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I always love your pieces inspired by or in the style of famous artists—you do so much research! So top five artists you’d like to do an homage to in your own work that you haven’t yet?
aww thank you!!! oooh this is such an interesting question!
5 jmw turner
he's my all time favourite artist and would love to do smth inspired by him, but since he's predominately a landscape artist, it's always kinda hard to figure out how to translate his style into portraiture... i love the texture of his work tho it's so edible lol i remember seeing 'rain steam and speed' in a guide book my mum had bought in a charity shop or smth and just being like OBSESSED with the painting even just in a tiny photo (and seeing it in person was even more amazing lol...)
so yeh... idk how feasible it is but i would love to one day to smth based on him!
4 jc leyendecker
i see SO much leyendecker insp stuff is part of why i haven't done something properly based on his stuff because it's hard to know how to make it my own u know? but yeh his style is so evocative and interesting!!!
3 thomas gainsborough
i've not actually thought about doing smth based on his work before, but just as i was thinking of portrait artists i thought about him and yeh? honestly that would be so cool! his style is so fun and feathery! i think some of my past work is kinda closer to joshua reynold's (smoother, stiller) but the expressiveness of gainsborough is always something i've been intrigued with!
2 beatrice wanjiku
she's a contemporary artist i discovered a few years back and i'm CONSTANTLY thinking about how i can do something based on her stuff because it's SO creepy but gorgeous!
i'd love to do more creepy/disturbing art but i'm always torn about whether a) i can even pull it off or 2) if it's even something i can end up posting, given how frustrating posting stuff online is these days... so idk...
1 not a particular artist, but i'm forever interested in doing art inspired by Ancient Chinese art... i've done sorta homages over the years, but never anything that feels like it really reflects the style properly... there's just so much fluidity and detail in it that i'd just love to try!
there's definitely others but my brain is drawing a blank lol (these aren't in any particular order btw)
#ask#others that i have done stuff inspired by but forever want to do more#are artists like caravaggio & basically any early renaissance/byzantine artist lol#crap just realised i only included one woman... guess i hate them :( lol#thanks again tho!! this was a lot of fun
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species medley ft. gorgug and riz
#fantasy high#gorgug thistlespring#riz gukgak#cw: body horror#tbh mostly for the goblin shark jaws lmao. the rest is like. fine I think#ngl drawing like snouts on a humanoid face is kinda awesome I enjoy it#it is kinda a little bit what I aimed for with how I drew riz at first but I pulled back on it#the elephant remix for gorgug I think actually feels a bit more like orc rather than half-orc#maybe the tusks wouldn't get the same lip closure in half-orcs. tho tbh saying that sharing human and orc heritages would result in#consistent physical traits across the board is already kind of a reach I think. I imagine there would be a Lot of variations#and well. at least in spyre we don't see non-human mixed heritages so far... Ive been in my dunmeshi brain lmao#getting to see ryoko kui's art of mixed humans (dunmeshi in-universe term not irl term) is like coming home. thank u ma'am#anyways uhhh I think. I will have refs for every class swap bad kid (at least the full like per-season sets)#fig I'll post separately and then riz and gorgug I'll just include in like a masterpost kinda thing I think#u already know tf is up with them babey!!! just expressing those designs again for convenience#its been really fun figuring these designs out! and necessary if I wanna draw riz bc its literally impossible to doodle him on his own lmao#hes with his friends a lot actually. theyre literally in each others pockets the whole time#anyways! now I sleep. tomorrow? chillin. waiting to watch new nsbu with friend again. see u!
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ADA mandatory work naptime 💤
Commission for @thepartyishere !!
Commissions for Gaza
#Thank you so much again!!!! I had a lot of fun drawing this 💕#Art tag#Commissions#Bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#Bsd atsushi nakajima#Bsd dazai osamu#Bsd kunikida doppo#Bsd yosano akiko#bsd ranpo edogawa#bsd junichiro tanizaki#Bsd atsushi#Bsd dazai#Bsd kunikida#Bsd yosano#Bsd ranpo#bsd junichiro#GOD thats a lot of tags. Okay im done#Also pls dont tag any ships other than kndz if you wish to interpret it that way. Nothing else tho please and thank
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connections between naerys and sansa?
There’s plenty! She’s very much in a Naerys/Aegon scenario in ASOS & ACOK, where she has no ability to leave the capital, no one doing anything meaningful to protect her, and a King that is obsessed with sexually humiliating her. There’s a lot of romanticism and chivalry surrounding her character and how other people react to her character, the same as Naerys.
But also, Sansa makes the comparisons to Naerys herself, and she does it before she realizes what kind of person Joffrey is! In fact, it starts with her very first chapter where she compares Joffrey interrupting Ilyn Payne & Sandor Clegane to Aemon demanding a trial by combat against Ser Morgil:
A whole day with her prince! She gazed at Joffrey worshipfully. He was so gallant, she thought. The way he had rescued her from Ser Ilyn and the Hound, why, it was almost like the songs, like the time Serwyn of the Mirror Shield saved the Princess Daeryssa from the giants, or Prince Aemon the Dragonknight championing Queen Naerys's honor against evil Ser Morgil's slanders.
She will compare Joffrey to Aemon and herself to Naerys again later, to Ned:
"Father, I only just now remembered, I can't go away, I'm to marry Prince Joffrey." She tried to smile bravely for him. "I love him, Father, I truly truly do, I love him as much as Queen Naerys loved Prince Aemon the Dragonknight, as much as Jonquil loved Ser Florian. I want to be his queen and have his babies."
