#the Child is me and I am the Child still
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the child inside me that's hurting wants ART
the child wants me to create art
to express myself
to be creative
and so I wrote a poem and tried to write another one but failed because I wanted it to have a nice rhythm but it was too complex of a task for me
but like
I'm not giving up on that
I'm not giving up on that child
child, please know that I care about you and I REMEMBER YOU
you're not alone anymore
but I'm finding it hard to take care of myself oftentimes so I won't be the best guardian and friend all the time
(do you even need a guardian, Child? you seem pretty self-reliant. but maybe that's because you had to be)
I'm learning
we'll get there one day
and maybe you won't be sad all the time anymore
or maybe you will be
and that's fine too
I've come to terms with accepting the sadness to be eternal
if it turns out to be
I'm ready for both outcomes
#no typos this time#personal#txt#mental health#mental illness#positive mental attitude#positive vibes#creativity#poetry#inner child#therapy#trauma#ptsd#cptsd#the needs of my inner child are important to me#the Child is me and I am the Child still#I've never left that state I got when I was <10 years old#oh the Child was so alone#the Child was scared#the Child felt unwanted#the Child felt like an annoying disturbance#and I still feel this way but I am learning#I swear I'm learning#but it's hard#sometimes I want to give up#and that's fine too#progress isn’t linear#progress is being made#art#oh I'm suddenly so fucking sad again
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I'll give them shelter like you've done for me
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi fushiguro#yuji itadori#itafushi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#jjk art#fushiguro tsumiki#took all afternoon but we wrangled the colours in2 submission#it was looking very green and kind of muddy#so i toned down the saturation in a bunch of places pulled in a lot more grey#kept a lot of the shadows Hard#i think it works#not sure it's the absolute best it cld be but i am Satisfied with it#overall i ws just kind of worried that it was looking rly similar to past pieces colour-wise#i think it kind of still Is but not as much as it would have been had i not made those edits#anyway. emo hours#ive been listening to jubyphonic's piano arr of shelter and thinking abt megumi#thinking abt him growing up n looking back on himself n seeing himself in tht lonely little boy#'it's a long way forward so trust in me' smth smth finding the strength to guide that kid forward even though both of u are scared#bc at the end of the day u Are still that kid#inner child stuff usually doesnt resonate much with me bc i don't like who i was/am/whatever this aint abt me#but in regards to megumi????? OW#in lighter news i remembered at the absolute last minute to lob off the top of yuuji's ear#bc that injury at least i think he keeps ghfssdfhfgsj
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🌕Total Eclipse🌑
Writer: @zipzapzooooooom Editor: @onawhimsicot
Assistance: @gingermaple @kunehokki @corvidaearts @/mybrotherjoso7
and THE AMAZING COVER by googly88fancy!!
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NO WAY HERE IT IS part 1 of MY TEAM'S COMIC!! FOR @hotguycomiczine !!!!! :D
I pour my blood sweat and tears into this one fr. HGCZ is the most insane project i've been in and I am so so proud of it <3 Big giant shoutout to everyone that ended up in my team, without any of you I couldn't have done it and ty for putting up with my shit HASHDSAEHEGLP. <333
If you haven't yet checked out the entire monster of this amazing zine, def do so here! 🏹
Part 2 will be posted tmr but if u dont want to left on a cliffhanger. pspsppspssps🪤
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#hotguy comics zine#hgcz#hgcz spoilers#goodtimeswithscar#grian#impulsesv#geminitay#pearlescentmoon#desert duo#hotguy#cuteguy#i mean what where's cg i only see grian-💥#hermitcraft#hermitblr#my art#comic#GOD I LOVE THIS PROJECT SM UEUAHEUAUFE TYPING THESE MADE ME EMOTIONAL AGAIN LMAO#there's so many behind the scenes stuff i can post now HASJHEJE I'll get on to it later maybe!! :D#bug beloved. my bastard child. still cant believe the team ended up letting me do the final design tbh i am so honored i love this lil guy#and GIANT ASS SHOUTOUT TO ZZ THIS WAS THE *BEST* IDEA EVERRRRRR HEHEEHHEE#ok i WILL stop rambling but!!!! please please please check out the whole zine if u havent already. it is just. phenomenal#<3
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more Greed Island Gon AU
#greed island gon au#hxh#hunter x hunter#gon freecs#list hxh#razor hxh#killua zoldyck#killugon#dwun hxh#greed island#i am delighted people enjoyed this au#I have way too much ideas for it (still no clear plot tho-)#it's very important to me that the game masters love gon but they have negative idea on how to raise a child
