#thinking too hard about the old men
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Stan kissed like he spoke, confident and brash and dragging Ford along for the reckless ride. He kissed with the silver tongued suave of a sales pitch, a promise of more. The promise of big and bold and all he couldnt possibly achieve, paid for only by the gullible but Ford found himself for once a believer. He kissed with the wild, rambling abandon of every story hed ever told and here Ford was, clinging to every word. Hed believe anything Stan told him, if only to keep those lips on his.
Ford kissed like he spoke, cautious and testing. It could be considered hesitant, but Stan knew every move was deliberate, calculated. He kissed like Stan was a subject, pinning him and noting every miniscule reaction. Breaking down the best ways to take him apart and Stan was happy to give him every bit of evidence it took to leave him thinking of nothing but that touch.
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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am
#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils#but it's ok i just needed a nap#something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me#wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas#something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh#i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn#(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeee😢😢😢#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e#i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real#i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel#also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay#is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level#when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic 😑BRU#look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it#at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal
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What do you mean “Fantasy doesn’t count as real literature.” Great, Thanks. Have fun reading another white man complain about fincial issues and how women are “too promiscuous these days.” I’m going to go read a cool werewolf book, and guess what, it’s all a metaphor about racial inequites specifically via schooling as a result of colonialism. AND it has a cool map at the begininng. So suck it.
Also, even if I were rereading twilight, atleast im not pretending to enjoy myself reading catcher in the rye. I read 40 books last year, predominantly classics and basically? Not a single one was as interesting as Edward and Bella. 🤷
#smaeemo#ok some of this was exaggerated because a lot of the classics that I did read were relatively interesting and impactful for their time#but I like my trashy romance more than I like pretending to care about Jay Gatsby being a creepy obsessed lunatic#and I stand by it#A lil controversial on this one#I got into a debate about this topic with a Colleen Hoover reader (deragatory) and it was shameful#how can you claim to like quote unquote good literature when you refuse to read anything other than Colleen hoover and dead white men#Sorry this is heated#but still#Wtf do you mean by this????#anyway#love my twilight#twilight#twilight saga#still wishing supernatural were a YA book series#books#booklr#books and reading#classic books#now dont get me wrong#I really do find signigicance in classics and certain old books#but come on#Pride and Prejudice#or#wings of fire#which one is more fun#also fantasy is such a powerful and useful writing tool that continues to be as impactful to this day#I just like to make it silly because thoughts are hard to verbalize and then type into this computer system#ah shit#it got too meta now im thinking about how each word is made up of letters as I tag this
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[Id from alt. 1. A surprised assistant manager Zura blushing, with teary eyes and stars around him. He's wearing a party hat and there are birthday decorations behind him. He's saying "you baked me a cake?" 2. Tatsuma, Gintoki and Takasugi standing side by side. Tatsuma has his arms crossed grinning with a satisfied expression on his face. The words "Bought the ingredients" point out of him. Gintoki, with a blank expression is wearing a frilly apron and holding a cake with Sadaharu's face on it. The words "reluctantly bake it" point out of him. Takasugi is looking slightly embarrased, with his left hand on the back of his head and his right hand full of little bandages; his face has spots of powdered sugar. The words "cut the stencil and made powdered sugar rain" point out f him. End Id.]
Well, happy birthday, assistant manager Zura!
#gintama#gintama fanart#happy birthday zura#my art#joi4#salary men#they left all the hard work to Gintoki#or more they meant to help but Tatsuma began with the weird suggestions and frankly sugi's too clumsy#please remember to never let the scissors close to sugi#also somehow tatsuma got access to the fancy managers kitchen#I don't know what this company sells -prolly shaddy stuff- but it sure has an exclusive fancy kitchen#is there something more awkward than an office birthday celebration#they decorate your desk and put on the same old birthday decorations and you don't know what to do while they sing you happy birthday#if i sound like a sad hopeless cynic is 'cause i am i'm very sorry i can't be serious about all the corporate bullshit#any way happy birthday zura you silly person#it's obvious i've been thinking a lot about the salary men au but i can only express it in this series of silly comics#Zura enrichment week#office worker au#salary men au
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Young Padawan Bastila: *in every possible way tries to wriggle out of awkward situations and questions or avoid detailed answers to questions about Revan*.
Wise Master Vrook: Well, if we start training you, how can we make sure the Dark Lord won't return? We're not certain that Revan is truly dead!
Amnesiac Revan: ...
Master Vrook: Obviously, we don't trust you!
Amnesiac Revan: ???
