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bakerstreet-and-beyond · 3 days ago
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Hey please be careful in sharing things like this because a number of these things folks are claiming you can't search/get flagged since the Ban you very much still can search and or were things that were already being flagged for review BEFORE the 19th ...
Like- did we all forget talking about this over a year ago when there was a decrease in Pro-Palestine content due to outside suppression on the app or when real time Lives of fighting in Ukraine were being taken down? There's a reason why people on TikTok were using 🍉 and 🌻 instead of the flag or actually naming the countries.
Also the majority of negative comments being flagged about these awful people is because it contains the word "Fuck" which on Tumblr y'all've been dunking on how on TikTok you couldn't/can't say, "Fuck" "Kill" "Sex" "Die" etc in comments and descriptions for YEARS... Literally if you put those words in as tags, descriptions, captions or comments you get flagged; We've known this for A WHILE.
They took 170 MILLION users offline and then back, some issues people are reporting are literally growing pains of putting the servers in weird limbo life support after taking them down (technically the app is STILL banned) like the Live Feature needing about 24hrs to come back online and quality being nuked.
Certain users are missing or aren't uploading anymore because they deleted the app not because they are "Banned", which still since the app itself IS STILL technically banned, you can't re-download in the app store currently. We all thought it was the end and some actually deleted their accounts the day of because of how sure folks thought it was over.
Also the primary editing software people use for TikTok, Capcut, isn't back either because of this purgatory the app is in so people can't even make the videos they normally make too.
Under the cut here the actual results when you type in those terms into TikTok search and what I saw for Lives literally 48 hours ago
When Lives Feature came back on literally the first Live I got on my FYP was for a MLK Day parade and it was someone zooming in on a sign a little girl was holding that said "This is the Kings day, NOT his" followed by the next Live got was a gentleman walking around his neighborhood speaking in Spanish about how he's been up all morning checking out suspicious trucks in his neighborhood worried that they may be undercover ICE vans. Next Live I saw was someone talking about how no one can see her live and yet there was 5,000 people watching 🧍🏻the next video I literally got was a Luigi Update; unfortunately I didn't realize I should've taken screenshots of all this but also,
I'm in the US and not using a VPN, here are my results for the following as of 1/22/25:
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The Radio Station only comes up as a banner at the top suggesting the account but, all the results are tho what you'd expect
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These videos also are still here,
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And this is what you get for searching "Fascism"
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And our boi is still very much here
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I hit my photo limit, but I implore you to type those terms in that supposedly have "no results anymore" and see they very much do and or realize that some things have already been removed well before the 19th
I really think letting us purposely spread that the app is now overly censored and the Meta buyout rumours is a tactic to further divide us. I really think, right now at least, the only thing they had to do was put "Thank You Donald Trump" in the return message, without having to actually change anything else, and then let folks go wild with the accusations, rumors, and conspiracies so then we all turn on the app ourselves and thus we won't cry about it being gone or that it gives us some falsely created moral high ground for deleting it/not using it anymore/etc and again will keep us more divided than together.
Literally this is destabilization tactics our government uses on other countries and it's own communities...
Thankfully there are creators on there who are also pointing this out as well as, just look at the comments on this post and you will see that others are saying, again in the US without a VPN you can still search these things in the post above.
It doesn't excuse the other fuckery definitely happening by any means but, they are letting us destroy ourselves and the 3rd space we created where we were the most united we've been on a platform in a while. They know how to push our buttons and we're all being played.
Already seeing people on tiktok saying “I still hate trump but he ate with this one” like … babes … you just got propagandized … that’s literally exactly what he created this situation in the hopes you would say …
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nerdygirlramblings · 22 hours ago
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continuing adventures of omega!soldier
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Given the conversation you'd had with them that morning, none of your squad is surprised by your decision when you join them for lunch. You see a few looking relieved, and while it stings, you don't fault them. You know it's only a taste of the battle you'll have to prove you're worthy of being part of the 141. Still, you feel uneasy leaving them, not knowing what kind of CO will take your place, decide you'll work with Captain Price to find a good replacement. Someone who won't end up running poor Geoffrey out of the service. Someone whose secondary gender might be a leg up for your most promising recruits.
You've been carrying the signed transfer papers since talking to your parents, but they feel like they're burning a hole in your trousers. You'd stared at your signature on them all afternoon. You don't, couldn't, regret your decision, but you have an irrational fear that something will happen to them if you don't deliver them to Captain Price before the ink dries, so to speak.
The walk from the mess to Captain Price's office feels simultaneously like the longest walk you've ever taken and one that's over before it starts.
Once in the right building, you find his office without issue and raise your hand to knock. You hear your raps echo hollowly on the other side of the door, but there's no other sound, no other movement. You never considered he might not be in his office. You can feel your hands get clammy, and you work to control your scent. There's no need to flood the hallway with your distress. You refuse to give into panic, remembering the good-looking assistant whose desk you passed on your way in.
You walk back down the hall to the handsome beta, his calming sent of fresh lemons and cinnamon, a homey, spicy blend, permeating the space, and wait a few moments until he notices you. When he glances up from the document he's poring through and over towards his computer screen, he finally sees you hovering/ Smiles brightly, he asks, "How can I help you?"
You shuffle a moment and glance down at your feet, surreptitiously wiping your hands against your thighs and reply, "Well, er, I was lookin' for Captain Price?" You only hope this man knows where he is.
Curiosity races its way across the beta's face before he locks down his expression. "Captain Price doesn't come into the office unless he has to, ma'am. Can I help you with something?" He's polite, but his scent has shifted ever so slightly. In addition to the comforting scents of lemon and cinnamon, there's now a subtly bitter scent of coffee or burnt brown sugar. Your presence is clearly unexpected.
You hurry to say, "Oh, I have some paperwork for 'im."
