#the beach episode means the entire fucking world to me

[bora-panda]

My School President couples...plus Pat and Yo

I was sooo excited to post the entire time I was drawing it!! I hope you gays like it ^3^ 

Pat and Yo are third wheels, but they third wheels together...to no liking of their own, but they besties anyway 

[silver99johnlocked]

FIRST TIME WATCHING THE SPN FINALE [Spoilers ahead]

I just finished watching Supernatural in September of 2024. I'm overwhelmed and needing to rant about it so here are my thoughts on the last 3 episodes of season 15:

First things first: There was one thing on my mind the entire time during the last 2 episodes. "Dead men wear no plaid". Dean didn't wear plaid for the last 2 episodes. Not a single scene. While sam wore plaid the whole time. Then when Dean made it to Heaven he was wearing plaid again

2- what the hell happened to everyone they knew? They all stayed dead? They mentioned Donna so I'm guessing she's alive. But what about Jody and the girls? What about Eileen? Why is Sam's wife a faceless woman?

3- when jack became god and bailed on them, why didn't they ask him to bring Cas back? They had asked chuck to bring Cas back. So why not ask Jack? It doesn't make sense. God was powerful enough to bring people back from the empty. He brought lucifer back. So jack with his powers is supposedly able to do the same. Right??

4- Bobby said that Cas helped Jack fix heaven. That means Jack did pull Cas out of the empty. So I'm guessing he's in heaven with Jack and Dean is able to meet with him whenever he likes. Right?

5- it certainly didn't escape my notice that Baby's plates were different in heaven and on earth. When Dean died, the plate was that "new" one, c something I guess. In heaven the plate went back to being KAZ. 😏

6- I knew Dean was going to die and I even knew the how. Had that spoiler beforehand. I gotta say, the way people talk about it...I was expecting something much more WTF. But to be completely frank, I actually kinda liked the way it went? I mean. It's like he said, that's the life he knew and wanted. He tried the white fence life and he was miserable. Plus, he would only do something like that again if he was with Cas.

He wanted to retire remember? After all the world ending issues went away. He wanted to be on a beach with sam and Cas, relax and just enjoy life a little, be happy. Well, Cas died so he didn't get his dream end. Which means he sorted out for doing what he knows: hunting, with Sam. But chuck is no longer there, they have free will, they don't have plot armor. They're just hunters, not the heroes of some epic story. Which means they die, they go on hunts and they risk their lives every day. In the end he died the way he always knew he was going to. And he didn't have anything holding him back you know? The only lose end was Sam, so that's why he pleaded Sam to tell him it was okay, that Sam was gonna be okay without him. He was so relieved, man. And I'm not gonna pretend like he isn't suicidal because he is. He's been so since early seasons. And sure it was very sad to watch him give up easily, not wanting Sam to call for help and stuff. But I get it. Plus, I do believe he was eager to see Cas again. And his smile when Bobby mentioned Cas. God

7- About the confession scene. I was absolutely hooked. The scene was just spot on. Dean's reactions were perfect. Honest to god I loved it. I could feel so clearly that Dean was having a hard time processing everything but damn I could also feel the love in him. He wasn't disgusted by the confession or anything remotely like that. He was so into the moment, so soft, he was crying. Fuck. And Cas. Oh Cas. He was so sweet. He knew how to get to Dean, he knew just what to say and how to say it. His voice was so soft and his eyes oh my god so adoring. I'm so not over it

8- a friend of mine mentioned that what they hated the most was that the last mention of cas when dean was alive is lucifer pretending to be him and using his voice. I agree that it doesn't do him justice. But fuck, the way Dean ran to the door. DESTIEL IS SO CANON. I know people wanted something explicit and yes I agree that not having some grand romantic finale like they would have had if it was a straight couple is very homophobic but damn.

I saw it, it was so clear to me and for real I'm elated about that. There was no foreshadowing, not trying to undo the gayness. They didn't make Dean run to the hills with some chick or do something heteronormative. It was there, the door was left wide open for anyone who has 2 neurons to see it. Cas confessed his romantic love to Dean. Dean was moved to tears by it. He was devastated when Cas was gone. The very thing he asked chuck for was to bring Cas back. If Dean had been the tiniest bit uncomfortable with the confession he wouldn't have wanted to meet Cas face to face again. He's the king of being awkward about feelings, the king of denial. He was so not in denial. He knew it wasn't gonna be awkward because he returned the feelings. I mean, being very very honest, if he were to friend zone Cas, I don't think he would have the guts to bring him back

[hyaesia]

Hi Cat, I am here to annoy you and ask you about your Beach Ep Thoughts ™

With best,

Lavii :3

oh god okay where do i even begin ... in general that was the most devastating ending in fiction ever i think... and i think the sigcorp series might be the only series ever to be able to pull it off. it's crazy how sounding out what we already knew would happen was still so !!! poignant!!! the music was spectacular. the art was spectacular. freebird's commitment to rpgmaker is astounding and i love it (though i know last hour and onwards will be unity)

more specific thoughts:

i loved being able to see more of rox and rob, particularly i love that rob is just a Really Strange Guy instead of the only normal sigcorp employee like a lot of us thought he would be, i think it makes his & rox's dynamic all that much funnier. two weird and offputting guys on totally opposite sides of the weird and offputting spectrum

even though the plot was very In Your Face compared to every other entry in the sigcorp series (this was made to answer questions about IF, after all), there's still so much to discuss and theorize about! i've spent So much time already discussing how i suspect neil died w/ friends (which i could make into a whole other post. tbh) and whatever the hell was going on with the quintessence cast ?? (more on that later)

i loved seeing eva's walls crumble down. she lied about the journey mattering more to her than the ending, of course she did because she works the worst job on the planet and she has to lie to herself to keep going. i can't think too long about her in the very ending asking such vulnerable questions to neil about if he'd really do all those sweet relationshippy things for her or putting her head into her arms and sobbing after he asked how it happened.oh.my god

i genuinely thought the quintessence guys from the teasers would be cameo characters, which yeah they were for the most part! but lunair was so interesting... what did she mean when she said she's something else entirely!! where did she come from why is she in on the simulation with faye!! the only rational thing i can come up with is quintessence being a side-project by neil leaking into the simulations but then that makes her comment before irrelevant... head in my hands

and i love/hate how the Entire series has been a simulation by eva... god especially minisode 2,,, realizing that party Never Happened and it was just her trying to make a happier memory for herself. do you think that was the last christmas neil ever celebrated? do you think she ever really gave him the sound recorder, or was it her present self playing 4D chess with their memories? it'll be a very long time until i can bring myself to replay any of these games knowing i'm being complicit in eva's unhealthy grief habits. well fucking done kan gao .how did you do it

shorter thoughts that don't need their own paragraphs: the minigames were so fun, the spectator mode for xtreme beach was such a fun touch; i loved the ingame confirmation about colin and river being deskmates; i think last hour will be the last hour of neil's life; after kan's tweet last year about last hour & the beach episode being the good and bad ending respectively, i placed my bets on beach being the good ending. i really hope i'm wrong now actually after seeing it; and finally i've already listened to world in a memory 200 times, it makes me nauseous every time

in conclusion: i need to hug eva rosalene so fucking badly

[theheightofdishonor]

I love reading your kagehina posts!! Sometimes I see stuff like they aren't even friends 😭 and probably drifted apart and partner in sports is different from actual friendship lmao

Thank you!

dfghhjkl yeah i've seen those claims and I firmly believe that anyone who's saying any of that needs to take reading comprehension 101. I've talked about this claim a little bit here but to reiterate, kageyama and hinata's bond- their unique connection, the meaningfulness of it, the way that they support and teach and learn from each other- is one of the core aspects of the series. Like, there were so many instances of people commenting about how special their relationship was that I made a list. This post here I think are also relevant to addressing this. (if you couldn't tell, i talk about this a lot lol. But I don't mind talking about it some more)

Point is, they mean a lot to each other. And yes, haikyuu does make a point of showing how volleyball isn't always a 1 v 1 comparison to irl and how volleyball doesn't have to mean everything to be meaningful but at the same time, that's inapplicable to hinata and kageyama because the other side of that coin is that sometimes, volleyball is everything. It could not possibly be more in your face that Kageyama and Hinata formed an instantaneous connection and became a duo to be feared like overnight because they recognized that the other person is exactly like them- someone who will give everything for volleyball, who will never give up, a person who complements them. and understands them. Kageyama's little backstory moment that changed everything (and fucked me up permanently) is that he's been waiting for (someone like) Hinata his entire life. So what if they're not be hanging out 24/7 outside of volleyball? (which they do hang out outside of matches btw later on in life, kageyama asked hinata to play beach vb with kunimi and kindaichi) They already have a mutual understanding about the importance of volleyball in their lives. Also like, even in the last chapter/panel of haikyuu literally just reiterates that for the two of them, volleyball and each other and intrinsically intertwined elements and that they intend on revolving around each other as partner/rivals for the rest of their lives.