(lowkey she’s so fucking funny for that “i only just now remembered” comment, idk how ned kept a straight face for it)
She then uses Aemon (and the Cargyll twins) to make Tommen feel better and dunk on Joffrey:
Prince Tommen sobbed. "You mew like a suckling babe," his brother hissed at him. "Princes aren't supposed to cry." "Prince Aemon the Dragonknight cried the day Princess Naerys wed his brother Aegon," Sansa Stark said, "and the twins Ser Arryk and Ser Erryk died with tears on their cheeks after each had given the other a mortal wound." "Be quiet, or I'll have Ser Meryn give you a mortal wound," Joffrey told his betrothed.
Again, there’s a focus on Aemon’s romantic relationship with Naerys because that's what appeals to Sansa. But when people say "Sansa sees the world through stories" it's not just about how she romanticizes or idolizes knighthood, nobility, and chivalry - she thinks through information by comparing it with similar historical events or stories and analyzing it. She clearly sees the problem with Loras protecting Margaery from Joffrey by comparing him to the Toynes instead of Aemon, and Joffrey (once again) to Aegon the Unworthy:
She is so brave, Sansa thought, galloping after her . . . and yet, her doubts still gnawed at her. Ser Loras was a great knight, all agreed. But Joffrey had other Kingsguard, and gold cloaks and red cloaks besides, and when he was older he would command armies of his own. Aegon the Unworthy had never harmed Queen Naerys, perhaps for fear of their brother the Dragonknight . . . but when another of his Kingsguard fell in love with one of his mistresses, the king had taken both their heads. Ser Loras is a Tyrell, Sansa reminded herself. That other knight was only a Toyne. His brothers had no armies, no way to avenge him but with swords. Yet the more she thought about it all, the more she wondered. Joff might restrain himself for a few turns, perhaps as long as a year, but soon or late he will show his claws, and when he does . . . The realm might have a second Kingslayer, and there would be war inside the city, as the men of the lion and the men of the rose made the gutters run red.
She’s also not wrong in her assessment here because the Tyrells (my guess is Garlan and Olenna) are so worried about this outcome they just murder Joffrey and install Tommen; like Bethany Bracken, Margaery is groomed (with all the implications that are included in such a loaded term) to be sexually available to the King because her father wants power and doesn't care if his daughter is sexually abused to get it. Like Terrance Toyne, Loras is considered attractive, skilled, and has several brothers more than willing to start a war to avenge his death. I think it's incredibly intuitive that Sansa ultimately comes to the same conclusion as two seasoned political players like (presumably) Olenna and Garlan come to, and she makes this judgement call very quickly!
And Sansa also hits on a lot of (correct) similarities when she makes these comparisons between Joffrey's court and Aegon the Unworthy's court; Aegon and Joffrey both have wild, violent temperaments while being notoriously difficult to control. It’s not just Naerys that attempts to get Aegon to stop marital raping her; Aemon’s useless tears aside, Viserys does do the bare minimum here in sending Aegon away so Naerys can heal from her miscarriages, Daeron got shitty with the Brackens about being tacky over Naerys' marital rape and ill health, Baelor fasts himself to death over Naerys’ miscarriages, etc etc. All of the “authority figures” around Aegon think his behavior is wrong but Aegon proves stubbornly difficult to control or kill. Joffrey falls along these same lines - Cersei, Robert, Tyrion, Tywin, and even Varys all struggle to get some control over Joffrey but like Aegon, he knows once he’s of age and has that crown he doesn’t have to answer for SHIT and stubbornly resists every attempt to curb his behavior. Joffrey is a hell scenario waiting to happen because like Aegon, he’s petty and petulant enough to pull the stunts Aegon pulls like pitting his true born kids against his bastard born ones and causing another violent succession crisis. I say this as like, the ultimate Joffrey Apologist here, lmaooo, he has reasons for being a nasty piece of shit but the Tyrells are right to look at him and go “oh that’s trouble” because he is a ticking time bomb. And the crazy thing is, it’s not just Sansa who compares Joffrey to Aegon the Unworthy:
"A king can have other women. Whores. My father did. One of the Aegons did too. The third one, or the fourth. He had lots of whores and lots of bastards." As they whirled to the music, Joff gave her a moist kiss. "My uncle will bring you to my bed whenever I command it." Sansa shook her head. "He won't." "He will, or I'll have his head. That King Aegon, he had any woman he wanted, whether they were married or no."
Joffrey makes the comparison himself. He's a piece of work just like his hero and he is directly threatening to rape Sansa the same way Aegon raped Naerys and poor Bethany Bracken. He is directly admitting he is "unworthy" and practically daring all of KL to overthrow him for it because he thinks they'll blink before he does (and he is unfortunately deadly wrong in this assumption).
And when you extrapolate out from there, you can see other, similar patterns between Naerys' life and Sansa's, beyond the Joffrey-Aegon, Margaery-Bethany, Loras-Terrance, and Sansa-Naerys parallels. Tyrion himself aspires to be a sort of Viserys II type player (see: "It should have been called the Lives of Five Kings" rant he gives to Oberyn); a power behind the throne directing his crazy family to do what's right or smart or proper. There's an interesting echo in Viserys taking direct action in sending Aegon away from Naerys and Tyrion stopping Joffrey in his assault of Sansa - like Viserys, he can see the monster in the king he is raising, makes an attempt to stop it, but fails because he underestimates just how dangerous and erratic his little king has become. Like Viserys, Tyrion is suspected of poisoning his own nephew in an attempt to get closer to power and the throne (and Viserys, like Tyrion, is probably innocent - the sort of fasting that Baelor was doing regularly is hard on the body!).
