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Wdym this didn’t happen go back and rewatch season 2 Julia “lost her bracelet”
#pinheadbellart#total drama julia#total drama wayne#total drama raj#total drama bowie#total drama mk#total drama#total drama island reboot#total drama island 2023#total drama island reboot spoilers#total drama julikate#julikate#total drama mkulia#mkulia#MK should do more stealing in season 2#idk if she stole Julia’s heart already#but cmon#JuliKate is RIGHT THERE#I would listen to their podcast#they should hold hands some more
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Maybe it’s my experiences with my culture and having relatives who are immigrants, but the conflict between humanity and the eliksni reads more to me than just a message on xenophobia.
To me, it’s also about how groups who have experienced oppression are often pitted against each other by the circumstances created by their oppressors to keep them stuck in a cycle of violence and mistrust with one other. This cycle keeps groups who share similar pain and plights from extending mercy to each other and joining forces to fight against the systemic forces that brought them both into a hostile state, which is exactly what those forces want as it keeps those groups powerless and unstable.
#destiny 2#destiny#destiny the game#d2#destiny eliksni#eliksni#destiny revenant#dude the beef between groups of people who need to stand up together over grievances that can be overcome needs to be talked about#i have experience with family who refuse to cooperate with people who look and struggle like ours bc of holding grudges#and who does the benefit? the people we are trying to liberate ourselves from#everytime the eliksni and humanity fight the witness rubs it’s hands together#we must stand together or we all will fall#both sides have valid pain that should be respect but more pain is to come if we don’t learn to be better to each other#just some poc thoughts#also stop treating species like monoliths to judge how they should’ve been treated thats witness behavior#eliksni vs humans is not exactly blanket oppressor vs blanket oppressed or Vice versa#it reads more like two desperate groups in two desperate circumstances who continue violence due to prejudice and misunderstandings#we are both two species who are victims of our circumstances and circumstances with ptsd Can make people irrational and desperate
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this is when Sebastian thinks that he’s being REALLY obvious thst he likes Eloise and she’s like “why is he being so weird🤨 I like it though…😌💓”
#and then I rip them apart😌🙏#I found a way to hold my pens so my hand doesn’t hurt which is good bc I would probably draw regardless#I want to do more scribbles like this tbh & since I don’t have pencils these days#I am going back to my roots😆💓#I have more scribbles too should I post them??????#next is probably more 70s au though bc it is really fun#and maybe angsty Ominis😆#plus some sebinis#and LEO !!!!!!!#wait I think Leo is my next drawing anyways I’m going to make him look so pretty😌😌😌😌#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc
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It's a time-honoured tradition- every time Sam comes across Izzy (and Ed) in their travels, he asks Izzy to marry him. And every time, Izzy turns him down.
At this point, Sam is asking more for the sake of it than any belief Izzy will ever say yes, a remnant of childhood dedication touched with 30 years of heartbreak and regret- though even now, a small part of him still holds out hope. Sam's promises have only got more extravagant over the years, from a job as his first mate, to a captaincy, a fleet at his command, a whole fucking island if that's what Izzy wants- but he knows it isn't though, not really. If Izzy was ever going to agree to marry him, to leave his life and go with Sam, it wouldn't be for anything Sam could offer him. Izzy never did care for flashy shows of wealth, for a ship or to be captain. The only thing that ever mattered to him was loyalty given, and loyalty shown in return.
It all comes to a head after Stede left and came back, after Izzy lost a toe, lost his leg. Sam hasn't seen him since before things with Ed started to really slide off the rails, before stress permanently set into the lines of Izzy’s face. So, when he sees a dishevelled man with a hoof for a leg in a no-name port, he doesn't even consider the idea that he might know him. It's only when he turns towards him, and Sam catches a glance at those oh too familiar tattoos, he realises this is Izzy, his Izzy, that stands before him.
Knowing Izzy's discomfort with pity, he doesn't treat him any differently than he would in years gone by, positioning himself in Izzy's line of sight before approaching and sweeping him up into a bone crushing hug.
“Israel-goddamn-Hands!” he exclaims, as Izzy grumbles back a begrudging “Samuel-fucking-Bellamy”, a tradition almost as old as their friendship itself. Izzy might not hug him back, but he can’t keep the corner of his mouth from twitching, just for a second.
(If Sam holds Izzy a little tighter and a little longer than usual, well. That's his business)
By the time Sam lets go, most of the crew has appeared in the town square, drawn in by the commotion. They may have given Izzy his leg and welcomed him as one of them, but still there’s an underlying tension, with nobody quite ready to set aside everything that happened before the Kraken. Seeing him cosying up to an unknown man sets everyone on edge, unsure whether to come to their first mate’s aid, or to assume that they've been betrayed once again.
