-implementing - it's a loop I've been out of for such a long time now :0#Really interesting to fall back into after so long away haha#A lot of my other projects have been Pick Up One Thing and then do that forever and I was tired-tired of that!!#So going into this project knowing that I'd only have November to Get Guud at as much of it as possible and then that was it#I think it helped propel me - didn't end with me getting stuck on Perfecting Just This One Thing#I'd read a bit and then go utilize it and then come back and read some more of Zarla's template/walkthrough - compelling system!#I still couldn't manage to actually finish in a month but I got up to Phase 4!! Previous attempts at Ghost-making has gotten stalled at 1!!#Maaaybe 2 but never anything beyond that - and while I didn't actually Finish any Phase apart from 1 I still read through much much more!#On top of the learning aspect being fun ♪ getting to understand some of the more technical side ahh - it was also just fun to read haha#Like a course that can be silly hehe ♫ Enjoyable even outside of getting to make a little guy for my screen haha#But also yes that too!! I'm really glad I finally settled on an idea that I feel confident in seeing through#The best part about reaching for the Webkinz style is that Webkinz uses vectors - I've gone on record multiple times as loving vectors#They're an exceptionally easy medium to manipulate and that was The Thing that had been holding me back from committing to Ghosts prior#Drawing every single thing when I already struggle to plug in my tablet...no...... But Vectors#You can see here that Diamond's expressions are just a matter of tilting her head and moving her tail - so so soooo simple with vectors#Being able to super-quickly put out a lot of different expressions and animations and piecemeal everything together...yes..........#And for what further I have in mind :3c It's really all I could ask for in an art style to seek ah ♪ Just right for my purposes!#I thought it'd be nice to show off Diamond-for-real as her plush next to her digital version as well :D She's still the only OG8 I have#I want more!! I'd love to have a code for her as well haha - secretly just started this so I can have a digital Diamond lol#Plush-Diamond actually wears a necklace these days but I opted to leave it off her for the photoshoot - maybe once I figure out clothes haha
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so if you romance and ascend astarion you can kick him in the balls when he tries to turn you and it’s just very funny, he’s so pissy about it. so much for the most powerful vampire of all time or whatever, he stamps around like a toddler and then leaves forever
#i’m glad i saved before that choice so i can go through all the scenes i wouldn’t have got otherwise#(‘that choice’ meaning ascension)#im Fascinated by a whole bunch of stuff if you ascend him#like if you succeed on the detect thoughts (or maybe insight i forget) before he turns you to see what he think of you#it says something like ‘he will always see you as degrading yourself while you choose to be with him’ which is just BONKERS INSANE#like not confusing or anything. just wild to include. in a good way; like yeah of course that’s how he feels#and then the narrator follows it up with something like ‘but isn’t that what you want?’#like i’m glad they do actually try to impress upon you how fucked this dynamic is. they’re not trying to make you think it’s a good outcome#(i know there’s discourse about this and it’s very annoying)#(people who are like ‘actually it’s romantic and kinky’ uhh 😬)#(but then people who are like ‘how can anyone think this is ok’ and direct that towards anyone who enjoys playing it)#(like no it’s fun and genuinely interesting and i can see the appeal. just not when it comes to analysing the relationship)#(most people are aware that this is a bad dynamic they’re just playing a game chill out)#(like when i said 😬 about it being romantic/kinky i mean that from the perspective of analysing the story not personal enjoyment)#(anyway. moving on)#like i did that specific bit of dialogue probably a month or more ago and only once (because the test was really hard)#and it’s been creeping around in my head ever since. i love it lmao#i saw a video of that kiss where he makes you kneel a while ago and didn’t quite believe it was a real thing#but no it’s one of his actual default kisses. amazing#like i’m definitely gonna do a playthrough where i get everyone to make the power-hungry soul-destroying choices#and i might have to romance astarion again for that one because he definitely seems to have the most bad-decision relationship content#although he has the most relationship content full stop so it’s not surprising#but i think that’s the only one that notably changes your character during the playthrough rather than just the epilogue#personal#ash plays bg3
