#this doesnt even mention my language learning shit

[impzone]

i need to learn composition so i can make better illustrations and i need to find new coloring styles so i can make my style have more cohesion and i need to learn graphic design to make cooler compositions and i want to give comics another try and i need to keep working on my site so i can get better at it and i need to make more 3D models and i need to make a game again and i need to write for my setting and worldbuild and i havent made music in so long and and and and and

[complete-clownery]

I just want them to be friends 🐵

Btw i'm watching the whole series rn, after episode 14 I have a vague idea of whats going on but I dont understand a word, not to mention I sped the whole thing up to get it over quicker so its funny af

~SPOILER~

But yeah so far im at episode 30 and ik it doesnt make a whole lot of sense since we didn't see Jade Rabbit and Macaque interact that much, but in my head in the begining of the series they became really good friends after the "ears incident", but after Wukong left, bc of Macaque declinening mental health they just sowly fell further and further appart and jade rabbit didn't understand why was this and could only see her friend's worsening condition and do nothing about it (and this happened in thd course of 7 years cuz even tho in the series it doesnt seem that long in the book Wukong was away for 7 years, and I'd like to think thats the case here too)((I mean maybe a bit longer than 7 years cuz there was also that vilage he spent maybe 5(???) years in learning human behavior and language but im too lazy to search it out of my book, so +/- 10 years))

Also I think even tho Macaque was mad and was a jelous little bitch, Wukong leaving only made things worse for him, feeling betrayed even more and left behind on top of all that other shit that was going on inside his head

Its so funny to me how every Six Eared Macaque adaptation is getting majorly fucked up (he got posessed in both series lmfao)

Oh and obviously I have transed their gender, I think maybe nobody noticed or educated them (cuz (other head canon) he was adopted by the monkey clan since in the original book (jttw) hes also a celestial primate just like the stone monkey, without parents) so everyone thougt they were a boy for some reason, but everyone was really suprised after puberty began to hit Macaque

Tho that didn't made the clan treat him differently cuz nobody really cared and Macaque doesnt give a flying fuck about it either

I also think it would be funny, when Wukong returned he would notice Macaques chest and just casualy ask him how did he got those (he wasnt really educated on the subhect either) and Macaque would be like: "no idea. You didn't get any?" and both of them would be really confused

Later Jade Rabbit gave them a little lesson about it

So yeah even tho I dont understand this serie at all i think its cool af, enjoying it a lot 😎👍

[4thenookie]

Hi hi i heard you wanted some headcanons!! As always this is /lh, not meant to be taken that seriously, agree to disagree, yada yada all that good jazz lmao. Most of them are pretty crack-y in nature as well, they're just meant for fun lol. And with that, I'll compile my miles long headcanon list into (mostly) sorted by character for everyone's convenience lmao

- starting off strong with trans EJ! Idk why but do headcanons really need a reason? (I do know why) (i like to make my blorbos suffer 💖) (and also [diverges your neuros] [transes your genders] [homos your sexuals]). Also biromantic asexual king

- more EJ because he's THE blorbo. Boy is british asf and he knows BSL and is learning ASL. Touch averse as well. I feel like EJ would actually be a decent if not great cook.

- EJ purring like a cat when he's content/happy? I think yes! Also has a tail with one of those tail tuft thingies? Kinda like lions if you know what i mean. And the pointy ears (peak character design yaknow)

- moving on. I feel like Jeff knows how to play an instrument. Probably electric guitar. He also has like a bajillion band t-shirts. Jeff also likes to take long, hot showers but hates to comb his hair lol

- while Brian cooks food so bad/raw it could as well just still be alive, Toby is either a great cook or a disaster in the kitchen with seemingly no indicator for which one it's going to be on any given day. I'm talking managing to burn a pot of water one day and cooking a michelen star worthy meal the next.

- Kagekao is actually fluent in English and speaks and understands it perfectly, he just refuses to speak it. He takes great amusement in watching other people lose their minds over this

- speaking of languages, i feel like Toby would be bilingual if not multilingual. He speaks English and German, maybe even Spanish if we're going the multilingual route

- also. Oh my god. The generational difference between BEN "memelord who quotes vines like there's no tomorrow" Drowned and Slenderman is just. I cant stop laughing thinking about it. Any given conversation between these two is just a gamble on who is going to lose it first

- BRVR is kinds Lost Silver's pet but also not really? Like he just kinda goes wherever but Lost Silver mainly takes care of him

- LJ he/it truther

- Me and a friend came up with this which probably explains why it is cracky as fuck but hear me out. Jeff as a makeup artist. He made Slender look like Beyonce once. No one knows how he did it and how he's not dead (the answer, as my friend said, is "no one can hate Beyonce")

- i feel like Toby, BEN, and Jeff would be like. The chaos trio. God knows what will happen when you put the three of then alone in a room together

- i also feel like Brian sunburns really easily.

- Tim is one of those dads that wants to leave in the middle of the night for road trips / holidays to avoid the traffic jams

Hope this makes even a bit of sense and i hope you enjoyed whatever my brain spewed at me lol if u ever wanna share more headcanons or talk about blorbos or share character slander (looking at Brian and LJ (affectionate)) feel free to dm me!! (I dont mind i promise lol /lh)

hi!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg these are so so so real thank you for sharing them with me!!!! ill go into some more detail under the cut :)

to be honest, i can kinda see trans ej being real now that you mention it, ill definitely think about that a lot!! and i also hc him as asexual!!!! :)

im british and i claim ej as one of us lmaooo

i absolutely agree w the purring thing!!! i think ej does a lot of cat things idk :)))) i love all of your ej headcanons!!!

tbh i can see jeff either playing electric guitar like you said or maybe drums?? just any instrument he can go ham on when hes mad lmao

in my hc he has the worst case of chronic greasy hair and he doesnt want to do anything about it

cooking hcs are so real brian can NOT cook!!!!!!! toby will either serve you some 5 star gourmet shit or some rotten takeout he found during a dumpster dive

omg omg omg I hardly see anybody talk about kagekao!!!!!! i totally agree he would do that lmaooo

idk if its canon or not but i read somewhere that tobys German so i totally agree that hed be bilingual!!!

oh my god BEN whos native language is memes meets grandpa slendy that would be so funny

in 4 words youve converted me into a fellow he/it LJ truther!!!! could we consider he/it ej too? maybe??

ik you said it was a cracky hc but i can actually kinda see jeff being good at makeup??? like one of those things where he tries it once and it's the most drop dead gorgeous makeup look you've EVER seen and everyones like how did you do that

toby BEN and jeff are an absolute riot when rheyre together lmao

omg i never thought about it but brian sunburning super easy is so real!! and in summer he always wears sunglasses so he has like an unburnt patch on his face where his sunglasses were yk??