Recognition flashes in his eyes. "You're the omega, aren't you?" he whispers in an excited rush. He leans forward as if to share a secret. "He did say if you came by to make sure I bring you to the task force's barracks." His eyes sparkle playfully, and the lemon and cinnamon are now accompanied by the thick scent of buttercream. He taps his keyboard a few times, slides the papers he had on the desk into the drawer, and quickly stands. He's taller than you, but not by much, not like the other members of the 141. As he comes around the edge of the desk, he loops his arm with yours.
He begins steering you out of the office building and around to the barracks on the other side of base. "Name's Adam, and I do most of the boring stuff for the 141. and some of the other specialized groups on campus. I'm the one you give your leave paperwork to or incident reports, requisition requests, things like that." He gently squeezes his arm against yours. "I have to say, I haven't seen Price or the others this excited in a good long while. But don't tell them I said that!" He looks a little scandalized about having shared so much with you so quickly.
You smile at Adam. "I won't," you chuckle. "Are...are ya part 'a the pack too?" You remember Captain Price telling you the task force was a pack but that one didn't require the other. If Adam works closely with them, it stands to reason he might be.
"Oh no! No," he says quickly, catching your stricken look out of the corner of his eye. "Oh! No, I mean, not that I wouldn't have been interested, once upon a time. But I have my own pack. My alpha and another beta are military here on base, and our omega works in town."
You're a little placated, but Adam's comments do make you more wary of being part of their pack, something your omega whines about. He must notice your hesitation because he rushes on. "They're a good pack. Captain Price is a great leader. He keeps them in line both on and off the field, and with such big personalities, even from their betas, it's a job of its own. You wouldn't think two big alphas like him and Ghost could be in a pack without trying to kill each other, but it works. Then you throw in the bundle of energy of Sergeant MacTavish, and it's a whole other story."
You're so taken with how bright and open he is you don't realize you've stopped walking until you're standing at a nondescript door on a smaller building simply labeled 'TF 141.' Adam knocks three times in quick succession, waits, knocks three more times, and throws open the door. His voice echoes in the part of the building you can see as he calls out, "Captain Price, got a lovely, lethal Sergeant here who says she's got some papers for you!" Then he gives you a conspiratorial wink and turns on his heel, walking quickly back in the direction of the base offices.
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avonne-writes · 2 days ago
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Once he and Bucky reconcile, Gale falls into a brief depression and ignores his hair — I would love it if you wanted to expand on this! (And anything from the rough patch they go through)
Thank you for the question! You probably saw the latest post since then. I talk a bit more about their rough patch there.
Let's see, a few things about Gale's depression afterwards:
Gale gets hired by NASA not long after he and Bucky reconcile. He goes through the application process, the interviews etc. while still reeling from the aftermath of the rough patch in his marriage. Still, he actually gets the job, and he and Bucky need to move.
This is, of course, a stressful change. Bucky is allowed to work more or less remotely but they both know he needs a new job long-term as well, and they need to find a new place too. But they go for it anyway, because it was Gale's dream and their plan for the future all along.
All this stress adds on to the issues their fight stirred in Gale, resulting in depression.
In short, their rough patch revealed to Gale just how alone he is in the world. There aren't many people who are primarily his loved ones and only secondarily Bucky's. He doesn’t really have a family outside of Bucky. The friends he has who are closer to him than Bucky (e.g. Alex) are more distant than for example Curt. This is something that Gale struggles with deeply in the period after his and Bucky's fight.
But, thankfully, he manages to climb out of this depression relatively soon. He meets Marge at NASA, he goes back to therapy and works on his relationship with Bucky.
Bucky is very sweet to Gale in this healing period. He regrets the way he handled their conflict (although Gale was just as much at fault). After several discussions with Gale, he understands why it affected Gale the way it did and he tries to do things differently. It’s difficult, because he has to be careful not to make Gale feel like something is wrong with him.
So it's quite an adjustment period. They're both trying to make amends and they both need to recover from how they hurt each other. It’s more difficult for Gale because he doesn’t quite have the relationships Bucky does. Rather than feeling comforted by Curt and Georgia, he feels ashamed for a while (this is only in Gale's head, they don’t blame him for anything).
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antispopausandstuff · 3 days ago
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what's bothered me for a long time is that stans praise SPOP for supposedly being a subversion of the self-sacrificing hero trope, when it's not the first, or last, piece of media to do so.
technically, the "i killed Gwen Stacy" trope ( it's a real trope, i'm not just pulling this out of my ass ) can be considered a subversion of the selfless hero, as, most of the time, the hero eventually has to come to terms with the fact they can't save everyone.
it's the first time for queer media, maybe ( though, even then, i kinda doubt it, since queer media's lived far longer than SPOP ever has ), but it's not the first to ever do so.
and this isn't to criticize the trope. it's actually one of my favorites to consume and write, as i usually relate heavily to the characters that represent this trope, and can be used as a metaphor for so many things, including the tragedy of martyrdom in marginalized communities.
but not only is SPOP not the first to do this, they didn't even subvert it in a way that's satisfactory or healthy.
for one, Adora was already on the path of healing when she stepped away from the Horde, the nest of her Atlas complex. however sloppily written it was, she was on her way from recovering, discovering her true self, realizing she's not responsible for everything, and learning to rely on others rather than using herself as the weapon the Horde envisioned her as.
and, though she didn't know it at the time, stepping away from Catra was good for her, too. healthier.
s3 was the strongest Adora's character was, because she stopped blaming herself for Catra's actions, and was done with someone she once called her best friend, her family, constantly trying to hurt her and deny who she was to control her.
there's multiple points in the story where Adora is in the midst of being controlled, whether through manipulation or magic, and it should've been written as huge steps for her character every time she was broken out of it and stood up against her abusers.
we could've really gotten into her psyche, how traumatized she really is, and how difficult her actions that aren't just habit, but a distinct part of her person, are to break. burnout, health issues as a result of stress, lack of sleep, and never knowing peace. we get crumbs of these, but the show is so focused on Catra and making the series as unseriously serious as a possible, that Adora hardly gets the time of day, even when it's at the peak of importance.
she could've been so incredibly realistic, wanting more than anything to have a choice, but being uncomfortable the moment she has it, because then that could mean disappointing or betraying everyone. exhausting herself so much that she's entirely broken down. a self-destructive cycle created by the people she loved so much that she was willing to die for them when she was just a child.
