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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk 266#jjk leaks#i feel like i say this after every piece at this point but iam once again. SO TIRED#collapses dead#cries i did it again i ws up all last night finishing the first 1.....tht one took *counts* 8 hours...#got 3 hrs sleep n picked up where i left off on th second one at 8 in the morning#2nd one absolutely ruined me n made the third one feel like a herculean task . even tho its literally just them on a bed#rooms....KITCHENS......beloathed!!!! public enemy no1 kill on sight!!!!!!#hell is real and they make u render different rooms of houses from scratch no perspective tool no clue what ur doing#n they see how long it takes u to completely lose it#clipped yuujis bangs back tho n i thought tht was cute . silver linings#1ST ONE WAS SO FUN ALSO idk if its bc outdoor environments r forgiving or bc i had more energy n was fresh faced n hopeful or what#but it is by far my favourite. once again pulled out nearly every nature brush in my arsenal#third one meh simple safe soft w/e i was just so exhausted after th kitchen tht working on it was such a slog#oh ya i added a bunch of scars 2 yuuji's arms n lobbed off his ring finger sighs the yuuji injury list (tm) grows every minute#also HINA USE YELLOW CHALLENGE CLEAR golden hour in2 sunset my beloved <333 easy warm light + safe homey Peaceful vibes...bless#cries eternally thinking abt them let us have this let THEM have this pls thank u#ok i need to not look at these anymore take them enjoy my contribution 2 the domestic itfs pile
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Every time I come home I’m a little more surprised and disappointed by how dirty the house is
#ramblings#vent#sort of#literally no one takes out the trash. no one washes the dishes. no one throws old food away. no one goes through the mail.#they all just let it pile up#it makes me so mad#first of all that they’re living in literal trash#and second of all that my parents are normalizing this lifestyle for my younger brothers#like fuck!!!#you realize that you’re the reason my brother is messy??? why he never cleans his room and it smells like ass and there’s plates and trash#everywhere????#and they don’t tell my youngest brother puts his toys away so they’re fucking everywhere#which I get kids leaving their toys everywhere is a standard thing but for fuck’s sake#at least put in the effort to tell him to put them away instead of getting fucking mad at him#it’s truly so disgusting walking in and seeing the moud of dishes in the sink#and the days old food on the counter and the rotting food in the fridge#and the TRASH BRO EUGH#literally falling out the bin!!!!#it makes me shiver thinking about the fact that I won’t be here to clean every weekend after this one
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never change, man !
#phantom of the paradise#potp#swan potp#nightmaretheater#65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp#Look into my beautiful mind boy#Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw#but i had to push a specific look for this piece#hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look#Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan#I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That#as awful as he is he desperately needed help#it might seem like vanity on the surface#but i think its… more than that#long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry#It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again#i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems#he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away#anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal#sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick#i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad#*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha#sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please#adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse#to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like#the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this#sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol
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an edyn design but i will most definitely futz with the outfit when i have brainjuice for it gill with pretzel babywrap inspired by my brother who listened to maybe half of ep1 and got it in his head that pretzel was tied to his stomach, not on his hip and i screamed when he told me no thoughts head empty sketch of gill pose
#i feel like ive been posting too many fanarts as like.. their own posts#i kinda like letting them pile up and just dumping them all in one post#but also ive been in a weird art mood where anytime i start smth i never rlly expect it to go anywhere#so i just post it when im done and then it just loops like that#just roll with it#jrwi riptide#edyn tidestrider#gillion tidestrider#jrwi pretzel#my art#me setting out to settle on a design for any of these fuckers: I CANT KEEP GIVING THEM THE LOOSE POOFY PANTS OR POOFY SLEEVES I NEED TO STO#.... 🥺 but it.. its so fun to draw..... the shapes...
