#that there was no reason i was born
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life is bad and i’m filled with rage
#bumbles (bee mumbles)#i’m thinking about my dad and my grandparents and extended family#how all of them knew we were being abused neglected and did fucking less than nothing#how my grandpa was supposed to be providing financial support and we only learned after he passed away that he ignored my grandmas will#i just keep thinking over and over as i’m struggling with my life emotionally and financially#like things could have been better if there had just been… a a small amount of kindness#or ppl actually doing their jobs#it doesn’t even have to do with how bad things are right now#but sometimes i get so fucking bitter about how things could have been#i keep thinking how much i wish my parents hadn’t had so many kids#how i wish i had never been born#that there was no reason i was born#that i’m just another fucking piece of trash in a hoarders collection#that i’m loved more as a possession than a child#idk why i’m here#i didn’t ask for this#i’m so angry and sad#i feel like every time i stand up someone pulls the rug out from under me and gets pissed that i lost my balance
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mutuals, out of curiosity what season were you born in and what's your favorite season?
#my favorite season is spring and i was born in winter#this is something that I love to know for whatever reason
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At your side [End of Season 2]
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#wen ning#jin ling#wen qing#jiang yanli#a-yuan#It may have taken a year but we did it! The end of season 2!!!#(Granted: this season was nearly twice the length of season one.)#It's been a really fantastic season to draw for. So many iconic moments! It was a lot of work but I had a blast B*)#I also enjoyed experimenting more and more with my comic style. I'm growing as a comic artist bit by bit!#There is even a little bit of shadowing in this one for next season. As a treat. All the fun (and not heart breaking) scenes to come!#Comic talk time: Recently saw 12 angry men for first time and I love the coincidence of the themes aligning here.#They both touch upon the horror of judicial systems - in which the most persuasive argument wins and the truth is a nuisance.#All it takes is one person to stand against the crowd and say 'I do not know what is true. And that is reasonable doubt enough.'#When the majority is for condemning someone guilty - that in itself is persuasive enough.#One will set their mind to what the 'truth' is and refuse to see it any other way. That their perspective is the only correct one.#No one is born with a monopoly on the truth.#Everyone has biases and agendas. Some care not for the outcome - only that they can be on the convenient side.#Lan Wangji is putting everything on the line to say 'I'm not going to go with the majority vote.'#And that is a huge deal in a story that is so politically focused as MDZS is. Everything is a careful chess move to these sects -#and to not play the game is basically sacrificing everything you are and your families name. For some it is unthinkable.#And there is no doubt in LWJ's mind. He would stand there and lose everything if it means upholding justice.#More importantly - these two have each other's backs. The bond is unbreakable. This is the most ride or die I have seen two people be.
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separate ways
#so i became utterly consumed by pre-war dratchet#they make me so damn sad#like i don't think they could've understood each other very well back then#even millions of years later ratchet's still kinda functionist about his hands. probably since he's always been intimately connected to aut#so no one gives him shit and he's probably rarely had to imagine himself in someone else's position#meanwhile drift had nothing#ratchet: why don't you get a job#drift (stuck in the dead end for a reason):#but at the same time ratchet cared enough to try to help and drift remembers that and udgfdhhdhdh#they match beautifully in mtmte/ll. guy who's never belonged anywhere. guy who's always belonged somewhere#guy who made a place for himself by killing. guy who kept his place by healing#born-again guy. tenured guy finally thinking of deviating from the job he was assigned at birth#but also i kinda needed to practice 3d modeling for work. but also i really really wanted to try fake etching because i like the metallic l#so here's something vaguely metaphorical born of my desire to everything at once#maccadam#dratchet#transformers idw#tf ratchet#tf drift#my art
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“Eren took off first, Mikasa stayed behind him, and I was dead last.” Eren died first, Mikasa buried beside him, Armin kept visiting their graves as an old man until he joined them
Race towards the tree/chronological order they died in
#towards the tree on the hill#maybe the reason i was born#was so we coukd race towards rhat tree#Eren died first#Mikasa buried beside him after a long life#and Armin kept visiting them as an old man until he joined then#eren jaeger#attack on titan#shingeki no kyojin#eren#aot#eren yeager#anime#mikasa ackerman#mikasa#levi#Armin Arlert#Aot end#the end#ema trio#Eremika#Eremin
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I love when people play with the idea that Dick and Jason are bound together by a father that no longer exists. It's something only they can relate to each other on. If one of them goes down, the surviving one loses the one other person in the world who understood what it was like to have Bruce as a father before trauma flayed the skin from Bruce's bones.