SPOP is not the first to subvert this, but it might've been one of the first to really nail on how completely and utterly damaging it is to constantly give everything you have to everyone around you.
i remember, at one point of my life, where i considered ending my life because i felt absolutely worthless in school. i related to Adora so much, because i could see myself in her, only putting value in myself to what i could provide, to what i could achieve, to what i could do to make everyone happy or proud.
which is why, even if there's weeks or months i'm not actively pursuing it, i'm still invested on rewriting her story. because i, honestly, feel betrayed.
Adora wasn't subverted. she was submitted. her psyche wasn't in the process of recovery, it was returning to square one, because Catra's desires were more important than hers, while the show painted it as a big choice she made.
her story didn't end in sacrifice, so everything's good, right? no.
even if she did make the choice, even if Catra wasn't a terrible person, that's not how it works.
one scene i really like in TLOK is the talk between Korra and Asami at the end of the series. they're acknowledging Korra's trauma, even if it's not directly said, and Asami doesn't blame her for being gone for so long. because healing isn't linear. she's just happy Korra is here.
Catra doesn't think like this, at all. she's still stuck on a promise she had broken years ago, and still insistent on blaming Adora, even in her confession of love.
people say she was ready to die, but she obviously wasn't. she's not happy that Adora is alive, she's happy that she had importance.
far above being a hero, Adora is a victim. and her "happy ending" isn't nearly as happy as people make it out to be.
so, if // when i have more people telling me to move on, i won't. they don't understand how much she means to me. maybe i'll never get to the point of completely rewriting her story, but i don't want to let it go. not yet, anyway. and maybe not for a long time.
she matters to me.
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yanderes-galore · 5 hours ago
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Fandom: Demon Slayer
Character: Kokushibo
Intentions:Romantic/Platonic
Notes: With a demon slayer! S/o. Maybe he'd try to “convince” f̶o̶r̶c̶e̶ them to become a demon?
Thank you very much!
Sure! Been a while since I finished the Demon Slayer manga so I hope things are accurate. I did HCs since nothing was specified.
Yandere! Kokushibo with Slayer! Darling
Pairing: Romantic/Platonic
Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Manipulation, Possessive behavior, Forced demon conversion, Violence, Blood, Slight gore, Forced companionship/relationship.
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The thought of him with a Demon Slayer obsession is... oddly fitting?
Normally a slayer obsession and a Demon wouldn't work all that well.
However, Kokushibo is known to enjoy a challenge.
His whole life he's been chasing strength, wanting to be stronger and fight foes.
He and his brother created the breathing techniques of demon slayers.
There's a good chance, no matter what one you have, Kokushibo will be able to read it.
All techniques are similar to one another in different ways.
Even if you made your own, Kokushibo would be able to pick up on what you sampled from based on your teachings.
I actually think Kokushibo would find more entertainment in the fact you made your own.
You'd give him a challenge to figure out and a new battle experience.
Battle is something Kokushibo understands.
Kokushibo would enjoy a demon slayer obsession because he can test them.
Kokushibo has always had a strange fixation on legacy.
He feels successors are needed to be properly remembered.
He chose to be a demon for strength, to be stronger... to be remembered.
There's a good chance you would spark the thing he has for legacy.
He would most likely want to see if you're strong enough to learn from him.
He doesn't seem to have an outright hatred for slayers.
He may not like humans, but he still respects a good fighter.
Kokushibo's obsession actually doesn't start until you fight him.
It's then as a slayer, perhaps even a Hashira, you prove to him that you learned well.
Granted, you can't kill him...
Although, you manage to be strong enough to cut him a few times.
All, if not most, are clean cuts.
Unfortunately, you could never get a clean cut on his neck.
Kokushibo's obsession would begin because he's impressed with what you managed to do with breathing techniques.
Now, you could make a fine fighter if you let him help you.
The issue is... most slayers are very prideful.
There's a good chance you aren't going to willingly allow yourself to be made a demon.
You aren't fighting to necessarily get stronger, you're fighting to make life safer for humanity.
How noble... yet it's such a fragile and weak mindset.
I like to imagine Kokushibo allows you to flee a couple times just to fight you again.
It's been a long time since he's felt oddly... excited to fight someone.
He will wait to propose a deal with you.
In fact, he even tells you during some fights he enjoys clashing swords.
You're great entertainment.
Even while he listens to Muzan's words, he finds himself wondering when you'll fight again.
Your style and determination has captivated him...
If only you saw the bigger picture.
One battle you're going to falter.
Each time you think you can read him, he unveils a new Moon Breathing technique.
You'll push yourself too hard... allowing him to get the upper hand...
Then you'll disarm you... probably literally.
It's then Kokushibo forces you into his proposition.
You've proven yourself to him countless times... so...
He offers you immortality and strength, in return for your loyalty to Muzan.
He'll even take you as his apprentice if you accept.
The entire time you're bleeding... arm gone in one swipe as Kokushibo points his bloody blade at your throat.
He acts like this is a decision... That you can choose this...
In reality, his desires have made the choice for you.
Even if you bleed out, tell him no, try to die on him...
He'll force you to take his blood... Muzan's blood.
Truth is, he's quite attached to this slayer.
Even as you grin and tell him to go to Hell... blood gushing from your severed limb and coating the floor...
Kokushibo quietly tilts your head to the side, a clawed hand cutting your skin more... until he cuts his own.
Even if you realize what's happening, you can't fight it.
He's careful on the amount, checking to make sure the transformation goes right.
