#this flashback had me in tears
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Mini Fizziepop Take:
When I say this scene made my heart drop. I didn't even think about how horns being so damaged. And then early in the episode, when he mentions his horns always having been bigger than Blitz's... Guys I think the size of the horns holds some type of importance within the imp cultures and subcultures, like it symbolizes either strength, prosperity, or success, or it may just be something that's aesthetically desired among imps (or maybe just male imps).... imagine losing something like that. Like the importance he places on the size of his horns when he says that, I feel like that might have been a big thing for him to lose in the beginning and considering he won't even let Ozzie see him without his hat, which symbolizes his horns now that his aren't what they should be, it might still be something of an area he's self-conscious about or something he still tends to mourn. I cried watching the episode the first time, but the second time I watched the episode and realized that.... dude that almost took me out again
Listen…it never occurred to me that Fizz WASN’T WEARING JESTER MAKE UP.
His entire face is one massive scar…and that red spot isn’t lipstick…it’s the one spot that didn’t take the full brunt explosion thanks to the clown nose…
I don’t know if people already figured that out but I certainly hadn’t. And Christ the full extent of his injury…
He lost his legs quickly in one go but his arms…omg Fizz 🥺
We already knew he must have lost his legs and arms and horns in the accident but omg seeing it…we were not prepared…
#mini fizziepop take#fizziepop thoughts#fizzaroli helluva boss#spoilers#tw: body horror#helluva boss oops#poor fizz#imp horns#this flashback had me in tears#symbolism
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i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D
#undertale yellow#uty#my art#<- ifg#spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad#that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways#CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO???#i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly#but THE CUTSCENES?!?!?#JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD#ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO#LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER#ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD#BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK.#AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE#n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of#everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS#WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING#AAND THE GROUP HUGG#I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD#AND THE FUCKOGN#THE F U C K I N G#AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD#to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho#and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump#just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece#anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way#this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to#oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig
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Ride 793: The palms of their hands
Pag 1
1: Holding hands with you rival
Pag 2
1: Grasping tightly the gratitude
They're moving forward... to the future!!
Pag 3
1: 1500m left until the mountain line!!
Pag 4
2: You're kidding....
He's coming....?
He's getting closer?
3: So odd, and yet I thought I had left him behind completely
This is “three times”, isn't it?
5: He's coming
And moreover
Pag 5
1: He's doing it while singing!!
Even though Hakogaku's Manami had left him so much behind in a moment...
Mountain King is getting closer!!
He's not giving up!!
The distance is closing!!
That's right ♪ I know ♪ If you do this ♪
Pag 6
1: The princess' wish ♪
2: Will come true ♪
3: Mountain King is amazing!! He's humming a tune!!
I heard of this, Mountain King becomes faster when he hums a tune!!
What, amazing!
The magic singing!!
I'll try singing too next time I'll climb!
4: No
It's not magic
5: For you, that “song”
Pag 7
1: it's a device to activate your power!!
2: Like a car's key
3: To carry people and luggage up a mountain road a vehicle needs both a sturdy body, small parts
4: and a powerful engine
5: For bikes, the “body”
Pag 8
1: Practice, repetition, recovery, determination, challenges- everything
2: piles up!!
3: Only someone who has worked
4: tirelessly, without rest....
Pag 9
1: Could get to this position of the mountain stage on the Inter High's first day!!
2: And he can even keep up with my “three times”!!
4: I see, so that's what it means
You piled everything up during this past year...
Pag 10
1: Ouch
2: Ah, damn, I pressed something weird
Ah....
3: Oh, I have a message
Ah, it's from Sakamichi-kun
Ah... it's from three months ago..
Hehehe, ops
4: What is it, what is it...? “Do you remember? The promise we made on the last day?”
Oh... I remember
“We said 'let's race for the mountain stage on the first day next time'”
Ah.. we did, we did
6: “Are we still on for that?”
8: “Of course”
Pag 11
1: To protect your promise with me!!
Wait, Manami-kun!!
Princess ♪...!!
2: Sakamichi-kun!!
3: Manami-kun!!
Pag 12
1: Mountain King caught up!!
He caught Hakogaku's Manami, who had attacked and opened the gap!!