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The Housecat Philosophy - Ep 37
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#the housecat philosophy#artists on tumblr#original comic#webcomic#original art#my sketches#ah i love writing sal and lu in the same place#can't wait to get deeper into them they have probably the most ridiculous relationship i've ever made up#anyway as a psa#i was actually hoping to post this one with an announcement that the comic was finally on webtoon but!!#the process of prepping it for the site is turning out to be surprisingly long ????#apparently my meant to be read top to bottom comic is too meant to be read top to bottom for the read top to bottom site#i've drawn panels that were nearly too long for the max length allowed by the site hahaha........#wow cropping strip 38 is gonna be a nightmare#ANYWAY just to let you all know im working on it#who would have thought letting 37 strips pile up would mean having 37x the work to do not me that's for sure#i absolutely did not call this upon myself in no way whatsoever
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[Immediately after Fit brutally roasted a chatter for being a filthy metagamer]
Dono: You became my comfort streamer. It has been great here.
Fit: Oh, thank you so much, thank you thank you thank you. I'm glad I can bring you comfort when I insult the sht out of some chatters, I'm glad I can comfort you. That's right!
Fit: People say I'm nice, no, I'm not nice. I'm polite. Mostly. There's a difference between being nice and being polite, I am polite. I am polite.
#FitMC#QSMP#Fit#February 11 2024#Top 10 FitMC moments tbh#I have been extremely annoyed / easily frustrated by large parts of the community as a whole lately#(not streamer specific and no specific thing really just all chats & fans being varying degrees of insufferable / annoying and it piling up#to the point where I've considered taking a step away from the series#But Fit's been nice to watch because he doesn't let dumb stuff slide lmao#maybe I'm just getting too old for this#still love the series I just don't want to interact with the chat or fandom much anymore#anyways Fit's voice saying the ''I'm not nice I'm polite. Mostly'' line is very good
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#i used to hoard all of my old school papers with the thought of one day; i'll use them to draw on instead of letting them go to waste!#...........yeah the paper gain was faster than the usage. piled up very fast. worst era of my life my room was always so MESSY skdjffdkjhd#some survived though! thats why you see some very basic chem in the back :P hated it back then and i still hate it now#UHM#oh!!! yeah the art. dskhjdfsjhf. found two markers at random with colours that work rlly nicely together so ive just been doodling like crz#and i rly like how this one turned out.. check out that schnozz!#i wish i was better at retaining simple flowy shapes in my art; especially when i try to finish a sketch digitally. i tend to lose it!#i'll get better at it but only with time! alas#OKAY. IM DONE RAMBLING#LOL.#okay#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#crk#crk fanart#mystuff#doodle
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one piece filler ep where they run into another peto-peto villain of the week guy but this time instead the devil fruit power rearranges people's brain chemistry so they have the thoughts behaviours emotional intelligence etc of a dog. zoro gets hit but he's just exactly the same
#it's a problem in that of it's a non-problem. i.e. no one notices so it never gets addressed. the straw hats just leave#zoro starts growling and barking at an enemy mid-fight and nami's like i really wish this was new for you but we all know it's not.#sanji finds zoro in the store room like 4 weeks later on all fours gnawing on a bone and is like yeah nothing out of the ordinary here#(kicks him out)#his tactile needs increase marginally but luffy's already on top of this so it goes entirely under the radar#he catches a rabbit with his bare teeth and starts shaking it around and usopp just starts screaming CAN YOU FUCKING STOP WITH THAT SHIT#(normal usopp-zoro interaction)#zoro gets flocked by children one time and he just. accepts it. Lets them pile up and crawl all over him. And Robin's like ''actually....'#''No. Nothing new.''#the gang only start getting suspicious 4 months in when zoro gets into a habit of sitting between luffy's legs or at his feet#but the suspicion is honestly more directed towards the relationship status there#one piece#op#opla#zolu#roronoa zoro#zoro#CJ's op watch-through
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something i didnt say over here but probably should-
i, in truth, dont know if im actually as annoying or "childish" or aggressive as i feel like im being
i feel like, i got a uniquely bad case of autism obsession and over-emotionality, constantly guilty for feeling so much, like me failing to keep my own emotions under control is purely a failure on my part, like i shouldnt feel this much, i am not allowed to feel like this, no one else seems to fail it like i do, over and over again i get overwhelmed by my own feelings and even if it isnt a full breakdown-
(meltdown? which i think is soemthing else and honestly ..... i do not want to have ever again, its the ultimate loss of control where i dont even feel like im piloting my own body, like im possessed by something, which is not really something that happens online, that is a thing that happens to me rarely in real life)
- i still feel so overwhelmingly stupid, like you jsut watched yourself turn into a toddler screaming bloody murder bc mom didnt buy the thing you wanted, and then are suddendly back to yourself but to everyone else you didnt change at all so everyone looks at you like you just lost your mind over nothing and thats just how you are normally
that together with being online and people likely seeing only a fraction of who you are, plus my tendency to ... be like this mostly when im not liking something just .... makes me feel so damn guilty, maybe something like public shame too? or the old problem of feeling like a burden?
