#i feel like i should say more things tbh but all thats on my mind is holyshit i can fucking play minecraft

[isjasz]

[Day 365 | Ref to Day 1]

And that's a wrap 🪻🥀

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fhksjdkwjw ITS OVER. ITS OVERRRRR I MADE ITTTTT

Screaming and losing it. It only started to feel real as I'm posting this rn HRKSJAKSJLELH. A year... 365 pieces (probably a bit less bc I did post wips?) of desert duo... I would make a collage maybe but its prob a lot of work HJASKDHAHEHW

🫵 @vesperionnox @cherrysherin without u guys I wouldn't have been here <3 This challenge kinda became its own thing at some point, but I didn't forget where I started :D

💥💥💥 AAA I hope you guys enjoyed this challenge as much as I did!! but also WOOOOOOOOOOOOO FREEDOM. I WILL DEF STILL BE DRAWING DESERTDUO THO LOL BUT LETS FREAKING GO ONE YEARRRR

[isekyaaa]

If you don't know me well and you've heard my opinions abt people talking shit, I probably seem like the person that enjoys talking shit about others. To which the truth of the matter is that I don't. Tbh, I feel I do something worse. When I talk about a person to someone else, I break them down from the bottom up by analyzing what makes them so irritating, but also what makes them so great, and I share that analysis with the person I'm talking to. It quickly escalates to bringing up a person's personal issues, traumas, insecurities, etc, and analyzing them under a lens.

[funishment-time]

Seems like you have finished so i just need to say this:

DR0 is so fucking good.

Just, at EVERYTHING its trying to do, it hits it. And thats something that cannot be said about most of the other media in this franchise (not saying one is better over the other btw, thats a separate thing)

Like, it does its job of being THH's prequel. It goes into more depth with Kyoko and her father's relationship, it gives more insight into the destroyed classroom and what happened, it explains the massive plothole(?) of how exactly Junko was able to steal class 78's memories, it gives a better look at how exactly Junko was able to take over HPA. It gives so much context and answers to things the first game didn’t have the time to properly explore.

It does its job of setting up for SDR2's twist (as you are supposed to read it BEFORE the second game btw (it also released in 2011, a little under a year before SDR2)). It sets up the HPA is corrupt, that the staff dont care about its talentless students. It gives us the info that Kamukura and Junko are working together, and thats WHY the founder's portrait is in the funhouse. It also preps us for the twist, and why it feels so out of left-field in the game if you didn’t have the context of DR0 before. (I could make the argument that thats why both hajime and izuru share design elements with yasuke, because of the whole him pretending to be izuru thang but thats mostly speculation on my part lol)

But, most importantly, it gives us more depth into JUNKO. Something we lost in order for the first game's twist to happen. Ryoko is such a fun character, my lil goober, and such an interesting aspect to Junko that people either do not know about or think is solely Yasuke's creation (it is not, thats very clear in the novel). To think, that the girl that burnt the world down, was deep down a silly lil redhead with a weird crush on her childhood bestfriend is literally the best way Kodaka could’ve took her character. Its so funny but so fucking tragic, to fall in love with this protagonist and realize she was doomed from the start.

anyway sorry for the ramble, i love Ryoko and Yasuke and their story so much

NO RAMBLE AWAY THANK YOU FOR SHARING. i loved DR0 and honestly i may reread it again very soon because i miss Ryoko and want to spend more Quality Time with her.

i have so many thoughts about DR0 so here's a few scattered ones as i slowly wake up this morning:

DR2 has SO MANY MORE DR0 references than i realized

i would have taken an adaptation of this over DR3 tbh. like hands down

i feel bad for everyone involved in this event. even Kamishiro. yes, really

i also, personally, see Ryoko as not at all separate from Junko. to me she is representative of Junko's soul and past, and when she fades away it's not so much Ryoko disappearing as a person but Junko symbolically chucking away anything that gets in the way of her worldview. she is not Yasuke's creation i agree

(i headcanon, as i've said, that Ryoko is basically how Junko was as a kid, just a little less bratty. i also tend to think that Ryoko Otonashi is Junko's real name or close to it)

(and i did tear up when Ryoko "crumbles." i like to think that Ryoko and Junko, for a moment, both existed at once there. both were sad she had to go.)

Ryoko being so sweet and bubbly and not wanting to actually kill anyone causing her trouble is such a HUGE. HUGE. HUGE. signpost to Danganronpa's themes.

and Junko musing that she may lose, i like to think, comes from the fact that she knows she's wrong somewhere. deep down, even Junko...who is shown to be self-hating...is just a little goober who loves Home Alone and thinks she can below up Kyoko Kirigiri with her mind.

Ryoko being weirded out by Makoto??? forget the intense foreshadowing in that scene. Ryoko picking up on his energy??? he's pure without the use of neuro-tech???? incredible

the chapter where Junko is kicking the shit out of Matsuda's corpse should be required reading for all DR fans. it humanizes her so much. my headcanon that she is constantly in the throes of this wild psychic pleasure-pain and is like, spiritually suffering, seems to be more or less supported here

the last chapter where Junko and Mukuro are talking also provides a TON of subtle clues as to their relationship. it totally comes off like Junko STILL being so bitter that big sis Muki ran off to the military and left her all alone for a few years ha

so there's my ramble in return !! what a fantastic yarn. so tragic. so good

[ashton-sano]

Shouldnt have fallen in love, Look what it made me become~

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A/n: To my lovely @kaymerx who made a request, i havent forgotten you, school has been rough and this post is mainly to get something out. Forgive my delay🙏

This is a part two to my Strong! Y/n Series where you two are dating. Its up to you how that happens but we're continuing from there :3

-He’s so awkward it’s actually very creepy at times -He spent so much time watching you that he forgot he had to talk to you when you spoke, one track guy tbh -Him kidnapping you was a short lived affair. He had you tied but it didn’t take long for you to get free -Hanging around him is never tame, not for long anyway -He tries to “bond” in the weirdest ways after Shalnark tells him couples should do cute things together -He’s confused, how is torturing not what couples like to do? Bonding and getting information, two birds with one stone as he sees it. -What do you mean he has to be more intimate then that? How can anything be more intimate than killing with his favorite person? -Imagine how out of place he’d feel just sitting in your house. When he was actually invited in this time too -You decided a simple horror film would be better for his taste. Safe to say he did enjoy it, more then he’d ever say -He let out low chuckles when some characters would die or make a small comment on the inaccuracy of the gore -The way he stared at the screen unblinking made it hard to tell if he liked it -It’s only when he slowly hints to it days later that you see he enjoyed the film -More than that, he liked spending time with you, it made his heart do things akin to the feeling of a heart attack. Still weird but fine for now

“Funny Movie. Let’s watch.”

-Thats how it starts. -At first he’d come over to watch movies and slowly he would just enter unannounced and spend hours just staring at you as you did whatever you were doing. -Kinda like before but just with your express consent -He’s not a very “human” like person so most actions typical to most are lost on him -Like why you’re using such a well crafted knife on a vegetable, that’s pointless he thought -After you explain cooking to him, it’s about the same -But he wanted to understand the things you did so he’d assist in his weird ways. -Now he steals items of food he thinks look good and brings them to you

“You went grocery shopping?”

“That’s what that called?”

“Oh.”

-Perfect chopper every time, the one thing he’s not lost on. He knows blades well, and it’s a bit weird how his smirk widens as he cuts the carrot.

