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kalpasio · 2 years ago
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IT IS I, 🧊ANON, IN AGONY
I'M JUST LAVZLZVDLDDUZHZKEHFOJZLZJD
It's currently 11pm and I have to wake up early tomorrow but I saw you posted so I just had to read it! I though it would be a nice bedtime story!!! I am suffering!!!!!!!!
POOR KALPAS BRUH, IMAGINE HAVING TO LIVE FOR MILLENIA IN GRIEF I'M GONNA KMS
Seeing all the flamechasers was so nice😭 The Aponia program lowkey had me all giddy cuz she's my favorite alongside Kalpie!! AND THEN IT ALL CAME CRASHING DOWN AND MY HEART HURTSS
I mean hey at least it's an infinite dream of the realm😀 No I'm not kicking the air rn wdym😀‼️
Also YES, SLEEPING ON HIS THIGHS, GONNA HAVE THE BEST SLEEP YOU'VE EVER HAD (I need it honestly)
OH AND I AM ALSO VERY CONFUSED WITH THE STORY 76% OF THE TIME, project stigma is making me lose braincells every 2 seconds I read about it😭 Thankfully we have Homu labs on youtube so in case you don't know them!
I will now head to bed and get a new pillow cuz ITS WET
HI 🧊 ANON 😭😭
I do the same thing with ao3 and bedtime stories ngl I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS IS REAL. ITS A PARALLEL UNIVERSE OR SOMETHING. KALPAS DOESNT DESERVE THIS 💔
I swear every story is just an excuse to interact with the flame chasers because I love almost all of them so much I am looking at you kevin
need kalpas thigh naps in my life 😔 I need a lot of Kalpas things in my life actually, but like napping with him is at the top of the list
I don't wanna complain about the story because I know how hard it is to write things but like 😭😭😭😭 what the hell is going on????? there was a whole plot that they took the time to explain properly and then they just took a sharp left to something completely different and I am SO lost I didn't know about homu labs! I live under a rock you are a lifesaver 🧡
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princessmyriad · 2 months ago
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#personal#does anyone else feel like its a little bit#6 years without uploading they come back with some ads#cant make unsponsored vids its bout getting that bag#is this just me? i support making bank however one can in this world but it does feel like#like its just a lot yknow? like the frequency of any genuine video made for passion instead of money#they just seem few and far between. im sure theres a dragon contract or something but im so fucking sick of hearing about flamesusan tbh#hm whatever consider this my overstimulated need to have a pissed off rant about something today but it feels weird#the channel feels weird 😕 i still very much admire and respect the boys and i support them supporting their lifestyle#idk how to explain it just feels like theres a looot of ads and very little genuine enjoyment from creating lately like the last#idk 7 or 8 months ive noticed it but maybe its always been like this. or maybe its been like this since the revival idfk im so tired dudes#im so fucking sick to death of living in an internet world and not being able to go even 10 minutes without an ad#or a double ad or an ad right before a sponsor segment or just fucking. its just fucking EVRYWHERE I WANT TO BURN EARTH DOWN AND START AGAIN#nuke it the second anyone invents ads again and keep restarting until we eliminate themmmmmm FUCK#like i just want the comfort content of their voices and personalities but its continuously interrupted#and their personalities dont seem to hold the same level of compassion or passion these days#and surely these things must be related. like the internet will miss yall if you left but its okay to stop youtube. its okay to find#literally any other job if being payed to pretend to care about a pixel dragon and finding any uncreative excuse to make a video#just for the sole purpose of going around your advertisement (so you can claim youre making content and give them a reason to keep sponsorin#if that aint it for you chief then do literally anything else with your time. find employment elsewhere#i know a lot of the tubers and esp the ones that have been doing it for so long think they mighnt be able to get or do any other job#but i promise this just isnt true!#make from the heart again! now that youre not being straight you should have the most freedom to create from the heart!#but theyre not! it feels more repressed and in the closet than the actual time they were in the closet! (or though they were we been knew)#but it feels! so uncomfortable! so unnatural! the videos theyve been making lately feel like theyre aliens hiding in skinsuits#desperately trying to make video advertisements about products their top researchers have assured them that humans like!#but they cant make a whole video of just ad because humans dont like that so put some other crap in there. just enough#to make the stupid humans THINK theyre not just watching an ad. content? no doesnt matter just do some garbage for a few mins#humans are idiots theyll watch anything just try not to look so uncomfortable in your human suits so it seems natural#but it doesnt feel natural. it feels gross and fake and bad. and worse because they are. or rather were. comfort content for me
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shmalk · 8 months ago
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141 is filled with alphas, not a single omega in sight. there are a few betas, but they're either low-ranking or transfers that were never going to last.
like you! (beta!reader) who works at reception and takes calls, scans badges and is the first point of contact for the task force.
none of them know your name, none of them even speak to you - maybe price, when you transfer a call to him, he'll mumble a thank you. or even laswell, when you bring her a coffee.
it's nothing, really, you don't mind.
only, one day, a totally normal friday, you've done the exact same style in your hair you always have, and you're wearing more clothes than you were yesterday.
price wants a coffee, sure- you make it, just the way he likes, and head towards his office. you knock, and wait a few seconds until you hear 'come in.'
the office is silent, it usually is - but this time there's more than just price inside.
they're finishing up just as you enter, soap and gaz sitting in front of the desk whilst ghost leant against the back wall.
"my apologies, captain." your voice isn't exactly quiet - why should it be, you've done nothing wrong, but its still respectful. price just nods as you place the cup down on his desk.
"thanks, that's all." he dismisses everyone in the room, and you wait for the boys to file out before you do, soap and gaz both giving you a cheeky smile.
ghost is the one to hold open the door, standing just adjacent to the doorway with his arm sprawled against it. its a heavy door, and you swallow as you pass him.
"thank you," you all but mumble out as you rush past him - straight into the break room.
you can't help but rant about the situation to your roommate whilst you're packing up your things, your phone tucked between your jaw and shoulder.
"i mean- he held the door open for me and i couldn't even look him in the eye to say thank you!" you stress, throwing your bag into your passenger seat before leaning back against your car. "god, all i wan't right now is a plate of sushi and some boba."
"too bad its pizza night, dweeb."
"thats not fair! i could loose my job, i should be allowed to eat my comfort food when im stressed out."
you stress about it over the whole weekend, and when you return back to work on monday you try to act as casual as possible. of course, you don't see ghost - price doesn't order a coffee, and youre break time comes around quicker than you expected.
you had brought- oh, theres- your favourite sushi, and a boba drink sitting where your food was supposed to be. in somewhat messy hand writing, on a small piece of paper, theres your name.
signed ' s. riley. '
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i am a sucker for sweet lil moments like this !!
in my head i think that simon would like a beta, or an alpha, but in this lil snippet (which is CERTAINLY getting turned into a fic) he's big and broad and gets worried when he's with alphas because they can't think straight, he tells them what to do and he does it.
but you? you dont react to his scent or chase him down to get him to court you - so, of fource, he courts you. <3
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hellhounds-hellscape · 2 years ago
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Actually still bitter about this fucker! What sucks the most is that they take my valid criticism of people and warp it into some type of "nobody loves you and never cared, might as well kill yourself" type bullshit and spews their bullshit to everyone else! They literally just come around to make everyone else feel like shit, worse than EVEN I EVER DONE! For their own entertainment apparently, at least my shit was to protect the others! And they recently tried to drag people out of the system down too! This fucker literally stepped in the moment i was trying to find words to explain to the main of our partner system about why his depression fueled reviling was actively harming ours and? They tried to fucking kill us all INCLUDING themself?what the fuck seriously what in the actual fuck? This fucker only ever comes around to cause grief and make an already rocky situation Worse, why is this asshole even here?
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stevie-petey · 3 months ago
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I own you.  The words practically drip from your rose coated lips, meant only for Steve, and he knows he’s lost.  “Yeah, whatever.” And it’s agreed. Come this Saturday, you and Steve will be working together. No one else, just the two of you, for eight long, maddening hours. 
Summary: steve really hates his coworker, but you know who he hates even more ? your shitty ex boyfriend (who he just so happens to share jacket preferences with)
Rating: general, violence, lots of swearing
Warnings: allusions to abuse, use of bitch as derogatory language towards women, shitty ex boyfriend, violence, enemies to lovers (more friends), fem!reader, use of y/n
Words: 3.9k
Before you swing in: hey gang !! long time no stevie blurb, so here yall go <3 please, read the warnings for this one. theres a really shitty character in this and he may be triggering, so please be safe.
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Steve doesn’t consider himself a bad guy.
Sure, he had the whole “King Steve” stint back in high school where he was an asshole to everyone, but he chooses to ignore those four years of his life. They were a brief lapse of judgment. 
A very long, brief lapse of judgment. But whatever.
The point is that Steve opens the door for strangers. He greets everyone with a smile and a polite nod of his head. When Robin forgets her lunch at work, Steve always gives her his. He walks his neighbor’s dog, he offers to carry groceries for the elderly. Hell, he even waves at babies. 
By all accounts, Steve would consider himself a goddamn saint. 
Except when it comes to you. 
Steve isn’t holding open any fucking doors for you and if you ever asked him to walk your dog, he’d laugh in your face. The moment you stepped foot in Family Video for your first shift, you made Steve’s life a living hell. He doesn’t know why or how you manage to dig so deep under his skin, but he’s convinced you do it on purpose. 
The movies you stack on the shelf always somehow manage to land on Steve’s head. The jokes you make with Robin are always at his expense. You never clock in on time, extending his shift by one more minute every goddamn time. The way you laugh pierces Steve’s skull, the sound rings in his ears and blinds his senses long enough to feel nauseous. 
