#that low is SO LOW but that high is. insane. im so excited for the next game

[corntort]

finished stej 3 an hour or so ago

[no-i-will-not-shut-up]

the vshojou halloween song!!!! god kuro sounds so good in the harmony like you can hear him taking care of the bass and ironmouse in the soprano and zentraya is so smooth

[dollblog4me]

obvi not my image but its themm :) we watched this show together as kids and we'd always pick one character to be us, i picked this one out of the twins and she was the other.

[mewhenimanangel]

reporting live, paige bueckers

— synopsis. you meet paige when you’re assigned to report on the uconn v. iowa game. twoshot!

notes ౨ৎ: i’ve never wrote for a real person before it feels so strange…but there’s like no fics on here i had to take matters into my own hands.

also yes im rewriting history to make uconn win!

next ౨ৎ

you checked yourself out in the mirror, fixing your outfit - low rise black work pants with a white button down that showed a small sliver of your stomach with black sling back heels.

you tossed your hair around to fix it making sure it was in perfect shape. after all, your job was pretty dependent on looks.

you worked as a reporter for the city's top news agency and tonight you would be attending the uconn versus iowa women's basketball game.

you were also pretty active on social media and managed to make some money that way, you were more than grateful for your lifestyle.

you called your friend, devon , to make sure she was on her way to get you knowing you absolutely could not be late tonight.

she answered the phone and you sighed a breath of relief when it sounded like she was in fact on her way.

"hey girll, are you excited for tonight? pretty big story" she said, bustling city noise behind her.

"yeah i'm excited to interview uconn after they beat iowa's ass" you smirked when you heard her gasp on the other side. "they so will not! my girlfriend caitlin's gonna pull through"

"nah, paige buckets got that easily" you scoffed as you packed your bag, ready to head downstairs out of your apartment.

your bosses had assigned you to tonight's game and hooked you up with two court-side tickets for you and a guest, along with the camera crew.

you of course had to invite your best friend to go with you.

you stepped outside the building and watched as her car pulled up outside.

"ugh i can't believe i get to see caitlin clark up close" devon squealed as you got yourself situated in the car. "ugh be calm, you literally have a boyfriend." you joked. "okay and?" she laughed as she drove off.

once you were at the stadium, you and devon met at with your crew as you found your seats inside.

the game wasn't due to start for another fourty or so minutes but it was already packed inside.

you were glad women's basketball was finally getting the recognition it deserved after you and your mom had been fans of it almost your whole life. you even played a little bit in high school.

you and devon got snacks before sitting down and getting yourselves comfortable.

it didn't feel long until the players came out and the game was started. aliyah and hailey jump started the game before kk threw the ball back at paige.

the game was a close one and you made sure to follow it closely. throughout the game you did side interviews with other players and people attending the game, which was all just leading up to the end of game interviews.

it was the final quarter and you made sure to pay close attention.

it all came down to the last few seconds when paige threw the ball off caitlin's back to catch it again and land the ball in the net, giving uconn the winning score!

you and your crew sat up as you turned your reporter accent on "there you have it folks, uconn has won this round and will advance to the final game against south carolina. what an amazing job tonight by these wonderful ladies on both teams. win or lose, it was a great watch and i'm cheering for everyone's next move."

once you were sure the cameras were off you turned around to devon and threw your hands in the air.

"bitch i told you! i tolddd you paige had this game" you squealed. "ughhh you're so annoying why are you always right" she groaned.

a few minutes later you popped some mouthwash melts and fixed your makeup before you were to interview paige.

your hands were sweating like crazy. you never wanted to come off as an insane fan girl but you were obsessed with paige.

your cameraman followed you as you walked over to paige and she turned around. "hi" she smiled and shook your hand. "hi, are you ready?" you asked her. "yeah" she smiled. you gave your cameraman a thumbs up as he turned the camera on.

you turned to paige, who was already staring at you and you took a deep breath. you're usually never nervous to interview people but god the way she was looking at you.

her eyes were trained on yours and she had a little smirk on her face, her face was glistening from the tiring game she just played and she licked her lips waiting for you to ask your first question.

you cleared your throat "i'm here with paige bueckers, who just made the winning move in the highly anticipated iowa versus uconn game! tell me paige, how did it feel to take the winning shot?" you turned the microphone to her.

she rubbed her chin "ah it was really nerve racking to be honest i mean. i could feel my team counting on me and i knew i really had to pull through and get us out on top" she answered, eyes focusing back on you.

"yeah but that was a tough shot wasn't it?" you watched her eyes drop down to scan you before meeting yours again. "yeah but i knew i could make it in for sure"

"right, bueckers get buckets i don't know what to tell y'all" you joked to the camera. paige laughed.

"yeah for sure but i really owe it all to my team" she continued before kk came up behind her. "yupppppp WE GOING TO THE TITLE GAME" she threw her arms around you and paige and the threw of you jumped in excitement before running to find her other teammates.

you laughed it off before continuing for the camera "well there you have it, paige it was lovely to talk to you. congratulations on the winning game! make sure those of you at home tune in to the final game taking place in just a few days." you signed off the camera before your crew stopped filming.

you turned to paige and dropped the reporter voice. "it was nice to meet you by the way" you smiled. "i could say the same" her eyes never left yours and you bit your cheek to hide a smile.

"well i should let you go celebrate, congratulations, have a good night!" you said, beginning to walk away.

"bye it was nice to meet you" she said before you fully walked away.

you walked over to devon who was waiting on the side. "i know damn well your heart is racing"

"shut up" you smirked.