-Almost like snapping a finger, he thinks, fascinating

-He likes cooking a bit more now

-You have a mental list of foods that he’s comfortable eating, he prefers rice based dishes, most of all with chicken. But when it’s soft, he eats it quicker.

-From his life, just getting any type of food is something he’d eat. He wasn’t always that picky, as long as it wasn’t completely dirty.

-When you made habit of cooking things he liked, he “bought” food he didn’t mind eating so you could make it.

“You like tomatoes Fei?”

“Kinda.”

“Hm.”

-He didn’t know where to place it, he definitely liked having you around. The discord in his chest made him annoyed when he looked at you too long though. You were nice to look at, so very nice to stare at.

-Shut up, feeble heart

-He’s still unorthodox, assassin Feitan yes, but after a few scoldings for trailing blood in the house, he definitely didn’t know what was going on

-Why did he feel so inclined to listen? Why did he want you to make that content face once more? That face he loved to stare at so much. Why was he making habit to cleaning himself off before entering your house

-This is definitely weird

-He figured his answer out after you attended one of the spider meetings, you were still an infamous assassin, it was only a matter of time for this to happen so why did he want you to be a secret? Why did it annoy him that the rest of them got to see you? What was his…did he really just think that?

-It peeved him even when you spoke to Chrollo, a man he respected and trusted, shouldn’t he be content that you two get along?

-No, no he shouldn’t. Because that face isn’t for anyone to relish in. You kept him around, you fed him, surely that means you liked him. Why else would you let him in after knowing he broke in?

-You gave him kindness beyond what he’s known. So you like him, you only need to like him. So letting another see that beauty that he saw wasn’t acceptable.

-This meeting needed to end now

-He can’t explain what he’s feeling, he rarely could. He just knew you being chummy with his comrades wasn’t something he liked, no that’s the wrong word. He despised it.

-The walk home was eerily silent, not quite like it typically is. He was stewing, you could tell he just can’t find his words

“Your friends are rather interesting..”

“They not friends. More like family.”

-That coming from him was probably more estranged then he let on

“Well they’re definitely something, but I think joining might be fine.”

-He stopped walking

“Join?”

-It’s not like you lack talent or experience, but he can’t figure out why he wants you to himself

-Joining the spiders means you seeing other people, worse, others seeing you. You were lovely, his heart was never still when you were around

-He’s still not completely convinced it’s not your nen at work there

-You can’t share that feeling with anyone, not when he’s so dedicated to your presence.

“Fei, we’ve been standing here a while. What’s up?”

-He just kept walking, but you caught a mumble from his lips

“No Join. Bad plan.”

-From his demeanor alone, it was obvious. Feitan was very serious and rarely talkative but his behavior and actions betrayed him, at least around you

-He was jealous, the holes he stared into your head a few hours prior gave that away. He did always strike as the possessive type, just not like this

-Akin to a child, it was weirdly cute to you

“Fei, why not?”

“Just bad plan, don’t join.”

-It continued like that all the way to your apartment, he only insisted that it was a bad idea, no further elaboration

-Today was curry, spicy because Feitan found he liked food with spice, that being the only spectrum of food he likes these days

-You decided to poke at it a bit

“Well I mean maybe I should just ask that blonde guy for his insight.”

-It’s scary how fast he was boring holes into your head once more from the very mention of that. He was not a fan. He stalked slowly to you, his gaze sharp

“No ask Phinks. I tell you it’s bad plan, so it is.”

-There was a silence before you laughed a bit

“Fei, there’s nothing to be jealous of.”

“Huh?”

-He wasn’t familiar with such a thing, is that why he felt some internal need to fight Phinks? They were associated for a long time so why couldn’t he shake that burn in his chest?

-Jealous? He’s only just heard of it and yet he can’t think to agree, that felt too tame. He wanted to gouge out the eyes of anyone that even dared to hold your gaze for too long. No one has that right, hardly even himself

-You are kind to him, you give him warmth, so you care about him, and you don’t give that to anyone else because you don’t care about them. You give him what he doesn’t deserve, yet you never word it that way

-This feeling, this almost necessity to be around you. You don’t need to give that to anyone else, not when he’d do anything to keep your gaze on him. Killing is never beyond him, he’s already slowly losing remorse for anyone that’s too close to you..

“Don’t talk to them. Don’t.”

-It was the first time he reached out on his own, he tugged you into him, burning your scent into his nostrils like he’ll never get another chance

-He had a consistent smell of gunpowder and blood, but that never bothered you. It clung to him in an unfamiliar way; as if he was meant to.

-His fingers were slender, a lot thinner then you remembered. Yet his grip didn’t yield, as if iron clad.

“If you say so.”

-You didn’t really want to join, it didn’t suit you to kill in a group. But coaxing him to hold you was worth that. You warmed into his touch, your hold a lot gentler than his.

-He was new to it, so he couldn’t help but be rough and rigid.

-It was a few minutes before he let go, clearly less tense.

“I’ll help chop.”

-Those were his only words but you knew he was internally grateful. He rolled his sleeves and steadily cut

-Chop. Chop. Chop. That’s what’ll happen to anyone that takes his light away. They go, brutally so and they won’t come back, not in this lifetime or the next million after that

-You were perfect, you couldn’t do wrong, no. No, it’s the filth of this world that makes you do bad, and he’ll rid of it. No one shall dim your light. He was filthy, a pathetic piece of trash. Yet you accepted him as he was.

-Yeah, you aren’t ever escaping from him.

This ended up being longer than expected so it was more of a Drabble. Hope you enjoy, it took me too long to get around to it TwT

-> Property of ©ashton-sano; Don't post my content on any other platform without credit; much love^^

[itsevanffs]

My bangers

if i do say so myself. anyway some older hp fics i still feel fondly about:

Cam for the Money, Stayed for the Fun Actually both parts of this series were bangers. I popped off with that thing. Deliciouse. I think that was the first fic of mine someone ever recced btw

Initiative and prerogative as well. good stuff. i love the idea of sex robot tom riddle i did not miss with that one

Like a Flower That Blooms i miss writing tomcest tbh. i should continue that series it was really good :( maybe i should include tom sr in it as well and make it into the world's most fucked orgy

Pattern I liked exploring harry as a sort of villain in tom's story, and i think i might do so again in more detail and a different setting. i like crawling into tom's mind either way

Rot i cannot express enough how much you need to read the story i remixed this from. it lives rent free in my brain and the fact that it is a remix of that fic will make rot one of my favourite hp fics ive ever written.