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they really put alicent in bridgerton blue on the reunion and genuinely expected me to think that she didn’t in fact march all the way to dragonstone to get wifed up? bfr
#I am only a girl living in a society#I make connections#she looks so pretty in blue though I want more#also you’re telling me that rhaenyra saw her walk in all cute looking to not completely crumble at the sight of her?#like my girl got all dolled up for you do something#rhaenyra IS a puppy dog when it comes to those bambi eyes shut up#Alicent was like you think you want her? I’m the love of your life you moron#and rhaenyra is like I KNOW#like she’s been trying to get the other woman to realize that very thing for the last 15+ years#and alicent’s all heartbroken like oh so you’re taking her to wife#and rhaenyra is like nO? WHAT?? all dumb and speechless cause jealous alicent was definitely not on her bingo card this year#whilst also having her own mental breakdown#because how on earth is she meant to explain this to her councel#or jace for that matter#that sure was goint to be a fun future conversation to have with her heir#but also Alicent just strutted into the room and started acting like a scorned wife?#which left rhaenyra feeling like the asshole parent who stopped paying for child support after the divorce#but also she never wanted a divorce in the first place?? and alicent doesn’t seem to get this?#like she’s already figuring out how to most efficiently empty daemon’s chambers for the woman to move in permanently#but alicent’s still yapping off about not having a place in court anymore and fleeing across the sea#and rhaenyra can’t help the bitter taste in her mouth as she states how that ship came in a little too late for them and it is messyyyy#hotd leaks#house of the dragon leaks#hotd spoilers#house of the dragon#house of the dragon spoilers#rhaenicent#alicent hightower#rhaenyra targaryen#bridgerton
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"I have many fears, most of them about Lucrezia." — Cesare Borgia (The Borgias, 2011-2013) + hints of insecurity
that she adores someone that much / if she will reject his dark nature and act of love and violence as Ursula did / if he truly is not part of her desires / that she easily forgets him
#i have so many thoughts on these two#hes such a clingy brother wth#as much as he soothes her it is only by asking lucrezia verbally or#by looking at her that his fears and insecurities in her life can be soothed#cesare torn between - being relieved she had some joy in the ruthless marriage he had no power to prevent and did not even want to bless#or being envious there is someone else now when his little sister once said she will not love anyone as much as she loves him#but Accepting it anyways because it is impossible loves and maybe he is starting to become aware his love falls in this same category.#“should i envy this narcissus low-born who shall never see you again because of his impossible love for you when i love you just the same?”#the knife more surprise than fear. in a time when he did not love himself...“she accepts me as i am? as i do her”#biting her as if another black panther pet looking for reassurance that their love#that HE is still included in her perfect world even if he himself pulls away#“surely you're in agony as much as i am? are you already satisfied with your child and husband if we cannot share our love openly?”#“your eyes drift to mine when you say 'husband' am i not he? do you see me as so even when it was just 'tonight'?”#and then his sudden gaze as if to look for truth because how can she forget him when he only thinks of her#AND AGAIN pulling away being eaten by shame and guilt of corrupting her (when their relationship is not just his doing)#torn between hope (we have the capacity to forget and move on) and hope (our love has that much devil power over her)#cesare as the god or the devil or whatever it is that overwhelms whether at war or in love#cesare is one confident man and even if his insecurities has layers of righteousness and importance..it is still insecurity nonetheless#and only for lucrezia#lucrezia borgia#cesare borgia#cesare x lucrezia#the borgias#dailyborgia#perioddramaedit#perioddramasource#weloveperioddrama#onlyperioddramas#romancegifs#the borgiasedit
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Warriors and Cinderella! I love that you all voted for me to pair them together! Not only are they both ✨ fabulous ✨ but they both value hard work, know what it is like to rise up in the social ladder (from servant to princess/queen, from knight to captain), and both know the importance of courage and kindness!
I feel like Cinderella is also very proper, very composed, polite, and sweet, and I think Wars would really respect that, especially in contrast to Cia (*shudders*).