[artificialmoth]

Pointing at you

Gimmie Phantom/Ifrit propaganda. Right neow. NnEEOWOWOOWOWOW!!!! IN MY HAND!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAAA im always ready for phantom/ifrit propaganda :3

Phantom's the pretty new ghoul & Ifrit's been round for a while. He's part of the unofficial welcoming committee, he takes a LOT of pride in being the one to welcome new ghouls into the Abbey. He loves his job in welcoming any new ghouls, be it new summons or transfers.

but he ESPECIALLY liked welcoming Phantom. Phantom hadn't been summoned before, and as the most eager ghoul, Ifrit was tasked with showing Phantom the ropes of living up-top. He oversaw anything Aether couldn't do - stepped in if Aether was pulled away, or wasn't able to clear his busy schedule.

They got close, and fast. Ifrit's less of a mentor and more of a friend, he loves sneaking Phantom out to go to the nearest town, as Ifrit's one of few ghouls trusted with a fake license and unrestricted car access.

They're SO close you'd think they knew each other in the Pits or something, but really its bc of how good Ifrit is at disarming people. He's insanely charming, and already plenty kind. Its beyond easy to trust him!

He helps Phantom with guitar, and his blocking and overall stage presence. Likewise, Phantom shows him the easier ways to break into Mounty's stash without him knowing, and they spend PLENTY of nights tangled together, high as all hell.

When Phantom leaves for tour, its a bit emotional. Not only are they leaving his formal mentor, Aether, but he's gotten SO close with Ifrit. Dancing around some deeper feelings - Phantom wasn't sure how to make a move on a ghoul like Ifrit, part of him doesnt feel like hes deserving of Ifrit's love, and Ifrit not wanting to make a move on Phantom bc he doesn't want to start anything before Phantom has to leave.

Ultimately, mid-tour, Ifrit and Aether sneak to attend a show bc Dew wasn't doing so hot and Ifrit could tell Phantom was starting to really feel it, too. Nothing Ifrit and Aether did could've ever prepared Phantom for tour, frankly.

They got to watch rather than play, admiring their ghouls on stage. It was all coordinated, so they'd be backstage when the ghouls + papa would be finishing up the encore.

Everyone expected Dew's reaction - very much angry-happy, tackling Aether and practically climbing him in his excitement.

NO ONE expected Phantom to do the same. Dropped everything and RAN to Ifrit. And, naturally, Ifrit caught him. Twirled him around and squeezed him nice and close. Phantom started crying right away, mask still on. Ifrit had to help him get it and his balaclava off so he could breathe, and Phantom didn't even hesitate when he grabbed Ifrit and pulled him into a kiss.

Everyone teases them for their first kiss, just lightly. Its perfect, and they both like to talk about it. Ifrits a bit more dramatic about it, acting like Phantom dipped him low and kissed him. But really, Ifrit was holding Phantom up and didn't expect it.

theres definitely a picture of how ifrit looked after. naturally.

[littledollll]

hey sweetheart :'3 I was wondering if you were taking request. If you are would you be open to do a Lucifer x little angel reader. I just love your little fic if these and I'm always looking for more if them. I think I've read them all tho. So my idea was that maybe Lucifer and reader could have a fight I'll let you decide why. Then reader decide to go hide from Lucy and our favorite god starts panicking and all. Over all just really cute stuff 😊😊💖 Thank you for reading and have a nice day bby💕

The Gardens

Lucifer Morningstars x Little!angel!reader

A/n: man i just hope this is half decent. Got a little motivated to write about this idea when I got the request which made me very excited! I rarely let us see when R isn’t regressed which is kinda the point? But I think insights like this are really fun to write! (May 6)

A/n pt 2.: finishing this July 21 at 3am, where did I go wrong? I’m so sorry I took so damn long it’s insane bc i don’t even notice time passing. I was looking back at my old fics and noticed I’m always writing R going to sleep? I love that cuz some of my friends actually call me “sleepy” because apparently I’m always tired. (I am)

Warnings: a little arguing, Lucifer says some hurtful things, not much else. Just some sweet fluff after the hurt.

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“Im the judge here. I alone decide the punishments and how souls will be handled. You might be my partner but you hold no power over me or hell. These are not your decisions to make or have a say on.” It was an angry spew of words. Lucifer doesn’t like having their authority challenged and you were the one person who could do that. For the first time, your own opinions were voiced in their work, and Lucifer didn’t seem willing to listen or like it at all.

Never in your time living in hell had you and Lucifer clashed about something so much.. it hurt, not to be ironic but it hurt like hell. Lucifer had never spoken to you in such a way. Never before had they used their intimidation tactics on you.

Lucifer being unnecessarily stubborn didn’t help at all, as they refused to actually listen to your opinion or swallow their pride and compromise. Or simply speak to you like an equal. Their words almost stung. “You have no power here.” That’s what they meant. And you couldn’t bear to listen anymore or even respond after that.

After a certain point you just gave up and walked away, leaving whatever they were about to spit back, in the dust, mid-sentence, and then ending up with a confused shocked expression. No one gets to just walk away from The Devil.

The worst part was that you wanted to run to them. As if words and a voice laced with venom hadn’t just been thrown in your face. As if they’d protect you even from their own self. They’ve always been your safe space, your comfort.. but you couldn’t, not today, not after your argument.

At first they were fine with you just walking away. They admit to being stubborn and hard to talk to.. everyone needs a little space to think sometimes, right? But then hours and more hours passed and you still refused to show.. it’s like you were hiding from them. There’s nothing Lucifer hated more than the thought of that. Did they really mess up that badly? That you, the most forgiving and lovely being they’ve ever met, simply refused them?

They couldn’t possibly leave it like that. Let you believe they think regularly of you, like you aren’t the most important being in their life, like you aren’t their special angel. So settling their pride aside accompanied with a bit of anxiety, they set out to find you.