If we're looking only at the anime, that list i linked above is entirely taken from season. Like, the the sheer weight of kageyama "i can spike, toss, etc by myself" tobio saying the words "as long as you're with me, you're invincible" like 1-2 episodes later?? This bullshit where kageyama extracts a promise from hinata to follow him to the top of the world still happens in the anime too. That bit in the first Seijoh match where Kageyama says that Oikawa's going to set to Iwaizumi, not because it's the most logical move but because he trusts him so innately that it's the most natural move to make and then going on to make the exact same set to Hinata in the same match?? The extra animated linger on Kageyama and Hinata's fingers touching as they stop the Miya's quick? Oikawa and Atsumu both saying that Kageyama's "wrapped around Hinata's finger"?

Like come on now, does this look like two people who are going to drift apart? Be for real. They're too obsessed with each other to do that.

[zvtara-was-never-canon]

Bryke was in the Podcasts Braving Element book fire, and one the most interesting in that conversation was Bryke say Kataang relationship in Book fire was their favorite and Basco he is vibing for Maiko, but he say the headband episode is technically filler, it means is not canon that episode? What you think?

"Filler" was an anime term, about episodes that existed solely to give the manga they were adapting extra time to get more content for them to adapt. The filler episodes are canon (to the anime versions at least), but they don't move the plot forward, so if you skip them you don't miss anything important.

Eventually the term stopped being used solely for anime - and some idiots started using it to mean "bad episode", but the actual meaning is still the same: the episode can be skipped without the audience being confused. Only now these episodes exist not to catch up with a source material (in Avatar's case there wasn't one in the first place since it was an original series, not an adaptation) but rather as a "breather" episode, that can be more light-hearted, or character-driven instead of plot-driven.

To give an Avatar exemple: "Tales of Ba Sing Se" is filler, but it's still canon. It does not, in any way, further the Dai Li plot the previous episode had established - but we get focus on the characters, their personalities, dynamics, and THE tear-jerker that is Iroh singing to both honor his son and express his grief over his death. We already knew Lu Ten was dead and Iroh was grieving, but this episode gives it further depth.

Even if "The Headband" was filler, it'd still be canon - and so would be the dance with Katara clearly being into Aang.

And I personally do NOT consider "The Headband" filler. It furthers the whole theme of the season and the series ("How do you rebuild a world consumed by war? Through kindness"), we (and more importantly, the protagonist) get a deeper look into the indoctrination the people of the Fire Nation are subjected to, and more importantly, it is the episode in which we are introduced to Combustion man - ya know, the assassin that will try to kill the Gaang? The secondary villain of half the season? The one that is Zuko's attempt to resolve the problem of "The Avatar is supposed to be dead" that the previous episode introduced? Aka it is connected both to the aftermath of the Ba Sing Se plot and the "Zuko goes from villain to ally of the good guys" plot?

You CAN'T skip this episode without being confused as to who the fuck is that guy chasing the Gaang and who sent him after them. You'd have to wait until his last appearance, in which Zuko confronts him, for you to realize what the villain's deal was, meaning that PLOT would only become coherent after it was basically resolved.

It furthers the plot, therefore it isn't filler. It's just not ALL about the plot. By that logic, nearly every episode of season one is filler. The Beach is filler. Well over half the fucking show is filler if we're only counting episodes that have BIG, plot-twisting events as "important" episodes. Bryke need to stop parroting fandom nonsense to gain points.

As for Dante Basco being all excited about Maiko despite being a big zutara fan, that does not surprise me. He has ALWAYS said he liked their romance, and that Mai is the kind of girl he'd try getting with in real life.

Once again, the epic "power struggle" between Zutara fans and the evil dark lords Bryan and Mike is only in the fandom's weird minds. They weren't always kind to shippers, but the simple fact that they're so chill with Dante, and lots of other people, including writersn who went on his podcast and said everything from "I don't really care for Zutara, but I think could have worked" to "It's one of my OTPs" shows that this "Bryke VS Zutara" war is VERY one-sided and exists solely because people can't accept that, no, the writers are not throwing away their entire plan just to please you.

[slocumjoe]

⚠️Request rules⚠️

1; Be specific and unique

For example, the prompt "Sole dies". All characters would be sad, or angry. But the prompt, "Companions travel through a haunted forest and lose each other" has a lot of ways it can go. Vague prompts can be difficult for me to write, as there's often not much to write. Or if there is, it ends up feeling samey, or too short. There's only so much I can write about Sole dying.

Some prompts are answered in canon, and don't need to be answered. For example, Companions react to Sole speaking like the Silver Shroud. You can easily go on a wiki or find a compilation video on YouTube.

Also, I prefer to write about the companions, not Sole. So, requests about the Sole Survivor are likely to sit in the inbox for a while.

2; Be mindful of dark subject matter

Guys. You know miscarriage is a real thing, right? A horrible, traumatic thing that fucks up entire families? And same with rape, or abuse, or anything like that. Use your best judgement asking about heavier topics. These things aren't scenarios to generate angst. They're traumatic events. That real people go through.

I'll never forget following a react blog who was asked to write about miscarriage, only for them to apologize and refuse, as they had suffered multiple miscarriages themselves.

Rule 3; No fetishes or second-hand embarrassment prompts

So, I said be specific and weird...not with your own fetishs, please.

For non fetish stuff, I really do not care for toilet humor. Or anything meant to evoke second-hand embarrassment. This is another 'use best judgement'. I'm very easily grossed out by body fluids/excrement and there's no prompt that I'm willing to do with it.

Rule 4; I don't do Fallout 3 or New Vegas content

Masterlist

Newest first

Reacts V

Freaky Friday Episode

Sole vanishes, oh nooooo

Beach Episode

Companion at the zoo

The Oberland Alien

Sole gets their name tattooed

Sole finds a baby and wants it

Companions play Minecraft

Gage only; Come to the Galactic Zone if you want an asskicking

Companions and a magpie of a person

Sole with bad motor skills

Companions react to a synth of themselves

Companions as Roommates

Modern!Companions and Halloween

Sole just kisses them already

Sole sick but refusing to rest

Sole who cries when yelled at

Sole gets hurt saving their life

Touchy Sole

Overhearing Sole realize they love them

Sole breaks down crying in their arms

Companions work at a grocery store

Companions react to the Scorched Plague

Companions on Social Media

Headcanon posts V

Religion and stuff

Grab bag 4

Drinking habits

Coming out

Who they'd end up with

Losing their virginity

Modern au

Sexuality and ideal partners

Dreams and nightmares part 1

Companions' tells that they love someone

Companions' fursonas

What they'd eat in general

NSFW grab bag 3

Companions and stress

Companions spend time at a settlement

Gage fluffy-shippy-sad headcanons

Interior design

Companion Headcanon Grab‐bag

Gage Catchup Lightning Round

Favorite songs on the radio

NSFW Gage Headcanons

NSFW; Libido/sex drive

NSFW; Intensity in bed

Variety NSFW headcanons 2

Variety NSFW headcanons

Comfort food

How often they bathe

What they do/wear on days off

Danse headcanons

Laughing headcanons

X6-88 Headcanons

Physique headcanons

2 headcanons per companion

1 headcanon per companion

Meta stuff V

Synths as trans allegory for pride month

Polyamory and infidelity in games

Curie's quest is pretty dumb

A bunch of mini-essays on all the companions

Danse and autism

Oc appearance meme

Isadora ramblings and lore drops

Cait breakdown and critique

Minutemen Questline Rehaul

Florence, Isadora, and Gage

Wasteland creatures i want

Gage Name Meaning

The Gage Essay I wrote while baked on leftover lasagna

Thoughts on Piper, Strong, and Codsworth

Strong Character Bingo/Rant

My thoughts on Porter Gage before playing Nuka World

Peer-Reviewing "The Synthetic Truth"

Piper rant 2

I swear I am normal about Piper

Things I love about the companions

Biggest complaints about each companion's writing

Meme stuff V

How id compliment them

Sole gets a pet-claw

Getting Hulk smashed by a baby (game clip)

...hi (game clip)

Bad timing, dude (game clip)

Who smokes weed

War-shta-sure

Cat X6-88

Four frenchspeakers screamingn in a room

Danse's favorite shirt

Egg

muppets

dickless nickolas

mall cop

Memes 2

Memes 1

What the companions get canceled for

AITA For trying to blow up my crush's blimp?