#this is one of the reasons why i love sibling characters so much#sometimes your sibling is the only other person who will understand how you grew up and what your parents are actually like#but it can be way more complicated than that#because sometimes siblings have the same parents but grow up completely differently#like the first born child might get so little from the parents but then a child that's born 10 years later will get so much from the parent#it's so interesting how complex it can all be#Dick Grayson#Jason Todd
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I feel like 99% of the Silmarillion fans forget that Fëanor was actually a very likeable guy for most of his life.
That is literally a significant part of why people followed him. A lot of people loved and admired him. He wasn't mean to random people, and definitely not "a toxic husband/father." The whole point of his story is that he was universally beloved, which is what made his fall so impactful.
#the silmarillion#feanorians#feanor#2 am thoughts#tolkien#silmarillion#i swear people do this guy so dirty#just because he was an ass after being driven to insanity must mean he was born like that#i mean there's a reason nolo loved him#and im sure that wasn't just because feanor was good at smithing#and then there's folks claiming he ABUSED his kids??#or Nerdanel???#the worst he did was yell at her even in his worst moments...#besides he allowed her to leave when she wanted too#if he had been as bad as people claim im sure he would've forced her to go with them#nowhere in the text is it implied he was ever bad to her or the kids#incoherent thoughts of an insomniac#jrr tolkien
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Unpleasant Revelations - DPxDC Ficlet Idea for the Stillborn Au
"Have you met my youngest, Damian, Mr. Masters?"
Its only from twenty years of long, hard experience and practice that Vlad doesn't increase the room temperature from 'borderline uncomfortably cool' to 'unbearably hot' the moment Bruce Wayne pulls his youngest and "only" biological son out in front of him.
He puts only in quotations because twelve year old Damian Wayne looks scarily, uncannily like one Daniel Brown. Jack and Maddie's foster son, second victim of their foolishness, and only other halfa in existence. Second only to him.
It's nauseating how similar they look. From the scowl and terrible glare on the young boy's face, to his brown skin -- which was only a few shades lighter than Daniel's, the shape of his nose, and even the strange winged edge of his eyebrow. Something that Vlad has long since come to find endearing on the child he considered a son of his own. The only difference was that Damian had dark, sharp green eyes.
Daniel's eyes were blue. The same glacier shade as his father's, who stood behind Damian with a proud, oafish smile on his visage.
It was infuriating how similar they look. Vlad might not have rapidly swung the room temperature from one extreme to the other, but he can't stop himself from letting the fury burning within his core from slipping out and raising the temperature up a few degrees.
Because it really only meant one thing.
Damian Wayne and Daniel Brown were related.
Damian Wayne and Daniel Brown were brothers.
Standing in front of him, it was clear as day. He can already picture a phantom image of Daniel standing beside Damian, the same scowl written on his face, the same glare carved into his eyes. The only difference being the dark, exhausted circles beneath them that seemed to be permanently painted onto his skin. The only thing missing being the permanent loneliness and vigilance permeating his being like a scar.
This, if revealed, would be enough to ruin Bruce Wayne's reputation. Or, at the very least, darken it quite a bit. The great philanthropist Bruce Wayne with another secret blood child? One related to his youngest? One that had been put into foster care? Seemingly thrown away?
