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Can my anxiety and intrusive thoughts leave me alone, I'm already dreading starting a new medication next Monday as it is.
GODS
All I want to do is write, play video games and hang out with my cule goddds fucking damnit.
#vent#im so done#one day without my brain attacking itself please#thats all i fucking ask for#im not ready to really explore the possibility of ocd but also starting to see what people mean when they suggest it#this week has been rough#vaxxy vents
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[Day 365 | Ref to Day 1]
And that's a wrap 🪻🥀
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fhksjdkwjw ITS OVER. ITS OVERRRRR I MADE ITTTTT
Screaming and losing it. It only started to feel real as I'm posting this rn HRKSJAKSJLELH. A year... 365 pieces (probably a bit less bc I did post wips?) of desert duo... I would make a collage maybe but its prob a lot of work HJASKDHAHEHW
🫵 @vesperionnox @cherrysherin without u guys I wouldn't have been here <3 This challenge kinda became its own thing at some point, but I didn't forget where I started :D
💥💥💥 AAA I hope you guys enjoyed this challenge as much as I did!! but also WOOOOOOOOOOOOO FREEDOM. I WILL DEF STILL BE DRAWING DESERTDUO THO LOL BUT LETS FREAKING GO ONE YEARRRR
#dddaily4sherin#desert duo#grian#goodtimeswithscar#3rd life#third life#third life smp#traffic smp#trafficblr#my art#quite happy with how these came out too. esp grian :D#I feel crazy#:DDD YIPPEE#i feel like i should say more things tbh but all thats on my mind is holyshit i can fucking play minecraft#+ holyshit I can make The Bug real in minecraft /ref hgcz HASHDAHSHEBA#putting this in the tags too im thinkinggggg i could make some of the ddds into posters or prints later?#i will look into it and ask u guys a bit more officially later but ye if anyones interested :D
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whenever people say that they dont think the crows act like teenagers i have to laugh because. like. as a teenager. they do. they're relatively mature because they're all severely traumatized and had to grow up fast (also because considering the time period it's based on it's completely reasonable for younger kids to be expected to do more) but they still act like teenagers. i've seen a bunch of people mention the "my ghost wont associate with your ghost" convo and "pay someone to pay someone to burn your kruge" but also, Jesper makes multiple sex jokes. Inej purposefully takes the harder route Kaz can't handle so he'll let her go alone. Wylan complains about pretty much everything. Nina spends most of the first book needling and pissing off her ex because she enjoys it. Kaz spends half his energy trying to be mysterious and cool. Matthias calls Kaz a demon for most of the books because he doesn't like him. Kuwei uses the fact that he looks like his crush's crush to kiss his crush. he also pretends he doesn't know Kerch because he didnt want to talk to people.
and, hands down the most teenager scene in the entire duology, Kaz and Jesper get in an argument and start a fucking fist fight. they are literally rolling on the ground punching each other. and everyone just fucking stands there. watching. Wylan wants someone to stop them but no one does. because they're not actively trying to kill each other. so whatever its fine. and then afterwards they're besties again. that is how 99% of the fights at my school go my dude, they are SUCH teenagers.
#every time someone says leigh clearly wanted to age up her characters it's like yall. just say you havent talked to a teenager in years#i could go on#wylan pauses in the middle of a fucking heist to ask his crush if hes gay or not#inej actively tries to sneak up on kaz for funsies#nina repeatedly insults kaz's haircut#anyway thats all for now#jesper fahey#inej ghafa#wylan van eck#wylan hendriks#nina zenik#kaz brekker#matthias helvar#six of crows#crooked kingdom#shadow and bone tv
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fyi, Ukraine actually maintains a website with publicly available lists of their financial/material support and expenses.
anyone can also use it to donate to any specific part of Ukraine's war effort directly. in case any nations leaders recently humiliated their country globally, or something.