Steve likes everyone, he isn’t a hard guy to please, but he truly, deeply, hates you. 
“Y/N wanted me to ask if you’d cover her shift this weekend,” Robin scans a beat up copy of Grease, trying to feign indifference as she brings the topic up. She absolutely doesn’t want to be doing this, she knows that any mention of you to Steve makes his eye twitch, but you called her crying and Robin is far too sympathetic for her own good. 
Predictably, Steve’s eye twitches and he snatches the movie from his coworker. “What, did she fall and hit her head this morning?” He scoffs, he can’t believe you even thought he’d consider the idea. “She knows I’d rather her show up with a broken arm and matching black eye to work before ever covering her shift.”
“Okay, that’s psychotically cruel. You know that, right?” Robin scans another movie and shakes her head. Steve hates you, she gets that, and while she doesn’t understand why, she also doesn’t like how much of an asshole he is about it. You’re her friend, too. Robin really likes you. 
“Good, I meant for it to be.”
“Steve, she’s going through a hard time right now–”
“No, I don’t wanna hear it, alright? I don’t care if her grandma died and left her an orphan,” the sound of the bell above Family Video’s front door rings, but Steve is too lost in his rant to hear it. “There’s no way in hell I’m ever, ever helping that demonic witch of a human being.”
Robin’s eyes widen and she tries to cover the teen’s mouth, hissing his name, but Steve bats her hand away and keeps going. “Y/N is a fucking moron for thinking otherwise, and that’s her problem. I mean, I know she’s your friend, which I still don’t know how she even managed to do that, but–”
“Steve!” Again Robin tries to get her friend to stop talking, but Steve is on a roll now. He’s fired up, tired of biting his tongue for the last six months. 
“She makes me want to physically tear my skin off and shove it down my throat every time she opens her mouth. And I’m being nice right now. I mean, I will gladly say this all to her tiny, annoying face–”
“Oh, you would?”
Immediately Steve’s voice dies and his words fall down upon his shoulders. He doesn’t dare turn around. He’s frozen. He’s convinced himself that if he doesn’t move then he can linger in the remaining few seconds where he hasn’t just said all those horrendous things with you standing right behind him. 
Robin drops her head onto the counter and groans. “You’re an idiot, Harrington.”
“Well, are you going to turn around?” Your breath almost fans Steve’s neck, you’ve walked up to him. He can practically envision the curl in your eyebrows whenever you get angry. An expression Steve has become familiar with. 
He gulps, still refusing to turn around. “You know, I really don’t think I can turn around.” His legs shake. Steve doesn’t think he’s ever fucked up this horribly before, and he’s fucked up a lot in his life. 
“Robin,” you turn your attention to her, the edge in your voice is the only indication of your anger. “Please inform our coworker that it’s inappropriate to use that language in a workplace, and please also inform him that I will no longer be needing him to cover my shift.”
“You… Don’t?” Robin looks between you and Steve. He still hasn’t looked at you yet, his face stares straight as if he’s trying to somehow disintegrate. You, however, face her with a steely look in your eyes, which surprises her. She thought there’d be more heartbreak in them. “I-I mean, are you sure? All things considered…”
“I’m fine.” The way you say it leaves no room for arguments. It’s already been decided, and Robin knows not to try and reason with you. She deflates, and you’re pleased with this. Even though her sympathy is unneeded, you can use it to your advantage. You’re going to make Steve pay. “In fact, I think you should inform our coworker that he’s covering your shift this weekend.”
Robin chokes on her spit, startled, while Steve finally turns to face you. “I’m sorry?”
“Aw, it’s okay, Harrington.” You pat his chest, albeit with more force than probably necessary, which he huffs at. “But I think the apology will work even better after spending some quality time together.”
You’re going to spend the entire eight hour shift making Steve’s life hell on earth. And he knows it.
“But–” 
“Say, Robin. What’s the company policy on harassment of employees?” You tap your finger against your chin with a menacing smile on your face. You’re enjoying this, and Steve hates you even more for that. “Doesn’t it say something about verbal insults?”
Steve sends the girl a pleading glance, begging her not to respond, but she can only shake her head at him. He’s the one who couldn’t keep his goddamn mouth shut. Sighing, Robin nods. “Yeah, it does.”
“I thought it did! Thanks, Buckley.” You wink at her before facing Steve again. He almost flinches at the coldness in your eyes. He’s so, so fucked. “Harrington, I’m sure you simply forgot, and I’m sure I can let bygones be bygones after you cover our dear friend’s shift. Yeah?”
I own you. 
The words practically drip from your rose coated lips, meant only for Steve, and he knows he’s lost. 
“Yeah, whatever.”
And it’s agreed. Come this Saturday, you and Steve will be working together. No one else, just the two of you, for eight long, maddening hours. 
When Steve arrives at work Saturday, you’ve already clocked in. 
He finds you sitting at the cash register, looking over the shipment for tomorrow. Sundays are the restock days, and the lists of orders are a pain in the ass to get through. It can take hours, sometimes even days, to comb through. When you see Steve walk in, you give him an icy smile. “Oh, perfect timing!” 
“We’re supposed to get here at eight.”
“And being early never hurt anyone.” Although you’re never early, you’re always late, and both of you know this. You scratch something off from the list, eyes never leaving Steve, and he can’t help but feel that the rough scratch of the pen is meant to symbolize his face. 
“What do you want?” Steve is too tired to play your games. He recognizes that he was a grade A asshole to you a few days ago, but this is going too far. 
You flick your hair behind your shoulder and straighten your posture. The gesture casts a cloud of a sickly sweet pomegranate scent over to Steve, causing him to sneeze violently. He’s always hated the perfume you wear. Smiling at the desired effect, you finally shove the restock lists towards him. “I need you to start sorting through next week’s orders.”
Steve looks at the lists and nearly cries. There’s at least thirty pages in the stack, doubled sided, with five columns and fifty rows. This is the largest shipment order he’s ever seen since working at Family Video, he can’t even believe it’s real.
“You’ve gotta be kidding me.”
“Nope!” You hop down from the counter and walk over to the cart of returned movies. “Now, I’d get started if I were you. You know how much Keith hates it when we don’t get Sunday’s orders in on time.”
Your figure disappears behind a shelf of movies and Steve pretends to strangle you with his bare hands. You planned this. He doesn’t know how, but you did. If he didn’t have a reason to hate you so much, now he does. 
Hours pass by, you don’t at all speak to Steve as he labors over the shipments. Family Video requires the employees to manually input all the orders into the computer to send to the supply chain. The process alone is impractical and takes longer than it should, but pair that with the shitty computers that Keith refuses to upgrade, it makes Steve contemplate running into the road. The browser crashes three separate times. At one point he loses track of which movie he’d been on and has to restart an entire row at number forty-three.
It’s the worst fucking five hours of Steve’s entire life.
Meanwhile, all you do those five hours is browse through some online catalog on the other computer and help a total of two customers who come in. 
By the time Steve has finally finished inputting everything, words float around his vision and he can feel the beginning stages of a headache forming. The pressure sits right behind his left eye, dull and throbbing. 
All because he couldn’t keep his goddamn mouth shut.
Steve should really learn to listen to Robin. 
“Are you all done?” You materialize next to Steve, startling him and he lets out an embarrassing shriek, which you snicker at. “Wow, Harrington. You’re really tense today.”
He rolls his eyes and steps away from you. “Gee, I wonder why.”
“Yeah, who knows!” Steve glares at you and you smile right back at him. “Anyways, since you finished up so fast, why don’t you sort through the backorders next? It shouldn’t take you that long.”
The backorders. 
Steve wants to fucking scream.
The backorders are all the movies that the store can’t input into the system. They’re orders that get messed up, misplaced, and abandoned in Keith’s disgusting office. The pile of discarded movies has grown so large that it rivals Steve’s height and build. It’s its own entity at this point. A terrifying, breakdown inducing entity. 
You’re a fucking evil genius. 
But if Steve even looks at the backorders, he thinks he might actually murder you. 
“No,” he crosses his arms, trying to look more dignified and intimidating than he really feels. Awkwardly placing his weight on his left foot, he purposely ducks his head down to emphasize how much taller he is than you. “No way in hell am I going through the backorders.”
“I wonder what Keith would say when I tell him all the wonderful things you said about me on Wednesday,” you step forward, angling your head up to get a better look at Steve. You want him to see all the hatred you have for him in your eyes. 
What he said about you hurt. There’s no other way to put it. His words had been venom upon your skin, searing the flesh as it left a nasty scar. The wound has festered ever since, making your already shitty week even worse. 
Steve had called you “fucking moron”. Just like he had. 
“Oh, screw company policy and whatever that asshole Keith says!” Steve doesn’t care anymore if he has a job by the end of today. He’s had enough of your shitty mind games and power plays. He may have been a dick, but he doesn’t deserve any of this, either. The strenuous labor and migraines. “I’m done, alright? You’re being such a–”
“Bitch?” A gruff voice chuckles, interrupting. Steve, surprised to hear another male voice in the store, quickly turns around. 
The guy is tall, taller than Steve. That’s the first thing he notices. Then he notices the cold blue of his eyes and the way your entire body freezes in fear when you see him. Steve moves your body behind his, unconsciously putting you out of harm’s way, protecting you from whoever the hell this guy is in front of him. It’s instinctual, he doesn’t hesitate.
Who the fuck does this guy think he is, calling you a bitch?
“I would never call her that,” Steve squares his shoulders, putting ice into his words as he does so. He wouldn’t. He was going to call you a child. Steve would never call a woman a bitch, his mother raised him better than that and Robin would hit him if he ever did.