By the end of it he plans to have another loyal follower to Muzan, and hopefully some form of legacy.
You'll hate him, it may even force fights between you.
Yet Kokushibo doesn't mind, he's always been rather reserved.
Your fights provide more chances to learn your style and break you down.
You'll realize your place soon....
He should have killed you, unfortunately...
He likes you too much to give up his sparring partner.
You're no longer a slayer, you're a demon like him.
Yet you can still be a swordsman.
Kokushibo takes you under his wing once Muzan accepts it.
You are then trained to be his apprentice, to learn your new abilities and hone your old ones.
If he's platonic, it's a bond between teacher and student.
If he's romantic, then he not only treats you as an apprentice... but his lover.
After all, you're strong enough for the title.
Even if you hate it.
Kokushibo is often reserved and cold.
The only time he expresses anything else is with you.
Now, as a demon, you won't ever need to stop battling.
Eventually you'll accept your new life of immortality, maybe even climb the ranks.
Kokushibo feels oddly... prideful once he makes you his.
Through Muzan's blood, you are now connected.
Even if you were fully prepared to accept your death... Kokushibo took that away from you...
Now you two will be able to fight endlessly, skills growing stronger... along with his obsessive tendencies towards you.
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shalomniscient · 1 day ago
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maybe the kid's bio parents had kept them some far away place for safety but a small kid's brain cant comprehend that idea so it assumes their parents just left them. i can see feixiao leaving for front line duty when they are asleep, so when it wakes up to no feixiao beside them, it feels abadoned again. when feixiao returns back to the base, she finds the kid curled up in some corner crying and when they see feixiao they run towards her and beg her to not leave them alone and that they will be good and won't annoy her ☹️☹️☹️☹️ i know her heart must have broke hearing their sobs.
if caiyi is alive when she meets the little kid, she's def seeing her little baby in them bonus if they are the same age. it breaks heart seeing how traumitized and heartbroken it is, always tries to cheer up the kid. she always tries to communicate the kid even if the convo is one-sided cuz she knows how isolated it feels.
other than feixiao, i can see the kid liking yukong a lot, maybe putting her up in #2 on the list of soliders they like. shes calm and isn't pushy like the soliders. the kid does become pampered a lot by the soliders, a lot of them have small siblings or families back home so seeing this kid just makes them want to have that closure of not being able to be with them at the moment.
military base isn't exactly best enviroment for a kid to grow up so feixiao will find the quickest way to meet up with r. it takes months for the kid to start falling asleep alone, they usually clinged to feixiao and r after they got close. weekly therapy sessions, i can see the kid getting into speech therapy since not speaking at such a young age can cause so much damage in their speaking abilities later in life.
when the kid grows up, maybe graduates high school, feixiao saves up all her holidays to be able to attend and seeing her little baby in a coat and a hat makes her realize how strong and grown up her baby is ☹️☹️
ok im done brainrotting sorry for yapping once i yap i cant be stopped 😭😭
i think it'd definitely be interesting if the kid feixiao found was more timid and skittish like you've described, because feixiao herself was the complete opposite when yueyu found her. feixiao knew from the start what she wanted to do; she wanted an end to the war, she wanted to ensure no one else had to suffer under the rule of the borisin. so for her kid to be more fearful would definitely be not an issue but a challenge to raise because she can't fall back on the way yueyu raised her.
she definitely becomes a lot softer with the kid. she wants them to feel safe above all else, and will go to great lengths to ensure it. her room while still deployed gains a few more knick-knacks instead of its usual spartan layout; whatever things for kids she can find on base she'll try to put in her room. so stuff like empty books and crayons so the kid can draw, a plush toy and the like. it'll be difficult for sure because those aren't things normally found on a military base, but feixiao makes it work until she gets to go home. she also moves her weapons to another room so the kid doesn't accidentally hurt herself.
feixiao would definitely keep an eye on the kid at all times if she can, especially around her troops. i don't think she'd let the kid even be alone with the troops, because most of the time they'll be armed to the teeth and it may startle or frighten the kid. that being said, there definitely are some she trusts more around the kid. i'd say moze > yukong, but only because in this specific moment in the au yukong is already retired and wouldn't be on base. moze, on the other hand, would, and i don't think he exactly "gets along" with the kid in the traditional sense but him being nearby does give the kid some sense of safety when feixiao isn't around because feixiao trusts moze. moze doesn't really "play" with the kid, moreso just sort of sitting nearby observing them and making sure they don't end up doing anything dangerous.
once feixiao returns from deployment though, the kid definitely warms up to yukong and jiaoqiu pretty quick. yukong because she just has that sort of air about her, motherly and calming, and the same goes for jiaoqiu but moreso in a chill uncle kind of way. they also warm up quickly to them because they can sense the amount of trust feixiao has in yukong and jiaoqiu. yukong and caiyi's daughter, qingni, is probably going to be a little older than the kid, but once feixiao's kid is more settled in they definitely become playmates. qingni likely takes on a more older sister role.
it takes a while for the kid to adjust to a peaceful life. i think initially the kid would be a little wary of r, solely because now at home feixiao's attention will be split between them and r, and it likely brings up some unpleasant feelings and fear of abandonment. but after some coaxing and talks from feixiao they'll come around to r, learning that feixiao has enough love in her heart for both of them. feixiao for sure gets therapy for the kid, and sits in when she can. she'll be so proud of them when they speak their first few full sentences, celebrating the achievement with a big dinner. she understands this is a battle her kid must face on their own, but it doesn't mean she can't support them as best she can. feixiao is very generous with her encouragement and it helps smoothen out the kid's journey to being able to speak like other kids their age.
there will definitely be tears at the kid's graduation, and really any big milestone in their life. she's also 100% going to be there, she dgaf. the xianzhou army can survive without her for one day. despite how they've grown, feixiao can never forget the way they were when she first found them. it's why she's so so proud of her baby and how far they've come. i think in some capacity it's healing for her too, in the sense that she returns to the battlefield over and over so that her kid would never have to. when she looks at her kid she sees all the reasons to keep fighting, but also to keep living. it's a very tender moment and the big strong general is all misty eyed when they step off the podium and run into her arms the way they did all those years ago.