#ramble#cw politics#ukraine#zelensky#its a weird time in which we crowdfund war. is what i would say if we hadnt been doing that for ages. war bonds and stuff#although usually thats for your local war and home country#also obviously money is tight for pretty much all of us and theres a lot of important causes out there that need support#i trust you to make informed choices with your finances. this is just one of the options i wanted to inform about#for fairly obvious reasons#incredibly impressed by zelenskyys ability to not just say “what the fuck are you talking about” or decking one of them#holy shit the disrespect in that conversation. i wouldve punched em both AND the guy asking about suits#current events
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part 1 (on VA and being better than humans)
part 2 (on welt and being just a human)
#remember how in second eruption welt keeps getting covered in blood edgelord style whenever he fights??? yeah#wait first off#hi3#honkai impact 3rd#welt yang#void archives#voidwelt#my doodles#okay anyways. VA isnt human but they haven't been in a “human” body for very long so i reckon there's a lot of new experiences to make#and. i dont think he gets to be dignified enough NOT to be whiny about it. cmon. itd be so funny#second of all sure welt is human but that dude's real used to not giving a shit abt how he's doing and acting like a robot instead of a per#cuz he's got more “important” shit to do#(that's so fucking real of him man ME TOO BESTIE)#also as i told kai: that last panel is not a look of surprise or horror. i tagged this as voidwelt for a reason#i think we all know what kinda look this is#edit: and why tf would they be fighting sky people? why can they bleed? dont ask me im here to draw gay people covered in blood#edit 2: oh my god i didnt add the blood in the first panel. THATS WHAT THE JOKE REVOLVES AROUND???
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what if i wrote a “shen yuan transmigrates into a wife” oneshot but the whole premise is based on the song “gone, i’m gone” from hadestown and its overall theme is wanderlust and freedom and it starts out as Shen Yuan settling into life in the palace and trying to avoid harem drama and thinking he can just live with his head down for the rest of his new life, only to be hit with a sudden intense yearning to explore his new world the likes he’s never felt before. What if he was sickly in his last life. What if he spent his entire last life indoors. Trapped between four walls. What if love is not a gilded cage. What if he begins clawing at the walls of his enclosure, desperate to escape because he wants to live, god please let him live. He can’t do this again. What if he spent months preparing for his escape and in that same breath getting the attention of some of the other wives around him because he has changed and it makes them wary. what if he got binghe’s attention as he is wont to do. What if he left. What if Shen Yuan was born with a bottomless pit in his stomach and a gaping maw in his chest. What if he was starving. What if he was starving for the world around him. What if i wrote that. What then
#svsss#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#scum villain#scum villain au#scum villans self saving system#svsss au#luo binghe#luo bingge#its the same wife transmigration plot no.143 but its starry coded#and what if i made it a songfic what then. what if i titled it ‘love is not a gilded cage’#what if there was no system in this au. just shen yuan on his own#and what if i made it part of a oneshot series with each oneshot depicting an adventure shen yuan goes on#he will eventually find his way back to binghe but not before he finds himself first#what if starry went the fuck to bed#what if the wife he ended up as was someone childish or loud or considered naive and then suddenly she’s not bc she’s sy now#and he has no system and he’s alone with no allies and he is STARVING. he is ravenous. he wants to see the world please let him see the wor#world. let him out please please please please#all the wealth within these walls could never buy the thing called love#he cares for binghe greatly. thats his fave character! but he wants out please let him out. you wont even notice he’s gone orpheus#you’ll find another muse somewhere.#luo bingge is a good hunter but shen yuan is a good hider.#i want ning yingying to find sy in the gardens one day and suddenly see her shizun. sy wanted to try doing sqq’s signature move bc it#seemed simple and easy enough and nyy saw him. and she asks him where he learned that. and he panics and lies and says in a dream somewhere#gnaws on the bars of my cage
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Wasn't able to post anything this month so have these for now🥹
#still doing the remaining survivors but fucking art block is so shit I can barely move again 😭😭#idk I kinda lost motivation and me and my irl friends are doing VTM so was kinda busy from that as well xdd#wanna do like still same poses but some are way different#or most of them at least#thats all I can say for noww#feel free to drop by in ask box or somethin want to answer somethin aaaa#//#wip#l4d2#l4d#sfm