You had gone to your safe space.. hiding away physically and mentally, letting your much calmer but also a lot sadder, little self take control.

Lucifer searched high and low for you, all around the palace, going as far as to actually ask for help looking. And thankfully it occurred in their mind that there was always one place you went when you seek comfort, and that was the little hidden gardens of the palace.

And there you were. Quietly sitting by their most recently planted flowers, daisies in fact. They always claimed those flowers suited you perfectly, not just the look, but the meaning. Which included purity, innocence, new beginnings, joy and cheerfulness. All things they saw in you. All things they loved about you. But of course there’s more, so much more that they love.

“My angel..” their voice was a complete contrast to their earlier attitude. Cautious as they approached you but still with a rush to have you close. Lucifer was unsure you’d ever forgive them, but there was no way you could possibly resent them, maybe you should have, but it wasn’t in your heart to reject them, so you let them approach without scurrying away.

Lucifer got down to your level, kneeling down on the floor and holding their hands out for you, which you immediately took, being pulled into a tight hug, their wings wrapping around you, effectively hiding you from the world just because they knew you loved it so much. They pressed a kiss to your forehead before hugging you close again. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, my sweet angel…”

Not knowing how to respond, you nodded just a little as you nuzzled close to their shoulder, basking in the warmth and comfort of their hug. “I should’ve never said that.. never. And I promise you I didn’t mean a single word of it. I’m.. I’m in no way excusing myself, and my awfully hurtful words- but I’m just not used to this, angel..”

You could understand that.. there’s no being of higher power here in hell, even in the universe actually, no one but them and the very God that created and banished them. They’re not used to being challenged or disagreed with, and ever the sinner they are also quite prideful, even as an angel. “I’ve done this alone for so long.. of course there’s other lords.. and Mazikeen. But not even they step in when it comes to my decisions, and when you did- I felt questioned. Which I recognize should be much more frequent than it is, but it’s a new thing, and I responded very wrongly to it.”

Not for a moment did the soft tone leave their voice, a mere whisper as they hugged you and refused to let go. They’d apologize for eternity if you so requested it. But even in your headspace you could appreciate them taking accountability, and recognizing that it was wrong. Not just that it caused a bad reaction from you. “I’m working on it, I promise. Your opinion does matter to me, In whatever situation, your voice matters to me.”

It hurt, of course it hurt. But Lucifer is always sincere in their word, and they were willing to work together, that’s all that mattered to you. So you quite adorably mumbled out a little, ‘I forgive’, as you rest your chin on their shoulder. And Lucifer couldn’t be happier. “Thank you, my sweet angel.. but also, you can’t hide away from me like that, tiny. You had me running all over the palace looking for you like a maniac!” They said in a more playfully, less serious tone as they chuckled.

“Let’s make a deal, yeah?.. if anything of the sort ever happens again, can I trust that you’ll be in your little room? Even if we’re a little upset at each other I always want to know that you’re safe. I understand needing a moment to decompress and think, that certainly helped me a lot today. But I’d just like to know you’re safe and that we can talk when we’re ready to, how does that sound?” You giggled as their voice took a more playful tone and you nodded, moving away a little to look at them, an adorable little smile painted on your face. “Deals!!” You said, rather excited despite the topic.

Of course you were aware that it was indeed quite possible to run into more arguments and disagreements like this, and even more that you’d slip. But knowing how much they care for you and love you, how much they worry and want you to be safe was quite reassuring that no matter what problems you ran into there wasn’t a thing you couldn’t surpass with just a little talking and cuddles.

They nodded, placing a soft kiss on your temple and deciding just then to take a moment and sit outside with you, which was rare, for reasons neither you or they could quite place. “It’s a deal then..” they replied with a soft tone, and you could hear their smile as they spoke. It was surprisingly quiet, oddly peaceful being out here with you. They scolded themselves for not doing this sooner and made a mental note for next times.

Of course your regression was still a secret and hell can be a dangerous place but the gardens are safe enough, specially with Lucifer and your hound friend who always stayed near. After a few moments, your voice interrupted their train of thought. “luci likes birdies?” The question seemingly came out of nowhere which made them chuckle a bit. “I do. What’s going on in that cute little mind of yours to ask me that, sweet one?” Their tone was obviously amused.

“No birdies in hell! Want one.. like morphi!” It seems your mind was running elsewhere, curiosity of things you always wanted to question but didn’t. “You could have one.. how about a dove? Just like you are my little dove.” Lucifer smiled and placed a little kiss on the tip of your nose, making you giggle and shy away. You were quick to nod and respond with a slight tone of awe. “Dovs pretty!”

“As are you!” Lucifer was never one to make spur of the moment decisions.. well- not at least until you came along. But how could they ever say no to you? The little angel wants a hound and a dove, so let’s get them a hound and a dove. Lucifer sighed, not in an upset manner nor exhaustion. More so in content, amused with themselves for being so susceptible to you. “Well then. Looks like my little dove is getting their own..”

[yoonyeon0]

��� WARNING ⚠ DANGEROUS RANT, MENTIONS OF Y***GAHAMA, TYPOS, TYPOS, TYPOS, ABSOLUTELY NONSENSE AND PURE PRIMAL LOVE. (never said that phrase in my whole life)

Read with cation.

YESSS GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

#mymanmyman #hottie #pegginghiminthebackofthebus #waithemight lowkbeabottom 😍 #ilohmatokita

two of my FAVORITE men in the same damn panel at the end of the year. 2025 will be good.

lowkey I love seeing kengan men beat up

NOT A MASOCHISTIC KINK BTW

they just literally look sm hotter on the brink of death

like look at fei wangfang.

he was dying but he still served cunt somehow???

now all I need is a shen with hair down while wet appearance and IT WILL BE DONE!

still haven't recovered from the last shen with hair down. he is so baby girl but NOBODY understands

anyway I'm kinda excited to see where this jun vs ohma rematch is gonna go

ngl if ohms wins I won't be surprised bc...plot and shit but if Jun wins I'll be baffled

highly unlikely though.