[hollow-keys]

Top 5 Second Doctor stories

Oh, hi! Uhhh

Somehow my brain completely skipped over second and thought I had to narrow down every story in Doctor Who to a top 5 😭. This is much easier. I could see myself shuffling the ordering around, but basically:

5. The Macra Terror

Authoritarian crabs... IN SPACE. Yeah, that's the pitch. No thoughts, just fun. Shame it's missing.

4. The Enemy of the World

It's silly, it's fun, I love it. The Doctor tries to take them to the beach and gets shot at because the main villain happens to look exactly like him. He convinced his friends he's not his evil doppelganger by miming playing the recorder. Salamander gets sent into the fucking void. Peak Doctor Who.

3. The Mind Robber

They just let themselves be silly. The TARDIS team lands in a world entirely made of fiction, shenanigans ensue. The fictional characters only speak using dialogue from their original work. We meet a fictional fictional character from Zoe's time. The Doctor has to reconstruct Jamie's face and fails miserably so they could recast him temporarily because Frazer Hines got chickenpox. They don't make TV like this anymore.

2. The Evil of the Daleks

It's about Jamie and the Doctor's undying trust in each other, it's about the human spirit being undefeatable, it's about ushering in 4 blessed seasons without a single Dalek episode. Truly a tragedy we're missing most of this serial.

1. The War Games

THE swan song for the second Doctor and includes the only episode of Doctor Who to ever make me cry. The entire thing is a Marxist critique of war made by a card carrying communist, the Time Lords have never been better in all their televised appearances since and the ending is heartbreaking but it's so good. It's the sort of thing that makes you want to create art about it.

But despite how much I love the idea of the story and a lot of the execution is also stellar, there's 4 things holding it back from being a solid 10/10:

It drags in places, which isn't surprising given it's 10 episodes long. This is my most minor criticism.

The racism and misogyny. Expected yet sigh inducing.

Treating all the soldiers like they're the same and allying up with British soldiers from the Boer war as easily as Union soldiers from the American civil war, despite one set fighting for colonialism and one fighting against slavery.

The ending wasn't given the gravitas it deserves. I assume they just weren't trying to be too heartbreaking about it, but Katarina's death in the Daleks' Master Plan was given its appropriate weight so I can't entirely put it on era of television.

It may be weird to include this much criticism on a post about best stories but it really is one of those "recommended with asterisks" stories to me. Makes me want to eat drywall (mostly positive) too much not to be on the list but that doesn't mean my criticisms go away.

Thanks for asking!

[siriuslysatorusimping]

Another Level rant/update 😬

I'm posting the rant that I started the other day when responding to an ask!!

You can read it below the cut 😊

When it comes to Another Level, I love the story so much. Obviously, I adore the characters. Another Level gave me Rinko. And I never imagined she'd become what she has. She's grown and taken on a life of her own that I never expected, and it's made me love her so much more. What's getting to me recently is that I honestly am just tired of the conflict in canon. It's stressful and exhausting to deal with.

As I've been trying to write for Horizon of Chaos, I realized that the events in the manga have really shaped how much I feel about writing anything for the month in between. It's really hard to write cute and happy when I know something that big is coming up. Our proverbial 'beach episode' is so much harder with shit like that looming on the horizon, even though they're going to make it through.

It makes me want to skip past it completely and go to the happily ever after. But that would feel wrong. It would feel half-finished. It wouldn't feel like the proper resolution after so much has happened.

It's also, if I'm being honest, getting a bit outside of my comfort zone. Because I've stuck as close to canon as I possibly could throughout the entirety of Another Level, and diverging so heavily now is a bit daunting.

To give a bit of a "behind-the-scenes" perspective, I'll share a secret that might not be that much of a secret: When I first started writing Another Level, back when I wasn't even sure if I was going to post any of it, I was determined to stick with canon no matter what. Meaning if Gojo died in canon, he was going to die in Another Level. I even had two plans for endings. For if he lived or died.

But, after writing a bit, and figuring a few other things out, it felt cruel to rip that chance at happiness away from them after they've been through so much. They've worked so hard and been through so much, and while JJK itself isn't meant to be a bright and happy story, I started writing Another Level specifically to deal with all that shit, so why make it darker than it needs to be when I don't have to?

I don't remember exactly when I made the decision, but at some point very early on I decided, 'Fuck canon if he dies. Gojo and Rinko are getting a nice happy ending together where they live long lives together and have cute lil babies.'

Another Level Gojo feels so close to canon that he feels like canon sometimes, as many of you have pointed out and said you like about him (thank you so much btw, it is greatly appreciated 🥹). But he has layers of character depth that he's gained through knowing Rinko that canon Gojo doesn't have.

Canon Gojo was perfectly happy dying to someone stronger. Because that meant he got to just be 'Gojo Satoru' and not 'The Strongest.' He was fulfilled and happy to die that way, leaving the rest to his students.

Another Level Gojo is tired. He's been fighting his entire fucking life. He's been blamed for shit his entire fucking life. And he's found the one person in the world who loves him and sees through all that bullshit, and he wants to finish this garbage and just have some quiet time to live his life being an idiot with this woman who has stayed by his side and seen the human in him since the beginning.

Another Level Gojo is going to want to be truly selfish. He's going to feel cheated dying now. As you saw in the most recent part of Horizon of Chaos, he's not ready to leave just yet. He wants more time with Rinko.

Because Rinko has always seen Gojo Satoru, the dumbass who does stupid shit and is just an overgrown child who never got to be a kid. And she's indulged him by giving him cookies and letting him have those moments of vulnerability with zero judgment for things that others spent years blaming him for. She was one of few people who never faulted him for not killing Geto sooner. Gojo knows how much she hated Geto by the end because of what happened to her kids, to Touma. But she has still maintained that she understands that he was his best friend and expecting him to react any differently than he did would be asking too much of anyone.

Remember one of the things she's told him during a moment of vulnerability?

"Even the strongest fail."

She has always seen his moments of genuine weakness as something to love and not something to break him down for. And he is so ready to just spend the rest of his life showing her just how much he loves her for it. So he will.

[biff-adventurer]

ok so this actually IS ffxiv related

this morning i saw some comments in a lore channel that uh... it was clearly a joke. but this kind of joke hurts me.

it's ok to make jokes about the garlean empire. IT SUCKED. the garleans in charge, sucked. the cultural purity ethos was god awful. they are meant to be villains. meant.

like the viator says to jullus, "they gave you slop to eat like pigs and you ate it all up." (this is the general idea of the jpn line)

but if we're going to look at them from the side of de-colonizing liberals, marginalized people who want to be empowered, it's not great to essentialize all the culture of any one nation down to its worst qualities.

i'm super NOT pointing at the game. i'm talking about player behaviour. like, if you call yourself a liberal, then you must look at these issues with real nuance. if you call yourself compassionate, you can't then turn around and dehumanize your enemies. that's not how this fucking works.

you look at the culture. you look at the history irl. you understand how they got there, why they got there, and you realize we're having these same problems all over the world, again. ethnosupremacy. racial supremacy. caste supremacy. those who deserve greatness versus those who are born in suffering because they fucking deserve it, apparently.

it's justified to take up arms against the intolerant. it's not justified to essentialize an entire group of people because of a political wave.

i come from the stance that garlean imperial culture, the ruling class and the capital, are highly roman influenced. but that the people and their homeland are russian influenced. and when you look at the russians, at the very least, they are not without their suffering. the people today are not happy with their government. they are not.