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I’m with you, my love The lights shining through on you Yes, I’m with you, my love It’s the morning and just we two
#spike btvs#spuffy#spuffyedit#btvs#btvsedit#buffy the vampire slayer#it's terribly simple#you know you want to dance#injuries cw#bites and chews and gnaws on anyone who says buffy didnt love spike. BITES and CHEWS and GNAWS on them.#like is that not the whole point? of him? of his entire character arc? of his burning to ash as he breaks the sunnydale high school#(AKA buffy's personal cage within the slayer's cage that was sunnydale itself AKA the place where he and buffy first ever fought#and he nearly killed her for the very first time but was foiled by the immense love someone felt for her) as he breaks that place to rubble#in a way also very reminiscent of the first time they slept together and Literally Fucked A Building Down. anyway as he's doing ALL OF THAT#like sure she doesnt HAVE to love him she doesnt owe him anything and even if she did love isnt about obligation. but when buffy says#that she loves him in that scene. theres nothing to indicate that she doesnt feel it. that she isnt telling the truth.#idk man. people take a man who is dying telling someone not to love him as the gospel truth when i feel like its more ... like maybe he's#making a misguided effort to be kind? he's telling her ''dont get too hung up on the vampire thats about to catch on fire#and get your pretty ass out of here while you still can please.''#whatever. WHATEVER. in the perfect btvs that lives in my head most of ats isnt canon but esp the part where spike comes back and doesnt#immediately 1. ASK IF DAWN WAS OKAY 2. upon being told by angel that he cant be put in touch with buffy because [mumbles] misogyny?#go ahead and engage in a flirt campaign at harmony until she breaks down and calls buffy for him. those would be like the FIRST TWO THINGS#that spike did after he came back to unlife. first two things frfr#i'm gonna end the tag rant there. hmm
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i refuse to touch the ground so have a v2
#ULTRAKILL#v2 ultrakill#ultrakill v2#PROCREATE#ALL ART#FANDOM ART#DOODLE#NO COLOUR#THE GEIGER COUNTER#SMALL CAPTION#TAG YAP#moderators !!!! kill this machine with hammers immediately !!!!! /ref#i dangle her around like a mii /aff#man. if i knew who v2 was prior to getting into ultrakill like#the whole reason i got into ultrakill would have been entirely v2#thats because im gay#this is technically how i got hooked on portal.... giant robot ceiling lady.... hi......#“its been 15 years can i please stop liking robots” i asks my brain#“fuck you” says my brain (comma) which was actually the 'fuck you' organ /ref#i dont actually remember why i started playing ultrakill#just thought it was cool looking#best decision of my life. havent had robot yaouri like this in ages. thank you hakita#man..... i............ i need to learn how to paint#dude my mat i need it my body hates the floor#like that one dog online who cant walk on normal floors because of the texture and only walks on mats/rugs/carpet#please. mat. come back to me
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watching dreams stream rn and the way dream always carries out conflict/confrontation conversations with entire paragraphs of stating everything about the situation from his perspective, how it makes him feel, what can be done about it and basically being extremely emotionally intelligent and mature for which the main proof is the message he sent tommy that he showed in the beginning VS tommys portrayal of him being a purposefully slow caricature with 'youre a bully 2x' 'its mine' 'youre the worst person ever' making him seem like a child mentally... same man who called dream 'an actual bastard' for posting a meme with the r slur in it
#YALL ARE SO MAD FOR HIM SAYING THE R SLUR WHEN THATS ALL YOU PORTRAY HIM AS HUH#if theres one fucking person in the world who can reclaim it its dream and i stand by that honestly#*#dreamblr#The Way No One Asked Tommy To Fucking Do This Too#And The Way If Any Of These Ill Hearted Bitches Portrayed Dream The Way He Really Is Thered Be No Question If He Was In The Wrong#the mental gymnastics they have to do in order to make dream seem like a villain#MAKE UP UR MIND IS HE AN EVIL MANIPULATOR OR A RETARD GODS#r slur#hope i made my point clear cus i literally woke up just now
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You know what I love about the kiss? How fucking joyful it was. It was so light and so happy and so freeing.
The confession was so heavy and came at the last possible moment. Dorian was in his lower register, careful and eloquent. Orym had folded in on himself, shy and quiet. They have the weight of the world in their shoulders and they just needed a moment alone together. To say I love you. To let the other know. It all hinged on the moment before there was no going back.