I don't think any of this is coincidental or accidental either, because of that haunting scene where Joffrey destroys the gift Tyrion got him. Here's the scene, excuse the wall of text, but it's important:
He plays the gracious king today. Joffrey could be gallant when it suited him, Sansa knew, but it seemed to suit him less and less. Indeed, all his courtesy vanished at once when Tyrion presented him with their own gift: a huge old book called Lives of Four Kings, bound in leather and gorgeously illuminated. The king leafed through it with no interest. "And what is this, Uncle?" A book. Sansa wondered if Joffrey moved those fat wormy lips of his when he read. "Grand Maester Kaeth's history of the reigns of Daeron the Young Dragon, Baelor the Blessed, Aegon the Unworthy, and Daeron the Good," her small husband answered. "A book every king should read, Your Grace," said Ser Kevan. “My father had no time for books.” Joffrey shoved the tome across the table. “If you read less, Uncle Imp, perhaps Lady Sansa would have a baby in her belly by now.” He laughed … and when the king laughs, the court laughs with him. “Don’t be sad, Sansa, once I’ve gotten Queen Margaery with child I’ll visit your bedchamber and show my little uncle how it’s done.” Sansa reddened. She glanced nervously at Tyrion, afraid of what he might say. This could turn as nasty as the bedding had at their own feast. But for once the dwarf filled his mouth with wine instead of words... [Joffrey gets a Valyrian sword and figures out a name for it, Widow's Wail, it's a few pages, it's not relevant here] Joffrey brought Widow’s Wail down in a savage two-handed slice, onto the book that Tyrion had given him. The heavy leather cover parted at a stroke. “Sharp! I told you, I am no stranger to Valyrian steel.” It took him half a dozen further cuts to hack the thick tome apart, and the boy was breathless by the time he was done. Sansa could feel her husband struggling with his fury as Ser Osmund Kettleblack shouted, “I pray you never turn that wicked edge on me, sire.” “See that you never give me cause, ser.” Joffrey flicked a chunk of Lives of Four Kings off the table at swordpoint, then slid Widow’s Wail back into its scabbard. “Your Grace,” Ser Garlan Tyrell said. “Perhaps you did not know. In all of Westeros there were but four copies of that book illuminated in Kaeth’s own hand.” “Now there are three.” Joffrey undid his old swordbelt to don his new one. “You and Lady Sansa owe me a better present, Uncle Imp. This one is all chopped to pieces.”
God I love that passage so much. There's a lot there but what's relevant is a) both Oberyn and Garlan are trying to get a measure of who Joffrey is, and have some child murdering plans potentially in the works during this scene. Watching Joffrey destroy a priceless tome of history given as a well thought, well meant, incredibly generous (and pointed) gift from his uncle is more than enough proof for either man to decide Joffrey is not worth the headache, and please note Garlan is the only person to call Joffrey out to his face, and Oberyn is a few pages later the only person to acknowledge this was a fantastic and kind gift from Tyrion that Joffrey reacted absolutely deranged towards for no reason. and b) Tyrion is almost literally saying to Joffrey "I can be your Viserys, I can make it so you're remembered as a great king the way Daeron II or Baelor are, or a great warrior like Daeron I, but you have to understand the reason why I'm worried about your behavior" and Joffrey does the most destructive, unworthy thing he can possibly do - he quite literally destroys priceless, useful historical knowledge and wisdom with his bare hands, in favor of senseless, petulant violence. As Catelyn would say, Joffrey's real bride is not Margaery, but the war he's fighting and the crown on his head.
All of this to say - there's a lot of parallels between Sansa's situation in KL and Naery's life and these parallels are drawn not only by Sansa herself, but also by several people around her. However, I hope for better things for Sansa than what poor Naerys got - I hope for an Aemon the Dragonknight that will do more than just cry while she's raped, but actually step into that room and defend her, or else give her the power to defend herself. Despite the long wait for The Winds of Winter, I also think it's likely we will get some sort of Dragonknight, devoted sworn sword for Sansa and this person will help protect her, and Sansa will have agency that Naerys could only ever dream of.
#valyrianscrolls#sansa stark#naerys targaryen#aemon the dragonknight#aegon the unworthy#joffrey baratheon#tyrion lannister#margaery tyrell#loras tyrell#olenna tyrell#garlan tyrell#terrence toyne#bethany bracken#courtly and chivalric love#i'm not knocking tyrion for not quite seeing how dangerous joffrey is. *no one* sees it bc Systemic Patriarchy and Feudal Violence.#whether its brienne arya jon bronze yohn fucking podrick i do believe we will get a knight for sansa tho!!!#once again sorry this took so long. i had a lot more to say than i expected.#also. thank you so much for this ask this was sooooooooo much fun to write out. we are analyzing themes babeeeeee#getting on my soap box#knighthood and oath keeping#true knights#fuck i think that's all my tags#i had another section about how the show really styles her to look pale and sickly during season 3 and 4 but i had trouble phrasing it#so i just cut it. but that scene where margaery gives her the red and yellow rose and sansa looks like death? naerys vibes fr!!!#naerys and sansa parallels#jon and the aemons
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From the same Storm mini-series 🥹
THE FAM 🥺
#snap chats#logan can you not look like a moody teenage boy for five minutes you are ALMOST 200 years old <- obsessed regardless#AND OFC MY BEST FRIEND CHARLES. i always love it when he looks so quaint ..... very polite i'm treating him to hors d'oeuvres#hey real quick did you guys know i hate french. worst language its not close it got me PISSED#i got three sibs and those FREAKS all took french in school. freaks the lot of them#Unrelated Ramble Asided thank you for treating me to a snippet of what else ill come to read from these issues !!!#i cannot wait.... ive been embroiled in krakoa so much it's nice to take a break sometimes#i mean i . already do that with the 60's comics but ive been neglecting them a lil Ill Admit#on that note tho i finished the first volume of legion of x and i'll prob start/finish the second one this weekend so that'll be fun :]#then i got my First Class issues + this storm run ... i do be readin a lot its a very exciting time for my brain i think#ihave once again rambled for a solid year LMAOOOO ok im done fr now. im hungry#thank you again for this gift my friend i cant wait to see it in its context 👯♀️👯♀️
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Wowzers! The gang is back together! With some new members to boot!
