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doughyduo · 3 months ago

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This is a Yuzu appreciation ask

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#muse: yuzu #things usually don’t go right for her #especially out of nowhere #she’s confused

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shima-draws · 10 months ago

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So my roommate is also into One Piece. I’m not sure if he’s watched any of the anime, I know for sure he’s watched the live action, but earlier tonight he came upstairs and watched a few episodes with me while waiting for a food delivery, and then he got hooked, and then he sat and watched MORE episodes with me without really knowing what was going on. But it was still wildly entertaining to him, esp since I’m right in the middle of one of the (arguably) best arcs rn, and now he wants to finish the arc with me LOL. NOBODY is immune to One Piece propaganda. Or Bon-chan 🥰

#Shima speaks #IT WAS JUST REALLY FUNNY #Like he’s been spoiled to a lot of stuff and has general knowledge of some things #So he knows (as well as I) about what’s going to happen to Ace #But yeah I’m in the middle of Impel Down and it’s absolute fucking CHAOS rn. Insane.#He was like. How much more are you going to watch tonight.#And I was like well I usually go until right before bedtime when I’m binging it #So he was like let me grab my blanky :) LOL #We started chanting PRISON RIOT!! PRISON RIOT!! PRISON RIOT!!!!!#Idk it’s just nice. I usually don’t get this kind of reaction to stuff I watch #My parents don’t like anime and my sister. Well she likes it but only specific series #So I couldn’t rope her into OP even if I tried lol #So having someone be like ooooh what are you watching it looks good I want to join!#IT FEELS NICE. OKAY. I don’t get that ever!!!#I don’t have the kind of family who would be willing to watch anime with me #And tbh I get jealous when my friends tell me they watch anime with their parents #I doubt my parents would watch anime if I were on my deathbed and asked them to. LMAO #Not faulting then it’s not their cup of tea which is fine. It just makes me sad #*them #Bc that’s just. Such a HUGE part of my life and who I am. And they don’t know anything about that side of me #Or about the things I’m into #Sorry didn’t mean to get emo in my tags. Anyway.#I was gonna watch more OP during my lunch break tomorrow BUT since my roommate also wants to watch more. I will wait :)#Never have to do that usually! Huh!! How fun!!!#One Piece

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sailorsleepymoon · 1 month ago

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Whole squad is in the discord vc except the one transfem friend before dnd starts and one of them refers to her using they asking if anyone knows when she’s coming. and you go. She said she’d probably be here but someone should message her :) also I noticed that we’ve all been using they/them for her but I checked her pronoun roles in a different server we’re all in and the only ones she has are she/her :) so we should proba

And you get cut off by the person who said it and one of the other people going “OH well I use they/them for everyone” and “yeah I just kinda always default to they/them” and “yeah same I just always use them” talking over each other and

And the impulse to bring out your academic essay from sjw university hits. There is the sharp impulse to go 🤨 you guys using they/them for her when we know her pronouns is degendering her and ultimately feeding into the larger structure of transmisogyny and

you ignore it and say ok well I think :) we should try anyway 💕 to use her right pronouns

And there’s the quiet consensus of like yeah ok that’s fair that’s true. and she joins the vc three seconds later