i dont know, i cant seem to imagine people can see me like that and not be annoyed or weirded out by it, especially when they only realyl see that side of me, and i feel so damn guilty for it, the class weirdo who randomly starts to cry over seemingly nothing like i have always been, and i shouldnt be, i should have grown and gotten better and be in control at all times by now i just ... "havent tried hard enough"
#ganondoodles talks#personal#thanks to the people that did reach out#and those who said they dont read it like that#i just ... still feel like im being that way when i shouldnt#theres an acceptable level of how much you can feel before it gets 'weird'#and i keep letting myself exceed it#i have lost people over me being too much like that#and theres barely a day where i dont feel guilty for it#i cant blame them obviously#i blew up unreasonably after all#and the guilt never leaves#it never leaves me alone- anytime i have tried to fix it i made things worse#i should be better at this at this point- why do i keep failing it#no matter how far i think i get there will always be a point where i will fail at it#and it will add to guilt bc the pile never gets smaller- you can only add to it#each time feels worse .....
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How do you think bruce would react to a Robin pile situation?
oooh this is a fun thought. i think it depends *entirely* if you're working with a morally stable Bruce or a Bruce who's a little fucked up and dead dove-ish. somehow, i think it's actually more fun if it's a completely stable Bruce bc that adds so much more drama and issues if Bruce is deeply unsettled by the idea. if it was maybe just Jason and Dick or Jason and Tim dating that's sort of understandable. Bruce knows that while he may see them all as his sons (except Steph bc do know Robin pile will *always* include Steph for me and tbh Cass too as an honorary member. they're all going in the pile.) but he understands that doesn't mean they see each other as brothers. he respects the nuanced and complicated relationships scattered across all of the Batfam.
but if all of them are *dating*? or at the very least sleeping together? that raises a lot of logistical red flags. the most obvious one is the age gap of it all- at the biggest gap you have Damian and Dick who are an easy fifteen years apart, meeting when Damian is a kid. not to mention how many of them have tried to kill each other at some point. it shouldn't work and Bruce doesn't like that it does. Bruce has a history of wanting to control the relationships of the Batkids when he disapproves. and so he'd absolutely try to break them up. at first, he paints it purely as a logistical issue. saying it's smartest not to bring feelings into work and that this is dangerous. i think it's especially fun if this happens at a time when Bruce doesn't approve of Steph or Jason so that *also* plays into it, he doesn't want either of them near the ones he currently considers to be his family. he says he wants to protect them and wants to keep them safe. he tries to appeal to who he thinks would be more logical and listen to him the most. first Dick, and then when that doesn't work, Tim. and when neither of them listen, i *do* think Bruce would stoop to the low of trying to break them up by fabricating internal conflict between them, hoping to divide and conquer the weird polycule it's become.
while i don't think Bruce would be jealous in the sense he wants to be included, i *do* think he's wildly dislike the Robins having this close bond that makes them trust each other implicitly more than they trust Bruce. they will defer to each other before him and clearly keep things from him. he'd despise that. it's an inner circle he's not let in on and it makes him lose aspects of control over some of them, especially Damian who's the youngest and his son, who Bruce deserves the most control over. he would drive himself mad about it. at first for genuine reasons over the perceived fucked up nature of the relationship (even when each of them have confirmed that it is entirely consensual and they're happy) and to protect them. but he becomes so bitter over being ignored. they openly prioritize each other over him when the truth comes out because they see no point in hiding it. and i could definitely see Jason gloating about how he's back in the family whether Bruce likes it or not. Bruce would be beyond pissed about it. he's just never recovering. trying to stop them gets nowhere, even if he manages to cause some internal conflict.