It would be a firestorm.
One that Vlad is not keen on starting.
It would ruin Bruce Wayne's reputation, yes. But it would hurt Daniel in the process -- the harassment he would face alone might just be enough to break that fragile child completely. That was just not something he could allow. Or, even worse, bring him into his biological father's care and custody -- something Vlad was even less willing to allow.
It's not out of kindness to Wayne that Vlad will keep mum about this.
His grip on his champagne flute tightens, just a bit. He's still aware enough of the world around him to not let it shatter in his hands. His plastered, pleasant smile tightens around the corners, and he forces his focus to slide from Damian to Wayne.
"The resemblance is uncanny, Mister Wayne." He says, slanting his smile to the side slyly. Although he's not talking about the resemblance between Wayne and his son. Rage simmers beneath his skin, burning coal and embers in the core of his chest, nestled between his lungs, as he meets the man's eyes.
Wayne swaggles his head proudly, his ditzy smile widening as he squeezes his son's shoulder affectionately. Bastard, Vlad wants to spit.
He breathes in through his nose, and exhales out through his mouth. The champagne in his hand cools, and stops its unusual bubbling.
The Damian boy scoffs under his breath, his mouth still coiled upward into a scowl. With the revelation of his blood relation to Daniel evident, Vlad's not sure if he should find it endearing or not.
He is not Daniel, so he decides that it's just simply irritating. He decides to ignore it.
"And you said he was your only biological son?" He asks, voice lilting and head tilting. He knows its a suspicious question at worst, insulting at best. But considering Wayne's past proclivities, he can hardly call it an unexpected question.
Damian puffs in great offense, face twisting angrily. It reminds him of Daniel when Vlad insisted that he was wrong about something or other, and for a moment his heart swells, fond.
But this is not his child, and so the feeling quickly crashes and burns, simmering back into rage. This was not Daniel -- this was his replacement. A replacement that Wayne was free to keep.
Wayne chuckles, idiotically, as if he'd said some funny joke. Vlad's other hand, the one gripping his cane -- something he's required ever since he was dispatched from the hospital all those lonely years ago -- tightens instead. He grinds his teeth -- him and Jack Fenton would get along like a house on fire, he hates it.
"I can understand why you'd ask that, Mister Masters," Wayne says, squeezing Damian's shoulder again, "but yes, Damian is my only biological son. Although that doesn't mean I don't love my other children any less."
Bastard.
For all his posturing and flouncing about caring for his city and his children, Vlad never would have thought the Prince of Gotham capable of abandoning one of them.
But, well.
They all have their dark secrets.
And what one man throws away, another man picks up. If Bruce Wayne didn't want the treasure child that was Daniel Brown, then Vlad Masters was more than happy to take him instead.
"I see."
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc au#danyal al ghul au#dpxdc ficlet#dpxdc fanfic#i was hit with this idea two hours ago and was hit with the intrinsic need to write it down#parental vlad masters#protective vlad masters#vlad is currently going 'OH? OH YOU ABANDON AND REPLACE **MY** SON??? MURDER. DEATH. BEES UPON YOUR FAMILY'#but he's also still like. evil. much less of a creep! but evil. so he comes off a bit possessive. which was intentional.#vlad's reaction is kinda valid if it was accurate and bruce DID willingly and knowingly abandon danny. except he didn't. he has no idea#danny is even alive. vlad doesn't know that tho. we all love a good reasonable misunderstanding :]#hc that vlad needs a cane as a human because the ecto-acne that killed him fucked his nerves up a bit as a result and now he's got a bad le#and is also immunocompromised. which had a slight hand in his 20 year isolation thing.#stillborn? no still born au#stillborn danny au#stillborn danny#vlad masters#this may or may not be canon to the au im still thinking about it#vlad acknowledges that danny is formiddable but he's also not wrong that a media shitstorm like that would hurt him considerably.#diamonds are the toughest known material to man and yet it still shatters like glass when put under pressure. vlad's right he's fragile#ummm anyways yeah Vlad finds out first and promptly decides to go 'oh okay so fuck you personally actually. keep your replacement child'#he has No Plans on telling Danny what he learned mostly for the obvious selfish reasons and also bc yeah. this is gonna hurt danny#ITS NOT FUN IF IT ISNT A LITTLE TOXIIIIC#i absolutely know that vlad only swears in deserts which is why its important that i have him call bruce wayne a bastard directly.