The guy laughs again. “You sure about that, buddy?”
“Jack,” Steve almost doesn’t hear you, you’re barely audible. He’s never heard your voice so soft before, so weak and scared; he decides he never, ever wants to be the cause of this voice. “You can’t be here.”
“Says who? I don’t see anybody kickin’ me out.” The guy, Jack, shrugs indifferently. He stuffs his hands into his jacket, it’s made of a nice, suede material that Steve is ashamed to admit he’d wear himself. “I wanted to see you, sweetheart.”
Jack tries to step closer to you, but Steve blocks him. “Funny, I thought she was a bitch?”
“Bitch, sweetheart, easy fuck, fucking moron.” Jack laughs, only this time it’s cruel. “It’s all the same when it comes to Y/N.”
Fucking moron.
Steve had said the same about you. A heavy weight of shame crushes his chest. He should’ve never called you such a cruel name. He knows that, now. 
“Don’t fucking talk about her like that,” Steve sneers, hand now coming around your arm as if terrified Jack will pull you away from him. “What the hell is your problem, man?”
“Why don’t you mind your own business? This is a conversation between me and the sweetheart over here.” Jack tries to reach for you again, but Steve shoves the guy away. He stumbles back, a wicked smile on his face. “Oh, the pretty boy can fight?”
“Steve,” You finally speak again, trying to shove yourself between the two men. The room grows hot and you don’t want anyone getting hurt. Not here, not with Steve. “Just leave it alone, walk away–”
Only Jack grabs your arm and viciously pulls, causing a pained yelp to escape you. A nerve pinches in your shoulder, he sends your body flying forward. His grip is harsh, it will leave bruises tomorrow, and you’re weak against him. Fear chokes you, he always does this.
“Don’t touch her.” Steve’s fist collides with Jack’s face, starbursts of pain explode in his wrist but he doesn’t care. All he sees is red now. Jack hurt you. He caused you to cry out in pain. Steve punches him again, the sound of pain you made rings in his ears, turns his blood cold and his anger boiling hot. 
Jack recovers from the punches quickly and he raises his fist, but you try to get him away from Steve. “Stop!” 
The fist comes down, you brace for impact, helpless against it, but the sound of skin hitting skin is all you’re met with. You open your eyes, Jack’s fist is in Steve’s palm. Stunned, Jack is too slow to pull away before Steve wraps his arm around his and twists it behind his back. The muscles strain, the ligament cries in pain as Jack’s arm is pulled dangerously far back. 
“Fuck!” Jack screams, contorting his body desperately to get out of the death lock he’s in. 
“You’re going to leave,” Steve hisses into his ear, “and you’re going to never, ever come back. If you even look at Y/N again I swear,” he mercilessly pulls even harder on Jack’s arm, the bone threatens to snap, but he doesn’t care. “I will break every bone in your fucking body.”
And with that, Steve finally releases Jack, who crashes pathetically to the ground. The moment he’s freed, he scrambles to his feet and cradles his sprained arm. He’s panting, no longer the confident and arrogant asshole he once was when he walked into Family Video ten minutes prior.
“Fuck you,” Jack spits out at Steve, but he’s already walking backwards towards the door to leave. “That bitch isn’t worth it, anyways.”
The door slams closed. 
Silence fills the void that the violence left behind. 
Steve shakes out his wrist, wringing out the pain from the punches. His knuckles are red, raw, bruising with every passing second. He brings the injured hand closer to inspect it, wincing at the inflamed skin. 
“You’re hurt.”
Your eyes linger on the blood that leaks from his knuckles. The skin has split, but the pain that the nerve endings scream over soothes Steve. He shakes his hand out again as he shakes his head at you. “I’m fine.”
But you don’t believe him.
Carefully, slowly, you bring your uninjured hand over Steve’s injured one. Your touch is gentle, hesitant. The pads of your fingers skim over the bruising that litters Steve’s skin. “I’m sorry.” 
“Hey, no.” Steve pulls his hand away, he doesn’t like what the image of his injury is doing to you. He’s not used to your tenderness, the sympathy you blanket him with. Besides, he isn’t the only one who got hurt. Steve instead brings your hand up, holding your wrist delicately as he sucks in a breath seeing the bruises Jack left. “You didn’t deserve any of that.”
You don’t say anything. 
Steve kisses the damaged skin, he feels you shiver beneath his lips. He isn’t sure why he does it, he just knows that he wishes he could physically remove the burn of the bruises from your memory. 
Minutes pass, the silence is all that is spoken. 
Eventually the two of you get back to work. There’s still two more hours before either of you can leave, even if the thought of staying in the store suffocates you. No other customers come in. It’s just you and Steve, matching bruises to keep you guys company. 
When four in the afternoon comes along, Steve clocks both of you out and locks the store up. He doesn’t let you do a single thing. He insists on having you sit by the window as he finishes the last restock orders and closes the door. His hand softly guides you outside, lingering on your waist as he locks the store’s doors for the night. 
“Alright, well…” Steve clears his throat. He doesn’t know what else to say to you. “Guess I’ll just, you know, leave–”
“Please don’t leave me alone.”
His breath catches. You stare up at him, eyes wide with fear and vulnerability and despair. “I…”
“Please,” you can’t walk home alone. Not tonight. Not after everything that happened today. “I just…”
Without saying anything, Steve’s hand finds yours, and he walks you to his car. He opens the door for you, closes it softly behind you once you get in. He gets into his own seat, turns the radio on and fiddles with the stations until he finds the one he knows you like. Every time you have a shift together, you play the same station and sing along to all your favorite songs.
It used to drive Steve insane.
Now he’s relieved he can do this one thing for you.
The drive is quiet. The only conversation that is made is mumbled directions to your house. It isn’t a far drive, but Steve takes his time anyways. He doesn’t know if you have anyone to go home to, he knows you haven’t stopped shaking quite yet. 
“Turn here,” your voice is hoarse from lack of use.
Steve listens, turns into a neighborhood he’s unfamiliar with. He thinks he’s nearing your home and he isn’t ready to let you go just yet. He knows you have to talk about what happened today. The bruises on his knuckles will fade, but the memory of Jack’s cruel words won’t. 
“So,” He clears his throat. He’s doing the right thing, he knows he is. “Jack. He was…?”
You’re quiet for several moments and Steve is afraid he’s ruined everything, pushed you too far, but eventually you respond. “Ex boyfriend. Broke up a week ago. He didn’t take it well.”
“I hate him.”
Despite the fatigue that weighs upon you and the dread that Jack will come back, you can’t help but laugh at what Steve has said. “Yeah, I guess I do, too.”
Silence falls again. Steve pulls into your driveway, he turns the car off, the headlights die, but neither one of you move. 
“You’re not, you know.”
You finally face Steve, confused as to what he’s referencing. “What?”
“You’re not a ‘fucking moron’. And you’re definitely not a bitch.” He clarifies, eyes meeting yours. You’re almost breathless by how brightly they shine with remorse. You’ve never known a man who felt such an emotion. “Jack is a dick, and so was I.”
“Steve…”
He doesn’t let you pity him. He knows what he did was wrong, the words that fell from his mouth about you will haunt him forever. Steve may not have liked you, but he didn’t have any right to say those things about you. “I really am sorry, Y/N.” 
There’s nothing to forgive.
Steve isn’t Jack. You know that, now. 
“It’s okay. I think I made you go through enough today, anyways.” You nudge his shoulder with yours, risking physical affection just this once. “First the restock orders and then defending my honor? I think we’re even.”
“I was pretty heroic, wasn’t I?” Steve tries to laugh, play along, but it’s bitter on his tongue. He doesn’t think he’ll ever forgive himself for how much he hurt you. 
Noticing his darkened expression, you poke Steve’s cheek. “Hey, you’re not allowed to brood. I’m the one whose crazy ex showed up at work today.” But it doesn’t work, he doesn’t laugh and you know he blames himself for everything. “Look at me, Steve.”
Night has fallen and the honey brown in Steve’s eyes resembles darkened ash. You place your hand on his, careful not to disturb his bruises. “I forgive you, but if you insist on being such an annoying jerk about it, then you can make it up to me by being my friend.”
“Your friend?” Steve doesn’t pull his hand away from yours, and it’s a start. 
“Yup, think you can handle that?” 
“‘Friends’,” he lets the word roll over his tongue. Tests it out, gets a feel for what it would be like to call you his friend. He thinks he likes the way it feels, the weight that accompanies it is one that settles his chest, soothes his wounds. “I guess I can be okay with that.”
He smiles at you, then, and you smile back.
You’re beautiful when you smile; warm, angelic.  
Steve doesn’t consider himself a bad guy, but by all accounts, he considers you a goddamn saint. 
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successfulgoddess333 · 7 months ago
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ZENDAYA EATING A PIZZA!
TOUGH LOVE RANT!
Hi now that I’ve got your attention
I’m going to yell at you
Cuz I love you but y’all killing me with this
“I have the urge to move”
Or my favorite
“I didn’t get symptoms”
Mmmm this one is ultimate favorite
“How do I enter the void?”
😃
Sweetie what do you think my posts are about???
How to find the tooth fairy?
Please stop asking me that when it’s literally in ALL MY POSTS
I literally got blocked cuz I was asked over and over again
By someone I thought was a friend
How to get in the void
I told her
It’s in my posts
Read my posts
I guess she didn’t wanna do that
All you’re doing is meditating
Yall act like you have to clean a whole warehouse or work a 10am to 2am shift!
