#the crazy shit we do for family

[krysmcscience]

Don't mind me, just slacking on a big Billford comic by making other far more ridiculous Billford comics and also some AU art (please excuse my slapdash human!Bill thank you please, also before anyone asks the art style is messy and all over the place because idgaf LOL)

This started out as an excuse to design a Bill Cipher-inspired "wedding" dress, but then spiraled wildly out of control. Various rambles and a bunch more human!Bill arts under the cut, including another silly little comic at the end! (Feel free to skip the rambles, I won't be offended. I know I'm bad at shutting up. XD)

I may or may not write some comedy stuff for this AU, which I'm calling 'For Better Or Worse (But Mostly Worse)'. While Ford DOES remember getting sloshed enough for one thing to lead to making out with another after karaoke, neither he nor Bill remember this wedding, At All. The Love God did nothing to dissuade them from going hog wild on their marriage spending, either, so it got...uh. Exorbitantly Expensive. As in, the grand total could probably buy the entire fucking MOON sort of expensive. (It's fine, don't worry, Bill's good enough at crime to be able to afford it.) Also, because the logic of this AU is mostly dictated by Rule of Funny, the Love God's powers are close to unlimited when it comes to matters of romance, but ONLY when it comes to matters of romance. (Like weddings!)

Want an empty human vessel to smash the soul of a triangle into for date nights or when it's convenient, or perhaps even when it's NOT convenient? Easy peasy! Want the marriage to be recognized in every corner of the multiverse from now until the end of time, thus making any potential future divorce nigh-on impossible? Can do! Want to buy an entire beach for the ceremony and honeymoon and in general, and totally not at all because it would be Super Hilarious to prevent any specific movies from being made on that very same beach in the future? Fine, whatever, it's not his finances he's ruining!

Does the Love God also provide special rings that just so happen to turn incorporeal as long as the "happy couple" doesn't remember that they barged into his dreams to bully him into presiding over their marriage? ...No comment!

He spends the next thirty years trying and failing to get in touch with either of them for payment. This is why you should always demand half the money up front, my guy!

Also it's absolutely a traditional Jewish wedding, because I like the idea of Bill demanding all the keepsakes from the marriage that he paid for, and being completely confused when one of the things he's handed is a fancy container full of broken glass. He gets it later, but in the moment, he thinks the Love God is just fucking with him some more.

Ramble over! Here's the full dress that caused the comic to happen, along with what Ford wound up wearing at the wedding (and begrudgingly agreeing to put on again later for Reasons), aaaaand also a close-up of Bill's ring:

I may have forgotten to draw Bill's hair floofier when drawing the back of the dress, lmao

Since double ring ceremonies have been leaking over into Jewish wedding customs for a while now, Ford also has a ring, but his is the much more traditional plain gold band. There's definitely a message engraved on the inside - embarrassing, cringe, or incriminating somehow - but I haven't decided what it is yet, so use your imagination for now. XD Bill, on the other hand, saw the phrase 'traditional plain gold band' and said "No Thank You" before proceeding to embellish his ring to his liking. And because he's a secret sap who adores Ford's extra fingers, the triangle points add up to twelve, as do the engraved stars. Yes, they're stars, not dots, I just got lazy. There's also six lashes on the eye gem, and probably an eye engraving on the inside with another six lashes. (Bill's got it BAD, okay? We all know this.)

Here are the initial scribbles of Bill's custom vessel in more casual attire, please ignore the wonky anatomy and the fact that I flat out refuse to ever draw him with a proper top hat:

He does actually need a cane in this vessel; since Bill tends to possess men and especially Ford more often than not, he's used to having a higher center of gravity when in a human body, so his ability to balance is pretty garbage. (He may or may not topple over with concerning regularity.) As for his empty eye socket, his bangs don't do much to hide it since he's so high-energy (dude is constantly on the move), and he also refuses to wear a patch over it, because 1.) why bother, and 2.) it's more fun to freak people out.

To better align with Ford's attraction towards the strange, the vessel was designed with super minor shapeshifting ability - Bill can look like a perfectly normal human, but he can also make the teeth and fingers sharper whenever he likes (which is mostly just when he's angry or being more of a menace than usual), as well as slit down the pupils or outright ditch the irises altogether. He can also have whatever he wants in the downstairs department, just because I'm an indecisive bitch on that front, lmao. Maybe he can have boobs if he wants them, too, but I ain't drawin' tits on no triangle, nuh-uh, no sir. His powers are otherwise limited down to what humans can do, because for some reason, the Love God doesn't trust Bill to not snap into Immediate Apocalypse Mode if he's given a physical form that's actually all his and no one else's.

