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"You know what Harding Hooten's nickname's been at Chelsea General for years?"
"Hardly Human, but frankly, I haven't seen that."
"Well, because he's mellowed some."
Alfred Molina as Harding Hooten in Monday mornings 1.10
#alfred molina#the episode he almost cried in#Tina was on death's door for a min#dr harding hooten#harding hooten#alfredo molina#monday mornings#original
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I love you, Erin Greene. I’ve loved you my whole life. One way or another. I love you, too. I did my best. I did my best.
MIDNIGHT MASS (2021) | Book V: Gospel
#midnight mass#midnightmassedit#horroredit#dailyflicks#tvedit#dailynetflix#mikeflanaganuniverse#flanaganhorror#thehauntingsource#horror#my gifs#shoutout to this fucking episode#the only episode to ever make me cry so hard i threw up#i almost cried giffing this#and i watched it TWO YEARS AGO#im not currently stable enough for a rewatch#also hey giffing this i found the script???#and oh my god#the way this scene is described and written#just shoot me already#''he smiles looking into the redeeming sunlight#and TAKES IT [her hand].#and he hold onto her#in the silence and brilliance of the morning -#WE CUT BACK''#LIKE FUCK YOU
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obsessed with julian asking "what did they do to you? is it some kind of punishment device?" in the wire because my god if this man didn’t go from "this is garak my super cool spy pal who i go on secret missions with and sometimes fuck teehee but also yeah his planet’s kinda fucked up and he’s got some weird ideas but we’re working on it" to "this is garak he's my precious little angel babyman who has been horribly traumatized and brainwashed by his government but it's okay because i'm a doctor and i will fuck and suck the fascism out of him if it’s the last thing i do" in just two years. shit's wild
#i'm having a moment#again#my posts#garashir#julian that entire episode is really just ''the power of love compels you!!!!!!!'' i can't stand him#garak was blorbo from julian's shows for a hot minute there and julian was writing all kinds of woobified fanfiction about him#like i've cried a hundred times over the wire from garak's pov cuz i see it as the episode where he started to respect and love him fr fr#but for julian i think it was more of an eye-opener like. he wanted to exonerate garak of all his crimes to try to justify his crush on him#and i don't think the wire exactly proved him wrong... but i do think it revealed key details and context that he was missing before#like that garak wasn't just some underling spy he was almost the head of his organization#basically garak canonballed julian's beloved headcanons so he had to start from scratch#obsessed w garak recognizing that julian had romanticized him and being like ''ok but what if i'm just a bloodthirsty killer? what then?''#like they went thru All That just for julian to meet tain and come back like#''Your Boss Dad Is Evil The Plan To Heal You With My Dick Is Back On''#gold star for trying i guess but ur gonna be loved no matter what apparently
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my rambles about the tmk finale (SPOILERS, obviously)
whats up tmk famalam, im sad and im gonna talk about it
I cant even begin to describe how incredible the finale was. The players and the dice both had a story to tell and it created an end that brought me to tears.
The acting.
Genuinely some of the best ive seen in the entire show and I’ve been watching since convergence. Every single person absolutely killed it, Condi especially. Lucia’s moments with Mary, and Milo’s acting during the final scene was absolutely phenomenal
“Humanity’s weakness.” Empathy.
Empathy plays such a vital role throughout this entire story. It’s Lucia’s drive to try and save Everett from becoming her sister. It’s Jin’s drive to save the people who had those horrible fates he experienced when he was young. Everett’s lack of empathy was what pushed him away from his hunting party, seeing it as nothing but weakness.
Everett’s lack of empathy was what isolated him from the rest of the hunters. Yet, it was Everett’s empathy that made him choose to save Trey by turning him into a monster (albeit against Trey’s will), knowing that he wouldn’t survive otherwise. It was Everett’s lack of empathy for humanity that made him join the monsters, yet it was Everett’s humanity that made him spare Jin and Lucia during the monster siege.
Jin couldn’t kill Everett because he desperately wanted to keep alive the last bit of humanity Everett had left in him. Because Everett spared him, Jin only saw the only right thing to do was to spare his life as well, even though it led to the summoning of the Moonbeast.
It was empathy for Pebble’s losses that led Lucia and Jin to trust him, and he was able to prove himself more than capable.
It was Lucia’s empathy at the end that revealed Everett truly did still have a fraction of humanity and empathy left inside him, enough to destroy the heart and give one last goodbye. In the end, humanity’s weakness was also their ultimate power.