2: He's not surrendering!!
Neither of them is surrendering!!
1200m left until the mountain line!!
Pag 13
1: Now another race...
2: starts!!
4: They're both taking the curve
5: while colliding against each other!!
Pag 14
1: Aaaaaa
Soooreeee
I won't surrender!!
2: They're still neck and neck!!
3: Amazing!
Pag 15
1: From the inner side!!
2: Sooreeee
Manami fell back for a moment and then forced his way forward!!
They hit each other!!
5: The trees are getting lower again
6: One more time...
Pag 16
1: Let's go, “three times”!!
Pag 17
2: Manami used the wind and accelerated again!!
Incredible, what's that!
3: What about Mountain King!?
Pag 18
1: Musical note shaped wings!?
Pag 19
1: Aaaaaaaa
2: Amazing
3: It's just like you
4: You were so desperate to catch me that you unconsciously used the wind to accelerate
5: Interesting!!
Pag 20
1: Mountain King is clinging to him!! I thought Manami had attacked but
Manami didn't get away!!
He caught up with such a weird acceleration!?
Amazing!
2: Maybe your singing is something more than a key
3: Ahhhh
5: These past three years have been fun
Huh!?
Pag 21
1: I'm glad you were here for the past three years
3: Huh... ah!!
4: Thank you
Pag 22
2: Such a close battle like this, such a once-in-a-lifetime battle like this, it could only have been with you
3: Yeah... yeah!!
“The past three years”....!!
4: No, that, I should be the one saying that, really!!
5: That's right... this is my match against Manami-kun...
Pag 23
1: Let's go until the mountain line
2: Let's give everything we have
3: Let's make the most of every second of the time we have left!!
5: 1km until the end....
Pag 24
1: It's the final climb!!
Pag 25
1: Yeah!!
Pag 26
3: Th-thank god I made it in time...
This... I couldn't miss this today
4: Sangaku said that
5: “It will be the culmination of the past three years”
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#yowamushi pedal manga#ride 793#no im not crying i just have 793 chapter of yowapeda in my eyes ;A;#watanabe please stop reminding me that this manga is gonna end!!! I dont wanna hear it!!#and neither does onoda!! Look at his desperate face when he realizes that that's his last race against manami!!!#excuse meeee ;A; i cant do this#so imma focus on the nice things#like onoda sining that 'the princess' wish comes true' right when he sees manami#bc THATS HIS WISH MANAMI IS HIS WISH AND ITS FINALLY COME TRUE#or how cute Manami is in the flashback page and the way he jumps up to reply to onoda#like the only thing missing there was him adding 'it's a date' to that text#bc thats what it is okay its obvious#honestly i understand why onoda is so scared that this is his last chance with manami#given that he had to wait 3 months for a single text lmao#he's scared he wont hear from manami at all once they wont be able to meet at the ih - and he's right#manami please reply to your phone onoda needs you#im babbling to not focus on the last pages bc theyre making me too emotional and I CANNOT HANDLE THIS#if i think about this manga ending imma melt in a puddle of tears okay#so ill just focus on sansaka being canon for now :')
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So I watched all of Spare Me Your Mercy in the span of 36-ish hours and it lowkey rocked me to my core
#I’ve always been a firm and unwavering supporter of voluntary euthanasia#and Kan’s desperation to provide people with the peaceful and dignified deaths the law denies them resonated so deeply with me#I struggle to understand the perspectives of people who would rather let a person suffer indefinitely#than allow them to die peacefully on their own terms#Kan is just an incredible character and I share his desperation and frustration#his final monologue (and the following flashback to Tew’s mother’s last moments) seriously brought me to tears#Tor’s performance felt so raw and real#this drama had its flaws but it’s DEFINITELY going to stick with me and I’m sure I’ll eventually rewatch#and I do actually want to read the books too#spare me your mercy
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i love u nekoma & karasuno i love you SO MUCH