Due to the body being all his and no one else's, it's also not really a standard possession so much as it is just...Bill being temporarily human. He's a lot more aware of and in tune with his human body's senses than he ever was with his "puppets", which makes things like pain a lot more intense. (He is mostly fine with this, because he's a fukken masochist.)

A bit more fashion stuff, including beach and party attire~

The beach outfit was mostly me trying and failing to nail down his body shape, which is still not bottom-heavy enough. I then decided to slap a bikini on it, before making it supremely unsexy with a pair of fugly shorts, because Bill's fashion choices are not allowed to be conventionally attractive. Meanwhile, the party outfit was mostly me looking at the casual attire I designed, asking 'how would Bill make this Worse', and then drawing the result. The mismatched thigh-highs are killing me inside! :D

No, his vessel can't actually summon fire, I just drew it for funzies before I decided on said vessel's limitations. Yes, the gold brick tattoos are absolutely a reference to the fic 'Knowing Me, Knowing You' - I simply could not resist.

I also HAD to draw Bill in one of his canonical(?) shirts, just made tank-top'd:

He is absolutely about to over-correct and fall backwards after this. USE YOUR CANE, GOOFBALL!!! (I meant to draw Bill closer to this degree of bottom-heavy in the other images, but. Alas. I am bad at anatomy, LOL)

And, last but not least before More Comic Time, I attempted to draw him closer to Gravity Falls style:

Jury's out on whether or not I succeeded, but - hey. I tried. Now have some Handyman Bill AU, but with my goofy human design, instead:

Hey, it's a 'mystery snack', and the guy wanted A BITE to eat - the joke was right there, guys!!! (Based on this post, because it just screamed BILL CIPHER to me.)

whoops i forgor bills ring and cracks ahaha too late now

I WILL SHUT UP AND STOP RAMBLING NOW K THX BYYYYYE

[sergle]

I'm listening to a lot of Maintenance Phase (bc I love it) and this comes up sometimes, so I'll just be sat here thinking about how common it is for little kids to grow up watching their moms and other women in their life jump from diet to diet. Just as ambient background noise in your childhood, the adults around you obsess over calories aloud, express guilt over eating enjoyable food, frame exercise as a form of punishment for eating, and so on.

[wittyno]

If other medias are allowed (you said things) I suggest:

Books

Die Känguru Chroniken (the kangaroo chronicles) by Marc Uwe Kling. - Hilarious Buddy comedy series between a comedian (Klein Künstler) and a communist Kangaroo. It does a good job lampooning without being mean. It makes some interesting points about gender, success, Hollywood, and life in the modern era. It has a lot of Germany-specific references in it, but nothing a quick google search can’t fix. I don’t know how many people outside of Germany remember the RAF. The most important thing is that it’s funny. He also has a sci-fi series which is really good if you like Sci-Fi.

Die Wilden Hühner (the wild chickens) by Cornelia Funke (same woman who wrote inkheart) - A YA book series about a group of girls growing up together. Deals with money, sexuality, discrimination, first love, and first betrayals.

The Neverending Story by Micheal Ende - kid goes to a parallel fantasy world where the world is slowly disappearing into nothing. You’ve probably already read it in English, but I really like the German version.

Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka - It’s use of language is so good. I’m very biased here but I love this book. I wrote a whole paper in college just about the opening line.

There is more great German literature, but I’ll restrain myself for now.

Podcasts

Note: I haven’t found any German TTRPG podcasts yet (recs always welcome), and will update if I find.

Erdbeerkäse - podcast about German Reality TV. No you don’t need to actually watch German reality tv to enjoy it. They have a huge back catalog.

In the trend of adults reviewing their favorite childhood media:

Generation Martinshof podcast from two sisters about Bibi und Tina, they don’t update frequently but when they do it’s great! Bibi und Tina is about two girls (one can do magic) who ride horses.

Die Tosende Hollywoodschaukel Podcast about TKKG. I haven’t listened to every episode but what I have heard is great. TKKG is about a group of friends solving mysteries together.

Movies

I am not a Movie Person (an understatement) but a lot of the Renaissance Disney movies were translated songs and all. Part of Your World has nothing Ein Mensch zu sein.