When Ed sees that the yelling was Sam, his hand goes tense where it's held in Stede's. He knows the routine, has seen it more times than he can count, but as he watches them part he realises that this is the first time in a long time he's unsure of what Izzy's response will be.
Knowing that something’s different, knowing that Izzy's feeling vulnerable already, Sam doesn't go for the same flashy proposal he’s been giving for years. He doesn't promise Izzy the world, he doesn't cause a scene (or, any more of a scene than he already has, anyway). He looks at the fractured man in front of him, takes his face in his hands, and says the exact same thing to him he said when they were little more than boys. “Israel, I have to ask you. I know what you'll say, but I have to try. Come with me. Marry me and sail away with me. I'll keep you safe”
And Izzy… hesitates. He glances over at Ed, at Stede, and says to Sam “...We’re staying in port for a week. Ask me again then”
That's the moment Sam knows there is something deeply, horribly, wrong. He's not just looking at an Izzy who got seriously injured in a fight and is struggling to cope, this is something so much bigger than that- and that Ed has something to do with it. Izzy wouldn't even be considering leaving if he didn't. Whether it was negligence or something more sinister, Sam doesn't yet know, but he intends to find out.
#i feel like the little paragraph about the crew is real clunky and out of place but i wanted some kind of establishment of where those#dynamics are at. its important that the crew is something for izzy to consider in his decision; but also that their relationship isnt so#solid he would stay for them alone; yknow?#im sorta aiming for a s2e5 era but like. early in those themes. he cant be all sorted yet i need him to be struggling#anyway this is part of a much larger scenario in my head that im never ever doing anything with but i wrote THIS bit in a daze in like. jun#and i got thinking about it again and i think?? it holds its own as a 'hey think about THIS' snippet. idk you decide#youre welcome to interpret this as solo bellhands but in my head it Has morphed into sam/izzy/ed/stede#because i cant not put edizzy in things any more. izzy has two hands#i also think the comedy potential of one of your boyfriends HATING your other boyfriend is gold. 10/10 dynamic#stede is mostly along for the ride in this but also i think they need him#aaaaand. the sam/ed bracket i think can only be closed in exceptional circumstances. i think they 'hate' each other too much#...which is WHY someones getting kidnapped!!! yay#anyway its all irrelevant because ill never write it out. i can do silly chill things but thatll require work#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands#israel hands#sam bellamy#bellhands#i wanna also say. the general concept of repeated sam proposals has been floating around my head forever#it used to be a more silly thing like i referenced at the start but. s2 gave me angsty feelings i guess#i cant not have izzy have feelings for ed right now which inherently adds layers to Any bellhands scenarios i think.#but yeah. its a Classic Bellhands vibe for me. sam seeing izzy at sea or on shore and asking him to marry him (again)#i like to do this with jackie too. i think i just want that man to be obnoxiously desired#(theres also layers of my personal hornigold era lore built into this but i hope it holds up without u knowing it. tldr. sam lost izzy by#being an idiot n fumbling the bag. thats what matters. izzy went with ed and sams been trying to fix it ever since)#i probably should have readmore'd this but i didnt think it was Quite long enough. or had a good break point. sorry <3
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Hat Guy and Layla go dungeon-delving ❄️✨
#genshin impact#layla#wanderer#scaramouche#hat guy#fun fact the working title for this is 'BALLS'#becuase look theyre holding balls in their hands#this is my dehya-wanderer and cryo natlan enemy-layla#i wanted to draw some more of my edits interacting with each other#anyways these two make a fantastic pair#both aesthetically and gameplay-wise#i think they should be friends#art#mine
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the thing about bruce trying to kill the joker is that people always leave it at 'superman stopped him', which is only partially true. superman does stop him but only during the assembly itself. as soon as he's inhaled all the joker gas, he says, "Batman, he's all yours."
he lets bruce have him, and he doesn't step back in until it's time to pull bruce from the water. maybe this is just because it took him a while to dispose of the gas, but i've always seen it as superman essentially giving batman permission of a sort to do what he needed to do.
maybe clark didn't know what bruce would choose - whether he would lock the joker up or put him six feet under - but he trusted bruce's judgement. maybe clark was sure of bruce's intentions, that he truly believed that bruce would do the 'right' thing. or maybe clark knew that bruce was going to kill him, and he took a step back. i don't know if we're ever told, and i don't think i want to know. i just think it's very interesting.
but bruce did fully try to kill the joker. nobody could stop him, and in the end superman didn't try to. the joker had literally been shot and the helicopter was about to explode and bruce left him there to die. the comic ends with bruce yelling to find his body, but thinking, "But I know they won't. That's how things always end with the Joker and me. Unresolved."
