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linkspooky · 4 years ago

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Dabi’s Self Suicide

I don’t know if you’ve noticed this, but Dabi is someone who has a tendency to make things about himself. In the League of Villains which is identifiably a group dynamic, Dabi takes every available opportunity to insist that he is alone, he is just along for the ride. A single man, with a single conviction, should be enough to change the world. He has a tendency to act like he’s the most important one here, he’s the one whose going to bring an end to hero society all on his own and yet at the same time he has no sense of identity. He has no self. He doens’t even have a name. Hawks asks him his name and he literally responds with [redacted]. I think this paradox of Dabi’s is at the core of figuring out who he is, and who he is not.

1. Father Feelings

There’s something important to understand about Dabi, and just like always it starts with the family. I don’t think a lot of people realize how truly unfeeling, callous, cold towards Dabi Endeavor really was. I know we all, even I have used the golden child / scapegoat dynamic to describe Dabi and Shoto, but one important detail is that Dabi wasn’t always the scapegoat, he was the golden child at first.

More important than Endeavor’s own feelings, is Dabi’s in this flash back. From the start, Dabi thought he was a normal kid in a normal family. He thought he had a normal dad. He even liked his super cool hero dad. Dabi wanted to train with him, wanted his attention and time, but these are just things a normal kid wants.

However, Dabi was conceived of for very abnormal reasons. From the start, going into the whole affair, Endeavor’s intentions were wrong. Dabi was expected to carry on Endeavor’s legacy for him, he was the center of his attention, the center of his world. Dabi tried his best to carry all of those expectations as much as he reasonably could.

However, there is literally nothing Dabi could have done in that situation to satisfy Endeavor. It’s not even about being born with the wrong quirk. It’s Endeavor who was wrong. From the start, Endeavor wasn’t interested in having a child or loving a child, but rather having a miniature Endeavor, Touya was just a vessel, to carry all of Endeavor’s hopes and dreams and live vicariously through him. However, that’s impossible.E ven if Touya had been born with the right quirk, that was impossible. You can’t live through another person. Touya’s success never would have been Endeavor’s. Endeavor would hae resorted to the exact same abuse, manipulation, control. Touya was never meant to be his own person, and that’s why even now, even becoming Dabi who is the rejection of everything Endeavor is, he still forms his entire personhood around Endeavor. It’s not that kids choose to form their personhood around their parents, they have to form themselves around their parents, we literally learn how to be people by interacting with other people especially during the developmental years. The same ones that Touya died during.

Endeavor’s actions towards Touya is that he not only made Touya carry all of his emotions for him, he made Touya bear the brunt of his hurt feelings, all of his expectations, but then when Touya couldn’t carry them He blamed Touya. He tossed him aside. He made Touya feel, that something was wrong with Touya, and that was why he was no longer getting his father’s attention. It’s not anything Touya did, or anything Touya could do about, Touya was literally born wrong.

It’s literally what he crawled to Natsuo asking. Yet, still Touya tried to fix himself. He was the golden child, now he’s the scapegoat, and Touya feels he did something wrong, so he keeps trying to fix himself, keeps trying to train on his own, and it doesn’t work because it could never work until it results in his eventual suicide and then how does Endeavor refer to it.

Touya was just another tragic accident. Just a little mistake, along the road to creating Shoto. I’m not trying to explain away any of Dabi’s actions, just explain the way that Dabi regards himself, rather, Dabi literally has no sense of self at all. It’s been completely smashed to pieces. It’s ash. it’s dust. It’s just gone. Dabi’s name may as well just be [redacted]. There was also once a time that Shoto worried that he was more like his father within himself, but he got help from the people around him to realize he’s his own person, help that Dabi never got.

2. Sins of the Father

So it’s like a genetic trait in the Todoroki family to be completely self absorbed, and dense to the emotions of other people, to the point where you don’t really see other people’s feelings. Like father, like son, like other son. However, Endeavor’s just like that, whereas Dabi and Shoto were made that way. Imagine what it was like to be Shoto, to be constantly told, you’re different from them, you’re the special one, you’re the chosen one. To the point where you couldn’t even play with your siblings, or be a part of everyone’s normal lives, no you were forced to be special. Shoto is oblivious to other people’s emotions because he was literally forcibly separate from other people, and even his mother who was his strongest emotional tie during literally most of his developmental years.

Empathy is literally formed by interacting with people. You can’t form it or even have it, if your interactions with people are cut off and severely limited. You learn about how other people feel by normal social interaction, something that both Touya and Shoto were eventually cut off from. Touya from dying, Shoto from his mother being hospitalized. After that their ability to form connections with others was severely hampered.

One funny thing about Shoto is he kind of acts like he’s the protagonist of his own narrative. So does Bakugo. That’s why he goes “Get out of the way all you extras.” Shoto’s the one with the tragic backstory. Shoto’s the one with this motivation to defy his father’s wishes. However, Shoto’s not the main character, he’s not the hero of the story, and it’s actually important that he’s not because the literal setting of the story is a society where everyone has the potential to be a hero. Kind of like how the point of Miles Morales story is that everyone can be spiderman. Shoto, also doesn’t really want to be a main character, or special boy, all Shoto has ever wanted was to connect with his siblings, to have the normalcy that everyone else has. In a society where everyone, even his own father is so desperately trying to stand out, Shoto wants the safety and security of normalcy.

So you kind of have this paradox in Shoto’s head. Shoto kind of thinks of himself as a main character, even though that’s not really what he wants to be, just because that’s what’s been forced into his head the entire life. The emotional isolation of an abusive parent still ahs an effect on you, even when you’re aware, like Shoto was, that what Endeavor was saying was wrong. No one can grow up properly in isolation, that’s why kids need to interact with other kids and grow up together.

So, I think the utlimate explanation for Dabi’s attitude towards the rest of the league is this. I’m the main villain. I’m the biggest threat. I’m the one who is going to bring an end to hero society all on my own.

Once again this ties back to Shoto’s trauma, and Dabi’s. Touya didn’t want to be the special one, he was forced to be. Touya thought he was a normal kid, with a normal dad until he suddenly wasn’t. Then, Touya tried his hardest to be the special one until he literally broke his body, and his dad went no nevermind, turns out you were an extra.

Saying Dabi is just doing this for Endeavor’s attention is oversimplifying. There’s a need to give a narrative to pain. Shoto even does it. Shoto literally narrates his life, he dumps his life story on everyone who will listen. People who are traumatized, want to give some sort of special meaning to their trauma, they want to feel important, because that in some way might justify what happened to them. If they can’t feel loved, they can try feeling important, like someone who mattered. Otherwise, Dabi is literally just someone who died and got forgotten. Otherwise, he’s just a sad little mistake, the same way his father regards him. Dabi can’t let the league in, because he has to do this on his own to prove he’s special.

Dabi has this very individualistic and self centered approach to changing the world. He has to do it all on his own. He has to play mastermind. He was to orchestrate Endeavor’s rise and fall, and once again these are coping behaviors. Touya couldn’t control his abandonment, he had no agency in that, so he tries to pretend he’s in control of everything now. Even Dabi burning himself, his self-harming,it’s pain he’s in control of because he’s doing it to himself, father isn’t forcing him to train until he breaks anymore.

Shoto sees himself as a main character. Dabi sees himself as the main villain.

However, at the same time. Dabi hates himself. He loathes himself. It comes out in his self loathing behaviors, but more than that every thing Dabi does is an act of self destruction. Dabi has no feelings, no friends, no family, because he’s trying to destroy all those things.

Dabi has no sense of self, because Endeavor has ruined him to the point where he’s still Endeavor’s empty vessel after all these years of separation from him. Dabi has no self, and also he doesn’t want one. He doesn’t want to grow past this point.

Dabi has entirely fictionalized his life. That’s why he makes a dramatic reveal. Hee wants to turn his life into a tragedy, where he is the main character, where he is the one that Shoto and Endeavor cannot save. Because at least this way, he will not be forgotten. Unable to grasp for love, he tries to grasp for some kind of improtance, to change the world instead. In that scenario, it makes sense Dabi would distance himself from the league. I don’t think Dabi knows what his true feelings towards theleague are. In fact, I don’t even think he thinks about them. Who cares about what his feelings are? They are entirely separate from what he must do. Any feelings he has, any regrets, are going to burn away when he explodes like a bomb to ruin his father’s life.

Dabi’s wavering motivations, his constant flipping between different emotions, like he’s channel surfing, I dont’ believe we’re supposed to read into every single thing he says, but rather notice how constantly he’s changing what he’s saying, because Dabi has no stable sense of self. We’re also supposed to see why he has no stable sense of self, because he’s all alone.

This is the climax of Dabi’s big revenge play, it was supposed to end here, with the tragic protagonist dying. However, I think it’s actually really important in this arc that Dabi gets upstaged. Dabi is not the main character, Dabi’s not even the main villain. He’s not even the only character whose the descendant of a hero. It’s also, really important that Compress is the one who upstages his reveal.

What’s that? You thought I was a background character! It turns out I had this important motivation all along. The pacing is weird but it does achieve the intended effect. Dabi thought this was his moment, but that was actually bad for him. Dabi’s main flaw is that he tries to do all of these things along, but he’s not the only one who dreams of a better world. Dabi, Toga, Shigaraki, Mr. Compress says that all of their dreams are important at the same time. They are all simultaneously main characters.

Dabi doesn’t get to have his moment, but I think it’s narratively important that he didn’t get to have it, because Dabi does no favors for himself by cutting himself off from the league. It’s meant to be a character flaw, Dabi shouldn’t get his revenge play, because his revenge play ends up with him dying at the end to spite Endeavor one fainly time. Dabi can’t achieve his dreams, because he hasn’t figured out who he is, or even who he wants to be yet. He just knwos what he doesn’t want to be. He just knows what he’s not. He’s not Endeavor. However I don’t think there’s going to be some big twist reveal about his character where he’s like, I secretly cared about the league, or my family all along, I was secretly a soft guy at heart. Those feelings are there. It’s not a problem of being unfeeling with Dabi, rather that Dabi has no central sense of self to stabilize all those feelings around, thus we see him swinging wildly back and forth. I think while Dabi obviously has feelings towards both of those groups of people, a self is something he’ll have to develop over time when he finally introduces himself to the league. When he’s forced to live, past the tragic ending of his play.

Who will Dabi be when he realizes he has to live past his imagined revenge, who can he become? I think his development from this point will be incredibly interesting to wait, watch and see.

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bartistic · 4 years ago

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@redrobinperiodt requested Tim Drake Angst so here we go

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CW: Panic Attack, blood, injury, head injury, Joker, self-loathing

Tim felt sick to his stomach as the night rolled and tossed around him. He was breathing very hard— possibly, no, probably on the verge of a panic attack. He clenched his fists, which seemed stuck to his sides. Okay, five things you can see—

He opened his eyes. He couldn’t see anything. Not just pitch black, but darker. True, deep, nothingness black. With his mask on, though, he couldn’t tell whether he was blinded, blindfolded, or simply in a very dark room.

He could vaguely feel his limbs, which could be a good or bad sign. He couldn’t remember whether it ought to be a good or bad sign. With a numb hand he attempted to reach up to his face to check for a blindfold, but doubled over in pain as his arms met ropes instead. The movement stretched a wound he didn’t know he had, slick wet fluid making his clothes tacky.

Or maybe the fluid was something else entirely? Now that he was more tuned in, he noticed the smell. It was hard to believe he hadn’t noticed it before— the invasive and sluggish stench of Gotham’s sewers. He shifted his feet, hearing a soft and wet shlop echo through the wide chambers. He could hear the dripping of the condensation now, and the bustle of the city outside. Was it daytime? Tim couldn’t recall. He couldn’t hear anything out of the usual for the sewers... Killer Croc was still in Arkham, last time he checked, and without him the sewers were a relatively quiet, if definitely toxic, affair.

So the question remained: why was he in the sewers? He couldn’t recall how he got there— wracking his brain, the last memory he could think of was leaving to patrol. He couldn’t remember the last time he actually saw any of his family outside of uniform... He had his own apartment now. Where he could be a slob in peace, and not have to worry about sharing the coffee pot.

Shifting his arms served a dual purpose— it helped him to attempt to shimmy out of his bonds, gasping in pain all the while, and to feel the rope itself. The knot was surprisingly easy to loosen... suspiciously easy, in fact. With his arms free, Tim reached for his face, careful to mind the wound on his side.

He was relieved to find a blindfold tied securely over his mask. It was giving him a bit of a headache, actually, so it was a relief to pull it down. He carefully brushed past a tender bump that was sticky with blood.

Tim blinked, his eyes adjusting to the light— dim light, for sure, but enough to confirm his surroundings. He looked down at his feet. They were padlocked together, with a literal ball and chain attached and sitting in the muck a few feet away. He leaned back against the wall, which was moist (as expected. Ew.), and slid down the grungy bricks into a squat. Taking the lock picks out of his mask, he began to work at picking the padlock. With a finger, he absentmindedly brushed his hair out of the way behind his ear.

His ear, which ought to have a comms unit in it. Why didn’t it?

Breaking free of the lock he lifted a foot to step forward, but was stopped by a cackle. A familiar cackle.

A laugh familiar to any Gothamite, and more than familiar to any Bat.

“Oh, I wouldn’t do that if I were you, little birdie. A ha ha. Hee hee. OOH HOO HOO HOO we— we wouldn’t want to spoil the main event before we even got ready now would we? No, ha, we want to wait for the rest of the little birdies to come along and play before we can BLOW YOU ALL SKY HIGH AH ha HEE HEE,”

Sure enough, as Tim looked beneath the grime under his feet, he could see a pressurized plate. A mine, that would go off if he even shifted his balance too much to the side. There was a countdown on it as well, set to 18 mins and 20 seconds. 19 seconds. 18 seconds.

Tim was suddenly very glad he had only shifted his feet a little bit earlier, and while picking the lock.

“That is... if they even come for you. I don’t see, ha, why they’d care about such a miserable little bird! Look,” the Joker attempted to pout as he came prancing into view, “his poor wings are all soggy. Naughty naughty oil slicks, gooping up the birdies wings so they can’t fly! HAHAHA!” He leaned in close to Tim, using his hands to lift the sides of his cape, drenched in raw sewage, and flapping them. Tim stiffened slightly, preparing to attack, but the Joker stepped back, holding a small remote in his hand. “Ooh, good one boy blunder! You switch places with me, and I’ll press this lil button here! It does just the HA the funniest thing, y’see... it’ll set off a nice little chain reaction that will make the whole sewer go BOOM! HA HA HEE HA!” Joker pranced around, kicking sewage everywhere, splattering onto the walls, onto Tim, even onto his own purple suit. “Now let’s see. How shall we pass the time while we wait for dear old Daddy Bats to realize you’re missing? I think we ought to have a few days or so... HA! I ought to have a few days. You, ha, don’t have that much time, babybird.” Tim wasn’t sure where the clown had heard that nickname, but it made him sick to his stomach. Or maybe that was just the almost certain concussion. “Now how about a game of Go Fish?” Joker pulled a deck of cards out of his suit pocket. He shuffled them haphazardly, most of them falling into the lazy brown river below. They were all Jokers.

Tim’s attention was brought back to the man himself as the clown roughly grasped his hand, forced it open, and placed in it a hand of cards. Then with the same about of force, he shut the hand. Tim let out a stuttered inhale at the pain in his side. “Now, do you know how to play Go Fish?” Tim glared, but didn’t say anything. “So what you’re HA gonna do is, you’re gonna say a card. Like this:” he did a nasally, whiny imitation of Tim’s voice, “Do you have any sevens, Mr. Joker sir? And then *I* get to say NO!” He cackled and shoved Tim’s head all the way into the ground, through the sewage. Hard. Tim sputtered and flailed and desperately tried to keep balance as a spindly yet strong hand held his head in place. It was like a more tortuous version of the swirlies he’d never had to endure, but had heard about on the internet. “Go fish! A HA HA HEE HOO HEH. You’re no fun.” Tim’s head lolled on his neck, feeling too heavy to hold up. “I’m going to go hunt down some more friends for us to play with, alrighty? Have fun while I’m gone! Or don’t. HEE HEE HA HOO HOO!” The Joker kicked tim’s head from where he was kneeling on the ground. Then he left.

Tim’s thoughts were swirling, much like the muck they were surrounded by. It had to be daytime by now, surely Bruce and the others would have noticed he was missing. But would they? Asked another part of his brain. You’re the forgotten Robin, the unimportant one, you’re not even a real part of the family. Dick created the role, Jason died for it, Damian was born for it, what were you? Were you even needed? You just shoved yourself into their lives and everything became all the worse because of it. When’s the last time you’ve spoken to them, any of them? They don’t want to even be near you. They all hate you. They’ve noticed you’re gone alright, but whatever would make them want to come find you?

Tim settled onto the plate. 10 minutes, 57 seconds. He closed his eyes and tried to not think.

He didn’t know how long it was until he heard voices again.

“Hey assholes, I found him! He’s over here! He’s... oh fuck Timmy, that’s a lot of blood. You’re okay. Batman apprehended the bastard. I’ll kill him for you later though, okay babybird?” Tim shuddered at the nickname, letting out what could be called a whimper. “We got you, we’re taking you home.” Home. What was home. The manor? He looked up, head swaying. Red Hood was crouched in front of him, hands out in a placating gesture. He was flickering at the edges. Great, a caffeine-withdrawal-induced hallucination.

“No... y’ can’t...” He mumbled under his breath, his voice scratchy and dry-feeling. “Y’r not real. Y’r not coffee.” Jason— the hallucination— looked concerned. Tim felt a pressure on his head. He yelped. “G’t away... Y’ll set off th’ bomb...” The hallucination-possible-not-a-hallucination-jason cussed. Tim let out a soft huff of laughter. Who knew his imagination was so colorful.

“B, there’s a bomb here. We need immediate extraction and medical for Red Robin, I’ll do what I can to defuse it.”

“Pr’ssure Plate...” Tim murmured before he was under once more. And then there was shouting, and slapping of his face, which made his neck hurt and his face sting.

“No, you are not falling asleep on me! Dammit B, get here now!” Tim had never been the best at following orders. And he was running on no caffeine. He was going to take a nap now, and nobody could stop him.

Flashes.

Strong arms holding him, carrying him through the sewers.