My favorite part of this one is definitely Cinderella's dress, I would loveeeee to have a dress just like it and it is very self-indulgent lol. I made Cinderella a princess/queen here, like she has already married her Prince Charming and lives with him in the palace.
Warriors, as a Captain, would likely be extremely respectful in her presence, though the other boys might cause a bit of trouble, which would likely cause poor Wars a bit of anxiety lol.
Anyways, I hope you all like this one! Thanks for all of your support on this series! You all are so sweet and I feel so blessed by your encouragement and kindness!! Have a lovely day! 🩵
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu warriors#cinderella#disney princess x lu#myart#digital art#eeeee this was so fun!#the background took the longest#still not sure how i feel about it but it was definitely a great way to experiment with different brushes layer settings etc#you guys i am so excited for christmas!!#i may or may not be brainstorming a themed art piece ;)#thanks for voting on the polls! i love seeing your thoughts and i so appreciate when you all contribute!!#every time i get an activity notification it just makes me smile :)#my little sister said that wars has sigma rizz#and i was just like in gen z terms we call that handsome you tiny brain rotted child 😂😭#hyrule warriors
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You know, the AAI2 fandom’s insistence on referring to the characters by their fan localized names we’ve had for like a decade instead of the ones we received this week is really funny. It almost reminds me of something…
God damn it.
#ace attorney#aai#aai2#aa investigations#aai collection#ace attorney series#ace attorney shitpost#ace attorney posting#ace attorney investigations#yumihiko ichiyanagi#sebastian debeste#eustace winner#courage the cowardly dog#raymond shields#eddie fender#justine courtney#verity gavelle#real talk: the name Eustace is kind of growing on me. it has the even more pathetic energy than both Yumihiko/Sebastian.#still prefer the fan names though.#that and since I’m a microbiology major I know that ‘eu-‘ as a prefix in biology usually means ‘true’ so it connects to Verity/Justine#and I think that’s kinda cute :)#winner however can go burn.#Eustace will never replace Sebastian I am simply adding it to my list of names to refer to the kid.#<- a list which so far includes: 4kids Akechi. Laywer Iruma-kun. Fluffy Little Bastard. Tall Child. Disconnected Tellytubby. Herr Fluffy.#and now Eustace and Stacey have been added to the mix.#what are some others please add.
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If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)
#maybe one day i'll write that au i have sitting in my head#ever since the comment he made about making kuwa spirit detective instead ive been thinking about it#like...what if yusuke is still recruited same as canon but like#kuwa was already spirit detective? doing assignments for the guys upstairs and all#and they made yusuke help him after his resurrection instead of going solo#and it's hilarious because they still have the ''rivalry'' set in place so it's like#now i gotta be coworkers with this guy i was in a fist fight with last week?#yusuke is like you can't be serious you want me to fight DEMONS with the guy who cant even beat ME? lmaooo okay#kuwa would be more in tune with his powers atp in this au and super offended like hello#why would i use my reiki on a FELLOW HUMAN CHILD you DICK i can hold my own on my assignments just fine#but he's actually really excited to be able to spend time with yusuke doing something besides getting his ass handed to him#they're both genkai's students (she's endlessly annoyed but they grow on her)#i just think it'd be fun cos like#it'd be harder to exclude kazuma from shit if he's literally been involved in this shit before he even met#kurama and hiei#kuwabara isn't really told about yusuke's resurrection so things go mostly the same up til he's brought back#they're both called to koenma's office and it's the spiderman pointing meme 💀#it's koenma's first time seeing kuwa in person as he usually just sends assignments with botan#yusuke has already seen him cos of the resurrection arc#and koenma is SUCH a fanboy ''kuwabara it's such a pleasure. you know you're my best worker 🥺''#''um urameshi am i seeing things or is that a fuckin baby'' yusuke will NOT stop laughing#it fucks koenma up so bad he makes sure he's in his adult form when he's around kuwa next#cos he wants to be the respected boss but also guy that you can chill with!! he's so cringe#okay yeah i need to write this it's such a fun concept#kuwameshi#yu yu hakusho#kuwabara kazuma#yusuke urameshi#koenma
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one gif from every Neve romance scene 🩵
#dragon age#datv#dragon age the veilguard#datv spoilers#neve gallus#neve x rook#daedit#dragonageedit#datvedit#gamingedit#vgedit#videogameedit#tuserhev#my edits#my post#neve x myri#myriani ingellvar#👉👈 this took me all day bc I had to keep getting up to pace due to feeling insane about them#also im still VERY new to coloring gifs and learning photopea's editing abilities so. please be kind sdkfhksjhf#im trying to get better at coloring but ive only been making gifs for like. four months. so i am as if a baby. as if a child.#anyways. bone apple teeth etc love u guys off to go feel clinical about this game
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the Riordanverse books really went from Chiron dramatically going “oh atheist ppl experience exactly what they expect [nothing] after death, isn’t that so sad??” (in such a tone that’s def very belittling to atheist ppl) to “Local Bostonian Atheist is forcibly dragged to a Viking Afterlife after being straight-up killed at 15”
I do not know if this direction is better but it sure is goofy
#and the only reason I remember the Chiron line is bc I was like 7 or something and was like OH NO MY FRIENDS GONNA END UP IN A DIFF#AFTERLIFE WHAT THE HELL#not art#does does anyone remember this#am I alone#riordanverse#rick riordan#and to be clear I still love these books it’s just something I noticed#percy jackson#magnus chase#I could also b wrong abt who says what line#but there was a line about this it scarred me as a child
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I'm so annoyed. @kingcrow01 tumblr ate your ask about Danny's opinion on the League. tumblr i pressed 'save draft' why didn't you sAVE DRAFT.
