#this episode has broken me

[smallblueandloud]

i was going to go back to rewriting 13 meets martha but i kind of can't think about writing dwfic without thinking about rogue.

[tipsyjaehyun]

Joke has always been a silent crier.

Maybe it's because of his childhood trauma, growing up in a family where crying would be seen as a weakness and another thing to be taunted about, but he always puts on a brave facade in front of the world and never lets anyone see his tears. He always tries to cover his mouth to silence his sobs.

In ep 2, when he thought that the sweet boy who believed in all the goodness in world was long gone, he shed a silent tear.

In ep 7, when he had his heart broken, he tried to fake a smile for grandma. It was later when he was alone that he let his tears out.

Even in this episode, at the hospital, though he breaks down, he tries to silence his sobs and control his tears.

So, imagine the pain this man is going through when he literally lies down on the floor and starts sobbing inconsolably. He's breathless and has to be taken care of by Aran and Hoy.

[olivier-with-a-sweater]

And when I hear you calling

Like you were always there

I rise until I'm hanging

In the middle of the air

And when I hear you calling

I split like I'm a snake

With golden light like fingers

And then I start to break

Into a billion pieces

Oh, I shatter into constellations

Like I've never been more here

Like I completely disappear

I'm nothingness, but shining

And everywhere at once

I'm everything and everyone who is or ever was

And You're nothingness, but shining

And everywhere at once

You're everything, we're everyone who is or ever was, forever

✨️⭐️🏡

[whumpypepsigal]

Chicago Med s09e10: “Probably not a tension pneumothorax.” — “Hemo pneumo. You're bleeding into your chest.”

[lambmotifz]

“sam left for college because he was secretly pining for dean” is honestly such a bad faith take on his character and i’ll never understand why it’s a majorly accepted headcanon. the show made it clear several times that sam wanted to get away from john and dean because of his desire for safety and freedom, he never felt safe in his family, and he couldn’t accept and make hunting his lifestyle (”no, i’m not like you. this is not going to be my life”). sam is allowed to want a separate life from dean and be his own person. it’s dean’s inability to accept it what pushes sam away from him and makes their dynamic so complex & tragic

[this-blog-needs-a-new-name]

Get ready for Reverse with Me ❤️‍🩹

[holycartoonwarrior]

Cant stop thinking abt Marcia. about the wake and the funeral, how gross everyone treated her from start to bitter end. And she went out of her way to be kind to shiv in her very last scene, and while she is so WOW for taking the high road…..that would NOT have been me.

But I guess that hurt shiv the most lmao. she was fully braced for some cutting remark and Marcia doesn’t give it to her. Cuz Marcia is done. Shiv cannot comprehend why she chooses to be gentle and empathetic for once because she is so full of resentment and she assumes Marcia is the same. She expects Marcia to be an enemy, it’s easy. It’s something that’s safe and it’s that mentality her own father leans into to provide false loyalty in the episode vaulter. But Marcia only sees her as a broken sad child forever chasing a man whose approval was on a whim. She isn’t even worth contempt. And shiv doesn’t know if she should be angry sad or confused.

[kitschyclown]

diversity win! the straights are just as tragic as the gays!

[starjunkyard]

"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

[unstablecryptid]

All of Us Strangers moodboard

[s0fter-sin]

what up it's been 12 years and i'm still pissed there was no consequence to dean being in constant survival mode and fighting 24/7 in purgatory

what do you mean he didn't become a god at hand to hand combat? what do you mean he could still be jumped by random ass demons?

he was - at best - in a constant in-between state meaning he didn't get hungry or tired but that also means he didn’t sleep for a year and was constantly being hunted by hundreds of thousands of monsters that want to eat him specifically, while actively searching for cas

OR he was in a completely normal state meaning he was constantly fighting starvation and exhaustion while all of that was still happening!! it's not like there's much to scavenge in monster heaven!! he would’ve been on the verge of dying for a year!!!

then he comes back and he's just exactly the same? the same level of fighting skill he's always had? if not slightly worse for some reason?? what do you mean he couldn't kill anything he came across with his eyes closed when it's what he's been doing EVERY DAY FOR A YEAR???

it's always been one of the flaws of a show running for so long that after like s6 they never seemed to be getting better? they still got the shit kicked out of them by demons and ghosts and what have you and instead of finding obscure rituals they just got A Better Gun™️

both sam and dean are the peak of what hunters can be; they've been trained to hunt and kill things bigger and stronger than them since they were children, so what do you mean they still get the shit kicked out of them so often? was it just to show how strong monsters are? that even with their level of experience and skill, they're still outmatched?

(or do you just need a way to keep up the tension cough cough what who said that)

but you can't have dean who's been trained to be an elite soldier Since He Was Four Years Old go into a 360 combat scenario for an entire year - a good chunk of which he was completely by himself - then say he didn't improve his combat skills At All

and not even just combat, his senses would've been off the charts!! there was nothing but ambient forest noise and growling, his hearing would've gotten so sharp, it was darker so his night vision would ve been insane and he should've been able to feel a monster coming a mile away after constantly being on guard

post purgatory dean had the opportunity to be a completely different beast to anything we'd ever seen before, to be a completely different kind of traumatised from all of his other trauma

hell broke him but purgatory should've broken and rebuilt him into something Terrifying

[kineticallyanywhere]

"I shouldn't take up all the emotional space"

Normal I am BEGGING you to take up emotional space

[naydralikessoup]

have any of you seen id: invaded. have any of you seen id: invaded. have any of you seen id: invaded. have any of you seen id: invaded. have any of you seen id: invaded

show of all time

[tessellated-sunl1ght]

[DOCTOR WHO “THE GIGGLE” SPOILERS]

I never realized how much I needed to see Ncuti Gatwa lovingly hugging David Tennant until now, I am in fucking SHAMBLES

[alexthemacaronian]

I just sent my bsf like 6 minutes worth of ii16 yapping over vms, Eden if you see this I'm so sorry 😭😭

[bluastro-yellow]

stop making complex convoluted overarching plots that become useless the moment they end. put your characters in the decades-long traffic jam again