slavic peoples carry the cultural story of survival. that every generation has their own suffering they must endure. this includes the russians.

it's just not black or white. we can't tolerate intolerance. when people oppress, we need to say something. do something. that's the important part. so when you're in a fictional setting when you can be a literal fucking super hero, which is something impossible in reality, why would you make the choice to further essentialize and dehumanize your fucking enemy. that takes you back to square fucking one.

extremes work from the same logic, despite overtly espousing different ideas. when in conflict, we require balance. compassion is a balancing act between mercy and truth. how much mercy? how much are we straying from the truth? what level of responsibility is owed? do we owe?

everyone starts somewhere. when it comes to any kind of rp or story telling, everyone starts somewhere. but we are people who exist in a real world. fiction should make us better. it should help us think through problems abstractly so we can observe and refine our own ideals. i just can't agree with making sick jokes about how the nation where the villains come from is inherently bad.

emet-selch? awful. hate him. sphene? literally the better version of emet-selch, has empathy, still unforgivable in action and ideology.

the ancients actually being superior human beings? ridiculous, racist, steeped in ethnocentric bias. does that mean we can't have fucking beach episodes with artemis, apollo and fucking hecate? of course not. so long as we KNOW it is fiction. and that they are NOT superior.

it's all about knowledge and how you use it. it's all about compassion and the choices you make. stupid comments reveal your bias. don't settle on your bias. always reflect on who you are, what that means, what your positionality is, and what you ought to do. especially when you presume to put yourself on a pedestal of leftist ideal in the first place.

for context, i'm an indian who grew up with relatives who hated the british. my grandfather was born during the raj, my uncle said we name dogs english names b/c the british are dogs. my people, the punjabis, suffered a lot of bullshit b/c of the raj and its aftermath. but my first language is english. in the US.

so i'm not talking out of my ass.

[spurious]

💡for live oak #5 I really want to know the thought process behind it!

✏️ or 📓 for twenty (more) questions

(Also just wanted to say that I loved twenty questions so much!! I will leave a proper comment at some point but just wanted to express my love for the fic 🌻🌻🌻)

WIP Wednesday!

💡 What gave you the idea for this one?

Okay well. Look at the first two lines of Live Oak With Moss 5 and tell me it’s not about Rodney McKay:

Long I thought that knowledge alone would

          suffice me—O if I could but obtain

          knowledge!

SO. I knew, obviously, that this is a Rodney fic, but I was waffling around for a while about what kind of Rodney fic it would be. Coming off of O I Think We Should Be Brethren, I was like no Laura don’t write ANOTHER introspective novella!!! But the problem is that it’s actually 100% what the fic needs to be, and so I came to terms with that and decided that it’s kind of cool to have these two in conversation with each other.

But that didn’t actually happen until I got the idea for the *actual* hook of the story, which is that it’s, in a very oblique will probably take 20k to even get there way, a Tao of Rodney fic. I had this realization while washing my hands in the bathroom at work and whisper-screamed to myself about it in the mirror. SO the way we hook that episode, the poem itself, and my need to write a lengthy examination of Rodney’s backstory and emotional landscape all together is through the concept of Rodney as a child having read a pulp scifi story about a man who uploaded his mind to a computer and subsequently sort of fantasizing about doing that, on and off, for his entire life. Until he gets the chance to basically do that by ascending and realizes he doesn’t want to!

📓 out of context portion of notes:

Ummmmmmmmmm I know I wrote some notes on this last night and now I can’t find them?

I definitely remember writing that John will finally ask if Rodney got off to any of the porn he downloaded and Rodney will be weird and cagey about it despite having no reason to be! Important.

✏️ deleted scene……I do, actually, have an entire deleted scene from the original twenty questions, so

For Ronon’s birthday, Teyla works the hell out of her trading connections to get ahold of a huge bottle of Satedan-style homebrew: the team take a jumper to the mainland and make camp, a little beach-front barbecue set up in the sand. Rodney bitches about the sun and the heat and the outdoors, but he turns pink and giddy once they start passing the bottle around the fire—the stuff’s like fucking paint thinner, and Ronon gulps it down like it’s water.

The topic turns to the rumor about what had happened with Major Lorne’s team a few weeks back, a first contact mission that’d been heavy on the contact, and between team members, at that. John had read—and then heavily redacted—the report, then had trouble looking Lorne in the eye for a day and a half.

“Lorne’s team,” Rodney says, knocking back a too-long swig from the bottle and then giggling a little, “they’re all…well, fine, I suppose, but if we had to, I mean, you’d be spoiled for choice!” He follows this statement up with an expansive, sloppy gesture to Teyla, Ronon, John, then back to himself. “I mean, who would you pick?”

He’s looking at Ronon, thank god, but before John can open his mouth to tell Rodney to can it, Ronon’s already answering him.

“You’re asking which of the team I’d have sex with off-world, if I had to?” Ronon says, in his usual deadpan rumble. Rodney nods, and Ronon glances at John across the campfire. “I’d pick Sheppard,” he says, shrugging. “Probably be the least weird.” Then he looks at Teyla. “No offense.”

“None taken,” Teyla says, her usual diplomatic formality softened into something sly and amused. “I am sure Colonel Sheppard would be a very generous lover.” John nearly swallows his tongue, and Teyla grins at him, unrepentant, before leaning back, surveying the three of them like a queen at court. “All three of you would be fine choices, of course, but I think Ronon's youthful enthusiasm would lead to an enjoyable encounter."

"What about you, Rodney?" John asks, wondering if he can head this off, get Rodney rambling so long they all forget John hasn't answered.

Rodney looks at John, speculative and too-long, before shaking himself, blinking. "Well, Teyla, obviously." He licks his lips nervously, eyes darting to Teyla, then back to John. "She's our only woman, so."

"Right," John says, not getting why Rodney's being so furtive. He feels fuzzy from the Satedan liquor, but he takes another long swig when Ronon passes him the bottle.

"Well, it's your turn, Colonel," Rodney says, seeming to try for a lean but succeeding more in pitching over sideways. "Who'll you pick?"

John thinks, oh, god, just say Teyla, it'll be easier, opens his mouth and hears himself say, "You, obviously," and then the liquor hits him like a punch to the solar plexus and he has to scramble away as quick as he can to puke his guts out in the sand.

Ronon laughs at him, calls him something that apparently roughly translates to “middle schooler at his first party,” and the conversation moves smoothly, mercifully, to a discussion of their most embarrassing drinking stories.

[madisonbeersource]

Hiiiii 💙💙 I'm sorry I didn't contact you sooner, but now that it's September I'm very busy and these last few days I barely have time to do anything. I miss summer a lot 😪 how are you doing?

And YESSS Spinnin is too much for this world. And omg you're so right, when at the end she sings "i'm still in pain" adding that painful still....

Can you believe it wasn't until I read your post I hadn't thought that song 17 would be about when Madison was 17, I kind of hadn't thought about it, you know? I thought 17 could refer to something else, I don't know hahaha So if I'm not mistaken, wasn't that age when Madison and Jack Gilinsky broke up?

And I'm loving so much the episodes Madison is uploading via tiktok about each of their songs... I like them so much that I wish they were longer videos where they talked more about the meanings of the songs, how the process went, parts of the demo.... And then there are the new snippets, which every time I see the release I literally squeal with excitement . I'M CLAIMING "NOTHIN MATTERS BUT YOU" VERY STRONGLY, already the title of the song had enchanted me and it was one of the songs I was claiming but after listening to the snippet I'm in love, I find it very magical like from another galaxy. And then there's Ryder, which is going to be PRECIOUS and I'm also looking forward to listening to it, especially because I'm also the older sister and I know I'm going to feel identified. I wonder I liked it too but not as much as the others, although I like the sixties vibes it has and then I'm also very excited about At your worst, I think it's going to be a deep song to listen to while you have a handkerchief in your hand. What do you think of the new snippets? I can't. It's already this Friday. Literally on Friday I'm going to do nothing but listen to the album over and over again

And obviously I remember that you love Taylor! In fact I remember the idea you had come up with for Taylor to do an album about Greek mythology, with goddesses. I wish she would, because your idea is brilliant and it would be wonderful.

And yesss I'm loving Sabrina being with her on The Eras Tour too!!!! I'm a big fan of Sabrina and they doa make a great duo.