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jewish-jonathansims · 8 months ago
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I strongly believe that the fan culture surrounding artists nowadays is wild, I have seen so many people acting like not liking every single song by an artist is a crime or something when it's completely normal. I am not going to make myself listen to songs I don't like because I want to support the artist.
That dose not mean that I am going to say that I miss the old them, because that's rude and as an artist (not a musician but still) I 100% understand that your art grows with you but that doesn't mean I need to love this new direction.
An album can be not my taste and that doesn't make it bad but it also doesn't take away from my enjoyment or love for their old stuff.
Something I can hate the direction an artist is taking, and sometimes I just think their new stuff are just weaker and that's okay.
I don't like anything zac brown band made after 2016, but I still really love their old albums and they are very nostalgic for me (I do not agree with a lot of the opinions stated by some people in the bend)
I still believe that 16/04/16 is cavetown best album and I think his last few albums are just okay
I don't like Melanie Martinez re-brend
I still like a lot of their old stuff and me not liking their newer stuff doesn't take away from that
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hiwherestheexit · 3 hours ago
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Fuck, that one hit close to home
When I still lived with my parents, they had three cats. One is still alive and well, one disappeared for four years before popping back into existence two months ago (which still is fucking wild but not what this reblog is about) and the last, the most social, dog-in-a-cat's body of the bunch was found on the road by our neighbor one summer morning
(Now both my parents and I do not let our cats outside, but we didn't know better then)
That loss hit hard. Everyone loved that little weirdo. My parents, my siblings, everyone who spent even an evening at our house remembered that fearless cuddlebug. The worst part is that none of us could say goodbye. She was already gone when she was found
I was already struggling with mental issues then, so that was the rotten sherry on the shit cake. But one miserable month after, I dreamed of her
My dream self didn't really realize anything was amiss at first. But the thing is, I practice lucid dreaming. I don't really have much control over my dreams, just enough that I can just walk away if I have a nightmare
So I do my check, realize I have way too many fingers for this to be real, look back at my cat and thinks "Oh right, you're dead, aren't you"
And this sucks, it's disappointment and loss twice over, but also... my cat is there. She'll be gone again by morning but for now, I can touch her, pet her, hold her, and say goodbye.
When I awoke and lost her again, I felt only relief. I never dreamt of her again.
I joke a lot that she came by to say goodbye too, but while I'm not superstitious, sometimes I do wonder.
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tw: death
Have you had any visitors lately? ❣️
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uncanny-tranny · 2 years ago
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Social transition being seen (by some) as this super easy thing that isn't as hard as real transitioning (medical) is bullshit. Be critical of the idea that there are some trans people who just "have it easy" because they are trans or because they are trans in ways you may not be.
Social transition is just as difficult, hard, and rewarding as medical transition. Maybe it is not as hard for some, sure, but that is not the same as thinking that social transition is inherently easier or lesser. If you're socially transitioning, your voice still matters.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#not to mention that so many people DO want to medically transition but *can't*#so it can be even harder for some when they feel social transition is their only option when they don't want it to be#but social transition carries its own risks and challenges and again rewards#and i've seen this idea plenty where it's like 'oh you don't GET my struggles because you're SOCIALLY transitioning'#and while yes i am different than some trans people to say i'm struggling *more* if i'm the only one medically transitioning is??? huh????#i don't buy into this idea that social transition is never scary because you don't have the boot of the medical system on your back#(though non-med or pre-med transitioning people still face issues in medical settings so even THEN we aren't seperate)#like there's very few ways you can separate my issues as a medically-transitioning person and the issues of somebody who isn't...#...and by that i mean there's few ways you can separate our issues so that mine trumps theirs or that i'm seen as like... trans but More#does that make sense?#medical transitioning is important but that doesn't mean it is *more* important or that only *it* is important#you can support us who are medically transitioning without erasing the experiences and struggles of other trans people#and plus... so many of us who are medically transitioning NOW are the people who socially transitioned THEN#and dare i say i despised social transition more because of how hard it was? medical transition has been (more or less) easier...#...in that i can just *be* now
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sysig · 1 year ago
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#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Sans#Papyrus#Another one that I cried to while drawing hehe ♪ Hhhhh I love their dynamic so much <3 <3 ;;#Sans' apparent disinterest in hurting Gaster is deeply interesting to me - we see him punch Gaster in Mercyplates even! :0#I can't help but feel that a good portion of it is Papyrus being there with him when Gaster gives them his arm haha#Would he have been as well-behaved if he'd been by himself? I wonder :)#But generally I read it as him having grown up <3 They've both matured so beautifully by that point it's just ah- such a treat to read#Their transition from their childhood to their teens and young adulthood into themselves is just jdlksafhdsfd it's incredibly well written!#I say ''I wonder'' quite a lot lol but that's just speculation - watching them grow into themselves is So Incredibly satisfying <3#It feels so natural to watch them become themselves ♥ It's beautiful ♪♫#And their sibling dynamic is truly unrivaled <3 They support each other! Lift each other up! Where one stumbles the other catches him!#I love them so much ahh#Papyrus' emotional intelligence gets me so bad <3 The sweetest lad#I feel like it would bother Sans that he/they have Gaster's memories and not their own#It makes me especially sad to think about everything he missed of them - if only you hadn't fallen behind on the footage Gaster! >:0#They already have some pretty incredible identity issues just throw being pieces of him in every sense into the mix#They're grown from him and even when they got away and built themselves that still got subplanted with memories that aren't even theirs!#It's a rough spot#Papyrus though ♥ Always knows what to say hehe#Reaffirming that Sans is the most important person to him - that they are to each other - that no matter what they're brothers#And that no matter what - even having Gaster's memories or being without memories at all - that Sans is a good person#That it's not out of self-preservation or trying to do it for Papyrus' sake (even if that is a lot of it haha)#That /Sans/ is the one making that decision of his own volition and his own morals and beliefs#And that he loves and supports him no matter what <3#''I know you can be a good person. You can choose to do the right thing'' and ''I see you being a good person. You're doing the right thing'#Hhhh <3 I love them <3
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tbh i think that even unwinnable fights should be winnable. some of the BEST fights i've ever run as a dm were ones i built kill the players (in a fun way. I had some cutscenes prepped so even the loss would be a different flavour of win)- but then they were clever bastards and managed to either win the fights or pull themselves out of trouble. I think it's perfectly fine to plan for a fight that players aren't supposed to win, but you need to let them. if they can't win, they can't lose, and the meaning of that encounter is diminished. do that too many times, and they stop trusting you to give them roleplay prompts and start expecting to sit there waiting while you drive the story for them.