#can you tell i just watched the dumpster battle movie#[deep breath] AHHHHHHGGGGHHFHFHFJJFJGKG#ALL THE INTERACTIONS WERE SO FUCKING CUTE 😭😭😭😭#baby kuroo… i forgot how much i adored kuroo oh my god. TEARS IN MY EYES#HES SO FUCKING LAME#he was an emotional wreck this movie. had me giggling#his ass wld NOT leave tsukki alone HELP#omg and bokuto yachi interaction <3#HINATA AND INUOKA I LOVE U SO MUCH#kenma…. this truly was the kenhina movie nobody talk to me#and the mini scene of kuroo and daichi pointing at each other. I DIED!! I DIED!!!!#ourghhhhhh I LOVE THEM ALL SO DEARLY#also the detail of nishinoya moving out of the way when he saved the ball was great. loved that#SUGA 😭😭 HE WAS GOING INSANE LMAO I LOVE HIM SO DEARLY#okay tbh i didnt expect the match to end like that but it’s fine. i was immediately distracted by the FEELS#ALSO OMG. GOSHIKI AND TENDOU WERE SO FUNNY LOL#AND AND NEKOMA THIRD YEARS 😭😭😭 KUROO AND YAKU TEARING UP 😭😭 THEM HUGGING EACH OTHER#IM SOOOO ILL IM SO FUCKING ILL#also the kurodai hug and the kuroo thanking tsukki I FEAR I KEEP WINNING#did i mention the kuroken flashbacks. oh my god. they were so CUTE#BABY KUROO TALKING TO KENMA’S DAD AND HE WAS JUST SO SMALL AND ENTHUSIASTIC UGH 🥹😭#wow. i need to die#wait also. giggles. the kenhina knife scene. 10/10 gayest shit in hq#ahhhh i LOVE THEM#NEKOMA SECOND YEARS TOO. FUKUNAGA U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME#anyway u guys shouldve seen me. i was going insane. i was losing it every scene#OH AND THE CREDITS?? kuroshou I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE#‘gotta take a pic to show mika’ this too is kuromikashou or whatever their ship name is#this was the kenhina movie first and the kuroo ship galore movie second /j#anyway i need to go lie down now goodbye
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PLEASE HELP ME COPE WITH FINISHING MY FIRST WATCH THROUGH OF SHAMELESS PLEASE I NEED ALL THE CARE AT THIS VERY MOMENT
#i am SOBBING#franks ending speech actually cured my perpetual state of absentness ive had in my life recently#the fucker said he ‘wished hed partied more’#this show is brilliant#i genuinely didnt expect the ending to be this perfect#actually thats cap i did#also i had spoiled myself and used to be upset hearing he didnt mention fiona#which i do wish he fuckin did#BUT#it makes sense why he didnt#his ending speech was what he wrote to everyone in the house#he saw fiona in flashbacks. he thought the doctor was her and talked about when she was young#that shit KILLED ME#he loved fiona#so#much#aaaaand im tearing up again here i go#gallaghers#shameless#frank gallagher#shameless s11#fiona gallagher#lip gallagher#carl gallagher#ian gallagher#liam gallagher#debbie gallagher
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just remembered i had the craziest dream about that old man…like INCREDIBLY weird and sad. it’s telling me i gotta stop thinking about that sad arc peepaw went down in the early 00’s or else i’ll be haunted by dreams of things that definitely didn’t happen. like, does that era interest me for some stupid reason and i kinda wish i knew more about that time? absolutely im not going to lie and say i don’t…but that dream is probably telling me its for the best that i don’t know. and that’s probably why we’re never getting that book, cause there’s no way he wants to relive all that either way.
#it’s literally haunting me too#like totally forgot about it then i was watching a show that had something to do with that certain situation he was in back then#then it just hit me like a war flashback#like it’s so incredibly stupid to say this (and maybe a bit parasocial) but it almost made me tear up a bit#cause at the end of the day that was an incredibly dark time and he was pretty much alone during that time#i’m literally so dumb for even getting affected by that…i gotta keep reminding myself i don’t know this man#all of that happened before i was even born too…like enough dude shut up#i have a lot of dreams about that band…for reasons i can��t necessarily explain but…#it’s so weird too cause they’re usually nice but weird dreams but this one was so bad i blocked it out for most of the day#then earlier today i was hit by the memory of the dream and went ‘omg that happened!’#literally wrote about it in the notes app and everything (where i keep all my dreams) that’s how bad it was
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I'm still scared in sabaody
This is crazy...