Mary’s internal conflict.
Lucia recognizing Mary but Mary not recognizing her, and the instant Mary realized it was her sister, her entire demeanor changed into that of a scared and traumatized child, because she never got to grow up. She was seen as a monster and became a monster. That was all she knew, and when those emotions filled her chest again she knew nothing but panic. She sees empathy as a weakness, just like all the other monsters do. Even to the point where she recoils from her own older sister’s sincerest apologies. Until Lucia has gona through what Mary has gone through, so long as they are different, Mary sees no place for reconciliation. And that id what causes her own downfall.
And the ending. The falling ending.
I think the fact that it ended with them all still falling makes it such a beautiful finale. It’s open-ended, we don’t know what faits await them. Do they fall as the starlight dapples across their skin and fall into the earth, becoming part of the cycle once more? Do they survive the fall, and the three of them live, watching as the moon slowly falls across the horizon and not into the maw of a beast, crying sobs of relief that their world was saved? Does one of them drag themselves out of the ocean to find their companions cold and motionless on the shore? I think the fact that we don’t know gives us so much more to think about, even though the campaign is over.
anyways thank you council + milo for making another incredible campaign and fuck you for adding to my cry counter (/nm ofc it was absolutely incredible)
#when grizzly said that he cried when recording the finale on stream i was sitting there like ‘well there goes my streak’#its been almost a year since ive cried watching jrwi and this episode 100% deserved it#so many kudos to the council and milo for making yet another incredible campaign#jrwi tmk#jrwi total monster kill#total monster kill#jrwi tmk spoilers#jrwi total monster kill spoilers#total monster kill spoilers#tmk spoilers#jrwi#jrwi show
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making a list of my favorite quote/ones that stuck with me from each season 1 episode because i feel like it
(i'm starting this after episode 4 but it will be a WHILE before i post it)
episode 1: "bones are a lie peddled by Big Milk" - alice
i love this one because it's a great introduction to alice i think. also it radiates spiral so i hope we get avatar alice not dead alice (isnt there a podcast called alice isnt dead?)
episode 2: "If I wanted to clear the canvas, I would have used turpentine." - statement
this one was just fucking powerful and caught me so off guard like 😶
episode 3: "What would I do without her?" - statement
the norris statement <3 it feels like martin asking what he would do without jon which makes mag200 a lot sadder and i love them
episode 4: "Perhaps you shall prove a stronger will than I, and will yet find it within yourself to destroy this hungry thing of wood and cat-gut." - statement
augustus sighting #1 and we immediately get jonah magnus expressing that it may be possible for gwen bouchard unknown family member to overcome the eye's hunger spooky violin
episode 5: "Voyeur needs to be seen to be believed." - statement
i feel like this one is pretty reflective of how the seasons gonna go? like if you explain the events of tma (mag200 specifically) no one's gonna believe you, it must be seen to be believed!! and also seen!! like the eye!!!
episode 6: "Not sca- This isn’t some poxy blood test, some little pinprick, this is hundreds, thousands of razor sharp points pushing into your flesh." - needles
i love needles so much and i thought this was really funny because it was like "you dont find me scary!! what the fuck!!!" just kind of toddler michael energy
episode 7: "It’s not like we’re wrestling with tape recorders and manila folders." - celia
STOP IT. celia you can't say that you just cannot!!!!!! you Know™ too much maam i cant with you
episode 8: "Pleasure to meet you both. I’m Gerry!"
RAGHHHHH OH MY GOD GERRY!!!! i love him so much and idk how to handle him being alive in the tmagp universe!! gertrude too but idk we got so much of her in tma and not nearly enough of gerry
episode 9: "And honestly, it’s kind of compelling by this point." - sam
they got him 😔😔 the horrors got sam 😔😔 also i found this to be an interesting contrast to jon's heavy resistance in season 1 like he was being compelled but he wasn't going to let anyone know that vs sam "its kinda compelling to trauma dump on this paperwork :]" how is he somehow even more victim material
episode 10: "Gosh you’re sexy, here’s a twenty for your trouble.” - alice
does this count as a quote if shes also quoting what she thinks sam should say? idk anyway i love her i would say that to her if given the chance and it was very silly. i will not be addressing bonzo i am scared.