But this. The kiss. It was after laughter and wedding planning and appreciating little things like lavender honey. Everyone was smiling. Everyone was feeling good. For whatever reason it didn't feel hopeless then. In that moment futures existed. Tomorrows existed. And Orym had one. Orym had a future and a tomorrow in Dorian.
Orym was so moved by all the happiness in the air that he confidently took Dorian by the hand to bring him out to the hall, told, then asked, him he was going to kiss him. All of Orym's fears melt away for ten whole seconds. Dorian stuttered and fumbled his words and kissed him back.
It was so cute. It was so joyous.
You know what it reminds me of? The stolen century. After Lup and Barry fall in love over years and years and they play this beautiful duet together. They lock eyes and smile at each other and steal away, running up the valley, away from it all. That moment of holding each other and just keep on not letting go.
The unrelenting giddiness of it all. The excitement. The glee. The promise of future. Wanting a future. Especially if it's together.
#silver sending stones#orym of the air ashari#dorian storm#cr spoilers#dorym#im crying a lot#lol my phone autocorrected a bit into a lot and like#yeah ill keep it#anyways.#theyre very soft#theyre very sweet#dorian's “ooooh shit yes” is the cutest thing?#and oryms “im gonna kiss you WAIT may i kiss you” is ehajrbkwjd#dont get me started on “oh i want”#DONT GET ME STARTED ON OH I WANT#because that has also done something to me#i know dorym has been very#first love (◕ᴗ◕✿)#inexperienced (◕ᴗ◕✿)#out of practice (◕ᴗ◕✿)#but the enthusiasm in his voice.#the “im ready to start my life” of it all#im ready to start my life with you#if i didnt already make an edit with dorian and dust & ashes id fucking make it now#someone please ask me about dorian and pierre parallels im dying over here#because dorian storm signing thats last “im ready” because he is ready to love and be loved#im sick#im making myself sick#i love them so much#im going to cry
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helloo!!!! Can I request? Could you draw Oren, Raddy, Simon, and Durple being the coolest squad than the others? I would be appreciated if you draw them:) thank you!!
whee yee ill draw the squad being cool hyeee, now here's them doing this fuckass shit for the content hehe :33
this was oren's idea lol
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#leer got an ask#soundleer's art#sprunki#IM FUCKING GIGGLING OUT OF ALL THINGS I COULD DRAW ALL THESE FOUR IN I DRAW THEM DOING THIS BULLSHIT#man i really be needing an excuse to draw this reference image thats been sitting on my gallery for 3 years sjhdndnd#also i like to think this was done in raddy's house as his living room has more ample space for bullshit like this lol#''hey raddy your living room has enough space to pull this shit. wanna watch me get taped on the ceiling and fall into a mattress?'' - oren#sprunki oren#sprunki raddy#sprunki durple#sprunki simon#kendzytord
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“he was mentally ill. this monster was a- was a sick fantasy. a product of his dementia.”
“…i saw it too. does that make me disturbed? demented? does… that make me sick too?”
#txf#the x files#dana scully#fox mulder#folie a deux#this episode … this EPISODE!!!!!!#genuinely so indicative of how much they trust each other….#between mulder just . having to rely on scully for the last part of the ep#scully thinking he’s off his fucking rocker and still looking into what he asks her to look into bc she TRUSTS him . bc she LOVES him !!!!#and maybe he’s a little nuts but goddamnit she will at least check it out !! just in case he’s right!!!#AND she lies for him all the time . i mean she always does this whenever he decides to go nuts But specifically in this ep…#looks skinner in the eye and goes . yea man im totally fully with mulder on this . and he’s definitely not being weird and i definitely kno#what’s going on with him#she lies for mulder all the time its soooo…#anyways . drawing wise this drove me nuts i hate drawing mulder . he’s so hard for me to draw#they’re kinda kirie and shuichi coded in the bottom part but . well . why not . might as well be#ALSOOO i chose that quote for the bottom bc . well . does she think he’s crazy? like actually for real?#i feel like every time scully talks about mulder (up to season five at least as thats where im at) its contained in some way?#in her reports . to family . to skinner . to mulder !#i think the only time she’s Really honest is in the confessional but even then…#bc its not like she’s against speaking her mind . i mean generally and situational but for ppl she’s close to she usually isnt#but when it comes to mulder it always feels contained and like she’s making excuses for him (he is always her exception .#llike whenevrr he gets some disease or affliction or whatever she ALWAYS jumps to going ‘but well… sometimes there’s this excuse’ and she#does this w a lot considering shes science focused but w mulder shes always like . well he ISNT crazy because uhhhh .#this hyperspecific scenario that is in no fuckin way the case)#but does she think he’s crazy? does HE think she thinks he’s crazy?#is he asking about this specific case or is he asking in general? over the entirety of the show?#its been five years scully. is he crazy? sick? demented?#has this all been a sick fantasy fueled by mental illness? youre the doctor scully . surely you have the answer?#anyways i dont think she knows . and if that is the case — what does that mean for her?