IM GLAD THAT MOTHAFUCKER BITCH GOT HIS SHIT ROCKED

he actually looks like a cockroach I'm repulsed.

ANYWAY

awwhwh he's so cutest and so kawaii

I could eat him. He looks edible. I love shen wulong. Yes. #hottieofthecentury

this rant is one of everything because I have been missing A LOT

but dw.

I'm back for good.

anyway i am NOT prepared for 2025 but I mean you gotta do what you gotta do

I have been watching squid game and I wonder how the kengan cast would do in the squid game.

other than fucking kill everyone there with their bare hands ofc bcs well.

I feel like shen would play along just for the shits and giggles which is #real

but other than that I think it's bold of me to assume that any of those kengan players are going down without a fight

bro if that's for kengan...imagine baki.

bro nah that's absolutely insane and scary to think abt.

literally I would just quit. like give up. no point.

like imagine fucking DOPPO literally looking at you with murder on his mind bcs well...you killed people with their consent (kinda??)

I'd cry.

like hello.

don't even get me STARTED on hanayama

I don't have beef with him it's just he's is so scary to me.

Literally I would fold under his gaze both because I'm scared and I am romantically sparked.

Well.

Anyway I have A LOT to rant abt baki because that show is so funny but at the same time low-key kinda deep (maybe I'm too brainrotted) but I'll leave that for another time.

this rant was high-key shorter than the others lol but catch yall later because it's way too damn late for me to be doing this shit 😭😭😅

[mxxtalupyourass]

Hey darling, I heard that you were back and I got so excited! I’m so sorry about your loss and my thoughts are with you ❤️

I was wondering if you could do like a smut with slash where the reader and slash are out and about and slash has been absentmindedly teasing the reader and when he finally realizes he helps her out a little. Thanks so much!

IM SO SORRY i didn’t see this post. I forgot i even posted the im back thing. I dont remember posting it. Anyway, first fic in a while.

Pairings: Slash x AFAB reader

Warnings: Teasing, Slash being clueless, Slash eats reader out, PnV, Public sex, fingering, edging, slash calls reader pretty a lot, no gender specific pronouns i think, reader gives slash a blowjob & slash calls himself daddy once or twice. thats all i think.

MDNI, 18+

Smut below the cut

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You & slash had gone out together. Just you and him. He had just got back from a tour that you couldn’t go on, and he hadn’t seen you in months.

He had been teasing you all day sub-consciously. Rubbing your inner thigh, giving you this grin that made your knees weak. He thought that grin was innocent, but it was NOT. The things he did to you were insane.

He walked you into the movie theatre, grinning happily with that same grin that made you weak. There was a movie you were desperate to see and he knew it. He took a turn and talked to the employee.

You tuned it out, letting your thoughts wander a bit.. thinking about all the things you wanted him to do tonight. How bad you needed him.

He led you to the house, the movie was in house 10. You guys walked along the long, quiet hallway. No children, few people. It was quiet, for now at-least. The seats that he had got were up high in the corner where teenagers came to make out and have sex.

By now, the movie was a quarter of the way over now and suddenly he was more cuddly. He must have smelled your pheromones or something but before you knew it, his hand was slipping under the waist of your pants.

“Slash?..” You whimpered.

“Yeah pretty?” He whispered back to you.

“What are you doing?..” He hummed, two of his digits slowly pushing into your heat. The little sounds you made were music to his ears. “You seemed like you needed a little help.. theres nobody else in this movie theatre.. and i figured neither of us wants a quickie in the bathroom..” he flashed me that grin thats been driving you insane all day.

His fingers pumped in and out of your heat quickly. Your back arched off the seat and you whined, feeling that knot about to break. You clenched around his digits, a telltale sign you were about to cum. He quickly pulled his fingers out of you, bringing them up to his mouth so he could lick them clean.

“Y’taste so good, pretty.” He mutters in your ear before getting out of his seat. He dropped to his knees in front of you and worked off your pants & panties. As soon as your glistening heat met his eyes, his mouth started watering. He dove in, making you moan quietly. His tongue flicked around your sensitive bud as his fingers went back to work.

You rambled incoherently. You could feel the knot about to snap again. “Oh.. oh, Slash! Im- im gonna cum..!” You weakly moaned. He groaned into your cunt which sent a warm shiver up your spine. “Go on pretty, cum for daddy.” He groaned into your heat. His words sent you into a spiral, as you gripped the armrests for dear life.

Your orgasm was beautiful. This was the first time in months you had came off of slash, instead of your fingers or a dildo you thought was about slashes size. And it felt so fucking good. It was so beautiful. You came all over his face and he licked it all up. He let out a low groan as he got up and sat back in his seat.

“Knees.” He commanded.

You obeyed and began to undo his lace up leather pants. As soon as you got them off, knowing he never wears underwear, you took his big cock into your mouth. You hollowed your cheeks and bobber your head. His hand was buried in your hair, guiding you. At one point, you stopped and let him fuck your throat.

He twitched in your throat and came down your throat. He groaned, pulling you onto his lap. He had already kind of prepared you so pushed in without prepping your hole. You whined at the feeling of being so full.

He made you bounce on his cock as you writhed. His hands on your hips and his words running through your head. You moaned loudly, squirming. “Mm- slash.. harder, please!” You whimpered.

“You want it harder baby?” He whispered. His thrusts got harder and you felt him twitch inside of you. He groaned loudly.