but if they can win... if there is always the chance to win, no matter how impossible the odds, then they ALWAYS have hope. they always get invested. they feel the big emotions of success or the big emotions of failure, and you fucking Win as a dm/roleplay prompter/lead bastard.
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zorilleerrant · 20 hours ago
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I feel like omegaverse gives us a unique opportunity to explain why Alfred got custody of Bruce, especially if they weren't particularly close beforehand (also potentially an interesting dynamic). Because if he's an omega, but he either never had kids or got cut off from his kids, he could instantly bond with a newly orphaned child. If they're bonded already, it would be incredibly traumatic for anyone to try to take Bruce away!
I think the idea of an omega instantly bonding with orphaned pups would make a lot of sense, because then they would feed and shelter them in the wild. Maybe alphas are more likely to form this kind of bond with older kids (teens) because they need protection more than they need nurturing. Maybe bonded pairs would do this more easily, but Alfred was closest - or maybe a nascent bond forms just by people being in close enough proximity to each other (or pups specifically) and it was more natural for Alfred.
This is probably a known phenomenon, but rare in the modern world. History and mythology is probably full of it (especially Romulus and Remus, whew!) but, aside from lots of soap opera arcs, most people don't encounter it. Still, society might be very concerned about omegas being pre-school and elementary school teachers, but likewise concerned about alphas being middle school and high school teachers. Maybe betas would be the most sought after teachers all throughout! Or maybe betas instinctively bond with kids just going through puberty, because they need more guidance through it than any other age, and so they aren't allowed to teach middle school in case it causes issues.
This could be especially interesting with Bruce's serial adoption, because orphaning a kid breaks the bond, but neglect might erode it slowly over a long period. Maybe the bonds are weak. Maybe, despite strong emotional connections on both sides, the kids and parents just don't spend enough time together to strengthen the bond. Maybe the kid only has one kind of bond, not all three.
I think omega!Alfred could also have been Bruce's wetnurse (especially if you want to queer Martha and Thomas), which might form a latent bond, or else just make him care more. In that case, you'd probably lean more into the nanny thing, making him explicitly a nanny rather than a butler. But I think if you want to explore his permissive attitude towards Batman, the common omega attitude of trying to spoil the pups might do something!
Question, have you found many fics where Alfred is anything but a Beta and if there are not a lot (which I suspect) does this not feel like a missed opportunity?
I’ve seen a few where he was a weak(er) alpha, leaning more towards beta but still alpha enough to be given Bruce’s custody etc. I’ve also seen a few where he pretends to be an alpha or a more alpha alpha for the same reason. I think I’ve only seen one fic ever where he was an omega and it was a passing mention.
It’s an interesting question. I think he’s firmly beta for most people because of his caretaking role in canon. He’s not the strongest personality in the room but everyone listens to him. That fits a lot of typical beta characteristics. You’d really have to make an argument for other dynamics, but it’s not impossible in my book.
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starry-bi-sky · 8 months ago
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i have... ✨Danyal Al Ghul Headcanons✨ but specifically for my yaelokre danyal oneshot
There's also the tumblr post here but I recommend the link in the title because its the ao3 version, and that one is edited and has some stuff in it that's not in the tumblr post, and will be the version I'm using.
So for summary: this Danyal is also from a Demon Siblings Au where Danny is five years older than Damian. However, things turned out a bit differently, and Danny and Damian had a fantastic relationship with one another. Danny loved music and regularly came up with songs to sing to Damian with. Specifically the folk band Yaelokre's EP "Hayfields" (seriously go fucking listen to it its sooo good. Harpy Hare is the second song but its my favorite. Special shoutout to @gascansposts for introducing the band to me)
He falls off a train when he's twelve and Damian is seven while the two of them and Talia are on mission. He ends up with magically induced amnesia and wakes up in Arkansas while the Fentons are on their yearly Divorce-iversary visit to Aunt Alica, and since he can only remember his name, he ends up being taken into their care.
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Yaelokre Danny has the same facial scar as Things in Threes Danyal, since he was initially another version of him where things turned out better. I'm debating on whether or not I should take it away however, and give him a different scar (maybe from when he fell off the train?), just because the scar is a pretty key identifier for Ti3 Danyal.
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Danny frequently visits Aunt Alicia in Arkansas! Well, only after he gets settled in and stuff. He doesn't really like the city that much and prefers the countryside where Alicia lives. I know she lives in a cabin but I'm changing it to a farm, so she puts Danny to work and gets him to help her.
I don't want to confine his hobbies to only being star stuff, because people tend to have more than one hobby and I feel like it reduces him to one-dimensionality, so he likes to garden, and learns guitar. His room becomes filled with plants, and he turns their roof into a rooftop greenhouse right below to OPS Center.
He has a complex relationship with the weapons from his past, but he's not... like... appalled by it? When he finds his weapons in the Fenton attic all he thinks is that they're his weapons, and he starts carrying a knife on him afterwards. Essentially he becomes fascinated with weaponry because its one of the few physical ties he has to his past, and while he's not training like he is in the League, he allows his strong muscle memory to guide him through his katas.