eventually, Bruce would be forced to accept it for fear he would lose all of them. but he's *not* going to be happy about it and he keeps making side comments, hoping to get through to one of them eventually. it doesn't work, but he's definitely not going to stop trying. i also think on some level it would just disgust him a little bit in a visceral way, since they're his kids to him and he doesn't like to picture them in that way. esp when Jason or Steph lean heavily into PDA just to fuck with him. ass grabs, cuddling, sloppy kisses, the whole nine yards. Bruce will not have a moment of peace.
#necrotic answerings#robin pile#robincest#batcest#i do think fucked up bruce is also fun#but that answer wuold be more straight forward and expected#just. he creeps on them and tries to join and probably succeeds. the end <3#it's fun but i find it more fun if he's just. grossed out by it#like he's trying so hard to break them up#and he can pretend all he wants but it's purely personal reasons and disliking that he's not in the inner circle#i'm so seirous about including steph in robin pile btw#AND DUKE#let them in on it.#i'd say maps too but i'll be honest i don't know enough about her to. care honestly i'm so sorry#and i dislike helena wayne as a robin (new-52 when i catch your ass) so i don't include her#and i love carrie but i think she should be kept to her own world and not forced into the main one#i dislike seeing “incorrect quotes” that include carrie bc like. why is she there. take her back to her world free her from these shackles.#but gods i adore robin pile#i usually include cass just bc it feels weird not to#it's the same energy as “cass isn't here bc she's in hong kong :) doing hong kong things :)”#like sure technically cass was in hong kong for a lot of the comcis but we all know why.#and cass wasn't a robin but she (and steph) aren't included in a lot of batcest and we all know why.#so i include her. i just think she deserves in on it.#let her fuck her brothers stupid <3#i love the emotional conplexities of robin pile a lot#the smut is good. but so are the feelings of all of these characters are so chained together by this mantle#they just can't escape each other.#it's good shit.
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hey iatnen!
I really love your art they’re so good!! I just have a question, what house would Daniel be if he wasn’t in Slytherin?
Hey Anon !
Firstly, THANK YOU !!! Second, I think that Gryffindor would fit Daniel best if he wasn’t in Slytherin. Now I’m terrible at explaining my thoughts but I’ll try my best to put it into words
He has some Hufflepuff qualities like loyalty and dedication but Gryffindor’s more daring, headstrong, chivalric traits suit him better…. Chivalric as in not dying for you but killing for you to protect you LMAO ???
He wants recognition, wants to be important, wants to prove himself, all fit Gryff and Slyth. A lot of his traits overlap between those houses 😅 but I guess it makes sense since I think Gryffindor and Slytherin are pretty similar in general
Think of it like Harry Potter’s sorting but the other way around yk ?? Kinda ???? Does that make sense ?
Hi !!
YES I can totally make that happen for you 😸!! My messages should be open so we can chat more there
And don’t worry about the money, I wasn’t going to ask for it anyway !!! Tbh how good my drawings are depends on how much I feel like drawing that day so it wouldn’t be fair for me to charge you if you caught me at a bad time HAHA (plus I only take like 1-3 hours on every work/panel and then I move on 💀 I’m too lazy to be asking for payment)
HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU ANON, I’m honored to have you trust me with your oc……
#i should just let these pile up and answer them all at once#to limit spam#BUT I CAN’T HELP MYSELF#ask
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i REALLY love stories where the main character can never go back they were someone else before but events have changed them so much they are someone else their friends and family will not understand who they have become because they were not there they did not experience it they did not see it happen
#me when i see a character i like: put this fucker on the heros journey#the whole thing of someone getting separated from their loved ones and the people they have known#and events just keep piling up and they go through so much and home just keeps getting farther away#kind of like odysseus..... put that fucker on an odyssey‼️‼️#god i love it so much....#ok lets see who do i like that is like this#cassian andor#childe#wei wuxian#jon sims#alucard#KIND of.... they fucked up his story in my opinion#xiaohei#zack fair#link loz#oh man this could apply to so many loz games haha#master chief#listen i really really fucking like this type of story. so much#edward elric#ed AND al of course#actually this could apply to like. all 3 mxtx novels#xie lian#shen yuan#ok who else#denji#aaand um um um#itadori yuuji#din djarin#koi talk
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hi GT!