episode 11: "...Thank you, Alice" - gwen
dyhard dyhard dyhard dyhard dyhard. okay also, the way she CRUMBLED at the idea of anyone doing anything nice for her please someone give her a hug and let it be ME. this series is tossing me back and forth between sam & alice (what is their ship name) and dyhard but this put me back to dyhard
episode 12: "You know it's rude to have absolutely no game?" - alice
she's so fucking funny i need her to be okay so badly!!!! i don't think even tim made me laugh as much as she makes me chuckle and this one really got me. it's hard to write such a comedic character in a podcast since you only have the voice but they really nailed it i adore her
episode 13: "Is it my fault?" - gwen
each of these episodes just reveal a little bit more about how loving and soft gwen is and idk i love her so unbelievably much so seeing that she felt guilt about the bonzo stuff just made her so much more real :(
episode 14: "Christ, they’re in the walls…" - statement
theyre in the walls!!! theyre in the goddamn walls!!!!! anyway that got me because i realized the hole before the statement said it. made more sad than scared tbh
episode 15: "Babies are cool!" - alice this entire interaction between her and sam & celia was so awkward, she is so obvious and i love her anyway
episode 16: "It’s not like I was holding doors open for Mr Bonzo or anything." - gwen my wife is so so so stupid but i adore her AND this gives room for character development. i wish she did not do that though. i love when characters are flawed and have depth but i struggled to get past THIS flaw of hers
episode 17: "Thanks, I guess. Not exactly the same, though, is it?" - celia shes talking TO JON IN THE COMPUTER. SHE KNOWS. i lost my damn mind i love her i love her. get the gay people out of the puter please queen
episode 18: "Why would I need to talk to you? Your work is satisfactory. Unless you have a work-related issue I could assist you with?" - lena solidified my opinion that lena is the best boss to ever have, i adore her and i would want to work for her if she wasn't the boss of Creepy Establishment #1
episode 19: "You’re going to throw it in the fishtank, aren’t you?" - alice colin's behavior is like really worrying BUT i'm glad he's back. i was not convinced he was still alive
episode 20: "I suppose it’s too late for remorse, isn’t it? And why should I be sorry? This is what I deserve!" - ink5oul/statement they reminded me of jon a lot, like especially his season 3/4 transformation when he doesn't quite know everything but he knows he isn't who he was in season 1 anymore, i hope we see more of their life and they can be helped :(
episode 21: [Tape Recorder Bites Ink5oul] - audio description i know it's not technically a quote but this is just so fucking funny. why does it have teeth. what does this mean for the lore. holy shit.
episode 22: "Jonathan Sims and Martin Blackwood" - celia. knawing at the walls of my enclosure i am so not okay. i'm not okay. wtf. wtf. wtf. they're real. wtf.
episode 23: "I had a favorite mug. It said “love you, bitch” and had a picture of a drunk dog on it." - alice. okay i just love this entire interaction because gwen got to open up a little bit and my dyhard heart is so full
episode 24: "I am told that children like me, and I’ve always held the opinion that the world would be a better place if everyone just thought more." - basira. once again this whole interaction was so fun but like idk i loved hearing basira somewhat happy and in a safe place :] my wife <3
episode 25: " I am trying to help, to save us from this goddamned fucking nightmare machine!" - colin. MAN I REALLY WAS ROOTING FOR YOU!!! I WAS SO CONFIDENT YOU WEREN'T GONNA DIE!!!! it's over
episode 26: "I was worrying for a moment that you were Magnussing." - alice. MAGNUSSING BEING CANON MADE ME SAY IT EVEN MORE I'VE SAID IT LIKE TWICE ALREADY
episode 27: "You didn’t tell me the room was labelled, “Archivist.”" - celia. oooooh somebody's got TRAUMAAAAA LMAO
episode 28: "So you’re telling me you know nothing about an OIAR external contract being found with the bodies of two tattooed thugs who met rather grisly ends?" - TREVOR HERBERT???? anyway. ink5oul mention!!!!! i hope they stop killing people it's really rude
episode 29: "Alice, er… we’ve got to talk. It’s important." - teddy. i knew it was over for him but i didn't think it was gonna be THIS bad??? bye babe i guess??? 😭
episode 30: how do i even pick. the whole fucking episode. i can't. i am in a state of shock. i need to lay down for 30 years.