Something New banger alpha/alpha fic tbh. i popped right off with this one

ok thats all thanks byeeeee

[ragazziamagix]

Rlly need to talk about Riven on s 1

one thing about season 1 which I commented earlier, is that theres a lot of things blown out of proportion or just spread in a way which I find unfair... Riven is one of the victims of this, while yes Riven has some of "antagonist" (I will never deny Riven flaws btw - but he is not just his flaws) during this season it's evident that he never meant to things escalate that badly, but I will go step by step.

at the start we met Riven as this sharp tongue boy thats rude, he say mean things to all of his team the girls etc, from here I take the info that he was abandoned by his mother (in the old website) because it is the only background we have about him so I will work with that... Personally while I was watching again this time I felt like he truly behaved as someone deeply insecure, having issue with being abandoned, but having a drive to feel accepted and admired, all those emotion imho kinda crash and if so Riven on s 1 behavior is "understandable" (which doesnt mean he is right just that makes sense), he is wrong for bad mouthing his friends, and the fairies but honestly I really believe that his mind is a mess specially because of one scene close to the season finale (I will get there later, sorry lol). On the episode of the race it is obviously that he wants to feel appreciated but the way he show those emotions only come off as negative due to his issues and the villains of the season, the trix, take notice of his negative energy and Darcy besides finding him hot uses it for their advantage until she get what they need later on, Darcy was able to manipulate Riven not just by powers but also by making him feel important + needed which was a move that worked just fine for him considering his state of mind therefore this move by the villains were exactly on the weak spot of Riven, yeah Riven should NOT give them infos about the group of the specialists and winx but at this time he felt like he was someone important, someone that could be counted on, which is also something that must be taken into consideration: Riven is also very competitive! just add this to the mix and boom chaotic behavior, they made Riven feel like he was "winning" over the others when he usually feels like he is losing, the moments where he most lash out are the moments when others shines more like Brandon or Sky having good moments and people to cheer them on, or moments where he makes a mistake.

anyway jumping for my main point, close to the end of the season Riven is trapped and the witches play mind games with him making him seeing himself as a monster, I really love this scene and its sad to think something like that wouldn't be shown again anyway he has a very nervous reaction to it, he feel horrified because DEEP DOWN he is scared to be like that he truly rejects this picture, he argues against it and claims he has a heart. Theres even communicatin w Griffin and the sane witches of cloud tower who are also trapped, this scene is so powerful to me because it shows that deep down Riven is not a monster he is someone with a lot of baggage and a difficult personality, I also really like later on when he reunites with his friends and it is pointed out he puts everything he learns on action, Riven has flaws during the most season of winx series he still has a problem with his self image what he expect of himself not always working etc, sadly he leaves on season 6 and during season 7 he is working on himself I really wanted to know what he went through during his absence tbh, because in the end of all Riven is a good person ultimately he choose to stay in the good side not because it is easy, quite contrary with his early negative emotions stay on the bad side would be "easier" even so at the end he always choose to stay in the good side because deep down he is just as good as everybody he just needs to work on his issues which I believe are better by s 8. I rlly don't remember much about that season, anyway sorry for my english idk how to make a tldr for this, I just feel like Riven is not half as bad as he is painted, I do appreciate his character if you disagree thats super fine but I hope he can be seen by he truly is, maybe in the future

You are not a monster Riven <3

I wanted to discuss a bit about Rivusa but thats another topic, I like them a lot.

[cakepoppresent]

24 Screenshots of '24 <3

Heyo,

I was tagged by @enniewritesathing and @euphiesims to share my favourite screenshots from 2024. I will try to make this nice and neat! and in no particular order (I'm going to put most of it under the cut so I don't spam up people's dashboards!)

I also tag @jayveesim @jayplaysims @weirdosalike @citylighten @matchalovertrait @pamsimmer and anyone else who wants to do it!!

Blair and Brayden Date Night. - I took them out on a date after everything with Grayson and Gideon died down. Blair was worried that it was a mistake having her kids all live in San My without their parents and Brayden was trying to calm her down

Xavier and his little crew - I love these little munchkins so much.

Brayden Visiting his son - Grayson spent Sulani alone trying to center himself and get his head on straight again. There isn't anything really special BUT I just liked how it looked. I liked that Grayson's father made sure he was doing okay. He even suggested therapy, Grayson refused but Blair and Brayden still have that therapist on speed dial just in case lol

Grayson walking home alone - I liked this shot a lot because I don't think I made it clear how Grayson has never been alone. Gideon has ALWAYS been by his side (or his siblings) so I thought it would be nice to get this shot of him being alone

Apollo - I just think Apollo is sexy af and you should all think the same thing

Bunny Sam - was playing around with Gshade and I just think she's sexy af. Y'all should think she's sexy too. Thx

Dancing Grayson - Grayson dancing to Nasty by Tinashe 😂 he just looked so cute

Miss. Luna V - my sis doesn't yearn but gets yearned for and she likes the feeling. That's a look thats giving "yeah I know you love me why wouldn't you"

Yearning Loser - Benji is so in love with Malcolm. It's embarrassing for him but he just loved being around him. That's his family

Malcolm and Veronica - Nothing really, I just thought they look good and Malcolm works out a lot autonomously so I wanted to show it off

Veronica and Brayden - Future father and daughter business duo in the making. Veronica just looks so good as a business woman. I can't see her as anything else and her dad in the background supporting like he should

Su and Grayson - What could have been! In another timeline where Gideon doesn't exist they would have had a chance. Unfortunately this is all in Su's mind. Poor baby

The Reeves!!! - the family I've been playing for over a year. They are my everything and I'm so happy I made them! They are so beautiful

Xavier's stank face - I like his stank face because it supports my head cannon that Xavier and Veronica are much more similar in personality. Xavier just knows how to hide it better 😂

Unfriendly Black hotties - Luna up until this point as always been smiling and amicable but I love seeing her mad and looking upset. She looks so good

Hopelessly Devoted To You - They are currently on a break but that doesn't stop Gideon from staring at Grayson like nothing has changed. TBH Gideon thinking about how to get Grayson pregnant

Nothing to say - It's Luna looking regal and gorgeous as always. Daiksue so lucky I'm not giving him a love rival (I fucking should)

The Villareal Twins - I just like them and I don't have enough pics of them together

Rainy Nights - this is probably my favorite animation and I love the ambience and the lighting of this screenie so much. I just love them so much

Can you tell who my favorite couple is? Lol. I dunno this was after Malcom and Luna got into a fight. Malcolm went straight home and flew right into Benji's arms. He won't admit it but he loves being in Benji's arms

Taking a break - I wanna redo this scene because I felt like I didn't actually convey what I needed to convey. But I just love how dependent they are on each other even when going through their relationship woes

Taking care of his lady - Luna tried it and Daisuke wasn't having it. He wasn't gonna leave without setting the record straight with his future wife

My Munchkins - please. They are so cute and I had so much fun playing them! Also Xavier's face is so funny here

There was a challenge for simstwt a supernatural theme. I used Sam and Apollo and played around with lighting. I really liked how it turned out

[changbinsboobs]

If you had to use one word to describe each of skz’s dorm mates dynamic living together what would it be? I feel like some of them would be super chaotic and others super chill (Felix and seungmin lol)

Used the 3rd Eye Tarot. I didn't do the one word thing cuz I'm too lazy to get my creative juices going so i just did a short reading on it:)

*For entertainment purposes only!

SKZ Dorm Pair Dynamics

Chan + I.N - Knight of Cups, 10 of Pentacles, 5 of Swords

They keep their interactions at surface level. As long as they do that their co living goes well. Since they have quite different visions on the world and just overall. They don't see eye to eye and never will - as in u will never see the world the same way your grandma will right, cuz both of u are from different generations. U still love her tho:) as long as y'all don't go into too much depth. Same goes for those two.

I think if they spend too much time together and go to deep in their interactions they'll get pretty pissed at each other pretty quickly😅

I'm also seeing some love stuff going on in there so someone might be inviting their love interest over there.

Lee Know + Han - 6 of Wands, 2 of Wands, Ace of Wands

Very active dorm.

Both of them interact a lot with each other and have plans for places they'll go visit, food they'll try, hobbies they'll do together etc.

Changbin + Hyunjin - 4 of Cups, King of Wands, Death

A funny mood overall.