Part 12 // First // Previous // Next
--Full Series--
Another part done and done. With so many hugs and good feelings to boot! We’re reaching the Mayor, so saddle up folks! For the epic multi-part Darkworld Finale!! ….it…might take a long while to make… 👀 BUT STILL!
#deltarune chara timeline comic#chara is no touchie#rhyme bat my beloved#the backgrounds in this or surprisingly fun to make!#i actually used rock texture and it looks so much better#learning step by step haha#it’s always bugged me how In the background Kris is in situations. so I think having Asriel be there to see them in the moment really#emphasizes that they do have some connection#thank you for being patient yet again! you all are amazing!#it’s mostly just a lot because I have to draw the finale along with the weird route finale#tbh tho I’m so excited for the ends in both stories ee#which will probably be in a few months 😵💫 so long#art#deltarune#my art#rhyme bat#that chara blush tho#sal and pep#ralsei#Kris#Asriel#chara#Susie#deltarune chara timeline
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Piepoe, and Keppino color swap?
Here you are!! And a bonus outfit swap for them both too :3!
#thank you for this suggestion/request tho!! i enjoy these 2 so much rn so doodling these two arts was quite fun for me!!#make sure to eat food and to drink water and rest ok? take it easy and be safe!! thank you again so much!!#sending LOTS AND LOTS of love your way!#💖💘💓💘💖💘💓💘💖💖💘💓💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💘💖💖💘💓💘💖💘💓💘💓💘💖💘💓💖💘💖💘💖💘💓💘💖💓💘💖💘💓💘‼️‼️‼️‼️#Piepoe arts#Keppino arts
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alright. know what? with Secrets of the Obscure right around the corner and plenty of new Mists-related sky island settings coming with it, I'll just bite the bullet and interest-check a little something I've been turning in my head for a long, long while.
would YOU be interested in a Mists-based GW2 roleplay guild that uses a lore compliant multiverse system to allow canon, canon-adjacent, lore-breaking, and otherwise 'contradictory' muses to coexist in the same setting?
simply put: every writer's cast would be set in their own self-contained universe. as such, everyone could bring whatever muses they want with their own personal headcanons, and no one could dictate what is or isn't canon for anyone else. so long as your muses are GW2-based, you're good to go! bring your Commanders, bring your canon-divergent OCs, bring your canon muses-- and yes, even the ones that are 'supposed' to be dead. who can say what might have happened in a strange world far across the Mists, after all?
neutral hubs and in-character safety guardrails would be in place to keep all muses on a relatively even playing field regardless of their power, history, and prestige, too. play hardball if you like, but it might not end quite the way you'd hope. the main rule would be to maintain good OOC etiquette at all times: no godmodding, no metagaming, no theft, don't blend IC and OOC, and so-on.
if that sounds like something you might have interest in, please interact with this post! and if you've got questions or concerns, I'd love to hear them; feel free to send an ask or a DM, or just reply to this post!
#GW2 roleplay#GW2 rp#GW2#my posts#so there's a LOT of reasons why I'm putting this forward#but the biggest is that I really want there to be a place that's actually inclusive for all the creativity that exists in this fandom#there was exactly one Mists multiverse event a while back and it was well-received from everything I saw!#i know i for one had a lot of fun AND felt a lot more welcome and comfortable than i have at any other event#and then... we proceeded to just never have another again.#like. we could have more of that. that niche could still use filling! we can do SO much more with this!!!#and especially with SotO coming out we could have some REALLY interesting locations to meet up too!#I'd be happy to kickstart this stuff but the thing is: it WILL need support. I just can't do it all alone and that's a fact#example: if we want a guild hall in-game we'd have to work together to get one; that'd be great for hosting public and private events#my personal goal is 5-10 participants so that we can have enough to run small events and mingle muses a bit#IF there's enough interest i'll roll out more information at that time. for now tho i'll just leave it at this to test the waters#reblogs are HIGHLY appreciate here: i'm a smallfry in a big sea and not many people check the tags. spread the word if you want to see this#on that note: thanks for reading and hopefully i'll hear from some of you soon. o/#(side detail: that sky pic is a screen i snapped at night in Istan. it's so pretty there ok)
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Friendship is the most special thing in the world because no award could be give me bigger happiness than jumping around in my room and smiling because my pookie asked me if I wanted to match pfps
#SHES AMAZING I LOVE HER AHHHHH#I hope we manage to find a cute bsd pfp it would be literally my dream#little vent tw!!#it's been so long since I matched pfps last time was with my ex who started being wayyyyy too weird..#and the other time was with a friend who started ghosting me some months later just because I didnt give her enough adopt me pets or smth 💔#and like. her stopping talking to be literally broke me as a person. it was devastanting for like 13yo me#woahhh thank you k. now I have social anxiety and keep dobting whether people really want me there or not#I still have a sort of love hate relationship w her but like its been over 2 years maybe 3 why do I still care abt it sm :<#especially since our other bestie is wayy more affectionate w k than w me it just makes me feel so weird like im sort of a 3rd wheel#but at least the friend im gonna match with is the sweetest person ever and we can be silly together :333#unfortunately we only know eachother from a course so we always have to wait 2 weeks to see eachother#and even tho i still see k almost every day shes pretty different now#but ive been feeling so so happy the last few days since school started and im afraid I might go back to being how I was when she returns#because. I bet my two friends will keep being silly together and ill have to sit w my ex again cuz hes still part of our friend group#I mean hes a nice and funny guy but I figured that a relationship wont work with us. I tried it and I just wanna be friends#I have a lot of fun w him but like in a platonic way#and im afraid he still thinks we should be together#meanwhile my besties keep flirting w eachother like??#I mean its pretty funny as a joke but I cant help but feeling kinda jealous especially because I used to have a huge crush in one of them#talked a bit too much ooopssss#Im just trying to move on but I hope k coming back doesnt start everything over again#anyways!! I love my bestie from the course smmmmmm Im still so so happy :D wish we could see eachother more#random stuff#chaos#friendship#violet rambles