And THANK YOU SO MUCH for all the songs you recommended, I have to listen to them yes or yes. And you will be proud of me, because I listened to the whole midnights album and the songs I liked the most were lavender haze, vigilante shit, maroon, snow on the beach and after that I also liked karma and anti-hero. Although on the Midnights album there are like more songs besides the main album or something, no? I'm not really aware but I know there are more songs because it sounds like there's a song called Paris and I don't really know, it's part of the deluxe album (if there is a deluxe) and then I love Carolina, I think I remember we already talked about this song.

But I'm not forgetting that I have to listen to the other songs you recommended

Omg you are so adorable ♡ you know I love fangirling with you it's like therapeutic, I don't know it makes me so happy. I feel like anyone else wouldn't understand half of it and would surely get bored so you saying you love my bibles means a lot to me, I also love reading your posts sooo much

I LOVE YOU SO FREAKING MUCHHH TOOOOO 💙

It is okay baby I got pretty busy myself PLUS I HAVE SOME NEWS FOR U!! I have to admit I do NOT miss summer at all.... it was too hot and now i'm stuck in a job I ENJOY SO MUCH and i'm so ready for fall we already have fog in the morning omg i'm in love.

honestly spinnin right now is my favorite from the album....like when she says "did the world stopped spinnin or did I?" FUCK HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL MADISON

omg I knew it'd be about her being 17 because i know this year was very sad for her :// so ofc she'd reflect on it but OMG i'm listening to the entire album right now and 17 is among my favorites! and yes i think so but i think it's gonna be about her (me from 3 minutes later: it is and i'm so happy she doesn't bring jack into this it is about her and YAS MY QUEEN) but i know Ryder is gonna break me. I never knew until i read her book how bad it was for her and ryder at home. you never know what someone is going through.

YES i tried not to watch em as I wanted NO SPOILERS on the songs but now that i have it on my phone i will b able to watch em!! I am at nothing matters but you!! I'll let u know how i feel about it but as of right now I LOVE IT, i feel like i like Life Support better but maybe because I love that there's songs like follow the white rabbit u know what i mean, like there was different musicality whereas sbs stays in the same tones idk if you feel me but yea BUT I LOVE SBS as of right now!! i love the 50/60s vibes so much it really shows she's an old soul!

ISTG I STILL HOLD ON TO THAT IDEA!! having a whole era about Mount Olympus and her impersonating the strongest gods & goddesses!! how cool would that be!! OMG HAVE U SEEN HER AT THE VMAS??? SO PRETTY and Sabrina's among my favorites also!! her last album? no skip album for me

OMG CANT WAIT TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR OPINIONS ON THE SONGS I GAVE U !! YES THERE IS A DELUXE VERSION ON MIDNIGHT with would've could've should've and it's a no skip album for me!! omg all of the songs you mentioned are chef kiss but vigilance shit is SO GOOD!! omg Carolina is so enchanting those types of songs are my favorite!! makes me think of this song called "Twist in My Sobriety by Tanita Tikaram"

I LOVE U.

this is VERY therapeutic lmao as we have NO ONE to fangirl w irl. PLEASE I LOVE UR ASKS!! it takes me half a day to answer em BUT I WOULDNT TRADE IT FOR THE WORLD.

KISSES FOR U ONLY.

[tinamaetales]

You’re on your own, kid

“Life is emotionally abusive“ - Taylor Swift, Snow at the Beach

I am no stranger to adversity; things have never been good to me since I was young and now that I’m an adult, being in chaos seems to be an equivalent to being at home. Chaos is home. And it sucks because life should not be that way.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to say that life should not have any difficulties but what I am trying to point out is life is not fair for everyone. While others get to recover and heal, there are people like me who falls deeper and deeper into rock bottom; it seems like no matter how hard you try, you just can’t win. 

This blog post might end up as trauma dumping but idc. I do not have anyone to tell things....not even family or friends so I decided to just unload my emotions here. 

There was a tiny spark of hope in me when 2023 started. I thought I could make this year my year. My plans for 2023 was actually simple:

1.) Fix my relationship with God.

2.) Work on acknowledging my emotions and expressing them instead of bottling it all up.

3.) Recover financially.

4.) Go back to therapy.

I thought that in 2023 I can start my recovery process but since it’s me that is not possible, at all. Few days into 2023 and my life is already fucked. I cannot believe that until now I still have to suffer the consequences of someone else’s actions. It sucks how my father was given the liberty to fuck around and then made me, my mom and sister suffer the consequences. So now I have all this burden to carry and not have someone to depend on. Not even family. Not even my friends. Not even God. In the end, I only have me. Taylor Swift’s right when she said “You’re on your own, kid. You always have been”

When things get overwhelming, I have this habit of isolating myself from the rest of the world and obsessively find myself something to hold on to. Lately if I’m not watching Miami Heat games, I watch series or rewatch iKON contents. Miami Heat games, iKON music and other related contents, music from Taylor Swift, EXO, 5 Seconds of Summer, series and docus on Netflix are my safe haven; they provided me this kind of safe space that no one else can. Investing myself way too much in them makes me forget my problems. However, you cannot fully shut down the world from yourself right? I still have to leave that space from time to time and good Lord it’s so exhausting facing the real world.

Lately, I have been watching this show that seems to challenge me mentally and emotionally because I can see myself in most of the characters. The show is called BoJack Horseman. It was so difficult for me to get through some of the episode not because it was bad, the show was actually well written, but because it gets so real at times. And, sometimes facing the truth is really difficult. I’m on season 2 now (it has six seasons), and I plan to finish this until the end. I guess there’s a reason why I ended up watching this show; maybe I need to learn how to face the truth as well as I need to learn how to actually work on making myself better. Let’s just see if there will be progress for me.

I have absolutely no intention of opening this account today and even writing something so I guess that explains why this entire blog post looks like a collection of paragraphs that were only put together so I can trauma dump lol. Anyway, I want to end this by sharing some quotes from the show: 

"The universe is a cruel, uncaring void, The key to being happy isn't a search for meaning. It's to just keep yourself busy with unimportant nonsense, and eventually, you'll be dead."

“That’s the thing. I don’t think I believe in deep-down. I kinda think that all you are is just the things that you do.”

x,

TinaMae

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

i wonder what would have happened if we had more time for yaz to come to terms with being queer and the doctor's response to that. bc like i do think a lot happened in the time between sea devils and potd but imagine if we could have seen that

bc now what happened was yaz came out to herself, to her you know companion i guess in the dw way but also just kind of the classical way, sort of was outed or at least i think experienced it that way a little bit to the person she loved, in the space of a day WHILE saving the entire world WHILE trying to navigate who knows what exactly and what are they thinking about me about it. thats a lot. thats really not ideal circumstances to come out in i'd say. and im just now realising being at the bottom of the fucking ocean is a nifty metaphor for the pressure theyre probably both feeling at that moment nice

anyway, thats not ideal. and they had some time to like come to terms with The Thing Between Us, but i dont think they talked about it really. at least not in any more specifics or depth than the conversation the beach. 13 did a pretty good job being like "im cool with the gays! all of my wives are bisexual!" but i dont know if she, in all her anxiously attached Please Dont Talk To Me About Feelings glory, would be able to offer a whole lot in terms of integrating freshly realised queer feelings into your overall identity. i dont think yaz would be able to accept it if she could offer, seeing her own disposition, right? like, dan might try to offer to help, but i dont think yaz would accept a lot

so while they seem to at least somewhat come to terms with the non-relationship, im not sure yaz in potd would have processed all that much in terms of the sense of "im queer" you know what i mean? like im not expecting her to walk back home like Im Gay Actually. like no. im not even sure how much of that she even could start to integrate into a sense of self until shes processed all the grief

but then like imagine if there was another series between flux and potd. so that everything that happened basically in just eotd and sea devils could be done more gradually over the course of 10 episodes. i think it would be super interesting to see how like, that would play out

the friendship between yaz and dan, the elaboration of the supportive sentiment of "including my wife!" spread out across episodes. yaz wrestling with "why not?!" + "not even myself" + "can we just live in the present" + "if it was going to be anyone, it'd be you" over the course of episodes. the frustration and the grief and the fear and the hope and the confusion. we could really see the effect 5(?) years of "i cant fix myself to anyone" has had on yaz and more importantly the doctor would see it. and dan already knows but he'd be there to see the doctor realise it too which i think could lead to some really good scenes too

we could see yaz wrestle with sort of the spectre of home behind the spectre of the doctor dying bc she Knows somethings up. it'd be like that motif that rtd put in his seasons where like life with the doctor is like an analogy for queer life in that you might die but you have to choose it. like you cant not, if youre a companion. after the doctor dies (which is this a whole terrifying prospect in itself but even after youve sort of managed to come to terms with that) she will have to go back home. and theres a closet there she fled. you know what i mean?