But actual jokes and fun actually just happen on occasion. Not all the time.

This is a bit difficult to decipher to be honest cuz im not picking up on a consistent energy.

Thats why i think they have like phases (?) they go through. So if they have a lighthearted phase they joke and have fun together.

But then they go back to their hermit mood and each one goes into his own world and hivernate for a while and have their own small rebirth, and then when they're done with that they go out of it and have fun and interract again.

I think thats not something they really are conscious if. If you were to ask them i think they would tell you they're constantly together and having a blast. Cuz those hibernation phases they have, tho long, i think for them feel like one afternoon or something like that. So for them it feel like they're constantly having fun together cuz its like the hibernation phase doesn't count, its like sleeping😂

Felix + Seungmin - The Devil, The Tower, 7 of Pentacles

Honestly seeing those cards scared me a bit, i thought this dorm was gonna be the most lighthearted one but it seems like the heaviest most strained one.

I think each one's in their own world and they have little to no interactions. Each of them works in themselves and their own stuff.

Idk if its something between them that has happened, or one of them had a really nasty experience that they are preoccupied with.

I think one's just minding his own buisenss, not engaging whatsoever in the drama of the other.

While the other is sunken deep into his own suffering and filth and despair.

Its giving victim complex tbh.

Im seeing strong mental health issues. And toxic ways of handling himself and the situation. With every step he tales he sinks more and more into it.

And the whole tragedy thing - i don't think it really exist(?) its more like in his head than in reality. And he brought it on himself (thats why the other one doesn't seem to care that much, im getting the vibe of putting his hands in the air cuz he thinks the other one's just a hopeless case and he should learn to deal with it by himself), from lack of boundaries.

I wasn't planing on saying who it is cuz its none of my business but ya'll already know I think it's Felix so I'll clarify that based on this current energy, and the energy I've sensed from felix before i assume its him. I haven't specifically read about that/ confirmed it with the cards. And i don't intend to do it, cuz i just think we shouldn't stick our noses everywhere. I think the cards just give out enough energy/info for us, and i pick on just as much as i should. If something isn't confirmed by itself, i don't like pestering the poor guys and harassing them to tell us.

[adoresia]

BREKAKINF NEWS !!!1!1 INSANE SIA LORE DROP UNDER THE CUT NOBODY ASKED FOR 🤓🤓🤓🤓😱😱😱

I am absolutely bored out of my mind in supervised study rn so I’m writing this honestly I could use this time to write a fic but I have no motivation still BUT I really wanna write a smau so potentially that… anyways okay boom so…

I think 2 years ago during GCSE mock exams like end of year 10 (9th grade) My whole year group would go to the local library everyday to ‘study’, quotations because we never actually studied we were just all talking and honestly it was so fun I miss it because it’s one of the only times everyone just spoke to everyone but anyways there was the one guy, were gonna call him hmmmmm we’re gonna call him Zack idk where I got Zack from I do not know a Zack but anyways moving on. Zack randomly came up to my group’s table and was small talking my friend were gonna call her nana because why not, there isn’t really much to it he was just shooting whatever shot he had whatever whatever. Anyways Zack quickly became a part of the friend group solely because of nana tbh I didn’t even really care whatever anyways. One day me zack nana and smother friend were gonna call her sasha were on our way to tescos (its a reallyyy big supermarket in the middle of town) and when we got to self checkouts nana saw the person she was talking to (romantically) and she was all excited and stuff and we were gassing her up wtv bur obviously zach was with us… and zach likes nana… and it got real awkward fast. He kinda walked off because nana went up to her ‘man’ anddd me being the kind soul i am i felt bad as well as sasha and so i looked at sasha abd sasha looked at me and we were like “aww bless his little socks x”

me : is zach about to leave??? i feel kinda bad should we go ask if he’s okay?

sasha : wait why

me : because he likes nana??? and she’s literally flirting with her talking stage in his face

sasha : oh right yeah lets go

*me and nana walk up to zach*

sasha : hey zach are you okay… why are you standing next to the escalators alone

Zach : *does not look up from his phone* yh im coo wtv yhyhyh nothin

Zach was in fact not okay. Zach was on his clock app when we got there and when i looked down at his phone he switched to the calculator app? alright mate

Zach : oh who’s that with nana btw

sasha : oh thats the person she’s talking to

zach : oh. k. goes back to scrolling on the calender app

And then when i looked back up at him he was avoiding eye contact and it was getting awkward so me and sasha turned back

Okay im dragging it now, after nana’s ‘bf’ left the store it was kinda awkward so zach went home and i felt so terribly bad so I texted him later that night and i told him not to worry and that i would get nana to block her talkign stage. WAIT. BEFORE YOU ASK ME sia what the heck why would you do that. Nana was talking to our friend’s EX. were gonna call her moana and were gonna call the ex/nana’s talkign stage cin. moana and cin broke up and she would vent to nana about it and he was genuinely a bad person and nana knew that but nana still decided to keep talking to cin romantically knowing all the bad things he did to moana. and so one day i was on work experience with moana, and nana sent me a vn talking about how it doesn’t matter that she’s talking to moana’s ex because she doesn’t see her as a friend and more of an aquaitance. And because i recoeved no warning of what nana was going to even tell me in the voicenote i played it out loud and moana heard. okay moving on guys!!

Long story short i talked to moana and moana was obviously not happy about nana literally talking to her ex so she talked to her about it and nana blocked cin. okay so now Zach had nothing in his way. Few months went by blah blah blah I told nana that if hypothetically zach was to like her what would she say and nana went i dont like him like that so i was like oh okay…. and then eventually zach told nana he liked her nana didnt like him back everything was shut down in that aspect. this is where everything starts to get crazy

Zach went over to Jamaica for 2 weeks and during his time there he would text me non stop and it got to a point where he went from liking nana to liking me. obviously because she rejected him but also i feel like he kinda used me as a rebound and i fell for it like an idiot 🩷💓💕💞💕💘💗 Anyways zach idk what zach wanted from me, actually welk i know one thing he wanted from me 🤗 but it wasn’t a relationship?!?! put two and two together ig anyways that went on for about a month and i kept falling for it and falling for his manipulation and falling for his guilt tripping and falling for hes plees and his begs because im an imbecile 💞💞💞 Now it got to a point where i felt like i had to tell someone so i told nana. and then nana told me that i should start saying no and i told her I WAS and she told me WELL KEEP SAYING NO and i told her I AM TRYING HES NOT TAKING NO FOR AN ANSWER??? and basically huys nana was no help so i turned to sasha and sasha was just disappointed in me and had nothing else to say so i was like welp guys i guess ill just suicide then the fuck💞💗💕💘🩷 okay joking sorry

A few more months go by of this absolute stupidity and come to find out… nana and zach were… also talking???????? like they were ‘friends with benefits’ but obviously it was willingly so now all of my aura is gone from