German films/TV Recommendation Time

okay Leute, here are some quality German things I can personally recommend: 

1. Goodbye, Lenin! (2003). dir. Wolfgang Becker. This film is a classic. I have never met anyone who disliked this film. Basically, a lady falls into a coma before the Berlin Wall falls, and wakes up afterwards in a reunified Germany. Her kids think she won’t live very long, so they try to pretend nothing has happened- and it quickly spirals out of control. There are so many themes touched on in this movie–serious themes–but explored in a fun, comical, interesting way. Also features young Daniel Brühl, 10/10. 

2. Das Leben der Anderen (2006). dir. von Donnersmarck. This is honestly one of my favorite films of all time, but as a warning, it’s quite serious. The ending is nice, at least, but this is not a “oh east germany can be kinda funny!” movie, like the previous one. Essentially, a STASI officer starts to develop empathy and see the world differently while listening in on the conversations of a subversive playwright. Visually this film is beautiful and the character development is fascinating – it really illustrates the terror and the distrust that existed at that time, a theme I feel like many people outside of Germany are unaware of.  

3.  Lola Rennt (1998). dir. Tykwer. This is a cult classic, and if you watch a trailer online, it doesn’t really do it justice. This movie basically explores various “what-ifs” and how small things (like tripping down the stairs) can completely change the outcome of a story. It’s very fast-paced and fun–this is a good movie to watch with friends. There’s less Existential Angst™ than in the majority of German cinema. 

4. Der Himmel über Berlin (1987). dir. Wenders. Okay, this is 100% what comes to mind when I think of “pretentious European art film.” However, it is also incredibly beautiful and well-written, and if you like poetry and/or the Cold War and/or are interested in film composition, please watch this movie. Essentially, two angels watch normal people in their day-to-day life, and reflect on some Big Thoughts™. 

5. Die Welle (2008). dir. Gansel. This is a movie that unfortunately will never stop being relevant. In fact, I wish this was part of the curriculum in high schools. This film is loosely based on real-life events, where a high-school teacher conducts an experiment to see just how quickly people can, essentially, turn towards fascism, violence, and an extremely “tribal” (or “group” ?)-based way of thinking. The experiment spirals out of control, to a tragic end.   

6. Der Staat gegen Fritz Bauer (2015). dir. Kraume. I loved this  movie. This is about a lawyer who wants to track down Eichmann (the Nazi war criminal) and bring him to Germany for trial. This is an excellent film because it deals with so many issues– the problem of former Nazis and Nazi sympathizers in government jobs (as well as the corporate world) who obstruct justice; it deals with homophobia and gender identity issues; as well as issues regarding bravery, and “staying alive” vs. “standing up for what’s right.” Having a gay Jewish protagonist in a German film that takes place in the 1950s/60s is really quite amazing, I recommend this heartily. 

7. Sophie Scholl: die letzten Tage (2005). dir. Rothemund. This is maybe the only real “WW2 film” I think I’m going to recommend. Frankly everyone should know the story of the Scholls and their heroic actions. 

8. Barbara (2012). dir. Petzold. This is a very dramatic and romantic movie with a strong female lead. This also takes place in East Germany, where a doctor is banished to the countryside and is forced to see things in a different light. This is more of a date night movie in my opinion. 

9. Gegen die Wand (2004) & Auf der anderen Seite (2007). dir. Fatih Akīn. These are both movies that deal specifically with the German-Turkish experience. To me, these movies felt very Turkish, and are quite good - so if you are interested in learning about what is probably Germany’s biggest minority group, I would start with these. 

10. Jenseits der Stille (1996). dir. Link. This is a very cute and touching movie about a (hearing) girl who has two deaf parents. She eventually decides to pursue a career in music, which her parents don’t understand. This deals a lot with identity issues (i.e., there being a distinct “deaf culture”), growing up, and family.  

11. Freier Fall (2013). dir. Lacant. WELL, this was (to me, anyway) not exactly a masterpiece but it was a very enjoyable gay film. If you want to see Max Riemelt tenderly kissing another man, and/or fantasize about getting it on with one of your “Straight™” friends, then this is the movie for you. And frankly, who doesn’t want that, from time to time. 