OMG YES LMAOOOOO "guys get up our flights in 10 hours WE'RE GONNA BE LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" he would 100% have a checklist or 3

thank you so much for sharing these with me!! i hope you dont mind me adding my own thoughts lol but theyre so much fun to think about!!!! if you ever wanna slander lj and brian with someone feel free to dm me lmao!!!!!! take care <33333

[megabuild]

this was like a five minute doodle just to get the concept down but ive been thinkin about greggory..

obvious full disclaimer him being more human shaped is inspired by qsmp fanarts ofc. pushes that out of the way

ive talked a little about nl!olipix here and here but tldr oli ""dies"" at the end of empires and runs away and leaves olipelago to greggory. pixelle gets nothing in his will btw which he doesnt really care about on like a physical level because hes more upset about his boyfriend fucking dying but there is a part that stings that hes not even mentioned in the will despite them being so close he feels a little like oh so did that not mean anything to you.. but thags his issue.

the most immediate problem is that greggory is like not competent enough to live alone or maintain the olipelago. sorry. he's still in his shell at this point and like six months old tops he's baby. pixelle was already lowkey his parent because he babysat and hung out with oli a lot so it sort of happens naturally.. plus as a dragon its honestly a bit more like a slightly higher maintenance cat. who can breathe fire once hes out of the shell a couple months down the line. thats scary.

pix wraps up work on the ancient capital and moves back to the city to continue his previous job but things don't work out for .. various reasons. he's literally still like part ghost. but when he moves he takes greggory with him ofc because like he can't leave him alone... pix doesn't actually like children he was really bad with hermes but gregg grows on him. maybe in part because he's not really a child he's a dragon like i said. until. har har.

at about a year old greggory starts mimicking the humans around him a lot better than he was before. like. he starts walking on two legs. and at first pixelle is like lol how cute and then he seriouses because oh shit what the fuck raising dragons is sort of not really that common especially not in this sort of environment. on the rare occasions they've been tamed before they've been wiled beasts and this is an ender dragon which is nigh unheard of. (Violet from arc 1 still exists but is a very difficult and separate case that doesn't apply.) so suddenly instead of a little kittycat this thang is trying to walk and grab things with his little claw hands and vocalising (he doesn't have vocal chords capable of human speech but he does little grunts and stuff it's cute.) pixelle is equal parts fascinated from a scholarly pov but also like oh my god i am not qualified at all for this what the fuuuck

this is the point that makes pixelle sit up and go ok i need to unghost myself because i cant. raise my weird son like this. (his entire ghost thing is a weird metaphor for depression and trauma and grief because all the ghosts in aoyuer are about that. so yea) and then him and greggory go do that and its a whole thing i wont get into but it leads into him entering the land that new life is set in and meeting oli again who he had kind of figured out was alive and was trying to track down but didnt expect it to happen here. and so begins their divorce arc

fun notes though: pixelle calls greggory omelette sometimes as a cute nickname! he suggested that as a name when he was still in his egg. sort of mean. also since gregg can't speak english pix learns and then teaches him sign language ^_^ at the start of new life / arc 3 he's only a basic communicator but can get his point across usually.

oli is by no means a bad dad he's just not a great one either. it's clear he tries very hard and he does love gregg. part of the reason he leaves him is BECAUSE he loves him and he recognises he's not really able to raise him and it would be unfair to drag him along wherever he plans on going post empires... but that doesn't make it right etc etc. Hes aware of that too and feels generally awful about the whole thing... His and greggorys relationship is weird and strained at the start but he tries by god does he try. And they make it work eventually. They have to get through the horrors first though.

[twsthc]

octavinelle hcs and projections 🦑🦈

⚠️ warnings: self harm, restrictive eating disorders, self destructive behavior below the cut! there are wholesome hcs too i swear

last updated: nov 10, 2023

collective headcanon: jade and azul learned the common language from textbooks (which is why they talk formally), but floyd learned from listening to sailors speak.

╰ underwater merfolk communicate through clicks + other sounds

FLOYD LEECH !! 🦈🫧

🇯🇵🇧🇧🌺 UNLABLED + GENDERFLUID (he/any)

APPEARANCE HCS:

floyd is mixed with black and tan (#D9AD91- Salmon Sand in the winter)

i think he has really large freckles across his body. i hc him to be bajan because this is the species of moray i hc the tweels to be

╰ i also made a deranged twitter thread about this

floyd has a shit ton of scars and even bite marks from old "play fights"

his two rows of moray teeth manifested in his human form as extra overgrown teeth. he doesn't mind because he thinks they look cool

in merform, both he and jade have two sets of teeth and a pharyngeal jaw

RANDOM HCS:

floyd is 1 inch taller than jade and makes sure jade knows it

bites his tongue and the inside of his cheek on purpose and on accident

she has been banned from painting her nails or doing anything messy other than cooking inside of the lounge ever since The Incident.

floyd has ataxia symptoms on land and is a part-time cane user

has severe mamas boy syndrome and will freak out if he cant talk to her at the end of each week about what he accomplished (didnt bite anyone for the WHOLE day)

he thinks its so cool you can put colors in your hair and on your face above water (why i think he'd be into decora and scene)

enjoys okinawan gyaru styles and traditional hawaiian culture/fashion also

it has BPD, GAD, and separation anxiety!!!

triggering content ahead !!

has been a "delinquent" for half his life and has run away a few times

during his depressive episodes he'll forget to eat for days on end

he can also be self destructive during these episodes (self harm)

he can also get really quiet and it scares the shit out of azul (jade is used to it)

gets really (and reasonably) upset when people other than jade or azul mention his mood swings negatively because he's sensitive about it

channels his anger into cooking rather than fighting or cutting

AZUL ASHENGROTTO !! 🐙⛵

🇮🇹🇭🇹🌺 BISEXUAL INTERSEX + TRANSFEM (she/he)

APPEARANCE HCS:

AZUL IS FAT AND HAS BREAST TISSUE (my azul hc art for reference)

in my head she looks like mama morton from the chicago musical

i base azul off of the octopus hawaiiensis, thus the vitiligo

he has longer front teeth and sharper teeth, resembling an octopus beak

rectangular pupils

has splatoon hair 🔥

RANDOM HCS:

i am a drag queen azul believer. one of his dreams is to preform in the lounge

extremely double jointed/a contortionist because. octopus.

doesnt make food in the lounge anymore because its so spicy and ethnic it started scaring the pomefiore customers </3 its not her fault shes haitian...

has severe claudication/phantom limb pains and is a part-time wheelchair user, sometimes she uses a cane. book 6 was really taxing on her legs

GAD, ASPD, and gender dysphoria

triggering content ahead !!

has a restrictive eating disorder

back at his moms restaurant, he would purge after being a taste tester

used to self harm when she was younger but is years clean now!

JADE LEECH !! 🐬🌊

🇯🇵🇧🇧🌺 ASEXUAL AROMANTIC + AGENDER (they/he)

APPEARANCE HCS:

pretty similar if not the same as floyd's

jade is a bit paler than floyd despite going outside more (theyre anemic)

i think his makeup and fashion styles interchange at breakneck speeds

monday evil emo ecopunk , tuesday dainty fairy mushroom enjoyer (still evil)

shaved eyebrows

RANDOM HCS:

similarly to floyd, they use a lot of petnames, but normal ones

╰ instead of "goldfishie," he might call riddle dear/honey

also has extra overgrown teeth in human form but hes self-conscious about it

has milder symptoms of ataxia, also a part-time cane user

really good listener and a really good talker. theyll go on hour long rants about what he found on his daily trek, a new recipe he tried, etc

has a lot of random hobbies! the main ones are swimming, stamp collecting, going on walks, and journaling/scrapbooking

owns those DIY jar terrariums as well as a few mini-aquariums

also owns multiple exotic pets/bugs! i think he owns leeche

GAD and autism. his special interests are botony and wildlife

[acaciapines]

hiiiiiii bestie hiiiii hiiiiiii hiiii <3

no one else is asking so I will take one for the team. well maybe someone has asked but I will ask again if not. can you please tell us abt how kris and noelle meet in the drk au, and noelle’s uh. reaction to seeing dess again when she thought dess was dead? and ig by extension, kris. not sure if this is getting into spoiler territory so feel free not to answer or be as vague as you want :p

am also interested in hearing more abt ralsei and susie in this au. Please

have we talked abt this a bit? definitely. but the ppl on tumblr should hear it also and I like hearing abt it smile

hii hi hi <3

i do not know how much of this will be new for you but it will be new for everyone else so LETS GO!!!