1. Being played like an absolute wallad by the friend i thought REJECTED zach

2. Being absolutely harrased by zach every single time the clocked turned to 11pm EVEN THOUGH he had… Nana?

And this kept going on even after I told nana about what happened whatever whatever okay cool. Nana finally got to a point where she felt zach was playing us both at the same time whole time she knew after i told her and kept going but oh well right? But again sorry guys i was a complete idiot and took her side and we both said we would drop zach. ABSOLUTE PLOT TWIST!!!!!! nana told zach to stop talking to me completely but kept talking to him herself during the whole of summer 2024 and the only reason i found out was because my MOTHER saw them making out in town can you guys imagine the shock on my face when i realised my friend had completely betrayed me and then tried playing the ‘i was jealous that he was talking to you when he had me’ card 😱😱😱😱😳😳😳😳😳😳

inserting a screenshot because im allowed to Lol

my ‘reply’ is in the green quotations because it wasn’t really a reply its just me crashing out, the ‘drunk’ bit is when she drunkenly called him while in greece telling him she loved him and ermmm okay its kinda cringe shut up im gonna get liv to proofread it okay im back she said it ok anyways anyways tbags all guys idk what possessed me to make this tbh OH AND ALSO yes im still friends with nana no it never really got resolved i told her id reply to her giant apology message that she sent after and i never did and she kind of took it as a sign to forget everything happened and slowly try and get back onto my good side but because im still an idiot with absolutely no braincells j fell for it AGAIN

And also i kinda chose peace because i cant be asked to hold grudges its long and a hassle also if i was to cut her off id lose all of my friends because it would break what is left of the friendship geoup i have apart and i cant have that because those are the only friends that i have so 💞 hope you enjoyed the lore drop sorry i got lazy i didnt even finnish this in school because its so long

[pomefioredove]

🙂‍↕️not really coherent reply sorry

vil is one of the only characters in game that treats yuu with respect, and as an equal.

EXACTLYLY. honestly it never ever sits right with me whenever yuu BREAKS THEIR BACK trying to help others (especially because barely anyone is doing barely anything to help them. LET THIS BITCH GO HOME!!!!) for them to just? barely acknowledge it? casually brush it off? the scene in book 3 where the tweels r like wanna help out? you can switch with these guys and ace is like YES double all of my current suffering and pass it onto them /ref all of the students complaining about losing their signature spells when yuu has NO magic at all to protect themselves with.. let’s be serious please. maybe im being a little dramatic! but thats literally my favorite character you are talking about get their name out of your mouth.

vil is literally the only other character who plays a similar role in the story.

... cause chars like trey and lilia are almost there, but distinctly different in their roles, while vil is THE mother.

THIS!! !! !!! !!!!! lillia is more of the father trope and trey is more of a big brother i’d say. they aren’t nurturing in the same way vil is. maybe it’s the ‘nagging’ slash instructing aspect of how vil interacts with people. i don’t even know how to put it into words but ur right vil is so mom. like. i dont know.. it’s probably his relationship with epel (and even the other first years?) that makes me associate him with being motherly but he’s just so. nurturing. so many moms in the media that i’ve (recently) consumed were teaching their daughters to be quiet and respectful as to not get punished/essentially outcasted socially. of course that’s not really what vil is doing with epel but. ugh. read my mind!!! ull understand then trust. the ONLY other character that sorta makes me feel the same way is jamil. illove him so dearly but i know. little to nothing major about his character aside from his relationship with kalim. yuu and grim. vil and epel. jamil and kalim. they should start a we dont get paid (enough) for this bullshit club

honestly i dont even want to project myself onto yuu i wanna be a helpful roomate or somthinf. wtf 😭 my hungry aggressive ass could NOT be yuu /ref..

rhats all i can put into words rigth now . evene though i got sidetracked a lot.. !! bht th part abojt yuu being motherly ! ialso wanted to reply to. wowww thats a lot of typos sorry my eyesight is a tad blurry 😭

AHHGGGGG ANON

"double all of my current suffering and pass it onto them" LMAOOOO 😭😭😭

I am such a yuu defender idc. LEAVE THEM ALONE!!!! it's why rollo is still such a fave of mine, he's like one of the only sane people. looks at yuu and is like jesus christ are you fucking okay.

and yes literally vil is just. I think the big difference is that he actually kinda likes being in charge? more so than yuu. he's a natural leader while they were literally manipulated and blackmailed into their position (I WILL SAY THAT I do think vil feels pressured to be a leader because of how he was outcasted/made out to seem mean and scary by his peers so he just kinda Filled That Role... but also I definitely do not see him as someone who'd enjoy following rather than leading. his own character VERY MUCH parallels yuu's in so many ways)

jamil is definitely different tho. he was also forced into his position as a caretaker but he doesn't have a parental vibe to him. tbh I couldn't tell u what it is but he's got his own thing going on (and he DOES parallel yuu in a way, I wish he was closer to them because there's potential but he's really Not)

BUT YEAH I get you. I feel like this is a weird thing to say but yuu feels like their own character to me 😭 like I have my own yuusona but yuu themselves is a little guy to me

[abolitionpsych]

im fully willing to abandon all psychiatric labels. how do i describe my experiences (paranoid/delusional under psychiatric models) without them? should i describe my processes of thought as necessary as it comes up instead? how do i accept these as the way i am?

Idk what this entails for * you personally this is just my experience.

When I was in the psych ward they thought I was schizospec in the first 2weeks of staying there and they denied me so much agency... so if youre experience w stigmatization is similiar then what I think is most important is that you are aware that you are the person who ALWAYS knows who you are and what you need best, ALWAYS. even if youre genuinely confused who you are and whats going on then youre STILL the person who knows yourself best and what you need.

a pervasive and defining pattern of institutions is the (mis)use of language (this includes all diagnoses generally and also words like "symptom" and "illness/disorder/dysfunctional") to reframe experiences in a way which shifts blame onto the institutionalized/pathologized person and, crucially, shifts blame away from the institution or any of its actors. this neoliberalism of emotional response conveniently absolves the institution (+ often structural violences in general) of responsibility, destroys the institutionalized person's sense of trust in their own intuition, fosters dependence on the discerning, 'objective' eyes of the institution, protects + obscures abusive practices, and prevents the formation of solidarity + connection among institutionalized people.

Part of getting away from this institutional gaslighting for me was to "avoid the circular, essentialist, and socially violent logic of "well i do x because i have y condition (which was diagnosed based on clinician observations of x)" which made me think that my brain is broken in a way requiring me to submit to expert clinical management and surveillance"! I stopped thinking things like "I'm suicidal because of my depression" or "I hallucinate because of my dissociative disorder" because these descriptive labels (=my diagnoses) cant explain anything, theyre never the CAUSE of anything. This actually made me feel way less "helpless" and all my struggles suddenly made way more sense to me because I actually started to ask myself where they were coming from instead of instantly thinking its my brain/mind thats randomly being dysfunctional. So actually you dont have to accept that "this is just the way you are" - if youre in extreme mental pain then its not your fault and there is a reason and the people around can change and show solidarity and you arent helpless against the bad societal/communal circumstances that youre in rn (like being extremely isolated or not having support or being stuck in a nuclear family situation where youre still property of your parents - just as examples).So what Im saying is, dont accept that this is the way its going to be forever for you - demand societal change.

Then one main thing that I noticed for myself is that when you stop using the psych lingo that you learned via therapy (symptom, cognitive distortion, delusion, depression, anhedonia, ...) and instead "humanize" your experiences (describe how you feel and the context in which you feel this way and all this without mentioning diagnosis or symptom-words or words like healthy/unhealthy or maladaptive, ...) you automatically connect more w people since other people relate to you more and understand you more. Because the process of being given a diagnosis is in itself Othering (especially when its as stigmatizing as schizospec diagnoses are!!) since the people around you think that theyre not qualified to help you and they isolate you by saying things like "you need to go to a professional . I cant help you." But tbh I also additionally talked a lot abt anti psych and psych propaganda w my friends so they stop thinking like that (like for example so they dont look for "warning signs" and dont tell me any patronizing bs anymore or worse, call the cops on me but instead support me and try to understand where Im coming from no matter how crazy I sound to them.).