THS IS LIKE 300 CHAPTERS AWAY!!!!! THE SMILE... and mingo being the owner of the slave house for the tenryuubitos... OF COURSE
Look.... luffy enablers vs normal rational people
I was like yeah sure luffy was saying he wanted to become king of the pirates but rayleigh didn't explicitly say roger wanted to become pirate king just that people called him that so I am SURE shanks is saying luffy has the same dream we don't know about as Roger. Which lines up bc luffy said shanks knew of it and then in wano ace tells yamato and he says roger said the same thing and ace also knew of it!!! Which is crazy that it's set up this early but EVERYTHING is being set up here
I need to frame this btw.
Shakky the mother that stepped up.... also new conspiracy theory shakky is Hancock's mother bc she is a fan of luffy and hancock is too.... she was busy being a pirate to take care of hancock so she feels incredibly guilty about what happened to her so shakky either hasn't told her and hancock doesn't know or they have a difficult relationship. Yeah sure whatever. I dont care if rayleigh is her father or not bc as you know I believe in asexual reproduction in one piece thank you.
🧎🏻♀️🧎🏻♀️🧎🏻♀️what can I say
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Here we fucking go again..... I can't do this
Incredible face sanji
SHE KNOWS!!!!!!
Luffy tearing up...... christ
Sanji getting away from his group with nami to save zoro will never get old like jesus christ look at this
CHOPPER 😭😭😭😭😭😭
CRAZYYYYYYY IM GOING CRAZYYYYY
LUFFYYYYYYY NOOOOO
NAMIIIIII NOOOOOOOOOO nami asking for help and luffy not being able to help her this time.... this is so sick and twisted
THE WAY THIS GETS WAY WORSE MAKES ME SICK!!!!!!!!!!! SICK!!!!!! TWISTED!!!!!!!!
#the only loser who doesn't know who rayleigh is is luffy (and his crew) 😭😭#also another giant who thanks the crew.... we got FIVE and another one is still in dressrosa..... they are special#also hachi knows about haki!!!!! and they all could hold it together??? i thot rayleigh coukd target it or smth#also i need law and jean bart lore... how did he knew who he was... what crew did he had.... how did he end up like that... etc#it's so cute that after the captains finish their fight their crew comes to save them akdjsksk killer bepo and sanji....#robin knew who rayleigh was aldjskdjks she was sure the others weren't dubassess too akdhaksnks#now that rayleigh is talking about roger i wonder if we will ever get a flashback of rogers final years(?) and why he decided to have ace..#the blank 100 years that happened 900 years ago.... so thats 900 to 800 years ago... i thought it was 500 to 400 years ago.... welp#i WANT luffy to hear the voices of all living things in the world like roger so bad.... when that happens i will cry so much....#borsalinos faces are so funny... and so detailed too. ALSO APOO GET OUT OF HERE I HATE YOUUUUUUU GET OOOOOUT DIEEEEE#the mere sight of zoro with that stripped shirt running thru the trees.... i can't do it....#franky defending chopper and robin catching franky when he falls... yeah#this is the same level of desperation we got in enies lobby after luffy defeats lucci but cant move.... christ#in the manga sanji doesnt try to hold a pacifista by his ankle and gets dragged off to protect zoro.... sad....#The three white pages after the chapter ends.... no sbs nothing.... luffy hitting his head... and he will be doing shrooms next....#i havent cried with this one this is progress... i mean i have suffered still but alas... progress. saving up tears for marineford#and welp. here we have sabaody done. amazon lily keep me stable for a while please#i know the end......#talking tag#reading one piece#knowing whats coming didnt diminish the anguish. christ.#so funny how you can see me going insane the moment the sabaody incident happens... real
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Bloodline of the Sacred Dragons - Chapter 3-3
The rear of the Pao Train had a small deck, for embarking and disembarking and connecting to the other cars.
Deep in the night while everyone slept soundly, Camallia stood there alone.
As her hair blew away freely with the wind coming from both sides of the train, she enjoyed the scenery of the mountains surrounding the Pao Plains. They were like a pitch-black painting, moving as quietly as the stars in the sky. No matter how unchanging they looked, they were slowly but surely being passed by.