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#prefacing this w ik in fanfiction they're all just our little barbie dolls we're making kiss and it doesnt matter whatsoever but like Do you#understand how much love and respect and loyalty there is between connor and leon irl#like in connors nhlpa ama he immediately no question said that leon's the nhler who knows him best + that he's spent his entire professiona#career w him. whenever leon's asked what he thinks of connor the first sentance out his mouth is 'you [the media] know. he knows' and then#he carries on talking about how he's the best player in the world + connor never hesitates to return the sentiment#and between the two of them it's not sentiments they sau it like its fact bc it is#and their whole 'cup or bust' thing every analyst and their mother have taken it as a 'they're going to win in edmonton or not at all' in t#e sense that they want to stay in edmonton n stay together <- like not even in an insane person edmonton polycule type of way in the they'r#the best players in the world and have insane chemistry on the ice and are eachother's best friends type of way#like a reason why their pp is so lethal is bc those two on a line + the other team down yeah ofc thats going to be automatic#and leon saying that their best beats anyone else's best no doubt and connor talking about building the team from the ground up like leon w#s there when they got boo'd off the ice in 2014 he was a part of building the team that's thier damn team and in turn the sheer amount of#respect the rest of the team have for them and they have for the rest of the team and the trust that while they're the best players they#don't have to play for all of them n that's part of thier whole like. our fourth line stands up to any other first line rock solid belief#like and ofc thier on ice hugs and lockerroom hugs and that moment in the sportsnet knee injury doc and how they mention that they're best#friends whenever theyre asked and how their gf's are also best friends and also their damn dogs#NOT TO MENTION. he's my ride or die. im really lucky our paths crossed here in edmonton. as a friend it was really tough to watch that#<- leon's insane 2022 playoff run on a broken ankle#and the way leon's been dubbed the german gretzky and connor's been the next next one since he was 15 and the way they have such a solid#control of the lockerroom together and i dont know if they've ever said conflicting things to the media and how they've said that they push#eachother to be better (connor saying that leon told him to score more)#and their little taps throughout their season and bringing back their team from the dead and leon being the one to make connor laugh in#pressers and on the bench#ALL TO SAY. like i am a mc.matt.drai enjoyer in the threesome/winners room/asg/2997 are actually quite abnormal about eachother and matthew#has never been normal about anything in his life and this might be fun. kinda way#but 2997 are soulbonded in ways quite possibly none of us will ever be able to truly understand#<- also i do mean this genuinely like they're not normal people but both of them are not normal#SORRY FOR RAMBLING. i just wish there was better written fanfiction.#<- wish to be the change you see in the world innit tho#so funny to me how the eh is just canadian innit.
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My ability to have like three different things I'm in the middle of drawing, still feel like I want something else to draw not work on any of them, only to get caught up staring at some fanart from an artist I like that made its way on my feed somehow and have the urge to open up my drawing app because I got busy ogling and fawning and need to get it out of my system.
#today has been such a funny day for me today.#I woke up at 1pm. went out to subway and ate an entire footlong sub and then spent the rest of the time listening to more-#-Eddie Izzard stuff until I got the notification that Jerma is streaming. And now I am watching him-#-torment Sims. He is in a different timezone from me though so I might not finish it till the VOD comes out.#it is awful. but somehow makes me feel better and more relaxed about my future??????#like. I will never be at a point of whatever Jermas Sims went through. I get paranoid saying that but cmon Kane.#We are both seeing the same thing here.#anyway this post was about Finn. Hi Finn. Pretty sure I borderline materialized him with how vivid I was-#-daydreaming last night. but it was also late at night so I was also probably like. teetering on that sleep-awake state and like.#whats it called. lucid dreaming or something.#I have had such silly wacky dreams lately. None of them bad. Actually most of them were quite enjoyable! They just all had.#yknow. dream logic.#anyway. I've derailed this post!#finn🩶💙#self ship#selfship#selfshipping#self shipping
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im enjoying metaphor refantazio so far i think my only complaints r that its so sad the 3d models r so bland when the games aes is so gorgeous and the world so fun.. and that i hope the characters become a little more three dimensional over time theyre all like intriguing but seem to only go fairly shallow… well actually i have a third which is that the ost is a lot more repetitive and uninspiring than id expected it feels a little bit like im back in fire emblem. its not a bad one it just. hasnt impressed me yet?