#this is more word vomit than anything#i just think it's so much more interesting with the context that bruce was not stopped. he was momentarily paused but he was not stopped#i just see posts all the time like 'imagine jason finds out that it's because of clark that the joker's still alive'#and it's just. that's not really what happened. you know?? like it's definitely fun to play with#and you should stick with that if that's what you like i just prefer this version of events#i do think it was clark letting bruce make his own choice though. like supes leaving and then coming back at the end to grab bruce's hand#to me says 'i know you need to do this alone but i am here with you. whatever you choose i will hold your hand regardless.' you know??#i'll make a real post about this at some point i'm just rambling right now#bruce wayne#batman#jason todd#red hood#<- tagging him because it's about his death#batfamily
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when you're into the Big Ship™ in a Big Fandom™, you have the luxury of having an OTP - a real One True Pairing, where you can read about just them for ages, and you will never run out of fics, and everything is perfect and beautiful and nothing hurts
but when you go to a smaller fandom, you'd better pray to whatever god you worship that someone else in this room ships the same thing that you do, and that if they do, they're writing more than late-night crackfic, because you're on thin fucking ice!
and how small is your small fandom? is it less than 100 fics? maybe even...less than 20 fics?
welp, then it's time to make peace with that god and either open up a text document or learn how to ship everything, because it's swim or drown babey! and your ship is sinking fast
anyway all of this is to say that after hanging out in small fandoms and shipping less-common pairings for a while, going back into a Big Huge Fandom™ is wild because suddenly it's like...wait, why didn't I ship these people again? I don't remember. why was I only sticking to one ship in this fandom?? boring of me, honestly. these guys should make out.
#sbs rambles#fandom#fandom stuff#ao3#basically. I hung out in superwholock for so long back in the day#but then I got weird and cool and moved on to smaller and older and stranger fandoms#and decided to throw a party and have fun and enjoy all of the small and weird in those fandoms#and now rewatching media for a big fandom I'm like. huh. sucks to be everyone else I guess. they're missing out on some wild dynamics here#because I'm havin a blast#and like. when I mean small fandoms I mean SMALL#my one fic I wrote for one tv show makes up 25% of that entire fandom on ao3#(double checks)#oh!!!! new fic in the fandom!!!!#my one fic only makes up 20% of that entire fandom on ao3!!!#time to throw a fuckin party! 🎉🎈🎊🥳#anyway it's really funny because based on this some folks are going to assume what ship I'm into in a Big Fandom now#but buds. you can laugh at me#I'm thinkin about sam and cas#what's up with those guys?#fucked up actually. they should hold hands about how much they love dean#:')#but also supernatural is way more fun if you watch it out of order#that's what I've realized#now if only the RNG would give me something in season 1 or 2 T_T#also if you're at the point of reading fic on livejournal or wattpad in the year 202X you've reached ''small fandom'' status#that's the rules
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brodinsons absolutely would mess with earth in the funniest ways idk what to tell you Thor will go on live news and relay a sob story about how Loki is his beloved wife who has been lost to a mind madness and he wants him to return but alas he is a villain on Midgard now and so Thor stays as well hoping that some part of her will recognise him and they will reunite. And then Loki goes on another channel and says yes that's all true I will castrate him promptly for wronging our vows.
#and then loki joins the avengers and the news coverage only gets more confusing#because there was already the very obvious brother thing#so peopke figured that much out#but now they're like misconstruing the pocky challenge and doing random trends even though they're often family or couple ones#loki: ok the pocky stick looks ready? do i just eat the other side?#thor: mmmMhggMMM mmm 👍#loki: mmm]]mmh noww whaftmtm#and then they just chill holding the pocky until bruce or someone ends up walking in and they break it off to cut the video#like there i NO WAY you are getting any actual info from them about anything#thor makes some rude joke during an interview and loki just carries it on like#yes it is of great prestige to refer a warrior as... thick. referring to their bounteous muscles of course. for example you may witness thor#his riches are noted beyond the nine realms. hence when i say bouncy i refer to his practiced muscles#as is the elasticity of such large. muscles.#the interviewer: *clears throat* ah. this has been very.. informative. thank you. do continue to share on culture differences you have noted#loki: yes well if someone should offer thor their hand as he is of concerning age to be unmarried. he is far older than me you see...#thor will be chased for months
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My mental health dipped significantly last night. Time to look at VAT7K content to generate serotonin and get me though my maladaptive daydreaming and dissociation.