NOELLE AND KRIS

okay so. i think i've mentioned this in other posts before, but the whole event that starts off everyone finding out dess and kris arent actually dead is that kris dives into a dark world! theyre trying to close a dark world like dess does, because they think that maybe!! that way!! dess will come back and be proud of them and love them and then she wont leave so much! because kris can close dark worlds too, see? now they can go with her!

they tell this to frisk, swear frisk to secrecy, and then! vanish lol they're Gone. the way dark worlds work here also isnt fully solid but im treating them sort of like mystery dungeons in pmd, so they dont fully follow the laws of like, physics and the like which means that even tho where kris lives is Very Far from hometown, noelle, susie, and ralsei are still able to get to the same dark world from hometown!

do not ask me what this dark world is like. i have No Idea. probably somewhat inspired by kris's life but i have not gone so far as to plot it out lol. the important part is that susie and ralsei split off from noelle (like in cyber city) and so noelle ends up running into kris, who has not only gotten lost but is in WAY over their head lol, so she saves them and kris begrudgingly agrees to stick with her. they totally couldve done this on their own. theyre sticking with noelle for her own safety. and noelle is just like yeah sure lol.

while traveling through the dark world together, noelle and kris have no idea who the other is! not only do they not really remember each other (noelle has a few vague memories, kris was even younger when dess took them so they dont remember anything at all), but they've both grown up a lot and in kris's case are fully presenting as a monster. they bond a bit over both being deer-monsters!

they cant fully communicate, tho...kris would be nonverbal throughout this entire trip and since noelle never grew up with kris she doesnt know monster sign language. she might remember a few words from her childhood but not enough to understand kris and even if she did she is a stranger so kris wouldnt sign OR speak to her anyways lol. but they do help each other out and close the dark world together! they come out in hometown and noelle promises to help kris find their parent cause they did Not mean to come here lol, and that is when! she checks her phone and shes gotten a text from toriel about a missing kid, and she's like....hey so uh i think your parent might actually be at my house lol wanna come by.

(while kris was stuck in the dark world, frisk got Very Worried and did eventually spill everything to chara, and thats how chara and frisk end up in hometown desperately trying to find kris! they come across toriel who helps them out and thats why they're at the holiday-dreemurr house).

and so things are all fun and fine until noelle and kris get back to noelle's house, and go inside, and kris is reunited with chara, and when that happens toriel sees this child and is like. holy shit. is that my dead kid.

and the fic would end there lol! (in my head this is a series, so, it would span multiple fics) another fun thing is this is the moment where noelle learns kris's name--so it wont really be a surprise for the audience cause i feel like most people could catch on that this is kris (remember up til this point we only follow noelle and the hometown crew, so we think dess and kris are dead), but if you didnt...

NOELLE AND DESS

honestly i dont know how noelle would react... i feel like she wouldnt have as big a response as everyone else! to her dess is less a person and more like, the story she's told as to why she cant do all the same things her peers do, why her mom + stepmom are so overprotective, why asriel stayed behind instead of going to college...dess loves noelle but noelle is like literally who are you. so when dess tries to like, bond with noelle, noelle doesnt want this...she grew up without a sister and that bond isnt going to form again! she doesnt know who this woman is!

its. very hard for dess needless to say. and for kris who sees how much dess is investing in noelle and theyre just like. okay well why was she never like that with me. which then leads to tensions between noelle and kris, which pushes kris to make some Very Bad Choices, and and and. plot <3

RALSEI AND SUSIE

actually the relationship ive thought about the least if im being honest. but i was talking about them to you last night and i think that like...there IS a level of antagonism that doesnt exist in deltarune canon. ralsei is trying to hard to stick to the prophecy, and when susie in this story's version of chapter one ignores it to be a villain with lancer, that hits A LOT HARDER in a world where from the very start the prophecy is being broken (since its two monsters who fall lol)

plus ralsei is also dealing with a lot of feelings shes never felt before--jealously, envy, not being able to just ignore her dysphoria anymore...shes a lot more aware of her crush on noelle and so noelle having a crush on susie isnt helping...

LIKE THEY ARE FRIENDS i think ralsei feels a LOT of guilt about all of this, and when its just her and susie things are good! they make sense!!! susie makes her wanna BE things wanna feel like maybe these things she feels are okay...but then everything always comes crashing down and its. bad again.

annnnnd thats all i think!! as always anybody can ask for follow ups. i'll spoil this entire au lol im sure things will change as i write it and besides. this is gonna take A While so when i do post it in like 2026 yall wont remember what i said here lol.

[deansnotstraight]

Bucky Barnes fic recs request

I really don't post about avengers in general/winter soldier in particular like, at all, despite the fact that that is very much my primary fandom in terms of fics read? so uh.

in honor of the anniversary does anyone have any bucky recovery fics to recommend? I have been reading so many lately and its getting harder to find new ones. And by new ones i mean stuff i havent read i am very happy to read stuff from when the movie came out. Things I like:

long as fuck - the more slowburn the recovery process the better. (dont care about the romance, doesn't even have to be a ship fic really tho Steve does have to be like. there.)

Bucky has a dissociative disorder or something approaching that. doesn't have to have a fractured personality or sense of self (though he can!), the important thing is like. a sense of disconnect from being a person or having emotions or whatever else.

if characters use therapyspeak its because they like. learned that. and the narrative recognizes that that isn't just the default language everyone uses for emotions.

Jewish Bucky

If Sam is present he has a personality and motivations of his own beyond just The One With His Shit Together Who Is Very Helpful And Nice.

the more of these things the better it doesnt have to have all of them tho. AUs are totally fine if they do have these traits.

I find fics primarily through searching AO3, so if you figure i must have read something because its so well known please mention it anyways! thank you in advance!!! I can also post the things i have read and enjoyed lately if anyone is interested.

[rjsals]

Mh, Seoho's a really cute guy. I like him a lot, love him even.🥺 What's new though...

Anyways, if you really wanna talk about him a lot then you can tell me again when and how he became your bias~ or you can just list all the things you love and appreciate about him🧡

HI. i just washed up and made myself comfortable so i could divert all my free time & attention to this post right here bc OH BOY do i have a lot to say

although i'm not particularly sure how he became my bias? i dont even think he was in the running until one day i was watching the second season of show me the mwm (the episode where they have to find their symbol in a morning mission) and seoho straight up ate xion's lollipop. i remember thinking oh. he's the one!!

i think the main thing i like about seoho is how effortlessly he makes me laugh?? we all know he's kind of shy but at the same time he's not afraid to make a fool out of himself and just does whatever feels right and somehow it works... i faintly remember him talking about wanting to be a comedian as a kid, because he loved making people laugh and everytime i have to catch my breath after another one of his silly antics, a part of me hopes that he knows that's exactly what he's doing right now.

and yeah he's incredibly funny but also really fucking smart and his out of the box thinking often blows my mind. his big brain is sexy as hell and i love how he just keeps me on my toes and surprises me with something new every single time!! and with every single new thing i learn about him my heart grows in size. there's galaxies in this man's mind that i can't WAIT to discover!!

i think.. when it comes to seoho it's very easy for people to lock him in the box of the "silly hyung who loves joking around and often acts like the maknae" and throw away the key.. stereotyping idols happens a lot, and when shit hit the fan, people said some things that i vehemently disagree with when it comes to his role as the oldest in oneus. first of all, i don't think that role means as much in their group as it does in others bc they treat each other as equals to begin with? but it's crazy to me how people look at seoho and don't see how much of a support/pillar he is to his members.

seoho, reliable 민이형 who makes sure dongju doesnt fall short of anything he needs (even if he doesnt know it himself) and gladly indulges the youngest in all his passions and interests even if he pretends to dislike it.