#also amnesiac revan: what a bunch of crazy old men!#It was fun to watch that scene#what's more it isn't the only time one of the jedi masters misspeaks#but the most hilarious imao#i have a couple of silly theories why vrook says something like that - on purpose i think#but what about others? they're not supposed to lie about anything and it's too hard for them?#nonsense#poor bastila#she has to handle both amnesiac ex sith lord and old forgetful masters#half correct kotor quotes#incorrect kotor quotes#kotor#kotor 1#knights of the old republic#silly thoughts#bastila shan#revan#female reman#fem revan#f!revan#darth revan#vrook lamar#master vrook#jedi council#star wars
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I'm so tried of the response to the new Dragon Age game. You can't criticise decisions or the writing without being lumped in with bigots unless you caveat a hell of a lot, which fewer and fewer online spaces allow for. I'd say this is by design but I don't know if the people fanning the flames and pushing this bigotry are that smart.
It's been in development hell for a decade, cancelled and revived, stopped and started over from scratch multiple times, was infamous for staff turnover, and had senior staff quit the first time it was cancelled then EA fired 50 more people which included senior developers who had worked on previous Dragon Age games. The reason given was EA wanted to be able to "pivot faster" but it's pretty obvious they wanted to get rid of people who had the experience and seniority to push back against decisions.
Because the game very much looks like what happens when execs want to chase trends rather than let developers do what they have experience doing or what customers expect from a franchise name.
But once again the focus isn't on major issues with the AAA publishing industry or MBAs calling shots, it's about a non-issue that's a symptom of that at most and it prevents actual criticism from getting through.
#most people complaining about it don't even know about the mess of its development from my experience too#even though that was a major talking point for years up until recently and made the news whenever something big happened#because the bigots drown that out and only focus on something where they don't have to consider capitalism/straight white men#as being the reason behind why something is bad#it's easier to think left-wing minorities are moustache-twirling villains who are behind it all#but that's how these things operate and we saw it in gg1#there were grains of truth but instead of going with those and wanting actual change#a handful of people were able to steer it away from that so the outrage built upon itself again and again while ignoring the cause#for their own personal gain 'cause they didn't give a flying fuck about actually doing anything to improve things#and once again it made it so people couldn't criticize the cause because they'd be assumed to be a raging bigot#also it's pretty obvious the purported leader of this is banging on whatever he can to see if it takes root outside his bubble#because he's a bitter old white man with a chip on his shoulder who's trying to stay relevant and couldn't pull off benefiting#from a system that heavily prefers straight white men during a time when others were pushed to the edges or kicked out#like if you start on third and fail to get to home and your team doesn't even want you there even if they win regardless of you#that's a you problem and it takes skill to fail so hard you aren't so much kept around as a friend to collect an easy paycheque
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imagine for a moment. A world where sunny came out like 15 years earlier. exactly the same show but macdennis was born in the world of fanzines and newletters so all the fanart of them boning each other is done in the weird photorealistic pencil drawn style you get in old fashioned zines and such. where the faces are always nearly there. but not quite right bc they didnt have google images
think about it man!!!!!!!!!! we used to be a real country
#iasip#macdennis#this shit is all so weird and yet so real#i think about this too much#i love this old shit it must have been such a riot#janice from california has finished chapter 8 of prelude to an infinite dream where kirk and spock fuck in five thousand ways#its 1978 and you live in north carolina and you are about to get ur rock off so hard#youll be thinking about this when you get fucked by your boring husband#a woman youve never met writing about two men who dont exist can get you off so much better than he ever could. what does this mean#anyway. we live in an age of miracles#i may draw this if i can be fucked
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*takes my last adderall so i can finish all my work in one day*
*finishes one (1) assignment*
*gets distracted and spends the rest of the day hyperfocusing on delicious in dungeon again*