12. Romeos (2011). dir. Bernardi. I love this movie because there’s literally nothing else like it. There is an incredible dearth of media that features transsexual men, and this film found a way to do it that wasn’t offensive or patronizing. And to specifically address that you can be trans and gay–that gender identity and sexual orientation are not the same–wow! I’ve never seen that discussion anywhere else (except maybe in sense8, but I digress). The only thing I could criticize this movie for is that it’s a very “transition-oriented” film–the main character does not have much of a personality outside of transitioning. However, for what it shows and for what it is trying to do, it does it very well–the scenes are heartfelt and relatable, and the protagonist is very believable. 

**These next few are television series. 

1. Deutschland 83 (2015). If you haven’t seen this series yet, what are you doing. This is the most popular and interesting German television series that’s happened in a while. Essentially, a guy from East Germany gets recruited as a spy to live in the West… and a lot of espionage and great ‘80s music occur. It deals with some serious themes, but at the same time, it’s attractive because it has light-hearted moments and a lot of heart. 

2. Der gleiche Himmel (2017). This has a very similar premise to Deutschland 83–another “east german spy” series. However, I think selling it as a Deutschland 83 rip-off for Netflix would be unfair–the series has merits of its own, and is much more serious in tone. While Deutschland 83 at times runs into “Goodbye-Lenin-joke-territory,” Der gleiche Himmel does not let you forget the dark side of reality. I enjoyed that this series let you see several different people’s lives, instead of focusing on just the spy–among them, a girl with Olympic aspirations who was given steroids by her coach (and suffered side effects re: male puberty), and a gay physics teacher whose lover was on the other side of the border, and was cut off from. 

3. Dark (2017). If you like Stranger Things (or Xfiles)–you need to watch this right now. Personally I liked it better than Stranger Things (though I might be biased). It has a similar starting premise–the mysterious vanishing of a young boy. However, this series is so… German. We start off with a quotation from Albert Einstein, and rapidly get into an intricate, time-traveling mess. You could watch this several times and notice something new each time. 

Alright, that’s all I can think of for right now– feel free to add your own! viel Glück!

[coquelicoq]

the best reason to socialize is so that you will have stories to tell other people while you're socializing with them. it's a racket. a pyramid scheme. it's all built on air

[stellarspecter]

okay i don't know if the hyperfixation will hold long enough for me to actually write this but au where everything is the same but the waylon house is just a bit more structurally sound. max doesn't die and is like 'thanks for this guys, is that the whole party or?' and everyone just sort of looks at each other like. well we don't want to anger him so what can we say but yes. and so the nerds and max end up hanging out for a night in the waylon house and the worst thing that happens is grace chastity is tempted to have a beer for the first time (she doesn't though. but with max offering it's very hard for her to refuse. or focus lol) max keeps giving them weird backhanded compliments like 'wow you guys are way cooler than you look, how'd that happen' which is not the best but it's way better than being beat up for daring to be in his line of sight, so they'll take it.

so they all hang out for the night, max is like weirdly chill and friendly, eventually he leaves and they're left standing outside the waylon house like. ?? what the fuck??? did we just befriend max jagerman???? the nerds are still apprehensive considering pete still has a black eye, grace is still boiling with religious zeal and repressed lust, and steph still doesn't really like him, but they can't help but remember how he said that trying to prank him was the nicest thing someone's ever done for him. and that just can't be true, considering he's literally the star quarterback and the main character of hatchetfield high, but.... the fact that he felt like it enough says a lot, doesn't it?

so they decide to leave the prank footage to gather dust and figure this was probably the best outcome they could have hoped for. who knows what they'll walk into at school tomorrow? maybe max will become a friend.

[poppytuft]

the bear s3 spoilers

below the cut! thinking about claire and stuff we saw this season re: carmy/syd/the restaurant/donna, just finished the season so itll be a mess and also im comin in way too hot on this so my bad

sometimes...... sometimes i believe you guys are all watching different tv. im not sure how this season didnt feel like a direct through line from s2?? and im not sure WHY everyone is SO MAD about claire LITERALLY "haunting" this season. girl. come on. we need to have a sit down talk about how the berzatto generational trauma is the real meat of this show (this will make sense, just trust me). thats the MAIN EMOTIONAL POINT. syd's relationship with her dad, marcus and his mom, richie and evie, even tina and louie are all examples of parental relationships that are tender, sweet, supportive, etc. these are INTENTIONAL!! by creating these relationships we see PLAINLY how fucked donna is and how much she fucked up all of these kids. thats why "ice chips" was such a FANTASTIC episode. there was SO MUCH unpacked, so much revealed, so much worked through with sugar and her but at the end of the day she's still learning how to unlearn all of this horrific narcissistic bullshit. SHES STILL UNLEARNING THOUGH. thats where fucking DONNA of all people sits right now——somehow, she's learning how to heal. EVERYONE IS LEARNING. that's also what is so important about that episode.