Shouting from someone who sounded a lot like Dick, but that was impossible, because Dick wasn’t there.

Strong arms holding him, loading him into a car, careful of his head.

A squeeze from a small hand. “You are not going to die by the hand of that clown, Drake, I will not allow it.”

Pressure on his stomach, overwhelming pressure and pain and he was jackknifing and fighting whoever was pressing on his wound and there was more screaming but this screaming was him.

Finally, a steady beeping. He opened his eyes, then immediately shut them again. Too bright. He wished he had his Robin shades. He snuffled his nose and heard a noise in return. Someone at his bedside, then. He grunted. There was a gasp.

“Too bright. H’rts.” He watched from behind his eyelids as the flourescent lights were turned off with a click. Then he hazarded opening his eyes again. Bruce was sitting, asleep in a chair by the side of the bed, clearly in a very uncomfortable position. Tim had no doubts he’d had worse. At the door were Dick, Duke, and Stephanie. They looked as if they wanted to talk to him but didn’t want to risk waking a sleeping batman. Damian was at the light switch. Tim was officially confused. Fuck the sleeping Batman, he wanted answers. “J’ker?”

Dick scowled. “Arkham. Although he definitely won’t be out again for a while after Hood’s through with him.”

Cass spoke up from the other side of the room, “Wheelchair.”

Tim nodded. “Bomb?”

“It was a dud.” Tim frowned. That made no sense. Also, they were definitely hiding something.

“How long w’s i out?”

“4 days. You flatlined two times. Between the wound in your side getting infected by fucking sewage water and your memory-hazy brain injury, it’s a miracle you survived.” Steph looked angry. Then she began to cry. “You asshole! You almost died!” She looked as if she wanted to either hug him or punch him, but neither were a feasible option for the moment, so she settled on sniffing angrily at her tears and then purposely walking out. “I’m going to go make coffee. For myself.”

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whoo boy that’s all i got in me tonight. thanks for the request lol!

#tim drake #tim drangst #lol #angst #my fic #batfam #dick grayson #bruce wayne #jason todd #duke thomas #cassandra cain #steph brown #damian wayne #red robin #yummmm #uhhh is this whump #whump #tim drake whump #yeehaw fuckers it’s 2:40 AM

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hauntedliz · 4 years ago

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Unus Annus is a Tragedy

This is a big ole theory that comes after a lot of discussion on the lore hunters discord, so I can’t take all the credit for these ideas, but this is definitely my particular take on it. Hopefully it makes sense lol

Mark and Ethan made a deal: to have one whole year to create whatever they wanted without worry or consequences. No fear of ad revenue or views, just the opportunity to make exactly what they wanted.

They, at least metaphorically if not literally, shook hands with Unus and Annus, and the deal was done. One year of free time, no consequences. Since then we’ve seen them laugh, cry, get angry, go through hardships, and achieve victories. We’ve seen them live, and we’ve also seen them die. Literally in Ethan’s case (”How to Start a Fire”). And then we’ve seen him back in the next video, good as new. We’ve also seen Mark lose touch with reality (Hee Hoo) and return to his usual self by the next video. No consequences.

But something else interesting has been happening. We’ve seen secret messages hidden in the videos, deciphered and read pleas to stop the clock... Someone doesn’t want it all to end. Even before Mark and Ethan opened the coffin in “The Truth of Unus Annus” and were (presumably) replaced by Unus and Annus, someone was begging for more time.

(Buckle up. This gets long and I didn’t want to fill up your dash lol)

Who is this person? We should help, shouldn’t we? Don’t we all wish our beloved channel could survive the year? If there wasn’t a chance it could be saved, these messages wouldn’t exist... right?

Well, no. I think the channel will be deleted as we’ve been told from day one. I think this battle we’re seeing (and some of us fighting in) is one that’s been going on since the beginning of time, and Mark and Ethan just so happened to get wrapped up in it by making the deal. We’re only seeing it now, because this is the first time it’s been documented like this before.

It’s the battle against for time.

Unus means “one.” He wears black, a color that often symbolizes death. In the newer ending animations he passes Annus a clock and also wields a scythe. He is the grim reaper. He is death.

Annus means “year.” He wears white, a color that often symbolizes life. In the end animations when Unus swings the clock to him it becomes a skull. He then holds a flower, a symbol of life, which ultimately wilts. He is the present. He is memories. He is the life of a year.

I don’t think the clock and videos in general are beginning to glitch (the clock going back for a second in “Blood Bath,” static, weird audio, strange jumpcuts especially in “Accepting the Truth,” and of course the hidden codes.) because of anything Mark and Ethan alone are doing. Someone with more power has to be using or working with them to get more time.

Someone like Annus.

Now, I don’t see Unus or Annus as good or evil. Neither is the villain of the channel. As Mark said in “Who’s Cutting Onions in Here?” death isn’t the opposite of life, but part of it. Unus and Annus may say they hate each other (as they have insisted in several videos), but they are two sides to the same coin. They are brothers. They both have a role to play in the universe: Annus must live and create memories in the time he’s given, and Unus must end things.

The glitching we’ve been seeing occurs when a well oiled machine begins to break down. When Unus and Annus try to take more than they’re given. Annus is trying to take more time (with or without the help of Mark and Ethan). He doesn’t want the year to end, he wants to stop the clock and live in this moment for longer.

For Unus, he tries to take things before their time. For example, when Mark kills Ethan at the end of “How to Start a Fire.” Or, as Mark scolds him in “Brutally Honest,” for trying to end videos early. (While in my opinion, this is just Ethan being Ethan, I think another fun connection is how Ethan usually quits hard/gross food challenges before they’re finished lol). It can’t be easy being the ender of things, so I can understand why it might seem less painful to end things as quickly as possible. To stop before there is time to miss what’s gone.

In greedily trying to take more than they’re both given, they have disrupted the harmony of life. Maybe the only way to fix things and bring harmony back to the universe is by allowing the channel to die. Let the channel be erased and let Mark and Ethan move on.

If we let it end, as nature intends everything to one day end, then we can “push reset” and start anew with whatever comes next.

Now does this mean all of our code hunting and fighting was for nothing if all we really have to do is let it die as intended? Not at all! A year is an excellent cause to fight for! These memories have meant so much, and we absolutely should be solving every puzzle we can, but when it comes time- the true time for the end, we have to accept it as part of life.

I have a theory that Unus knows how this works: they have a year together, it ends, but then life begins again in a new year. He is death, he remembers it all. But Annus never remembers this cycle or the past years/lives, because for him they always have to end. He resets and is a new year, a new Annus (at least mentally).

I bet it really takes a toll on Unus to have to end things every time, despite the fight Annus puts up to stay. And he should fight for it! Life is an amazing, beautiful experience even through the hard parts! It is worth the battle, but again, death is not the opposite of life, but part of it. And it always must ultimately come.

I get why Unus would get greedy and want to make things shorter. The sooner it’s over, the sooner it can begin again. It must be so painful to hurt your brother in this way over and over again, because he can’t understand and never will.

*coughs* um, is this a theory or a fanfic? I’m not crying you are. Sorry lol.

But I think the point here is to rage against the dying of the light anyway, but that the only way to win and beat it is to let it happen when its time comes. We got our year, and now it will end as it’s supposed to. And something new and amazing will begin again!

I also just wanted to point out a fun little thing I noticed in “The Truth of Unus Annus” that kind of goes along with my theory a little bit. When Ethan and Mark open the coffin they are facing one another, a united front.

And when the coffin closes, and Unus and Annus are there in their places, they are facing forwards and away from each other. No long united.

THEY JUST GLANCE AT EACH OTHER AND SEPERATE

I’m crying

Anyway, if you’re still here you’re a star. I hope this even vaguely made sense and there weren’t too many typos. It’s a lot, I know lol.

#Unus Annus #unus annus theory #unus annus theories #unus annus clues #unus annus arg #team unus #team annus #camp unus annus #unus #annus #momento mori #PUSH RESET #whokilledmarkiplier #unus annus clue #unus annus ranting

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dangermousie · 4 years ago

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So, because I am obsessive, I went through and rewatched the MV they put at the end of ep 5, to see which scenes we haven’t yet seen as of this week.

I assume they will all be aired soon because they obviously pre-filmed a lot, but this drama is not completely pre-filmed, so they are unlikely to be in ep 15 or similar - frankly I can’t imagine them being any late than next week.

Anyway, here are the scenes I found.

Scene 1:

Did he do it for their 5-year house anniversary? Some other occasion? Or maybe at random because he wants to put extra effort in to keep their relationship sweet and normal (little does he know that train has left the station.) I do think that means he came up with some lie as to why he was in the house with Moo Jin and Do Hyun Soo’s sister because I cannot imagine him doing this if he knew she knew, at least not without a lot of other working through it. Hmmm.

Scene 2:

No idea, but the way she looks at him kills me. She loves him so much and I can’t get over her strength because she believes he doesn’t feel the same way but she doesn’t hate him or blame him for it because he’s treated her so consistently well.

Scene 3:

OK, where are they, because it’s not their house. And why is he bleeding from the head? At the rate he is going, he will need a month-long hospital stay to fix all the damage he’s going through in this drama. Also, she is clutching him (my heart!) while you can see him look like he wants to flee and is barely restraining himself from it. I wonder if it’s the aftermath of the scene we saw in the preview with him in the employment agency gangsters or the fight in the bar (the dark environment screams the former, the blood possibly the later.) I wonder if he’s freaking out because he realized she found out about him or “merely” because she’s seen his darker side and so he’s worried she will walk. I bet she grabbed him though because she is beyond worried for him.

Scene 4:

I would totally be screaming if it wasn’t for the fact that people would think that I am crazier than I already am. Does this take place shortly after the previous scene? His jacket is the same and he still has the blood in the same place. But it’s clearly in their house and the lights are on. When she reaches for his hand !!!! and he is almost crying !!!!! and he holds her face !!!!!! Yeah, no emotions, yeah right!

You know I keep thinking about how, provided the drama doesn’t kill him off, it is so so good his identity is out to her and he will know it and she will love him away and he will know it. Because I don’t think he could truly address his trauma and heal while he is Baek Hee Sung.

I mean, their marriage, idyllic as it was, was not fully real because him being the perfect Stepford husband is honestly a sign of damage. I was chatting about this in messenger but it’s a sign of his trauma and past abuse that it looks like he never ever had a problem with anything in the marriage or relationship - she has to work late and ditch in the middle of even a make-out? He doesn’t even look grumpy. He never ever demurs, not even by a look, from anything going on or anything Ji Won or Eun Ha want. And honestly, I think even if fully healed, he’d be mostly happy with the marriage and the division of duties (he clearly thrives on being the homemaker and caretaker, an unconscious but thorough repudiation of what his father tried to make him.) BUT! I cannot imagine anyone fully functional, no matter how happy and devoted occasionally not being grouchy or sometimes not wanting his wife to work long hours, or hell - maybe just once not making a fancy feast for every meal. But he never even allows himself to think that because he cannot acknowledge even to himself any displeasure or reluctance because anger or any other negative emotion he associates with daddy dearest and he does not want to be like him at all costs. He needs to learn it’s OK to feel good things but also negative things - normal people feel that and don’t start abusing and murdering.

And also, the reason he refuses to acknowledge anything but perfect behavior on his part is because he has zero self-worth. I don’t mean he is self-pitying because he’s matter of fact about it, but he genuinely believes he has nothing to bring to a relationship but what he can do for Ji Won and Eun Ha - he has no inherent value in himself so he must keep demonstrating value through actions. I mean this is a man who is genuinely happy he thinks his daughter has nothing of him in her. He basically lives erasing himself insofar as he’s able. And because of that it never occurs to him that a monster could never raise a girl as sunny and happy and functional as Eun Ha. Many “normal” people spend less care and effort on their children than he does on her. It also doesn’t occur to him that a monster would not want to want nothing or demand nothing; monsters view their wishes as paramount and nothing else matters. What his father was doing was the ultimate “only I matter and what I want is the only thing that matters; to such an extent that he could literally kill others if it pleases him. The way HS lives is the very opposite of it. His sister had to push and prod him for him to even be able to express/comprehend that he wants something as mundane as to keep living as a person with his own shop and caretaker for his wife and daughter. But of course in his head, all of his life has been somehow perverted into a masterpiece of selfishness.

Anyway, I should stop blabbing.

#kdrama #flower of evil #moon chae won #lee jun ki

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dahniwitchoflight · 4 years ago

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Homesquared Chapter 16

Alrighty, that was a fun tangent, now back to John it seems?

Oh, no, Narration of John (So Actually Dirk, speak of the devil and he shall appear and all that etc etc)

“ leaving John with one final touch on the shoulder. John leans into it in response, though he’s a bit ashamed of chasing down a sliver of physical affection so soon after obliterating Karkat’s evening like he had. “

pfft lol so Im not the only one that thought it would be funny if that scene was interpreted in a Pale Romantic light, even though that really wasn’t what was happening

OIh! but we still get Roxy, just the other version of Roxy

Roxy subtly being like ��hey!! shit has apparently gone down, were not exactly close atm but I feel bad about you dying to want to know if youre still alive so im gonna message you while trying to make it look like i dont care about it as much as I do”

JOHN: trying to align my memories of my youth with whatever is happening right now so

and the wonderful question is, what IS going be happening with you now John?

Roxy looking nice and casual, but also yeah narration, why are you making this ominous, its not like Roxy’s out here to double spy on behalf of Jane, I don’t think Roxys on her side THAT much

ROXY: may have to do a smidge more if my old bff decides im next on the list for bombing out

ROXY: but so far so good

ROXY: just a coupla exploded cars in the yard from some shenanigans our dear son and his friends were in but u kno it is what it is!!!

Roxy once again being a master of hiding how shes feeling, even when trying to open up, feeling pretty stressed about whats happening with Jane, understandable, the exclamation points give it away lol

The narration is really trying to make John nervous though

OH lol that was the implication haha no lol John it obviously wasn’t that

“John feels his shoulders unbunch. Of course. Yeah. He’s almost embarrassed by how relieved he feels. So what if his ex wife wanted to hook up? Shouldn’t that be a situation he could navigate? Don’t people like to find solace in human physical connection during dire times? Why did the idea of it make his mind white out in panic more than, say, any number of the traumas he just experienced? He doesn’t know, but he believes Roxy that he must look pretty haggard. He probably feels haggard? Maybe sitting down will feel better.“

lol once again, Dirk has no idea how to read Roxy at all and just trips over himself and his assumptions XD

Yeah, looks like Roxy not on the Jane train and is doing some takesies backsies, shes glossing over her feelings on the matter still though, I know thats par for the course of how Roxy tends to handle stuff too but I wish shed open up a bit more, but maybe shes playing the smart game, yknow, knowing that Dirk has a hard time reading her, so glossing over stuff is how you protect yourself against the narrative force, confusion and vaguery in the narrative and her actions only helps her to keep control over it, because at any point, you can decide to “clear up” any narrative “miscommunication” or “confusion” and lay down what is it thats actually happening with you any time you want

Void working in the behind the scenes to do what they want

JOHN: like it’s my HOUSE.

JOHN: but mostly it always felt like my dad’s house?

JOHN: and when i started living there after i moved out of here, it was like i crammed myself back into whatever was left of my kid self?

JOHN: and it didn’t feel good, but it at least was familiar, you know?

JOHN: like living there let me feel closer to my dad, trying to be like the way i remember him, or like how i remember him wanting me to be, or something?

JOHN: and i didn’t realize how much i hated doing that until i saw it all go up in flames.

JOHN: so i guess i could have used my powers to stop the fire and save whatever was left of the place, but i couldn’t bring myself to do it.

JOHN: like some fucked up part of me was glad i got there too late?

JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison.

JOHN: and even now i keep trying to explain it away, as though it’s because of how fucked up everything else is that it made me feel good.

JOHN: but that’s just bullshit.

JOHN: it DID feel good.

JOHN: i DO feel free.

JOHN: sorry.

ROXY: no need 2 apologize

ROXY: we just delved in2 my whole gender thing last time so it seems fine for u to have a turn

JOHN: i didn’t say it was a gender thing.

Im pretty sure you’re talking about a gender thing John, like, very 100% sure now this is what’s happening

because if you were actually a girl, of course you’re dad leaving all these notes about how one day hes gonna be so proud of the man youll become, yeah, that can feel a little pressuring, even if your dad didnt mean it like that, since he was unfailingly the kind of dad just bumbling around trying to understand their kid as best they could and leave encouragements everywhere, thats what his intent was, but all his notes come off a bit wrong in particular issues

remember the note under the fridge that was all like “SON. IF YOURE READING THIS NOTE, YOUVE FINALLY BECOME STRONG ENOUGH OF A MAN TO PICK UP THE FRIDGE.” not exactly that but that was always the vibe Dad’s little notes always had

Yeah, i can see how John would view it as a bit off, but if he hadnt the self awareness to realize it was a gender thing at the time, hed be understandly confused as to why such a thing would bother him

now though, he’s realizing, maybe, he doesn’t exactly want to be the man his dad always encouraged him to be

John does seem a lot happier here in his convo with Roxy than he did on his own when the house was burning, that conversation with karkat left me wondering if John was about to start dissociating he was so down, but here he says he feels freeing and happy about it?

ROXY: but like now that u mention it

ROXY: *meaningful pause*

JOHN: …

JOHN: i

JOHN:

John’s beginning to question stuff, or acknowledge that he’s questioning stuff, cuz it’s true, and hes feeling happy about it, in a way that he wasnt before, but he hasnt quite connected the dots here between the happy feeling and what exactly he has to be happy about

ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit

Roxy flexes, the corner of her mouth pulled up into a familiar grin. John feels his guts, so recently calmed, twist up into knots again. Her eyebrows shoot up and the smile loosens. He must have shown something on his face.

ROXY: ok or just like push when i push

ROXY: we both got sick muscles

ROXY: no other adjectives necessary

JOHN: yeah ok.

Yeah Roxy’s 100% picked up on it, and maybe Dirk has as well if the narration is commenting on it

Alrighty then, to the secret lair under the bed!

oh I just noticed how kind of cute and interesting Roxy’s nickname for Harry is, “Lil H A” Harry Anderson shortens to Ha like laughter haha

and if Harry had Roxy’s last name, it’d be Harry Anderson Lalonde

Lil HAL

lol what is Callie doing under Roxy’s secret bedchamber XD

This whole secret bedchamber thing is turning into one big metaphor isn’t it?