#i rewatched half the anime last night cause i was too tired to do anything else#i even almost got sucked into reading the manga again the other day but forced myself to stop after 1 chapter#def gotta buy hard copies#this is one of if not the only thing i can enjoy multiple times IN SUCCESSION!#actually i was like this with turning red and spiderverse too but#dunmeshi is different.... dunmeshi is special..... my enjoyment of it is more than just the animation or the art.....#ive never felt this particular way about anything but i've always wanted to#in the past my fanart often felt a little forced even tho i liked those things it was hard to get excited about anything#i think dunmeshi is partially responsible for my depression being in remission#literally#the only depression i feel since spring is about financial problems or being lonely#tangible stuff#but it's not the deep internal depression ive felt for most of my life#idk how to explain but like there's layers to depression#the easier kind to heal from is based in identifiable current issues like loneliness or financial troubles or grief or burnout#then theres the kind that comes from complex trauma or i think sometimes its genetic too#i thought that part would only go away once i solved the surface level stuff and could heal thorugh positive experiences to contradict#the pathways my brains formed overtime via trauma#but although ive had a few moments that have helped#i think dunmeshi. moving out of my old apt where i lived with 3 cishet men into an apt with 1 chill roomie. having time over summer to#get used to a self made routine (despite having MANY financial issues and still not being able to spend it how i planned)#all that is mainly what helped!#like for the first time i was getting excited abt stuff!#i still kinda struggle tho with maintaining that excietment#except with dunmeshi!#it's like no matter what my excitement hasn't diminished#thats very comforting#i gotta force myself to engage in more media so i can find more things to love#i have a habit of putting off things i know ill love bc i wanna be ready for it#so that if i do love it ill have the time and energy to get inspired and make fanart
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thinking about val and mason
#i think about them so much like their love transcends everything truly#and they just light up when they see eachother#and end of b3- beginning of b4. val finds himself trying to act cooler so to speak. just to 'woo' him#and its ridiculous and theyre both old men and yet its so natural#and val finds it quite so fun to flirt with the love of his life and mason loves being on the receiving end of it#and mason laughs to himself at how sweet valentine's attempts are and he knows its a little joke-y#but in the end he knows the love that lies deep beneath those silly words is as real as can be#and mason is everything valentine has been looking for#and val is everything mason has never thought he'd want#and before any confession of love and affection. it makes mason feel all warm inside and his heart skips a beat and his breath hitches still#and he flushes under valentine's attentive gaze. and he swallows hard when val's touch grazes him#and valentine feels the same and hes just so relieved that in the end its mason. and it always will be mason#and no matter what universe where how or when. they find eachother and they fall in love all the same and noone can separate them#their love is all consuming and its truly the basis of everything that has ever existed#love is just too weak a word to describe what they feel for eachother. if they are not near eachother everything is just wrong#they are not separate anymore. they are always mentioned as 'mason and val'. like it's one word. because they are. one
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Teaching myself to whittle!
#whittling#I asked myself hm what is the best thing to practice with. something I know well after drawing it on every paper in school#I know! a photorealistic eye!!#my years of training....#I'm in such a crafting mood rn#I'm currently googling wooden marionettes to try to figure out how hard it would be to carve one#I think I could do it#as long as I don't care TOO much about it looking good#which I don't#so it's doable!!#whittling is super fun though!!! I get why old men sit on the porch for hours and do this#fluffle art
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This is technically a Diana's age poll but I framed it partially around Julia's rescue because that's the event I need to contextualize and whether or not Diana is a thing yet is p important for my purposes. I would keep the Pérez run and postcrisis continuity in mind when answering this bc that's when this is relevant but I'd keep in mind that even though Diana is very young there (like early 20s) we don't know I don't think if she ages differently as a child (esp as a themysciran AND being made from clay) and in some versions she is older than she looks and was made earlier
Edit: I accidentally logic-ed this out in the tags lol 🤦♀️but feel free to still vote however you want. Going to publish this anyway bc I think I made some good points later in my tags