ANyways I'm making a post instead. For everyone else, the ask was in summary:
What was Danny's opinion on the League now that he's left it? If he missed the familiarity of it, if he recognized the cult-like behavior inside it, and if he now detested his grandfather.
And to answer (again, grrr): It's complicated! We love complicated <3. Yeah, Danny does miss the familiarity of the League, it was still his home for the first ten years of his life and he has a lot of memories there. Plenty of good along with the bad, and while he's less homesick than he was when he was 10, it still hits him like a truck at random intervals.
Sam, Tucker, and Jazz are great, and he likes the Drs. Fentons enough that he's contemplated murdering Vlad for his meddling, but if he wants to eat the same food his mother used to make him and Damian, he has to do it himself and he can't get the taste right. No one knows arabic so he speaks it to himself because he doesn't want to forget his mother tongue, and he has a few books too. Frankly? He genuinely misses training.
Getting to use Sam's gym helps with his restlessness, same with training with Maddie, but he has no one on or above his level to go against other than his mother. And he only sees her twice a year at most. He knows that he's getting stagnant and he fucking despises it like a bad itch he can't scratch.
He feels conflicted about missing the League, however, since by now he recognizes the flaws and what was wrong with it, and he recognizes that it was cult-like. But even that is kinda, hrm, complicated? If this was a fic I would be able to go better into depth about what he has and hasn't unlearned because cult deprogramming is hard and Danny's doing most of this on his own.
Sam, Tucker, and Jazz have helped with the more obvious stuff: like the ecofascism, the disregard for human life, his emotional constipation; the more obvious stuff that shows in his behavior and personality. But none of them are professionals nor do they actually know the full extent of what Danny's life in the League was like. They only have snapshots since Danyal is very tight lipped about it. So they can only help with what they see themselves through Danny's behavior or word of mouth.
But in summary: He sees, for the most part, what's wrong with the League and disagrees with some of the stuff they do now. But he's very conflicted, and trying to dissect his feelings on the League confuses him. His protests about it whenever Sam and Tucker joke about it have at this point become mostly empty (altho it still causes him some discomfort), and its an inside joke between them three.
As for Ra's? Despises him. If only because Ra's wanted him to kill his little brother -- thinking about his motives with the League confuses Danny, cognitive dissonance and stuff, -- a lot of his hatred stems from "He wanted me to fight my baby brother to the death. I destroyed my relationship with Damian because of him, I had to fake my death and leave my home, and I will never meet my father or see my brother again because of him. Fuck that guy."