Like it’s giving
“Omg I have to lay still and affirm and breathe and actually be relaxed and ignore the 3D which I hate anyways and leave this physical plane to go to my 4D which is pretty much me in my most powerful and purest state to gain peace and comfort and manifest my desires because I was born to do this and then wake up with my desires because it’s literally so easy ugh that’s too much it’s soo hard!!
SOME OF YALL ARE GIVING THAT EXACT ENERGY
Im not comparing trauma or anything everything you’re going through is valid
But somebody is probably going through something so horrible
And they don’t know about the void state or manifestation in general!
YET YOU DO!!
Because guys I love you but you’re all asking the same thing over and over and over again
It’s driving me insane
Every post I make is about the void
What it is and how to get in
If my account was about making bagels
Would you ask me
“Do you make bagels?”
You see what I mean?
I love you so much but stop asking the same thing
And I made a post on boundaries
Still had someone asking me to enter the void for them
How am I gonna take time out of MY DAY
To enter the void for someone with the SAME POWER AS ME!!!!
That’s like helping a genius with his homework
You already know how to do it tf you asking me for????
😐
Bro
What do you think the void is???????
It’s not Disneyland
It’s not your mamas house
It’s not a Beyoncé concert
STOP TREATING IT LIKE ITS THE MOST DIFFICULT THING EVER OR THAT ITS OUT OF REACH OR OH I ONLY GET IN IF IM LUCKY
IT IS LITERALLY NOT!!!
There’s is no luck when it comes to the void
I’m not gonna keep repeating myself
Everyone on here keeps telling yall the same things
Yet you still ask
How to enter
Or
Complaining about not having symptoms
BECAUSE YOU GOT USED TO IT THATS WHY YOU HAVE NO SYMPTOMS ANYMORE AND EVEN IF YOU DO IDC IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR WHOLE BODY IS BEING DRAGGED ACROSS THE MF ROOM IGNORE IT YOUR SYMPTOMS IS APART OF THE 3D REALITY
WHY?
BECAUSE THEY ARE APART OF YOUR BODY AND YOUR BODY IS PHYSICAL THIS WHOLE REALITY IS PHYSICAL THERES NO POWER HERE YOU ARE THE 4D!!!!
THATS WHERE THE POWER IS AND ITS POWERFUL BECAUSE OF YOU
ITS ALWAYS BEEN YOU AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE YOU YOU HOLD THE POWER YOU ARE THE REASON WHY YOU EITHER ENTERED OR HAVENT BECAUSE ITS BASED ON YOUR ASSUMPTIONS
THE 3D IS A PHYSICAL REFLECTION OF YOU
YOU DONT LIKE IT RIGHT???????
OK MEDITATE
How???
BITCH JUST LAY THERE FOCUS ON YOUR BREATHING AND YOUR PEACE
AT THIS POINT SAY
FUCK MY DESIRES IMMA GET THEM ANYWAYS
IF YOUR ONLY GOAL FOR THE VOID IS TO MANIFEST YOUR DESIRES
YOU’RE GONNA GET IN ANYWAY BUT YOUR GOAL SHOULD INCREASE WITH EVERY STEP
WHEN YOU LAY DOWN FOCUS ON JUST FINDING PEACE AND CONNECTING WITH YOUR SELF DEEPLY FUCK THOSE SYMPTOMS FUCK ANY 3D REACTIONS IF YOU GET NO SYMPTOMS EVEN BETTER NOTHING TO DISTRACT YOU
IF YOU GET SLEEPY KEEP AFFIRMING YOU’LL WAKE UP IN THE VOID
DIDNT WORK?
DO IT AGAIN
“But I’m_(excuses)”
NOPE
DO IT AGAIN THIS IS FOR YOU NOT JUST YOUR DESIRES BUT YOU ARE GOING HOME TO GET THE PEACE YOU DESERVE
THE 4D IS YOUR HOME ITS CALLING YOU!!
YOU CREATED IT THE UNIVERSE TRYNA LET YOU KNOW WHOS BOSS
THAT BOSS IS YOU
SO LIKE A BOSS
GO TO WORK
GET WHAT YOU DESERVE
STOP COMPLAINING STOP RESEARCHING GET OFF OF HERE NOW!!
AND STOP USING ME AS YOUR VOID COACH I MAKE POSTS TO INSPIRE I RESPOND TO DMS FOR ASKS THAT I HAVENT ALREADY COVERED IF YOU NEED A QUESTION READ MY POSTS BEFORE YOU ASK
Not to be rude but you might get blocked if you ask
“How to enter the void?”
Bro
ALL MY POSTS TALK ABOUT THAT
Quit overcomplicating
You made the void
It exists because of you
Put YOURSELF on a pedestal not anything or anyone
Sometimes I feel like yall just use me and other blogs on here to get info on something we already talked about on our posts
Just for you to get mad when we get fed up with repetitive questions
BLOCK ME THEN BUT IM NOT ABOUT TO BABY YOU IM TELLING YOU THE TRUTH THE POWER LIES WITHIN YOU GIRLIE
READ BEFORE YOU ASK BABY
If this still doesn’t help you
Idk what else to say
I love you much love 🩵
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applesandbannas747 · 2 years ago
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me: so-and-so is an amazing and bright individual and I know they're ready for middle school! To set them up for success, I'd highly recommend looking into tutoring. I know *school most of them are going to* has a homework club, which would be an awesome place to start! They master concepts quickly and easily in small groups environments with more immediate access to the teacher--
me:
me: waiT A SECOND the reason all these kids need tutoring is because class sizes are too large for the general teacher to effectively reach each student during whole class instruction
the way 70% of my issues would be solved by having 15 kids instead of 30 is insane
teaching has revealed so many lies to me but by god is it true that when your teacher pesters and pushes you, it means they care. When they start to leave you tf alone it means they've stopped caring, and that's probably when you should be worrying about where you're headed.
anyway, report cards are due tonight, and all of the students I love are getting comments suggesting tutoring and homework clubs in middle school <3
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envyenvys · 1 month ago
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svsss | one-shot | T | 2.4k | ao3
This is. unreasonably long for what it is. I wrote this whole thing in a day bc I couldn’t stop thinking abt it and it’s so stupid but I hope it’s also as funny as I think it is??? So here, have some post-canon bingqiu nonsense from an outsider pov
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What’s His Fucking Deal
#cucumber-spotting
dick jokes
[screenshot of a text from Peerless Cucumber that reads “Do you still take commissions?”]
passionate ranting
no fucking way
he’s still alive???
binghe obsession
of course this is how we find out
homoerotic undertones
maybe he really was dead and he just rose from the grave to commission art of lbh one last time
in a totally hetero way ofc
binghe obsession
ofc
passionate ranting
after a year?
homoerotic undertones
anything’s possible
binghe obsession
@ dick jokes what did he want anyway
?
homoerotic undertones
@ dick jokes
dick jokes
gimme a minute he’s still explaining
homoerotic undertones
still???
passionate ranting
ooo point for me
homoerotic undertones
no it’s not, that’s just how he talks
it needs to be pidw comment level ranting or it doesn’t count
binghe obsession
probably still a point for me though
homoerotic undertones
shut the fuck up
basically everything he says counts as a point for you
some of us actually need to put effort into our point collecting
binghe obsession
skill issue
your fault for picking one of the harder ones
dick jokes
how do you think I feel
binghe obsession
yeah you really fucked that one up
he’s only ever made like one dick joke
passionate ranting
famously
binghe obsession
famously
dick jokes
what the actual fuck
THERES NO WAY
he’s serious?????????
homoerotic undertones
context??
binghe obsession
what did he do now
dick jokes
he wants me to
how the fuck do I phrase this so it makes sense
he wants me to go to his stupidly expensive apartment to paint a portrait of him and his husband(???????) in sqq x lbh cosplay
📌 [passionate ranting pinned a message to this channel. See all pinned messages.]
homoerotic undertones
how gullible do you think we are
dick jokes
IM NOT FUCKING JOKING
[screenshot of a text from Peerless Cucumber that reads “Would it be possible for you to paint at least part of it in person? My husband would prefer the authenticity of a live portrait, though it can still be digital.”]
[screenshot of a text from Peerless Cucumber that reads “My apartment would be best, our cosplay will likely attract too much attention anywhere else.”]
passionate ranting
WHAT
HUSBAND??????????????????
homoerotic undertones
oh my fucking god
binghe obsession
did he marry a lbh cosplayer
please say yes
passionate ranting
SHEN QINGQIU??????????
what the fuck HAPPENED to him while he was gone????
homoerotic undertones
maybe he got fucking
binghe obsession
lmfao he wishes
homoerotic undertones
transmigrated
let me finish??
passionate ranting
I mean……
he did get married, so
it’s likely
binghe obsession
can we go back to the part where under suggested he got fucking transmigrated
homoerotic undertones
think about it
binghe obsession
oh don’t worry I’m definitely thinking about it
passionate ranting
wait no I kinda get it
PC is kind of perfect for a transmigration romance tbh
homoerotic undertones
he’d be so good at it
passionate ranting
like imagine he ended up in pidw, he probably knows that world better than the author at this point
classic op otome isekai protag
homoerotic undertones
exactlyyyy
binghe obsession
what if we had a normal conversation for once
passionate ranting
in the peerless cucumber discord server?
binghe obsession
yeah okay point taken
then can either of you two geniuses explain the lbh x sqq shipping
homoerotic undertones
see that’s where the transmigration theory comes in
otome isekai never has the protag end up with their character’s canon love interest, but in pidw that cuts out like every woman
binghe obsession
wait hold on
homoerotic undertones
which is fine bc we’re 99% sure he isn’t into women anyway, but I digress
binghe obsession
you think he got transmigrated into fucking LUO BINGHE????
passionate ranting
wait they’re onto something here
let them cook
homoerotic undertones
what’s more of an otome isekai plotline than the protag falling in love with a character they used to hate after actually getting to know them?