Also I started to stop using words that dont blame me for my mental distress and depoliticize what I went through in the past (=trauma - ); that make more sense to me and that arent inherently seperating my mind/body/brain from myself.

This is a good example of someone pathologizing their experiences and how the person could depathologize them by "humanizing" them.

I personally like the concept of neurodivergency. Ik that a lot of people use it to simply mean adhd and autism nowadays but it originally meant "everyone who deviates from neuronormativity ( =whats societally deemed normal to think/feel/do based on your assigned gender/age/socioeconomic status/...)". I like this concept bc you can deviate for any reason from the norm and this norm deviancy can develop out of awful experiences but also really good experiences or a newly developed political consciousness that critiques the status quo. People who are neurodivergent arent only people who fit a criteria for a DSM or ICD diagnosis anymore, theyre just anyone who differs from the norm in thinking/feeling/acting. This way "neurodivergency" also includes people who suffer more severely than others under the current societal hierarchies (=patriarchy, isolation /living conditions under capitalism, police, legal justice system, psychiatry as an institution, amatonormativity ... ).

also for me personally depathologization of my experiences literally included coming out as queer lol. My queerness was pathologized via personality disorder labels by telling me Im confused about my identity and that my disorders are actually causing this norm deviancy. Which is really dumb when you think about it because my personality is obviously "causing" my queerness lol - all I am is my personality! I basically suffered conversion therapy as sb whos asexual and agender which I thought was helpful back then bc I was suffering under heteronormativity/amatonormativity/allonormativity/ generally under the gender class system and thought that its somehow my fault bc I wasnt able to see these norms being reinforced in my social surroundings and in general society. This is why I like the concept of seeing neurodivergency as queer and queerness as neurodivergent (=its called neuroqueer lol). This post explains it - maybe this is also relevant to you without knowing it. I also didnt realize at the time that this is what they were doing to me.

also I personally started to stop seperating my experiences by my different diagnoses (aspd, dissociative disorder,depression, drug addiction) and view myself and my experiences as more whole and connected .I also dont seperate myself from other people who are labelled as mentally ill anymore (or people who dont have a label like this )- I think the most helpful thing for me would be to find language with other people who are labelled as mentally ill that transgresses diagnoses. Bc we ARE all experiencing very similiar things we just think we dont bc we call it by different psych lingo -names but i guess this new language can only develop with an actual Mad Community . Similar to how the feminist movements created words like "patriarchy, pink tax, male gaze, ...".

Also "Unmasking" similiar to how people who are labelled as on the autism spectrum might be a cool way to feel more comfortable w yourself and connect more authentically with others. (just google it theres lots on the subject, you'll be able to come up with what this would mean for yourself easily.) To me, when others around me accepted me as I am it was also easy to accept myself. I couldve never done this alone in my room just by idk "thinking more positive thoughts about myself" or whatever psychs always tell us to do.

One thing I tended to do when I first tried to get away from the psych labels was calling everything I struggle with "caused by Trauma" and tbh 1)not true and 2) this is the same framework of thinking as the biomedical model (=which says that mental health is no different from physical health) since it also makes all my struggles into an "inner mental health problem" that I need to solve alone for myself and that I personally am responsible for recovering from at fault for suffering from.

Also one last thing that just came to mind: I think a new interpretation of your experiences might include a more communal and whole perspective. For example I call myself an anarchist instead of calling myself aspd/sociopath nowadays. This gives me a new "social role" , a new perspective on relationships to others and some experiences that I called "symptoms" before are not only not reframed but not included in this new identity of mine. Another example is a woman I visited a while ago and everyone called her "the seeing woman" ,shes someone that people go to because she has a very unique perspective on things . I was told she can see the future but idk about that haha .But shes definitely also "neurodivergent" ,if you want to call her that .

This is literally everything that just came to my mind! its everything Ive personally done to reject the pathologization from psychology. What i think is that we can only achieve liberation with another and through each other and that if we're able to imagine it together then a new world and a future where we all have a place in is definitely possible .

[enbysiriusblack]

What Interview with the vampire characters are the marauders most like?

uhh okay so (this is gonna be long because im obsessed with iwtv.. & also btw spoilers for both the books & the show!!)

sirius- lestat (i think i said a while ago about how fanon sirius is lestat but like,, okay honestly its prob more a mix now i think on it more.. like i think i was sorta warped from louis trying to portray lestat as dumb & dramatic & stuff and like,, lestat IS very very much very dramatic but not actually dumb. at all. he's definitely the iwtv character that sirius is most like. plus @mrstellmeafuckingsecret 's thing about sirius getting with older guys??? literally lestat (with marius in the books. and akasha). also like,, EVERYONE being in love with the man??? so sirius. like no one can stop thinking bout him, even his fucking mother. oh yeah also not to mention the like childhood/home life of lestat with him being the wolfkiller & abused by his family and everything. plus also like,, idk the whole rockstar thing screams sirius & im not sure why but i mean. becoming a rockstar, pissing off & breaking like every law of your species??? it gives sirius fs) plus the whole.. abandonment issues... yeah.. )

james- daniel (okay... 1. i find it funny to think about... this is my main reasoning tbh. like. picturing james as this weird freaky human guy who's just. following around all these vampires who could kill him in an instant & he lowkey finds that hot... plus with thinking about the show,, silver fox james. asshole james. dickhead james. james getting basically kidnapped by peter (peter is under armand btw as you will see if you read on), james getting turned & then fucking going on tv with his cunty outfit & flipping off the news guy 😭😭 also going back to the books, james living on night island with peter & then he keeps just fucking running away & then going back to pete again & again...)

remus- louis (like with sirius as lestat, this is def a mix of fanon & canon sirius i feel... like. idk the way that louis portrays himself gives me very remus but with like. what we see otherwise (like lestat's retelling), its more fanon-y remus,, i don't think remus would be smashing sirius' head but fanon remus prob would. anyway, remus as this depressed lad that gets enamoured by sirius whos lowkey stalking him ?? yes 🫶🫶. then also louis always trying to run away & he never says ily?? v remus. plus never being able to get over him <33 also like.. bookworm louis & shitty photographer louis & always getting manipulated by his bfs louis?? v remus)

peter- armand (freaky arse weird rat man 🧍‍♂️.. also just like. he gets so obsessed and in love & he just wants someone to worship lowkey & thats so peter of him. but like. hes too weird & freaky for most ppl. also i think peter should do the blender thing that armand does cause its cunty & funny. peter grew up in a muggle environment to me, but i do still think he'd love technology & like random appliances. also yknow.. general betraying ppl shit & being such a weird little guy & most manipulative mf ever)

lily- i was gonna say lily just to be funny but like.. nah I'll say it properly. madeleine. (i mean in the show. ginger bisexual cunty woman who speaks her mind & can hold her own? very lily already. but also madeleine having that sorta relationship with the nazi soldier (snape...) & being harassed cause of it. & also that bit where armand asks her how she'll kill & she's just like.. survival of the fittest yknow. very lily to me. she's also like extremely witty which is a big lily quality. plus she sticks up for what she believes & doesn't take the easy way out even though it would've saved her life.

