#the kind you feel in your throat

[gawy-in]

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[baicaozhe]

BODY // GRAVE

[tbartss]

hey is everybody else's 20s like this? like. bad?

[crimeronan]

all this basilisk talk is just giving me the thought of like: how does hunter, famous for being Completely Ok with people treating him poorly for no reason all the time forever, cope with knowing that camilas only knowledge of him was that he was a cruel unrepentant bastard who let her daughter be tortured, and camila was nice to him. like. always.

GOD.

this is another thing that won't be set in stone until i fic it, if i fic it properly, but:

i think Probably he won't be able to conceptualize it as kindness for the sake of kindness. not at first, anyway. he's like okay, best case scenario, you've been kind to me because it helps you politically and you don't want to alienate luz. WORST case scenario, you thought i was going two for two on torturing your daughters and wanted me to like you so luz wouldn't get hurt.

and also i think there's an element of simply.... why WOULDN'T you hate me. what is wrong with you that you don't hate me. you SHOULD hate me

hunter has already reacted sensitively to vee's existence in the fic canon without even knowing anything about her - first being hurt that luz may have kept An Entire Sister from him (and relieved she didn't), and then being angry with camila for leaving vee behind:

^boys who are sensitive to the plight of the unfavorite child. for some weird reason.

so if and when he comes around to "this kindness wasn't politically motivated," there's about an 85% chance he's just going to be. furious. sure, I'M a monster but YOU don't even Care that i'm a monster. and that makes you WORSE.

while camila is like. how can i Possibly explain to you Just How Young You Are. without sounding condescending.

[theo-grayson]

sometimes the hyperfixation really kicks you in the nuts and you find yourself learning how to code so you can tell your Not Real Girlfriend that you wanna take a smoke break

[themetallicnemesis]

My girl is so friendly and normal <3

[oncillaphoenix]

it's kind of frustrating that essentially all the advice on tumblr for functioning when your brain's not working properly assumes By Default that your brain's not working properly because of depression.

like. don't get me wrong, i'm glad there's advice for people with depression. and i'm totally capable of going, yeah ok this post isn't meant for me, moving on. but...when you have to do that with every advice post, when everyone around you is promising that everyone will feel better if they can put in the effort to do these things you know will make you feel worse, you start to wonder where the heck the posts that are meant for you are.

[anneapocalypse]

weird realization that RvB10's "Forever" (which is not a bad song, just wildly inappropriate for the character it was written for) works way better as a Haurchefant/WoL song than it did for CT/Pill Guy.

sad realization that I still can't really stand to put it on a playlist because the vocals just... aren't great.

[thethingything]

I used the prescription toothpaste and managed to not end up dry heaving for several minutes while brushing my teeth. within about 5 minutes of finishing brushing I start to feel like I'm gonna throw up regardless. I feel shaky and nauseous and I've also almost thrown up so many times while brushing my teeth lately that the act of brushing them now seems to activate our fight or flight respose and I feel like I'm about to start crying. awesome /s.

I really don't know what to do about any of this because I can mention it to our dentist on Thursday but I don't think there are any alternatives that won't just do the same thing

[buzzcat]

eyyyy guess who wrote a month of My Hero Academia fanfic and posted none of it on Tumblr

so if you want the whole series, here is link (mostly dadmight, but also some Aizawa and Todoroki fam)

fics with titles and vibes are below the cut

roll for chaos (add proficiency modifier) - Izuku Midoriya and the Todoroki kids play Dungeons and Dragons

the future starts with you - The All Might was the pinnacle of technology. Within a few short years, it became the industry standard for mechs. But after years of having suspicions about the origins of the AI that accompanies the machine, Midoriya Izuku finally gets his hands on a prototype model, and vengeance quests have had weirder origin stories. (proto-Dadmight)

all these feelings (caught in my throat) - Waking up from a nightmare, Hitoshi is reminded that coping skills are, and just hear me out here for a second, good. (Dadzawa)

eager your kind are to meet you - There was a new god in Musutafu. Izuku knew it. He would swear it. No one had reported anything that would particularly herald a god, no unexplained lights or miracles or destruction. No one would, not if they were a small god; small gods would hardly cause any fuss at all. (Izuku & Aizawa, but not Dadzawa vibes)

did you know 'erroneous assumptions' is a four-letter word? - Four times someone swore around Midoriya Izuku, and one time Midoriya Izuku swore around everyone else (gen)

growing old is a blessing (and a promise to the past) - Toshinori travels to a future where he is dead and has been dead for a very long time, and he gets a gift he never could have asked for (Dadmight, also main character death)

a white knight (upon a fiery steed) - Momo saves Todoroki from a pushy reporter, and the defining characteristic of the fic is that Shouto is possessed of the intelligence given the average pet rock, but like, meant it affectionately

honesty: the best policy? more at eleven. - Izuku is hopped up on painkillers because achey breaky bones, calls All Might 'Dad', and then it's Dadmight but they are both supremely awkward about it because Feelings Are Hard (dadmight)

he stares into the face of death with eyes that never close - Toshinori is a merchant in Elden Ring, Izuku is Tarnished (dadmight, ish?)

the granddadmight jumpscare of the century - what it says on the tin. humor and fluff, and also Inko! we love Inko. (dadmight)

no one knows what a healthy bedtime is - Toshinori and Tsukauchi being bros in the trenches of 'self-care is hard', with also a halftime show of Dadmight (dadmight)

[muttsona]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

[phntasmgoria-moved]

7/7

FINALLY

[v-tired-queer]

Hi!! I'm a Christian, and while I've encountered people who combine witchcraft with their Christian faith, I've never understood it. I saw in your pinned post that this is something you do. If you're willing/interested/have the energy, would you be willing to share more about that? Or point me in the direction of some more information on it?