Danny likes climbing things. This causes Problems For Everyone Else.
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Danny was not the "kinder Al Ghul" in the League. His kindness extended to his brother and family, and that's it. To everyone else he had high expectations out of them, and the pride you'd expect from the grandson of Ra's Al Ghul and trained by its top members. While he wasn't like, unnecessarily cruel or anything, he wasn't merciful either.
This transfers post-train fall as him coming off as no-nonsense and unforgiving. He's not fond of the idea of giving people second chances, and is skeptical of the idea. He's disgusted by incompetency and views it as an unforgivable offense, especially if he thinks that the person should know better, although he's not sure why. Some egocentrism for the soul.
He doesn't like being touched by anyone who isn't family, and gets irritated when anyone grabs him or holds onto him for extended amounts of time. Dash has gotten hit so many times. With Jack Fenton's tendency for abrupt physical affection, it doesn't make it any better. I'd argue it'd make it worse because Danny doesn't want to be touched more often than not.
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Danyal had a red scarf in the League that he wore on his last mission, it came off before he fell off and caught itself on the roof. Damian still has it and took it with him to Wayne Manor. He's got it locked in his room and takes it out when he's alone and missing Danny the most. One time he forgot to put it away before leaving his room, and Dick was visiting the manor for something and found it. Damian found him holding it and freaked out.
Dick could only say "I've never seen you wear this, Damian, this is really pretty--" before Damian shoved him to the floor and stole it out of his hands, before screaming at him; "Don't touch this! You don't ever touch this! This is mine! You hear me!?"
It caused such a commotion that the rest of the family present came to see what the fuss was about, and Damian kicked them all out of his room. Dick is the one brother Damian's the closest with, so the fact he reacted so strongly shocked them all.
This is likely what leads to the "Danyal" conversation.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#danyal al ghul au#yaelokre danny#yaelokre danyal al ghul#the yaelokre danny post didn't really go into him interacting with other people but i'm trying to figure out his personality post amnesia#just know this: he's not canon danny. im spitefully refusing to make him a Cookie Cutter of canon danny because the idea pisses me off lmao#he's complex and confused and morally gray even with the amnesia bc memories aren't stored in one part of the brain they're stored#in different parts depending on the memory and muscle memory exists and danny might not actively remember the things that shaped him but hi#body does. and somewhere deep in his mind so does his brain. his memories weren't destroyed theyre locked away in a place where his active#conscious can't reach. plus its magic amnesia and i have comic AND cartoon realism on my side.#danny's personality from the league doesn't get challenged that much by the fentons because danny's learning this about himself just as muc#as they are. Jazz can't “Fix” what's wrong with him when neither of them know it and Danny is always the first to figure it out and then#keeps it to himself. Also. Jazz has a fucking life? she's not the family therapist she has friends and hobbies even if we the viewers don't#see it. But also i just really deeply despise the idea that Jazz “fixes” danny's league issues just by existing and being the therapist#because it waters her down into a one-dimensional character who only exists in the context of providing emotional support and life advice t#danny. also therapy only works on someone that's actively trying to change. otherwise its just psychoanalyzing and people tend to hate#being psychoanalyzed without consent. which as a result may have them refuse help. anyways point is: i believe that growth is slow and#complex and danny would hide a lot of the stuff he discovers about himself because if there's one thing he still retains from being an#assassin. it's how to hide. he likes jazz but there are some things you just hide from people.#damian also told dick to “keep his filthy hands off his things”. which was also a shock because it sounded something he'd say more to tim#damian was distraught the entire time.#okay thats all i have for now.
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wardensantoineandevka · 25 days ago
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I see there's posts floating around directly and blatantly arguing against mine (same wording) by completely misunderstanding what I said. I'm fucking BACK, babey. Should've bought some hay-scented fragrance while I was at Sephora today, because I am once again your strawman!
#yes Lucanis has been told what he's going to do with his life for his entire life and has not been able to make a lot of choices for himself#this has no bearing on how he has no moral issue with killing people for money#which is what I was saying: he has no moral issue with killing people for money and some of you are clearly uncomfortable with that#because you're bending over backward to insist that he does actually deep inside have an issue with being a contract killer#when it is INCREDIBLY clear and he discusses this multiple times that he does not have any issue with being paid to stab people to death#I can't even discuss other aspects of Lucanis because you're all so unwilling to accept the specific point I'm making#which is that the text makes it incredibly clear that Lucanis does not have any issue with being killer for hire#he has no issue with the “killing people as a profession that he engages in”#he flat out dismisses the idea that there is any moral issue to be had when Emmrich and Davrin ask him about it#you all want him to have a moral issue with the core premise of “killing people” because you struggle with the idea he does not have one#because you're all very convinced that if he chose for himself that he would choose to have an issue with murder#but he doesn't#when he engages in what you consider “making it more palpable” to him it is actually not related to the murder at all#in fact the things he does extra isn't even un-Crow-like necessarily—it's just making things more complicated and less efficient#by avoiding doing things that are not part of the contract and thus aren't necessary to do even if it would make it easier#it is still not an issue with performing murders for money!#I know I'm repeating myself a lot here but people really are doing Olympic floor gymnastics routines to avoid what I'm trying to say#which is that the text is very clear Lucanis does not have a moral issue with the part of his job where he is hired to kill people#(also to that refutation asserting that Lucanis's “enjoyment” is derived from going after objectively bad people#how did you miss the part where Lucanis HATES it when people say that when THEY kill it's Noble And Good only)#(Also his contracts are not strictly Venatori. He has a specialty but he very much states he has non-Venatori and non-mage contracts)#DATV things#anyway I should write a follow-up post
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pubbee · 2 months ago
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I really don't think "y'all couldn't even handle Vivienne and Sera" is really a good excuse to have exclusively agreeable characters
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ihaveseentruebravery · 1 day ago
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Sorry was reading the tags, but I don't think you got off topic. Because this issue is multifaceted, right? Multiple things have caused this perspective that feels incredibly isolated (practically selfish) when it comes to releasing a god-eater on the gods.