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dip pen ink comm second round for in order R. Burry, @sega-bass-kissing, and Solaris
#bakuspecial#commission art#and thats round 2 concluded!#once again sorry it took a Lot longer than round 1 lol#its just. sometimes there are things up here#which is why (mentioning this again in an actually relevant post lol) I'm gonna leave my next week off from this!#round 3 will open sometimes AFTER this sunday. my rest of the week will be for other business I gotta take care of#tbh what I'm doing with ink here is kind of the equivalent of like. picking up someone's dog and running off#nobody knows whats going on or is gonna happen. but I am doing it nonetheless#now tho. maybe I should nap for a bit more. itd help#thank you again to folks who've bought a slot thus far! hope everyone's enjoying whatever the hells Im doing dskjfhdsjfh#I sure am uh. figuring it out. it is fun but then I'm the one with the dog in my arms#have a good night! maybe u should have an animal of choice in ur arms too. would recommend
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english prof just left LOADS of feedback on my essay omg this is so exciting
#personal#the english chronicles#FINALLY!!!!!!!! someone who doesn’t just slap an a on it and call it a day#most of it is picking at me for passive voice use and my really shitty conclusion paragraph BAHAHA we were limited to 3 pages#and i was really struggling to cut it down bc. the prompt i chose involved 7 different concepts like give examples of these concepts in this#short story but i also had to Define and Explain the concepts and then there was also the intro and conclusion and header block and it’s#double spaced like 3 pages is rlly not enough for this prompt if you want to give a genuine critical analysis. so my conclusion was#extremely short and shallow lmfao but yeah. he also left lots of praise 😌 AND! he left audio recording for everyone?? like damn okay you are#a prof who genuinely wants to see his students improve thank you thank you thank you 🙏🏻 yes i only got a 90 which i think is the lowest ive#ever gotten on an essay but idc my respect for him just Shot up. also only four of us got A-range grades so i still feel p okay abt that#and i started the essay night of so all things considered this could have gone worse lol#also i got the top score on the exam last week so still riding that high (i needed the ego boost so bad guys 💀) but anyway. i think he’s#retiring after this semester tho this is so tragic he’s also just a rlly fun nice guy in class too like i would 100% take him again#but yeah. i will concede that i fall into passive voice a lot without realizing it so glad he said smth abt it i will be more mindful 🫡#also i guess i did a couple page citations incorrectly it has been a minute since i touched mla and i thought you could either segue into a#page citation like on so and so page they say this OR do parenthetical in-text citation at the end of a quote but he only wants the#parenthetical type ever. not sure if this is a flat rule of mla or just teacher preference i will b looking into this#edit okay looks like flat rule for mla. my bad 🙈 i only did the segue thing twice instead of the parenthetical citation thankfully
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most interesting popular accounts to me are the ones that just post stuff like gifsets or art or writing but never ever say anything, like no tag rambles, no personal posts, no opinions, no rants. im always like surely.... surely you have something to say....
#idgi#like its so boring yeah your posts are pretty or what have you but give me someone who talks and makes stuff only half as pretty#and im gonna prefer them bc i can see some personality behind it#idk maybe im just mean but its intriguing#esp since ive followed a bunch of blogs for the new thing im into and so many of them are like this#also on the rare occasions they do say stuff the posts never get notes#or replies and meanwhile they just posted a thanks for 9k followers post#i dont see the point of 9 thousand people if no one talks EVER#ALSO EVIDENTLY THEY WANT TO TALK BC MY ASS CANNOT BE STOPPED FROM REPLYING#and then they be out here following me even tho im some lil nobody so like#they must be like yay! someones talking!#again whats the point of this website if we dont reply and reblog and talk and have fun bro#see again this just makes me squint bc its like a lot of big influencer ig accs who just post perfectly edited pics and sell shit#and never say a word that could get in the way of a sponsorship#why are you acting like that on tumblr you dont even get money from being popualr here lmao
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[I portray Rorschach as gay but low-key his bond with Khare is so sweet and meaningful that I could see him being fine with platonically marrying Khare. In a world where that would even be on the table, which I'm sure is not.
but also Khare could get a green card that way. just sayin]
Rue, this is the sweetest thing and I'm sorry it's taken a while to reply to this because I kept coming back to this and grinning like an idiot until my cheeks hurt? Rorschach and Khare's relationship is by far one of my all-time favourite experiences, not just on this one thing but roleplaying in general.