Lionheart had me the moment you kicked it off with “it’s a nice day to start again.” Might i ask why you chose that particular line?
And, if you havent already answered to this emoji:
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P.s: you have my eternal gratitude for creating the most brilliant piece of writing i’ll ever read. I shout about it from the rooftops, share it on my socials, requested my spouse to read it so we may discuss it together (in lieu of a present for my 30th birthday), et cetera.
I see from your URL you are a fellow lad of taste.
There's a couple things going on in the epigraph for Book 1. On one level, it's a lyric from the first muggle song I picture Draco listening to on his walkman at the end of the book, so there's a cute full-circle thing there. The second layer is the theme of change and redemption, which, in Lionheart, doesn't so much come from major moments or self-sacrifice, but from the slow, grueling, everyday work of living, and living better. It's a nice day to start again because every day is. You always have the opportunity to start making better choices, no matter what lies behind you. That's the thesis of any Draco redemption arc, right? You have to imagine that he could have chosen to be better.
And then thirdly, there's the audacity of doing a full Hogwarts canon rewrite, a good 30 years after the original books came out, millions upon millions of words of fanfic later, and basically asking everyone to read the same story they did the first time around, only different. So it's a kind of winking entreaty. It's saying to readers, many of whom are understandably wary of doing it over, zeroing out the characters to starting positions, and starting from the beginning with 11-year-olds all over again. It's going: "hey. That was fun, right? Why not do it again?"
#thank you so much for the compliment -- honestly it's terribly kind#i hope your spouse likes it. for their own sake also because by god that is so much assigned reading#you're iconic for that tbh. all birthdays should come with a syllabus#oh! and ❄️ ⇢ what’s your dream theme/plot for a fic#and who would write it best?#tbh i've wanted someone to write a really good pacific rim AU for years and years#and it has always fallen juuuuust low enough on my writing pile for me to never get around to it#like it's always the thing i want to write 3rd most and i only let myself have 2 projects at a time#not sure who would write that best - I think anyone who loves and Gets the movies#the premise of which is 'what if you and your soulmate could pilot a 50-foot mech by having mindsex so good it killed godzilla?'#and if you don't want to stand up and cheer just thinking about that i don't know what to tell you. perhaps you have never seen a movie#also like it's about love and trust and trauma and healing. AND killing really giant monsters#and it takes itself JUST seriously enough to nail all of that without getting mopey or goofy#movie of all time. someday i will kiss guillermo del toro on the lips#in my (delusional) world his oscar win was actually a belated award for pacific rim.
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cross is so shippable with anyone OUTSIDE of the bad sanses it kills me that his most popular ships ARE LITERALLY ALL BAD SANSES SHIPS 💀💀💀💀
i say as i saw this one tweet saying cross and xtale was originally meant to be art themed and he was gonna be chalk instead of cross and that meant. ink and chalk. ART SUPPLIES????? THATS SO CUTE!!!!! and then i just saw the cutest crink comic and,,,, SIGHS!!! WITH FURY BEHIND THE SIGH!!!!!!