#ven.txt #the one other nb person in the group did go like oh you’re right that’s fair when I said it #so shoutout them they’re a real one #but I really did not expect the jump to defensiveness from the two friends !!! one of whom was not even the one who said it then!!!#and like the whole group has done it to the point where I once started using they for her because I thought I must be wrong #but I checked her roles and no it was she her. weeeee #but the immediate defensiveness really gets me!!! I had to be like noooo it’s not just you doing it ok haha everyone has #and the one who hadn’t even said it that time was the other who jumped to defensiveness is my boyfriend 😭#so I do need to talk to him about that but I don’t know when that’s gonna happen #since he’s been really struggling and feeling like shit recently #and somehow I don’t think going hey honey can we talk about how some of your actions are influenced and reinforce #the societal structure of transmisogyny? while he’s already doing poorly will go well #and like. oooooo I wanted to be the Soldier Ally who Explains Their Transmisogyny so bad in that moment I wanted to be the white knight #and there is a world where I confronted them and did that #but in this one I went. I don’t want to start a fight before dnd #and I don’t want her to join vc to hear us arguing about her pronouns and about transmisogyny when she’s the only tma person #and so I did not start a fight.#anyway. hope my boyfriend does not see this lmao #but he usually only looks at the posts I send him #uh if he does see this. I know neither of you had malicious intentions or wanted to be hurtful or anything #and I’m not trying to say that you are anything I just think that like #growing up in a transmisogynist world makes you absorb some stuff and some habits without realizing it #and that you should maybe be a little more careful and aware of your actions and thoughts and like how they could be influenced by that #anyway. weirder to experience the situations when you can put a name and systematic influence to the things happening when b4 you couldn’t

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cuteniaarts · 3 months ago

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Digitalised + coloured + redesigned version of my Suiren and Vaatu sketch from two days ago, as promised!!

Coming up with Suiren’s design was a very long process of trying and failing because after you’ve drawn 9+ different versions of one character, the creativity starts to run a little dry, but I’m actually really proud of this one, she looks absolutely adorable <3

(Also yeah I did mostly just scribble Vaatu’s pattern because who has the energy to draw the all out accurately. Not me, that’s who, I’m chronically tired. People who draw him on the regular have my utmost respect. He’s still a funky little guy though :D)

Bonus, Raava incessantly screaming inside Suiren (and being completely ignored because Suiren is tired of her) while all this is happening:

#and yeah I did say I’d do a fuckass background but all my energy went to figuring out Suiren’s design #plus I suck at backgrounds so.. woe. LoK screenshot be upon ye #my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #avatar suiren au #original character #sotrl suiren #vaatu #I don’t really know what to say in these tags lmao #usually I reach the tag limit really really easily but between my previous post and answering that ask I’ve ran out of things to say #someone please indulge me in this au I have Way Too Many Thoughts about it #hmm…#you know. I think people often make different avatar aus because they dislike Korra or think she’s a bad avatar #I don’t. I love Korra. I would kill and die for her #(says the red lotus stan. yes I’m well aware. no need to call me out)#and I think she’s a good avatar who was dealt a shitty hand both in universe and by the show’s production team #I’m making this au BECAUSE I love Korra. if Suiren is the avatar Korra gets to be a normal SWT girl #she’ll get to grow up with her parents. not isolated and degraded all the time for not being perfect. maybe she’d have a sibling or two #and Suiren gets spared her sotrl trauma too. win win for everyone!!#(I return Suiren gets the weight of the world on her shoulders lmao. but it’s fine. 1. she isn’t alone in it. she has her family #2. three quarters of the LoK threats are basically automatically eliminated for her. the RL are her parents. she fuses with Vaatu #and all she has to do to defeat Kuvira is to take her dress off 😁 /hj. basically. she’ll be okay. better than in sotrl at least)#also look. I love Suiren. she’s my dear child who’s been with me since I was 12. of course I wanna make her the main character in everything #and dark avatar Korra AUs have been done countless times before me. Kat’s doing one right now!! I just wanna do something that’s my own #and also I wanna focus less on pain and trauma for once and more on the sheer hilarity of the shenanigans that will occur post-fusion #cause this isn’t Adumbration where Korra lets Raava go and fuses with Vaatu instead. here Suiren’s got both of them at the same time #and they have 10000 years’ worth of grievances to air out. it’s like living with your divorced parents #trust me I would know. except mine aren’t divorced. they’re Worse and everyone wishes they’d just separate #anyway. that aside. Suiren’s not getting any sleep any time soon while those two duke it out

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itspileofgoodthings · 7 months ago

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Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——

#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her #like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’#she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel #she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love #and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy #so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless #like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now #because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it #just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11 #and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want #so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different #but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy #and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change #like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground #and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does #and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts #wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way #and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her #because she WILL find a way to win #but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL #it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is #because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say #ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her #and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy #of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants #and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands #like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time #and she feels every blow!#whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just #this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!