PC would be basically immune to all the bullshit sqq pulls in the early chapters, and with his encyclopedic knowledge of pidw he’d notice pretty quick if there was anything different about sqq
like the brothel theory and how he treats nyy
plus with the way he writes comments he’d be able to keep up with sqq’s snark pretty easily
passionate ranting
wait why is this kinda…… 😳
binghe obsession
we are NOT shipping peerless cucumber x shen qingqiu
dick jokes
what the fuck happened while I was gone
passionate ranting
don’t worry about it
what did he say?
dick jokes
well the good news is he’s paying enough to cover my rent for the next six months
homoerotic undertones
you’re fucking joking
dick jokes
the bad news is they want me to start tomorrow
binghe obsession
LMFAOOO GOOD FUCKING LUCK
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What’s His Fucking Deal
#general
homoerotic undertones
@ dick jokes you have to tell us everything, we need to know if the transmigration theory is real
passionate ranting
it’s real to me
and honestly kind of compelling ngl
[passionate ranting created a poll.]
would you read the peerless cucumber transmigration romance?
☐ yes I need to know how his brain works [25%]
☐ fuck no he’d be insufferable [75%]
4 votes • 23h left
dick jokes
what happened to hello? how are you? good morning?
homoerotic undertones
good morning, how’s the commission going
dick jokes
bad
homoerotic undertones
didn’t you only get there like 10 minutes ago
dick jokes
yeah
┌ passionate ranting would you read the peerless cu…
passionate ranting
why are you all voting no
wait what’s happening with dj?
dick jokes
well first of all you’re both wrong, he didn’t transmigrate into lbh
passionate ranting
damn
dick jokes
second of all if I stop replying call the police immediately because the lbh cosplayer murdered me for looking at PC too long
it’s not like I’m a fucking artist who needs references or anything
passionate ranting
HES SQQ????
homoerotic undertones
villainess isekai……
passionate ranting
I can’t believe they sank scumcum in less than 24h
wait hold on
binghe obsession
where the fuck are you coming up with these names
also good morning
[passionate ranting created a poll.]
best PC ship
☐ peerless cucumber x shen qingqiu [100%]
☐ peerless cucumber x luo binghe [0%]
1 vote • 23h left
binghe obsession
there’s something wrong with you clinically
dick jokes
guys idk if I’m gonna survive this
homoerotic undertones
is the lbh cosplayer actually threatening you? bc I’m 100% willing to call the police right now
or book a didi to pick you up
actually what’s his address I’m coming to get you
dick jokes
fucking chill
(but ty I appreciate it <3)
I was talking abt the mountains of dog food they’re shovelling down my throat rn
binghe obsession
lmfaooo
dick jokes
I don’t think the lbh cosplayer has stopped touching PC since I got here
they’re like
nauseating
homoerotic undertones
honestly still a pretty good reason to just leave
I have the didi app open just say the word
dick jokes
six months of rent
homoerotic undertones
right
binghe obsession
I can’t decide if this is ooc behaviour for lbh or not
passionate ranting
the exhibitionism is accurate at least
dick jokes
ugh don’t say that
homoerotic undertones
bingge isn’t clingy though
passionate ranting
hm good point
binghe obsession
I’m just thinking, if the transmigration theory was true and PC became sqq, it would affect lbh’s behaviour
passionate ranting
omg we converted you
homoerotic undertones
oh that’s true, PC’s obsessed with lbh and he hates sqq… if he turned into sqq he wouldn’t be able to keep the plot on track to save his life
binghe obsession
actually nvm I don’t want to think about this anymore
homoerotic undertones
noooo come on, think of it as a character study!!
passionate ranting
yeah!! even bingge was obsessed with sqq for years, there’s no way a lbh with PC for a shizun could be normal about him
binghe obsession
ugh fine
passionate ranting
!!!
binghe obsession
well to start, it would depend entirely on what part of the novel PC transmigrated into, how much freedom he has to fuck around, and how hard he’s trying to act like original!sqq
canon lbh is an obsessive, horny perfectionist incapable of self reflection in any meaningful way bc he can’t accept that his life sucks and he’s miserable. He has mommy issues, daddy issues, abandonment issues, probably an inferiority complex and a superiority complex at the same time, and who knows what else. Basically anything airplane thought would be depressing enough to introduce in the first arc but then never resolved later on
homoerotic undertones
OK Peerless Cucumber
binghe obsession
YOU ASKED????
passionate ranting
under shut up I wanna hear the rest of the analysis 😭
binghe obsession
what I was GOING to say is that if the shizun lbh was always trying to get the approval of just turned around one day and started doting on him the way we KNOW pc would, he’d direct all his issues toward pc and then it’d probably dissolve into some endless feedback loop of obsessive behaviour
so yeah, the clinginess makes sense
passionate ranting
ohh you’re so right
hopefully a bingge with pc!sqq would have a happier ending…
this sucks, now I wish the transmigration theory was real :(
homoerotic undertones
probably better that it isn’t, since, yk, PC would have to die first
passionate ranting
only a little bit
dick jokes
thank fucking god I thought I’d be trapped in there with them forever
homoerotic undertones
are you already done??
dick jokes
lmfao god no
lunch break, I’m hiding on the balcony
there’s SO MUCH shit I need to tell you guys, you don’t even know
binghe obsession
they actually gave you a lunch break?
dick jokes
tbh actually I think the only reason I get a break is bc lbh wanted the time alone to feed pc
these two are literally insane
I’m eating off a takeout plate bc they don’t have enough dishes. they didn’t even offer me anything to drink bc there’s only one cup in the entire apartment and they share it
homoerotic undertones
what the fuck
dick jokes
RIGHT?
binghe obsession
thought you’d be full from all that dog food lmfao
dick jokes
ugh don’t remind me you’re gonna make me lose my appetite
which is saying something bc this is literally unironically the best food I’ve ever tasted in my life
lbh made it and I thought he was genuinely gonna kill me when pc told him to give me some
like I’m sorry bro you’re the one who hired me?? take it up with your wife
passionate ranting
what’s his problem 😭
you don’t need to method act for cosplay
dick jokes
I don’t think he’s acting though?? like this is 100% home grown issues
he calls pc ‘shizun’ unironically and refers to himself as his disciple
homoerotic undertones
wtf
dick jokes
AND they’ve been wearing the most beautiful, intricate, clearly handmade xianxia style hanfu I’ve ever seen the entire time, didn’t even take it off to eat which is CRAZY to me
like what if you dropped soy sauce on it and it stained??? I’d kms
passionate ranting
oh they weren’t kidding abt the cosplay attracting attention then huh
dick jokes
THEY WERE NOT KIDDING, NO
homoerotic undertones
we’ve got to get you outta there
dick jokes
six months of rent
homoerotic undertones
right
well. good luck I guess
at least the food’s good
dick jokes
at least the food’s good
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What’s His Fucking Deal
#general
dick jokes
hey guys?
this is gonna sound insane but
I think this might be the real luo binghe
homoerotic undertones
what
dick jokes
I think we were right about the transmigration thing
I think peerless cucumber really did die and transmigrate last year, and he brought the real lbh back with him
it’s just… something about the way they’re talking? PC keeps having to explain things to lbh but it’s only the sort of stuff you wouldn’t know about if you, say, lived in a fictional xianxia world without modern technology
also I saw his huadian glowing, like LED bright glowing
you can’t do that with practical effects
passionate ranting
are you doing okay, dj?
binghe obsession
blink twice if you need help
dick jokes
I’m serious!!! there’s something really weird about them!!!
passionate ranting
that doesn’t mean they’re transmigrators??? they’re probably just hardcore larping or something
dick jokes
see that’s what I thought at first too, but then
HOLY FUCK
homoerotic undertones
???
dick jokes
[10 seconds of shaky footage of an icy portal opening in the centre of an upper-class apartment living room. A man in xianxia style hanfu stumbles out of it, followed by a much taller man with long, dark hair, and skin tinged faintly blue.]
passionate ranting
MOBEI JUN???????????
binghe obsession
is that fucking shang qinghua
homoerotic undertones
WHAT
passionate ranting
MOBEI JUN???? FROM PIDW?????
what the fuck. what the Fuck
homoerotic undertones
what the FUCK
this is so
passionate ranting
oh my god. you weren’t kidding. that’s the real luo binghe
oh FUCK peerless cucumber died last year and no one even knew
AND HE GOT TRANSMIGRATED?????????
homoerotic undertones
THEYRE REAL???????????????
wait why are they in OUR world?????
binghe obsession
I think I need to lie down for a minute
passionate ranting
why is shang qinghua there???? isn’t he supposed to be dead??????
dick jokes
PC just called him airplane
passionate ranting
AIRPLANE SHOOTING TOWARDS THE SKY????????????????????????????
homoerotic undertones
imagine getting transmigrated into your own novel and your biggest hater is there too and he’s fucking your protagonist
villainess isekai protag peerless cucumber is real and I don’t know how to feel about this
binghe obsession
I just know this is your fault somehow
all three of you
dick jokes
ME???
WHAT DID I DO??
homoerotic undertones
wait oh fuck this means airplane died too and no one noticed
how did it happen twice???????
dick jokes
……….. shang qinghua and mobei jun want me to paint a portrait of them too
passionate ranting
omg….. moshang is real……..
homoerotic undertones
DJ GO HOME??