That knot that had been building up snapped and you whimpered as you came for the 2nd time tonight.

He soon made one final thrust into you, the head of his cock resting against your cervix. His warm seed leaked and painted your walls, dripping out of you slowly.

He held you close to him, hushing you softly.

“Did so good for me baby. So good.” He reassured in your ear quietly. He pulled out of you and helped you get your jeans up. “Why don’t you go to the bathroom and i’ll go get snacks from concession?..” he offered. Of course you said yes, how could you not?

He helped you up and led you to the bathroom, you cleaned up and went back to the movie. He was sitting in there with a bunch of snacks and that grin. You smiled, and went to him. He let you wear his leather jacket, holding you close while he fed you snacks.

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Woahhhh first fic in like a month and a half!!

Anyways, surprise im back. Sorry for dying.

[calpalsworld]

1 year on T review:

Disclaimer: I feel like it went really perfectly compared to some other people so don't take me as the only example.

I started on 25 ml per week (pretty low), but they lowered it to 20 ml (low) per week due to my T levels becoming insanely high and my period coming back because of it. I basically microdose T because I'm a freak 🤗

Period:

IT STOPPED

It came back a little once but then they lowered my dose

Emotions:

I didn't notice any change in emotions personally.

Strength:

Idk I might have placebo'd myself into having more strength?

Acne/stink:

It got worse like 2 months in but then went back to how I was pre-T after a few weeks. edit: probably my self maintenance habits catching up with the changes.

Wiener:

T gives you a weewee!!! O_O

It hurt badly around 3-6 months but also I already got a fair amount of pain down there pre-T. This may be a me thing.

Made my comfortability with my self and perception of self way better

Fat:

I look different slightly in a way I really like.

I have more of a chad faceshape now

Gained some body fat in a way that makes my boobs and butt look smaller (I wanted this desperately and I hope maybe in the future I can look like a bear)

Hair:

Disclaimer: I was already hairy pre-T.

Slight mustache / sideburns. Excited for more in the future. I feel like Im gaining this at a normal pace. I have yet to shave anything but I want to shave soon to see what kind of complexion/face texture it would give me.

Hair everywherrreeeeeeeeeeee

Buttcrack hair👿👿👿 (this is my least favorite change) (they dont put this in anti trans ads because its kinda gross but if they were being honest they would)

Voice:

Around 3 months you will sound like you are very very very sick for weeks. I feel like this happens to everyone not just me.

A bit deeper now.

Rumbley/cracky in a way that I really like. I amuse myself with my new voice abilities.

I can't go as high pitched anymore or it cracks.

I miss doing funny baby voices 👿👿👿

How others see me:

Medical professionals have been nice/normal to me

Going on T will not make your parents start gendering you correctly if they aren't already

Some people say they literally genuinely thought I was AMAB (edit: the reason I thought this was crazy is because I don't even bind)

Some people know immediately Im trans and immediately misgender me intentionally

I dont understand how this dichotomy works ^ androgyny achieved?

Cishet "passing" (?!) I like this somewhat so I can chillax.... but also IM NOT CISHET OR BINARY

Doing the shot:

I was never particularly scared of needles, but I was nervous the first time. Despite being a coward, I managed to do it without ever having help. (the doctors didn't show me how LOL and I got impatient waiting for my friend) (ASKING FOR HELP IS GOOD THOUGH!!!)

Used to take like 30 minutes, now takes like 5 minutes.

Idrc anymore

Nothing bad has ever happened except one time there was a bunch of blood which freaked me out.

Thats all my thoughts on T for those who are trying to find information. Feel free to ask me questions ☝🤓

[literaryslapshot]

!!! hsteacher!reader anon here (maybe one day i’ll be brave enough to not be anon flakdjsj)

im so glad u liked my silly little rambly post oh my lord a nd now i seriously can’t stop (im so sorry)

- teacher!reader and sidney bonding so well and so fiercely over their shared passion in helping kids and young people (of all ages and diversities!!) teacher!reader and sidney working together on new passion projects to connect hockey with more young people.

- he loves hearing about ur students (both the highs and the lows) and following along on their journeys and he gets so happy seeing how exasperated and fond u are about ur yr 9s and how they drive u crazy but u got the most amazing and deep discussions yesterday about shakespeare and their own lives???? and reader loves looooves hearing sidney gush about the little penguins program too and u and him basically doing ur own little cellys in the living room bc one of the littlest penguins got their first goal and they cried bc they were so excited!!

- both sides and reader have this unspoken understanding about authority and expectation and pressure cus like, captaining a team of professional athletes and managing a class of 29 teenagers sometimes feels remarkably the same lmao. the stress!!! u always have to have ur game face on, all the time! Gotta be on the ball, all the time!! and it can be TIRING. but sidney knows this, and he loves how sometimes he can come home and just take the captain hat off and just be. a guy. just a dude. and just let someone else take over, let u take over and he lets himself just be pampered and treated like the little meow meow he is and it’s all okay. He had so much love in his eyes when u wordlessly come over with a hot mug of lemon balm tea and a warm slice of banana bread. he turns his face to hide into ur neck and mumble “love you” when u starts scritching and massaging his scalp bc u know how tense he gets around the jaw and the face from all the frowning and chewing during game time.