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spr1ng · 17 days ago

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i feel so at peace but at the same time so chaotic and drained

#it’s literally been wavessss of emotions lately #life feels weird w no friends or a partner but it is peaceful #i’ve been spiraling lately bc i’ve been feeling lonely #but i have to keep reminding myself that i’ll attract the right people eventually #right now i’m focusing on finding myself again and being content w where i am bc ive been so so so hard on myself lately #it’s better to have solitude rather than faking my personality around the wrong people #i deserve to be loved for who i am and i’ll wait to love the future people that come into my life #things will be okay and i know now that it isn’t time for a relationship #my first wlw crush and i are still flirting and talking everyday but i knowwww i cant get involved bc i still have sm to worry about #i do love her so much but we both have shit we need to figure out and we’d probably destroy each other if we decided to fully fall in #i’m ranting rn guys but this is the first halloweekend i didn’t go out and i was kinda sad abt it but im also SO glad bc i usually act so #stupid and dumb when i drink impulsively #it’s for the best #i don’t drink as much as i used to and that in itself should be something i am proud of #hehe anyways ily all and if you read this entire thing i love u even more #personal

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steviescrystals · 6 months ago

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i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school #so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away #i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute #and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with #someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over #so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job #not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people #and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie #or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn)#so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired #i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family #but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying #and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home #logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do #i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out #and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years #i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year #i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out #even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times #and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable #i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something #plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later #vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space #and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year #and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends #so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything #i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything #but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know #i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to #vent

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hershelwidget · 6 months ago

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I don’t know anymore have a Caleb prepared to Fight for his bestie

“she asked for no pickles” lookin scene

#his character arc from goofy tall guy to Don’t Talk To Me Or My Friends Ever Again is WILD #hershel’s octonauts au #octonauts gups #in all seriousness this scene is based off of the concept of lars making his way onto the ship #caleb and beast both want him DEAD dead #also to explain emma:#she gained a genuine phobia from the trauma of her experience with lars and has nightmares about him like. 3 times a week #bundle that info with the fact that caleb and emma are quite close and badda bam you have the scene #technically speaking emma did ask for no pickles. she asked to not Be the pickles.#i’m normal about these two specifically i need to study their friendship under a microscope #to ramble about caleb for a second sorry-#he had enough soup before his death for the effects to. well. take effect. and he gained a rather mild form of amnesia but still Amnesia #he doesn’t fully remember darwin but knows in his heart that darwin is important to him so he stays near them when possible #(as a result from the trauma of being murdered) he sometimes has moments where he Shuts Down #but he’ll still try to be close to any of his friends ; though those moments bring him closer to emma because she’s usually the one to #guide him when he does that (she does it too)#he wants lars dead because he’s being angry ‘on behalf’ of darwin and emma his two favourite people in the world #obviously thats not really how it works but that’s what he feels is going on #’if not me then who’ type of situation with this guy yk.#also ALSO one time he absolutely destroyed felix because he found out that he’s been manipulating emma so there’s also that #caleb is VERY protective about emma actually. most of the time it’s unnecessary honestly #it only really becomes useful against the other spirits or against lars #like in the picture !! woah it comes full circle i know right #thats my cue to post the thing . sighs . caleb i love you don’t let lars hurt anyone else

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abovethemists · 2 years ago

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The only ship I’m remotely invested in on Ted Lasso is Roy/Keeley so the fact that they’ve had about 30 seconds of screen time together in 6 fucking episodes and we didn’t even get an on screen break up makes me want to throw a chair at the TV like Isaac McAdoo.