now lets look at carmy. in "ice chips" we are LITERALLY told about how each berzatto is born: mikey fighting against the idea of being alive at all, nat into a quiet, soothing room, and CARMY is fucking born into EVERYONE SCREAMING and ARGUING and FIGHTING. we are BLATANTLY told that all carmy has ever known is HELL and all he's ever known how to communicate is through exploding. this is so violently against what we also know about his personality from childhood in "fishes" (anxious growing up, arts-oriented, had a hard time making friends). now, he works a violently stressful job, processing the trauma from both his mother (and chef fields [joel mchale], realistically) through the high-stress environment.

NOW. ENTER CLAIRE.

HOW is she not fascinating to you all. we don't see her whole story (because the bear, duh) but we are given just enough pieces here to put together that her story runs parallel to carmy's. how are you not getting this. walk with me.

claire. glasses, nerdy, quiet, sweet, girl next door. family friend! cute, but considered mid for a long time by everyone at school, but suddenly the berzatto men all badger carm, "oh she got a glow up, oh shes looking for you, she wants to see you," etc etc etc. what happened in between?

she finds herself. she finds the stressful thing she LOVES, which is the hospital. her job is objectively more stressful than carmy's (illustrated by that scene earlier in the season but i forgot the episode, where claire talks about the girl who got her shit wrecked by the glass table), and while we don't have an exact understanding of what her home life was like, we understand that her and carmy both have a level of internal anxiety that thrives on the stress of their careers. HOWEVER, claire does it because she loves it. carmy just doesn't know how to stop.

this is what makes claire feel like "peace" to carmy——because her high-stress job is a choice, an active choice she is making because it fulfills her. it's not to prove her dead brother wrong, or to honor his own legacy, or to prove that dickbag boss wrong, or to leave a mark on the world, or to make her own life worthwhile, or to prove that she doesn't need anyone else. she genuinely enjoys helping people even when the days are stressful, or scary. he's obsessed with this. he wants to know how she does this. every day she leaves that stress at home——and he wants to learn how to do that too.

claire is VITAL to this season and to understanding carmy's stress——and how far back he is in his healing process. it should only become more and more apparent, as we see characters like tina (the beef/the bear became vital to her success/development as a chef AND person, both for the people AND her love of food), marcus (not hiding his grief, but using it to help rationalize how much his mother loved him and wanted to be surrounded by people that love him), and richie (finding a purpose through service/expo and understanding he can start over again) push through their own traumas and struggles to become better people. if donna can be not only present at sugar's bedside during labor, but WELCOMED at this point in the show, it makes carmy's inability to heal all the more present. claire is an important part of this puzzle: she helps us see a window into a world where carmy is balanced emotionally, but unbalanced professionally, because he has no idea how to make the two coexist.

however, the idea that he can be balanced emotionally at all is so fucking enticing——with the help of someone who experiences stress in the same way as him (and who is familiar with his familial trauma), he has the opportunity to grow up and move on from his family trauma and wounds perpetuated by the industry he works in.

on the flip side of this....... his inability to process any of this is starting to impact syd. and frankly, that's some bullshit. his lack of communication, inability to community build/trust ANYONE, and his violent stubbornness is pushing her into the same space that he was in under chef fields, in a much slower, more subtle manner, and for slightly different reasons. her panic attack at the end of the season could read in two directions to me: her stress over the responsibility of changing so many people's lives has boiled over once she remembered that the beef once was truly great (hey five star review on the fridge!), OR, she realizes how much she isn't in it for the food. fuck a Michelin star: she wants to cook with her family. chef terry says at the end of "forever", in the garage with carmy, that she's so grateful she got to do whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted, where she wanted, with the people she wanted to do it with. sydney is so close to having those things at the bear——but carmy's dysfunction is keeping it just out of arms reach. the two of them are now on opposite sides of the approach from last season: syd dying for a star, and carmy dying to cook for the woman he loved. now, carmy is hungy for recognition again, desperate to prove something, and sydney is remembering (thanks to the conversation with other chefs during the ever funeral service) why she loved cooking in the first place. so this leaves us to wonder: should she stick it out? for the people? or make something of herself? is she carmy, or is she terry? i guess we will just have to see.

all this to say: every character is connected. the bear is a show about family, found and blood, and the choices we make for, with, and because of the people we love, for better or for worse. food is only the center of it, because it's the center of all of our lives. you can't hate claire without understanding where she sits in the web of the berzatto family. and really, you can't hate her if you understand what her presence means for carmy, for syd, and the restaurant as a whole.