And he does the same for reader as well!! when she comes home and sees that look on her face, kicking her shoes off with a grunt and just immediately jumps into the shower so she can crawl into her pj’s and just lay on the couch….. him scooting over giving teacher!reader a shoulder massage and he just goes “kids, eh?” with a little grin when u grunt back a noise that sounds a lot like “fuuuuck ‘emmmm kids”

- sidney, on casual tuesday morning: oh. teacher kink. that’s a thing. *looks over at you gathering your bag and tucking your hair behind your shoulder, heeled boots on, teacher face On*

sidney: oh. o h.

reader: ? 👩‍🏫

sidney: 🧍🍆😳

okay okay okay i have been thinking….put my teacher reader au and your coach sidney together?!?!? madness. insane. i want it…i’ll make it…

[baby-xemnas]

ugh i would put bepo in every dress ever. i have one dress i can never wear (on account of how insanely slutty it is) where its a black sleek evening dress with gold filigrees on the sleeves and collar but its got a PLUNGING neckline down all the way to the bellybutton, just those little rubber lines and a prayer to hold the dress over your boobs. on TOP of that it also has a low scoop back AND a high thigh slit, its barely even a dress at this point. but my god bepo in a dress like that . pink nip peeking out from the v neck... fuzzy belly window ... slit up above his hip so u can see his big thighs and his butt when he turns just right. law would never let him outside the house in such a thing a bepo of this level of sexiness is for laws eyes only but ohhhhhhhh my godddddddd i would risk it allllll

would draw this but im tired and idk what filigrees on clothing are so i'll just picture it along with u

i gotta say regarding bepo feminization i love what one cute ass lawbepo artist said abt bepo pre-ts and post-ts and how in the introduction bepo has a regular way of speaking so the artist was like - law called him cute since and bepo dialed up that aspect of himself up to 12 and im like shit i love that so much

its like a reverse of pre ts and post ts chopper - where his cuteness and mascotification i highkey hate - but with bepo its horny and stupid and he is doing it for law and thats SOO GOOD TO MEEEEEEEEEEE

i love the thought that bepo is super delibreately tailoring his attitude and serving daddy's little girl and law (who knew the man for over a decaadeee) is like yeah.....nice....

its soooo YOU FREAKY IN PUBLIC THE BOFA U

but not dressing up, that public doesnt get to see, only law. i love how its aside from being the classic hehehehe bottom feminization - theres the element of bepo doing anything for law even if he might not like the idea himself, might not be that comfortable - law loves pushing him cuz theres no limit and thats sexy and exciting that bepo will bend over backwards and then some for him - he doesnt enjoy making him unhappy ofc but bepo cant STAY unhappy because its for law..and anything for law is good

bepo feels absolutely ridiculous wearing such slutty female clothes - and he probably has trouble figuring out how to put it on cuz its just WHAT IS THAT??? A SCARF??????THATS SO LITTLE FABRIC???? law has to help him........he is so aware that he wasnt built for clothes like that and even somewhere deep may worry that captain is making fun of him...its super shameful! but law cant keep a small smile off of his face thats so adoring and appreciative that his bepo is doing it for him....so cute...so sweet..darling..and he looks great to law!! sexy and pretty and like a real trophy - that bepo caves, of course he does. he melts from having laws hands slide over him when he helps him put this ridiculous thing on - and there sure is a lot of access to open fur - bepo feels more naked than he would be without any of this..

[crguang]

sweet reliable women 🥺 i'm excited to meet her!

if you had to pick your favourite 3 hsr and genshin women, who would they be and why? i think i could take a crack at guessing two of the star rail women you'll pick, hah

-💙

GSHDHSJSJFJF im unfortunately very predictable…. and my type is so obvious😭

for genshin my favourites are:

- ningguang. we go years back her and i, i love women in high positions of power who have to put on a performance for the world and have a softer, hidden side to them. i admire her composure, strength and the fact that she can navigate any social situation… people have a lot of misconceptions of her because of her ambitions but she’s a good person who knows when to be ruthless and i love her lots for it

- yelan. my little adrenaline junkie… shes just so fun?! she hides behind so many disguises, lies as she breathes, is a masochist and a secret intelligence agent. they made her for ME!!! her and ning are canonically partners in crime, she’s part of the reason why ning is the tianquan and is her most trusted friend. plus she’s sexy and smart and i need her in my bed

- arlecchino. my type to a T, she fits all of my attraction criteria— powerful, diplomatic, astute and sexy with a side of her no one really gets to see. she genuinely cares for her children despite her upbringing, wants to bring a change to the way the house of the hearth functions, is a little weird and off-putting… i love that its unexpected for her to be so chill because shes so intimidating 😭 like wym the 4th fatui harbinger loves watching insects in the wild and having barbecues with her kids

my fav hsr women are (unsurprisingly):

- kafka… KAFKAAAAA what an annoying, irritating, lying little shit im obsessed with her. i initially thought she was going to be a little like yelan (she kinda is… they’d get along fast) but she’s just an arrogant little shit who lies for fun. she’s cocky and confident and the worst part is that her bite matches her bark. i cannottt help but be attracted to her, she’s a jack of all trades and it makes her deliciously unpredictable. PLUS they made her a violin player!!!!! thats my favourite musical instrument!!!!! i listen to classical music every day. her design is also one of my favourites— i love that she’s completely covered and still the sexiest character in the game. people went insane just seeing her SHOULDERS, like we all turned into Victorian men catching a glimpse of a woman’s calves for the first time when she took off her coat😭

- black swannnnnn❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ just stunning. no notes. 10/10 design. that suave personality and charm makes me melt and every time she comes on screen so do i— i mean… i find memokeepers in general very interesting, but what’s better is that since they forego their mortal bodies and become memetic entities, they don’t really have human emotions other than what’s felt through people’s memories. but black swan does, a little; that primal fear she feels in acheron’s memories, her preference for warm, wistful memories… it’s just so interesting. i also love how consistent and transparent she is, some memokeepers steal or erase memories but she doesnt. she has morals (aesthetics of memory, as she says) and she sticks to them until the last resort. she’s supposed to be inherently objective, and she isn’t. i love that a lot. also, because shes very good at what she does her presence is so reassuring, her smooth, low voice just adds to the feeling i need her to hum me to sleep