#honorable mentions:#“canaries should stay above ground” because holy shit (1)#“i don’t scare so easy these days” because oh my god its our celia (7)#“i like them”/“of course you do” because weeping weeping weeping (8)#“oh no not again! oh the horrors! nooooo” that one was just really funny and not exactly part of the episode (9)#“can he read?” (10) bc it enforces the gwen/jon parallels (“you dont sound?? russian??”)#“the deep will care for his bones” (11) it creeped me out and i loved it#“the cover had this awful comic sans title 'mr. bonzo's on his way'” (12) comic sans font was so funny it almost made it not horrific#“I have a baby. Jack. He’s just over a year old now.” (13) like BARNABAS. i know him.#“The only drama is the dilemma of how I could possibly get by without you all to myself!” (14) alice.... alice....#“Oh no! Who keeps taking Georgie’s face?!” (18) SHE'S BACKKKKKKK#''I swear if I hear one more word about Trevor-bloody-Herbert MP I am going to blow up Parliament.'' (27) because WHAT LMAO??? WHATTT#''when I first awoke I knew nothing nothing but the dream of things that sliced my who from me with claws like scalpels'' (30) i cried#''They’re gone Alice. They’re gone.'' (30) tweaking#''What happens now? You push me? Stab me? Or do I need to jump in myself? Come on what’s stopping you?'' (30)#can i just put the whole episode in honorable mentions too atp.#''We are the hilltop. It is me and I am it and we are. We are…'' (30)#''Yeah sure. Sorry to bother you. Goodbye Alice.'' (30)#okay i'm done#i can't i .. i ..#the magnus protocol#tmagp#magnus protocol#tmagp spoilers#tmagp season 1#the magnus pod
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The TARDIS: *has her soul transplanted into the body of a human woman, can talk to Eleven, refers to him as “my thief”*
Eleven:
#the Doctor has more chemistry with his own spaceship than he had with Martha. girl I…I’m so sorry#this episode almost had me in tears though like they didn’t have to do that to me#SHE WANTED TO SAY HELLO JUST RIP MY HEART OUT WHY DON’T YOU#Doctor who#eleventh doctor#Val cries over a madman with a blue box
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character wrapped 2023 💥
tagged by @davidtennantpussytulpa ^-^ i didn't know how many to do so i copied tara and did top 10. i know the severance guys are Four Of Them but i can't separate them theyre all equally important to me
will graham (hannibal), em haywood (nope), aziraphale (good omens), mark & dylan & helly & irving (severance), hawkeye pierce (mash), martha jones (doctor who), ivan karamazov (the brothers karamazov), kim kitsuragi (disco elysium), stewy hosseini (succession), ruescott melshi (andor/rogue one)
i will tag... @fagician @britomart @libraryfag @roadwhores @majorbaby @globuspolski @hadleyfraserfaggot @tenderscience if u want to ^-^
#and now i will explain them all in detail#cos i started watching hannibal back in like. january or february and will immediately set up camp in my head and started to settle there#*I* pay rent to *HIM*. he lives there permanently. sweating and monologuing constantly#em was not only the character of 2022 but also of 2023 and of 2024 and the rest of the decade and all decades to come#she had such an impact on me keke palmer's performance will live with me forever and i love nope so fucking much#i almost didnt include her because nope was more of a last year obsession. but she lives on#aziraphale.........no comment#severance.......i love them all so much and at first i wanted just irving and then just helly and then i realise i cried over mark this week#and then i realised i couldnt possibly leave out dylan when hes probably my favourite character. so then i settled for all of them#hawkeye is my fucking wife. enough said#martha... well i knew i had to have a doctor who character. i thought maybe the doctor but then i thought their companions mean more to me#sometimes at least. i did have a fourteen icon for a while but then i was like but Donna..... and then i thought. well#these past few months at least martha jones has been eating away at my heart. i go batshit insane when i think about her#her impact. her grace. her power. so she had to go on the list.it was a toss up between her and donna for sure though#then i figured i had to include a karamazov since reading that book took up half of my year. and ivan was my favourite of the 3. so <3#kim goes without saying. literally nothing to be said hes the character Of All Time. to me#stewy also goes without saying ive had so many Stewy Save Me moments since the beginning of season 4 all the way to the end of the year#i miss him every day. he is the moment. i wish there was more of him all the time#and the last one is a bit of a wildcard cos all my insanity abt melshi has been on my andor sideblog.#but rest assured ive been thoroughly Not Normal about him. he literally side appears in 4 episodes and has 11 total minutes onscreen#but i love him. so much. and hes occupied most of my thoughts since september. once again his impact his power his grace. his homosexuality#enough said. that's all. thanks for reading. this was a great year for autism and madness#tag game#🍪
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Here's a moment no one seems to mention about Barnacles: Walrus Pups episode when the pup says that he wants someone to hold his flipper cause he's scared and Barnacles, when trying to keep two icebergs from crashing into them, without hesitation holds out his paw so the pup can be comforted.