seoho, the one hwanwoong goes to late at night for comfort because he feels like he's the one who understands him best. the first two rbw boyz who share a deeper understanding.

seoho, keonhee's twin. i may be biased but these two have so much in common and constantly feed off each other in so many ways. they're often giggling by themselves, share the same deep passion for singing and music (exhibit A: every single one of their vlives), and hwanwoong mentioning how the roommates are getting more and more alike as time goes by in their recent vlive just tells me how close they are even if we don't see that much of it on camera. (this was supposed to be a paragraph about how seoho takes care of keonhee but of course my keonho biased ass ended up here). what i meant to say is i think seoho, as keonhee's roommate, provides both those "need a boys night in with some beers and a pinch of crazy karaoke" kinda vibes as well as the guidance and understanding keonhee might be in need of. i think they match each other's energy well.

seoho, geonhak's (i dare say) best friend. a day without seodo banter is like going a day without water. seoho has geonhak's back like no other. you mess with gh, you mess with seoho, and he's not afraid to let you know either. the "we stand shoulder to shoulder" line in the top gun medley is actually about them.

and to think people don't see seoho as someone who can adequately care for his members is both beyond ridiculous and sad to me. just bc you can't see his love language doesn't mean they can't.

AND THAT IS NOT TO MENTION THE SHEER TALENT this man posseses but i won't get into the way his voice gives me chills and he often leaves me shooting heart eyes at my screen after a performance. i also won't elaborate on how amazing a dancer he is and how he somehow also is great at sports and how his talking voice is so soothing and comforting i sometimes put on old vlives to ease my anxiety (i'm literally listening to his last bubble live as i'm typing this. it's my fav so far.)

i also won't mention his pretty smile and his beautiful eyes and his amazing hands and the little freckle on his cheek and the shape of his lips and when he goes :} and how much i love the sound of his laugh.

i'm probably missing sooooo much but i've been going at this for over an hour and it's been a long day so i just want to say i love him a lot and i would pull down the moon for him.

and ily for giving me an excuse to talk about him hehe 🧡

[blnk338]

have any rodrigo and nadya headcanons?? like the both of them together and their friendship behind the scenes??

ANON I LOVE YOU

// weed, death, minor ed mention, abuse mention

general:

they're the kind of friends that are super cool with cuddling bc they both have insane ptsd and both have been out of the romance zone for literally eons

rigo's just not feelin' the dating scene, nadya's just super fucking bad with people

they'll sneak into each others dorms and sometimes crash on the floor bc of nightmares

rigo's good emotionally, he's gotten so much better so much faster because he had a really good family growing up

nadya took far more damage and had so much less support growing up; their drastically different childhoods affected how either one processed the deaths of their friends and they both respect their current standings

rigo's the only person nadya lets do whatever he wants to her; like he'll hug her and smother her in physical affection and she's just so comfortable around him that she'll just keep the conversation going

in comparison, nadya will do fucking anything for him. he'll mention something little about being hungry and nadya will sneak the biggest piece of garlic bread she can find from the DFAC to give it to him

its so funny to see them in public bc rigo's waving to people, he's smiling, he's got blue jeans with smiley face patches stitched onto the legs, some indie bands merch as a shirt, and vans or converse on. like he's so fuckign californian its insane.

meanwhile he's got his guard dog who's wearing a sweater and a hoodie and jeans/dickies in 85 degree weather, her face mask just dribbling sweat.

rigo's the bark, nadya's the bite

rigo: dogs

nadya: cats

nadya's a good cook, rigo's a good baker; when nadya goes to san diego, they'll make huge meals together and mix their cultures together

nad makes a lot of Mediterranean/morroccan stuff bc of her dad, bastilla, a lotta couscous, yk (plus some slavic foods, but her favorite things are falafels and tzatziki)

rigo's got conchas lined up, ready for baking, he's really good at making little designs and adding cute little details to make the concha’s that more enjoyable. how he makes hello kitty out of a sweet treat, no one knows

nadya and rigo used to have smoke sessions after the crash bc of their nerves, then made the mutual agreement to stop for each others sakes

bonded over the fact that they're both first gen

can read each others body language fluently, the other doing whatever is needed to make the stressed one comfortable

nad's learned a lot from rigo's emotional maturity; they'll hang out and paint nails and watch shitty two star movies on tubi and just talk for days on end. up all night talking about shit

rigo's got a lot of good advice from experience, nadya's got good advice bc shes really logical, even without the experience that rigo's got, they're able to bounce off each other

matching blood types

knows that nadya prefers not to talk much in public, or really be out at all when its not dark out or cold-- she likes excuses to cover herself up bc of her scarred skin--, so he's literally the "excuse me, she asked for no pickles" but it's only half true bc rigo actually hates pickles and nadya is a food vacuum

whatever he doesnt want, he'll pick off his food and either put it on his or nadya's plate, and she'll poke it with her fork and wordless eat whatever's discarded

he asks if nadya's hungry often bc he knows about her parents neglect growing up, so she'll often overlook how hungry she is bc she wasnt used to eating on a schedule

yesenia (rigo's mom) calls nadya gordita

christmas specific:

rigo was the first person to ask nadya about why she was so fucked up about the holidays and she opened up about her mom and robin

rigo was like "well u could come back w me for christmas my family loves people" and she was super hesitant (pre-accident nadya), but agreed and followed him back to san diego

nadya was pretty reserved about the whole thing, but rodrigo did everything he could to make her feel comfortable, even giving her little translations for stuff here and there

"oh yeah, but don't say that shit around my mom. like don't say no mames."

"why?"

"i think she'll kill me"

nadya had her first nice christmas; no guilt, no anxiety, nothing that made her regret being there. rigo's parents absolutely loved her, especially b/c she offered to help with everything

presents were opened up at midnight and, even though nadya didn't get anything bc the cassidy's weren't expecting her, she still felt so much love

that was also the first night when the two of them had to sleep in the same bed, and they just laid awake staring at the ceiling for a while.

rigo's not super good at keeping things to himself-- bud's got a bad filter-- so he was overthinking the entire time.

"hey nadder i just wanted you to know that this isn't like a sexual thing."

"what?"

"like im not into you."

"i didnt think you were"

"okay"

there was a moment of silence where neither one of them said anything bc nadya, who is so bad with social cues, just thought her friend was giving her a heads up, and rigo, who is much better with social cues, was panicking bc he didnt want his best friend to think he was trying to do anything weird.

"nads im gay"

"okay"

more silence before she followed it up with: "... is that gonna change anything?"

"no. like i... dont think so"

"ok. goodnight"

"goodnight."

"you're gay"

"yes i am."

"that's good."

the rest of christmas, even up until the new year, was spent with the cassidy's bc they loved her so much and she really didnt have anywhere else to go

i have more but its late and this was what i've got so far anon you're so cool and smart tysm for asking about rigo :)

[hermioneismyrealname]

Tomorrow (20221215) I have day one of my finals. It's maths.

Mood? Sleepy. Haven't slept in 2 days.

Reason? The last 6 hours I got, I woke up from a dream clawing at my arm and neck because I thought I was 8 again and what happened to me was happening again. SO SLEEP CAN GO FUCK ITSELF!

But after 11 am tomorrow, I will chugg 750ml of black coffee and sleep for 12 hours and start the marathon for biology (20221219), physics (20221221) and chemistry (20221222). Coffee stops me from dreaming.

Preparation? Maths can go to hell.

I've studied and I'm gonna study some more but once the paper is in front of me, the war begins against my brain as I try and pry the knowledge out from the anxiety filled trenches of my frontal lobe.

My body? My chest hurts like fuck.