yazs story is this incredibly multifaceted complex coming of age thing where you can really feel how much like the transition from adolescence to young adulthood is less like finishing school and starting work and more like,,,,,,,im trying to think of a metaphor but i cant come up with anything that rings as true as yazs story does so *gestures at it*. just survival i think is what it is. it's a fight for survival. like every day. every day there might be a dalek and The Doctor WIll Not Save You. thats yazs story but we barely skim the surface of it because chibnalls era is mainly about the doctor. theres just sooo much more story left in her character i feel like

i feel so bad for yaz in sea devils. poor girl didnt deserve that

[eldritch-spouse]

which of the boys enjoy going to the beach? Admin isn’t allowed out as far as I can tell but humor me for a minute ok this has been on my mind for a while and I need your input

Morell would probably only go so he can scoop up crabs and sea snails for his recipes ;-; Ain’t nothing better than ingredients right from the source!

Santi would make lewd comments the entire time. I think he’d be a showoff at like everything but he’d be especially good at volleyball

Patches would probably be scared of the water (can water put his flames out??). He saw one (1) shark movie and he hasn’t gotten over it. I feel like the others would team up just to throw him in

I can’t think of much for Nebul. He either wouldn’t go or would watch you like a hawk to make sure you don’t die out there

I can’t see Gallon wanting to go, I feel like it’d take a lot of effort not to suck up every grain of sand he steps on but if he did I think he’d make a mean sandcastle. Also he’d pack snacks :)

Vinnel would fucking hate it there is no way you could get them to go

Grimbly would complain the whole time I think just for your attention. It’s dangerous for him to go out during the day anyway so expect to be sort of his personal assistant the whole day. It’s too hot! The sun hurts! He needs a bigger umbrella so he won’t burn! Can you put sunscreen on him just in case? Now let him put some on you!

You’d bury Fank-e in the sand and then forget about him until he’s screaming as the tide comes up

Ludwig brought water guns. Team up with him! Don’t be fooled, he’s deliberately aiming for the others’ eyes

Krulu wouldn’t go. He trusts the others to protect you and I don’t think he’d see a point in going (there are so many beaches in the world! you want to get all sandy and clog your nose with salt water?)

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Breg needs to be watched like a hawk, there’s so much here to distract him and pretty much anything gets him horny

Fasma would play lifeguard the whole time for you and Breg. He won’t be liable for a client’s death! Hey, hey, no splashin’! Fer fuck’s sake, Breg, don’t hold ‘em under the water that long!

Anyway I feel like half of them would only agree so they can see you in a swimsuit

[FUCK YES FILLER BEACH EPISODE TIME!! :D]

You absolutely can drag Krulu out, as long as The Clergy is secured. If all the other staff members go, then he clearly has to accompany his professional clowns as well. Sure, he's grumbling the entire time and artificially creating shade for himself, but he's there alright.

Grimbly is extremely careful about the sunlight, he carries a huge gothic umbrella with him, has extra thick sunglasses and demands someone attend him whenever he gets thirsty/hungry. Probably hangs closer to Krulu because of the shade, both of them groan about the sun.

Morell gets a lot of unwanted attention because he's a large sweaty monster man and people are thirsty. Someone pulls his shorts down while he's in the water collecting crabs and such, he has to stay under the waterline until his coverings are given back. Please keep him occupied, his urge to snatch humans is howling at him, he's licking his teeth at most humans he sees (which makes him look like a pervert, when really, he's just hungry).

Listen, Santi's going out there with a mankini and you know it. This is the opportune time for him to show off and eat like a king. Dude asks about 50 people to apply sunscreen on him and gets slapped a couple of times. He comes back to the group slippery like butter. He's also fellating popsicles every ten minutes. Stop this man.

Gallon wants off the sand immediately, picking the grains out of him will be a pain later. The water is fine, even if it tastes really salty, he can mix with it for a bit and probably freak some poor people out who think he's like... Dying. If there's a bar nearby, said bartender has been yeeted into the sea so he can make drinks for everyone instead.

Nebul also prefers shade, but he's surprisingly okay with going to the beach, I think he would rather sit back with Gallon and Grimbly but he'd definitely sit by the chore for a small while, probably with his hood on so as to not burn his head mist too much. He would like to experience surfing at some point but no one takes him seriously. Purpur is there to steal ice cream.

Fank-e is building absolutely gigantic sand castles and no one can stop him. Look look, he's the king of the sea- At least until the shore destroys them all and he's left there sulking forever. Anyone who touches his metal frame gets burned immediately.

Contrary to what you said, I think Vinnel would enjoy himself out there a lot. His suit protects him from a lot of outside harm, including a good amount of heat, so he's ballin' really. He fucks around with everyone and anyone. In fact, he's definitely stealing Patches' head repeatedly to toss it into the waves and give him panic attacks. He might start games with strangers, be it volleyball or water gun tournaments- His showmanship takes over.

Patches is relatively normal about going to the beach, in fact, he probably takes the time to get some decent rest with his hat shielding his head from the sun. The problem with this is that it leaves the dullahan vulnerable to his asshole coworkers' nefarious little tricks. They doodle on him, bury his body, try to put shells inside his head, the poor guy gets no mercy.

Ludwig and Fasma share the lifeguard role. When Lud isn't working, he's probably either floating off into the sea on his back (asleep most likely) or starting water gun fights like you said. Fasma has one of those vintage stripped swimsuits and complains that everyone else is dressed like a whore, seeing Santi gives him heart failure.

Breg, like I said in other beach asks, is also making sand castles and probably eating scallops because they're crunchy mmmm :)) . He cannot swim actually, never learned to, the only thing he can do is float very tensely. He'll only go into the water if you hold his hand through it.

At least one volleyball tournament with everyone in The Clergy is mandatory, it gets incredibly competitive and someone is guaranteed to start a fight. Krulu actually enjoys watching this a lot, he's the jury.

[thenerdkingqueen]

an analysis/easter eggs/things that i've noticed on Tommyinnit's Unbeatable Method of Avoiding Sudden Death

spoilers, be aware psa: most of this was said by the creator themself on the final chapter, also this is a pretty long post

Easter Eggs:

the angel reaching tommy (the fic starts with angel approaching tommy and it end with the angel and tommy)

mention of how tommy is young (in his limbo he is 16 but in real life he is 12)

someone saying "tommy is not a hero"

mentions of how clementine is a blessing from the gods/his guardian/his saviour

a gun that cannot kill people

everytime that tommy is close to "dying" some miracle happens and he's saved (most, if not all, the times it happens with clementine present or because of clementine)

tommy avoiding the news

a lot of religious symbolism (tommy mentioning jesus, affirming that clementine is a gift from gods, calling michael a demon, etc)

clementine being "rebellious" (on my notes this started around chapter 5, starts to disagree more with tommy around chapter 14 and then this becomes prominent towards the end)

tommy subconsciously believing that he set fire to the building/city (mentioned in multiple chapters, first in chapter 6 and so on and on)

ranboo liking spaghetti

tommy childish behavior that can only be comprehended in the end of the fic

tommy playing with techno's sword (alluding to the real world were techno was into fencing)

tommy mentioning the five stages of grief

mentions of how the fic is supposed to follow the same ideas as cartoon shows about heroes (tubbo talking about how the characters don't have "plot armour" because they aren't the "main characters", tommy talking about a beach episode and bloopers, etc)

tommy always trying to be the one to save the others (how he reasures tubbo that hes the one supposed to save the others, saving techno on a mission, wilbur telling him that he saved them, etc)

the reality changing in a way that fits tommy the best (in my notes i said that the first time that we see this happening is when tommy goes to buy fast food and somehow got an order that they didn't have at first)

tommy missing the jump but wilbur catches him before he falls (it happens in chapter 9 and in chapter 28)

techno being defenestrated the most alluding to his death

techno not wanting to babysit tommy (chapter 10, chapter 14 and chapter 27)

tommy calling wilbur bald

chapters were is just a conversation between clementine and tommy

multiple mentions of how tommy is "not ready"

mentions of how tommy misses his family (chapter 18 with wilbur saying that "its okay" if tommy missed him, chapter 23 with tommy mentioning that he "missed this")

mentions of the world falling apart

tommy's mom loving clementines tea

the news on tv

tommy being a fan of vigilantes

wilbur singing

Paragraphs that are worth mentioning:

Tommy in chapter 6 about Tubbo:

“Shhh,” Tommy soothes calmly, “I’m reminiscing about our relationship. I’m grieving.” Tubbo stares at him in exasperation. “Grieving what?” “The end.”