1- No one of the Bells Hells actually served a god (fcg's faith came later) so why would a god have 'answered a prayer' when they were younger? The whole point of the Divine Gate WAS for the non-interference. So again...the only 'oppressive' god anyone would have experience with IN this group would maybe be Lolth. Whereas the ONLY reason they survived the fight was because of boons from the Matron, the Arch Heart and the Wildmother (seedling healing Orym and such).
2- as was evidenced last night, even in a finale arc boss battle after having JUST fought Da'leth, Laudna says she'll 'summon Predathos' best puppet Thull'. Even WITHIN their narrative Thull outshone Da'leth and his mission so hard that he wasn't even brought up until after when they thought he'd be back after the battle. Da'leth and his mission against the gods never even took hold in our groups' brain because it was so overshadowed by Thull' nearly TPKing them and them being annoyed at his monologues. This is either a narrative weight issue, or narrative comprehension issue and IDK which.
3- Because of the prevalency of these gods, and the Matron and the Wildmother in particular, actually assisting both these characters and other characters within the world, this decision feels incredibly tone-deaf and with a bad implication. IE, very 'im gonna be mad at these beings and ALSO not care that I only survived *because* of them'. Which again is just the issue writ large. The lore goes that the Betrayers and Titans would have destroyed all mortals and that caused the Schism. The Betrayers and what titans were left would have again, destroyed all mortals and the Primes in the calamity. All people left alive on Exandria are there because the Primes chose to end their interference with the Divine Gate. They were already self aware enough to stop their own collateral damage. And literally none of this speaks on the damage mortals have caused because of pursuals of power or whatever, like Bor'dor's story. As other characters have put it...that wasn't the gods fault, it was mortals. And again, here we have mortals not comprehending the power of taking out multiple powerful beings at once without considering what they defend against: ie, planar incursions or the demon-devil battles like the Blood Wars, or Eldritch horrors or like...pick anything that's gonna STILL threaten Exandria without them
4- even in the meta of dnd, you can have athiest characters that don't benefit from magic-your run of the mill fighter, barbarian, or rogue. But within Exandria's world, the gods gave mortals magic. So not only is this a baffling thing to consider when characters know that, even if they aren't characters of faith, and just thumb their noses at what power they've benefited from (their boons and items), of course this feels inherently selfish as well. And again, Da'leth didn't need faith in divinity to cause the sheer amount of damage he's caused, so destroying the beings people HAVE placed their faith in (there will always be the paragon of a paladin or cleric that will have been the sole reason a village is cured of a disease or protected from a demon lord), does not answer the question of if divine faiths are no longer there, what fills the vacuum? I would love for it to be general faith in goodwill and life (FCG), but you still have mortals (Braius) that go 'guess I'll look for evil avenues of power bc it speaks to me'. A lack of powerful beings and their temples will also not solve that natural inclination. Not that Bells Hells have to consider all people, but to take away what has proven to be protective in the past WITHIN this context is especially tone-deaf.
5- if we assume the outcome is wildly positive even with the Betrayer Gods accepting to be mortals...there aren't any possible solutions to any of the above that have even been voiced so they can be considered and talked through to a definitive solution. So we're left with a tone-deaf decision, from a deliberately self-imposed isolated perspective, a lack of consideration for the rest of the fucking world without an actual reason, on a paper-thin motivation of 'ending a cycle', while ALSO benefiting from the said power that is evidently So Bad It Deserves Its End.
Of COURSE that'd make anybody looking at this story and it's unfortunate implications go 'ummm....wait a minute...'.
I genuinely just can't wrap my head around how people look at past characters who have strong relationships with the gods, some of whom were saved by the gods and think "yeah we should rip that comfort from them" like what?????
I mean, this is kind of a fundamental issue I have with c3, right? It's about the previous text not supporting the reading we're being asked to make here. Which, since I've been rewatching the Mighty Nein, only feels more true after hearing something like "The Wildmother planted her last seed in the Barbed Fields before leaving Exandria for the safety of the world to grow the Arbor Exemplar as a beacon of life and hope that even in the face of desolation we can continue on" and to see her intervene on Fjord's behalf against Uk'otoa (a very aggressive, cruel, mechanically evil lesser idol that will apparently not be touched by Predathos, were it to be freed) and then come to c3 and see people talk about the ultimate tyranny of the gods, with no differentiation between the Prime Deities and Betrayers. And some of this, to be clear, I think is deeply exacerbated by fan spaces who will run a marathon with an inch of leeway given to that perspective of the gods on nothing more than a predisposition against religion. So you get caught between these two texts--the campaign itself and the fan response text--and it's like. what are we doing guys. what's going on. The idea of an overwhelming divine tyranny in Exandria feels especially disconnected from canon when we have examples of tyrannical governments like the Dwendalian Empire who are allowed to ban religious worship. And the lack of touchstones with common people and their perspectives additionally makes it difficult to buy into this idea of the gods in c3 specifically. The Hells feel very isolated in their perspectives, which I think is a detriment to the story as a whole and it gives the impression of an incredible lack of empathy for everyone else. The conundrum of ripping comfort and faith away from people has been broached by Imogen in the campaign! But no conclusion was ever drawn and it hasn't come up again, so we're just. Lost in the mire of Bells Hells' personal deliberations on the state of religion for the entire world and it feels wrong because of that. It's too isolated an idea to feel worth applying it to LITERALLY EVERYONE, and I can't make presumptions for why the fan texts feel the way they do on the subject, but I feel it is something to do with the idea that any change is good change. Which is not true, and should require a great deal more consideration of the material effects of these plans being proposed, but. Alas.
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