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#danyal al ghul au#starry asks#demon siblings au#danny's opinions on the league is rather complicated but he knows that some of the stuff that happened inside was wrong. and while he's#always known that his upbringing wasn't normal -- and he took pride in that -- its only in recent years that he's learned that#this was a *bad* thing. that his upbringing was wrong. he's still kinda grappling with that.#danny's homesickness hits the worst when he's patching himself up from a ghost fight alone. stitching up his throat in his ghost form when#he gets hit with a deep child-like grief and the unwitting 'i wanna go home'. he's exhausted and sad and hurting and fucking *tired*#good mom talia al ghul supremacy. she's trying her best.#but yeah sam and tucker did a lot of good for Danny by becoming his friend. he's a lot better off than he would've been if he remained alon#'a child not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth' type of stuff. danny's aware of this and is incredibly grateful#for sam and tucker. and as a result can and will get violently protective. his moral code on killing can be summed up as: i dont kill bc i#value human life and it's inconvenient. but i will do it without remorse if i must.#vlad is only still alive because he's incompetent. but the ice is thin#catch me about to make an incorrect quotes post about this au. i am so close.
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GUYS i went on a date and i already showed her my HPCC presentation… i think i won her over
#must of worked coz she is still talking to me#in my defence she actually wanted to hear about it#next is to force her to watch it#also got her into imogen heap#i am absolutely convincing her to be a fan!!#hpcc#cursed child#harry potter and the cursed child#scorbus#harry potter
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Happy Birthday, Rasputin!!
#destiny#destiny 2#destiny the game#bungie#destiny art#season of the seraph#ana bray#anastasia bray#elsie bray#elisabeth bray#exo stranger#warmind rasputin#I STILL HAVE TWO PAGES LEFT TO DO FOR THIS WEEK RELATED TO THESE ONES BUT I'LL LEAVE FOR LATER#BC I AM TIRED AND I BARELY HAVE ARMS LEFT JKXCHXZCOZXCBINIOX#'clovis bray has deceived you' me: WOW HOLYSH WHO COULD EVER--'#'i was built to take the traveler's place' me: //disk scratch// wAIT HOL D ON WH A T#rasputin cursing clovis... definitely a bray child#ana doing her best to teach culture for rasputin and then comes his aunt to teach him the right words#fun fact the rhulk emote was a last second idea dfghjk i wanted the young wolf to step in dramatically#but then i blinked and 'wow looks like the rhulk kick... what if i--' sdfghjk it doesnt make sense but maybe thats the point#good things of being a middle child-- i know exactly how elder siblings brag on younger ones and how younger ones are 'ok alright stop'#HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE HOPE YOU ALL ALSO HAVE LIKED MY DAWNING COMIC!#BC I DID THESE TWO POSTS IN A SPAM OF A WEEK OR TWO idk how to count anymore xcjhxjbiucz#comic
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Listen, both Yu Ziyuan and Jiang Fengmian were shitty parents that fucked their kids (& wwx) up in various different ways. But I will forever be more sympathetic to a frustrated woman in a patriarchal society stuck in a toxic marriage than to the man who has power and authority to change something but refuses to do it because he doesn't like conflict and pretends like nothing is wrong.
#also i am convinced that yzy was pressured into marrying jfm by her family#because even before wwx was there she had people call her madam yu instead of madam jiang which is the title she is entitled to#and frequently went on nighthunts to get away from her life in lotus pier#yu ziyuan#jiang fengmian#mdzs#let me be very clear though yzy still took her valid frustrations out on a child which is fucked up and wrong#what she did was abuse#but i get why she was angry#i do not get why jfm was so crappy to his children and honestly incredibly unfair to wwx#i might eleborate further with textual evidence if someone's interested
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Growing up with strict, neurodivergent parents while neurodivergent yourself will have you as an adult acting like you've recently escaped the feywild. What are the tricky rules? Is everything accounted for? How do I ensure I don't accidentally step over the line into Impoliteness. You know the consequences aren't death and dismemberment but you might look down one day and find you've lost your shadow and all of your friends if you're not careful
#this post motivated by getting frozen yogurt with friends#and they tried to pay for me and I said I thought I was paying for myself#because I didn't know the acceptable amount and couldn't see their cups#so instead of risking having gotten too much and stepping over the invisible boundary of what it was okay to let them pay for#I played it safe and paid for myself#which is sometimes a risky play because it's rude to refuse a gift#but I said I thought I was paying for myself#implying I didn't know it was a gift and therefore am not refusing but rather not in a position to accept#because I'm a scared little child inside who wasn't allowed to get a small but was still hungry after having a baby size#or am I a refugee of the faewilds trying to lawyer my way through all of these rules nobody else talks about lmao#neurodivergent#neurodiversity#fae#fey#feywilds#socially awkward#social rules#politeness#idk how to tag things and I've been here like five years now send help
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