People please send me your wildest headcanons, hot takes, or just tell me your favorite Tangled or VAT7K character and why.
#vat7k#*holds out hand like a beggar*#Please kind traveler would you give this poor woman your hot takes?#tangled the series#ill also take some fic recommendations#varian#hugo rottewange#varigo#maybe i should offer my own headcanons hot takes and fav character#headcanon: Hugo cuts Varian's hair once they become friends and continues to be his personal barber after their journey's end.#at some point in their trip Varian's hair just gets too long and in his way and Hugo catches him about to chop it off but stops him#Hugo offers to trim it and Varian isnt sure because hes not the biggest fan of Hugos undercut but allows it#Hot take: despite being the youngest in the group Yong is the most self actualized.#sure he accidentally causes explosions but hes true to himself and accepts his shortcommings without letting them hold him back#Favorite character: Hugo Rottewange#he's the moment he's an icon#but best of all he's a little shit#what can i say? i like blond bad boys that are just dealing with the trauma of being raised by adults using then for their own gain#and end up having their on realization of what friendship is how their importance is not tied to their usefulness#and fall in love with a dark haired character that teaches them to be more honest with themselves#*puts Hugo and Hunter from TOH away in my box of favorite characters*
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Time for more parallel!
The framing of these 2 scenes are quite similar, aren't they?
Remake
Rebirth
They both focus on the condition of Sephiroth, while Remake frames Aerith like she knows that he's still alive, Rebirth lets Tifa questions Sephiroth mysterious 5 years gap absence. Which leads to quite an interesting situation:
Cloud, who used to have his suspicion, is now even more sure of his knowledge about Sephiroth at the end of Rebirth. So he's likely to not gonna change his mind about Seph, as in he firmly believes that he knows the truth. Which, as we all know, is gonna bite him in the ass one way or another.
Aerith definitely knew about Sephiroth more than she lets on. But throughout 2 games, either intentional or not, she refuses to tell people the whole picture and seems to follow her own plan. Seeing the end of Rebirth, let's assume that her plan works. So Aerith had reason to not reveal her full knowledge to the gang and also has no way to tell us anymore with the way she is now.
Which leave us with Tifa with her titbits and intuition against the big mystery. So far she has 3 important questions:
What is messing with Cloud's mind?
What is Aerith's secrets about the future?
What is Sephiroth up to?
And for now, she knows that Cloud believes his unstable mind is due to SOLDIER's cells degrade, that Aerith has her memory taken away by the Whispers, that Sephiroth is fighting with the Planet and losing (at Gongaga at least). But as the story goes, she becomes more lost.
Both Cloud and Aerith are out of question now, so the only one can give Tifa the all answers is Sephiroth. But obviously she won't get anything directly from the man himself. Bold guess, but I think Tifa will involve in some way in Vincent's arc in part 3 since his story is so tightly tied to Sephiroth. No matter how Vincent arc turns out, there's no way Tifa won't get something out of it. Either she knows how he messes with Cloud or what's he been doing in those 5 years.
If Vincent arc doesn't give her all the clues then the Weapons are next in line. She's already had some ideas about the Lifestream works, next is how the multi worlds work. I believe Tifa is smart enough to figure that out by herself. I mean, she comes up with this on her own
Making Tifa our lead will be the right choice since she's in the dark about everything as much as we do while not so blindly determined like Cloud or so omniscient like Aerith. How cool it'd be if we can see Tifa playing detective in part 3 and slowly piecing everything together to clear up all the mysteries, not just with Cloud's memory problem but also Sephiroth's plan and the principle of multi worlds.
Tifa has always been the one staying behind to observe and analyze the situation in 2 games, it's time she steps up and makes her move in part 3.