crink cream clue crerror what other OH YA crepic (HOW COULD I FORGET CREPIC) i thought of cross x swap x fell in class like a week ago. i think it would be cute lowkey. monocherryberry. ive been seeing sprinklings of ccino x cross and i think its cute even tho i care naught for ccino. wait what would a cross x classic ship name be??? cross sans. LMAO. crossic???? comicross. paneling. OOH cross/geno. CROSS/FATAL,,,,, what about that one like crepic + fresh ship!!!! the silly gang thats so cute. literally has so much chemistry with ANYONE. ANYBODY!!! but nm killer dust and horror. outrageous
#cross gets all the bitches#except not for those 3 (motions to the fight going on between the trio) they can keep eachother#nightmare is an exception he should be alone. aroace aplatonic a prefix ANYTHING do NOT get near this man he hates you#guys how do you ccino. i dont like saying it like cappuccino but remove the cappu#NO!!!! i say it like c-seeno. ccino. seperate the first c from the rest and then say the rest with an s instead of a c#i just think its cuter that way!!! i dont LIKE saying chino. ccino. cappuchino. NO!!!! C-SEENO!!!!!#rare not mtt related post outrageous coming from triglycercule i know i know#remembering those first days when i hated cross.... and then i saw his outside the bad sanses and i was like#DAMN! i dont hate him! infact i love him! i just hate him in the bad sanses!#i have 64 drafts piles up and counting theyre bangers i just really have not been posting#FOR SOME REASON (i only come up with ideas @ night) (which sucks) (because im also busy @ night) (FUCK)#its all nightmare's fault. he cursed me because i dont like him and his shitty character#ah (sips tea(i dont even like tea lets change it to mango juice) i remember the good old days when i only had fourty piled up drafts.......#i feel like i have to comment on the piled up drafys thing every time i make a silly rant like this#guys ive not run out of brain juice i just keep coming up with ideas at inconsistent times#and then i end up forgetting to post them because wake up - 4pm is school!!!! and then i have homework and hobbies and napping and UGH!!!!!#64 drafts could be enough to post for 2 months. we will survive the winter like this#no because then i start by posting one and then i come up with 3 more so i didn't even lower the draft count#first world struggles triglycercule i know i know#tricule rant
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happy christmas eve i hope some of u get a grip from santa
#acting as if saka went out all guns blazing waiting to intentionally injure our players please be reasonable!#yes he did injure them but both times was unintentional no matter how u like to look at it. he is not a nasty or dirty player! he just isnt!#and for those saying he gets babied literally take one look at football twitter and how theyre behaving like he killed someone#and saying utterly vile things about him. 'what if it was reversed' it fucking is all the time!! he is consistently fouled and tackled badly#and treated unfairly by refs. why are u letting a draw in a football game get u this heated!!! stop being weird!!!!!#maybe bcus ppl saying this dont regularly watch arsenal but this happens to saka all. the. time. its not some thing arsenal players make up#the same happens to mo all the time!!! come on now and be reasonable and stop piling on a player who is already scrutinised#and make sure u fully understand a situation before commenting on it or just dont comment! because some of u sound very um strange!#this is all coming from a liverpool fan like you are doing TOO MUCH!!!#anyway happy christmas eve gjfgjfkg
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I just can't believe that zero pain is the normal amount to be in
#i literally can not remember ever having no pain and it's entirely possible i have been in pain since before birth#usually it's just distracting and makes it so i can't do what i want/need to#but on worse days i can not stop thinking about the pain and i can barely get out of bed for food and such#i feel like such a lazy useless pile of steaming shit right now#i haven't even done anything particularly strenuous#like. sure i had a bad phase with migraines and not sleeping and then pmdd and menstrual hell and the hurricane#and mixed into that i might have pushed myself physically a few times#and if i were anyone else i would be advising the exhausted person to just let themselves rest a bit#but i can not stop thinking about everything that needs to be done#and how much worse other disabled people have it#and how my partner isn't able to rest because they're working overtime hurricane related shifts#and i can't get the voices of my family out of my head about how lazy disabled people are#(but then they'll also accuse people of faking disability if the disabled person pushes themselves)#i hate this and i hate myself and it's infuriating to keep trying to make myself more normal#but it doesn't work and i just keep ending up feeling even more exhausted when i try to start working out (yoga and squats and such)#if I'd had covid and was dealing with long covid I'd understand and maybe be more forgiving#but this started way before covid 19 (which i haven't had afaik) and only got worse after i had shingles#i am so angry and so sick of being exhausted all the time#... it's a bad fatigue and not great pain time and I'm emotional and so fucking frustrated
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