#ted lasso #and they broke up MONTHS ago #and no one talks about it #like yes we know Roy doesn’t think he deserves her #so let’s get to the bottom of that #instead of Roy just being angrier than usual about a situation he fucking created #and let’s shuffle Keeley off screen to Norway with her boss/lover because who cares about Keeley right #she doesn’t need a cohesive storyline apparently #where is kjpr going?#is she even doing a good job?#the whole shandy thing lost her a client #we never see her doing her job outside of Richmond #so what’s the point #feel like Jack is going to end up pulling funding and that’ll be the end of that #is keeley succeeding? we don’t know the show doesn’t give us anything #the biggest disappointment about this season

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jimmyandthegiraffes · 1 year ago

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Absolutely weeping over a 60s tv show nobody else cares about

#I don’t know. there’s a lot to unpack #I just watched the one with the aviary #and I’m just rly emo abt jeannie/marty #they are both so fucking unhappy sometimes #I feel like sometimes it’s easy for the audience and for Jeff to forget that like #he’s dead. to Jeannie he’s dead!!#esp since in the last couple of eps Marty has been so serious and not in like. his usual panic-at-everything way #but in a way that to me suggests that he’s just. really unhappy #him being excited to show Jeff he can move a cup and then Jeff dismissing it #and I feel like it discourages Marty bc he ends up thinking yea whatever he’s right it is a stupid thing to be proud of #and then obvs Jeff is like okay now I’m gonna have ur wife flirt with some other guy like #nooo stop that’s the thing he’s SENSITIVE about lol #even tho I firmly believe that Jeff is right when he says that Jeannie should move on #I just don’t think it’s time yet #idk I should channel this energy into fanfic lol but I don’t have time rn #so I’m just. spilling thoughts everywhere #the fact that Jean is consistently SO vulnerable to manipulation when it comes to Marty #and the fact that Pete and her other friends either are oblivious to that or just don’t care #like in that fucking party where she’s sat on her own and she’s So fucking sad #and none of them go to see if she’s okay #and when she’s like hey I’d Really rather not do any kind of seance shit #they’re just like whatever come on don’t wimp out #like. they know of course they know. they KNOW she was bereaved recently #why don’t they listen to her when she expresses discomfort #like obviously it’s good for Marty that she goes along with it in the end #but they still shouldn’t be pressing her on something which is CLEARLY an upsetting subject for her #idek!!#anyway whatever #this is merely a FRACTION of my thoughts. I am thinking abt this show SO hard lol #randall and hopkirk deceased

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fingertipsmp3 · 1 year ago

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Why did I cancel therapy and then cry about it

#i bet that woman put down the phone thinking ‘yep we’re gonna see her again’#calling up two weeks later like hiiiiiii actually i’ve changed my mind. i am not well <3 #the thing is. i know i’m not well but the overall concept of unpacking all those issues with some random stranger makes me feel like i’m #going to throw up. in other words i’m resistant to it. which… idk. i just feel like i’m not going to get anything out of this until i’m #ready to accept that i need help. which right now; i genuinely feel fine most of the time #when i DON’T feel fine… brain worms. BRAIN. WORMS. but most of the time? i’m okay #the thing that has given me the MOST anxiety out of everything that has happened this past week has literally been the therapy appointment #if i can calm down and achieve equilibrium by just not going to therapy why wouldn’t i do that? i know it’s not a no brainer but it feels #like it is. like i know the anxiety is going to come back… i have a job interview on thursday and that’s going to be bad #on the other hand i still think it’s a normal level of anxiety. maybe i’m in denial but i don’t think so #i think i need to get my blood pressure down so i can go back on birth control. i’ve been avoiding salt really well and trying to move my #body more. my watch puts me at 111 over 74 which.. i feel may not be entirely accurate just because it’s a fucking watch #but considering i’m usually at about 100 over 80 i don’t think it’s far off #i really do think 121 over 85 was a one off. i believe it. i feel it #if i go back on microgynon my mood will stabilise so hard even god won’t know i have a problem #in other words. i can’t put salt on my potato wedges. :(#personal

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cuteniaarts · 3 months ago

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What if… Suiren in Vaatu’s colours 😳👀