[aemondtargaryen]

HELLO i haven't finished yet the netflix show but what are your thoughts on young Úrsula? I read the book a couple of times but it was looong ago. I remember Úrsula as someone resigned to the inevitable. I certainly don't remember her so deeply in love with José Arcadio, and even less willing to have sex. I don't remember her as a sexual creature at all, despite the book having no problems getting into that.

I didnt like her that much the first part but i think her characterization improved a ton when she got older and switched actresses.

Also do you think they managed to achieve that magical realism feeling? Personally I don't think so and that makes me a little sad but despite all it was definetly a good show. Maybe the bar was too high probably.

I loved Aureliano though! Adult Aureliano was very Aurelianesque 10/10. Amaranta and Rebeca were excellent too!!

Im finally on my laptop yay!! Also when I got this ask I hadn't yet finished the show so now I can give a better answer (you probably also finished it too anon because I took years to answer lmao)

I actually liked young Ursula. She felt like I always imagined her, more than resigned, resilient. She always found a way to make things go her way, even when her husband wasn't present, she always pushed through (which is a pretty common situation in latin american households, women many times carry the burden of the house but in a tacit manner and thats how I think Ursula was portrayed). About the sex thing tbh I never got that reading from her. There's definitely some characters whose stories revolve more around sex but thats not what her story is about. However I feel she loved her husband all through her life and it shows in differents manners than just steamy sex scenes like Rebeca's.

On the magical realism I think you're right, some scenes could be perceived as being only inside the character's head for non book readers, when the purpose of magical realism is that they really are experiment those crazy phenomenons in their reality. I think they shied away a bit from it but many of the more iconic "magical" moments are still yet to come so there's hope.

Now my real pet peeve was the delivery of some of the lines. I think theres a lot of the dialogue that should have been said with more force, specially young Jose Arcadio and Ursula. They felt so calmed when I always imagined them if not yelling at least angry. Latinos are usually louder, or at least we venezuelans are. Maybe colombians aren't but I would like to think we aren't that different, so the flatness of the dialogues felt off sometimes. This too goes for the narrator.

Aureliano!! Aureliano IS 100 años de soledad so there was a lot of pressure both on the writers and the actor. Physically I think he's perfect. Also hot enough to pull that moustache lmao. Again I had some problems with the delivery of some lines at first where he just seemed too passive, but as soon as he became the Colonel everything changed (and maybe that was the idea now that I think about it). Although I gotta say the last couple of episodes made me realize that he kinda became a terrorist in the end and I hadnt caught up that in my readings (which were a lot, ive read that book like 5 or 6 times) and in my mind he always fought for justice but now seeing it again I can see he was just as corrupted by violence and power as Arcadio in the end. It did besmirch my perception of him a little, because it reminded me of whats going on currently in Colombia and the armed conflict and how he would fit right in with people from groups like the FARC. Sidenote: I think his relationship to Remedios was done masterfully, we know she's a child but the scenes were carried in a way no child actress had to be intimate with the actor.

Amaranta was great, I love how they managed to show Amaranta's two sides, the conniving vengative damaged soul, along with her maternal, calm, also damage soul lmao. Rebeca I think is the only casting that looked completely different to how I imagined her physically, but the actress did a good job portraying her.

All in all I think it was a really good adaptation, particularly for such a loved book and one with really high expectations. I think it was done in the best of moments because it was done with a high budget but with colombian actors and setting (looking at you Casa de los espiritus). Theres some things that could be improved but most of them are personal preferences. Its a really good show and I can't wait for season 2!

[our-queer-experience]

lol im so glad ive finally found a blog which supports anons. anyway im not sure if im aromantic (though def not asexual)?? im in a relationship rn but thinking about the future i just. get SO icked out by the idea of being in a relationship. not love in general like my favourite thing ever is anything and everything to do with jane austen so obviously love and romance isn't a problem, i'm not averse to all that - but. i think it might have to do with experiences? my past relationships havent been amazing like, i've been lovebombed and then aired and it really freaks me out when people are romantically affectionate (like, this kind of contradicts my earlier point and this is going to sound SO dumb but when im reading romeo and juliet i get sick to the stomach reading the way romeo speaks to juliet because my ex used to talk to me like that and. well. it just scares me.) & my parents relationship is really crap like when they were young they were so in love and now theyre always so cruel to each other & havign a family esp the way my father behaves is literally dragging my mother's career down which is honestly not something that i want. i value my career/interests above anything else. the idea of being with another person in the future genuinely makes me feel sick. i don't want it at all. but then there are also times when i think you know, this might not be so bad. i don't mind being in a relationship rn. i like my partner, i really do. this isn't gender related, i think the same way towards people of any gender - more receptive towards women than men, but i already knew that. i also don't want to label myself as aromantic because i want to leave room for this to change in the future and im a big believer in not tying myself down to anything especially seeing as i am still young. also, i don't know if this might be inherently the way i was born? i remember being super happy with my ex, the one i mentioned above. i genuinely enjoyed being in a romantic relationship, not just being with him as a person. its just how my view has changed i guess. is it still okay to say i'm aromantic? i don't even think i am, and tbh labels have never been a big deal for me. labelling is scary, and personally for my perception (not everyones though & i totally get that) seems kind of irrevocable. i want to say thinking about not being in a relationship when im older is a choice but genuinely i dont think i could do it (or want to!!) from a purely it-icks-me-out way. it makes me so sad when ppl talk about having a partner in the future like its something thats going to happen to me because i just don't want it to happen to me. whenever we discuss relationships in an academic context, like at school, it stresses me out so much because i don't want to feel like i have to be in a romantic relationship ever. thankfully i have no parental pressure - my mother encourages me to do what i want and tbh my dad is chill with wtv. it's not a commitment issue, i know that, because the idea of committing myself to a person in another way eg. like a platonic marriage/lifelong roommates makes me really happy and is probably what i want. it's just the romance that bothers me. please give advice!! i am so so sorry for the long ask. i need to talk to someone about this and nobody i know irl is going to take me seriously i dont think - im so scared about arophobia from the people that i dont know and the people i trust know my partner and might take this the wrong way. i really do like being with him, but tbh we don't really act romantic. most people think we've broken up/rnt together lol. thank you so much ♡♡♡♡ forever indebted to you

the simple answer is that you can do whatever you want forever. the complicated answer is that sexuality and romantic orientation is hard. its rarely simple. it can be hard to extrapolate your experiences from your feelings, its hard to know if you could or should. id recommend looking into terms like romance repulsed alloromantic and stuff. good luck!

[quailxcrossing]

Asks!!

🌧 Magic

❌️ 💽 Cradle

🏳Maiceo

🍳 💽 Esperanza

🧋🎺Ruse

🥂 Kennedy

🐇 Shiloh

🥰 Cranberry

😷 Tai

❌️ Aria

❌️🧼 Louin

🥰 Lake

YAYYY ASH HELLO oh my goodness so many delightful questions oh my god all of my beloved guys are in there

read more bc its a bit of a bit!!!

🌧 Magic "When outside during the rain, do you use a raincoat, an umbrella, or something else? Do you enjoy rain?" Raincoat! Umbrella! Always cute and matching! I imagine they're ladybug-themed, she's literally just SUCH a little ladybug gal. She doesn't mind the rain, she likes the cooler weather and the atmosphere, she doesn't like getting WET though, she's not one to run around in the rain without her raincoat and booties and umbrella! She is also not a huge fan of the sound of thunder, should there be any...she knooowssss its not gonna hurt her. but its so loud :( She's come to enjoy rain even more with Ruse's reaction, which is nothing short of exhilarated

❌️ 💽 Cradle ❌ "Would you do something that someone told you not to do? Why? Is there someone you'd actually listen to more than everyone else?"