[kakapim]

The minecraft movie taught me that we as a society need to move on from isekai plots

[hauntingblue]

Rewatching act 2.... yeah ISHA WATCH OUT FOR THE CYCLE ISHA!!!!! NOOOOO

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

a quick reminder to everyone

I have SEVERE LEARNING DISABILITIES

I am literally disabled because of my learning disabilities, I have faced literal descrimnation because of it.

everytime you call us retarded or a retard you are ACTIVLY upholding the systems in which I am trapped in.

I take more offence in being called a retard than anything due to the literal DECADES of systematic abuse and descrimnation from the medical system, every single government resource, and almost all school alternatives.

fuck you greatly if you use these words against us, I have to live in a country where they hate people like me and would rather us dead than to do literally anything to help people like us.

call us what you will, but I will never call anyone retarded because it’s a basic decency reserved for everyone.

I’m a very happy retard, fuck your ableism!

I will happily live and love and learn even if THE LITERAL GOVERNMENT doesn’t want me too.

(yeah being a mid supports autistic with other learning disabilities and disabilities in general that made me unable to attend a school just means I deserve to die. 100% legit I deal with this literally all the time always fuck the Australian government)

so again fuck you all greatly, for using a literal slur against me one that has been used against me since I was a baby.

fuck you all, genuinely.

did I forfeit my rights to be treated as a human being the moment I had a bit of trouble learning things? Because if I did I’d like to break someone’s teeth with a brick.

Edit: the language and lines between what the fuck developmental disabilities and intellectual disability are is confusing as fuck.

I have gotten very confused between the 2 because they are grouped together half the time.

My apologies to everyone for being utterly confused where I fall because it is extremely confusing to figure out, and internationally it varies wildly according to my brief reading.

I did not mean to be mean or anything I just was genuinely going off what I’ve been told most my life lol.

Shout out to my developmentally disabled brethren you are loved

[crows-of-buckets]

Fire emblem three houses is so funny like why are all the knights so irresponsible about their students. "Oh we though Monica ran away to home-" NOBODY CHECKED??? THE OCHS FAMILY IS MENTIONED BY SEVERAL OTHER CHARACTERS DID NO ONE WRITE A LETTER. WHAT.

[pollen]

letting myself unmask has been so nice at times because i'm seeing my boyfriend express joy much more readily too. who knew me being expressive and all that would do so much good!!!

[fadeintoyou1993]

having to explain to people things like. if i have to go out to do something and run errands i need to have it all mapped out and planned w like. at least a week in advance. and if i go out that day i cannot do anything else because That will be it. if i have multiple commitments that cannot be put on the same day i need one full day in between those commitments so i can rest and be recharged for that next thing otherwise i might have a breakdown in the middle of the street (again) and then That will render me unable to function for like a whole three days. and then people look at me like i choose to live like this?

[yonpote]

no one gets being an ii defender the way asian phannies do tbh

[foxgloveinspace]

I did what I always do when I get this storm anxiety and I watched goofy videos and reels all day and today ha get like three days and also I’m just so so so stressed about tomorrow night cause my whole family is gonna be split up around the county and I’m so so…. Not ok.

[femmefaggot]

i dont wanna do it but we do have 2 find an ideal aster its suuuch a wide range n when u jst google aster theyre PURPLE? crazy. i will not let this toddler have an identity crisis

[transzilla]

I see a lot of pup roleplay stuff on here which im obsessed with because i have a whole thing about modern lycanthropy and why we embody wolves and dogs. Like hunters do it too in a way they get those diaphragm foxcalls and they howl like coyotes to trick them into giving up their location. Plus everyones like oh my inner beast is a wolf like them 80s paintings abt wolves and people embodying wild canines. Like its so primordial we're either hunting or having sex or being super spiritual and it always looks super cringy and weird either like scary white trash or weird transgender ppl because the soul is so close to taboo. So much potential