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #avatar suiren au #original character #sotrl suiren #Kat once said. and I quote – ‘Suiren would look really good with Vaatu’s colours. you can’t argue because I’m right’#so here I am. not arguing and instead giving the people what they want #because SHE DOES look good in Vaatu’s colours #don’t get me wrong I love her in her usual blue. but the red & black just does something to my brain #lmao I’m picturing her fusing with Vaatu and getting like a magical girl transformation 😂😂😂#okay not really but. if Vaatu could fuse with Unalaq to become… whatever the fuck that thing that sometimes appears in my nightmares was #then he could definitely dye her dress a different colour if he wanted to. okay? okay #and he’d zap her fire nation bracelet into a water tribe one bc it’s important to balance the colour scheme 😤#(for the record this wouldn’t actually happen in universe I’m just messing around)#this AU is just way too fun to play around with. yes I will make my already badass OC into an overpowered Mary Sue who replaces the mc #what are you gonna do about it?#I can’t stop drawing stuff for it #focusing literally only on the fun silly goofy parts because there’s enough heavy stuff in other verses AND irl already #maybe I just want family shenanigans mixed in with a rewrite of LoK’s shitty politics? have you ever thought about that?#is that such a crime?#and most of all. this makes me happy and I like to indulge in it. and enjoying creating is already so rare for me #so as long as this AU keeps being enjoyable for me I’m gonna keep at it no matter what anyone says #avatar suiren is my little self indulgent concept that I came up with when I was 13 and waited far too long to do something with #so now I’m making up for all those years #sue me :)#(is it just me or have I been saying ‘sue me’ way too much recently. idk. my mom’s a lawyer* that porbably has something to do with it)#(*has a law degree but never once used it. why the fuck would she get one when she already has an accountant’s degree? hell if I know)#anyway random side ramble about my mom’s life story aside #what colour do you think a balanced avatar’s eyes would turn when they go into the avatar state?

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deathsmallcaps · 7 months ago

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For the record, goat milk can totally taste like cow milk if you have spoiled goats. My old job’s goats used to eat more scrubby stuff, and as we improved their nutrition AND they were offered more choice plants and less rough feeds, their milk was *chef’s kiss* perfection. I would’ve drank it anyway, but even the boss lady, who was not that into it, started enjoying it in the end.

found goat milk and wheat ale at the store. theres no way im NOT making a white gilgamesh tonite

#once I went away to college she dried them up because she couldn’t keep up #with the work load all by herself #which is reasonable #I was a decently priced employee AND right next door #she hasn’t really gotten better than that #next spring when I’m back in home state we’re going to breed one again!#the herd has sized down a bit and right now there’s an uneven amount #which means ones a little lonely #but our goats are so clannish they’d hate someone not born basically right in front of their eyes #so when boss lady has me around to help again #we’re going to breed Miss Lonely and let her keep a daughter!#if she has all sons it won’t super be an issue but we’d prefer to keep a daughter #three of the goats were sold off to a nearby farm who had bought their kids a while back #just like ours they’re pasture pets #so then we had four goats #two mother daughter pairs #unfortunately the eldest’s CAE started interfering with her quality of life so we did the right thing #ML is pretty much fine because one of the other goats is her half sister (basically) so they don’t all hate each other #but goats are mafia-like in their interest in the controlled family unit #and they pair up like I said #it’s usually mother-daughter or sibling-sibling #though if two unrelated goats are raised together by the same dam or human they become siblings

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danzsoldier · 11 days ago

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I’m still surprised that the catholic church’s attempt to be hip with the kids worked