That thing behind the curtain kind of looks like the Attic Portal shape from Hiveswap though

that’d be neat if that was it, like obviously we knew one of the cherubs had to have something to do with that portal just going by the design of it alone

Honestly it makes sense that Callie is doing it under the curtain of Roxy’s Void, it’s honestly the safest place to do something like that

lol Calliope has grown past writing fanfic about shipping and being in love, now the drama of broken relationships and divorce is all the rage XD character growth? haha

CALLIOPE: besides, hUman divorces are even more fascinating than i had ever imagined, and being able to witness yoUrs in motion was an honoUr.

CALLIOPE: so i consider Us aboUt even at this point.

Calliope just burned him harder than his childhood home’s destruction

CALLIOPE: ah right, right. yoU're probably a little cUrioUs as to where the dickens we are.

have you been talking to Jake lol (I mean, probably Original Grandpa Jake tbh if that portal is actually the portal)

Alright so John is getting caught up on the major plot points, Earth C is indeed in the large black hole, his choice didn’t matter since both choices happened anyway yadda yadda

CALLIOPE: think of it like a coin flip.

CALLIOPE: the series of events that led to Us being trapped beyond the event horizon of an Ubermassive black hole could be considered "tails", while the events which would have occUrred otherwise could be considered "heads".

CALLIOPE: since both were possible, and paradox space is the way it is, they actUally both happened. and we jUst "happened" (hee hee) to get tails instead of heads.

yup yup yup pretty par for the course of timesplits in homestuck so far

CALLIOPE: not at all! since both possibilities depend on one another's existence, it really doesn't make sense to call them "right" or "wrong". they both just "are".

yup, this is true, the ending’s of both referenced the others, so it’s disingenuous to say one is “canon” while the other isn’t

one is simply in the realm of actual possibility, the other is in the realm of unlikely possibility

More than likely, John would have chosen to leave and go die and be the hero like in Meat, but there was still the possibility that he would stay, even if it was unlikelier than the other, but since both were possible choices for him to realistically make, both actually happened for real

CALLIOPE: anyway, the reason i went on this tangent in the first place was to explain that the space we are standing in right now has a special significance, in that it is the location which corresponds to the black hole's singUlarity

that’s interesting, so there’s the original meteor that crashed into the surface of Earth C, and it’s in here that the singularity of what I don’t wanna call the Green Hole to match the Green Sun when I wanna talk about this specific Black Hole lolol

but yeah, here in this meteor lies the crux of the paradox it seems, interesting, also interesting again, this is where that Hiveswap Portal is

Hiveswap does have a plot point of “Joey must do thing in 11 days otherwise Earth and Alternia will be destroyed” and the only known destruction event of Earth and Alternia so far in canon is the Green Sun’s Creation from the destruction of both universes (and then later Callie’s destruction of the green sun into the black hole) so is Hiveswap gonna be a factor in the green sun’s destruction/creation as well? (Joey has the symbol of the Green Sun for a reason, I’m super curious as to what factor Joey has in relation to the Green Sun’s Existence, We still don’t know what the fact those black monsters are too, they’re like nega-first guardians, the kind of things that look like would come out of a Black Hole that came from the Green Sun tbh)

It’s all inter-related I tells ya

ROXY: ur not gonna enter a weird time vortex and change the trajectory of a little girls life with the power of love

JOHN: aw.

You say that now but

CALLIOPE: it's not strictly speaking "bad" for Us to be inside of a black hole, mUch thoUgh that contradicts most of what anyone knows about them.

CALLIOPE: of coUrse, if we had fallen into it, that woUld be a whole other kettle of fish.

CALLIOPE: the tidal forces woUld have stretched Us all into spaghetti and then ripped us apart!

CALLIOPE: bUt the natUre of oUr arrival was more akin to simply "being" here, sUddenly. one moment we were not, and the next moment we were, and somehow always had been.

yeah that’s basically how this multiverse’s reality works, the future is a thing that already physically exists, just in a different location in the universe somewhere else

time travel and spacial teleportation could be said to be the same thing all along

that’s why violating the events of the future has actual consequences, because its like asking to go somewhere that doesn’t exist but how has to exist because it’s the future, too much of that and reality starts cracking at the seams to make room

same thing happens with sessions and playing sburb

the planets and dreaming moons and all that simultaneously have always existed here, and started existing only because the player played the game and the planets were generated upon entering a session, but to the player involved, it looks and feels like you are just being teleported to a different location in the universe, because you also kind of are

CALLIOPE: i mean, the natUre of space and time is a little finicky in here, bUt for the most part it doesn't seem to be anything too oUt of the ordinary.

CALLIOPE: bUt beyond that, it means that we are sealed away from the rest of existence.

CALLIOPE: oUr sphere of inflUence is limited to the sphere of the black hole's bounding horizon.

CALLIOPE: as far as everyone else is concerned, we might as well not even exist!

So you’re just in a little seperated bubble, that’s not connect temporally to any other place of existence, you aren’t anywhere in the past or the future of anywhere else

nowhere leads here, and here can not lead outwards either, theoretically, and yes it exists, so it must also

JOHN: is there no way we could let anyone know that we're in here...?

CALLIOPE: almost certainly not!

CALLIOPE: there are very few ways for anything to escape the kind of predicament that we are in right now. one of them is to be an all-powerfUl being with control over the very fabric of space, with the energy of two Universes at yoUr disposal.

CALLIOPE: in which case, escape woUld become rather trivial, if a little Unscientific.

JOHN: ok. i am going to assume that we can't just do that.

CALLIOPE: yoU've hit the nail on the head, UnfortUnately. U_U

CALLIOPE: the method i described was the one employed by my alternate self, who yoU may recall crashed through the event horizon in the body that once belonged to jade harley.

CALLIOPE: she departed through a pUnctUre she created in the black hole's surface shortly after consUming my brother, a deed which provided her with the necessary "oomph", and which was frankly rather breathtaking to watch. =u=

CALLIOPE: bUt Upon her departUre, the rift closed for good. as far as i can see, there's simply no way for Us to commUnicate with the world oUtside the black hole.

CALLIOPE: i woUld certainly be very sUrprised to find oUt that anyone had managed sUch a thing!

So someone else definitely has managed to do such a thing

JOHN: knowing that we're inside of a black hole... does that actually change anything?

JOHN: like, can't we just go on living like normal?

CALLIOPE: oh absolUtely not.

CALLIOPE: i don't know if yoU've noticed john bUt this world is on the brink of a total cataclysm.

JOHN: oh.

CALLIOPE: oUr exclUsion from the overarching coUrse of events which governs all reality means that oUr existence here is liable to dramatic and violent Upheaval.

CALLIOPE: to pUt it another way, becaUse nothing in here "matters", we are likely to be sUbjected to things which are a bit bats in the belfry, for no reason other than it's totally insignificant to the wider canon of reality.

CALLIOPE: and mUch thoUgh i am personally titillated by some of the conseqUences of this predicament, it is a degrading way for Us to live. u_u

JOHN: that's... certainly one way to put it, yeah...

yeah, so because here in the black hole neither affects the past or the future of anywhere else, being so disconnected, they are technically free of the reigns of the Alpha Timeline that exists elsewhere in the multiverse

the Alpha Timeline now being understood to simply mean, The Narrative

Things are the way they are because they are thus written to be so

CALLIOPE: at first, i believed that this was simply necessary. Us playing tails to oUr coUnterparts' heads, the black to their white, and so forth.

CALLIOPE: bUt over the years i have come to the conclUsion that this is simply not kosher.

ROXY: its total bs is what it is

CALLIOPE: right, yes.

CALLIOPE: a steaming pile of bUllshite.

CALLIOPE: and so we have decided that something needs to be done aboUt it.

Hmmm. It’s a dangerous idea to be playing with for sure, to decide all the black pieces in the game of chess suddenly become white, it is a very flip turning of reality upside down to be sure

To be honest, I’d think you’d need a powerful Doom player at your disposal to even try something like this

or actually, a powerful Doom user would be most likely to shut this entire thing down, knowing how bad of an idea it’d be, maybe it’s more you need a powerful Life player to do something like this instead

is that also why Dirk viewed Jane as an ally then? She would technically have the kind of power to upend the black and white doomy laws of reality if driven to her full potential, i mean obviously yes, we know this already because of the candy colored I-can-do-whatever-I-want-with-no-consequences lollipop

Is this what Calliope hopes to achieve with the Hiveswap Portal then? her goals for Joey and friends are to be the ones to prevent their universe’s twin destructions, and thus the Green Sun’s initial existence and then also the destruction into the Black Hole after the fact? that would be one way to prevent the Black Hole from existing, making it so the thing that creates the black hole never exists either

and that's certainly a canon event that would be difficult to tear asunder without major consequences

That would be a “Re-writing Homestuck from the very beginning” level of canon event

And if I’m correct, Joey is theorized by me to be a Mage of Life, if any classpect at their full potential was gonna do something like that, or have the impossible knowledge to something impossibly paradoxical like that, well..

ROXY: but u dont need to worry abt busting us outta space jail tbh

ROXY: thats not ur problem to fix

JOHN: oh.

JOHN: i'm... not sure i follow, then.

ROXY: i mean yeah ur gonna obvs facilitate it in a sense

ROXY: but only by going and busting the person who can actually help us outta normal earth jail

CALLIOPE: we need yoU to free vriska from the clUtches of oUr misgUided friend jane, and bring her here, to the singUlarity.

ROXY: weve been calling it the plot point

CALLIOPE: yes, the plot point is a key part of oUr plan.

CALLIOPE: as far as we have been able to sUrmise, the only remaining method for escaping oUr grim confinement depends on leveraging the UniqUe properties of this location to create an event of sUch catalcysmic proportions that it simply cannot be contained within the black hole any more.

CALLIOPE: something SO dramatic, so hyper-relevant, that it becomes ontologically impossible for anyone to ignore it.

CALLIOPE: for that, we need an individUal of sUfficient narrative cloUt, so to speak.

CALLIOPE: and to liberate her, who better than the embodiment of the aspect of freedom itself?

I mean yeah! makes sense! Johns major factor here is Freedom, Vriska’s is Importance

and yeah, I can think of no other wholly dramatic event that to mess with stuff with the Green Sun, everyone will have eyes on that, they have to, their whole existence the way it is relies on it

But, they could also mean something else, its only condition is that it has to be something so imflappably impossible, something so not-canon and so outrageous that it basically horse-shoes around to the other end of the canon spectrum to being something that truly exists again

and that could be literally anything and it’s nerve wracking and exciting to see what thing theyre gonna come up with to just directly kneecap Homestuck itself

ROXY: thx babe

ROXY: oh is it 2 soon for that joke or

JOHN: no, weirdly enough, that one’s fine.

(yeah that’s because Babe can be construed as feminine June)

so, I’m basically convinced they’re doing June Egbert now

that to me was like, pretty severely on the nose

John: Hey Roxy, what it does mean when you find a sense of freedom when all of the symbolism of the masculinity surrounding your childhood burns down around you

Roxy: idk It’s probably a gender thing man

John: I didn’t say the word gender-

Roxy: It’s ok babe no pressure, we can hash it out later

John: Hmm, later then. :)

Roxy: (Turns and looks towards the camera with a knowing smile)

shit all that imagery makes me think of Roxy as that picture of the small kid smirking at the camera while a house burns in the distance XD

#Homesquared #june egbert #john egbert #yeah theres no way there not gonna bring up June Egbert as a apossibility now #Roxy couldn't have quirked her eyebrows harder at the fourth wall if they had tried #Homestuck #I'm basically convinced now lol #that plus my reaction to chapter 14

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kim-lexie · 5 years ago

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itaewon class.

overview.

this drama was absolutely incredible an absolute gold mine. i was originally interested because park seo-joon is a part of the cast and let’s be real every drama he touches turns to gold. i loved how dynamic the characters and plots were present throughout. i loved that it attempted to touch various topics including racism and class structures. it had a little bit of everything.

this drama follows sae-ro-yi, a steadfast and determined individual. it starts with him going to high school and protecting a fellow classmate. which ends him up in a debacle with the school bully, jang geun-won who is the son of the great jang ga group, jang dae-hee. this is the company whom sae-ro-yi father helped build from the bottom up. sae-ro-yi holds to his beliefs as he was protecting a fellow student he doesn’t bow in apology, and he ends up getting expelled and his father losing his job. through all this, his father continues to encourage his son and saying how proud he is of his son for standing for what is right. shortly after, his father is killed in a hit and run accident. when sae-ro-yi comes to find that it was all geun-won’s doing he violently beats him ending him up in jail. while in jail he desires to finish opening his restaurant that his father and himself started dreaming. it leaves him with a 10 year plan landing him in itaewon, where he comes to open danbam pub with a close knit group of soon to be lifelong friends.

i would highly recommend this drama it was dynamic and i never knew what to expect coming from the various characters we had the pleasure of following. i thoroughly enjoyed the duration of this drama from seeing how he overcame his time in prison, and raising money to get to a place to open his pub it was great.

*spoilers ahead * you have been warned.

characters.

sae-ro-yi. this man was incredibly steadfast in the pursuit of his dream. at first it was interesting, because it appeared to be a revenge plot to get back at jangga group. but by the end he realized that he had more to fight for. he went through years in prison, and a fishing boat, to make it to a place to raise enough money to open a pub in itaewon. he grew this pub with trusting those around him and learning the world of investments and stocks to then eventually be able to buy out jangga group after their countless scandals. it really came full circle for him. and it was because he was unwavering in his goal of making people the priority.

jang geun-won is at the center of the incredible character development of sae-ro-yi. this kid. i am still conflicted on how to feel because at the center i feel that a lot of his evil qualities stem from his raising. his father made him kill a chicken and consider all the people around him livestock as the only way to get through life. then when he did screw up and ran away from a hit and run, he got it covered up by someone else. when one is taught with that perspective how can you not be a completely and utterly twisted human being. but then again he had many opportunities to switch his direction. when he was talking with soo-a all those times when she was like nah you’re not great, get it together. but then he went and kidnapped yi-seo because he knew it would get sae-ro-yi out so he could kill him. like that’s messed up. sooo yeah i take it back he was a horrible person. terribly twisted character.

jang dae-hee. his man is messed up and i find it difficult to find that he was so thrown off by sae-ro-yi. it may be because he found a bit of his old self in him. because sae-ro-yi was steadfast in his beliefs where as the ceo wavered and changed with the times to further the company. i also need to add, that this man is an incredible actor especially as they had him age dramatically throughout this show.

soo-a this woman was also messed up and worked for jangga group even though she knew that sae-ro-yi’s dad was killed by the son and covered up by the ceo. what a crap friend. i did not appreciate how in the last few episodes they wanted me to like her character because she did finally develop a conscience and payback sae-ro-yi’s dad two fold and turned in jangga group for all the crap they’ve done over the years. but sae-ro-yi pursued her for so long and then when he developed feelings for yi-seo is when she got woke and was like wait hold the phone. ya know what sister, you lost your chance, so good bye felicia.

yi-seo. this girl. *insert slow clap* i came to truly love this character. she was crazy and still is crazy but she has her lovely qualities as well. sae-ro-yi needed the balance in his life, and he was living his life in a deep revenge scheme, she was there to advocate for the best for him. she had no regards for herself in some instances, when she recorded geun-won confessing to killing sae-ro-yi’s dad, and how she got slapped dang. i appreciated that he finally got woke and realized that all this time he had feelings for her. when it came time to try and find her after geun-won had kidnapped them and the ceo jang was the only one who knew where they were, he easily got down on his knees because he knew that he needed to save her and that he had something worth more than his pride.

i’m willing to do it thousands of times.

there’s nothing easier than this.

i love how sae-ro-yi also kept her in line, because she could never hold her tongue. and she hurt those around her without realizing the consequences of her actions. (also his little head pat thing TT)

jang geun-soo. this kid should have been majorly twisted at the start, having the same raising as geun-won, but he was a sweet precious bean who found a friend in yi-seo. however, she never saw him in the same light he saw her. and that twisted his outlook and pursuit of his goals. he easily threw her feelings for sae-ro-yi under the bus and exposed her, and then went off to work for jangga to take over the company and win her heart. in the pruusit of his he released information about hyun-yi to the media during the cooking competition. and he became a different person. then at the end he came to his senses and went to apologize to the crew at danbam. i must also add i loved the hyung relationship that sae-ro-yi had developed with geun-soo even before he knew his family. and this lasted throughout the drama he was always there to offer advice and stand up for him, as well as forgive him when need be.

the danbam crew. choi seung-kwon went through major character development in the time he knew sae-ro-yi. he woke him up and showed him that he can change his perspective and elevate himself. he didn’t need to be a gangster even if that was his past self. and this was insanely prominent after yi-seo was kidnapped and he went to his previous gang to find out where they were, and he ended up calling the cops to solve the issue rather than doing so with his fists. he also developed in his perspective of those around him, especially in his growing feelings for ma hyuun-yi. she was the character who experienced a gender transformation in the early episodes of the show. her character was so great (and i must say that i love lee joo-young ever since ‘weightlifting fairy’). her character was insanely strong and went through so much as a part of her that she wished to be kept personal and secret was released to the public. she was strong and continued to hold her head high through it all. toni kim this boy brought light to the issue of racism and how deep set it is in the culture. i love that he started working there and how kim soon-rye, the investor and someone opposed to him, ended up being his grandmother. i found that all the members of danbam really enhanced each others qualities whether good or bad. and if bad they grew and developed to overcome them.

sae-ro-yi’s father, park sung-yeol. this man was such an encouraging force for sae-ro-yi. he helped him finally realize what life was and how it should be lived.

i’m going to embrace my yearning heart and continue tot love my life.

you finally got it that is what life is. you can overcome anything as long as you’re alive.

and the whole drinking alcohol thing, when it had been bitter tasting for so long and how it ended up being sweet in the end because he had the joy from those around him. i wept.

plot & themes.

i felt that they attempted to tackle large issues from transgender, racism, and social class structures. i found that they were are lightly touched and resurfaced every once in a while. i appreciate that they brought it to light, however i was disappointed that it was never fully addressed, but then again they did a lot considering other dramas don't even try.

sae-ro-yi went through so many hardships and it really developed his character. being thrown in jail. having to work on a fishing vessel to raise funds. from having jangga company taking over his original building, to having to buy his own building to continue danbam. and all the twists from the cooking show they participated in and how even geun-soo realized information about hyun-yi in hopes of deterring their win. then as time went on they grew the company, our yi-seo ends up in the hospital and gets kidnapped. when sae-ro-yi goes to find her he gets run over just like his dad, another hit and run. then when he goes to ceo jang to find their location he gives him the go around and makes him bow to him. then when they find out where she and geun-soo are they get beaten up again. literally his bean went to hell and back again. i am glad that we saw them in the last clips as they found joy in their day to day, and he finally confessed to her as

my head and heart are all filled with you.

i love you.

and how yi-seo now goes around asking him, ‘do you like me?’ and he makes the clarification nah i don’t just like you ‘i love you.’ i really appreciate this distinction because he followed soo-a around for years saying he liked her, and that this is different.

there were so many favorite moments (sad happy and everything in between) throughout the drama so here are a few in no particular order:

yi-seo determining that she wants to help sae-ro-yi overcome everything and anything in his path

when sae-ro-yi opens up to yi-seo about his past and she sees all his scars and she cries while he holds her.

when sae-ro-yi encourages hyun-yi to do what she wants even though it would throw their investment opportunities if they failed the best pub cooking show. but if it was best for hyun-yi that is what he was going to back. and then how she is an incredible boss and says...

yi-seo finally confessing to him, and all he has excuses as to why it wouldn’t work. when we all know he loves her but is too stubborn to see anything but soo-a. even though i knew her feelings weren’t reciprocated at the moment my heart still shattered into a millions billion pieces when he said he never had feelings and when she confessed saying she loved him and he made up excuses and told her not to love him.

when toni finds out that the investor ahjumma is his grandmother, and that they are family and she welcomes him in with open arms.

when sae-ro-yi finally cries. because dang was this a moment. when he wakes up after being run over and realizing that he didn't save yi-seo and that he is at a total loss. it’s a breaking point for him, and really everyone in the room felt it.

park bo gum being that handsome chef in the end at soo-a’s cafe.

i hope everyone enjoyed this drama as much as i did, and as always i am sure i missed things, and it just ended so i am still processing. but dang this one was really good, and i’d rate it a 12 out of 10.