Tommy about himself also in chapter 6:

Maybe he did die.

Now that he’s aware, he can feel the wind blowing through his hair, feels his soaked suit sticking to his body uncomfortably. He shivers."

Tubbo and Tommy in chapter 7:

"Tommy pouts, “Why are you leaving me?” Tubbo sighs, “Tommy you know I have to go at some point.”

also in chapter 7:

“No Ranboo slander in this household,” Tubbo says sternly, “I’ll be back soon Tom.” “You won’t,” Tommy sniffs, “You’re leaving forever.”

the world around Tommy while he's sick (foreshadowing):

"The world blurs for a second and he stabilizes himself against the wall."

Clementine in chapter 7:

“ Tommy ,” A voice croons for him. “ Wake up. Wake up Tommy,” It says, “ You need to wake up. This isn’t re-“

Tommy and Clementine in chapter 9, Tommy showing that he is on denial:

"Clementine does a flip. “No, no. We don’t talk about what happened. Nothing happened. I don’t even know what you are talking about, like I honestly have no idea what you are about. I don’t even know what heroes are. Who are heroes? That’s crazy, never heard of them. Do they even exist? That’s crazy. Clementine shut the fuck up,” He groans, shuddering as he relives the embarrassment of a lifetime. Clementine stares."

foreshadowing in chapter 11:

"Tommy glares at them. How do they not understand the severity of the situation? Children, the lot of them. “You will all understand soon enough,” Tommy sighs, shaking his head, “And then, you will feel deep, deep regret.”

foreshadowing again on chapter 23:

“Mhm,” He cries into the man’s chest, “Okay,” He believes. He chooses to believe Wilbur. “I’ve- I’ve missed this,” He confesses. I’ve missed you, he doesn’t say. “I know,” Wilbur hums. “It’s okay. Merry Christmas, Tommy.”

the narrative changing and the people around tommy realizing where they are/tommy and the people around him acting weird:

Wilbur in chapter 25:

“You can stop, if you want,” Wilbur looks him in the eye. Tommy’s grin freezes. “What?” “You can stop, Tommy. We don’t have to pretend anymore.”

Phil and Tommy on chapter 25:

"Phil frowns, offended, “You don’t like heroes.” “They don’t exist.” Phil laughs this time, slightly bewildered, “Mate, I’m a hero.” Tommy turns to him, eyes dulled, “Are you?”

Tommy and Jack on chapter 26:

“I mean, really, when have you actually helped someone? Other than yourself, that is,” Manifold scoffs. “You think you’re so above everyone here, above the world-“ “That’s because I am, ” Tommy stares, eyes hard."

my actual thoughts/analysis (this is very disorganized because it's literally just the notes the I made when i was re-reading):

Tommy's limbo is a world made by him, he aged himself up (he was 12 but 16 in the limbo) and i think thats one of the reasons of why swears a lot (in chapter 27 philza says that tommy could only swear in his adolescence)

Through the fic we can see how much Tommy resents and feels guilty about everything that happened, the multiple mentions of how he didn't know who "burned the building" are an example

i genuinely believe that the hoodie that he wears in the fic is wilbur's hoodie (in chapter 27 they are fighting because of a hoodie) and i think that is an indirect way of tommy saying "i love you" and "i miss you"

i also believe that the reason of why he lives in an apartment with tubbo is because he feels guilty for not being able to save him

In the beginning of the fic tommy deflects what happened and projects in a much lighter, much happier, way. He has a gun that cannot kill, he thinks that fire is "pogchamp", he jokes about defenestration, etc

At some point the world building start to get "weird", tommy being hired wouldn't make sense in the actual world but since it's a world made by a child with childish ideas he ends up getting hired anyways, a lot of times Tommy acts like a kid and not a teenager, later is explained that hes actually 12

Tommy also don't want to leave but he wants to be saved, this is shown when he begs for Clementine to save him in chapter 12, he wants his life back but he also wants Clementine to be part of it

Eneli starts to refer to the boys as brothers in cahpter 19, before this tommy was just an orphan (this fact is refuted in chapter 23, when tommy says that he "wasn't always a orphan")

Tommy struggles to say what Clementine is to him, probably because he realized that she is not his daughter but his mother, my best bet is that Tommy made Clementine to be his daughter because he couldn't bare the thought of having a mother, he mentions that "parents do the abandoning" and i feel like that its how he felt when his mother died, before he also mentioned how she already abandoned him once, he is also super protective of her, and in chapter 26 he almost lost her entirely. In some ways Clementine is death, and thats something that he cannot and does not want to deal with, but shes also his mother and he loves her (this can be see through the fic but especially in chapter 26)

I feel like Phil having wings is a red herring to fool the reader, this makes the reader believe that he is the one who saved Tommy in the beginning

[avinaccia]

A Completely Objective and Logical Ranking of Every Hetalia Character Song

New character songs are dropping,  I have too much time on my hands, let’s go. 

Also here’s a Youtube playlist for the ~✨nostalgia✨~

Bring it on in the tags 

71. Ah Legendary Class⭐The Awesome Me Highway [Prussia]: Absolutely tearing it up on the drums and on the vocal cords alike (I pray for Atsushi Kousaka). Great for the memes. 

70.  Happy Thoughts Museum [???]: This is listed as an official song but I had literally never heard of the title. Then I listened to it and BAM! Smack back to 2013 watching the teasers for the show on Funimation. Not sure I’d count it as a character song though...

69. (Nice)  My Song that is written by me for me [Prussia]: Deafened me but I can appreciate the industrial grind.

68.  My House is...Quiet. ~With the Trolls~ [Norway]: I have never heard this song, nor can I find any version of it online. By default it goes here and I am so sorry Norge.

67.  Make a Wish to Santa♪ [Sealand]: The discordant notes and childish exuberance only serve to make this sound like a demonic plea to Santa to eliminate the singer’s enemies.

66.  Heaven and Hell on Earth [Rome]: Rome sounds like he’s been in the corner of a restroom. Extra points for the metal version, minus points for the fact that the beach scene was replayed like 1764 times.

65. Canada Complete Introduction [Canada]: Quiet af until Kumacheerio shows up and blows out your speakers. they did you dirty my darling 😔

64.  It’s Easy!!! [America]: I don't think any video of this has ever stayed up for more than 20 seconds. Sounds cool, but like I was listening to 20 different genres at once, someone make him calm down.

63.  Bù Zàiyì the Small Stuff ☆ [China]: I cannot for the life of me find the complete song anywhere, clips have a cool beat though

62.  Let's Boil Hot Water♪ [Italy]: Exactly what it says on the tin..though a bit too close to elevator music for my tastes.

61.  The Fragrance of Early Summer [Japan]: Very ‘from the books’ Japan-esque song

60.  Peace Sounds Nice…[Baltic Trio]: All well and good until the radio demon shows up

59.  W●D●C ~World Dancing~ [America]: How a song can sound like it’s from 4 different decades at once is beyond me

58.  Overflowing Passion [BFT]: This is just drunken karaoke and I have 0 clue what’s going on #iconicforallthewrongreasons

57. Ren●Ren●Renaissance♪ [Rome+Chibitalia]: Wholesome Grandpa with Grandson content - barring the fact that Italy sounds on the verge of a nervous breakdown and Rome has had too much wine.

