#am I alone

[kabrukisser]

i know senshi tulpa for eating better is rly good and well known, and so is chilchuck union worker tulpa and i also have both spinning in my head from time to time but. i can';t be the only one who has kabru going "you'll find new things to desire/enjoy" in my head when i'm havin a shite day

[mappingthesky]

me and the need to write the most bone crushing lesbian au inspired by ‘yellow is the color of her eyes’ and it’s jane looking out the window of an aircraft over the ocean and being absolutely tortured by her own feelings for nymphia. it’s a liminal space where she lets herself feel and it’s a gut wrenching 12 hours. does anyone know what i’m talking about.

[mrzombielover]

would lowkey smash s1 chemistry teacher walter white

[ashleyasha]

I don't know how to snap my fingers and I don't know how to blow a bubble with bubblegum

[ruinhood]

any other autistic person here like strong flavors

[vivian-pascal]

anyone else hear about the new tumblr community thing?

[gothvince]

does anybody remember cheeky nandos

[doverstar]

I think there's a right way and a wrong way to do everything - and that includes writing fic to an extent. Like, yes, it's your story and you write it how you want to write it and it should be self-indulgent in a sense because it is just you having fun and still working hard (working so hard), but if it's not at least somewhat true to the source material in tone and characterization, it's not a fanfic, it's an original story you're writing with your own characters; you just used all the same names/settings/general character statuses as your favorite show/movie/book/game. You know? Like I feel like it can be its own art form (it IS its own art form) if you can take what someone else made that you love and make it even more enjoyable by honoring what's great about the source material instead of twisting it up? Right?

[imhereonthekitchenfloor]

Whenever I listen to Invisible String I imagine this literal "invisible string" across Centennial Park tying Taylor to some mysterious far away person and people are tripping over it and she's just chilling reading her book

[the-apocrypha]

Watching TSwift in the Eras Tour movie belt out songs she wrote in high school with her whole heart in front of a hundred thousand people, and I'm thinking about how I can't even reread a fic I wrote last year without my soul leaving my body

[thesmithslover2]

do any other autistic people spend hours on youtube playlists listening to patriotic/political songs and military marches?? independent of your personal politics, just because those prussians could make an incredible military march

[caspiansrecovery]

Am I the only one who still uses tumblr on their computer sometimes?? Reblog if you sometimes use this silly site on a computer/laptop! I must know I'm not alone!

[slaygentford]

am I the only person who doesn't like Anna Netrebko

[welldressedtarantula]

Am I really alone or am I just lonely?

It's weird to feel alone even when you are surronded by friends and family, surronded by love, but still you feel like you are alone.

It's not like I don't have someone to talk to, someone to laugh, to live, but even when I'm with them I still feel like I'm missing something, someone.

I'm just to into Alice Oseman's book that I'll put a part that maybe will try to give some light into this process of thinking:

"It was so easy to romanticise romance beacuse it was everywhere. It was in music and on TV and filtered Instagram photos. It was in the air, crips and alive with fresh possibility. It was in falling loeaves, crumbling wooden doorways, scuffed cobblestones and fields of dandelions. It was in the touch of hands, screwled letters, crumpled sheets and the golden hour. A soft yawn, early morning laughter, shoes lined up togheter by the door. Eyes across a dance floor.

I could see it all, all the time, all around, but when I got closer, I found that nothing was there. A mirage" - Loveless, Alice Oseman

Sometimes everything seems like a mirage, maybe it's because of my sexuallity, maybe it's because of the way I deal with love, maybe it's because of all of the fanfiction I read when I was 12 till almost 20y. Maybe is because of my self-esteem, maybe it's because of my traume, even maybe it's because of the type of people that are publically put as attractive, and I'm not one of those people, this it's not my body or the way i act.

It's so fucking hard to try and be vunerable to love, even friend love. I want to have this experience, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to (I have a therapist, keep calm).

Maybe writing and putting everything down is gonna help me see things more crearlly.

Maybe not

But I'm willing to see if this horrible feeling will eventually leave me be.

Am I alone?

Am I just lonely?

I don't know, but - as hard as it is - I'm willing to see if I can find love and company with myself before looking for it in other people, situations and realizations.

[sophies-junkyard]

I’m in the South. I’ve got ears to the ground. Republicans are SWEATING at the prospect of Kamala being nominated. They’re not sure Trump can beat her.

Let’s prove them right.

[commanderalanfrog]

Guys???? What the fuck?…