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thefeastandthefast · 5 years ago

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Hyena eps. 14-16 thoughts

I actually finished this last night at 2:30am, so I’m a little fuzzy on all the convoluted investigation stuff. But even in my late night binge-watching induced brainfog, I could tell that logic was starting to get very messy. But it’s fine- I’m not watching this show for watertight and accurate courtroom proceedings. I don’t care about the nefarious evil overlords of the various corporations and their garbage-fire scions battling it out. Just in it to see how the pieces fall for hyena mama Geum Ja and hyena daddy Hee Jae and their pack of hyena babies.

So I just have to say, I NEED A SECOND SEASON. PLEASE LET THERE BE ANOTHER SEASON. Because everything is set up perfectly now for more subtle character growth, more professional challenges to face, more heart-stabbingly beautiful romance. I NEEEEEED IT.

One of my struggles watching Hyena is that the particular brands of moral bankruptcy exhibited by the male and female leads are especially abhorrent to me in real life: the willingness to act as swords for capitalist and state powers in actively creating a world good only for the rich and powerful.

For GJ, her attitude is one shaped by a mess of psychological and emotional damage. But she does see the work honestly for what it is, because she had to study it by heart to survive. She sees the filth around her and doesn’t mind rolling in the mud, if it will get her what she thinks she needs in order to heal and never be hurt again. She feels no responsibility or loyalty to the nebulous idea of society at large (why should she, since she was alone when she was most in need, she thinks.) In the beginning, GJ is only loyal to a small number of specific individuals that have proven themselves worthy of her trust and care: her childhood friend Ju Ho and Ji-eun. That’s it.

But by the end, Hee Jae has broken down enough of her walls to join this group and along with him came the hyena babies: Na Yi-joon, Attorney Kim, and my best girl Boo Hyeon-a. I think it was when this community started slowly coalescing around her that she began feeling a small sense of responsibility and interest in the wellbeing of strangers, even if it was still heavily tinged with self-interest. Helping out the pastor’s daughter Baek Un-mi, for example, and trying to figure out the real reason and culprits behind Seo Jung Hwa’s death. Very much a Chaotic Neutral who remains a Chaotic Neutral, but with love and friendship around her in the end. And honestly? Love and friendship and community can go a long way to change people’s minds about what they think they need in order to heal. Maybe at some point Geum Ja will realize that buying the building that represents her pain won’t bring her real long-lasting relief. That’s my headcanon at least.

Hee Jae starts out as someone who fully buys into and is complicit in the filth, the hierarchy, the corruption, the nepotism. He was enthusiastically Lawful Evil, with occasional twinges of conscience. He doesn’t even realize that he’s in the mud, because that’s what he had always known and never questioned. But this show has been about destroying his unexamined sense of self and his acceptance of a certain order to the world. I really wish the show had spent more time on his disillusionment and complicated relationship with his actual father rather than all the convoluted bullshit with his mentor-father Mr. Song. Especially after those devastating attempted suicide and courtroom scenes. So many unresolved issues there. Ugh, why did the show focus so much on bringing down the Big Bad, when it’s the emotional stuff that’s more interesting??? HELLO, SECOND SEASON.

Not to say that I think Hee Jae became woke or anything like that. He’s still an unrepentant asshole. But I think Geum Ja helped the scales fall from his eyes and nudged him closer to Chaotic Neutral like her. He sees that he had been wallowing in filth without even realizing. Now he can start to have a little more control over where he stands in that filth. Hee Jae finally questions and abandons the well-trod, well-lit path of success through nepotism. It’s a very small step, but given his Lawful Evil positioning in the beginning, it’s a crucial one that may lead to further growth later. My headcanon for him is that maybe he’ll continue to question the order of the world.

I’m happy with the show ending by showing that growth for both Geum Ja and Hee Jae didn’t mean growth into a moral awakening or even regret for past mistakes. To take them from self-interested and unapologetically moral-free to legal crusader for the weak or something would require a lot more than 16 episodes could cover. SO HELLO, PLEASE LET THERE BE A SECOND SEASON.

And finally, Geum Ja and Hee Jae’s swagger outfits were truly a glorious sight to behold. Such a fitting end! I could have used twenty more makeout scenes though.

#hyena #sbs hyena #kdrama #kim hye soo #ju ji hoon #contemporary drama #wow I had a lot more to say than I thought #my commentary

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snowstorm808 · 4 years ago

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More than Friends review eps 9-16

I previously posted my review of the first half of the series because I could not contain what I felt. It was quite impulsive of me but I wanted to let out everything I thought and felt for this drama. It is becoming better every time in such a way that I see the little creative ideas the writer or director is putting into each episode along with the development of the story. Familiar yet refreshing. I decided to create a new post because I saw that the first half recap was way too long if I would still add the remaining episode reviews because I just could not help it. I do understand that the length could be frustrating but I want my words to be read too, so thank you for everyone patient enough to read my words.

Episode 9 - Watching this episode made me realize a double standard I never really noticed before but I guess drama watchers would be able to relate to; the difference of pitiful and pathetic for female and male leads. I’m not yet certain if it’s deliberate but female characters locked in one sided love often seem pathetic but when it’s a male character they seem pitiful? Woo Yeon did seem pathetic in her one sided love in the earlier episodes so why does Soo get to be pitiful? It’s the same for the past dramas I’ve watched too. It’s just a food for thought. Based on last week’s preview, I really thought Joon Soo would punch Lee Soo after the drunk call but he held back so good job, Joon Soo. Honestly, I thought he wouldn’t be able to hold back because not only was he angry of the fact that Woo Yeon was getting swayed by Soo, but also because he knew how much it hurt, and hates the fact that she would still be hurt over the latter after a decade. This is why I keep wanting Joon Soo because he never thought selfishly when it came to Woo Yeon. I also love the fact that his character is being shown as someone seemingly perfect with a lot of flaws too. I love seeing his flaws and even relating to them! Being used to holding back is probably the reason why I write so much because I swear I can’t talk this much at all. I really hope he would stop holding back for his own sake. I think the most favorable Soo I have ever seen was him drunk calling his dad. I love the fact his parents went to his house to talk and console him. I also realized that Soo really closed himself up enough to have no one but his dad to drunk call. That was sad because the high school gang never really shunned him but he was the one who kept his heart closed. I half expected his folks to announce that hey would be back together because I feel that’s where those two are headed to eventually. As for Woo Yeon, I’m somehow glad she mustered up the courage to break up with Joon Soo after everything. As much as I was dreading it, I also felt that it was the right decision. She knew that it was too cruel to let him hurt quietly so I’m glad she had that decency; I could see that she was doing her best to be firm with her resolve. On her behalf, I get it why it’s difficult for her to let go of her feelings for Soo so I do not think she’s a weird one for that. I know that this is where my ship stops its sail but I’m satisfied that it’s not as I feared it would. The fight scene was reminiscent of Jealousy Incarnate, I just hope Dong Jun faked the punch because I know how athletic he has been from his Idol days which is enough for me to be scared for Seung Woo. Conveniently, it was only after this that Soo decides to take a break from pursuing Woo Yeon after ruining her chance to start anew with someone. Eventually, I know that Woo Yeon would not be able to defy the flow of her feelings towards Soo but I hope he can also grow up more because right now, I can still see him being selfish and self centered in his approach.

Episode 10 - How can one episode contain so much emotions? And it was all types of emotions at that! I mean one moment it’s awkward, cute, upsetting, lovely, funny then sad and even more! This episode was a roller coaster of emotions in my opinion. First thing’s first, the younger guy Jinju dated is a total loser and a scumbag. Good thing Sang-hyeok was there to the rescue. I feel so bad for Young-hee because every time she takes a step forward, she’s always dragged two steps back. She has a strong personality but it does not mean her situation does not wear her down too. So here comes the roller coaster because Lee Soo and On Joon Soo drinking together and ending up at Woo Yeon’s place is super cute. That includes her parents’ “interview” with the two men while they try to show off their “qualities”. I literally said “boom” when Joon Soo “let slipped” that Soo was the jerk Woo Yeon’s parents have been hunting for. That was really petty but I guess it’s his little revenge on Soo for interrupting their relationship when he used to date Woo Yeon. I am not going to lie about not loving the misunderstanding Soo had when he saw them together in the restaurant while he was with his parents. He tends to act so victimized which I really dislike then he readily blows up at Woo Yeon. But then again, it makes these characters more human then the usual kdrama characters I watched in the past. Lee Soo should really learn to express things more clearly so Woo Yeon would stop thinking that he’s simply bored or fooling around. As for Joon Soo, it’s a lost battle and I feel bad for him because he has become a masochist which is why I need to take care of him. I need Woo Yeon’s cooperation for this...

Episode 11 - Soo is finally given the chance he keeps on missing. As much as I am sad for my ship, I’m happy Woo Yeon and Soo are coming around although it isn’t the full circle yet. I do feel really bad for Joon Soo but it has always been clear how strong Woo Yeon’s feelings have been for Soo. I like how she at long last clearly stated that she will always give Soo the chance whatever he does because it has been evidently true for the past episodes. I guess that’s enough proof that feelings can’t be controlled easily. My favorite part in this episode would be her giving Soo an ultimatum because I always had a feeling he thought of her as a port always there for him. My second favorite in this episode would be Sang Hyuk and Jinju! He’s so sweet and caring which is exactly what she needs. Will they be my favorite couple? Hehe. I just want to take a bit of time to swoon over Joon Soo because he cares a lot for Woo Yeon though it isn’t returned, I appreciate him wishing her well. I can’t help but wonder if there will be another drama between Woo Yeon and Soo, because if he hurts her one more time then I would prefer her to be alone (I’ll be taking Joon Soo.)

Episode 12 - I never thought Soo and Woo Yeon together would be this mushy haha. They are making up for the lost time and I like seeing them happy and somewhat letting go of the inhibitions they had. And for the first time, I think I want to scold the writer for adding a character like Yura because seriously, those two no longer need another person to interrupt them. I suppose it’s to make up for the remining episodes? But then it could be expound on things like commitment issues for Woo Yeon and Soo, and taking the next step for their relationship. I do secretly hope for Joon Soo to make a comeback but not necessarily in a romantic light. Obviously, Soo is the one being careful now when it comes to dealing with Woo Yeon. I like seeing him nervous of losing her because it keeps him on his toes though I hope he would be more direct about it instead of acting cool so she won’t misunderstand anymore. I remember him saying he dated around too but Woo Yeon seems more like the one used to dating. I guess he never really thought of the other party when dating. I can sort of imagine his ex-girlfriends putting more effort than him.

Episode 13 - Lol, Soo should’ve been more sensitive when Woo Yeon insisted on going home by herself. I find it so cute when she defended Soo from her parents, she was so cheeky to point out her dad’s faults. After everything they have been through I hope they can do well from now on but something tells me otherwise. At least Woo Yeon finally said the magic words Soo has been so anxious to hear. It seems she was too nervous and being careful to say it though I had the initial impression that she must’ve had a stigma of some sort to those three words. I somehow feel nervous about Soo’s job offer from the airline because it might lead to a fight or even a break up. Speaking of a break up, I’m sad Hyun-jae and Young-hee had to part ways though it was one-sided. I do get the pov of his family but I can’t relate to the pressure of marriage. By the way, am I the only one who thinks Kwon Yura’s character is waste? I mean I don’t see much purpose for her character because she does not threaten the main lead’s relationship other than making Woo Yeon want to doll up herself. I must say one of my favorite scenes in this episode is when Woo Yeon went to the salon and told the staff she’s meeting with her boyfriend’s woman. I love how the customers and salon staff reacted even calling in their boss to style her. Was it a parody? I’m not sure because I have sworn to lay my hands and eyes off all dramas that deal with a husband’s mistress. Nevertheless, it was super witty and I had a lot of fun watching that scene including the one where she deliberately posed further behind Yura to make her face look smaller. Lastly, Sang-hyeok and Jinju are finally together! They look so cute together and make the perfect couple. In fact, all three couples seem to be perfect for each other because they complement each others’ personalities well.

Episode 14 - This must be the episode where everyone breaks up or gets rejected. But before that, I can’t get over the expression Woo Yeon’s mom wore when she said to pack up contraception for her trip with Soo. One minute they were having a lovely mother-daughter moment then she suddenly brings that up. As much as most people would find it awkward, I think it was so funnily straightforward. Her mom cares which suddenly reminds me of the reaction of Young-hee’s mom when she found tons of condoms in her drawer. Another reaction I really enjoyed was when Woo Yeon and Soo found out Jinju and Sang-hyeok are dating! The way she splashed water out of shock really showed how it was the farthest thing in her mind. From the time Soo’s work offer came, it already seemed ominous along with Woo Yeon’s offer so I was not surprised with the break up. Maybe it was for the better; I have been mulling over Woo Yeon’s reasoning that she might end up hating Soo if they stayed together. The loneliness was eating her up which I believe is realistic in a long distance relationship like theirs. Soo shouldn’t have readily agreed regardless if he was thinking of her or not. Considering these two pursued their careers, I think this would leave less regrets in their hearts because they were able to fulfill the dreams they had. Their feelings for each other will always be there because they are Soo and Woo Yeon. I just need to wait how they will get back to each other.

Episode 15 - While watching this episode, I couldn’t stop thinking that this is the episode I finally see Lee Soo as someone heartbroken and not self centered, also, am I the only one who thinks his hair styled up is way better than his hair down? At last, I got to see Soo’s feelings of longing for Woo Yeon instead of his attitude of forcing his feelings like earlier into the series. I think it’s his maturity plus his sincerity in wanting her back because he now knows how it is to lose her. Their break up might just seem like another ploy by the writer to extend the series but I also think it was helpful to both Woo Yeon and Soo. In the first place, they decided to be apart so their careers could flourish which made them busy and drift apart. It also brought to light the insecurities they had especially Woo Yeon who had been so used to be the only one who in love. I think her fears of having the person she loved and wanted the most surfaced which keeps her from returning to him even if he’s practically begging her back. I just hope Soo would’ve made efforts to contact Woo Yeon or get her back after that break up call just as he was when he was courting her instead of stepping back. I guess it was partly a good thing because they were able to achieve certain things for their careers during that time too. Meanwhile Young-hee’s mom’s death was inevitable but at least they got to resolve the hard feelings and she was able to convey her love for her children. I think among the deaths I’ve seen in kdramas, this is the most touching for me. I must really be getting old to be sentimental like this. I also felt envious of the leads’ friendship. This episode showcased it the most especially how they supported Young-hee through the most difficult time in her life. I also love how they quietly support the complicated relationship of Soo and Woo Yeon. They have never attempted to kill him so yup they are good people.

Episode 16 - Loose strings are tied up in a pretty bow as the friends gear up for each of their happy endings. Joon Soo decides to let go of his feelings for Woo Yeon (he’s finally free to walk towards me! Yay!) I really like their hug because it sums up the affections and friendship they had. Good thing Soo wasn’t there to tear them apart. I also like that Soo is still a bit jealous of Joon Soo because whenever I remember how arrogant he was about stealing Woo Yeon away, I still want to punch him. His mom’s pushing aka guilting Woo Yeon was indeed effective, heh. Seriously though, it seems to me that his mom did it because she did not want him to end up like his parents and perhaps it was her way of making up for their negligence and mistreatment of him. I love the fact that Soo and Woo Yeon continued to fight and make up even after getting back together, it was very much in their character. It’s also nice that Soo’s parents decided to give their relationship another shot. It makes me think that they too learned from their son. Jinju’s and Sang-hyeok’s wedding pictorial was super lovely, it was very smart of them to trick Soo into it haha. Young-hee and Hyun-jae are finally back together too! Thank goodness, they’re getting married instead of returning to dating. As much as I cringed with their cheesiness, it was very much welcome and cute to watch. All six of them had their own cringey and cheesy way of saying and doing things. I think this drama has one of the most satisfactory endings ever, now, if only On Joon Soo can find his way to me...