She hadn't started this journey for sightseeing.
Camallia berated herself.
Karin and Karna, and Bleu. She had no intention to meet people like them at the start. That wasn't the reason she had come to this land, was it? Those thoughts had her shaken. Because she also had the feeling deep in her heart that she had met just who she had to meet there. One day, liking it or not, she would find out which one of those thoughts was right. Though she didn't yet know when that day would come…
It's easy to drown in your own thoughts. And also, to tear them apart.
With a small noise, the door opened. Someone came by.
"…There you are."
Karin closed the door behind her.
"Do you need anything from me…?"
Camallia asked her amicably, showing a calm smile under the moonlight.
Karin didn't answer right away.
"It is very late already," Camallia warned her, ignoring how the same could be said for herself.
"I do want something…" Karin finally said after a good time, "I have a request. Don't take Bleu with you."
Her words came out like a dam had burst.
"Why is that?" Camallia asked back politely, watching Karin's face as she spoke so directly.
"He wants to go to Parmecia with you, but as long as you have the Manual you don't need him. We can just give it to you."
"Is that so?" Camallia played dumb. "Would it really be wise to give away his precious Manual to someone else? And then, what would I do about the Dragon Blood Crystal seal? Also, his people are waiting for him in Parmecia. Those are reasons enough for him to come, no? The only reason for him to stay back is some meager, selfish fear surrounding the Manual, and that's it. More importantly, Bleu himself decided to go, so no one should be able to stop him."
"No!"
"Why." She answered sharply to Karin's shout.
"Don't take Bleu away!!"
"What a weird thing to say. When have I taken Bleu away, and from who? Sure, he — Sacred Dragons are interesting. Yes, they are perfect, beautiful, and noble creatures. A simple human can't compare to them. So I want to be with him just a little longer. I want to watch up close how he feels, how he thinks. Those are my upfront intentions right now."
"I want to be by his side, too. I want him with me forever."
"Like a pet? Sacred Dragons aren't the kind of creature for that."
"No! Of course that's not what I mean!"
"No, I'm right. Sacred Dragons don't exist for your entertainment."
Karin couldn't find the words against Camallia's scathing criticism.
"He's not yours."
"And not yours either. What are you to Bleu, anyway? A mother? Sister? Or maybe, a lover…?"
Camallia knew she was tormenting her, but even so, she couldn't stop herself from asking.
"…A friend. Yes, a precious friend."
Maybe Karin didn't know yet what name to put to her feelings. Maybe humans were coward and weak creatures.
"Yes. Of course. There shouldn't be any romantic feelings between different species after all. I shouldn't fuss over what you two look like together. As a human, it doesn't concern me."
To Camallia, that was a terrible thing to say. Was there any bond more powerful and mysterious than love in this world? Someone had been asking that kind of question to the stars and wind countless times until just now.
It suddenly occurred to Camallia that she might have had some Sacred Dragon blood mixed in herself. The memories of healing Bleu's wounds came back vividly in her mind.
"Protecting someone and setting someone free are not the same thing. All you're doing is tempting him to run away."
"Wrong. Bleu is bewitched by that Manual. And you drove him to that."
"Oh my, really? I shouldn't have that kind of power. But, if he's really obsessed with the Manual, then I want to see with my own eyes what he'll do when everything is over…"
Camallia began to walk away, stopping by Karin's side as she had her head down.
"They grow up fast, don't they?" She whispered in Karin's ear, and passed her by.
Pushing the door open, Camallia entered back in the train. Closing the door, the darkness of the night and Karin within it both disappeared from her sight.
>To next part
Translation notes:
I hope the feeling came across through the translation so far, but to spell it out: Camallia usual has the most formal speech out of all characters. The moment Karin start shouting at her here, she basically drops it altogether. She's in no way rude, but far more casual and assertive.
Camallia's little monologue about love is about romantic feelings specifically, she uses the same wording as Karin does right before, I just felt it would sound very clunky in that line.