#tifa lockhart#cloud strife#aerith gainsborough#sephiroth#ff7r#ff7#ff7 rebirth#ff7 remake#Like please. I actually need her to hold my hands and explain how all of this bullshit work#They make all these twists so damn convoluted. They're less intriguing and more confusing now#I don't think even the devs know what they're doing#But if they do then they should know Tifa is the best choice to play the detective here#Cloud is gone baby. Lost in his world#They better make Tifa explains it like I'm 5 to us#Cos that damn multi worlds plot line can go to hell if it just does whatever the plot demands#No. Give me a proper lore about it fucking works and it better makes sense!#It has to follow some kind of rules and it better helps the narrative#If it does nothing but overcomplicate everything and ruin the narrative then it has to GO
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#you know if every house you move into is riddled w ghosts maybe its not the paranormal but the person u r living w...#or maybe the ghosts r trying to warn u abt smth😭#one braincell one braincell one braincell#literally so in sync!!!4!4#Ks hand is getting closer and closer to T on the back of that couch...#yes u should hang out some more. go ahead pls.#(atp not even just words. they say the same sentences at the same time. its happening. they r merging into one.)#compliments!#THE INTIMACY OF KNOWING EACH OTHERS FAMILIES#FOR GODS SAKE. I CANT TAKE IT😭😭😭#cute that we have finally arrived to them admitting that they r besties. we may be actually getting somewhere.#(give them another 10 years and maybe they will manage to actually hang out? dare i dream!)#fucking love this dress on T!!!#they keep finding new and exciting ways to grab and hold eachother🧐#“a three body problem is that im in a committed relationship-” hmmmmmm#K asking T abt videogames! so cutesy!#well at the end T did manage to fuck Ks wig off (just an ep later)#also her hand placement! hello!?#trixie & katya#trixie mattel#katya zamo#iltw#trixya
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dang.. so bee spent all this time getting back to her "home" (as you siad is not really her home) just to never feel anything again? to realize that the pepole she cared about and loved on fusionsprunt and on that planet and the happness she felt while being a robot/ humaniod being she would never feel again..
and she didn't know that reaching the point of becoming the comet again she would feel this way? this is so sad to me. if she cant think anything. if shes just there, like an infinite object, AND SHE CAN NEVER GO BACK EVEN IF SHE WANTED TO? 'PFJBKNSLGPDOJLVDSFJ (MB for the rant starbs, sorry if this makes no sense i panicked)
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#ALSO PICTURE THE THIS:#The reason B2 found a way back home is 'cause she had a reason to leave anyway#and at this point Hunter's told her the truth#some... very saddening and heartbreaking things happen from there and beyond and i'm gonna spare y'all from details-#but Bee must feel so conflicted about desiring a life with Hunter and Guto and also holding grudges after what he did#because though Bee was happy it was just because she thought things have moved on and her past wouldn't come back to haunt her#but it did and that betrayal surged from someone she loved so deeply#on one hand Hunter would've told her the truth on the very moment they reunited#but bcs Fusionsprunt needed protection and assurance he decided it was best not to risk losing B2 to Bortom City and starting another war#so he lied. and continued to lie. and lie more. until the war was over and the dust had settled#but that took so long to happen and by the time it was finally over Hunter started having doubts#should he be honest and tell the truth or should he let her be clueless and happy?#and oh boy being in love with Bee did play a huge part in this#he would have proposed to her that New Year if things were different.#fusionsprunt#inbox
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Meet me in No Man's Land...
#horizon forbidden west#hfw#hfw photomode#SunhawkSeptember2023#HawkAndThrushMicrobang#i just feel they should hold hands#and kiss#and then hold hands some more#aloy#talanah khane padish#hawk and thrush#aloy x talanah
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Hot take of the day is that I think sanderson not letting adolin murdering sadeas have any real consequences killed like 95% of interesting debate on the morality of it
#it serves some narrative point on some character arcs#but it could have been so much more interesting than sanderson made it#like right now it’s just kinda pointless#to talk about#nobody cares about sadeas so it’s not emotional#and the closest we can get to a philosophical debate is adolin and dalinar being kinda awkward about it#which again would have been interesting if anything actually came out of it#but it didn’t#now it’s just a question of whether you should be allowed to take the law into your own hands like that#which I think could be very interesting if we took a look at the power position adolin holds#as highprince and heir etc.#should he be allowed to make that type of decisions#sadeas was an asshole but how does this play into how he solves other conflicts#if not for his dad and cousin being the ones in charge would someone else be treated differently#this type of thing was exactly why people didn’t want to work with the alethi to begin with#what are the political implications#blah blah#even if saying ‘yeah it was right it was necessary and sadeas sucked’#it would have been more interesting if there was anything to compare it to rather than just#‘well now we don’t have to deal with sadeas anymore that’s convenient’
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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leviathan time... hehehehe
#el plays kotor#putting the skyrem modding project on hold after all!!!!#i need to do sth else im getting tired of installing mods n sorting out load order conflicts all day#i think i might have to reload a save before the capture tho bc i chose mission to bust us out...#thought her stealth and security skills would be useful... but there's some combat too and she's kinda helpless on her own#maybe hk or jolee should do it instead. or candy#also i didn't want to tell saul anything so liah had to watch carth get tortured and im like. idk. idk. would liah actually do that#like on one hand she wouldn't want carth or anyone to suffer bc of her... on the other she doesn't want to give the sith any info...#idk maybe her colder more pragmatic side would show itself in a high stress situation like this. but idk#oc: liah
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