I keep forgetting to breathe while I'm studying I don't know why. Also doesnt help that my glasses broke and I can't see shit so I'm hunched over my desk like a prawn and have my legs folded cause I'm gay af and can't sit on a chair straight by law.

Emotions? Currently numb.

I know this is going to change when I sit down in the exam hall. I'm just mentally drained. My sources of dopamine that I allow myself is this hellsite (affectionate), some one-shot fluff fics, writing drabbles and learning languages.

My goal? Do my best.

Imma be honest. I feel OK about what I know and I know I can do it, it's just my brain being an ass about it. That sack of flesh tells me to break my ankles for the heck of it, why should I listen to it?

Outcome? To feel proud enough so I don't feel guilty.

I feel guilty a lot. Survivors guilt and mommy issues. I overwork to overachive. I lay down on my bed and feel guilty i havent done enough when i just finished a 6 hour study session. Do more, my brain yells at me. So if I can come out of this like I did what I could, feeling less guilty, I'll be happy.

What do I want to do for the holidays?

Exam first and then think about holidays. But

I want to watch

Between Us (2022) ep 6 and 7

My 12 percent

Not me

Romantic Killer

Blood C

I spit on your grave

Goblin

Maybe rewatch Banana Fish

Space balls

I want to write

My drabbles

That Vegaspete fanfic I've been planning for a while now

That Sapphic story skeleton (idea struck me and I want to post it to *gags**barf**spits* wattpad

Begin copywriting because I'm a broke college student

I want to read

A curse so Dark and Lonely

And like the cycle of the year, we begin again (because it's my Christmas tradition)

Art of war

Maybe the wicked king, idk

I want to play

Minecraft

Potion craft: alchemy simulator

I want to learn languages

Japanese

Thai

Russian

Korean

Welsh

Latin

I want to random research

Anything

And then fritz case

I want to sleep.

I want to practice my forms in self defense. (Im probably shit by now)

I want to go rock climbing.

I want to go for a walk.

I want to talk to my friends and my crush that I've been ignoring for my exams, but like face to face, and give them a big ol hug even though I give really awkward hugs.

I want to eat broccoli and bread.

Didn't I mention sleep?

[midnighteloquence]

i just wanna talk

uh minor (MINORS!!!!!!!!) vent because im thinking

(mention of sui, sh, purg1ng, etc)

i actually dont know what to feel anymore. i dont really feel much these days except for pure, unbridled sadness. i can feel excited over my interests, but that excitement doesnt really last long till im just nothing again.

ive been getting more frequent stomach aches. not a stomach bug i mean the anxiety stomach aches. theyre here right now actually. ive just been super anxious and on edge recently, and i dont know how to stop the ever growing pit in my stomach. it grows every time i enter a room, when i have to present something infront of my classmates, when someone talks to me, when i text people, when im alone, when im with people. its everywhere and i dont like it.

earlier this term i avoided people because i was just so tired and empty. i hoped that it would somehow make me feel better, if i avoid the person who did me wrong. it really didnt. i didnt give them a satisfactory answer whenever they playfully insulted me because i could not bare to have them insult me one more fucking time. you know what happened? they started saying “ok.” to me saying literally fucking anything. i said “ok” to you dryly because you pissed me off, but if im talking about my interests casually thats nothing to be pissed off about.

i apologised to them for distancing myself (even though i was trying to fix my mental health) and told them i would talk to them more even though i dont like them anymore. the next day they sent a paragraph talking about how i wasnt really “proving myself” and that “they waited for me to talk to them instead of them starting the rare conversations we have” which actually killed me a bit. thats over exaggerating but im trying my fucking hardest to try and be your friend but my best isnt worthy enough. and also when have you ever put any effort into what im saying? like actually if i talk about my interests you say shit like “thats crazy” in a disinterested tone. i may be autistic but i can still pick up that you do not fucking care for a word i say. i actually pay attention, and you tell me im not proving myself to you? im sorry i started ranting haha

i think my crush started hating me. and this is a super common thing with all of my crushes for some reason. i just cant get them to not think im annoying. i just get so attached to them and the thought of being with them that they just stop liking me. and then i pick up on this and ask them constantly if they like me. he barely texts me anymore, his texts are super dry, its so obvious he doesnt want to talk to me. i started leaving him on read, just hoping he’ll start liking me again. thats probably super immature and slightly mentally unstable of me but idk im sorry

i stopped thinking about my future because i dont think i see one. i spent all week tired, crying in the school bathrooms, crying in my own bathroom, or crying in my room. i post constantly about killing myself or cvtting myself or purging because at this point i do not care what happens to me. my friend might be moving, my other friend im so fucking tired of, my other other friend is probably tired of me, the rest of the friendgroup probably wouldnt care less about me, i havent been the daughter i couldve been to my parents, im distant towards my brother, my crush lives far away anyways and probably doesnt like me anymore. it just seems like nothings really worth it. how likely is it that i get into a good university and get a good job? i dont even know what i want to do with my life past 18. the clubs i joined are just exhausting to go to now, im making no progress in my language learning, i get average scores in my tests, the only two hobbies i have i barely do anymore. its just so nothing

i have no dreams or aspirations, i have no hope for the future of not only me, this whole world. it will take me a hot 48 hours to think of a thing i wanna pursue. no one wants to be in a relationship with me. im pretty but not pretty enough for people to like me, and even if someone’s attracted to me, theres still my personality. its nothing special, plus just a bunch of red flags like jealousy, attachment, being distant, being sensitive, the list can go on. im just nothing really, i feel nothing, my personality is nothing, my looks are nothing, im nothing.

idk what else to say so bye :0) (clown)

[kittysyrup]

mole game 01

today is february the first,

i am the most motivated person in the world right now i am literally god, i am having a prophetic episode and everyone is my pawns

i am going to learn the unity game engine as one with such an overload of emotions and a psychotic mind would do. I believe the best therapy is to just give urself work and convince yourself it is actually really fun.

why do i want to learn a game engine, because i want to make a game, for gaming. I'm a bit of a prophet gamer, like a holy spirit that makes video games for all the poor peasants

I have chosen unity game engine because the internet is made for gnomes, and im not picking no engine made and spread around for gnomes, im no gnome. I will rip out all of my body hair if someone tells me to try out gadot game engine, i shouldnt even be hearing those words, just make it easier for me, im a beginner how do you expect me to learn on that shit.

the internet makes things so much harder for me to learn this shit, makes it impossible to know who to trust, youtube does not help, ive tried in the past to learn but youtube video tutorials do not help in the slightest, ill just find my brain going into college lecture mode and just write down code and not even understand anything

unity docs are also chronically impossible to read, its like a different language, its like they thought that they needed to restate all their type functions and shit in their docs and not say anything about what they do besides what they output or something, even though you already get this information from your IDE.

you can scrub over here, rant is over ill get into what I have done

i followed game makers toolkit tutorial for unity which idk if i should be like embarassed to mention considering my distaste my tutorial videos, i dislike this video for like spending alot of time explaining what code does like as if someone who doesnt know c-sharp at all isnt going to have like a really hard time after watching the video. but its like mildly encouraging to learn on your own and find your own problems and whatnot to work on.

I made the dumb flappy bird clone and made like a pencil character and like some book assets which was probably the fun part, really cool seeing your own art be in a video game.

here is flazzyjohn completely preserved as a gif on the tumblr servers

the only two things i even bothered to do after doin all the shit in his video is make the wing sprite change when pressing the space key and like that sucked, unity animation system looks like its going to be something that i will hate the more i use it, and i made it to where when the walls/books spawn they like randomly choose what sprite they are out of the 3 book sprites i made

brackeys unity videos which people seem to praise in the youtube comment sections really feel like dumbbed down youtube content in the meanest way possible, i refuse to accept that the answer to my problem is that you used a function that you made in a different video and actually i should watch that, just flash the code on the screen or something, its literally not worth my time

ok now i will exclaim my prophetic invision for my incredibily intricate first real game that i will burn out on sooner or later, you cannot convince me otherwise

either that or ill backout and make a snake clone or something

BUT then ill work on it

I want to make a 3d game, i know dumb, it would be like shitty low poly if that rationalizes it in anyway (it doesnt).