#im glad i got the dlc bc i get to change up the battle music sometimes when i want#but like strohl as the young lord who is somewhat sheltered due to his privilege but has a heart of gold and wishes to protect his ppl#hulkenberg as the devoted knight. shes overlapping quite heavily with heismay not that weve recruited him#as knights who lost their purpose failed their charges or whatever hes lucky hes got the dead kid motivation to set him apart#all the characters r enjoyable enough i just hope some of them come to have depths which surprise me or compel me more. tbh.#sometimes ive been getting the feeling that if nothing else id love to see more in its setting lol
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I am getting so fed up with myself I just can't get myself to do anything
#like this is always a problem for me but it has been so bad lately#fear I need to be medicated but in typical me fashion I procrastinated calling the clinic I'm trying to go to for like 6 months#only got around to doing it like a month ago and they seem to have extremely long waitlist so I don't even know#if I'll be able to get an appointment before the summer#and if I don't I feel like I'll be completely fucked because my intention is to start studying fr in the autumn#and I want to try medication before then in the quite likely case that it won't work and will make me feel terrible#so that I don't have to deal with all that while starting studying#I just want to have things sorted by then but ofc that won't happen because I'm fucking useless and can't do anything#and the mental health care system in this region is so deeply fucking broken#and noting ever works out easily when it comes to me and medications#this has been a four year long journey and nothing has worked so far#also fear that when I made the application I didn't make my issues sound bad enough and they put me like last in the list#I mean I did say I was a student which sometimes makes you a priority but idek#anyways all this to say it's 17.30 and I've done nothing productive or enjoyable all day I've just been like buffering#and I've been like this nearly every day for the last several weeks and it's making me feel like a fucking waste of space#in general things are just Not Good right now#I've been sick for an entire month and I still feel like shit and I'm just so tired of everything#personal#and my fucking teeth hurt again GOD
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I just finished reading Why Fish Don’t Exist, truthfully I think it is a book everyone should read if they are able to. It is sort of both the author’s personal memoir and a dive into the life of taxonomist David Starr Jordan. It serves as both a powerful heartfelt discussion on the meaning of life and how we should prevail through chaos, as well as a heavy, insightful discussion on how those in power are able to bend history to their benefit. Even how the author reveals information about the subject matter serves as commentary in itself. I will say towards the end of the book (chapter 10 and onward for the most part i believe) there is heavy discussion of sensitive subjects regarding the history and devastating effects eugenics and genetic cleansing has had and continues to have, so if you don’t feel like that is something you’d be able to read through that is understandable, or if you would like to try I’d recommend being in a stable mindset before doing so.
#I’ve been trying to get back into reading. I haven’t read for my own personal enjoyment in quite a bit and I wasn’t proud of it#so I changed that. also if anyone has any book recommendations I’d love to hear. I will say I am mainly interested in nonfiction
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anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years
#especially now that im back into literally the only interest we actually share on a deep enough level to enjoy it together LOL#i mean we were also both into hannibal but thats just not an enjoyable show to watch together its too much effort#but wow that time we read das boot slash fanfic on the bus together that was awesome#and the time we wrote fanfic together lol LITERALLY WHY DID WE STOP#he has only gotten cooler and more comfortable with his gayness since then we need to write fanfic again ‼️#anyway i feel sorry for every person in my life but i dont think anyone ill ever know could ever have as close a relationship to me as him#were platonic soulmates lol but like not in the spiritual sense bc its pretty obvious that its not some supernatural bond#its juuuust shared trauma haha and the fact that our trauma is so complex and layered that only we will ever truly understand each other#there has been a really rough patch where we practically did not talk for 4... 5? whole years im serious. maybe on the weekends sometimes#while we were stewing in our own shit. but now were inseperable i think it actually pisses off the rest of our family because every time#theres some event where we meet again (we live like 5 hours apart) we only hang around for like an hour before we get in his car#and drive somewhere and hang out there for the rest of the day and night and only return at like 3am drunk#in a sense i guess were catching up on all the missed time#to be honest we both had some horrible shit going on in our heads me with the transgenderism and toxic relationship#him with his anger issues and (what he calls) psychopathy. like ill say this much he was not a good person as a child he was a devil#he was quite literally what some describe as born evil like u know those satans spawns kids that cut off babys fingers and dissect rabbits#all that yk. and i was his first and most frequent victim due to availability lol and my parents did not know any of it and if they did#they ignored it. so yeah u can imagine the relationship was a little strained and for a long time i lived in fear of him#also due to all the death threats and attempts on my life HAHA its kinda funny because i can say all this all detached now#but i think to anyone else this sounds mad as hell. like im not talking roughhousing or being mad at each other#he was always scarily calm and hyperintelligent he was actually diagnosed with some form of like super high intelligence that#makes kids capable of being really manipulative and thats what he used at every turn. everything was always calculated that was scary#if he was nice to me i would question if he was trying to lure me somewhere to hurt me yk?#anyway. sometimes those old thoughts come back when were hanging out alone but mostly i know hes changed and worked on himself#sorry oversharing oh wow
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