#blah#the 45 years is a guesstimation of julias age w her being in her late 40s#bc she has a middle school aged daughter which would make you lean a bit younger but shes also highly respected prof at harvard (is she the#dept head? i think so. and has a career that would suggest older. and shes also drawn middle aged so 🤷♀️#i would say late 40s early 50s for her honestly. but i moved it down a lil bit bc of vanessas age#wait shit i may have contradicted logic here bc wasnt the diana trevor stuff supposed to have happened before dianas birth. and that was#wwii. which would be btwn 42 and 45 years. BC PÉREZ!TREVOR IS OLD I FORGOT THAT#okay so actually there still could be a question of what happened first the timeline would just be much shorter#but then wouldnt julias family be boating during wwii? that makes no sense#im definitely thinkimg too hard about this probably. logically it would make the most sense if diana was like 20smth in reality. but thats#its own basket of worms honestly. like what do you mean hippolyta only had like 20 yrs w her daughter out of a lifespan of thousands of#years. what do you MEAN she became champion and ambassador so young like#like also thats the point though. she had to wear a mask in the challenge for a reason. her inexperience with men is what makes her the kind#of ambassador they need. and her youth and relation to hippolyta and role as the baby of the amazons is one of the things that makes her#ambassadorship SO important is bc she fulfills that role in an ancient sense. where it would be a sign of great trust and respect to send#someone close to the crown as an envoy bc it shows you mean business and arent going to reneg on whatever the deal is. bc if you do they#shoot the messenger#god anyways i very much answered my own question here in the tags like 100%. esp in regards to the pérez canon bc he very much laid this out#and i was trying to weasel my way out of it. only that didnt work and the decisions he made he made for a reason and they have huge#narrative importance. damn. okay then#i always write the shittiest posts and the best tags and then have to keep the post to keep the tags#i rlly need to make these tags posts ugh. anyways keeping this up bc of my tags abt diana and ambassadorship#also sidenote I LOVE HIPPOLYTA#just though id mention that. i love how much shes motivated by love and i also love when she makes fucked up decisions bc of that and has to#live with them. woman of all time FOR REALS#god this is making me want to reread historia again lol bc its the one ww comic i own. also its fire. and hippolyta gets to make shitty#decisions motivated by emotion and live w the consequences. and the comic is actually good unlike when that happened in the messner-loebs#run. which was the other instance of that ive read rlly. 10000% sure there are others but i havent fully gotten there yet.#i mean ive read other comics where she makes painful decisions thats like her whole deal but there are different vibes to those than the two#i mentioned. like the exile thing in ww year 1 or rlly anytime she has to send diana away
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im seriously so obsessed with brassius and hassel’s “transgenders who met when they were in their teens/early 20s, sought solace in each other while going through the toughest times of their lives, then made it into adulthood, which eternally bonded their souls” energy
#like I’m obsessed w how brassie looks gloomy and depressed but he’s really… so cute and energetic when you meet him#i like to think that hassel being there for him is what created this gap moe…#old men HEALING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEING THERE FOR EACH OTHER#ITS IMPORTANT TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#THEYRE TRANSGENDER BTW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#(inarticulately) it’s very resonant. (he does not elaborate.)#pokemon sv#brassius#hassel#its about being kind of young and stupid and not being able to care for someone perfectly but holding in your heart so strongly#that you want a better future for them#IMPERFECT LOVE!!! THAT IS GETTING BETTER AS TIME GOES BY#ITS ABOUT LOOKING BACK AND BEING AMAZED AT HOW YOU GOT HERE AND HOW DESPITE IT ALL OOMF (LOVE OF YOUR LIFE) HAS BEEN HERE FOR IT ALL#it’s about. Old men living the transgender dream#it’s about. transgender old men.#I do call them old men bc it rolls off the tongue but I do think they have genders. these old men are my mothers btw#if I think about them too hard I start getting so emotional like liquid pouring from every orifice in my face#those old men are MARRIED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#^on the topic of them having genders I think they should both do drag . Twould be sexy#nvm who said that must’ve been the wind (looks away dejectedly like a scorned maiden) What… what was that… nay… pay it no mind
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How is it that after watching The Terror literally countless times, I still want to rewatch it?
#to b fair i just put it on as background sound. idk if ive ever actually given it my full attention all the way thru#if i met someone irl who liked the terror i would b insane at them. like if u meet me and mention narut0 i do that horrible cringy thing#where i actually get excited abt talking. me excited and enthusiastic? what am i a child? embarrassing#i try not to do it bc i kno ppl dont care as much abt it as me. theyre not gonna spend hours and hours thinking about tiny scraps of#conversations abt thr things i like. its not so fun to have a conversation of weighted enthusiasm. at least when im the one talking#im all for listening to other ppl freak out at me lol. anyway i wanna watch thr show again#and i wanna draw more scenes forever. partly bc its just good practice for faces. those old men r hard to draw#and practice for colors and themes? idk. its just like my favorite show. i love mini series bc they can do a neat lil story#idk what scene to draw next tho#like a dream sir. or like David young. we too r at the gates#unrelated
