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astronautmike-dexter · 5 months ago

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#rant time here where i can get shit out in a hidden tucked away place #but qhy the fuck are families so difficult #like #i thought i had such a normal family growing up until i was about 14 #and every year it gets worse #parents are so mentally unwell that it literally causes damage to us kids #older brother is checked out to focus on his own family and kids #but then still butts in when he thinks he needs to play the man of the family #only to make matters worse #younger sister is having to put up with it all bc she's still in my hometown #everyone is racist to her boyfriend even tho they've been together for 6-7 years and he's literally made her such a better person #it's fucked #and then they all come running to me to vent and/or solve things bc I live somewhere else #idk man #it's just cooked #and like #i had a breakdown to kris tbe other day when this latest shit with my family and sister's bf popped up #bc why the fuck should i bring a kid into this shitshow of a family #why not just end the bullshit here #anyway #that's my vent for this friday evening #all this just in time for me to go home for a few days and confront my dad and brother for IMPLYING MY SISTER'S BF IS VERBALLY ABUSIVE #EVEN THO THEY NEVER SEE HIM BC HE FEELS SO UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND THEM #uugghhhghhhhhhhhgh

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ch2n2o2x3 · 2 months ago

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₊‧° 𝓣𝓸𝓭𝓪𝔂, 𝓘 𝓪𝓶 𝓖♡𝓭 °‧₊

𝒯𝑜𝓂𝑜𝓇𝓇𝑜𝓌… 𝓌𝒽𝑜 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌𝓈?

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gammaraydeath · 2 months ago

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does anybody have any experience with taking medication for mood and/or personality disorders that they'd be willing to talk with me about? it's not something i enjoy the thought of but i've been thinking it might be necessary for me. i'm curious about the cost/benefit wrt side effects. extremely random post for a mass effect blog sorry

#reached out to get the contact information for a psych today but it's friday evening so.#gotta wait till monday to learn more about that #i'm tired of being miserable and dragging everyone i love down with me. i will literally do anything to get better #i only get 2 more therapy appointments thru uni so i need to figure this out for the long term #mini vent in tags lol whatever it's my personal blog. if i wanna talk about my struggling i can

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smolldust · 4 months ago

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despite managing to get a B on my ap English test today, I’m definitely gonna fail my math test on friday

#I didn’t even KNOW the test was Friday until today!!!!#She never said anything!!!!!!#And it wasn’t on the online calendar!!!!!#Killing myself #i fucking hate math with a burning passion #Making my gay ass do math should be a hate crime /j #smolldust #smolldust rambles #Sighs #rant #kinda #idk #vent #maybe?

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blushy-tigerrr · 5 months ago

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vent in tags sorry

cw: mention of loss

#adding a long note to the beginning so no one sees the actual vent in the case that they don’t want to which is absolutely okay #okay that’s probably good #i feel like a failure today.#my car wouldn’t start on friday and i haven’t had a moment to actually call a mechanic until today #called early in the morning and he said he’d call me back with a time #i’ve reached out multiple times since then and have heard NOTHING #if i don’t get it fixed today i’ll have to take my partners car instead #and when i asked them if that would possibly be okay #they started off on a rant about how they were planning to do all this shit tomorrow morning and now can’t if they don’t have their car #but genuinely. how tf was i supposed to know about their plans?? why did they have to say it all like this is completely my fault???#i’m sorry that i’m still in a not so good mental place right now and might forget to do things in a more timely manner #i’ve had two grandparents pass away in the span of a few WEEKS. give me a little grace.#i give them the same understanding every day when they’re having a rough time #so why can’t they offer me the same thing?#i know they’re just stressed and tired and busy but FUCK SO AM I #i’m just. over it. i want to go to sleep.#and by sleep i mean literal sleep i’m not insinuating anything darker i promise #i may be in a rough spot mentally but it is not that kind of rough <3 i’m safe #just. very tired. and in need of support.#i feel like i’m always giving and rarely getting support in this relationship.#and now i’m just feeling like a burden and an inconvenience for even needing the extra support in the first place #the urge to run away and start my life over is strong holy shit

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fadeintoyou1993 · 6 months ago

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having to explain to people things like. if i have to go out to do something and run errands i need to have it all mapped out and planned w like. at least a week in advance. and if i go out that day i cannot do anything else because That will be it. if i have multiple commitments that cannot be put on the same day i need one full day in between those commitments so i can rest and be recharged for that next thing otherwise i might have a breakdown in the middle of the street (again) and then That will render me unable to function for like a whole three days. and then people look at me like i choose to live like this?