JUST LEAVE
dick jokes
they’re doubling my pay
one year of rent is worth so much more than my sanity
binghe obsession
I just remembered when like two years ago PC said something stupid on weibo
and it was one of his “lbh deserves better than this shitty novel” rants so I commented something like “luo binghe isn’t gonna fuck you, dude”
he was so pissed at me
but like
homoerotic undertones
LMFAO
binghe obsession
he really did it. luo binghe really fucked him
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heywardsdoll · 4 months ago
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pope is never the one to deny you of being in charge in the whole situationship.
in fact he likes it. the way that you clammer over everything important, dotting the i's and crossing the t's. theres a sweet look of determination on your face when you look back at him and he bites his lip to stop himself from kissing you right there and then.
when he crosses the street, you're scurrying in front of him, hands entwined with his as you tell him to be careful. at flights where he has to go to pretend to be your boyfriend, you are the one to hold his hand reassuring him everything was going to be fine. even in academic scenarios, you're delving deeper into the fields you enjoy, ranting to him about how wonderful it is.
you take charge everywhere you go, racking up a storm with your sweet pout and narrowed eyebrows. your mouth is always firmly in a straight line, hands balling at your sides. the first time he saw you, he itched to see your soft mouth curl up at the sides, to let that soft golden glow of yours shine. but alas you were always four steps ahead of him. and you were damned if you were going to let anyone see you go 'soft.
but that sort of determination that gets you fighting for him, that type where he lays in bed and you ask him if he's okay, if anything was too much, or if he needs anything. pope was always surprised, but never ashamed of the amount of power you held in your ways. you could get anyone to do your bidding, and yet you stayed at his side. your wise eyes would not trace anyone else body but his on those cold nights when he thought he had lost it all.
at some point though, he sees the way your body sags with exhaustion. the way that the crease between your eyebrows becomes too apparent to be just from stress. it's then that he finds himself coaxing you out of your shell.
suddenly you're laying in his arms, as he rubs little circles across your back. he's kissing the places it hurts, and then booping your nose so he can get it to crinkle that way he likes it. you're mewling about the new things you've learned in the day, his arms tight around your body. you sigh, and he curses himself for letting you get so tired. but then it's when he hears your small voice whispering thank you.
that's when he comes apart. when he hears your body cling to his, a sweet relief on your face as you kiss his face all over the place. the stress that drips from your body is gone, and you're rejoicing like someone who got what they wanted after so long. your soft eyes are blinking, eyes that he can't stop looking at even if he is tired. he takes your sudden softness as grace.
"thank you, pope, thank you, thank you, thank—"
and so pope does what pope always does, he smiles because goddamnit if you aren't the most beautiful being he has ever put his eyes on.
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note: this is the pope's side of the story of this intricate relationship with kook!reader. she's a spit fire and almost too much to handle, but i love writing about them !!
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divinesolas · 2 years ago
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Summary: Your friend was invited to a party and she begs you to tag along. While at the party they decide to play truth or dare and your friend knowing you have a crush on the cute guy from your english class, gives you a stupid dare.
pairing: Ethan Landry × gn!reader Drabble
warnings: alternate universe where there's no ghostface or whatever. I've never seen a scream movie before but i like ethan, oc best friend, cursing, making out.
a/n: not my usual fandom but i was just inspired to write this
PART TWO !!
While staring at your best friend in betrayal all you can think about how much you regret coming.
Only just hours ago you remember sitting on your bed on the phone with your best friend mars while she ranted to you about how much she wanted you to come. "pleeeeeeeeeeeee ease." you roll your eyes, "i don't feel like it mars."
"ugh," you can hear her shuffling through the phone, "just come with me please? for me?" "mars..." "'Il write that english paper youve been dreading for you." "Fine."
You two arrive at the party and you just follow her around the whole time. You notice than is here. The guy who sits next to you during english who you just so happen to have a major crush on. You've never spoken other than him asking if you have an extra pen during class after he forgot his one time. When he gave it back to you he has this charming grin on his face and you fell instantly.
He's standing next to another guy, you think his name is chad? You cant be bothered to care when he looks in your direction and notices you and your stare, his face flushes as he looks down at the cup in his hand. You turn away and look towards your friend whos giving you a suspicious grin. "what." "go talk to him." "no way."
she shakes her head at you and turns away that grin still on her face and you dont like it.
now you know why you didn't like it. Someone had suggested you guys play truth or dare like fucking children and when it happens to be your turn and guess who happens to be the one giving you the dare. "I dare you to..... sit in the pantry for seven minutes, ill send someone into join you." Fucking mars.
You knew who she would send it, "unless you're a pussy." you glared at her as everyone oo'ed. You huff as you get up and walk towards the pantry and slam it behind you dreading the inevitable.
the closet is small yet you keep your back turned towards the door. Its only maybe a minute before the door opens and you feel another presence enter as mars shouts, "Seven minutes starts... now!" You feel a warm body press against yours as the door slams shut.
You don't turn you dont even look before you begin to speak. "Im sorry." Theres a moment of silence, "For what?" Its him. "My friend mars, she's..... She's probably making you do this im sorry." He probably doesn't even know your name and now she has you standing your backside pressed against him.
"No she isn't making me do this." Now this confuses you as you turn your body, you back side brushing against his front and he whimpers slightly as you face him. "What."
His body gets warmer as if to reflect how embarrassed he feels, "She asked if there was anyone who wants to go in there with you." no way. "and you volunteered." you look at him the best you can in the dark as he avoids your face. "Yes."
"Why?" He pauses for a brief moment, "i've always thought you were gorgeous." Your breathe gets caught in your throat. "I've always wanted to talk to you you know since we sit next to each other but i've never known how to start a conversation so when i got this opportunity i just wanted to be near you-" He's rambling so You kiss him.
Once his initial shock wares off he takes your face into his hands eagerly as he kisses you back. you press him back against the door and he hums in delight. "One more minute love birds!" Its chad voice you think. You pull back out of breath, "Ethan-" he slams his lips back against yours, when you press your body against his he whimpers and hums. you hold him against you as theres a knock on the door,
"times up lovebirds make sure you're clothed because im going to open to the door." Ethan pulls away from the door and you two look at each other in daze.
as the door opens you move to whisper in his ear "We'll finish this later." as you spin him around and walk pantry with a satisfied look on your face. "You're welcome you bitch.
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yawntutsyip · 2 years ago
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Rotxo x Ao’nung’s Twin Sister
Warnings: Not proof read, super messy,
AN: This was just something a came up for a story but I’m too lazy to write it out 🤭❤️ also Rotxo has been on my mind 😦 feeling like giggling and kicking my feet he’s so precious
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You always hung out with Ao’nung and Rotxo with their friends.
Rotxo always thought you were pretty and would blush every time he saw you
He also tends to talk about you or bring you up because your always on his mind
“Oh look at these shell I found at the bottom, aren’t these (Y/N)’s favorite?
“This fruit is delicious, do you think (Y/N) would like some?”
Ao’nung was not oblivious, he saw right through Rotxo, knowing he had a thing for his sister.
Ao’nung at first didn’t like it because ew gross my sister? and she’s so annoying how could you like her? There’s better girls
Plus there was the hidden protective brother in him that he hides
But he knows Rotxo would treat you well, he trust Rotxo as that is his best friend
One day he was sitting down with Rotxo as they were sharpening spears and decided this would be a good time to bring it up
“Rotxo…do you like my sister?”
Rotxo was shocked, had he been that obvious? Did you know?!? Was Ao’nung gonna be mad?
Rotxo searched Ao’nung’s face for any frown or a hint of anger but there was nothing but a calm look
Finally mustering up the courage he told Ao’nung yes,
“I like (Y/N)…she is the most beautiful Metkayina girl I have ever laid my eyes on. Since day once of meeting you guys I feel in love with her and all her little quirks she has. (He went on more to talk about you)
Ao’nung was like Rotxo shut up that’s gross I don’t want to hear you talk about my sister like that.
Ao’nung also was like, since your my bro and I’m also tired of having my sister moan and groan about being lonely I’ll help you ig 😒
They came up with a plan together, they set up a whole thing with flower petals and cut fruit and candles and shit (it was cute)
Ao’nung is gonna distract his parents while he has Tsireya sneak you out to go meet Rotxo
Rotxo will be waiting and confess is undying love
THEN BAM KISS KISS MUAH YOUR TOGETHER
Yeah, so that’s how they thought is was gonna go..
When Ao’nung was trying to distract his parents Tsireya had already been passed out 💀 she was tired so then he switched up and was like
Actually you know how responsible (Y/N) is? Like you should have her to take a walk, ACTUALLY I WILL take my lovely sister on a walk let us have some bonding time yeah?
They were like “bond here. Wtf? It’s late”
Yeah this wasn’t working.
Rotxo has been sitting there holding the flowers he had picked for you in hand.
“where the heck are they? I’ve been here for 20 mins now… Oh no!? Did (Y/N) not want to come and meet me?”
POOR BABY
Your parents were fed up with Ao’nungs ranting about random shit tryna come up with a good reason as to why you need to go out this late so they were like boy if you don’t stfu and tell us that trouble your tryna get up into
At this point Ao’nung was fed up too because he was like DAMN CAN WE JUST LEAVE? THERES SOMETHING IMPORTANT ABOUT TO HAPPEN
But they were all interrupted by Rotxo coming in with a sad pout “BEFORE ANY WORDS ARE SPOKEN I MUST TALK!”
“(Y/N) I can’t hide my feelings forver from you, you mean the world to me and I don’t want our friendship to be ruined. I’m sorry that I love you but please if you would like we can forget about all this and continue being friends.” He was talking his heart out.
Your whole family just stood there shocked.
You were blushing like crazy and go up to hug Rotxo, you also had a crush on him
Yea the whole “my brothers best friend” troupe
“Rotxo what are you talking about I didn’t say anything yet, I like you too!”