#shining series#shining force#shining force 2#bloodline of the sacred dragons#shining force novel translation#sf karin#do you feel the monkey paw here? i would love to see her being called out so epically here#but since bleu is now written like shit it doesn't hit the same#it's more like slotting her into the perfectly supportive and sacrificial girlfriend role#i shouldn't have seen it coming. nonetheless still sucks#sfbotsd camallia#'It's easy to drown in your own thoughts. And also to tear them apart.' ME WHEN I'M NORMAL#how do you want me to care about generic heterosexual drama when there's stuff like this? give me more camallia please#there's so much wrong with her#also why does she flashbacks to drinking his blood in that part lol??? if it had been when she mentioned the seal i'd understand but#girl just checked out of the drama lmao#anyway. next part is a lot more shining force. it has like the greatest recurring element ever#it will be cool look forward to it
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okay time to go lay down and hope we don't fuck up our sleep schedule even more and maybe if I manage not to accidentally fall asleep and if we actually manage to have the energy and not be in too much pain we can do something fun afterwards
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#sorry for venting so much and being so pissed off and upset at everything over the last like 24 hours or so#we've been in a lot of pain and have been constantly shaky and dizzy and out of breath and then we had a seizure#and I had to deal with a bunch of flashbacks and it's made it really hard to regulate our emotions#or handle triggers that we might be able to brush off or distract ourselves from normally#I almost burst into tears in the kitchen earlier because I got too dizzy to grab the laundry out of the washing machine#and had to go sit down for a while because being stood for a few minutes made me so out of breathe and lightheaded#and brain foggy that I couldn't speak properly (as in couldn't form a sentence but also couldn't catch my breath enough to get words out)#for something like half an hour#most of the day actually hasn't been too bad mentally but then there have been points where we just felt abysmally shit#so it's been kind of an emotional rollercoaster
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#my brother sending me photos of my entire family spending the holiday together w no commentary whatsoever#makes me foam at the fucking mouth bc its crystal fucking clear that literally anything i say will be gauged for reaction&judged on a scale#of 'is she over it? has she finally come to her senses? is she still throwing this fit?'#&yet somehow im the one in the wrong even though standing on my principles has cost me fucking everything#but sure yeah its my parents who still get to spend time w everyone who are really the victims here.#i get to choose between having no family&letting trash back into my life but They are the ones whose hurt Really matters here.#glad they all got to spend christmas together.#glad that after everything i had to do in my life for their fucking family they all get to do family vacays now#bc apparently i am the one struggling the most financially in the family right now#a fact that tears my soul apart in ways i cannot even describe.#there are so many different types of fury warring in me right now lmao. i love the holidays season. i hate the holiday season.#photos of my parents smiling feel like my own personal ghosts of christmas past.#its like i can hear the screaming&shit breaking&hands being thrown all over the fucking place like its all happening in the other room. ♡#who wouldve thought my mom smiling would give me ptsd flashbacks lmao.
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Finishing reading the orv novel and then scraping through fics in order to heal but then you get jumpscared by post-epilogue fics with Kim Dokja as the pov character but your an idiot that doesn't read or exclude any tags at all, say, for example: phychological horror. So instead of healing you just get traumatized again :)
#you know what fics im talking about#they are either in 49's or 51's pov either way it is not gonna end well for me#the fandom just tortures itself willingly at this point#they're all so amazingly written too 😭😭 bish are you satisfied?? do you revel in my tears what even-#orv#im so glad the closest subway to me is like two cities over so i dont need to deal with horror flashbacks of#kdj sitting in a subway all alone. breaking down because he had another realistic too good to be true dream-
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Me: oh wow, i unlocked this archon quest called "Yaksha's Wish," lemme do it for a quick moment *doing the Nameless Yaksha quest without really thinking much of it*
Me at the end:
#nameless yaksha#yaksha's wish#genshin Xiao#genshin impact#world quests#i came here for a good time so why am i crying tears of sorrow#my worst fear in life is being stuck inna cave#the first time i watching the Descent i could not sleep for weeks#so being stuck in the chasm was juat giving me flashbacks of that movie lmaooo#and the plot was so effin sad and painful like#i cant think of a worse way to go than being stuck deep inside a supernatural cave with no hope of getting out#the treveler and everyone is lucky they got each other as party members#cuz had it been me i would have lost my shit way early in the quest lmao
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So happy that instead of terrorists and war criminals I decided to simp for family abusers. Now my love for my babygirls won't be screwed over by real-life experiences
#looks at roy and lets out a small tear#i will always love you#VERY funny post knowing that sometimes I would fantasize about Endy too realistically and it gave me flashbacks to my ex#I had to be like 😟 bitch the fuck STAHP#can I let out an even more awful joke and say that everything is still ahead#so happy my fiance ain't reading my tumblr like ever#he was all like I want you to have private spaces just for yourself#Lololol#borderline shitposting
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Same. I sincerely believe the introduction of their mother is the worst scene in season 2 so far, not only because the scene itself is pretty bad, it makes very little sense in context (in terms of the characters emotional states) and retrospectively harms S1Act1.