- JINGLIU. that voice alone gets her in my top 5 but her LORE… the fact that she’s doomed by the narrative???? that she pushes past her limits, rises when she should have fallen, out of spite and hatred to fight her own inevitable end???????? incredible. she’s above material things and immaterial concepts like status and fame because she only lives for one thing: to kill a god. and as she pursues her goal, she becomes a little like them, indifferent and ruthless. she’s a woman who’s lost everything and who refuses to lose her mind despite it being inevitable. her will is incredible. i love her design (tho she shouldve been wearing pants or actual armor😒) the moon is my favourite entity and she embodies it. i’m one of those people who go “omg look at the moon” every night, they made her for meeee

[transitioningpirate]

today (03/07) marks nine months since i started T!!!!!

im so happy with the changes so far, everything has been amazing and my self esteem has raised significantly. maybe even too much LMAOOO i feel so hot and attractive all the time and im so proud of my body and how i look, it's INSANE. this is something i never experienced before. even when i knew i was objectively attractive i was still very much unhappy with my body because it didn't felt mine. now it feels like im, i dont know, finally looking like myself? does that make sense?

what im trying to say is that i finally look at the mirror and the person i see looking back is me, and i feel good about it.

not everything is perfect, obviously, but here's some changes in general i've noticed:

body hair! this is something i didn't expect to be such a great change - facial hair specifically, sure, but my legs and arms and my belly is far more hairy now! i also got a happy trail which im super excited about because i always thought they were incredibly attractive. my moustache is thicker and it definitely shows but it isn't that big yet, as well as my beard, which is even thicker and smaller, but it's there :)

my voice dropped insanely, like, i sound almost completely different - ive been doing that "this is my voice one week/month/etc on T" thing and the difference is so clear it's craaazy. im in love with it. i like talking so much more now!!

acne. this is a biiiig one. my skin has never had more acne, on my face and on my back as well. i tried a special soap for it but it didn't help much. it doesn't hurt or anything, but it's definitely there, especially whiteheads. ive made cleaning them a part of my routine at this point. it doesn't bother me as much as i thought it would, to be honest, but it's still annoying :/

bottom growth! my t dick is very enlarged by now and it genuinely looks more like a micropenis than a clit, which im surprised about since it hasn't even been that long!!! but my doctor did say that based on my exams my metabolism was adapting so well to T that i had more testosterone than some cis men my age at this point, so im not that surprised, though it does feel very affirming

my appetite is absolutely insane i eat almost three times the amount i used to and i still managed to lose weight some-fucking-how ?? but i took some blood samples and my doctor said im super duper healthy. i was proud of it the whole week. she did say that my diet was something to be proud of :D

my chest is also smaller! this isn't something i expected and i had to check myself multiple times to be sure but, yup, definitely smaller. i knew it was a possibility, but i didn't think it would be so obvious! i absolutely adore it, though. i feel more comfortable talking to people and sometimes even going outside when im not binding, which is something i would never even dream about before T. it also makes binding easier in general. makes me feel really good i have to say i never thought a smaller chest would be so affirming but it is

my mood has just been better in general, though it is the end of the semester and im stressed by a few personal things. when it gets low, it gets real low, but when it's high - and it usually is, unless something happened - it's like im on cloud nine :D ive also found the confidence to stand up for myself a lot more, which isn't something im very used to doing, and that feels good but it sometimes leads to some stressful situations. absolutely no regrets though >:3

[kinshiknights]

k my drph3 predictions

maxie has winner vibes

top 4 is zymba, maxie, khianna, versex?

myx is the season narrator who gets a mid-season elim a la vinas (and also the fan favourite)

early outs: j quinn, john, angel ? i love angel thooo

actually j quinn is my prediction for 1st out, she's cute but her drag is like a bit unpolished compared to the others..?

tita baby will be the funny older comedy queen who ends up somewhere in the lower parts of the rankings and ultimately gets the same runway critiques as turing

versex is the minty who has great runways but struggles to show personality

i completely forget about yudipota and khianna TBH but khianna feels like she'll get far..? and yudipota will be somewhere

my PERSONAL favs so far are maxie myx & zymba!! angel is also growing on me <3

i actually rly like bench but idk where she'll end up? she had a great promo look. she gives me higher-up-in-the-rankings vibes

very loose idea of rankings: j quinn -> john -> angel -> tita -> myx -> yudipota -> bench -> khianna/maxie/versex/zymba -> maxie

fav entrance look so far is myx because the sailor moon is adorably cute. i like versex's too, and angel's! maybe because they were revealed first lol? looking at the others... i get yudipota is going for an iris van herpen type look but the garment looks like it's made from styrofoam or something so i just cant immerse myself in it? jquinn's is the worst i prommy im not a hater but why the bodysuit with randomly stuck on silver cutouts...

zymba and maxie were disappointingly basic for such great promo looks idk... however khianna's cosplay is insanely cunty. i think her marina-like mug is throwing me off rn

bench/maxie/zymba/tita give snatch game highs. myx/versex/yudipota give snatch game lows.

i rly like this cast tho! im a s1 lover and s2 was kinda meh to me? but i'm vibing w the queens so far and the trailers have been sooo exciting im really so hyped for drph3 tomorrow oh my god<3 team maxie team myx team zymbaaaa