More than Friends has met the amount of romance and tension that I always look for yet refreshing and not too cliché. I love the little details and the way it explored different types and stages of relationships including of different age groups. I hope other viewers would also get to see how the writer tried to portray these in the drama. Watching the ending made me realize the drama’s title was probably referred to these couples because they started as friends and became more than just that. Honestly, their situation is quite idealistic but I think it’s so cute if it does happen in real life. I’m happy I watched this even if it was mainly for Kim Dong Jun. Literally before watching this, I watched Moment of Eighteen then even prior to that, I watched Meow, The Secret Boy. MoE was sad because Junwoo had to put off his dreams and relationship to help out his mom. I initially wanted to skip or wait till later to watch it but ended up being hooked to it. Hehe.

One of the things I find fascinating in this drama is the casting! Shin Ye Eun’s step mom in MTSB became her actual mom while her dad became Lee Soo’s dad this time. There lots of familiar faces which made me like the drama even more.

#more than friends #shin ye eun #ong sungwoo #kim dongjun #p.o.#ahn eunjin #baek soo min #choi chan ho

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ice-cream-nekogirl · 5 years ago

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Out of My League (Midoriya Izuku X Reader X Bakugou Katsuki) PART 3

PART 3 to: https://ice-cream-kitsunegirl.tumblr.com/post/189492329579/out-of-my-league-midoriya-izuku-x-reader-x

Classes. Are. OVER!!! I’M A FREE WOMAN~!!! <3 Enjoy this ya’ll! Dammit I’m sorry I thought I was gonna go to the ball on this one but that’ll hafta wait for the next chapter cuz this got longer than I thought!! >.<

ENJOY THOUGH!!

Taglist: @dailyojiromashirao, @asja-the-hoarder, @breezy-chan11414, @captainw0lfy , @sunflowergem, @lenkiryuu

Summary: As your shopping adventure at the mall continues you gain a rush of new confidence.

She's so high High above me First class and fancy free She's high society She's got the best of everything...

‘She’s So High’- Tal Bachman

SECONDS AGO...

“OMG Chemistry alert~!” She exclaimed cheerfully to the girls who stopped to see what she was talking about, and they saw it. You and Shinsou just talking to each other, and you were laughing and he was trying his hardest not to even though your laughter was oddly contagious. Hagakure gasped a little bit, as happy as she was that you asked out Izuku, this was kinda cute…

And the other girls had no idea that you already asked out Izuku, but they were already starting to think that you were probably gonna ask out Shinsou? Even though you guys hadn’t really talked until now.

“Hee… oh God I forgot about my girls, hehe thanks for being awkward with me, I will see you later dude.” Once you remembered the girls, you took your drink to go back to them as he smiled and waved at you. “See you.”

As you walked away he watched you go with an amused little smile, what an interesting, funny person you were.

NOW…

It almost didn’t occur to you that spoke to another guy that wasn’t Izuku or Bakugo, granted you HAD talked to other boys (Kirishima, Iida, Sero, etc.) before and actually kinda talked to them a BIT more than the girls but still! Shinsou had a little something-something, and you talked to him. Wow, talk about a boost for your confidence.

The thought made you giggle a little as you finally regained enough composure to go back to the girls, at least until you had to park it near a chair to tie your shoelace. How the fuck it gets undone and unties itself you had no idea.

As you crouched to tie the thing, Shinsou walked past you so he could go to his table that Kaminari decided to sit at with him for some reason.

But as he stole a glance to look at you, he didn’t pay attention to the rest of his surroundings. Just that one brief couple of seconds of distraction and he didn’t even realize a puddle of spilt juice at his feet until he felt his foot slip and fly from under him.

A gasp left him when gravity began to push him backwards and everything he carried went flying. ‘There goes my lunch and my dignity…’ Was Shinsou’s thoughts before he plummets to the earth in front of everyone…

At least until you perked up at the right moment. As fast as you could, you reacted and rushed behind him with your hand out and focused all your energy on his body to stop his fall and catch him. His eyes went wide, and all he could feel was an invisible force pausing him before he could hit the ground, carrying him as he felt his feet gently land back on the floor. But before his lunch could fall you looked right at the tray and it’s contents as they all slowed down and you brought the tray back to your hand and made the drink and food all slowly come back to it’s state in the cup and plate and float back onto the tray like it had been.

Mission accomplished.

Shinsou didn’t fall, and his lunch was saved. And all he could do was look at you with his purple eyes still wide with light shock as your own (E/C) eyes were wide with how fast everything went, but you were happy that you could react in time.

But the two of you perked up when the sounds of clapping and light cheers hit your ears and you looked up finally to see several of your classmates praising you for such fast reflexes. “HEY! Way to go (Y/N)!!” Hagakure rather happily cheered for you from your table, “That was SO COOL!!” Mina enthusiastically clapped with the other girls next to her. “Nice reflexes…” Jirou was actually smiling at you because she had to admit, that was impressive.

“Way to go (Y/N)!”

“Quick thinking. Literally!”

“That was awesome!”

You could hear Kirishima, Sero and Kaminari from Bakugo’s table cheering for you, and you saw that he wasn’t cheering but his eyes were a little bit wide at how you stopped that disaster without any help.

Izuku was more openly impressed though as he stared at you with wide green eyes full of awe. He’s always held you in high regard, ever since you got your quirk like Bakugo did, he thought you were one of the coolest girls ever. Even when you didn’t believe it, he believed it, and now it was clear that you were starting to when you looked so happy and proud.

And as you heard a lot of cheering and clapping you looked over to see Izuku looking right at you from his table. You gave him a big smile as he perked up when such a rare smile from you shined upon him, and he blushed heavily as soon as you and he made eye contact and he couldn’t help but shy away with a hidden smile. Oh how he wanted to tell you how cool that was but he just froze immediately when you looked at him…

Wow, you were so cool and you were going with HIM to the dance… he wouldn’t get over that…

However, you couldn’t help but feel very proud to see all their impressed faces after what you did. An involuntary grin sporting on your lips, wow what a head rush, you didn’t want to get all egotistical but you felt pretty awesome right now. No modesty…

“Ahem.”

But Shinsou’s voice broke you out of your fantasies of walking a stage and you perked up and finally looked at him. He looked a mix of impressed, grateful and slightly annoyed because he could tell you were distracted, “Oh! Shinsou… hehe… are you okay?” You had to ask him.

“Yeah… I’m okay. Thanks for saving my ass.” Now that he was on his feet, he could properly thank you for saving him from both a painful fall and an embarrassing moment.

“Ah. N-No problem… I’ll save your ass anytime.” You said suddenly, without even thinking about it until you heard what you said and Shinsou gave you a bit of a look that quickly turned into an amused smirk as your started blushing quite madly, “Oh yeah? I’ll keep that in mind…” He said just to tease you as you stuck your tongue at him.

“Good! Cuz… ya know… but yeah you’re welcome dude… no problem.” Your nervous expression turned into a sheepish smile as you finally remembered, “Oh and here’s… your food, I saved it before it could hit the ground so there’s no need for any 5 second rule…” God you were so awkward, but Shinsou didn’t seem to mind.

“It’s 10 seconds for me.” He decided to joke around with you a little bit just to put you at ease as you laughed a little bit, “Ha! I’m guessing that rule only applies whenever you’re at home?”

“Exactly.”

What the hell were you doing? Bakugo wondered as he saw you just talking and laughing like an idiot with that brainwashing weirdo. You always spoke to extras and he understood that, and he especially never understood how you always talked to Deku and hung out with him. It’s not like your quirk was super powerful but you could do better than that.

It’s why he always picked on you, because you associated yourself with losers. And that made you a loser. Except… Bakugo felt bad for thinking you were a loser, even though you kind of were one, and he remembered the times you called yourself a loser. Why did right now of all times thinking about it bother him? He called you a loser and you agreed with him, and not it was bothering him.

And seeing you talk to that bonafide loser was DEFINITELY bothering him as he clenched his chopsticks so hard they snapped in half the more he saw you talking and laughing with that brainwashing bastard.

“Well… this has been sufficiently awkward, but I will see you at the dance…?” You decided to let him go, and you felt a little bad for thinking he wouldn’t show up at the dance. He shrugged his shoulders, “Unfortunately.” Shinsou replied neutrally but with a little smile, dances weren’t his thing either but Kaminari insisted that he should go now that he was with the Hero Course with everyone.

“Ah. Cool, cool… well kinda.” You and he shared one last chuckle before he waved at you and you awkwardly waved back with a crooked smile. And then you turned away with a big smile as you went over to the girls.

“(Y/N) That was so cool!!”

“Yeah way to go, you were pretty quick on your feet.”

“Your quirk has really improved!”

“Yeah! You totally stopped all of those things from falling!”

“That was pretty impressive girl.”

“I wish I caught it on camera!”

Hagakure, Tsuyu and Yaoyorozu didn’t hesitate to compliment you, as did Mina, Jirou and Uraraka shortly afterwards and you both blushed and grinned somewhat proudly from all the praise. “Aww girls stop it… you’re gonna give me a big head… it WAS cool to do all that…” You said in a somewhat coy voice as the girls didn’t hesitate to keep praising you and building up your self-esteem. Which you greatly appreciated.

“So… Shinsou huh~?” But Mina quickly teased you for having had a rather friendly conversation with Shinsou which made you blush a little bit, “Oh shut up… we were just talking, a girl and a guy can talk without any sort of undertones.” You claimed, but it didn’t stop her and Uraraka from teasing you a little bit and asking you to dish a little more.

This was crazy but you didn’t mind it at all, but these girls were a little more like you than you thought. And you were a little bit better at talking to people more than you thought. You talked to Izuku, you talked to Bakugo, and you even talked to Shinsou!

It was all so riveting that as soon as you were finished with lunch, you felt more motivated and ready to get a little more shopping done as you smiled to the sky. You had a dance to get ready for and you were going to go and get everything you would need.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=udLuRz9nP6A)

Hot Topic.

As cliché as it sounded, you decided to take Bakugo’s advice and check around your favorite store, and went right for the dresses, skirts and shoes that they had. Hot Topic was known for having edgier clothing and for those with a more gothic, punky or grungy style.

And speak of the devils, you weren’t surprised to see Tokoyami, Jirou and Aoyama. Well, it was a LITTLE surprising to see Aoyama there but he seemed pretty fascinated with the shiny nail polishes. Tokoyami and Jirou though were definitely on the gothic and punky side respectively.

You liked to think you were a mix of all of those. And maybe you could go for something a little edgy.

“Time to be edgy and sexy.”

You thought confidently as you took several of the skirts and shoes, many of the skirts were a little bit short but you decided that maybe it would be okay to be a little sexy and let them see these legs of yours.

Helped that you found some stuff that were plus-size as well to fit your waist, along with these neat combat boots that you found. It took a while putting them all on, and you thought you didn’t look that bad as you tried on the last pair and stared in the mirror you were nodding in approval at yourself when you saw how a pastel purple skirt looked on you and it didn’t even go down to your knees! And the black boots? Ooh girl you loved how punky and badass they looked. Oh yeah you looked fantastic! And you were happy to go out to try out these boots and see how they felt on your feet. They weren’t uncomfortable, they were kind of like this pair of boots you had once as you flipped your hair a little bit just to feel like one of those girls in the beauty commercials.

“Ahhh~. She is beauty, she is grace~.” Aoyama noticed you strutting and he was nice enough to compliment you as he seemed to like how you looked. “Why thank you Aoyama~.” You happily thanked the oddly sweet boy, and this caught both Jirou and Tokoyami’s attention when they heard two classmates talking.

The two of them both seemed to perk up, albeit looking more flustered as soon as they saw what you were wearing, and how short that skirt was. “(L-L/N)!!” Jirou especially started to blush in secondhand embarrassment on your behalf.

“Hi Jirou~. Hi Tokoyami~.” But you noticed this and even feigned a flirtatious voice, which just made the former blush even more, and the latter’s feathers were visibly floofing up the second he caught a glimpse of something he shouldn’t have seen and quickly averted his eyes.

‘A woman’s most sanctified garments…’

“B-Be careful! Your skirt… i-it’s so short! T-There are guys here!!” Jirou was weirdly kind in her own way, she was totally looking out for you and that made you smile.

“I know boo boo. Don’t worry I’m just trying it on, it IS a bit too short but I kinda like it… it’s the boots I’m going for though, I think I look kinda good in them?” You thought outloud with an amused smile, amazed though as Jirou looked a bit happy that you looked more confident than you did at the other place, but she was still flustered.

“Oui! I think you look very powerful (L/N).” Aoyama paid you another compliment and a wink, since Tokoyami and Jirou were much too flustered to do so and you grinned when you got the feedback you were looking for.

“Oh thank you! I think so too! I’ll take them!” You exclaimed and clapped your hands, and when you turned you didn’t see Tokoyami and Jirou jump a little bit when they saw panties yet again.

“Did you guys see anything?!” And Jirou quickly yelled at both him and Aoyama if they caught anything, but it’s not like they could help it. Aoyama in particularly quickly shook his head, “Non, non! I swear it wasn’t intentional!”

“O-Of course it wasn’t. I-I would never do such a thing…”

However, Jirou quickly calmed down because she knew these two boys weren’t perverts. She just really wished that you didn’t catch so much attention like that because she knew plenty of guys who were creeps. And little did she know that some of her fears weren’t unfounded as some nastier girls in the store snickered when they saw you strutting and didn’t hesitate to film you behind your back.

“See you guys~!” You cheerfully waved to your surprised friends once you brought the books and even winked at them, much to Tokoyami and Jirou’s confusion and Aoyama’s content. He liked a confident person.

That was two items down, the right bra and the right pair of boots. Now it was time to go try finding a dress again. You were so happy and motivated that you felt like some kind of American celebrity walking around as you stood foot back into the place you and the girls were at.

Instead of giving up like earlier, you went to the dresses suited for a somewhat larger size such as yourself and to your surprise, you found a few cute ones. Especially this blue dress and a neat black romper that you were happy to take to try on.

“(Y/N)! You’re back!” Uraraka smiled wide when she saw you back in the place after you left to go to Hot Topic for a bit, and beside her was Tsuyu and Ashido. “You know it! I needs a dress.” You said somewhat cheerfully, which the girls noticed and were happy to see.

“Looks like she’s got some confidence in her now, ribbit.” Tsuyu was the first to point it out to the girls, “That’s awesome! Now all seven of us can go to the dance feeling good!” Ashido excitedly said, because she had this vision of all the girls of 2-A at the dance and looking fabulous and proud of themselves. Now that you FELT fabulous and proud, that just might come to fruition.

You thought so too as you looked at yourself with a dress on, shrugging with an ‘eh’ though when you didn’t really like it and thought it was a bit snug around the waist and shoulders. But whatever, you could just go get a bigger size, and you were so comfortable with yourself at the moment you opened the door…

Only you weren’t in the dress, you had taken that off. No, you were just in your bra and underwear for the store to see and you couldn’t care less as you smiled and walked about to go to the section, and the employees were much too shocked to even stop you…

Your grin grew when you saw the shocked and flustered looks of other customers and how some guy’s jaws were agape. Ha, looks like this is their first time seeing skin, you thought. And you waved at the girls who all were wide-eyed and especially shocked when they saw you out of clothes, but in a STORE where everyone could see you…

“Oh wow~…!” Hagakure didn’t see much wrong with it though, since she was naked a good portion of the time when she was training. “She is… happier than earlier at least…” Yaoyorozu, similarly, didn’t see TOO much wrong with that since she didn’t seem to understand how nudity flustered and/or titillated others.

“AHHHH!!” However, Jirou screamed when she came back to the store and saw MORE of your panties and bra, what were you doing?! “(L/N)!! Put your clothes back on!!” It was one thing wearing a short skirt but this was even MORE skin!

“I will hon I promise! I just need to get a bigger size!” You waved at the girl, and then at a few guys who seemed a BIT impressed to see a girl without her clothes on. “STOP STARING!!” Jirou quickly yelled at them though as soon as she saw them staring.

“Girls come on! Let’s all strut our stuff~!” You then cheerfully suggested to the other girls, but only Ashido, Hagakure and Yaoyorozu seemed up for it. Although Yaoyorozu didn’t seem to completely get what the context of ‘strutting your stuff’ meant. “I suppose it wouldn’t hurt to wear something nice and new.”

“YEAH! Let’s do it girls!!” Ashido had your back as she and Hagakure cheerfully went to find some clothes to wear, “Well… if everyone else is! Okay!!” And they got Uraraka on board as she smiled wide at how well you were getting along with the girls now, “What do you say Tsu?!”

“I wouldn’t mind that.” She said with a little smile as she gladly joined the rest of her friends, but only Jirou was conflicted because she was much shyer about ‘strutting her stuff’ since she felt like she didn’t have a LOT of stuff to begin with.

“A-All right!” But she gave in because she saw what you were trying to do, and she was down for a little bit of that positivity, but would still be wary of perverts.

Although she, and all the other girls weren’t aware that some others, including the same girl from Hot Topic had come by to film you while you were cheerfully going about and dancing in the clothes you were strutting in.

At least until you came across the mannequin in the WAY too short clothes that made you fume and you punched in the stomach as it fell over, much to the shock of others around and an employee who didn’t see what happened but just had to pick it back up.

“Oh Izuku…”

This time you went to one of the other mannequins dressed up like a man, and put it’s arm around you, “Your arms are so much bigger than they were when we were kids, please hold me~.” You said in a dreamy voice as you got a little playful and nuzzled the mannequin and pretended that it was Izuku in an attempt to try and sound sexy for when you take him out on a date.

“Izuku! That is… NOT appropriate…” And then you found yourself bringing it’s hand to your breast to let it rub it, “Oh my goodness you got a little bad boy in your goody goody self huh? Well I like it~.” You giggled as Hagakure and Ashido were laughing with you when they saw you flirting with the mannequin but didn’t hear what you were saying to it.

“I love your new boyfriend (L/N)!”

“He’s got the perfect body but doesn’t say gross things!”

The two hyper girls joked and you couldn’t help but laugh and nod in agreement, “I know right?!” Although you didn’t tell them, that was actually pretty true about Izuku. He had a perfect body and didn’t say gross things…

Except he wasn’t your boyfriend, because… he was still way out of your league but maybe when you start feeling your sexy that could change and maybe you COULD be his girlfriend…

OUTSIDE…

“What’s… going on over there?” Kirishima was just with Kaminari, Sero and Bakugo. And close behind was also Izuku and Todoroki (who kept their distance from Bakugo), until they all stopped when they saw two other males looking over a puddle of blood and a person lying in it.