#txt #audhd tag #just venting a little #its crazy because ppl around me are like I understand your limitations However why dont you-#So you dont understand my limitations?#like okay yeah i understand that it must be Weird for people that are not Inside my brain and hard to understand that i PHYSICALLY CANNOT>#do things that they dont even think about. alright! but to sit and tell me Yeah we get it! but then try to either fix it or >#> come up w a New Incredible Way To Fix Me as if half of what i talk abt w my therapist isnt Exactly This #like yeah i dont fucking like it either. i wish i could do shit like other ppl do. i wish i could remember things.#i wish i didnt feel exhausted all the time i wish simply leaving my bed wasnt the most difficult task every single morning #but it pisses me OFF when people try to talk me through these Limitations i have that They Understand<3 like. can you be accommodating or no #one of my closest friends and oldest friends since i was like 5 had her bday on friday and she ljterally messaged me like #Hi we r having something w my family but theyre rly loud and extremist on the right wing side and i barely wanna be here u dont have 2 come>#> but i wanted to invite u anyway so u dont think ur being left out! and i was like Yayy nice thank u bc lbr i probably wouldnt go anyway.#and she KNOWS that. and she literally was talking to me like she alwahs does and That felt accommodating and understanding and i felt loved #cut to my mom last night trying to make me feel guilty for not going because Shes my friend and i should have gone anyway.#i told her off and she backtracked but thats still innmy head like. that shit is so irritating #okay sorry vent over im just aboht to get my period so this is making me sick #want to yell into the void and forget about it. Hits post

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melrosing · 1 year ago

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anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

#ok so this a lot of personal shit but I’m just gonna incredulously vent into the tags #like I don’t even know how to describe what 2023 in this job has been like lol #since April they’ve been insulting and scrutinising and scapegoating me over absolutely everything #they were really angling for just firing me outright for never measuring up to their constantly shifting and increasingly bizarre goalposts #and it got so personal man they kept insisting that it wasn’t but my god #then my dad gets sick and it suddenly becomes awkward for them to keep insulting and overworking me #so they switch to just ignoring me entirely so they don’t have to reckon w what me and my family are going through #like they never ask how he is or how things are going just every Friday they say hey do you reckon you can take more work on again?#and THEN I get a gut infection and suddenly im being guilt tripped for taking sick leave and pestered for evidence #it was giving like ‘we had to give you time off for your dad but now you’re taking the piss’#to the point I DID reach out to a third party at the company and was like ‘I’m sorry but why the fuck are they treating me like this’#and she was like ‘confidentially this is disgusting and I advise you to report it’#WHEN SUDDENLY I get back from sick leave and it’s like ‘the business is falling short so we have to make some redundancies….’#and now they’ve had to pay me a SUBSTANTIAL sum to fuck off!!! I think I win???#like I was so close to quitting but thank god I didn’t because now I’m getting a sweet deal to fuck off with no notice lmao #i leave end of the month #at first I was shocked like y’all really doing this now??? but suddenly I’m like. this is the best possible thing that could’ve happened #I spoke to that third party again and she was like ‘I am so happy for you’ like omfg it was a curveball but we’ll take it!!!#I’m fucking outta here and in due course I WILL be writing on glassdoor how fucked they are

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fridayyy-13th · 4 months ago

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wow. not even a week into college and i'm already behind on work. fucking lovely.

#friday chats #friday vs post-secondary school #tw vent #(in the following tags)#i am immeasurably stressed right now #i need to talk to my doctor about getting a booster to go along w/my adhd meds #bc this has been a problem for a while but i think it's about to come to a head #and i'm very scared for when that happens #maybe also talk to my school's disability services #bc Good Fucking God i'm already overwhelmed #it's 11:56. should i just go to bed? i have so many things left to do #when do i even have the time to go to disability services. and i've heard a lot of schools' processes w/that are slow and overcomplicated #fuck. fuck fuck fuckity fuck.#i think i'm spiraling #i'm worried that if i don't get a degree i won't be able to find a nice enough job to support myself independent of my family #and i don't want to be stuck with them forever #i really really don't #maybe i can talk to disability services sometime tomorrow morning. see what they can do #i think there's mental health services too. i hope they're decent #i just feel really bad right now. and it's only week one.#it feels like time's moving too fast but too slow at the same time #classes take forever but my free time zips by and runs out way too quick #and when it's gone i've completed maybe one or two things. out of several. if any at all.#i just don't know what to do. it's only been three days.#maybe i can drop a class; i think i'm taking enough to still be considered a full-time student with one less thing on my plate #i hope so #fucking damn it #how do people do this??? for multiple years????#and i feel selfish for saying this but i hope if y'all see this post you'll interact with it somehow. even just a like.#i want to know someone hears me