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a taehyung a week until he's released ♥
week 13/52 (cr. namuspromised)
#bts#btsedit#btsgif#dailybts#btsdaily#taehyung#kim taehyung#bts v#dailybangtan#userbangtan#usersan#heyryen#userpat#tuserandi#userdimple#raplineuser#rjshope#annietrack#usersky#userkelli#kthedit#***#*taw#so cunty for no reason other than being born to Serve#god i lov him
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Imagine a lowborn & low-ranked Darkbringer finally having the opportunity to go to Velaris so that he can buy sweets and toys (something like a teddy bear) for his daughter, only for him to realize that the shopkeepers ignore and refuse him to purchase these things
(Edit: If anyone is interested I wrote one shots with this prompt in mind part 1 | part 2 )
#Me creating more reasons in my head for hating rhysand#WHEN I CATCH YOU TRUMPSAND#anti rhysand#acotar fic: “We were born sick.” You heard them say it#anti inner circle#anti ic#sjm critical#acotar critical
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Easy to forget that Jaal IS living his fantasy of "hot aliens come knocking at your door to whisk you away on space adventures in their technologically advanced alien ship"
Like we're the aliens this time around, coming to his home planet, getting him on a spaceship with a variety of hot aliens. In a single day, Jaal's life took a turn for the harem anime protagonist road.
This is a full on monsterfucking fetish to him, we are the monsters he wants to fuck.
And he's an alien enthusiast. He was writing "alien x reader" on angaran Wattpad since he was a teen.
#good thing he was born during first contact when it was socially acceptable for him to be as weird about aliens as his heart desires#because imagine if he was born during the peaceful “everyone gets along” modern world where angara have already assimilated#He'd have this mystery urge to seek non-angara out and not know why or what to do with it#like an autistic person before the invention of trains#Kinda ironic since I don't care much for trains ^#Either way instead of a cool and brave risk-taker who paved the path for the first joint cooperation between angara and aliens#he'd be a nerd hyperfixted on human magazines for some reason he can't decipher#mass effect#jaal ama darav#☆jaal#☆character specific#☆memes#☆Andromeda#☆alienfucker jaal
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This took so much longer than I initially expected 💀 Btw it was a surprise bring your oc to the challenge day
Thank you all! @zychk @patchmates @omaano @rochenn @ninjigma @phi-guy @dragon-subway @ivvmell @ddeck @calamity-aims @skeletons-eat
#i'm so sorry for the liberties i took#but some of these patted me on the head and gave me a kiss on the cheek#and some others took me by my shoulders and swore to consume my first born#Crypt I WAS gonna draw either Gnash or Dogbite initially - but I just loved Molly's design too much...#also Kit I wanted to draw Puppet but for obvious reasons i couldn't lmao#another apology to those who didn't get an ocs drawing#my art#sw ocs#boba fett#captain rex#rex#fox#commander fox#sw#star wars#art challenge
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i'm so easily pleased by cute things. these designs and descriptions are so cute. like wow explodable... wow imagining encounters with cute creature girls... found in various locations doing cute things...