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everything i think about the logistics of the ecto acts/giw/ecto research both canon and fanon i have to point to myself in the mirror going this isnt supposed to be realistic it isnt supposed to be accurate and doesnt account for societal implications as well as the law making process pointing at my fucked up reflection and breaking glass
#how would the ecto acts get passed does this imply thag a) ghosts are already normalized in society and also b wouldnt there be more publicr#ppl doubt the existence of ghosts why would there be laws about it. acts are public knowledge#ASLO LAWS TAKE YEARS TO BE PUT IN PLACE R U SAYING THE SENATE AND HOR BOTH LET THIS SLIDE. A BUNCH OF OLD MEN????#the worldbuilding isnt supposed to refeltct reality me reassuring myself#THE GIW IS A PARODY OF THE MEN IN BLACK AND THEREFORE DONT THINK IT TOO HARD AS A GOV AGENCY#<<< me trying to make myself norma
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Another year closer to 25 🤡
#this is so depressing 😭#because i dont wanna graduate and i dont wanna move out for mba and shadi AND ADULTING JUST FEELS SO REAL WITH EACH PASSING YEAR#I JUST WANT TO STOP AGEING OR AN APOCALYPSE THAT ENDS EVERYTHING BECAUSE GROWING UP IS SO OVERWHELMING#just the fact that im in my twenties and not a teenager anymore is SO HARD TO DIGEST LIKE HOW DID THAT HAPPEN WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN#IM SORRY I WAS TOO BUSY BEING NUMB AND DEPRESSED TO REALISE I WAS GROWING UP AND I DONT EVEN REMEMBER MY 20TH FROM LAST YEAR WHICH IS SOON#GONNA BE 2 YEARS AGO AND THEN ILL BE 30 IN A FEW YEARS AND ALL OF THIS—MY LIFE— WILL FEEL LIKE A BLUR LIKE HOW DOES THAT HAPPEN#im deleting my tumblr on my 25th birthday. thats it#also a very serious question (istg im not being cocky) how do people in their early 20's decide they wanna get married or have kids#because oh boy its like everyone's getting married young and having babies like how do you feel youre ready because that is some MAJOR LIFE#ALTERING SHIT#HOW DO U WRAP YOUR HEAD AROUND IT#HOW DO U FALL IN LOVE AND KNOW THIS IS THE RIGHT PERSON GOOD GOD LIFE IS NOT THAT EASY BUT PLEASE SHARE LIFE HACKS AS TO HOW YOU FIGURED IT#ALL OUT#like anytime i think about shadi its like no im too selfish to share my personal space with another person and then having to interact with#their family is all SO FKING DRAINING ESP WHEN YOURE NATURALLY NOT A PEOPLE'S PERSON#like how do people not get the urge to runaway before their wedding because holyshit my 19 year old self couldnt deal with all that#responsiblity and neither can this 21 year old#like its being stuck between feeling old AND young simultaneously like as a baby why would i want to have my own baby 😭#and oh god the pain that comes with it makes me envy men SO BAD#like its so easy for u to say oh yeah lets have a baby and its gonna be shared responsibility BUT YOUR BODY DOESNT GO THROUGH HELL FOR THE#NEXT 9MTHS AND EVEN AFTER THAT I KNOW MY BODY WONT BE THE SAME AND SUE ME BUT IM NOT LOSING THIS FIGURE AND THEN FEEL SHIT ABOUT MYSELF WHEN#I DRESS UP WHILE YOURE OUT THERE CHEATING ON ME WITH OTHER WOMEN#i know not all men do that but knowing my luck i know i wont be ending up with the exception so fuck marriage and kids and having a family#and then he gets to excel at his career while i raise this kid and then few years down the lane when I consider getting a job again ill be#way behind in my field and i cant be financially independent. how do housewives not feel miserable? how do u make peace with catering to a#family#ZINDAGI KYUN AKELE NAHI GUZAR SAKTE BHAI LIKE IM ALREADY SO USED TO BEING ON MY OWN I DONT FEEL THE NEED FOR A HUSBAND OR BABY#WHY IS THAT THE ULTIMATE SETTLEMENT WHY CANT IT BE A GOOD JOB AFTER MBA#at this point the only way out of all that is death before 25 and im manifesting that for the next 4 years#i missed ranting on tumblr so much omg this feels heavenly
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me telling lindy i think his lines are batshit crazy and he's showing chronic signs of overthinking that will absolutely cook us because he's acting moronic and it doesn't need to be this goddamn complicated and he needs to seriously consider seeking all kinds of help and i'm coming for his fucking job and tom fitzgerald will be hearing from me and i will win us the cup and here's how
#what the absolute fuck is this man doing . he is the villian in my story#it's always let old men go crazy until they act stupid and piss me the hell off! and lindy u need to go straight to the ward.#lindy spiraling and changing lines every fucking week just proves that he's the biggest moron in the world. there are lines that work.#devs have a game that works!!!! lindy heard playoffs and went absolutely apeshit and tried to change everything. what the hell was that abt#acting foolish w/ D (looking directly at that loser smith and the Choice to sit siegs and now bahl apparently) girl what the hell are u doi#and the timo of it all. and the way i miss lazar. and#all in all lindy i hate your guts and i think you thought way too hard about this and it's completely blowing up in all of our faces
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