YES yes you are so right, it's adorable :3
plus: that whole scene in general screams "claustrophobia", and considering Barnacles' fear stems from getting trapped.... in ice.... for a long time.... while he was out with younger cub scouts........
all I'm saying is it's 100% possible he offered to hold the pup's flipper so quickly because he was scared too. </3
and he probably wished someone held his paw back then, too.
#i love him and kwazii in that whole ep/scene#the way kwazii assures him that he'll find him as fast as he can.#the way barnacles mentions to kwazii that they're ''running out of room!'' and kwazii says ''we're almost there! hold on captain!''#the way barnacles is so happy to see kwazii#the way they were hanging out in the front of the gup together after the rescue and barnacles was smiling#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#the episode came out long before sac actun but....... i feel like they knew. even then.#cries and sobs /pos#octonauts#ask#captain barnacles
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just had dinner with my mom she is on s5 of 911 and the first thing she asked me was if eddie was gay
#she just watched the episode where he breaks up with ana#I told her not yet but SOON#she’s so frustrated now she’s like Christopher doesn’t need a mom he has buck!!!!#i almost cried my mom 10 years ago would’ve never been this much of an ally 😭#thank you 911 for healing our mother daughter relationship#ana’s silly little thoughts
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Omg I actually enjoyed this episode quite a bit!!!
#It wasn't... Particularly extraordinary but it still felt almost meeting the season 4 standard#Things are still going super super fast 😭😭#Like it may be that I'm just... Slow to process info but I seriously feel like I can't keep up with what they say#I can't believe at this point they've basically caught up with the manga 😭😭#In the next ep they'll reach the moment when *I* caught up with the manga when I read bsd for the first time which is just insane to me.#Like my brain can't conceive it#It's such a shame to think that means we aren't getting another bsd anime season for another five years... My heart cries#Even more since at this point it's probably going to stop right before sskk meet again and it's going to be so frustrating for me#But the Aya / Bram scenes were so cute!!! In them I felt like the pace was actually okay for the first time since forever.#It may be that they weren't very information packed so they kind of flew smoothly but I thought the pace was enjoyable–#and the animation too was pretty good!!!#There's always a black shadow wrapping my heart tight whenever I notice the animation gets better–#because I can't help but mourn what the sskk fight could have been and can't stop the resentment...#But in the end I'm happy if the budget goes to a little girl that's what she deserves :')#In the next episode we're probably going to get a little Atsushi screentime too!!!!#Man I'm so starved for Atsushi screentime every time he appears on screen for 0.06 seconds there's a whole crowd cheering in my head#random rambles
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halfway through s7 this shit is the best season so far why are they churning out nonstop bangers. In other news I'm gonna be thinking about nine lives kat forever
#i genuinely almost cried when he abandoned her. BRING HER BACK BRING HER BACK BRING HER BACK LET HER LIVE#unbelievably good episode i need to go kill myself about it now. its gonna be in my brain actually for eternity#merrily merrily and mr king were also brilliant but fuck. that hit me. the characters begging to have their stories finished oughhhhhh#inside no.9#in9#zeeths adventures in britcom
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This might not be anything, but while writing about your fics, the way you have the characters' mannerisms down PERFECTLY got me thinking about mirroring...
There's a lot of it in 7 (Horii is a directorial genius etc etc), most of it more intentional than these probably are, but there's something so interesting about mirroring that takes the tone of a (relatively) fond memory, a familiar gesture, and inverts it in the way shown here.
OH I'M GLAD YOU'VE NOTICED THESE TOO I think I mentioned it months back (or I drafted a post 'bout it but didn't think it was anything noteworthy) but I always really did like how the Arakawa Family mimicked each other's mannerisms (also circling back to how Jo and Masato calling Ichiban 'Ichi' presumably after picking it up from Arakawa)!