[goodfully]

ahh i havent really been using tumblr, mostly bc my first semester of grad school was overwhelming, but i have a lot on my mind right now that i feel like organizing and typing up hahaha

for certain reasons, i usually get overly anxious when the year ends and go crazy insane for the entire first month of the year.. but ive been so calm these days, im not actually sure if thats bc ive actually healed or if ive found good distractions. ive always been obsessed with at least appearing as if im put together, but ive been much more so this year than any other year... i hope ive been actually healing despite that tho hahaha

anyway! studying philosophy in grad school has been the most excitement ive ever felt! to be surrounded by so many thoughtful and inspiring ppl that i get to often talk to and listen to and learn from has been so wonderful. in the past months ive been esp obsessed with kants conception of perfection and god and goodness... im currently reading his "a new elucidation of the first principles of metaphysical cognition" and aaahh its just so exciting hahaha i really regret not studying philosophy for my undergrad degree and i worry i lack so much compared to my peers, but ive been enjoying every single class so far and am even more excited for my classes next semester!

ahh but having two part time jobs along with my classes and classwork has really made me so busy and exhausted... i quite dislike nyc in general as well, so that on top of everything else has just really made me become someone very antisocial and difficult to befriend and hang out with... im also stuck in the mindset that im just here to prioritize studying for two years and get the hell out of there, so my desire to make close friends (i socialize with my program mates superficially..) has been very low. im very much someone who wont speak/reach out unless spoken to/approached, and i didnt realize it was a such a huge problem until i received a wake up call from someone... so i think this year i need to work on being more aware of the relationships i have with other ppl in my life.

in general tho, i also just would like to be more aware of living in my body/physical self... less zoned out and stuck in my head, more going outside and moving around and cleaning up the spaces i use and ofc also being with others. i guess what i actually mean is that i want to have more faith in my being and actually love being... and these are just some things i can do to hopefully do that. i dont think i can be the kind of person i want to be that makes an actual difference/contribution in the world they live in if im not actually living/being in my body.

anyway i think thats all i have to say for now? i look forward to this upcoming year... continuing my studies in grad school and going back home to taiwan for the summer in between those two semesters. itll be so busy and difficult and exciting! i just get the feeling that its okay for me to have wishful thinking and high hopes for myself this year hahaha

[thankstothe]

1. Denmark. Literal child? Voice doesn't have enough power to hit those notes. Like that pink to green change on stage

I SEE THE DADI FREYR IN THE BG OMG ICELAND BABY (btw did they bleach their flag?)

2. Armenia. Laying on the floor. Classic. Somewhat continued pink theme at start. The thing I love, no sarcasm, is that sometimes you can't tell if they actually sing in English. Oh it wasn't a floor, it was a wall. Revolutionary.

Ew, showing Beatles statues. Have to shove your famous boys against a poet and clowns? This is why no one likes you UK

3. Romania. Oh let's go, native language, cool voice, pink suit, playing with genres. This is why im here. Staging is a letdown, you could literally just follow with the camera on foot.

4. Estonia. Oh piano plays itself, no fire yet. Now she plays it. I hope it ends with piano retaliation and attack. Average ballad and in English, boring. Go off piano, love that it has a mic too.

5. Belgium. Pink is back, yas. Love asymmetrical hat. Okay back up vocals have more power that main man, like damn, turn them up! Kinda like that low beat. Fun.funfun

Graham yooo, the only uk host im excited to see in final. So weird to see him and hear him at the same time lmao.

6. Cyprus. wooo. Didn't get memo for the pink theme. woooOOOooo. English, but accent is thick so I'll take it. wooooOoOoO. Gets some shoes boy, barefoot look didn't add shit. I wonder how warm is the floor tho, lights and all the pyre prob heats it up good. Woooo

7. Iceland. Everyone shut up its iceland. Im biased. Laying on the floor, brilliant move. Oh red lining in the coat, great. Some pink light's so were in the clear there too. Asserting more dominance over the floor and laying on in some more. She jacked, wow. Good voice. Song? I felt nothing.

8. Greece. Laying on the floor. Waiting for the pink to cross it off my list. Oh no your voice isn't there to jump or even move and sing, sorry. Also no pink. ФEELINGS. Why are you doing that with that alphabet shuffle. Causing me pain, that's what. Do that with sung word and we'll talk.

9. Poland. Pink hell yah. This is makes me have flashbacks to the 00s radio. Everything, voice dance, costumes, underwhelming. Oh so her dress was shitty because it was hiding another dress and not 00s reference? Makes sense. Fuego attempt, sorry you're not HER

10. Slovenia. Not English + nasty bass, okay boys! Some pink clothing. Raided their parents closet from 80s. Can't pinpoint the high singer sadly.

11. Georgia. I was excited that she was yelling at me and then she stopped... Obsessed with the instrumentals. Pink appears on the screens briefly, if you care. Amazing voice, blew the dress away.

WELSH FLAG YES BITCH

What is that actor forgor here, he's not here to talk about anything substantial I bet. Alluding to Ukraine, not even head on mention, are you kidding me?

12. San Marino. Rocky. What's with the sound mixing this year, they let this one down. Oh eyes on the walls, ok. Laying on the floor gives you some kind of points, at least I can have list. No pink, but there was like only red.

13. Austria. Okay fun start, go queens! Very interesting vocal turns and melodies. Staging is immaculate! Costumes are great. UGH. Edgar lmao. A lot of red, we moving the spectrum it seems.

14. Albania. I swear Albania sent this before. Sorry, deja vu is insane for me here. Flashing aggressive red lights solidified spectrum change. Native language is an automatic W. Wait, I thought the limit was 5 people on stage, they had 6.

15. Lithuania. Pink and red, bold choice, bringing it all together. Okay more of a purple and orange, shut up. Back up is overpowering her when they sing chorus, at least it mixed better.

16. Australia. Oh I liked thier postcard bridge. Doing interesting thing with camera, lights. Some pink and red. Oh was that a brief breakdown, alrighty. Crisp guitars and synth. Ending with headbang, very energetic!

Pretty fun semifinals overall