“I-Is that blood?!” Izuku shouted in shock and horror as they all ran over to see the scene, and it was blood all right… but it was coming from Mineta as he lied on the ground, the blood was streaming out fast from his nostrils as he heavily panted. His eyes agape and wide, cheeks red and a disgusting smile on his face and something else the boys wish they didn’t see…

“Ugh!” Bakugo exclaimed his disgust and wondered what the hell this fucking pervert did this time to have this happen to him.

“Mineta! Speak to me!!” Kaminari was the only one concerned though as he knelt down to see if his poor friend was still alive.

“S-Skin… oh so much beautiful, exposed skin in the flesh…” Mineta weakly answered as he raised his hand and pointed where ‘skin’ was and there it was. You just standing outside and waving. After numerous begs from Jirou, you put on more clothes but not a lot and wore a camisole crop top and very short shorts that really showed off your legs and really you might as well have still been in just your bra and underwear.

“Hi boys~.” You waggled your fingers at the guys and didn’t miss how SHOCKED they looked as soon as they saw you. Kaminari, Kirishima, Sero and especially Izuku blushed heavily as their eyes went wide, but Kirishima, Izuku and Sero were polite enough to look away. As was Todoroki as he turned his head and couldn’t fight the blush heating his face when he saw how scantily clad you were because he was used to seeing you wear much more conservative clothes.

“W-Wha… WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WEARING MORON?!!” But Bakugo was probably the most flustered when he saw you wearing clothes you DEFINITELY normally didn’t wear. His face as red as Kirishima’s hair when he realized that this was probably the first time he’s seen THIS much of your skin before.

“What I want~.” You replied cheerfully, seemingly oblivious to why this embarrassed him so much. Instead you just assumed he thought you looked gross in this because he always thought you were kind of ugly and you knew it. But at this point, he didn’t think you were ugly at all.

No, he’d be lying if he said he thought you were ugly, how could such a full figure with soft looking skin and curves be ugly? He was a stupid kid back then who clearly didn’t see how desirable your body was, but he wasn’t a damn pervert, he actually had a lot of respect for women to NOT drool all over them and objectify them.

Which is why he was mildly horrified to see you dressed so provocatively because there WERE perverts in the midst that didn’t have the same respect he did.

And that’s why he went inside, to make sure there WERE no perverts around to just look at your ass even though he thought you were asking for it by wearing that stuff. Come to think of it, the other girls were also wearing different kind of clothes too, and the other guys in the store were definitely checking them out without a hint of shame.

But his main focus was on you, because he’s never seen you without your regular clothes and this was making him feel some type of way…

“Put your regular clothes on stupid! Don’t you know that there are perverts around here?!” Bakugo quickly went over to you and glared at anyone who dared to stare at your body.

“Ohh man these girls… making my underwear tight…” There was one right now, just looking right over at you and the other girls who wear trying on clothes that weren’t nearly as scantily clad as yours but skin could still be seen.

“HEY SHUT UP YOU FUCKING PIG!! DON’T SAY DISGUSTING SHIT LIKE THAT!!”

The second those disgusting words hit his ears Bakugo shouted at the guy with his hand out in case he had to burn his ass til he got the message. You had seen this before in movies and news but you were a little shocked to see and hear this happening right now.

Were guys really ogling at you and the girls? In a bad way…?

“Look at all that skin man… that’ll keep me nice and warm at night…” Another one, snickering and pointing over at you which made your eyebrows furrow a little bit when the way that guy’s words and the way he said it made you feel some type of way…

You didn’t like it at all. It wasn’t at all like Aoyama when he complimented you with the utmost respect and said you looked powerful, this guy…

He looked at you like you were a piece of meat and that’s all he was looking at you as.

“WHAT DID I SAY?!” Bakugo saw this too, and he quickly shouted at the other guy who said those words to you. “SAY ANOTHER WORD LIKE THAT AND I’LL KILL YOU!!”

Although there was someone threatening to kill their customers, the employees were much too scared to do anything.

“I wanna feel how soft (L/N)’s skin is…!” The king of perverts himself Mineta said with a lecherous grin as he found the strength to pick himself up from his puddle of blood with his hands out.

Enough was enough, you were NOT hearing anymore of it, and you weren’t going to let your girls suffer from it either.

“OKAY STOP! STOP! Stop it that’s enough!” This time you were the one to shout at all the guys, and several of them already had gotten up to run when Bakugo’s sparkling palm intimidated them into running away with their tails in between their legs.

“Ohhh man (L/N)… you look really good in that… you should totally wear more stuff like that…” Mineta attempted to compliment you, but you knew that he was just saying that so he could have something to ogle.

“You guys are being disgusting!” And you quickly shouted and scolded him and the other guys that were around, including Kaminari who was eating the eye-candy around him.

“Whoa, whoa, whoa! What did I do?” He noticed that you were talking to him too, because you were looking directly at him and Mineta and other boys while the innocent Kirishima, Sero, Izuku and Todoroki stood away but were clearly disgusted by the way these guys were behaving.

“YOU’RE standing there to drool at the cake, and YOU guys are standing and doing nothing!”

Oh so you WERE talking to the other guys too, and this frankly shocked them, but especially Kirishima and Izuku. They WERE just standing there and doing nothing…

“I’m… sorry…” Kirishima at least had the grace to apologize, as did Izuku, “R-Really! I…” However, he’s never seen you that angry before and it frankly alarmed him and made him feel bad that he didn’t do anything to stop it. Sero and Todoroki also looked just as guilty but couldn’t really find any words to say without coming off as awkward.

“Ugh, it’s fine, at least you’re not acting like animals…” You felt bad when you saw how sad they looked and you gave THEM a break but still glared at Kaminari and Mineta, but the latter didn’t seem to get the message.

“Can you blame us (L/N)? That outfit really outlines you girls’ beautiful figures…!” Mineta was still drooling over you and his nose was bleeding, which made you snarl as you were ready to just toss him out but to your surprise Bakugo already kicked him out (quite literally too) as the grape-head went sent flying out with a shriek.

“GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE AND DIE YOU PIG!!”

As the small boy went flying screaming, your eyes went slightly wide and you looked over at your friend. You had to give him that, Bakugo actually DID something compared to the other boys and that honestly made your respect for him go up.

“Aw… Katsuki…” You couldn’t help but look rather touched as he growled and narrowed his eyes at you, “Don’t say my name and look so elated!” He shouted with a furious blush dusting his cheeks as he looked away, at least you said his name…

“Look don’t hate me or anything but I do have to admit… you girls DO look really pretty in those outfits, sometimes you girls are just so pretty that some guys can’t help but steal a glance…” Kaminari’s voice caught your attention though as he attempted to defend Mineta and himself, but you weren’t having it.

“It’s one thing to admire someone’s beauty, it’s another to be a creep and just see how they look, and you and Mineta to learn some self-control and stop being creeps!” You outright shouted at him, and he actually felt intimidated as he backed away slightly.

“W-Wait! I-I’m sorry! I’m not trying to be a creep or anything I promise!” Poor Kaminari, you believed the poor thing he clearly had more pure intentions than Mineta. The boy just wanted to flirt with a girl and get to know her, but you needed to teach him a lesson.

“I get that but here’s the thing… either you keep it in your pants or I’ll rip your nutsack and everything else along with it off. Just rip it right off. RIGHT. OFF. Like a band-aid, except it won’t be a band-aid, it’ll be your nutsack being ripped right off.” So you gave him a warning along with some advice so it gets through his head and even emphasized you ripping off something, and that something would be his manhood should he not listen to you.

Kaminari’s face turned white as he looked at your gestures, and boy did he believe it as he started trembling. “I-I’m really sorry (L/N)… I-I swear I won’t do anything or say anything weird anymore and… I’m sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable…” He apologized to you, and his words were sincere and he looked like he felt pretty bad for it.

And you were going to accept it because Kaminari was a simple soul. A bit of a trouble-maker but he had a good heart. “It’s okay Denki. Thank you for apologizing actually, and I’m sorry if I scared you.” You started to smile at the blonde, who returned it with a nervous smile, “I-I wasn’t scared…” He tried to claim but it was clear that he WAS scared of how angry you got, much to your amusement.

“(L/N)… we’re sorry too, we should have done something… standing and doing nothing is… so unmanly…” Kirishima apologized shortly after Kaminari did, and you felt even worse for having gotten mad at the poor guy. Kirishima was both a simple soul and a pure soul, and the last thing he wanted was to be a bystander when a friend needed help. And he did exactly that…

“Don’t worry Eijirou… it happened so fast I shouldn’t have snapped… but thanks for apologizing too.” You gladly took up his apology, “Nah don’t be, we could have easily stepped in but we didn’t so… sorry.” Sero then apologized and seemed to look like he felt really bad because this wasn’t the first time he’s just stood back and did nothing when Mineta was being a creep.

“Yes. I’m sorry too.” And Todoroki also gave his apology because he also could have stepped in to stop Mineta and the other creeps in here from being creeps but he didn’t, and that made him feel really bad because he saw how uncomfortable you and the other girls looked.

“It’s okay too Hanta, and don’t worry Todoroki, you’re okay too. Thanks guys.” You said with a sweet smile, and thanked them too which they seemed happy about as they gave you little smiles. And your smile didn’t fade although you were shocked to suddenly turn around and have several shirts thrown at you.

“JUST PUT YOUR FUCKING NORMAL CLOTHES BACK ON IDIOT!!” Bakugo had thrown you several clothes that would cover up so he didn’t have to look at you dressed so provocatively anymore without feeling like one of these creeps himself. What the fuck was wrong with him?! You weren’t supposed to make him feel like this!

“Um… thanks…?” You were beyond confused but then went back to assuming that it’s probably because Bakugo didn’t want to see your weird body. However, after those guys made you uncomfortable you decided to go back to the changing room to get back into your regular attire and came out all covered up like normal and honestly you were happy to be back in them.

It felt good to be so confident, but those guys really made you feel so weird…

“You okay (Y/N)?” Tsuyu noticed how uncertain you looked, so she asked if you were okay and you gave her a nod and a smile, “Ah yeah… yeah I’m okay…”

“Way to tell off the guys!” And there came Hagakure with her invisible hands on your shoulders as she praised you for telling off the perverts who were ogling you and the girls earlier. “Ah of course… anything for us ladies.” You smiled at her and the other girls who were back in their normal clothes. They had to admit it was really fun to dress up, albeit until the perverts kinda ruined it for them. Thankfully you stood up for them.

And to an extent, Bakugo did too. He was focused on you the most, but at the same time, it’d be the last and only time he’d do something kind for the other girls. You smiled when you saw him outside the place, still looking a little bit pissy but he glanced to see you back in normal clothes, thank God…

“Katsuki. Thanks for… all of that in there.” You owed him another thanks, it’s been a while since Bakugo’s been this kind to you and you appreciated that. Especially since usually he was the one making fun of you, this time he made sure other people didn’t make fun of you.

“Tch… don’t mention it.” And he brushed you off in his classic Bakugo way, and you just giggled and smiled. “Sure…”

That was just him though, and at the end of the day you wouldn’t change that. Not when he’s changed in a couple of ways himself, he was definitely not a bully anymore. To you at least…

Come to think of it, where was Izuku? You wondered as you and the girls started to go off and leave the mall now that they got their dresses. And you found your dress too after several dresses, you finally found one that fit you and one that you thought you looked pretty good in.

Still you wondered where Izuku was… ohhh man you yelled at him, and you’ve never yelled at him. Sighing you stopped a little bit, but reassured the girls that you were okay and just needed to go to the water fountain for a drink.

So you did, but even quenching your thirst didn’t really wash away the guilt coming over you. Why did you yell at poor Izuku? He didn’t do anything wrong…

“(Y/N)!” And you perked up when you heard his voice, turning your head to see him looking just as guilty, if not more guilty than he did earlier at the store. “Izuku!” The first thing you were going to do is apologize, but before you could open your mouth, he beat you to it.

“I’m sorry!” He said so fast that you almost didn’t hear it, “I should have done something! If Kacchan didn’t… I just… I don’t know why I didn’t do something, but I should have! You needed someone to support you and I didn’t do anything! I’m so sorry and I just wanted to say that me saying sorry will not be enough because I can’t even-!”

He was going to ramble and go on and on about how sorry he was, but you heard his words and you didn’t have to even think he was being honest, you KNEW he was. Sweet Izuku was the most honest person you knew so you shut him up by putting your finger to his lips, smiling when you saw his face starting to flush at how you touched im.

“Don’t… it’s okay… I got a little… huffy… I mean it all happened so fast, and besides I’m not blaming you Izuku. I saw you and the other guys, you all looked pretty pissed at what was going on and… that’s better than just being completely apathetic.” You reassured him, because you knew what the guys stood for and you knew that they weren’t perverts.

He could tell you were trying to make him feel better, but also that you meant it too, “I-I know but… I just wish I could have done something… in the moment instead of standing there… but at the same time… I also thought that… you knew what to do. You were so confident and you knew what was going on…” Izuku began to ramble a little bit, but not the way he usually did and this definitely caught your attention, “You’re… I don’t think you know it (Y/N) but you’re actually more confident than I am… and better at so many things… it’s amazing… even when Kacchan and other bullies were trying to pick on us… you stood tall through it all, even when you supposedly gave up… you’re still here. Because you knew how to stand your ground and keep moving forward. If there’s… anyone who can take care of yourself… it’s you (Y/N).” He said in a soft, somewhat bashful tone as he smiled a little bit and your (E/C) eyes slowly widened as you blushed at his words.

He really was the purest soul you knew. He believed in you, he knew that you could take care of yourself, but was still your ally in things like that.

“Oh… w-wow… hehe… ohh Izuku… gosh way to go you sap… now you’re getting me all emotional…” Still you kinda teased him and wiped your eyes when his words made your eyes water a little bit as you and he giggled together. He was so sweet that you adored him…

“I do have to admit though… I am glad that Kacchan helped you…” Izuku wasn’t jealous, he wasn’t like that, but this time it was a little different. He was used to Bakugo being better than him at nearly everything, but now Bakugo was defending you? Izuku found that highly ironic given that Bakugo bullied you too just as much, he was happy about that but that’s just another thing he was better at.

Except he didn’t let himself feel like that, all that mattered is that he at least helped you when you needed the backup.

“Yeah… I am too. Even though it’s like… SO weird. I mean who’d have thought Katsuki Bakugo would start being decent? This is the same guy who blew up at the drama teacher like Christian Bale in the 7th grade…” You chuckled a little and nudged his shoulder playfully, and Izuku perked up with a little giggle when he remembered that…

“I’ve never seen a teacher run out of the room crying like that…” He was there when it happened, because you were supposed to be Ophelia and Bakugo played Hamlet, but screamed at the director for killing his character off even though Hamlet was SUPPOSED to die in the original play.

“I know right?” You and Izuku shared a laugh with each other before he decided to let you go, and then blushed quite heavily when he remembered that he was STILL taking you to the dance in two days. What the hell did he do?! He didn’t even find a good suit or good shoes yet?! He wasted so much time here!!

“Hee-hee well hey man I’ll see you at the dance~. And tomorrow of course cuz… you know, we got school…” You somewhat awkwardly smiled and waved at the blushing boy as he nodded vigorously, “M-Me too! S-See you (Y/N)…” He shyly waved at you when you smiled and blushed at him.

Except when you left you had a little skip in your step as you spun around with your bags in your hands and laughed to the sky. And Izuku walked away with a giddy, blushing smile on his face.

At least… until he got a notification on his phone and his smile broke into a horrified gasp as soon as he saw what was on it.

A picture and a video of you, dressed in the skirt and boots from Hot Topic, and then you with the mannequins at the Lacy’s store you were at with the girls. You were dressed in that same camisole and short shorts, except this video had some corny song playing in the background, and they put that pig filter on you complete with snorting sounds while bold words like ‘FAT PIG’ and ‘UGLY SLUT’ popped up when you were strutting and posing during your moment of confidence.

“No…” Izuku was both pissed off AND horrified when something like this made the internet, and he turned to see you gone. He couldn’t let you see this… he couldn’t let ANYONE see this.

“Oh wow… what a fat pig…” But his fears came true when he saw people around snickering when they could clearly see the video, laughing and pointing as they clicked away to make the video go viral and send it to everyone they knew…

“No…!” He shook his head as he took off in a fast dash to try and find you. Even if it was on the internet he didn’t want you to see this, how could someone be so cruel?

He thought as his other classmates who were getting ready to leave gasped as soon as their phones lit up and they saw their classmate on screen, made to look bad and they all looked shocked at this.

“That’s…”

“Oh no…”

“W-What are we gonna…?”

They each wondered, but that was nothing compared to Bakugo as soon as he saw the video that some motherfucker posted of you. His teeth grit the more he heard that song and the sound effects, he was going to kill someone…

And he perked up when he saw Izuku running, clearly to go and find you as he made it to the entrance of the mall, “(Y/N)!” You stopped as soon as you heard him call for you again as you turned to see him yet again.

“Izuku? What’s… up…?” You asked him and looked concerned at how worried and frantic he looked, and you saw Bakugo rushing forward looking just as concerned, albeit pissed off and it confused you to no end.

But then you heard snickering and laughing from other people, when you looked around you could see strangers and other teenagers snickering and pointing at you.

“It’s her…”

“The girl from the video…”

Girl from the video? You gasped as soon as your phone dinged and signaled a notification, “No! No (Y/N) don’t watch it! Please don’t watch it!!” Izuku tried to beg for you to NOT see what was on your phone but your curiosity got the better of you and your eyes went wide when you saw the video titled: “Fat Girl Runway”

There was the corny dubstep-like song playing while you were strutting in different clothes, with arrows pointing to your legs and your butt and your back, labelling them as ‘Cellulite’, ‘Flabby’, and a voice saying ‘Look at her jiggle’ when you were shaking your butt at one point. ‘Her Fat Ass’ was another voice you heard and then you saw yourself messing with the mannequin as you hugged it and said ‘That is not appropriate!’ and words saying ‘psycho’ as you fondled your own breasts and rubbed your face with your tongue out. And then you were making a stand towards the perverted guys with that music still playing, except every word that came out of your mouth was replaced with a snorting pig and words saying ‘GET LAID FEMINIST BITCH’ also popped up as you were trembling and breathing shallowly the more you saw the video…

Your face burning brightly in humiliation as heat pooled into your eyes and threatened to spill over as more people stopped to point and laugh at you because the video went viral.