I have one idea that im kinda hyperfocusing on right now thats really simple but really complex and already hyper engineered in my head.

im imagining like a really dumbed down mining game wit like gumdrop-shaped moles with big handheld drills

(ignore the chibi robo they wont be in the game)

so ur this little mole guy and theres like a mole city wit like people to talk to or whatever (they would exist just to give u fetch quests and dumb dialogue) and the fetch quests would consist of going down the big elevator in the center and heading into the ever changing mines or something lore something lore

made this ms paint drawing for a friend in a jiffy

the like splotches of colored areas is supposed to be what minerals looks like on a map you recieve everytime you go into the mines, its always the same level, it just resets through like shifting rock or something, thats why there will be a time limit of like 2 minutes or something idk to grab ur shit and get out.

the map would be start out like one of those like lottery ticket scratch off things, and u gotta scratch it off like really fast.

i guess like the point is to like implement alot of weird stuff to do on the map that takes up your time inside the mine, since the main game concept is kinda simple

a sense of progression could be implemented through items given by the npc's that let you do more weird stuff with your map, like reveal hidden minerals and shit

i got like two ideas rn:

ones just like a pencil that you have to hold down and wait for your mole character to draw out a line to where you currently are, because the map wouldnt like show where you are.

another where you have like a limited use item where you could put like magnetic dust that sticks to a certain part of the map that would tell u where a secret mineral is or somethin.

im thinkin like this can only work in a 3d game for like selfish and learning reasons, i have like a few inspirations to go off of too

i had to play like 30 minutes of this game for like screenshots but like this shit, fairly oddparents shadow showdown encapsulates the gamecube era of games, i also played way too much of it like 3 years ago because i thought it would be fun to speedrun and wasted alot of time on it. Mostly just taking inspiration from the incredibly simple icons and text boxes.

Woooo i lovwe animal crossing i love making fake relationships with animal people, growing up with animal crossing did not impact me in the slightest, not a single thing. Ive always really liked the ui design in animal crossing, i will be ripping it off in some shape or fashion, i will decide if it will be shameless or not at a later date

Main issue with making a 3d game is that i gotta learn blender and thats makes it difficult because i also have to learn how to make a 3d model like look good

Anyways I dont expect this to be done for awhile, but im hoping the pressure from starting a log, generally just to complain and complain about how unreadable documentation can be.

This is supposed to spark the start and I will be opening a unity project and trying make a cube move with WASD whenever i have free time and im not drawing.

[traceofexistence]

I have no issue with UI changes as long as they don’t hinder my work.

and I say this as someone who loves windows have bought and used windows my entire computer life (and I’m talking about a computer life that started with ms dos, and progressed to windows 3.2, 95,98, ME, XP, vista, 7, and 10 so far (I will make the transition to 11 when it’s convenient.)

I don’t mind that win 11 needs to have some compatibility to work properly, that’s part of the change, but they try to look like mac OS, and that is not what windows users ever wanted.

mac OS is too restrictive, you can barely do anything out of what apple wants you to do, not to mentions that half of the software I use for my job doesnt work on macOS, and of course no games. also way too expensive.

android is a joke, and I say this as an android phone user, while easy to use, the fact that after 2 years they drop support for the device is ridiculous.

windows have been an OS that allows the users to do whatever they want, of course that means if you are being extra stupid with it, you can obliterate it, but that’s up to the user to decide. everything works on windows, and I don’t care if bill gates gets all the profits, he had the right idea of what a OS should be, that covers both the everyday user, and the professional.

I’m not personally allergic to change, and I have tried to install linux in an old machine of mine, as it is a skill I was willing to learn, but lunix doesn’t know what it wants, and of course the end result was that the so called “you can install even in an old potato”  simply didn;t work, and I ended up installing windows XP to it instead.

now to the original point about UI, UI needs to be easy to use, changing the place of a button for aesthetic reasons, or removing an important button all together for no reason, it’s just a dick move. and a professional is not a child to have the time of the world to unlearn years of muscle memory and have the weeks it takes to relearn it, a professional needs to know where things are so they can do their job as fast and as efficient as they can.

I don;t care if it takes me 3 more seconds to load a game than before, but 3 seconds multiplied with many times per work hours is a huge problem.

also on the matter of Office. sadly any other office than the microsoft one, do not have good spellcheckers in languages that are not english, and especially in my language, which I need the most since I’m dyslexic and can;t spell for shit. MS office has an excellent spell checker in my language, and this is a tool I’m not willing to drop.

Firefox on the other hand, is a browser I have used since it came out to replace IE, and use to this day. even on android phone. also I dropped google as my search engine, I use “ecosia” and “startpage” and I can actually find the shit I look for, since google search has been impossible to use at this point, with all the irrelevant shit it drops my way. 

Like, don't get me wrong, I fucking hate Windows, but minor UI changes aren't the catastrophe that people make them out to be, people just *hate* change, and they hate it more when they feel like they're being forced into it, and they hate it EVEN MORE when they feel like they're being forced into spending money to make a change they didn't want in the first place.

Honestly it's a good idea to throw a new OS on an old computer periodically just so you can teach yourself to stop having an automatic rage response when encountering a new OS.

[winged-deity]

Hello, sorry if you are busy but could I please request parental dreamsmp members reacting to their child swearing? And when they ask where they learnt that word they say from Uncle Bad when he was cooking or something? I just think it would be funny and wholesome lol, thankyou for your time love ya<3

Thank you for requesting and hope this is to your liking!

Parental! DSMP members reacting to child reader swearing

Heard It From Uncle Bad

warnings: !swearing!, !mentions of violence!, !use of nicknames!

Dream

Dream was keeping a close eye on you playing out in the fields while he sharpened his axe in the cool shadow of a blooming willow tree.

He barely catches a glimpse of you stumbling over your own feet, but as he'd learned, you rarely cried over things like that. But what he heard next, wasnt something he expected.

His head snaps up in full attention when he hears the word leave your mouth, "Fuck!" you had schreeched as you scraped your knees on the muddy ground.

He immediately discarded his axe on the ground, and walked over to you, still in pure and utter shock.

"Little flower, where did you learn that word?" he kneeled beside you, trying his best to contain his inner disappointment and anger torwards whoever taught his child swear words.

You had looked up at him, slightly confused at his sudden interest before you answered his still waiting question "Uncle Bad said it when he hurt his hand on the stove, last weekend when he was watching me"

Dream had blinked at you for a few seconds in utter disbelief, he was about to call you out on lying. Before he remembered that you didnt know any better than to always tell the truth.

After a small discussion where he explained why you couldnt use that word, he left you to Sapnap and George, and headed torwards Bad's house where they would soon have a long talk.

Sapnap

You would be with him, while he is trading in the nether. You usually tend to stick close to him as to not anger the piglins, or get lost.

However, this time while he was trading with you behind him, clinging to his pant leg. A piglin approached you, and as you did not like the intimidating look it was giving you, you hissed at the piglin "Fuck off!"

Sapnap choked on nothing, and immediately slapped a hand over your tiny mouth "hey buddy, don't say that word!.." he chuckled nervously as the piglins eyed him disapprovingly.