#We’re giving the Vatican free fanart this is CRAZY #not saying this in a /neg way btw. I think this is funny #like usually when something tries to be hip with the kids with anime and memes it doesn’t work and the thing that successfully #gets it right is. The Vatican #and ig with a cute character design it makes sense no one can resist a cute character design #speaking of the characters please stop making inappropriate art of Luce in an attempt to show you’re against it cuz. That doesn’t rlly work #If you’re against her existence then like ignore her existence. Don’t draw her. Don’t potentially sexualize a religion and a character who #looks like she’s 7 #There’s no official age for her as far as I know but she looks like a toddler bro 😭 she should be at preschool not acting as a missionary #i think that’s the lore at least correct me if I’m wrong please!#catholics and artists of tumblr go reclaim her or something idk LMAO #I’ve seen a redesign of her that looked neat + had angel features which I think is awesome #I also saw art of her as a cleric but it wasn’t meant to be a redesign like the other artwork I just mentioned #oh my god I love Tumblr tags I can just yap all I want here. Is anyone even gonna read this idk #hi to whoever is reading this. Hiiiii :3 #but yea that’s all I wanted to say I think. One of the funniest things that’s come out of 2024 this year has been rlly interesting for me #In a good way #danny speaks #delete later #<- Maybe. Idk yet

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thesunshookwithjoy · 1 month ago

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(extremely long tag rant)

#sometimes it’s like ‘I have a handle on my ocd and it’s been pretty good!’ but that’s a lie actually #it’s just that I haven’t been constantly triggered and degraded in a while #but m’s parents are visiting! and they simply refused to do anything differently than they’d do it at their house #and listen. listen to me. I know I have a disorder that makes people moving things around in my house and leaving their shit everywhere #a big problem where for most it wouldn’t be an issue at all #and I don’t actually expect or even really ask my guests to follow my rules bc I think that’s unreasonable #I just have to fix the house every night before bed or I can’t sleep #but they keep staying up until like 1am and I’m not sleeping every night so I’m exhausted and I can’t wait up for them #so I wake up - house wrong. I fix it and then leave a room for 5 seconds - house is wrong. I go to bed - house is wrong.#I just get no fucking relief from it its constant. they don’t even push in their fucking chairs. it’s like living with children #and she complains about shit all the fucking time. ‘your floors are always so cold you know it’s not like that at our house’#okay well we rent so we have no control over that and also we live in entirely different places maybe houses are different here #she started making chicken - didn’t ask about a cutting board so she tried to use a cracked one I only keep as decor and THEN #she goes to start doing the chicken stuff after I get her out the right stuff and there’s fucking dog food out on the counter next to her #and she looked at my like I was such a bitch when I moved the bowls of dog food away. I’m not having raw chicken AND dog food on there #I asked them to not leave the dogs bowls on the counter too but that’s a lost cause ig. better than the diaper on my couch #it’s just constant and I obviously can’t just pick up their shit and tidy it the same way I can m’s #and he slides back into all these rude habits bc he’s around his parents again bc obvi that’s how they raised him so he regresses #I’m just so tired and I have another day and then they want to do 5 days for thanksgiving and 7 for Christmas #and I have to find a way to tell m that if they’re in my house for 7 days I’ll actually have to barricade myself in the bedroom #usually I feel like he and I are on the same side when it comes to his parents but lately I’ve just felt pretty abandoned and that’s hard #I had to take a benzo just to deal w them yesterday bc my heart rate was like 180 for an hour #AND I’m on my PERIOD #this was a long tag rant but I needed this #personal

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rosenbraut · 2 months ago

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My father just showed me videos he took of me. Words cannot express how I feel rn.

#wie kann ein Mensch so hässlich sein #my mother went ‘well if you’re this unhappy just go to a plastic surgeon’ in her usual ‘you are so stupid’ way but woman #I want to KILL myself. you don’t get it.#I can always tell when she mentally checks out for these conversations #she was with me when I said I hate the way my glasses make me look #because she hates them too lol and loves reminding me I look like a governess with them #but the moment I tried to explain how much I hate my face she got into her faux empathetic ‘just go and get your face cut up <3’ persona #she expects me to go ‘noooo haha you’re right I see that I’m a dumdum and have to live feelings disgusting! feminism!’#but the thing is I genuinely don’t think a plastic surgeon could fix what’s wrong with my shit without making it actively worse #that’s the only reason I’m not doing it #also because I would probably want to kill myself right after #because getting plastic surgery is acknowledging you’re ugly and I can’t live with that

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