“(Y/N)…” Izuku quickly moved closer to you so he could take you away from here, but before he could even try you ran off as fast as you could in tears.

“(Y/N) WAIT!!” He tried to go after you but you were already gone and he teared up just seeing how upset you were, how humiliated you were…

Bakugo saw it, he saw what the assholes did to you. He heard them STILL laughing and pointing even as you ran off, and it wasn’t just him. Shinsou was just outside the mall and ready to leave until he watched the video in horror, and he shouted when he felt someone bump into him.

“S-Sorry…!” You exclaimed, in a higher voice as you couldn’t stop the tears from falling and frantically picked up the bags you dropped but didn’t see who you ran into. “I-It’s… okay…” He said gently when he saw that it was you who bumped into him, but he couldn’t be mad… in fact he tried to help you until you gasped as soon as your eyes met his purple ones.

You were both uncomfortably silent this time as you swallowed hard and took your bags and ran past him to just get the hell out of here. Shinsou tried to call for you but no words came out as he could only watch you run off with a glimmer of sympathy in his eyes and then he glared at people he saw laughing at you as you ran off crying.

And he perked up ever so slightly when he heard someone shout in pain, and he saw Bakugo pinning someone to the wall with a fury blazing in his eyes. “YOU THINK THAT SHIT’S FUNNY?! IT WON’T BE FUNNY WHEN YOU DIE!!” He shouted at the guy who had a new bruise on his cheek, no doubt from the blonde’s incensed punch.

“NO! NO! I’m sorry!!”

The apologies weren’t enough though, Bakugo still beat the shit out of him and outright threatened several other guys that he heard laughing at you and Izuku even took initiative to make them stop laughing with a deadly serious glare and a mild threat.

You were nice to him, Shinsou thought that maybe he should do the same because it was the least he could do after you helped him today.

You didn’t know what was going on though, you just ran to your house, threw your bags to the ground and flipped your shoes off and threw yourself into bed to sob, tears freely streaming down your hot, sweaty face as you cried so hard that no sound came out.

You weren’t going to the dance… you couldn’t…

TO BE CONTINUED…

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geeky-diary · 5 years ago

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Valentine's Day Box

Happy Valentine’s Day! I offer you this fanfiction!

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As pedestrians walked across the Pont des Arts, two boxes sat on a bench in the middle of the bridge. The red box was for Ladybug, and the black one was for Chat Noir. For Valentine’s day, the citizens of Paris had decided to leave out boxes and fill them with cards to show their love for the two heroes. Honestly, Marinette thought it was a little much. Neither of them needed to receive a card to know how cherished they were. Yet, she had still gone to the boxes with a card in hand.

“I’m only here to show my appreciation to Chat Noir.” She whispered, “I’m not doing this because I have feelings for him.” She knew she was lying. At the very least, it was a half-lie. Ever since that day, when she battled Loveater and Miracle Queen, she had been trying to get over her feelings for Adrien. All she wanted was for him to be happy. If dating Kagami made him happy, then she didn’t want to interfere in their relationship. But it was hard moving on. Every time she saw him, She would force a smile while her chest painfully thumped. She would see aspects of him in other men.

It was mostly in Chat Noir. Initially, she believed the two boys couldn’t have been remotely similar. The more she observed, the less Adrien constricted her heart, she saw that they had quite a bit in common. They were both very playful, the same teasing and silly jokes. They were both naive, like little children experiencing everything for the first time. And they always had her back, her only allies when the world turned against her. Once she noticed those traits, a crush on the partner started to grow. She didn’t know if it was for him or if it was the aspects of Adrien she saw in him.

So she told herself that it was a half-lie. Because her muddled heart didn’t know what the truth was.

The bluenette shook her musings away before she completely fell into the dark abyss of her emotions. She marched up to the lone bench and slid her card into the black box. Having finished her task, she went back home. She had to get ready for her date this evening. One she was hoping would help resolve heer turmoil.

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He knew this was a bad idea. Even Plagg had warned him against it. Yet he still stood on the Pont des Arts, a card clutched in his hand.

“You’re doing this for closure.” He said to himself, “So that you can finally move on.” But was that the truth?

Recently, Adrien had been trying to overcome his feelings for Ladybug. If she didn’t want to be in a relationship with him, then why should he continue to pursue one. He couldn’t bear the grief anymore.

However, in the time apart, he had only managed to confuse his own heart. The more he got to know Kagami, the more his fondness for her grew. He believed his affections for Kagami might have been as strong as those for Ladybug. But then there were times he could only see her as a friend. He still cared for her, but in the same way he did for Marinette.

Although, there were times when he thought Marinette could have been more than just a friend. That, maybe, his feelings for her were closer to what he felt for Ladybug. It might have been because the two were similar. They both had the same caring nature, always lending a hand to those who needed it most. Neither would bow down to those who wished to cause chaos, whether it be Lila or Hawkmoth. And, on the rarest of occasions, the same bravery that shined in his lady’s eyes could be found in Marinette’s as well.

Was it the same feeling, though? Was he just trying to find Ladybug in those he knew? Had he really come for closure? Or was it an excuse to lose himself in his adoration for Ladybug?

Whatever the truth was, Adrien couldn’t decipher it.

Taking a deep breath, he chose not to worry too much over his problems. Hee stepped towards the red box and pushed his card in. Then he walked off the bridge and got into his chauffeur’s car. This might be the night where all of his woes come to an end.

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As the city lights illuminated all of Paris, the Place des Vosges was shrouded in darkness. The only source of light came from the candles that Marinette brought. Each was placed on a corner of the blanket spread across the ground. A basket once full of food was now placed off to the side. She laid on the cover as Luka softly strummed his guitar. It was a lovely melody, whispering sweet nothings into her ear. She couldn’t have imagined a more romantic date than their night picnic. Everything was absolutely perfect.

So why did it all feel so wrong?

Every time the two hung out, Luka had managed to ease her mind. She had never been more relaxed than when she was with him. She didn’t feel the need to hide around him. That she could let all of her walls fade away and reveal her true self to him. So she had asked him out, hoping to clear her mind. She wanted to know if she could actually have a relationship with him. Maybe, he could help her move on from Adrien.

But as she listened to his music, she took notice of her heartbeat. It was steady, never once was there a pitch in speed. It was the same steadiness that would be accompanied by thoughts of her friends. It wasn’t the pounding she experienced whenever she would think of Adrien or even Chat Noir. All the times she interacted with Luka, her heart would stay the same pace. On some occasions, the speed would increase, but they were very brief. The infatuation she held for Luka couldn’t compare to those she held for Adrien.

With that, guilt clouded over the girl. Luka cared for her and seemed like he wanted to be more than just friends. And she had asked him out so that she could use him to get over Adrien. That wasn’t fair to him. He didn’t deserve to be treated that way. This date now had left a sour taste in her mouth, she couldn’t go on with it.

“Luka,” She murmured, catching the boys’ attention. “I’m sorry, but this isn’t right.”

He didn’t respond, with no signs of anger or sadness. As Marinette sat back up from the ground, she stared directly into his eyes.

“It’s just that, well, I feel like I haven’t been honest with you. I have feelings for someone else. But he seems to be interested in one of my friends, so I’ve been trying to let go of my feelings for him. And I’m using you as a way to move on and that just not rig-.”

“It’s fine, Marinette,” Luka finally spoke. He reached out and tenderly grabbed her hand, trying to comfort her from her negative thoughts. “I understand. It can be hard to get over someone you care for.”

She was so relieved by his words to know that he wasn’t upset by what she had done. She didn’t want to lose him as a friend. She thanked him with a hug, and he returned the gesture.

“Adrien is one lucky guy,”

“Why do you say that?” Marinette pulled back and gave him a curious look.

“Anyone would be lucky to have someone as amazing as you love them.” Then Luka got up and strolled out of the park, leaving one blushing Marinette behind.

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Flower petals littered across the floor, while the restaurant had placed a vase with a single rose each of it’s tables. The lights were dimmed to make for a more romantic setting. Everyone was well dressed this evening, wearing only their most elegant clothes. Adrien table faced the window, able to see all the couples that walked past. He and Kagami had just finished their deserts, casual chatting until the check came. They had been having a great time together. Everything had gone smoothly.

As he stared at Kagami, though, all he could wonder was why it this whole night had felt off. He cared a lot about her. Be it her fierceness during battle or her blunt demeanor, there was not a side to her that he disliked. They both had so much in common, he found it easy to confide his grievances with her. They should have been perfect together.

And yet, all he could do was picture another girl on the other end of the table. One with the brightest bluebell eyes and who wore their hair in two pigtails. He could almost see her face, but the image was just out of reach. He was so pathetic, dreaming about Ladybug while on a date with another girl. He was hopeless. Maybe he just needed some time to truly get over the superheroine. What he did know was that he wasn’t ready to start dating. Then he couldn’t continue to lead Kagami on. Though he didn’t want to hurt her.

“Kagami,” He said, gazing down at his empty plate.

“Yes, Adrien.” She quickly replied.

“Listen, I want you to know that I like you a lot. But right now, I don’t think I’m ready to date someone else.”

She stayed silent, her stern exterior not giving away any emotions. The longer the silence held, the more nervous Adrien became.

“It’s just that, well, I still have some unresolved feelings for another girl and I don’t think it’s fair to ask you out and sit here thinking-”

“Did I ask out the wrong girl?” Kagami suddenly cut him off, predicting the end of his sentence. A small smile crossed face as she got out of her chair and walked to his side of the table. Grasping his shoulder, she leaned down to look him straight in the eye. “I don’t want you to have any moments you regret with me.”

She gave him a kiss on the cheek, her last words breathing across the surface. “I hope you’re able to satisfy Marinette. I’ll see you at fencing practice.” Then, she strode out of the restaurant, leaving behind a very confused Adrien.

It wasn’t long until the boy found himself back on the Pont des Arts. At that moment, though, he was no longer Adrien. He had transformed into Chat Noir, to make sure no one could identify him as he took his Valentine’s day box. He wasn’t the only one on that bridge, as he recognized the other figure.

“Ladybug?”

The girl turned around, her beautiful eyes shining under the lamplight. He really wished she wasn’t here. He had wanted to be alone for the rest of the night to ponder over his relationships. He didn’t need to get distracted over her radiance.

“Did you come here to pick up your box too?” She asked, appearing quite joyful to see him.

He nodded, stepping up to the bench where the box rested. Ladybug's box was overflowing with cards with bouquets of roses surrounding the exterior that one could barely tell that it was red. Meanwhile, his box was not empty, but nowhere near full either. He wasn’t surprised by the lack of cards. The people adored Ladybug more than they did him, so it only seemed fitting that she would get the most.

Ladybug must not have liked the number of gifts he received as she plucked a rose from one of her bouquets and handed it to him. While it was not meant to be a romantic gesture, he could help but think of it as so. He accepted the rose, his cheeks tinted red under his mask.

As she went back and tried to pick up her box, the current of wind flew by and carried one of her cards away. It was the card Chat Noir had given her. Before it could get too far away, she jumped up and grabbed it. Landing back on the bridge, she took her time reading the contents contained within. He had hoped she had liked what he had written. And apparently, she did like it as a blushed formed on her face.

“Sooo, what’s it say?” Chat Noir already knew what it said, but he didn’t want to pass up the opportunity to tease her.

“Nothing!” The superheroine replied defensively.

“Ah, come on. Not just anything can make you blush, Bugaboo. Whatever that card says must be very special.”

“I’m not going to tell you what’s written on this card unless you can tell me what’s on one of yours.”

“Alright.” His hand dove into the black box and pulled a single card. He glanced down at the name and was shocked, nearly dropping the card in the process. Knowing who wrote it, he carefully read the words.

Dear Chat Noir,

I know that most people see Ladybug as the most important hero in Paris, but she wouldn’t be able to save the day so many times without your help. No one is as confident or charming in battle as you are. I hope everyone will be able to see how important you indeed are.

Love, Marinette

He beamed at her words, wishing to thank her personally. He looked back towards Ladybug, her flushed face changed into one of dread.

“That must have been some letter.” She shyly uttered. Her usual confidence was gone, but he couldn’t figure out why.

“It’s just from a good friend.” He didn’t have the energy to lie tonight. “When we first met, I thought she hated me. But now, I think she’s just shy.”

“Adrien.” The words jolted through him like a lightning bolt. How could Ladybug know? There was no way she could have figured out his identity from a few words about the person who wrote the note. Unless she knew who wrote it. But he hadn’t shown her the name written. The only way she could know was if she wrote the note.

“Marinette.”

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This couldn’t be happening! There was no way that Chat Noir was really Adrien! She had to be wrong. But he had answered with her name, it had to be him. And now he knew it was her too.

As the two just stared at one another, shocked to silence by their own discoveries, Ladybug thought of the letter he had written.

Dear Ladybug,

Ever since you’ve come to Paris, you have continued to show the people your compassion and bravery every day. There is no one the people adore more than you. I hope you continue to shine for the world as the heroine we need.

Love, Adrien

She had started to develop feelings for Chat Noir, but now they were worthless as well. For he was Adrien, and she had wanted to move past him for the happiness of others.

She couldn’t believe it had been him the entire time and she hadn’t noticed. When she hadn’t been able to talk to him at school, he had still been by her side the whole time. He would flirt with her behind a mask, seeing her in a way that no one else could. She was embarrassed by the lack of foresight.

She almost ran off the bridge, until Chat Noir, or Adrien, started to laugh. It was loud and boisterous, a sound made after a funny story. Though, she wouldn’t have classified this as a funny story.

“Why are you laughing?”

“I’m sorry M’lady, it’s just you’re both so similar that I can’t believe I couldn’t connect the dots sooner.” His little fit slowly ceased as he reached out and held her hand with his own. “You’re both clever, fearless in the face of danger, and are kind to almost everyone you meet.”

“Oh, yeah,” She let out a little chuck herself. “Well, you’re both completely silly, naive, and always have the back for those you care for.”

The two teens giggled at their answers. Marinette was actually glad about who Chat Noir was. Even if it was dangerous to know each other’s identities, it could only make the two grow closer.

“So, which side of me do you like more Bugaboo? Because for me, I’m completely enamored with both of you.”

Her heart stilled at his words. In her joy, she had almost forgotten that there were people outside of their little moment. People that he cared for.

“That’s not true.” She solemnly responded.

“Aw, come on, mask or not you’re still the same person. Of course, I’d love both sides of you.”

“But what about Kagami?”

Finally, understand, Adrien let out a long breath as he tucked a small bit of hair behind her ear. His thumb tenderly swiped across her cheek as his gorgeous green eyes gazed into her own.

“Tonight, I told Kagami that I still had feelings for you. Ya’ know what she said, she hoped I could satisfy you.”

She was amazed by Kagami’s words. Before, she had been so resolute in not giving up Adrien to anyone, not even her. Why now did she suddenly change? Was it because of what he had said? Or was it because she valued their friendship so much that she was willing to let him go for her as well? Whatever the reason, she was glad to have been given Kagami’s blessing.

She leaned forward, their noses an inch apart with only a few more between their lips.

“Funny, Luka had said something similar tonight as well.”

“Oh yeah, and what was that?”

“That you were a lucky guy to have someone like me loving you.”

“Which side of me.” It didn’t matter how she answered, his next action would be the same. But, she gave him the most honest answer she could.

“Both.”

Instantly, their lips connected. It was a moment of pure bliss for the two, finally able to convey the feelings that had been bottled up for so long. Both tried to put as much passion into the kiss as they could, never wanting this moment to end.

Both of their nights had ended the same way. With peace of mind, finally able to know the truth behind their own feelings. On the Pont des Arts, their first Valentine’s day together came to an end.

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A/N: I know it’s really late by the time I’m posting this, but I was too busy with school work this week to write this sooner. Plus, I’ve been working on a different story for a while so this one was kinda last minute. This one was kinda difficult to write, mostly Luka and Kagami. I didn’t want them to be written OOC, but I don’t know if I accomplished that. I wanted to make them understanding and not villains because their not. Anyway, I hope y’all enjoyed this story!

#miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #adrien agreste #Kagami Tsurugi #luka couffaine #ladybug #chat noir #adrinette #ladynoir #marichat #ladrien #slight angst #fluffy ending #ml season 3 #fanfic #fanfiction #my fanfiction #valentines day #identity reveal

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baby-hyena · 5 years ago

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Begin Again | KHSxJJH Fanfic

Note: Set during the first script reading of Hyena and some scenes during their filming.

Song used: Begin Again by Taylor Swift

Took a deep breath in the mirror

Hyesoo checks out her face in the mirror. She’s wearing her favorite baseball cap, not just because it’s fashionable; but also because she’s a bit shy. It’s her first drama after her 3 years break. She lets out a deep sigh to compose herself to face her co-stars.

He didn't like it when I wore high heels, but I do

She’s wearing her favorite ankle boots that’s 6 inches high. She loves wearing heels, she has a closet full of it. Though, she also have sneakers and ballet flats she rarely wear. She remembers buying it because when she was still with her ex-boyfriend, he’d always make fun of her heels, calling it “killer shoes”. So, she’d only wear flats and sandals during their relationship.

Turned the lock and put my headphones on

Hyesoo always thought that she’d had the best relationship with her ex-boyfriend because she almost wanted to marry him. She’s all willing for it because she thought she’d found her future with him. But somewhere along their relationship, they’d find their differences they both don’t want to change.

He always said he didn't get this song but I do, I do

They learned each other’s weaknesses and bad traits. After years of being together, there are time when they’d fight every time they’d meet up. And they would find it hard to make it up after. He’s too introverted and she’s too outgoing. They’d soon realize that their love for each other weren’t enough to overcome such differences. And she has realized that maybe.. maybe their love was never enough to change each other.

Walked in expecting you'd be late

Hyesoo entered the hall and some of her co-stars were already there. Hyesoo smiles at everyone who greets her. The set up was different. In other script reading, the lead actors are usually sitting in front of each other; in this case, her name was attached on the chair beside her leading man, Ju Ji Hoon.

But you got here early and you stand and wait; I walk to you

Hyesoo smiles and bows a little when Ji Hoon glanced at her. He stood up and did the same thing. She walked towards her chair but before Hyesoo reaches her chair, Hwang Bo Ra came to greet and hug her.