56.  Roma Antiqua [Rome]: Similar energy to any one of China’s songs - there’s a part of the song where it sounds like he’s singing in the shower, and I will never not laugh at [CENSORED]

55.  Country From Where the Sun Rises, Zipangu [Japan]: Very chill, very Japan, but just meh for me.

54.  Moon Over Emei Shan [China]: Good message, okay song.

53.  My Friend [England]: What a mind palace you must have Mr. Kirkland

52.  With Love, from Iceland [Iceland]: Three words: Heavy. Metal. Puffin.

51.  Having Friends is Nice...♫ [Russia]: Russia is the cutest thing ever

50.  Mm. [Sweden]: Smooth transition from WWE Smackdown to shopping at IKEA.

49.  Why don’t you come over? ~Beyond the Northern Lights~ [Iceland]: I don’t want to be mean but...this does sound like the second closing theme to an anime whose first closing was much more popular (à la Soul Eater)

48. Gakuen☆Festa [Germany, Italy, Japan]: Sounds like a 60s song of the summer but oh dear their voices do not go together. Hella cute though.

47.  Wa! Wa!! World Ondo [Main Cast]: One time I travelled 10 hours in a coach bus with a bunch of teenagers to a city of note in my country, and the only souvenir I bought was the fucking PAINT IT WHITE DVD. Perfectly chaotic, UN ĐĕùX~~

46.  In the Bluebell Woods [England]: In the album cover for this song he’s holding a guitar but this is not a rock song. Still has ‘running through the hills’ levels of dramatism though.

45.  Poi Poi Poi♪ [Taiwan]: You’re telling me that Taiwan, someone whose has *ONE LINE* in Beautiful World (which is criminal tbh what kind of representation-) managed to get an eNTIRE CHARACTER SONG???????

44.  White Flame [Russia]: There’s something to be said for a song that is 3x the length of any Hetalia episode

43.  Ich liebe… [Germany]: Baking cakes for your friends has never been so wholesome.

42.  We Wish you a Merry Christmas [America, China, England, France, Russia]: Nice to see they’ve gotten their shit together since United Nations Sta-hmm.

41.  Ah, Worldwide à la mode [France]: Sounds like a Disney Princess song, hard not to picture France frolicking in a field of flowers.

40.  Che Bello! ~My House is the Greatest!⭐~ [Italy]: Would not be out of place in an advertisement for Sea World.

39.  May You Smile Today [Japan]: THE feel good song of the summer

38.  Let’s Look Behind the Rainbow [Italy]: I will protect you.

37.  I'm your HERO☆ [America]: “Anyone who’s sad or sullen will be arrested” did NOT age well.

36.  Mein Gott! [Prussia]: Alternating headphone effect at the beginning is cool, so is the confidence...the actual singing on the other hand...

35. Nihao⭐China [China]: Listen, all of China’s character songs are great, I just can’t vibe with this one like some of the others.

34.  Pechka ~Light My Heart~ [Russia]: I’m still having difficulty wrapping my head around the fact that this and Winter were released at the same time.

33.  Pukapuka⭐Vacation [Germany, Italy, Japan]: Seems just a bit too much like they’re running on a treadmill that’s picking up speed and trying to sing at the same time. Peppy.

32.  Santa Claus is Coming to Town [Germany, Italy, Japan]: This is unironically the best song sung by this trio; can only vibe with for two months out of the year though.

31.  Excuse Me, I Am Sorry [Japan]: Japan’s character traits speedrun. Gives me barbershop quartet vibes for some reason but is catchy as hell.

30.  The Story of Snow and Dreams [Russia]: A superhero anime opening in the making

29. England’s Evil Demon Summoning Song [England]: Sir that is not how you roast a marshmallow, don’t cut yourself on that edge.

28.  Moi Moi Sauna♪ [Finland]: Exactly the type of song you’d expect and it’s wonderful

27.  United Nations Star⭐ [America, China, England, France, Russia]: This isn’t as much of a song as it is a four minute struggle for everyone to sing without America yelling every 5 seconds...Like a particularly musical episode of Hetalia.

26.  Paris is Indeed Splendid [France]: Paris-pa-pa-pa-paris

25.  Absolutely Invincible British Gentleman [England]: Poppy, rocky, polka-dotty

24.  Vorwärts Marsch! [Germany]: To quote the comment section: “This sounds like a German version of I’ll Make a Man out of you.” There’s some truth to that.

23.  Hamburger Street [America]: The product of America’s rapper phase. 8/10 because he’s trying so hard and because I can unironically sing along to all of this.

22.  Hoi Sam☆Nice Guy [Hong Kong]: A song that would absolutely destroy the ankles of anyone in DDR.

21.  I Am German-Made [Germany]: There was once a version that had Germany and Prussia singing at the same time and it sounded positively demonic and Broadway could never

20.  La pasión no se detiene ~Unstoppable Passion~ [Spain]: Talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show-stopping...

19.  Fall in Love, Mademoiselle [France]: Sounds like it should be in Mozart Opera Rock, I have kiss kiss falled in love.

18. Embrace the Très Bien Moi [France]: This is the definition of SELF LOVE PEOPLE. 

17. Carrot and Stick [Belarus&Ukraine]: Absolutely DRIPPING in 2000s power ballad energy. The type of song that plays on repeat in the mind of the widow whose millionaire husband ‘mysteriously disappeared’ (and the only legit character song ever acknowledged by the anime)

16. C.B.C (Cowboyz Boot Camp) Vol. 1 [America]: AH MAH GAWWDDD

15. Winter [Russia]: Heavy metal fever dream and the perfect song for an angst-ridden teenager

14.  Seychelles Here ⭐ Vacation Island [Seychelles]: UN👏DER👏RA👏TED SONG👏OF 👏THE 👏SUM👏MER👏

13.  Nah, it will settle itself somehow [Romano]: One day I aspire to reach this level of chill

12.  Let’s Enjoy Today [England]: I will never not feel happy when listening to this.

11.  Einsamkeit [Germany]: Ludwig manages to air every single one of his worries about not being good enough compared to his friends and always being perceived as mean or uptight when he’s actually just a softie and now my heart hurts. 💔

10.  Aiyaa Four Thousand Years [China]: A very poignant and beautiful song about the passage of time and the inevitability of its passing; comparable to an ancient ballad complete with explosive crescendos and meaningful lyrics.

9.  Bon Bon Bon❤️C’est Bon C’est Bon! [France]: Peppy, cheerful, adorable, groundbreaking; has been my alarm tone for six years and I’ve yet to tire of it. 9/10 The moaning interspersed throughout has been an interesting wake-up call.

8.  Let’s Enjoy! Let’s Get Excited! Cheers! [Denmark]: This is on par with Everytime we Touch by Cascada in terms of rage potential unlocked (the good kind)

7.  Dream Journey [Japan]: Whoever’s playing the shakuhachi is absolutely KILLING IT. Dramatic, wonderful, great metaphors.

6.  Gourmet’s Heart Beginner Level [China]: Absolute banger, I’m a vegetarian but this would inspire me to eat shumai.

5.  Always with you...Nordic Five! [Nordic FIVVVVVEEEE]: Everyone harmonizes beautifully except for Denmark. Extremely catchy, number placement seemed appropriate. 

4.  Pub and GO! [England]: I love this trash man

3. Maji Kandou⭐Hong Kong Night [Hong Kong]: If you thought Denmark’s song was a banger JUST YOU WAIT. I WILL BLOW OUT MY SPEAKERS LISTENING TO LO-HA-SU.

2. Steady Rhythmus [Germany]: THIS SONG IS METAL AF. Seriously, if it can be classified as ‘hardcore’ by my father and his group of 50-somethings who have decided to single-handedly gatekeep the metal and hardrock genres, it can do anything.

1.  The Delicious Tomato Song 🍅 [Romano]: Beautiful, absolutely awe-inspiring, poignant, catchy lyrics with an extremely deep meaning that only years of meticulous research and analysis can unlock, Romano I love you.

BONUS: Closing Songs

5. Hatafutte Parade (World Series) 

4. Hetalian⭐Jet (The World Twinkle): The song is good, the dancing is cursed 

3. Chikyuu Marugoto Hug Shitainda (World⭐Stars)

2. Marukaite Chikyuu (Hetalia: Axis Powers): nE NE PaPA

1. Mawaru Chikyuu Rondo (The Beautiful World)