He was like “what really?!”
Ao’nung was mad cuz they literally had to come up with a whole ass plan only for y’all to just be like “yo I like you” “I like you to”
ANWAYS he was just happy y’all were together now
But he was still disgusted
Also your parents approved of it because they knew how much of a good boy Rotxo is
The end
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wannaeatramyeon · 1 year ago
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not a request, i just have no friends that like lookism who i can rant about this to.
my brain cannot stop thinking about gun and goo with a s/o that is very feminine but in the way that a porcelain doll is feminine. like pretty and delicate but with an underlying creepiness in an uncanny valley way.
like holds gun and goos hand while walking down the street and part of the people walking past are scared of gun and goo but then they look at her and are like "😰" because there is something so off about her.
gun and goo going inside a store and getting something because they know that any man who tries anything will see that creepy doll-like stare and immediately walk away.
i dont know, theres just something about femininity of porcelain dolls that goes so well with gun and goo in my brain and i just needed to tell someone about this worm in my brain.
thank you for reading my rant, its greatly appreciated, my mind needed to put this SOMEWHERE.
Me about to say of course anyone ending up with Gun and/or Goo would be deranged. As a fandom we breeze over what horrific monsters they are then... this happened. Some things just write itself almost instantly. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me anon!!
Gun Park x Reader x Goo Kim: Soulless
F reader. A strange throupling. If you want horny, this is not it.
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Crystal isn't sure if it is a stroke of genius or temporary lapse of sanity from her father to pair Gun Park and Goo Kim together.
Like oil and water; if the oil and the water was both highly toxic and would guarantee a painful death.
Nevertheless, it got the job done.
Yet when you were introduced, an odd addition and forming a throuple, Crystal worked hard to not show the confusion on her face.
True, her hyungs are very handsome in their own right and it would make sense they match up with someone equally beautiful.
But your doll-like, 'look you the wrong way and you may shatter' appearance seemed completely at odds with Gun and Goo.
And then she shook your hand, looked into your eyes and it all clicked.
Quite simply, there was nothing there. Vacant, soulless.
A void not dissimilar to Gun Park.
The polite 'hello' and stretched smile also reminiscent of Goo Kim.
Beneath your pretty layers, your pink and your frills are further hints of your true nature. Faint markings around your collarbone, dried blood below your manicure, dust and dirt marring your footsteps.
As Gun and Goo debriefed Crystal on HNH comings and goings, you simply sat there. One hand around Gun's arm and head resting on Goo's shoulder.
Staring and quiet. Expression unreadable. Just... existing.
You laughed when you were supposed to, added to the conversation when you should.
As if waiting for your cue. Even your blinks seem scripted.
Finally, when Crystal departs, she locks eyes with you for the last time.
A sense of drowning overwhelms her. Like she is treading water over an abyss, waiting for whatever is lurking to engulf her whole.
Feeling as if she would fall into your darkness forever, she couldn't repress the shiver down her spine.
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pumpkinsy0 · 5 months ago
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Can we get some hcs of Pony and Curly just doing small sweet romantic things for each other? (If that makes sense 😭) Like Pony taking Curly to a movie and Curly doing his best not to complain the whole time because he knows Pony doesn't usually invite people to the movies with him and stuff (even though he's probably not successful in the no complaining part)
OF COURSE I ALWAYS LOVED LIL THINGS LIKE THAT
•curlys moved to the us for a good chunk amount of time, but he still lowkey has his haitian accent and pony can tell bc curly doesnt rlly pronounce his r’s that hard, but pony doesnt mind he likes it
•curly THINKS pony doesnt notice, but pony does, he just thinks its endearing so doesnt say anything
•pony could tell curly he likes this ONE thing and curly will just forever associate it w pony and even if theres something even semi related to what pony likes, curly will show it to pony
•curly doesnt rlly share his interest that much w anyone so when pony finds out curlys interested in one thing, he tries learning about it so curly can talk about it w him, curly listens to ponys rants its only fair if pony does the same or else he feels like a dick
•both pony and curly like different parts of foods but hate the other bits so when theyre eating they usually take out the bit that the other person likes more so they can have it later and they just eat the part they like
•pony learned how to braid so he could do curlys hair sometimes, is he rlly only able to do cornrows??? yea, but its ok curly likes the thought behind it, plus he’s still learning give the guy some time
•he actually helps curly quite a but w his hair, especially when its in an afro, he just CANNOT braid allat much, his lil hands hurt, but minus him and soda, he thinks curlys hair is pretty tough
•they have this habit of pressing their burn scars from that chicken game together, but its so quick that if u blink u could just flat out miss it, its literally just a small press on each others fingers n they stop
•pony tends to fall asleep while reading sometimes and curly notices so while ponys asleep he just takes the book and bends the page corner so pony can find the page again, he knows pony gets cranky when he loses a page
•curly typically has the blinds and window in his room closed BUT he knows that pony likes the small breeze he gets in his own room laying down so when pony comes over those blinds and that window r OPEN
•when curlys off in or jail or whatever, if curlys gonna be gone for a bit, pony gives curly a letter to hold onto, even draws lil doodles on the thing, curly keeps em in a box, sometimes while hes in jail pony has to give curly a letter so he hands it off to tim so he can give it to curly, and tim jokes about opening and reading it and curly gets REAAALLLYYYY touchy about it, telling him not to, ATTEMPTING to intimidate tim
•does it work??? nope, but tims just more curious as to why the letter means sm to curly, he knows they have a thing going on but to get THAT emotional over it??? hmmmm🤨🤨🤔🤔
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bulbabutt · 2 months ago
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Can I ask your thoughts on TF One? I have mixed feelings about it, but I’m very curious about what other people think (this can be an invitation to rant if you want it)
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH thats all ive BEEN doing but you've asked for it
its. so fucking. like okay you could tell from the trailers that it was just gonna be your AVERAGE ass blockbuster movie. its tone was not giving anything original in the slightest. you know, mcu slop. not like... that everything mcu IS slop, but like youve seen unoriginal basic blockbusters before im sure. vague 'we gotta save the world' types.
starting with characters: we have quirky funny hero who makes bad jokes, hes starlord but not as thought out. childish and hopeful, but never wrong. we have a secondary 'comic relief' who... feels useless cuz orion is already the jokester, hes there to be awkward and make the others uncomfortable, but like... ahahha hes violent now. hes pretty useless to the story. and we have cliche ass woman side character whos there to be.... the fuckin scarlett johansen type, i feel like i dont even need to specify what i mean by that. youve seen marvel movies or marvel like movies. like elita in this movie bumps that prime arcee problem i have up to 11, heres shes....... a career woman. who is FINE being taken advantage of and not being compassionate cuz THERES WORK TO DO.... like. i mean think of those romcoms where a woman has NOOOO time for dating kind of thing. and then the only character worth a damn (also the only... not shitty SOUNDING one aka a good VOICE actor whos being a CHARACTER and not just 'hey everyone you know this guys voice') is megatron, and hes not as well thought out as he should be. like they do TRY with his arc, but its not satisfying enough, they dont HOLD ON HIM enough i think. and then hes the bad guy when HE DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG........
this movie bumps the usual 'transformers lore is boring long and confusing as hell' to 11 cuz its a movie, trying to fit in lore that usually is spaced out over the course of a tv show. and tv shows with all that lore tend to be annoying anyway, but JESUS in a movie is it ever annoying. but its not that thought out! like. ive said it a hundred times before, but i HATE the 13. i hate the fact we have fucking jesus and the apostles to the LITERAL god primus, it makes the story fucking basic as hell. it makes the politics surrounding the war religious and messy and BAD! THIS IS ABT ROBOTS WHY IS IT A HOLY WAR NOW!!!
and showing that the one guy who WASNT chosen by god to be the bad guy whos lying to the people ABOUT being chosen by god is bad! we should know thats bad COME ON. and his whole thing is 'oops ive fucked up and now im sacrificing my people to these vague alien invaders cuz im a big dumb idiot and i have no plan on how to deal with this tee hee' like. how you gonna make the quintessons this lame. theyre vaguely animal like but willing to make a deal and stuff. its really poorly thought out.
also. from the trailers they made it look like 'oh no, elita and airachnid are gonna have that GIRL beef with each other, so we can justify the girls fighting' but.... they didnt even do that. airachnids not really a character, shes just... the only person whos on sentinels side. for some reason. but really its just cuz shes physically weird, and she could easily be replaced by an object shes not a character, shes the camera with the proof. (something something girl transformers are always motorcycles or spiders cuz sexual dimorphism of alt modes LMAO)
like. i did not care for prime ive said that a million times here, but at least that shows telling and not showing gave you like 'okay so orion and megatron used to be partners who started a revolution together, and their political beliefs are what splintered the planet into autobots and decepticons'. but HERE. its so fucking vague?? its like. ok what split them apart was.... the fact megatron wanted to kill the (according to the movie) only guy who was causing any problems for the whole planet?? WHEN BUMBLEBEE WAS JUST SHOWN KILLING LIKE 20 GUYS 5 MINUTES EARLIER???
anyway that 'death' scene for orion was ripping off beast machines and while i had issues with beast machines at the time FUCK YOU! they did that for A REASON!!!! IT WAS NARRATIVELY IMPORTANT TO HAVE HIM DO THAT! IT WAS BAD WHEN PRIME RIPPED IT OFF AND THIS RIPPED IT OFF WORSE!!!!!! FOR WHAT!!! 'oh optimus runs in the way of megatrons gun to save the, i repeat, guy who is SINGLEHANDEDLY responsible for opression on their planet?? thats fucking stupid. thats genuinely so stupid, and while him being like 'im done saving you' COULD be fun and cool and interesting there justttttt wasnt enough of it??