Their connection is one of those things I never saw coming but holy crap, it's so good, the way their bond has grown so much and whenever I'm having a bad day, I just think back to one of their many interactions and start smiling like a loon all over again. It goes without saying your Rorschach is absolutely-fucking-phenomenal - all your muses are, but your writing in particular pulled Watchmen from the deepest recesses of 2009 and dragged it right back into the forefront again. Dan, Liz and Adrian are all beautifully written but I can't deny these two are something deeply special to me. Guilty as charged, your honor. ♥ Your Rorschach being gay (which I adore about him) is so brilliantly portrayed and reasoned, so it's all the more meaningful that, in the best case scenario, he'd actually be okay with platonically marrying Khare? I don't think she'd mind either; sure he's no Bruce Wayne, but that doesn't matter to her because she adores him and he really is the closest friend she's got, both in Gotham and probably in her life which was nothing special until, you know, the whole getting-kidnapped-and-turned-into-an-experimental-guinea-pig type thing. He's been good to her though, and even though not a lot of people like him very much, he's important to her, so even though it's not likely there's a world where this would actually happen given the issues™ our two have, just the thought that he'd willingly do this for her says a lot considering his attitude about women. She gets a green card, he gets a beard so nobody looks at them too closely and Rorschach can continue contending with his feelings and accept his being gay. It's a win/win situation if, you know, Rorschach didn't have a crippling deathwish and Khare wasn't basically rotting from the inside out. Still, it's a very sweet thing to think about and these two being able to heal from their pasts and come out as better people for it.
#the-rorschach-mask#🌈 || musings#I'm very sorry it took a while to answer this!#Been gathering up my thoughts about this because there are a great many#But I meant what I said in that out of all my years as a roleplayer this is by far my favourite relationship#THIS is the kind of stuff I like just that wholesome character interaction and development#And it's all the more fun because these two aren't even from Gotham#Or the same world for that matter#Everybody: Rorschach is a very unpleasant and irredeemable bastard#Khare: I don't care I like him and that's all that matters#She owes him her life and no matter how difficult he is as a person he means a lot to her#Thank you again for sending this btw#This was just so nice and I needed to get thoughts cooperating long enough to make a reply <3#Mrs. Kovacs tho#Certainly got a ring to it
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NaNo day 11
Title: birds of a feather? look where it lead her Fandom: Love and Redemption Character/Pairing(s): Yu Sifeng/Chu Xuanji, Zhong Minyan/Chu Linglong Rating: PG-13 Warning: SILLY, REALLY SILLY. Fluff and romance! 8k of it. Summary: Post-canon (but pre-epilogue), Xuanji has some questions about Sifeng that need answering, and she is willing to ask ANYONE but Sifeng.
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It wasn’t that her sister was acting strange, per say.
Chu Linglong was used to her sister’s strangeness, having grown up with a little girl who didn’t seem to understand the world around her, constantly imitating her movements and actions curiously. Poor Xuanji was always called strange by the disciples, even if the title was fond and well-meaning. After all, a girl who felt no physical or emotional pain really did get up to strange things.
But now that her Xuanji had all her senses back, now that she understood what both love and pain were, she tended to behave in a more rational manner.
Rational to Linglong, that is. Irrational to others, who now saw Chu Xuanji as a devastatingly powerful being, both the God of War from a thousand years ago, and the Star of Mosha that could decimate the heavens. Most people didn’t mention those titles anymore, respecting her little sister’s decision to live a normal life. It had taken almost a full year for the rumours and whispers to die down, even with the help of Linglong and Minyan hunting down anyone who would maliciously spread those rumours.
Now, Linglong found her younger sister in the sect library, sitting on the ground in her nightclothes and surrounded by scrolls and booklets, looking both frantic and disheartened.
“Xuanji?” Linglong asked softly, paddling her way quietly across the library in hopes she wouldn’t startle her younger twin. “Are you alright? How long have you been here?”
It must have been several sichen already, judging by the mess. Linglong was only up so early because of breakfast cravings, as even the most stalwart of maids were just starting to prepare for the day. They were meant to prepare a feast for Xuanji and Sifeng’s visit, an event celebrated greatly since Linglong and Minyan moved back into the sect to help her ageing father.
“Linglong!” Xuanji’s eyes were frantic when she saw her sister, and the younger woman immediately stood in a flurry of white robes, sleeves flailing as she stepped over the papers in her socks, making a beeline toward Linglong with such gusto that the older twin found herself taken aback. “Linglong, I need your help!”
Lately, Xuanji had been happy to live a quiet, comfortable life now that the world-ending events of the past were finally over, and Linglong felt a familiar panic set in her chest as Xuanji clung to her arms, fingers tight in the fabric of her sleeves.
“What is it? What’s wrong?” Linglong asked, hands coming up automatically to cling back to her sister’s arms.
“We have all this information on different yao but there’s—” Xuanji’s frown was pronounced, her upset obvious within the furrow of her brows and the sad eyes, “how come we don’t have enough information on— on—”
“On what?” Linglong urged, skin tingling at the thought of what might be a new threat in their world, one that they didn’t have any information on—
“Birds!” Xuanji burst out in what was almost a wail, shaking her sister. “We don’t even have— we thought the golden-winged bird yaos were extinct for years, I understand that, but we don’t even study regular birds here? Birds migrate? Should we be moving south for the winters? Am I doing this wrong? What else am I doing wrong?”
It’s been years since Linglong felt the urge to drag her sister around by the ear, but that familiar feeling was back as easy as anything. Linglong sighed, her panic dropping into mild irritation as Xuanji stared at her with wide, panicked eyes. She took a moment to pat at Xuanji’s hand affectionately, wondering why she was here instead of with her husband asking these questions instead.
Because of course this was about Sifeng.