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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they need to make a killing myself I can do every weekend but only on the weekends so I can get up fine on monday and go to work again

#.vent #maybe i should start drinking so i can get blackout drunk every weekend. or fuck around w sedatives or pay someone to just whack me round #the head with a sledgehammer on friday evenings and hopefully ill recover from the concussion by mondays #its not even funny what the fuck is wrong with me that i have to spend all my free time trying not to kill myself i feel so sick #im literally fine at work i guess i just dont know how to have fun or be happy or feel wanted or cared for or loved by other people #but dont have to think about that when im working so its fine 5/7 days which is pretty good. im so lonely i want to throw up #tried to leave the house got ready and everything and then burst into tears for no reason ive spent the past hour trying to talk myself #down from hurting myself and i probably wont in the next few hours but i almost certainly will before the day is up. oh well #man who fucking cares. typing this isnt making me feel any better i dont really know what to do anymore #i have a drs appt in 2 weeks for smth unrelated but maybe ill ask abt antidepressants. theres nothing specific causing this #my brain just doesnt work right.i dont even feel like a person most of the time #well nothing else to say 👍

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themcst · 7 days ago

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Hi. I'm reaching breaking point. It was awful today. Rota for next week is out. Hospitality is atrocious right now. I miss my dog. I miss my family. I genuinely do not get to see any of them this upcoming week and I am doing another 50 hour week. Sunday have to drive home and get presents that need to be wrapped.

Monday I go to dads after work to drop of my Christmas presents for everyone at my dads. Spend Christmas with my mum. I get Friday of by I see myself sleeping all day at this rate because I'm so drained or just hiding in a room to not exist and play games.

I'll for sure going to be back in the new year once I don't have to suffer. Except with the stress of preparing for comic con and hoping my cosplay arrives in time. Wish me luck as I finish this 6 day week but by the time I get off for Christmas I will have worked 6 days in a row. Good thing I finished my shopping on Wednesday because I wouldn't get anything sorted before Christmas day.

#【☆】 ooc ramblings / asks.#// guys im tired #// im achy #// im exhausted and drained #// im tired of stupid people #// one of my chef besties got told not to come back #// cause he gave off in the chef/kp chat #// about how difficult kp has it and the shift pattern isn't appropriate for them #// and big boss told him to not come in #// and its so fucked cause i only saw him friday night on a night out in passing and talked with him #// and my bestie in restuarnt has left for good now cause he did 2 jobs for a bit #// and ended in hospital cause of exhaustion #// so im just ready for the new year cause anyone who makes my job worth it right now are gone except like 5 other people #// and even then i don't see them half the time lmao #// i need a nap #// at least im getting my desktop sorted out #cw // vent

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 10 months ago

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one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

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authenticaussie · 16 days ago

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Wow I don't think I have EVER so blatantly had someone who only wanted/wants to chat to me Just so that they have someone patient to vent to.

Welp!!!!! Gonna make it easier to set boundaries in the future now that I'm thinking this through tbh!!!

#me: yeah I had a really good day!#me: it was nice because you've seen me this week haha. and I've been really circling the drain stress wise :)#her: yeah. anyway #her: can we chat? i need to get some things out of my brain and it would be good to talk to someone ❤️#....this is after I spent. Wednesday Thursday AND Friday listening to her rant about personal things even after saying I was tired #AND she messaged me multiple times about personal family drama on Thursday #bip bop nari drops #anyway. mm. sorry for venting. but WOW.#babe. no wonder you have minimal friends. you're mean to people you don't think are Smart and you're selfish to the people you like.

