#this guts me the same way

[brielqrson]

mannnn the betrayal helly is going to feel when she finds out mark didn’t see any difference between her and helena…the idea that this guy is supposed to know her not only bc they have a connection but also bc she’s one of the few people he knows in general and he couldn’t tell it wasn’t really her…the horrifying realization that maybe she is subhuman since she can be so easily replaced by her mortal enemy and no one will notice…the devastation at the fact that the only one who really saw her is essentially dead and gone and she’s alone with people she thought were her friends but don’t really know her at all…the absolute hatred she will feel after learning her fucked up alter ego took away her first time being intimate with mark and violated her consent…helly r my beloved you don’t deserve all this

[aarghone]

He's just a gunky goopy lil guy

[andrewknightley]

saw someone saying something like "do you really think veilguard story would be better if you could do evil choices?" and actually yeah. i think if they let us act more like the dreadwolf on the "you are a paralellism to the dreadwolf" game, it would be more significant when the story tells you "you are a bit like him/you are nothing like him" because , thats how you chosed to play it.

[stardustedknuckles]

Listening to the Matron talk about the previous god of death cements for me the idea that Vax was always meant to have more time before she made good on their deal. She didn't mean for him to know the same eternal separation and grief she had taken upon herself - that she had chosen with eyes wide open. He was supposed to have time and happiness with Keyleth. Maybe even time beyond a natural lifespan, though that's probably pushing it a little. To the max of said lifespan at the very least. She didn't want for him - or for keyleth - what she had been through, but her hand was forced, and the only way to give him back in any capacity was to take away what should have been. His fate was to become her champion, yes, but there was time to live first. That fate was changed as a gift. It was all she could allow as the keeper of her domain and arguably, her mortality is what led her to give it at all.

Yes. She hears the sounds of grief and loss unending, unceasing. Death is less than nothing to her and the sum of who she is. She is synonymous to death in many ways, though she refers to herself as its steward and rightfully so.

But I think what sets her apart is that she never grows numb to it. That mask is to hide the fact that all of it still affects her. It's to hide all of it - her loneliness, yes, but also that she feels every death. She hears every cry, every curse, every regret. She stands before every soul individually and does what she must, and she wears the mask so that she can do so without giving anything of her mortal feelings away. The dead do not need to know that she cares, that she understands. Death is not about her. It is about who is standing in front of her waiting to be ushered into the beyond. She is the great reuniter, forever separated from the one she loves.

So yes. I believe that Vax was always meant to have more time, right up until time was the only thing left to barter. His fate was to die after a long and happy life, to go peacefully and take up the mantle at her side when he was done on Exandria.

But that had to change to save the fate of the world, and nobody in this realm or any other knows better the loss and the grief that came about from cutting that time short. Vax wasn't meant to understand it either. She wanted better for him and, by extension, keyleth.

[emilyskinners]

“close to you” by audrey gillispie // dan humphrey & blair waldorf in gossip girl

[some-pers0n]

When the show got the surrealist nightmare episode where the character goes through visceral depictions of their past sins, regrets, and trauma

[esoomris]

fun thing about dredge is like. the familiarity of the unknown. like sure the various Horrors are scary when you first encounter them, but soon enough you learn where they are and how to avoid them and like, sure they’re dangerous and sure you don’t fully comprehend them but like. give them a wide berth you’ll probably be fine. which is exactly the mindset that any person who was hired to go fishing for a living in the eldritch nightmare town would end up in. yeah the anglerfish have come up to the surface and their lures are clearly designed for me but like. i’ve got bills.

[mollywog]

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[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Obsessed with Fyodor’s as yet unknown backstory today. And not just in the ‘I need to know’ way but… idk there’s something about the way he seems to wholeheartedly believe that what he is doing will result in the removal of sin. Thinking about how he doesn’t have a god complex but is instead a follower of what he believes to be god’s will. Thinking about how he places himself as above others anyways by taking their free will from them. I think about how his ability didn’t attack him and instead seems to be working with him. The gem is in his hand, the hands he kills with, the righteous hand? I think about that gakuen profile that I can’t find anymore but I know I saw where his likes are generally good and selfless things like peace, and about how, if this is true, he’s been an extreme idealist all along. I think about how senseless violence, the people who can’t stop killing each other, seem to disgust him. That he wants to cleanse it. That he repeatedly uses the very thing he wants to cleanse as a weapon regardless. I think about him and Dazai being foils and wonder if his plan to remove the sin of ability users includes his own self-destruction. I wonder where his self-assurance in the necessity of his cruelty and the perfection of God’s intentions comes from. I wonder how old he actually is.

As funny as the idea is to me that he’s just like that… is it kind of weird that I hope whatever his deal is ends up being a gut-punch?

[alicenpai]

finally rewatching utena after 8 years - i didn't finish it the 1st time and im determined to finish it now, im about 1/3 of the way in 👁 the series has a lot of themes like identity and idealism, that resonate with me more now that im older. definitely the kind of thing i can see myself drawing... also rewatching kaiba. can't wait for the waterworks!!

[myokk]

Sebastian had a few days leave from duty so he visited Eloise😇😇

[the-sunshine-dims]

One of my favorite things about characters is looking into their psychology and trying to see what in their childhood still impacts them today (i just think it's fascinating)

One con of that though is it just made me consider the fact that the basement gave Rae a complex

Four out of four for the Rae Morningstar polycule were in a sad dreary place

three out of those four were rescued

[suffarustuffaru]

hi i made a tier list of how homophobic rezero characters are

hello in the spirit of valentine's day and the very welcoming community here on rezero tumblr i decided to make this with the help of my lovely mutuals.

[blue-eli]

Ink October day 3: Sophistry

An argument that seems plausible, but is fallacious or misleading, especially one devised deliberately to be so.

[vash-in-the-void]

More of this wonderful fic by @madnessmadness

In reference to a specific scene in chapter 19 (click for better quality)

“I come undone as I am properly cycled for the very first time.

It's like priming only it lasts, it's like the vanilla extract but softer, sustained. and it starts as an unfurling between my legs and hitches up my center through my guts into my chest. Like a can opener. Molten. Like microwaved butter poured into my abdominal cavity as my insides fall out my body, all the way out, wide wide wide an unwinding three fold, outward, down, an unnatural drawing out sensation.”

I took some artistic liberties with the whole scene - I got brain blasted by this image while reading and had to put it to screen

More close ups since idk how to export the image in high quality

[to-shards-you-say]

i dearly love the kaza interlude and could talk about it for hours. but i have no words for what this motif does to me.