“I don’t think you’re doing anything wrong,” Linglong soothed her, “but I really do think you should be talking to Sifeng instead of… researching birds? Xuanji, really. Haven���t you learned already that it’s best to just talk to him? Besides, I don’t think you need to. Hmm. Migrate. Don’t worry too much about it.”
Linglong really should have expected this, with the way her younger sister has been fixated on Sifeng since they were sixteen, going from aloof and carefree to suddenly having his name on her lips every other sentence while her eyes shone with a light that hadn’t been there before. She hadn’t worried back then, instead found it cute because she imagined nothing would come of it and besides, Sifeng was a cute kid himself who really needed to socialise with other people.
More than a decade later, and they were back at their nonsense again.
At last this time, Linglong learned to appreciate it better, amusement winning over irritation as Xuanji pouted and clung onto her arms, words slurred together with how fast she was protesting, talking about wanting to surprise the love her life and how she needed her beloved sister’s help to do it because he always knew what she was up to lately (and wasn’t that her own fault? Linglong could distinctly remember just last night over dinner when half of Xuanji’s conversations had been directed at Sifeng talking about every little thing she thought and saw while they weren’t joined at the hips), and how inadequate Shaoyang Sect’s library was if it didn’t include regular animals in their beastiaries, particularly the feathered types.
“Besides,” Linglong said as Xuanji nearly collapsed in her arms, babbling about sparrows and ducks and peacocks and swans and how she didn’t really know the difference between them other than visually and what about chickens, Linglong?! I eat chickens!, “I’m sure I’ve heard father mention before that golden-winged bird yaos are more closely related to phoenixes than regular birds. Especially the twelve feathered ones… I think? Something about them being distant cousins to phoenixes.”
She might have heard that. More than that, she remembered the intimidating wide wingspan of golden fire, and the heat those wings added to the battlefield.
Xuanji brightened immediately, eyes shining as she said, “He does run hot! I’ll go ask father, he’ll know!”
More likely was that their father would spit blood as his youngest daughter once again hounded him again for information that… Now that Linglong thought about it, it was far more likely their library didn’t have the books because their father burned them after their mother was killed.
“Wait, wait,” Linglong said as Xuanji detached from her, already twirling to leave. She reached to yank at her younger twin’s clothes, watching as Xuanji flailed for balance one second and then turned to give her sad eyes at not allowing her to leave immediately. “Let’s not do that yet. It’s too early in the morning to disturb him. How about…”
How could Linglong defuse this situation? It took years for their father to accept the idea of Sifeng as a son-in-law, and even now it was a tentative and nebulous acceptance. But Xuanji had always been determined to follow through her strange thoughts, and Linglong was only one person, and a hungry one without adequate information.
“I have an idea,” Linglong announced.
—
“Why.” Minyan announced as he was dragged into the darkened kitchen, the sun barely a hint below the horizon still. “Wife of mine, of course I will feed you anytime you want, but this…”
Xuanji was just giving the chicken Linglong was consuming a sad look, her lower lip nearly trembling as her sister continued to quickly and elegantly debone the meat.
“Because Xuanji wanted to know about the migration of birds,” Linglong said, as if that was a normal everyday thing to bring up that required them to be awake before sunrise.
“Flight patterns,” Xuanji said sadly, still eying the chicken even as Linglong took a large bite in defiance, staring hard at her sister the entire time. “Habits. Sifeng always wakes so early in the morning…”
“I’m pretty sure that has to do with his training and how he was raised,” Minyan pointed out. “The rest of us usually wake that early as well, except for you, Xuanji.”
Chu Xuanji, reincarnation of the terrifying God of War, slouched down into her arms on the table and pouted at them. “...I like sleeping.”
“Not to mention, Sifeng isn’t actually a bird,” Minyan continued. “You of all people should know that!”
“He’s a bird yao,” Xuanji pointed out.
“He’s a twelve-feathered golden-winged yao, and there has got to be a better name for them than that,” Minyan mused before he shook himself out of that thought, “and that’s closer to phoenixes than regular birds!”
“See?” Linglong used a chicken bone to point at Xuanji, who only scowled at her.
“I don’t see,” Xuanji grumbled, her voice half-swallowed by her arms as she sullenly glared at them from the mess of her sleeves. “Because there’s no books on them here! No one knows anything!”
“Why don’t you just ask Sifeng yourself?” Minyan suggested, ever the voice of reason. “If you’re wondering if he migrates, I doubt it. He grew up in Lize Palace, right? All the golden-winged yao did, and we’ve seen them at yearly events, including winters. I don’t really think he has any habits you can relate to birds, either. But if he does, then you can ask him and he'll tell you.”
Linglong took the momentary pause in conversation to shove her near empty plate toward Minyan and demand, “I want another one.”
That derailed Xuanji’s thoughtful look. “No more!”
“Quail, this time.” Linglong said gleefully, dodging her sister’s grabbing hands. “And eggs, too!”
“Of course, of course,” Minyan said, already standing to find his pregnant wife whatever she wanted to eat.
Xuanji only gasped, as if an idea had come upon her.
“Eggs,” she breathed out, eyes wide in horror. “Do you think Lize disciples lay eggs, too?”
Oh no, Minyan thought as he struggled between his wife’s wheezing laughter as she leaned her entire weight against him, and his own attempt to keep a straight face as he watched Xuanji raise both hands to her cheeks, the horror in her tone giving way to an inquisitive fascination that left her mouth in the shape of an ‘o’, before stretching out into a smile that didn’t bode well for Minyan’s poor brother-in-law.
“Xuanji, don’t—” Minyan started before giving up against the volume of his wife’s laughter, loud enough to disturb some curious servants who were still waiting for them to clear out of the kitchen before they could start on breakfast.