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I think that the party's communication issues can be summed up as "man, is it awkward to tell someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with them if you've only know them for a few months? Probably."
#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#listen they will kill for each other but also its such a short time???? like??? thats part of the tragedy tbh#like!!! yeah theyll go back to their previous lives bc who in their right minds throw out everything they were doing before for people youv#only known for a few months and it turns out all of them do bc theyre insane for each other but!!!! like!!!! thats still a big ask!!!!!#yeah lets throw out everything we've ever know to be together lets fucking go and then they do in the end!!!! but!!!#thats because theyre all are ride or die to the extreme for each other!!!!!! far more than siffrin thinks anyone will ever be for him!!!!#anyway I have a lot of feelings about the party and just how bonkers (affectionate) they are#yeah no siffrin I too would not expect people to put aside their previous lives especially if its clear they have other plans#'yeah im gonna invite myself over to your house to live here lol' yeah no I would not assume that!!!!!!!#the issue is more that issue doesnt communicate what he really wants because if they do and his family says no then... being together truly#will end so he doesnt ask so they never will get a no so it never has to end (and has his reason to keep going)#this is turning into an essay in the tags but like. God its a wild set of circumstances so#tbh Siffrin not thinking the party wants to travel together is not wild to me neither is family not communicating#them wanting to be together ALL OF THEM wanting it is... unbelivable in these circumstances#but they do bc theyre all insane and ride or die but the extent of which is a mystery to all of them#anyway thats my essay in the tags#just read the no loops fic where the adults minus siffrin all offer to bring bonnie to bambouche and had FEELINGS about it#my posts
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tsumugi made amulets out of his cut hair and gave one to natsume and natsume threw it in the river. he like literally outright fucking hates tsumugis new haircut. Tsumugi keeps saying hes doing this so theyll continue to be happy forever and then fucking ruins that very happiness by acting painfully out of character. this man who has never before been insecure in his appearance despite his self-loathing, had eichi tell him he should just cut his hair, went on to believe this hair of his to be a curse and a burden, and when telling natsume about his plans to cut it natsume didnt want him to but they did it all anyway. Why is eichi even here. why did they break natsumes heart under the guise of character growth.
were they too happy? was their relationship too good? did we need to go back to square one because there just wasnt any drama between them anymore? natsumes growth wasnt showcased in this story at all either, he reverted back to his old self. it hurts seeing this it like actually hurts really bad. this was promoted as their "happy ending" but all i see is their happy ending in wonder game being forcefully taken from them. Tsumugi even liked his hair, yet now suddenly he views it as burdensome. i need everyone involved in creating the current state of ensemble stars to die and i need this stupid fucking game to EOS already
#nat rambles#i feel so stupid because its just some fucking anime characters haircut but god#i feel like its this along with all the other bullshit theyve been pulling has just made me reach my boiling point#Sorry for leaving some asks unanswered also#while im venting about this situation alot if im being completely honest i want to pretend this never happened#id be much happier if everyone could just collectively agree that these past few years of story “development” never happened#im probably gonna draw exclusively yumenosaki related art from now on#because thats the era i love. and i refuse to let them butcher it
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