Cradle has learned the hard way to not to listen to people blindly, they do not take other people's advice or opinions to heart in the slightest. It will form its own judgment and decide what to do! A life of being underestimated and working in the haggling business will do that. Cradle does take any notes from her tenants to heart though- truly its less like Cradle is just a landlord (despite them calling themselves that) and its more of a rehabilitation center if i'm honest. so cradle pays close attention to what their gaggle of people need, and if they want Cradle to change something, they may be more inclined begrudgingly

💽 "Do you collect anything? Why?" Cradle has a huge collection of weird magical weapons and objects, which just tend to crop up in Waffle Fries for various reasons- regardless, Cradle just has a huge fixation on gathering as many as possible and using them to trade-up for increasingly powerful ones. why exactly their place looks like a super villain lair?? cradle just thinks they're neat. he has very little intention to use most of them, but does enjoy playing with some of his toys

cradle also has their friendgroup of weird little freaky people, it just hat keeps getting bigger. and then taking care of them in their big complex, cradle has quite a few complexes if im honest

🏳️ "What will make you give up?"

Maiceo. ooughf. open and closes my mouth several times like im going to say something Ilieuuuuu....... I'm going to break Maiceo down like a crazy chain reaction, but I think if Ilieu was just there,,,,things could've gone faster. or completely utterly totally worse, but i want to hope things would've been better! Maiceo wants Ilieu so badly, the feelings are too intense for them to register Its gonna get worse before it gets better

🍳 💽 Esperanza 🍳 "Are you a good cook? Do you enjoy cooking? What's your favorite thing to cook?" Esperanza used to be a pretty good cook!! She was not so bad at following a recipe and making a little tasty delight :3 she really enjoyed it tbh like. one of her main hobbies, it kept her moving and active even when she couldn't be! and she could share it with friends and thats, like, her favorite thing (friends)

but since Esperanza went through a bit of ordeal, her head's a bit swimmy, and her body is even worse condition, so a lot of the little things she didn't really think about before (the mobility required for the kitchen and a lot of the tools, as well as a head clear enough to follow directions and remember steps and minute details) has been more difficult for her she's trying to work herself back up into cooking, especially since she missed food so much :< she liked wraps....burritos and sandwiches....things within other things.....very popular in Tuesday! she could make a crazy shredded chicken

💽 "Do you collect anything? Why?" Quicker answer, no </3 she loves her objects but she doesn't really have a dedicated collection! in TFO she collects funny videos to send her friends, tiktok saved collection of like 10k videos but idk if that counts

🧋 "What's your go-to thing to drink? Do you prefer cold or hot drinks?" water <3 genuinely she loves all drinks, she loves the wide range of drinks here, absolutely blowing her mind, her home has some good drinks but THERES JUST SO MANY HERE...what the fuck is ocean spray cranberry.....she just about freaked the fuck out drinking fruit punch the first time but water is still her favorite, for reasons...

🎺 "What kind of music do you mostly listen to? Do you know how to play an instrument, and if not, which one would you want to learn to play?" No instrument! but i think it would be really cool if she did give one a try...i might try to put one in her paws she LOVES rock music, she loves the rising synth genre, anything really quick and aggressive!! loud and in her ears!!! gets her so excited she starts running around like one of those small dogs who spin in circles for absolutely no reason when the guitar riff hits she's cryin but she likkessss..........MY OC........wonder fan

[phanomenology]

what are some phancoded songs?

hiiii omg thanks for the ask!! i absolutely love talking about songs i associate with my interests!! (autism has been activated to the highest degree so this will be a long post, you have been warned)

here are some of what i think are classic dnp coded songs:

Guys by The 1975 (i see this as more about the phandom than about dnp tbh but its very very dnp coded no matter how you interpret it) That's So Us by Allie X Still into You by Paramore The Only Exception by Paramore

i have a whole ass 100 song long playlist about dnp but let me give you my favourites that aren't the usual classics:

Eighteen by Pale Waves

This city depresses me But you try to be everything I need We sat on the corner kissing each other Felt like I could finally see in colour I was 18 when I met you Poured my heart out, spilt all my truth I finally felt like I could feel for the first time When I met you

i mean????? thats 2009 dan and phil????? dip and pip??? hello!!??

also fun fact!!: this band is from manchester and this song was written by their non-binary drummer and lesbian lead singer (who lowkey gives lesbian version of dan). you should rlly listen to pale waves. idek if theyve heard of dnp but theyre true phannies to me.

Starlight by Muse

this song, man. never heard of muse until i got into dnp and then i this song was the first one is listened to.

Hold you in my arms I just wanted to hold You in my arms

i feel like it says sth about the expectations of being in a relationship while also presenting yourself on a massive public platform. wanting to be authentic and produce content^tm vs. being closeted and wanting to protect your relationship. 'I will be chasing a starlight, Until the end of my life, I don't know if it's worth it anymore'. Is worth it to constantly push the content out while feeling like a fraud for being inauthentic about your identity? 'And our hopes and expectations, Black holes and revelations'. the future may seem very dark and hopeless sometimes, it may not turn out how we expect or hope, but only once we face instead of fight it (embrace the void etc) we will forgive our past selves and see that the future really is bright. so yes, very dnp coded.

Anniversary by Autoheart

Years of nothing have subsided We have fixed each other up Giving you up? What are you on about? I'll never give up believing in us Giving you up? Now why would I do a thing like that? No I’m not giving you up, no way I will never stop when it comes to you

this song is not only dnp coded (kind of an october 19th theme song) but also has gained a new meaning since the return of dnp games <3. they didnt give up on us. they came back. and we really helped each other get here <3. think about it like that when listening and i guarantee you will be sobbing. the song also has some marriage themes bc theres wedding vows during the bridge so i will just let you live with that <33

Where the Lines Overlap by Paramore

Tracing patterns across a personal map And making pictures where the lines overlap No one is as lucky as us We're not at the end but oh, we already won Call me over And tell me how Well, you got so far Never making a single sound I'm not used to it But I can learn

we werent ready for their comeback / we're still learning to get used to it / just look at them / boiling frog theory / hard phaunch / do i need to say more

Yellow by Coldplay

this song became part of my playlist when phil didnt know a single coldplay song. unfortunately i cant take it serious anymore after dan was turned into a golden pig, then was literally glowing golden during a book event all while #pissyourself4dan was trending and every phannie on twt made their pfps yellow. i will curse your mind to with the lyrics and mental imagery: (im sorry but im also not bc this is how my autism thinks humour works)

Look at the stars Look how they shine for you And everything you do Yeah, they were all yellow ✨✨ Your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones Turn into something beautiful ✨✨✨ And you know, you know I love you so 💛

✨✨✨

(im sorry again)

Safe & Sound by Tonight Alive

Dan in BIG: "for the first time since I was a tiny child I actually felt safe."

Nothing compares to what we share I don't have a care in the world Cause even if it all came crashing down, As long as you're around, I'll be safe and sound. 🧡

ending it with a nice one because its beautiful and sappy and its so them afterall. they really won rpf.

thank you for this ask, i enjoyed answering it!! (im sorry for taking so long. im on day 11 of a cold so ive not had much energy.)