like what i find interesting is that megatron and ELITA had more in common, they were BOTH trying to use the fucked up system they knew was fucked up to get ahead. and what do we get out of that? some BULLSHIT 'girlboss' speech that belongs in 2011 from elita about 'im better than you, i could do everything right cuz im cool and badass and smart and better than you. but.... youre a big dummy with a heart so you should be in charge' GROOOOOOOOOOANNNNN
people always wanna harp on me for being like 'idk man, i like g1 cuz i think theres more interesting ideas that could be readapted better by people who care' but instead we have to turn characters and stories and ideas about politics into basic ass hollywood blockbuster vague nonsense to fit the ideals of the wider movie going audience. and i think thats bullshit.
i think transformers should go back to ripping of star wars and im not kidding. stop making the autobots the fucking leaders of the planet, youre making them complicit in a corrupt worldstate and turning them into fascists who oust non believers. they started as fucking scrappy rebels, take me the fuck back if youre not even gonna go so far as to say 'maybe the autobots do the WRONG thing' like they did in animated.
i think people only like this movie cuz theyre too fucking used to the GOD AWFUL BAYVERSE, and so they think this is GOOD. its not!! its not smart at all!!! go watch sci fi shit from before 2007 I SWEAR TO GOD!!!! EDUCATE YOURSELF!!!!
the best tf movie IS STILL the transformers the movie 1986 cuz it was COOL and DIFFERENT and well animated and had a good soundtrack and was full of cool characters! maybe it was a lil goofy, but THAT message of hope in the face of despair speaks WAY louder than THIS SHIT..... if youre gonna force the conflict to be political you need SOME UNDERSTANDING OF POLITICS....
im sorry. ive only seen the movie once but im just.... it encapsulates every fucking issue ive been having with the transformers franchise since watching prime. where it got fucking religious and poorly thought out. i know its those god awful bay movies faults but JESUS its been sticking around WAY too long and im tired.
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dysaniadisorder · 7 months ago
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i could talk forever about sydney o sargent but you know what gets me? what really fucking gets me? how badly he wants to LISTEN
he talks all fucking day. says anything and everything to anyone thats around because he spends every other month of the whole year isolated and alone and so he talks 'too much'!!! and to most people outside his situation, like Salem, assume he just loves the sound of his own voice. but he doesn't!!! he fucking hates himself! thing is, 99% of the time, theres just no one around to actually talk to! plenty of times he invites campers down to his office to talk to him, about life, about horror, but im never over when he says "or just to chat! I'd... i'd love to chat." christ alive he just wants somebody to talk to.
a scene that makes this glaringly fucking obvious is when Rowan comes down to his office, but after getting his medications just... sits down to talk. And Rowan talks, about his day and his time at camp and whatnot, and Syndey says fucking nothing. when was the last time someone wanted to just idly share something about themselves with him? he ends up making it awkward by accident, he doesnt want to talk over Rowan and drive him away so he doesnt talk at all until Rowans already leaving.
in the recording between Jedidiah & Sydney in college, Jedidiahs having a little rant about thee stupidest thing ever, but Sydney is listening so intently and so interested. and in the clock of meantime when he recounts Jedidiahs account of his dream... in the story he doesnt interrupt Jedidiah at all. and when Jedidiah stops talking, "[Sydney's] voice filled the night once more." he'd talk and talk and talk but as soon as Jedidiah expresses any want to he craves any chance to listen to what other people have to say
i think this is also a pretty good standard for why he became friends with Yvonne and Joshua in college- theyre both pretty intense people who talk a lot, but who are good at holding a conversation- both with each other and with people who are relatively hard to talk to (like Jedidiah). I also think this makes Sydneys friendship with Marisol really important because she's very similar in a way. She always has something important to say and something she wants to express but she's incredibly concerned about other people and so rarely has a chance to say it. I love the scene where Sydney leaves his recorder behind to go hang out with Marisol at the bonfire. i think it is a distant and fleeting but incredibly important moment among a sea of horrible things through the whole summer, that Sydney describes Marisol as both easy and fun to talk to
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suffarustuffaru · 7 months ago
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The fanbase is scaring me, the redesigns brought up some weird people that are REALLY passionate about Liliana being half naked
Like theres a whole war going on on twitter rn and the poor character designer got harassed
My problem is with the amount of people upset with this, like i knew we had a bunch of pedos around because of the way tappei writes the girls, but damn i didnt think there were this many of them 💀
yes ive heard about that....... im answering your ask late oops haah but i hope the situations a Bit better..... the toxic parts of this fandom give me a headache but my usual motto is to stay off twitter, touch grass, ignore people, and then hold onto my own viewpoints unless proven wrong alsjdflsdj but like. yeah this fandom is a bit tough to stay in when it comes to certain circles (for example the amount of people low quality shitposting / ranting about the fandom or whatever on rezero ao3 atm in the past days/weeks is. mm. interesting). not my first time being in larger fandoms that make you sometimes feel like youre fighting in the trenches (you could name off a few big fandoms notorious for being toxic that date back to like 2016 and odds are ive been in a couple lajdlf) but yeah seeing people complain about liliana and capella's designs and then overly fixate on emilia's boobs when these three characters have more to bring to the table than just that and theres lots and lots of good things to say about the s3 trailer and their designs..... mm. yeah. im squinting hard at a few of the things ive heard on that. but anyway!!
like the new designs are an Improvement. In General. like ok, as a boob haver myself ("boob haver" is the funniest phrase to me alsdjfls but it is true nonetheless, i am one) i do not give a shit about emilias larger boobs like ok?? her boobs are bigger?? she is still my fav ever and sometimes it just happens when youre still a growing teen/young adult and emilias back to her more revealing main outfit when she wore a different outfit in s2 so the difference in chest size is really not that much. but liliana and capella? those are Improved designs. i think ive talked abt the treatment of underage characters / characters who appear underage on my blog before (and i definitely couldve worded myself better then but i stand behind the fact that some of the stuff otsuka and tappei do regarding this in rezero is just Unnecessary).
could designs like emilia's still be improved on in other ways? yeah 100%, just in the sense that there could probably be changed a bit to fit her slightly more timid and soft spoken personality. or you could take different directions on it in general if you wanted. ive seen some great redesigns of her main outfit!! though her main outfit in of itself is pretty nice to look at imo and its iconic and well-known for a reason. im of the personal opinion that i wish it was a little less revealing in the same vein that her s2 main outfit was (i like that outfit a lot!!) but its still a really solid design overall.
i had some faith after seeing the anime designers fix up typhoon's original design to be More Appropriate, and i love how the essence of liliana and capella's designs were kept the same. like its not just that theyre a little less revealing (and even then, theyre both still showing a lot of skin!!! which is good!!! i like the improvement while keeping the main stuff the same), but stuff like liliana's pants aren't transparent (probably to make it easier to animate?) and the yellow/orange gradient in capella's hair looks great!! they also both look more like grown women which is a bonus. unless youre Weird about this shit which is unfortunately a small percentage of the rezero community. like you cant win with those sort of people ig, bc capella's boobs are bigger too ljasdlfj youd think that win more people over.
also i appreciate capella's sports bra bc unlike elsa's outfit it Actually looks like it's supporting her chest. if youre someone with boobs and you dont have a flat chest, youre gonna need support when being active or itll Hurt. and elsa Does Not have proper chest support okay. ill forever wince remembering elsa's design in that sense HAH....
anyway but i digress. i got no clue what to do with toxic people in fandoms despite spending a lot of time lurking in large fandoms with loud toxic people haah.... its hard to do much about it especially with increasingly declining media literacy rates everywhere.... the notorious misogyny/homophobia/etc that can happen sometimes in anime communities.... that sort of thing. i kinda just avoid it when it comes to rezero in specific, or briefly talk about it on here, or rant about it to myself in my head or chat with pals about it in private if it really frustrates me that much!! and id say im a pretty patient person hah... im not frustrated often. and the fandom is not all weird people of course and i can attest to that as ive chatted with a lot of people here... ive also seen a lot of people leave due to the fandom's Issues which is. totally fair tbh.
and i think rezero is often a "baby's first fandom" so to speak... i dont mean that in a bad way of course but its more like its the first exposure to fandom and fandom etiquette and fic etiquette and that sort of thing when it comes to english circles. or at least its a pattern ive noticed, so my theory is that that occasionally that combines with toxic fans and then you get a few people complaining about the community and how bad our fics are on rezero ao3 ig lajdlfjsdlf. which is false by the way :<< and an annoying misuse of ao3 as a free creative archive :<<
but ultimately i hope the rezero character designer's alright (and honestly theyve done super super great work - like the anime Did Not need to give emilia a bajillion outfits and go above and beyond with improving liliana, capella, giving the suwens and their hometown a whole unique aesthetic, etc). and also while i have stuff to criticize with otsuka and tappei... and the toxic parts of the fandom hah... i still enjoy rezero apart from that and the uproar with the designs has not chipped away at me too much!! ive been in this fandom long enough i guess lmao i just roll with punches at this point T^T but i also just try to look on the bright side a lot in general so ;-;;;
these are the sorts of things i like to be aware about but i dont like to get myself super involved with it (since itll probably make it worse and/or make me stressed for no good reason lmfaoo) and i wont let it enjoy the parts of rezero that i do enjoy a lot (which is to say like. the other 98% of rezero hah). so. getting off twitter is the biggest godsend i promise lajdlsfj.
but anyway!! yeah i dont have much organized thoughts on all of this, this is just me rambling my feelings on it. hope this all makes sense anon <3
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