You pull my chair and help me in

When Hyesoo finally walks to her chair, Ji Hoon pulled out her chair. She smiled at him and he smiled back. She mouths, “Thank you.” Ji Hoon whispers softly, “Sure.”

And you don't know how nice that is, but I do

She always get that kind of treatment from everyone. They’re always respectful towards her and think highly of her. She never expects though, she knows her time is slowly fading. She’s never been as confident as she is when she was still young. She is not as confident as everyone think, everything was just her facade. She won’t let anyone see her weakness, but herself.

And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid

The script reading started and it was a blast. Every line she says makes her think that accepting that role was a right decision. When the script reading ended, they thanked and wished each other good luck. Hyesoo’s eyes landed on Ji Hoon’s, they’re both smiling. “Can I get you something? Coffee? Tea?” Ji Hoon asks her, there’s confidence in his tone. “Yoon Hee Jae, the drama haven’t even started yet. You’re falling for me already?” She teases him.

I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did

Ji Hoon laughed hard, he got everyone’s attention, “I’m sorry.” he bows then tried to hide his mouth with his right hand. Hyesoo’s lips curls a bit because she finds him amusing. She never thought she’d make him laugh like that with such remark. It wasn’t even that funny. She didn’t think Ji Hoon would find that funny.

I've been spending the last eight months thinking all love ever does

Her last relationship made her question her self-worth. It was all happy and exciting at first, when they’re still in love and getting to know each other deeper, but it lasted only after they see each other at worst. Everything doesn’t make sense anymore.

Is break and burn and end

When they broke up, they promised each other they’d keep the friendship. Hyesoo promised that she’d never let their good friendship go to waste just because they didn’t work out as a couple. Yes, she was hurt a lot, it changed her. After that, she’d never want to be in a relationship again.

But on a Wednesday in a café I watched it begin again

Hyesoo can’t believe how talkative Ji Hoon was. He’s been talking since she said yes to his offer. Ji Hoon suggested to buy their coffee as she waits for him in the car. He’d wear his baseball cap and sunglasses then silently sneaks into the cafe. Hyesoo looks at him from afar while smiling, she can’t believe his willingness to risk himself out there just to get her coffee.

You said you never met one girl who had as many James Taylor records as you, but I do

After successfully buying their coffee, Ji Hoon started talking again as he drives her home. He promised her and her manager that he’ll drive her home after buying her coffee. “You know how crazy of a fanboy am I? Well, I’ve collected every album of David Bowie, from his debut until he stopped producing. Ahh, he’s one of the best singer of all time.” Ji Hoon says as he keeps his eyes on the road. Hyesoo’s eyes widened. “Really? Woah, that’s amazing. I also have a collection of his album.” It’s her favorite.

We tell stories and you don't know why, I'm coming off a little shy, but I do

Hyesoo was just smiling the whole time as they talk about something they both like. Ji Hoon talks about anything, about his childhood, about how he got those mismatched eyes because of baseball, about his favorite musician and everything under the sun. Hyesoo just sits there, listening to him gladly.

But you throw your head back laughing like a little kid

“You can be a vlogger or a talk show host at this point. You sure talks a lot.” Hyesoo tells Ji Hoon when they stopped in front of her house. Again, he laughs at what she said. Hyesoo stared at him a bit surprised and amused. He’s like a child, she thought.

I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did

"Am I that funny? You laugh at everything I say." Hyesoo asks him. Ji Hoon stopped laughing but she can still see the joy in his eyes. She's can't help asking about his genuinity, still can't believe he's that happy with her and to think they just met. But Ji Hoon didn't answer, he just stared at her while smiling, letting her see it on his eyes.

I've been spending the last eight months, thinking all love ever does

“I’ll go ahead.” He bids farewell to her with his smiling eyes. After that day, Hye soo thought it’d be the last time. But even before they started filming, Ji Hoon would always bug her to get coffee with him or have lunch with him. He’d always go to her and talk like there’s no tomorrow.

Is break and burn and end

She’ll learn a lot about him. “You know, I really, reaaaally, love to love. I think love is what we need the most.” He speaks as he smells his coffee she made him. They’re having their coffee in her couch while listening to one of David Bowie’s album. “I believe love will make us all happy.” Ji Hoon says, then he sips. She smiles at what he said but she tried to hide it by drinking from her coffee.

But on a Wednesday in a café I watched it begin again

She’d watch him take a nap on her couch after a long day of filming. She’d see how he flips and turns his body to find a comfy position. She’d see him drool and she’d find it amusing. And when he wakes up, she’d notice his sleepy confused face turns into a sleepy frail smile when he sees her. “Your nap takes longer than I thought. It’s already 2am.” She tells him. “You haven’t sleep yet?” He asks, his eyes are still half asleep. “I can’t sleep.” She answers.

And we walk down the block to my car

He’d always volunteer to drive her home. And unconsciously, she’d always find herself walking with him to his car. They’d talk while they walk, he’d throw jokes and she’d laugh hard at it. She’d never realize when was the last time she’d been this close with her co-star.

And I almost brought him up

“You know, you’re the only male co-star I’m close with. The others couldn’t break down my walls.” Hyesoo says, they’re on break after filming the 3rd episode of Hyena. Ji Hoon doesn’t say anything, which only happens when he’s eating something. He swallowed his food then drank from his water bottle. “Well, of course, there are co-stars that I--” Ji Hoon raises his hand to stop her from talking.

But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches

“You know, my mom told me she watched every movie of yours? She told me she’s your number 1 fan.” Ji Hoon says after cutting Hyesoo’s sentence. Hyesoo’s expression softens, she was about to tell him her past relationships with her co-stars but he didn’t let her. She sighs in relief, “I should meet my number 1 fan, then.” She tells him as they smile to each other.

Every single Christmas and I won't talk about that

“Have you seen Tazza?” Hyesoo asks Ji Hoon unconsiously, as they were talking about their memorable movies. “Y-yes, w-why?” Ji Hoon’s face turns red as he remembers her scenes in that movie. “Tell me what you think about it.” Hyesoo can’t see his flushed face because she’s busy cooking. “Uhh, Tazza. Well..” Ji Hoon stutters, Hyesoo looks at him. “You’re blushing.” She teases.

And for the first time, what's past is past

They’d get lost to their kiss. If only the crew wasn’t there and they’d get to savour this moment, she knows she’d be delighted. When they wrapped up, Ji Hoon approached her as usual. “Let’s eat.” He sounds more confident now than before. For some reason, she sees him as a man now more than ever.

'Cause you throw your head back laughing like a little kid

Hyesoo didn’t think about everything else when she took this project. She took it without knowing she’d find something else. She took it because she knew the role was made for her. It’s just occured to her, that she’d find the one who’s also made for her. Across her room, where Geum Ja’s office resides, she’d hear Ji Hoon’s laugh because of the crew and Ga Gi Hyeok.

I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did

Just like the first time she’d heard him laugh, she amusingly looks at him as he jokes around. Then they’d meet each other’s gaze and chuckles. Hyesoo didn’t think she’d find a childish man, so raw and genuine, but still looks so manly to her.

I've been spending the last eight months thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end

After all of her failed relationships, she thought she’d never find love again. Not to mention, at her age, she didn’t think love would find her again. When she didn’t expect it the most, when she’s already given up.

Then on a Wednesday in a café I watched it begin again

And now, love found her again. There he is, across her room. She watches him joke around and play like a kid. She knew then she’s screwed.

Then on a Wednesday in a café I watched it begin again

She’d watch him laugh and then her heart sank. She’s in love.

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Time - Grima/Reader

I've had this in my head all day and had to write it gahhhh

It's also self indulgent on my behalf hee hee~!

Warning~! Slightly more docile Grima who has to deal his new bodies weakness to emotions~

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He prowled through Askr's halls in a less than pleased mood. He'd been separated from his worm for far too long, and he had no more patience for it.

A small haughty laugh from behind halted the Fell Dragons stomps footsteps. He looked behind him to lay eyes on Julius, who possessed an almost crazed grin.

Grima's eyes narrowed, he's well aware of what kind of human Julius was. Corrupted.

Much more than others were, his own human had mentioned that it was his tome that had distorted him. He knew nothing more of him, he wasn't interested in hearing about him nor had he been happy that his human was speaking about another man.

He had ended that discussion quickly.

At the very least, Grima knew Julius wouldn't approach without an ulterior motive.

So automatically, he was on guard.

"Look what the cat dragged in."

His worm had already chided him about injuring others in the Order of Heroes, and as impudent as their lecture was, they were much easier to deal with when they weren't upset.

So he didn't crush the bug before him immediately.

Grima continued to stare at the man, maybe he could stare a hole through him, perhaps he'd disintegrate if he tried hard enough.

"Slithering off to your little pet?"

Grima was starting to get angry, he already didn't like being approached by pests but he especially didn't like when they started involving you.

"What do you want, worm?"

The annoyance in his tone was clear.

"Oh...nothing..I was just curious about how long you intend to play the human? How long you intend to pretend with that little summoner...?"

Grima growled,

"You don't know anything, worm. Stay out of my sight and I won't rip you to pieces. Come near what's mine and I can assure you that I'll have no qualms about ending whatever pathetic life you have."

A malicious purple aura was beginning to radiate from Grima, his eyes were glowing red and the air around him was suffocating enough that any other person would be on the ground begging for breath.

Julius however wasn't even fazed.

"Hmm..tamed you, have they?" He laughed,

"Any other day, you'd have already made well of your word...hah! How cute. The human taming the beast. Not that it'll last long."

Grima's smirk was almost feral,

"Is that a threat?"

Julius scoffed,

"Oh, please. As if I need to bother, you'll lose them either way."

Grima frowned, now confused,

"What are you babbling about, worm?"

Julius's smirk fell for a moment, then he studied Grima for a second before breaking into a loud howl,

"Oh this is too rich! You don't even realize it, do you?"

Julius cackled, clearly finding something very amusing. So much so that he had to clear the tears from his eyes from laughing so hard.

Grima stood baffled, any anger he had was now just confusion. Last he checked, most humans didn't behave this way. He considered just turning around and leaving this lunatic behind in favor of finding his human.

You were strange, but you were a bearable strange.

"You're a dragon! They're a human!"

Julius had to take a breath to speak,

"They'll die years before you ever do! To a dragon, a human life is merely a blink of an eye-"

Julius broke into another fit of laughter,

"That precious little human of yours is just like the rest of them, they'll wither away with age and there'll be nothing left but a lonely dragon and a skull. The end of the little Summoner."

Julius watched in glee as Grima was hit with the realization. The anger, confusion, and dread all in one. Grima hated such confounding emotions, he hated how he felt a chill at Julius's words. Hated how he felt as though someone's cold and clammy hands had raked down his spine, and he loathed the churning of his stomach at the thought of you leaving him behind.

Curse this frail human body, prone to every damning emotion known to man.

Julius stood with an impish grin as Grima snarled at him, that previous malevolent aura returning full force. He seemed to be awaiting a show, the complete explosion of Grima's wrath, but it didn't come.

He watched in surprise as Grima turned away from him and stormed down the hall, eyes a beading red, and his face set in a deep frown.

Disappointed, and with his entertainment gone, he huffed.

"How dull."

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Grima hurried his steps once he was out of Julius's sight. As much as he had wanted to rip the tongue from that fool's mouth, he was much too overcome with the urge to see his humans face.

He made his way to your room, surely by now you were done with whatever useless strategy meeting the worms had dragged you into. Along the way, he had managed to slow the frantic breathing he didn't realize he had developed.

However, as he neared your door Julius's words had rang in his ears

"-there'll be nothing left but a lonely dragon and a skull."

He shook his head, brushing the thought aside but when he gripped the doorhandle, the image of your smiling face morphing into that skull had flashed in his mind causing him to slam the door open, nearly breaking it off it's hinges.

The force of him opening the door had you nearly falling from your chair, the squeak you made had him locking his eyes onto your form.

"Gri-"

You tried to ask what the hell was going on but the intensity of Grima's gaze caught you off guard. That, and he charged towards you so fast you didn't have time to word questions.

He pulled you out of your chair by your wrist, the terrain maps you were looking at previously were now fluttering to the ground.

Grima scanned your face, for what you didn't know but he seemed to have found it since his tense shoulders relaxed. All at once, his frown melted away and he just looked drained.

Were all human emotions so taxing?

Pathetic.

You stayed quiet as Grima leaned forward to rest his head on your shoulder, clearly something was wrong with him, he often would coil himself around you in a show of dominance but he was being so...tame that you knew something had happened.

"Is something wrong?"

You wrapped an arm around him while your other raised to stroke his disheveled hair. If it wasn't the eyes and demeanor that made him distinct from Robin then the ruffled mess of white hair he always had, did.

He responded only by turning his head into the crook of your neck, inhaling your scent.

You toyed with his hair for a couple more seconds before turning the wrist that he held so that your hand held his. You lead him to your bed where you sat upright in the middle of it, knowing he'd just plop himself on top of you like he always did.

And he did, although this time, rather than throw himself on you haphazardly, he wrapped his arms around your waist and laid his head over your chest, listening to the steady beat of your heart.

You are so stupid to allow him near you, he could crush you in a split second.

You're so foolish, foolish and naive.

Stupid, foolish, naive, and warm.

"Grima...what happened?"

He let out a low growl, and for a moment you thought he wouldn't tell you. But he rocketed up to face you, clearly annoyed and angry.

"You're going to leave me."

"Huh?"

"You're going to perish."

"I..Excuse me?"

You stared at him incredulously, was..was he threatening you...??

"Grima what are you..."

You trailed off as you put the pieces together, "You're going to leave me."...oh...

"I see..so that's what this is about..." You smiled at him sadly, unsure of what to say. You couldn't lie to him, it was true. Eventually, time would take you away, it happened to every human. It would happen to you too.

Still, Grima hated that look on you. Before, he might have laughed at such an expression, but now he loathed it. Your incessant optimism was no where to be seen, and it perturbed him.

"Grima."

You called his attention, maybe you couldn't change the circumstances but maybe you could soothe him a little. You couldn't imagine his turmoil, the one human who managed to weasel their way into your life is bound to die by nature's laws.

You held his face tenderly, letting a thumb ghost over his cheek. You sighed and Grima watched intently.

"You know..." crimson eyes watched as your smile went from sad and sympathetic to honest and a light happiness.

"Even if my life may seem short...I..I wouldn't trade it for a longer life where I wasn't with you."

The stabbing pain was immediate, was this normal in a human host? To feel like you're being ripped in two?

He felt like a piece of him was being crushed, like he was losing, surrendering, laying down while what was his was being taken from him.

"No." he muttered, just low enough that you could hear.

"I-...No??"

You really wish he would elaborate sometimes but what can you expect from the Fell Dragon that does as he pleases-

"No, I refuse." he hissed.

Before you could ask what he meant, he tangled a hand in your hair and pulled you into a hungry territorial kiss. Caught completely off guard by his change in mannerisms, he managed to slip his tongue past your lips, ridding you of breath with the fervor of which his mouth claimed yours.

When he had reluctantly pulled away, he allowed you a brief moment to breathe before immediately pushing you down against your bed.

Caged between his arms, you watched as he licked his lips in anticipation.

"I won't let you go so easily, I won't- I refuse to relinquish what belongs to me."

You had squirmed your way into his life, cemented your place in it, made him feel what he was not meant to, and never asked anything of him. You became something that he was not willing to part with and nothing was going to stand in his way.

If he had to challenge time, then so be it.

And he knew how to start, by marking his possession.

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Julius made his way through the halls, looking for the next being to terrorize for fun.

Only to halt when he heard your laugh further down the hall, he grinned wickedly and with a little skip in step he moved in the direction he heard you.

His impish smile fell at the sight of you and Grima walking past at the end of the hall.

Grima caught his gaze and let a triumphant smirk take over his features, "I win." was splayed out on his face and for a moment Grima considered going over to rip off Julius's head for his previous impudent display.

But if he did, he would have to remove his hand from where it was intertwined with yours.

So he settled for extending his middle finger (something he learned from his summoner) and pointing it at the baffled Julius watching from afar.

Julius knew not what the gesture meant but he felt insulted anyway.

As the two of you walked further away from Julius, the Fell Dragon reflected on what had transpired. He had been claiming you when it happened, in the midst of marring your skin with his lips and making you his mate at last, he had felt it.

The interlacing of your life force.

You both had been confused at first, but then you felt the tug of an invisible bond, a stronger connection between the two of you. You had laughed, the solution to a problem that had arose as quickly as it had been solved was sitting in front of the two of you and the prospect that Grima had picked a fight with Time- a metaphysical thing- had finally registered.

The Fell Dragon unabashed, watched the little creature below him giggle, a human that belonged to him in now both body and spirit. When you had finished your fit of laughter, you had looked up at him and uttered 3 little words that had him going far beyond consummating your bond.

Yes, he had won it all.

Solved his problem through making your body his, showed off to the maggot that instigated this, your affection seemed to have doubled, and he found a new pastime that he very much intended to indulge in much more than he had.

A gentle squeeze on his hand pulled him out of his thoughts, turning to look at you, he was slightly blinded by the brilliant smile you had flashed him.

Hnn..

Grima was hit with the sudden urge to reenact what had occurred in your bedroom. Looking ahead, he took notice of the broom closet further down the hall.

How perfect...

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"So your plan failed spectacularly."

Julius narrowed his eyes at the new arrival standing next to him, watching you and the reptile walk away.

Valter.

"Hmph. That lizard only strengthened his clutches on them. I was sure at the very least that it would cause a rift between them.

Ugh, how droll...no matter, I shall make them mine eventually. He's merely a place holder."

Valter laughed.

"Yours? Perhaps you haven't noticed but the Summoner is my prey."

Julius scoffed,

"Surely you jest, I've made it clear that I intend to lay my hands upon them."

The air was dangerous, one waiting for the other to make a move. A lance and a tome at the ready, neither afraid to end a life.

But the tension dissipated as the loud threatening rumble of a dragon was heard in the distance...

#grima #lemonish #valter #julius #i indulged much more than i should have with this mwuaha #but i couldn't get it out of my brain gahhh i just love grima so much #i couldn't help but through in the other two since the summoner is apparently very villain prone-#reblogs are appreciated since i didn't post this one in the tags uwu

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