After you two got back into the overworld, he lifted you onto his shoulders "where did you learn that word" he had asked you, and you answered with a simple shrug "i heard grandpa say it while i was over at his and skeppy's house"

Sapnap had bursted into laughter the moment he heard this, "thats pretty funny, but don't say that word anymore. People are gonna think i taught you that" he gave an over exaggerated sob for dramatic effect, as you giggled.

Awesamdude

He had been working at the prison nonstop for weeks on end, and as much as he hated to not be able to spend time with you, there was not much he could do.

The biggest suprise was when he was sitting at the front desk, when he heard familiar yelling and pounding on the prison gates. At first he was cautious, but once the next words left your mouth "open the motherfucking door, Awesamdad!" his gaze darkened as he opened the gates, pondering who taught his young child such foul language.

Awesamdude wasnt usually one to care about swearing, but when the case was about his own child thats a no no.

He let you into the prison arms crossed, staring you down as you had no idea how much trouble you were in. "why do you come into my work screaming those bad words at the gates?" he stared you down.

"bad words?" you expressed your confusion "it cant be a bad word, cause uncle Bad said it, and he doesnt use bad language" you crossed your arms proudly over your chest, mimicking your father.

He chuckled quietly "i see.. Well uncle Bad is gonna get a long talk after im done with work"

Philza

He had not planned on adopting anymore children after Tommy (and technically Tubbo), but here he was, in the middle of the tundra, a wanted war criminal, with a child.

He was confident that no bad influences would come to you after the fall of l'manburg, since the only people you two lived with were Techno and Ranboo. And occasionally Niki would show up as well.

So he was in utter and pure shock and disbelief when he heard you shout "fuck!" at the top of your lungs, after falling over while Techno was teaching you how to spar.

Techno immediately dismissed Phil's suspicion torwards him, saying he wouldn't swear in the presence of the child in question. Phil had questioned you in a serious matter, asking who taught you that word, he had his suspicions but he was definitely caught off guard as you mentioned Bad's name.

He had already tried to keep you away from the demon, because of all the mans weird connections with the egg cult and other weird shit. And he didn't even know you had met Bad. He just dismissed it and told you to not talk to that man again, which you happily obliged.

Jschlatt

Schlat wasn't necessarily like other parents, he wasnt the best parent either. So it wouldn't be surprising if you had learned most of your bad influences from him. But besides all those odds, your first curse word wasnt from him.

He already had alot of issues, he wasnt at all fit to lead a country, and his alcohol problems had a vice-like grip on his life. So when he heard you cursing under your breath as you scribbled on paper in his office one day, he simply lifted his brow.

"where'd you learn that, Pumpkin?" he hummed, dismissing his more important paperwork aside.

As stated before, he wasnt necessarily a good parent, he was just simply intrigued on how you knew that language at your age. And more interested in who taught you that, since you weren't allowed to leave the white house without him or Quackity.

And if it turned out to be Quackity who taught you that (which wouldn't be that surprising), he swears he'd had that fuckers head.

He may not have paid alot of attention to you growing up, but he did care about you. Even if he didn't show it. So it wasn't a joke when he said he'd have the person's head who taught his kid swear words.

You had simply turned to him "that scary guy with the horns and white eyes said it while i was on a walk with Mr. Quackity" you hummed, then immediately turning back into your drawings.

Schlatt blinked at you in disbelief, before bursting into laughter "oh that demon fucker?! He bothers everyone else on their language and then swears infront of a child?" he took a deep inhale to calm his laughter, before his eyes turned dark "the nerve.."

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I was gonna do more characters, but this is already long enough. Hope everyone liked this, and my requests are still open! <3

[sailorhyunjinz]

I wonder how skz gon react to their s/o being extremely horny 24/7

YA KNOW WHAT lemme do a quick reaction on this because i can lmao

K BRRR QUICK REACTION BRAH (what is wrong with me istg)

also this is shit i havent written a reaction in forever, its just me blabbering rn ITS NOT EVEN A REACTION ITS CALLED HEADCANON CHERRY 

warnings; SMUT!!! explicit language, penetrative sex, mentions of rough sex.

bangchan

LOOK,,, not that he’s not horny but he likes it to be like all cute and romantic so when you’re like “ayo im horny, let’s have a quicky” he’s not so sure??

but thats out the window if you really rile him up by rubbing against him or whispering dirty things in his ear ;))

catch him when he’s frustrated and you will get the dick of your life

he just giggles whenever the two of you are in a normal situation and you just feel him up 

HE’S LIKE FROZEN CAUSE LIKE WTF IS HE SUPPOSED TO DO??

should he listen to the cute, innocent channie or the sex manic bangchan~?

also he doesnt sleep so if you’re horny during the night best believe that he will take care of you :((

minho

50% loves it, 50% tired

BOY WANTS SOME TIME OFF 

but like,,, most of the time he’s down

so annoyed if you keep on touching him even if he’s dead tired 

just angry noises as he snaps

“not my fault you want to be stuffed so bad”

but he wont give it to you too easily because he wants to see you all whiny and squirming

sadist by heart, what can i say?

just teasing you for hours by rubbing your inner thigh with his veiny hands OOF

im sure this mf could rail you wherever 

public bathrooms, changing rooms, the beach IDFK 

but hey,,,, be careful what you wish for because with this boy, you’re gonna get it ;))

changbin

SO DOWN FOR IT

mans got muscles and stamina to go for hours on end

he’s a horny mf i just feel it

omg imagine being fwb with changbin and the entire text conversations are just the two of you sexting

the occassional pictures YA KNOW

he’s addicted lets be honest

wants to fuck you whenever he can

always thinking about you naked or him manhandling you only to fuck you so hard you arent able to speak PLEASE-

you’re already hot in his eyes 

but this PHEW,,,, makes him weak everytime you beg him for his cock :((

hyunjin

this mf would tease you for it

“is my cock that good?” “insatiable little baby”

you hate him for it but ooof he always gives you what you want so he’s a sweetheart

he knows with just a simple look that you want him

or when you tug on his shirt impatiently in public

and him being the pretty boy he is gives it to you :((

omg you’re already horny 24/7 but this mf has the audacity to coax you even more

“could you massage my thighs y/n?”

“mhm, where??”

and then he grabs your hand and places it on his semi-erection

“here” 

BRUH GET THE FUCK OUT 

jisung

“ow my dick”

nah but he’s equally as horny if not even more!!!

horny!jisung agenda blossoming again

when he catches you watching porn its not the usual reaction, its more like;

“oh lemme join ;))”

the two of you have the same taste in porn HASHSHA couple goals

and,,,, it always leads to fucking like rabbits while the porn keeps playing in the background 

finds it very very hot that you’re always palming him through his pants 

wants you RIGHT THEN AND THERE

felix

at first he doesnt notice your horniness but he realised that you laughed extra hard whenever he said something that could be misinterpreted

“whats going on in that pretty head, hm?”

and you just continue laughing your ass off, shaking your head. 

but ooof when yall actually start having sex he’s like very much ok with it!

maybe not everytime you ask about it because poor baby already tired and just has to say no

but he feels bad everytime :(( because he feels like he cant pleasure you in the way you want :(((

sexual innuendos are yall’s love language

seungmin

poor pup would be more tired than anything ahsahsah

not to say that he doesnt like it but like he needs time to recover after nutting

and when you just poke him with the biggest doe eyes because you want more he just sighs lmao

but he lets you fuck him a lot since he just wants to lie down when he’s tired

he tries his best to match his sex drive with yours but BRUH HE’S TIRED

but he gets cuddles and lots of aftercare for the both of you and so those are the moments he cherishes the most :((

i feel like he has these weird bursts of sexual energy where he gets really horny just randomly, fucks you into the mattress and then acts as if nothing happened??