#kill ame#being a braindead ame fan#found in places busy with people huh. 🤕☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️ how cute#always has a snack on. popcorn in design. the snacks have a strange effect. 🤕😊😊😊🤕😊 wow#can run really fast has social media accounts for some reason. hahaha. oh my god i need to catch this thing#i need to trap him in a net. poor thing it was born with an iq of 1. so cute(convulsing)#stupid and ugly and dumb.#china being worshipped funny#rusia giving people lollipops and also following the ones he likes funny#i want to draw them more creature esque but idk if i have time
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thinking about akane kurashiki's hypocrisy. like, not just her telling delta "only god gets to decide who lives and dies" but also her bringing quark into the ab game.
it's okay when akane brings a child in a game where he's in danger, where he dies. it's different for her, she has grander goals than hongou ever did. it's different.
it's okay when akane gets to decide who lives and dies, after all everyone who matters lives in the end. isn't that what matters? the timeline where everyone important is okay? it's different.
it's okay when akane is zero. she had to do it, she had to survive and she had to adhere to the time loop. she has to live. it's different.
akane is already such a fascinating character to think about, she's the world's worst heroine. she cares and loves very much, she genuinely wants the best for those she cares about. she wants to save humanity even. she's genuinely justified with her actions in 999, how can you condemn them given the circumstances. and she's a hypocrite because of it all. no matter how justified or self sacrificing her actions are, it doesn't change the fact she's still a hypocrite. how utterly fascinating of a character.
#zero escape#akane kurashiki#zero escape spoilers#watching primer made me think about akane and then i got to thinking about how she would think of that movie#and i got reminded of just how hypocritical akane kurashiki can actually be#it's honestly another reason i wish that delta's ONLY goal was to be born#bc the parallels between her and delta would've been even MORE compelling#my post
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Procrastination doodles of sabo for the king sabo au :)
#one piece#sabo#king sabo au#I wonder sometimes if I keep thinking about this au because i like putting my blorbo through crushing existential nightmares#something something. it must feel so wrong to him. to be born like this and know that he’s not suppose to be there#but not having the memories of times in the wild with his brothers to contextualize why he feels wrong or where he’s supposed to be instead#directionless. knowing that he has to exist for some reason but not the reason that everyone around him tells him he should exist for#and continuing to try to bridge the cognitive dissonance through fallacy after fallacy until he is in too deep to escape#anyways. thinking about Him#Him is the academia mentality of ‘just keep going and you’ll eventually reach the light at the end of the tunnel’#‘because you’ve tried so hard to get here and surely you must belong here because you’re so academically highly-achieving’#does that make sense? maybe the parallel is a bit of a reach. I could write an essay about it tbh#I love this au lmao it’s both a lot of projecting and a great chance to be like ‘god I can make him so much worse’
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thinkin im the only person who has seen the tiktoks of this person analyzing kpop idols astrology charts and she said that if u wanna date sunghoon, you have to really love sex 😭
i don't rly pay attention to other people reading charts because i read charts myself and sometimes I can tell these people are just pulling stuff out to make the stans go insane and/or exaggerating things. charts do say a lot about love and sexuality though. KJHFDSKJ i haven't read sunghoon's yet so I can't really say they're wrong. After all, a few people who have read for Jake were pretty spot on. bro is a horn dog fr. contrary to belief tho, he's dominant and a lil bit insane ... he is not the subby lil loser man we want him to be. for legal purposes that is just a general view of what I have read myself lmfao do NOT take it as 100% fact jfsdkjhfkjsdfds
#ask#anon#reminder to anyone seeing this ask that i do NOT read charts for people who ask nor do I post my chart readings#i do it myself from time to time or for my close friends#the reason I do not post chart readings is because you guys sometimes take what people say and claim it as FACT#none of the charts are fact but just a general view of people born in very precise conditions- it's astrology- not everything is accurate#and enha don't have their birth times posted so a lot of the stuff is shaky and just an assumption of a noon time birth#KFJHDSKJFSD#on occasions i touch on stuff I've noticed in readings in passing and thats it pls do not ask for more#not directed at u nonnie#its just every time i discuss a chart ask people will bombard me with requests to read for specific idols
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