I know really little about this, and I really want to understand more. I'm not coming here to be critical, just super curious. :D Hope you're well!

Hello there! 😃👋 I hope that you're doing well, too, and sure, I'd love to share a little more about combining witchcraft with my Christian faith!

I think, for starters, that it's important to remember that, like for everything else in life, how I've experienced this might not be how another Christian witch experiences it, views it, or even came about it. But I think that as Christians we can also understand that fairly easily, as that's just how a lot of us experience Christianity in and of itself. How one person came to Christ won't always be the same way that another person has come to Christ, and how we worship won't always look the same, either. It's just like that for Christian witches, too.

In an attempt to make a very long story short (spoiler alert: I failed), I feel like I am very lucky and blessed to have grown up with a Methodist mom, Southern Baptist father, aunts who were Catholic, cousins who became atheist and agnostic and friends at school who were Muslim and Jewish. I was surrounded by all sorts of different paths to take, and my mom had always encouraged my brother and I to choose our faiths for ourselves when we were old enough to understand what having faith really means, which is why we weren't baptized when we were babies, but raised in church nonetheless. I grew up very faithful. Sunday School was my favorite part of the week, and I loved to learn more about God and Jesus and say my prayers at meals and at night. God always made me feel loved. Still does 🩷

When I was in middle school, I was very, very traditional. I was open minded to others, but I was always hesitant to let myself explore more things for myself. I think I was afraid that exploring meant that I was a bad Christian, that I was questioning God, and I didn't want to make Him angry or upset with me. But I eventually met a friend who was a Wiccan, worshiping a god and goddess, living by the cycles of the moon and seasons, doing spells and rituals and worshiping at home or in nature. I loved things like that growing up, but always thought that it was just something from Hollywood or the mideavel period at best. I didn't think people actually did it, though I had always wished that they did. Little middle schooler me thought that maybe this was God's way of giving me permission to explore more, so I asked questions, watched spells and rituals, learned correspondences, and eventually asked, "Is there a Christian faith that's like this, too?"

Turns out there wasn't really one specific faith in Christianity that I could find, but rather, a practice instead. Google led me down so many different paths of people who were both Christians and witches and I decided I wanted to give it a try, too. And honestly? It felt like my faith was renewed. I felt like by choosing how I specifically worship and "do Christianity", I was making a relationship with God and Jesus and even the Holy Spirit that was closer than ever before because I was letting myself actually feel my faith instead of just going through motions at church, which was a rut than even middle school me was stuck in. I wasn't just doing what I thought I had to, I was doing what I wanted to do to show God my love and faith, and it really empowered me to form my own path in life, one that was and still is Christ centered, even if not in a way that tends to be expected for Christians.

So, the witchcraft itself: personally, I don't know if I view my spells an rituals the same way that other witches do. I don't really do a spell and think of it as me bending the wills that be to my desire, but rather, I view it as a really intense prayer. I see it as me using visual representations of my goals, needs and wants as a way to show God what it is I feel like I need (or just really, really want lol), but I always still leave it up to Him and His plans at the end of the day. I can do a thousand spells for the same thing over and over again, but if God says no, than the answer is no, ya know? My rituals are just ways to show my love, devotion, and gratitude. I pay special attention to seasons because the world God made is beautiful in all of its many ways, and personally, when I take the time to rest in the winter or come alive in the summer, I feel like I'm using the natural patterns of the Earth to further build my relationship with God, and Jesus, too. I feel like God made so many things in a natural rhythm and pattern--I just try to live by those things to strengthen the relationship between us.

I'm sure you can tell by how many times I've said it, but at the end of the day, it's all about my relationship with God and our Savior, just like for other Christians. I'm just doing things a bit differently. I'm 1000% that there are people who don't believe that this is a "valid" thing to do or that I'm sinning or that I'm going to Hell for all of this, but their opinions don't matter to me. My relationship with the Lord, His Son, and His Spirit matters to me, and when I do the things that make me feel the closest to Him, that make me feel His love and grace, then I feel like I'm doing fine.

Allllllll of that being said, there's lot of different ways that other Christian witches worship or practice witchcraft, which I think is really cool! There are some that have Mother Mary as a huge focus in their worship, or the Saints, or even the Disciples! I especially like witchcraft that involves the angels (Gabriel, my beloved 🤍). Personally, I steer clear of anything that involves demons or dark spirits and the like, but I'm always on the lookout for signs that angels are near or that the Lord is with me (which He always is, like he's always with you).

Unfortunately, I can't think of any sources or materials off the top of my head that would be good for further research. But maybe there are some other blogs on here that would have some good starting points, or would share their own views, too! You could search by denomination and then put witch after, like "Catholic witch" or Methodist witch", things like that. There are some books about Christian witchcraft, too, but personally I haven't read any of them. I think there might be come Christian witches on YouTube, too.

I hope this post made sense! If you have any other questions, please don't hesitate to ask! 😊

God bless! 🕊

[icewindandboringhorror]

... how am I meant to get any sort of restful sleep when it's like 85F indoors in my bedroom at NIGHT .. hhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[nomaishuttle]

i do fr need to work on differentiating between "actually middleclass" and "doesnt live paycheck to paycheck" lmao bc that is something i struggle with... obviously ik i have more in common with like. even somebody whos fr middleclass disney vacations every year. I know i have more in common with them than i do with bezos but god at least i dont have to see bezos being annoying in front of me every day KJANDJKLNLJD

[colloquialcolors]

huh so. watership down. is a solid book. solid. book. compelling characters, thought through world building, build up and payoff in good amounts, somehow pretty hopeful despite the ongoing danger and threats throughout. like. damn. nice.

and honestly. less tragic than i was expecting! excellent. holding these little rabbits in my hands.