“you looked hot, what was i supposed to do?”

jeongin

ya know,,, the teenage hormones and growing up comes with a bunch of discovering to do 

and what better way to learn than to fuck all the time??

he has good stamina so,,, go ahead 

but like after a while he just falls apart 

BUT he’s a good boy so he would let you ride him eventhough he’s fucked off his mind

omg he’s all smiling and blushing, mumbling your name :((

“a-are you good, baby?” and he just nods softly

“more please” ASGAHSDFGAH

he can try so much with you!! and he loves that!!

when is cherry gonna make a regular mf reaction post?? we will never know,,,, NAH REQUESTS ARE PROBS GONNA OPEN SOOOON AH IM SORRY ITS TAKING SUCH TIME,,, exams yall :(((

[cometchasr]

oh, fucking god

so here i was supposed to write about my fanfics but it turned into a darkstalker analysis. sigh. under cut. transition is completely abrupt due to its original purpose.

first, this throws stuff into might quit. i need to replan it now (bruh). then we have kink as a whole, and how to frame darkstalker whenever the hell comet au 4 starts (estimated release 2050). IMO (from someone shit at this sort of stuff), darkie is fallen. he slowly fell down into the hole, but he never thought about it. he never realised he was fallen. and then when he was shown that (soul reader etc.) he refused to believe it, because he so overwhelmingly believed he was still good, due to all his enchantments and whatnot. (refer: language shifts. slow, unnoticeable, people will deny that they are speaking differently). he himself is traumatised and whatever, and he just... thinks that what he does is right.

he was raised in an environment where they were at war with the icewings, his dad hated him, they tried to kill his mother, and so on. he hates them, so much to the point where he doesnt think killing icewings is bad anymore. and about the writing, it's best as darkie having fallen unknowingly, and still refusing to accept it. even his dialogue above shows that. it's how he acts: he's confident that he's safe, bulletproof, that his soul can't be damaged, but it already has been, not because of magic (although that sped it up). it was because of his life, his upbringing, his hatred, his determination to rule because he (in his mind) was destined to due to his powers.

and at the end, when he's being erased from existence and he knows his soul will be overwritten, will be replaced, he becomes so human. it's like being executed: that knowledge. that grim knowledge, that in a minute, twenty seconds, ten, five, you will die, you will lose your life. the closer it is, the harder it is. and if you are released, it disappears, you just deflate with tremendous force, you realise how harrowing it was, how hard it was. it's the same with darkie: he's already dying. he's shrinking, soon he'll disappear, he will lose everything that makes him who he is. just that anticipation, that feeling, it's bad enough, even if you ignore the fact that kinkajou's fucking erasing someone's mind. and he dies, and his soul is erased, and kinkajou acts like they only fucking made a cake or some shit. no seriousness, just fucking giggling.

everything and everyone about and in this scene is horrifically done, and i haven't even read it. all this stuff up there is pulled from legends darkstalker, the post above, and something i got from that one time i tried to read Dostoevsky (and failed).

on we march! kinkajou stuff now! (mostly fanfic stuff, but some nice takes on peace and darkie)

kink in this scene is both completely out of character and (as mentioned above) cery much not acting appropriate to the gravity of the situation. fucking hell. anyways, seems like i'll stick to my promises here and talk about kink in comet au 4! wow.

peacemaker finds out, he knows. he knows that feeling, because he lived it. when he comes back from [REDACTED], he has a talk with kink and moon (read: kink and moon try to talk to him and mostly fail), and he understands. he knows darkie was a threat and whatever, that he was going to kill a tribe and murder many. he knows he's acting selfish, but he wishes he knew. he wishes he knew that he was darkie, that he was killed in this terrifying way. he wishes they knew how darkie himself felt: that feeling, his denial, his trauma, how it impacted his decisions. but above all, he wants to not feel like a puppet, not feel like his whole damn life was dictated by them.

he wants to be free, free of everything the spell did. he wants to choose, himself, what he wants. insert that part of harrow's letter to callum here (learn from the past, let it go, free yourself, blah blah blah) and then he does that. he lets go. he frees himself. and he may not particularly want to talk to kink or moon anymore, but he'll survive (and he also contradicts moon's visions because he's free.)

well, i hoped you enjoyed my very long post here. and if you're wondering why exactly i call them kink, darkie, winwin and qib, it's this piece on deviantart. that's it. just that. no, really. yes it's a cover for a darkwatcher fic that hasn't been updated since august 2020.

edit: OH BOY I LOOKED AT THE NOTES AND REALISED SOMETHING MORE SHIT IS HERE

so. hope (foeslayer). hang on, i'll just grab the tags from someone else's reblog here:

#Wof #I love Darkstalker personally and they did him so dirty here #also the way his *mother* reacts to it is just so bad #like your SON who you LOVE despite his HORRIBLE ACTIONS is BEGGING FOR HIS LIFE IN FRONT OF YOU DO YOU FEEL NOTHING

(from @valhallgreg)

that. just title. foeslayer, your son who you love despite his horrible actions. you do nothing, and you just stand there, while he's going through a horrible process, knowing that he's going to be erased, that whoever he becomes will never know him. and then, you also assume that having his whole life be a fucking lie and hiding this enormous secret for him will be good. no.

well i have nothing better to say here. god. this took a while

Okay so I'm writing a thing about Forgiveness in Wings of Fire and it's occurring to me now that...The Strawberry scene has some serious tonal issues.

Like, I've been thinking of the Strawberry scene as a foreboding bad mess of writing choices so much that I forgot how....actually bad it is.

Even ignoring the moral issues and what not it poses it's just...badly written, in the middle of Darkstalker literally choking and shrinking Kinkajou is gloating. The writing of Darkstalker is all over the place framing him as a simple power hunger manipulative monster again and then they proceed to frame him like a scared child who wanted to do there best.

(Page 353, Darkness of Dragons)

"But my powers!" he cried. His voice was higher, less cavernous and booming now, as his lungs shrank. "All my magic...can't I keep any of it? The mind reading? Wait-" ---------------------------------------- "Didn't I help you?" Darkstalker said in a lost, small voice, looking up at Moon. "Didn't I save dragons, too? I'm not evil...I'm not..."

And like I get there trying to write a desperate villain plea but knowing what we know about Darkstalker it just rings hollow. This isn't Darkstalker grasping for straws, this is Darkstalker, the child, wondering what he did wrong. And as someone who hates Darkstalker the 'not evil' line is genuinely heart breaking.

How are the character's treating this actually horrific scene....welllllllllll

(Page 352, Darkness of Dragons)

"What?" Darkstaker said, choking. "But how I didn't see-" "I know," Kinkajou said proudly. "Never saw me coming! Taking down by a ball of fluff! Who's insignificant NOW frogface!" (She says as she knowingly rewrites a person's mind) ----------------------------------------

(Page 353, Darkness of Dragons)

"I really thought he was going to choose this for himself," Moon said, tipping her head at the shrinking dragon. "Oh, I knew he wouldn't," Kinkajou said. "But I couldn't tell you my awesome plan, obviously"

(Page 354, Darkness of Dragons)

"What in the world?" Moon asked. "Oh, yeah I made him half Rainwing," Kinkajou said, fighting back a giggle. "I thought that would look good for him. And it turned out so pretty!"

...Ok most of these are Kinkajou and I will be unsurprised if this scene made people hate Kinkajou (Really wish Kinkajou was not a vessel of which the worst Wings of Fire writing decisions, literally right after this is the Winter Epilogue and you know how I feel about that!)

But there's a total whiplash, what's going on is horrifying, serious, even without the ethical conundrums, it's a big bad getting defeated, one that killed hundreds of people...and this is how there treating it.

It's...just not that great really. Don't really have much to add I just forgot how bad the Strawberry scene is.