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maraeffect · 17 days ago

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hi everyone, this is my monthly check-in <3

#not feeling so great lately...there's a lesion on my other knee now #and it most likely is cancer.#they want me to wait another 10 days for an mri???? like ur crazy #if u think i can wait that long.#sighhhhhhhhh.#anyway.#some cool things have happened #like spending all day in nyc with my partner on friday <3333 #and um. i did wnt to vent about smth so uh.#ED tw #lately #my energy has been too low for me to wanna cook. which in turn made my stomach shrink a LOT #since i've been surviving by grazing on snacks.#and i didnt even realize i lost weight until i went to the doctor.#i didnt realize though that it would be even MORE lost when i weighed myself without my winter clothes #and uhhhh. i currently weigh what i weighed in my senior year of high school #which is the FIRST time i've been under a certain number in over SIX YEARS.#and i havent struggled at all w body negativity or ED thoughts in over a couple years. but.#now that my ideal gender expression has shifted more to the feminine side. and now that ive lost weight.#my brain INSTANTLY latched onto that #and was like omg YES do more of that #and it feels nice. this time im FINALLY not struggling to suppress my appetite!!! my body is doing that for me!#and obviously im still eating enough to live on #but still a huge caloric deficit. and rn my wheelchair shit keeps breaking on me. my mobility company is INCOMPETENT.#and my insurance might tell me i have to wait FIVE MORE YEARS for another type of chair......I WILL DIE BY THEN.#ugh everything is so complicated now. and im ALWAYS exhausted bc the sun sets at 4:30. i've just stopped binging and i replaced it with+#a LOT. of retail therapy. i've easily spent probably 1500 of my credit limit in the last 2 months. but you know.#that and not eating are 2 of the ONLY things i can control rn. out of all the fucking bullshit these useless people and my body put me thru #anyway. i'm sure you can tell how i feel rn. i'm just going to try doing anything else today.#vent

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jup1tersparx · 2 months ago

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i wanna go home (<- left the house 1 minute ago)

#all my teachers are gonna be mad at me #im already gonna be late bc i missed my train #my mum didnt wake me up when she told me she would #i lost my favourite ring that ive had for years #hhhhhhhhhh #on the plus side:#i thought i forgot my backup bralette for if i want to take my binder off but i DIDNT YAYYY #i had a backup backup!!! 🎉🎉🎉#and i’ve successfully had a nice evening every day for the last week so i dont wanna die anymore #its friday #my outfit is cute #i successfully did all the (insane amount of) work i needed to last night #im on top of all my responsibilities rn #we stay silly. we shall prosper. it will be fine #jupiter talks #vent post #tw sui ideation

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d3ad-end-girl · 2 months ago

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WIEIAD 10/16

Gross~ 662 cals

Burnt~ 84 cals

Net~ 578 cals

Steps ~ 5,472

#the stupid vent blog #wieiad #Stopped eating at 11:00am and am doing a 24 hour fast into tomorrow #and i had a test and you could just hear my stomach growling the whole time even tho I'm not feeling any hunger #anyways i think my test went well but i did fumble the bag with my crush this morning so honestly a net zero day #now to study for the midterm Friday. yayyyyyyy me #<700 #<800 #<900 #<1000 #<1200

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daz4i · 3 months ago

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well it's been awhile since i last reached a point of crying from pain - less from the actual pain itself and more the frustration over it not going away - but it's nice to see that things always reach the point of me leaning on the wall in the shower half screaming half groaning bc what else do i even have left to do abt this shit.

#took another ibuprofen but it's probably too much but idk what else to do bc i need to go to sleep soon #already took a sleeping pill but i don't think it can work when the pain's filling me with adrenaline and is also very annoying #i hate this sm #this isn't even the same type of pain i used to have #this is a temporary thing for sure #but i can't treat it bc i don't actually have time to go to the doctor tomorrow #and wednesday is a holiday #thursday too. only at friday would i be able to. but the clinic closes super early that day bc sabbath #i was hoping it'll go away by today bc it usually does atp but it didn't. and i'm so mad.#bc realistically speaking i'll have to put up with this until after monday #bc only on monday i'd be able to actually see a doctor. if there's even any available. bc my doctor recently left this clinic too #i hate this sm i truly hate it here (my shitty ass body that should've died and gotten swallowed by nature years ago)#Anyway.#vent #medical //#ask to tag #sorry for all the vent posts lately. as you can see. things are not good

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