Aoki actually does the same sitting gesture too! I went back to double check and skim through the rest of the game's cutscenes, and as far as I could tell unless I skipped a scene, it really is only these three that do this specific pose:
It's such a small detail but I love it immensely and it really does highlight their connections with each other and it drives me insane
#snap chats#the fact aoki holds his left fist with his right like jo..... im gonna be sick... (crying)#potential hints that aoki really does favor jo and/or spends more time with him... or i might be delirious. could be both even..#focusing on how jo mimics arakawa though i dont think i have to say i love how it is inverted intention wise#like of course in arakawa's situations he's in a position where he's helping ichi and speaking calmly with him#while with jo Evidently each interaction is more tense and antagonistic#really is a cool way to emphasize that whole 'step parent' angle if that makes sense#OH BUT THANK YOU ON MY WRITING that's a huge compliment: i'm glad you think i have their mannerisms down !#accuracy is a big thing to me... in case we haven't picked that up yet.... i should relax a little tbh--#BUT i'd like to think my brain's good at visualizing things and i think i've 'studied' enough to get an acceptable result in what i show#it's like... if i can't see it in my head clearly or it doesn't look right then i wanna keep trying until it DOES look right yk#dont want a Hello Kitty Wouldnt Do Xanax moment... only on occasion.... a lil xanax wouldnt hurt as long as its not too far gone ☠️#alright im. DELIRIOUS.#to end this off i watched the first episode of Sailor Suit and Machine Gun !#my japanese is. HORRENDOUS BUT the art of inference and context clues and stray knowledge got me through it#i'm excited to watch the next episode even if i'm only really getting half the impact from the dialogue#BUT THE FEELING'S THERE... the emotion's there#embarrassingly i almost cried when izumi was crying in the theater over her dad while she was eating cause like Girl Me Too ☠️☠️#ill go one day without mentioning my dad i promise... todays not that day tho ☠️#IN ANY CASE. thank you for droppin the episodes on me !! i can't stress never tiring of having new things to watch#ill watch the next episode tonight probably. i was gonna go out to get lunch buuuut my moms home#so there goes that plan.. at least my bro got me food while /he/ went out today lmao
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…this theme music is more hilarious than anything
Obana and his Evergrowing Polycule: Ep
Oh, wait that’s not it whoops~
Grand Maison Tokyo: Episode 3 (2019)
#grand maison tokyo#jdrama#tsukutta#a clip#I have GOT to stop clipping this one#but the worms 😔#they got me#also this moment reminded me of kuryu and i almost cried#okay not really but i really do miss he……#eta: WAIT NO i remembered what else it reminds me of#the pussuma episode when he grabs tsuyoshi just to wipe dirt off him 😭 it’s the laugh….#okay sorry ramble ramble byeeee
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when your zhiji goes but leaves all this delicious food for you
#a league of nobleman#a league of nobleman spoilers#君子盟#chen chou#zhang ping#guo cheng is so good in this#he cries in almost every episode he's in and for that alone he deserves an emmy in my books#also#that whole part about what makes a zhiji with lan jue x gu qingzhang -> zhang ping x chen chou had me on my hands and knees#A LEAGUE OF ZHIJIS THE POLYCULE!!#c.txt
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IZZY CRY COUNTER 4 !!! IM THRIVING !!!
#5 episodes in and hes cried in almost every one#izzy hands is my little meow meow#our flag means death#ofmd season 2#ofmd#eel rambles
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Being the way I am, I ignore the shit I haven’t processed, but now I’m crying because I don’t want to go to camp
#Last year I was alone#Like earlier I mentioned that I was so upset with being alone that I cried almost every time I wasn’t with someone#Bc it was the first year without my best friend going#Then my next closest friend came to camp late bc she was on a cruise#And she said she felt bad bc she didn’t know I was lonely#And even tho she and the crush are both gonna be there this year#I’m gonna feel so fucking alone bc the bad memories always creep in and I don’t want them to hear that.#I don’t want to go#last year sucked#And it was at the height of my middle of the summer depressive episode#which is coming back#So I’m gonna be depressed again and feeling bad#And I keep remembering my grandpa#Gods I miss him#I keep thinking that he’s still here but it’s been four fucking years#And I had an anxiety attack this morning because I saw someone who looked like my ex best friend#So I’m not doing okay#And I’m alone at home crying#After nearly two weeks of always having a friend right next to me#I want to stop existing
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