I fucking hate this, what do you MEAN it explains it, did Season 1 not already explain it?? Did Season 1 not make you understand it already?? Did Season 1 not focus on Vander's corpse and the emotions on Silco's face when Powder tells him Vi left her? Did you not get that Silco empathized with her because he knows how it feels to be abandoned by an older sibling? Did he not spend the entire season comparing Vi to Vander and his past to Jinx's? Were there not already multiple scenes depicting Silco and Jinx's bond and how he came to fiercely love her after years of taking care of her?? You stilI needed another hamfisted justification for his love for her?? He needed to be her godfather and friends with her dead mother for you to understand Season 1? I despise takes like this so muchhh
#s1act1 is my fav bit of arcane#and the flashback undid silco and vander as characters in 2 minutes flat#not to mention#did the mum need to be there?? what is her purpose??? the flashback is supposed to be vander rediscovering and reconciling#his past self and the love for his family#but we only get the love for his kids framed via using the mother as a proxy?#weren't these oprhaned kids lovable enough as strangers#did he suddenly need to have known them before?#same for silco#because they wanted to force that dumb powder/jinx 'accidentally ruining family' theme so hard on him they had to bring him back#and assassinate his character too while they're at it#at least arcane is consistent and does it in two shots#fucking hell i hate these changes so much#tbh the focus on these parallelism and i'm call it the 'storytelling aesthetic' is tearing apart the plot and it's really obvious#i have no idea what was going on in the writers room that we got two extensive vander flashbacks only one of which was kinda about him#the other introducing a character no one needed to reframe already perfectly wrapped up story beats#but no context on why jayce suddenly wants to kill viktor#oh we get implications#like with ekko and jinx#we get implications and vibes#and ekko and jinx kind of work in that one ep (and bc their relationship is never relevant again but that's a diff rant)#frankly the writers priorities this season are driving me up a wall#like hey maybe you wouldn't have to keep introducing new characters if you kept the ones you have around#and maybe a plot that doesn't have time/space for half it's main cast and rather has them out of the way needs some more work#i'm sorry for the tag spam#i am chidi anagonye pointing at the mum flashback muttering 'this. this broke me. i'm done'#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane s2 spoilers
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Love when media lets their main characters fail. And not the pathetic makes you want to wrap them in a blanket failure. But a failure borne through pain and suffering as they watch everything they were trying to protect crumble. A failure that hurts. A failure that feels hopeless. A failure that has them grit their teeth and push back tears as they desperately cling to hope that maybe, just maybe, if they try hard enough they can win
#man this season finale got me fucked bro#it's a literal children's show rated TV-Y7#but they do such a good job of showing things like self doubt and imposter syndrome. and even things like anxiety as a result of fear#one of the side characters straight up has ptsd and you don't really know until he has a flashback#and while he lost it against a bad guy. they show the pain and sadness he feels at succumbing the flashback so violently#idk. maybe this stuff caught me so off guard I'm thinking too deep#but like man. just man#shoulda known the finale would be insane when they had the reoccurring villain tear up and show fear when mc destroyed her big weapon#or when they straight implied that reoccurring villain's lackeys were fucking killed#like it's still a young kid's show so they bounce back p fast and lean into the exaggeration comedy#but they still had mc knowing he was fighting a losing battle and struggle through the terror of it#i think it's BECAUSE it's usually so light hearted and jokey that the seriousness hit so hard#kake scraps
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