Sorry, Sifeng, Minyan thought guiltily as Xuanji stood in a flurry, eyes glinting with an unholy light. I tried.
—
“Sifeng!” Xuanji’s running steps stopped as she stepped over the door frame, her momentum helping her slide on her socks the rest of the way into the room. Inside, the bedroom was lit softly by candlelight, as the sun was just starting to shine orange in the distance, peeking over the horizon. “Sifeng, Sifeng!”
“Xuanji?” Sifeng appeared from behind a screen, already dressed for the day in immaculate dark blue robes, hair tied in place. She stopped in disappointment. She loved doing Sifeng’s hair. “What’s wrong, where have you been?”
“I—” What was she talking about again? She always felt so distracted in the same room as him, whenever he looked at her like she was the only person in the world. “I was in the library!”
“This early?” He asked, and Xuanji was once again struck by a wave of fondness remembering that had she said that to anyone else when they were younger, others would have mocked her as the worse cultivator in the entire sect, even if the words held no malice, yet Sifeng never doubted a thing about her. “Did you find something interesting?”
He took another step out from behind the screen to greet her, shaking out his sleeves, and she found herself absolutely breathless when he smiled at her. It was a soft smile, easy and full of confidence, crinkling the edges of his eyes just a bit until Xuanji wanted to reach up and poke him in the cheeks as she used to when they were kids. It was so different from the first time he smiled at her, and Xuanji remembered how his smiles used to be so shy and hesitant, like he was unused to making such gestures, and how it would stop her in her tracks entirely, emptying her mind of anything else because gosh, Sifeng had such a nice smile, didn’t he?
“Xuanji?” He asked again, stepping toward her, and Xuanji couldn’t help but give a giddy smile in return, feeling a little goofy and light as she took two quick steps to close the distance between them and reach her hands out to cup his face, pulling him down for a quick kiss.
She could do this now, she was allowed to do this, because they were married, and Sifeng’s smiles were hers and for her, and— he was smiling when she pulled away, and Xuanji just couldn’t help it, she had to press another kiss on those smiling lips, and another.
Yes, Chu Xuanji sighed happily as she felt her husband wrap his arms around her. This was the best morning.
—
It was past breakfast when Minyan saw Xuanji again, humming to herself as she walked down the garden path outside, with a general air of cheer and bright smile.
He only came to the path to pick some flowers for Linglong, but it seemed Xuanji had the same idea as she hopped from flower patch to flower patch, plucking at the brightest blooms. Luckily, she was finally dressed properly for the day, in bright pink with matching hair ribbons, outfit tied together with a thin piece of dark blue silk wrapped around her waist.
Minyan offered a prayer to the heavens and wondered just how many apologies he owed to his brother-in-law before bracing himself and calling out to the woman, “Xuanji! So how did it go?”
Xuanji looked up, head tilted curiously as if she had overlooked Minyan’s presence in the garden entirely, and then gave him a beaming smile. “Brother-in-law! It’s good to see you on this wonderful day.”
At least her tone boded well.
“We missed you and Sifeng at breakfast today,” Minyan ventured cautiously as he walked toward her with his empty flower basket. “How did your talk with him go? Did everything get cleared up?”
He hoped it did. Sifeng might have been embarrassed, but it was better than if Xuanji had gone around the sect asking random people about bird anatomy because she really needed to talk to her own husband.
Xuanji’s beaming smile widened into something conspiratorial. “Oh, he’s resting! We’ll be out for lunch, I’m sure. We had a very long, hmmm, talk.”
“That’s good, that’s good.” Minyan nodded along. “So how did he react?”
“Uh.” Xuanji hesitated, and then brought her bundle of flowers up to hide half her face, although her reddened ears still gave her away. Her fingers fiddled with the flower stems as she continued, “Uhhhhh. Good?”
“Really?” He rather imagined Sifeng might not react well to the implications, but they must have resolved that early on. That was good. Xuanji and Sifeng really weren’t meant to argue with each other, and Minyan hoped they would never have to after the decade that they had.
Besides, Linglong was happier when her sister was happy, and Minyan was extremely determined to keep his wife happy.
But still… Minyan just had to know, because it would haunt his thoughts if he didn’t. “So he didn’t react badly when you asked if he laid eggs?”
Xuanji gave him a blank stare.
“Because,” Minyan continued, “you know that all Lize Palace disciples are male. Right?”
“EGGS.” Xuanji shrieked, dropping her flowers and startling Minyan back a step. “I forgot!”
—
“Tengshe!”
The heavenly being choked as Xuanji wrapped an arm around his throat, yanking him one way and another like a child would to a doll if the child was actually a thousand year old war god who could easily destroy the realms and didn’t know her own strength, and the doll was her poor spiritual beast who happened to be the handsome and talented flying snake of the heavens.
“Oh good, you’re here!” Xuanji announced, even as Tengshe clawed weakly at her arm, face contorting as he tried to draw in air against her grip. “I have a really important question for you!”
He hit her arm, but it was like attacking a stone mountain. Wasn’t she mortal now? How was she still so strong?!
“You can’t tell Sifeng I asked you this, either,” Xuanji continued to say, even as she swung him around. “Because I wanted to prepare a surprise for him, but then I got sidetracked, okay? And now I have so many questions! But I can’t find any books on any of them, and no one is answering me seriously, either! Linglong said I could ask Lize Palace disciples, and Minyan said I should ask Sifeng, but how can I when it’s a surprise? And asking a Lize Palace disciple just feels like cheating somehow…”
“Air!” Tengshe gasped out, both hands yanking at her arm.
“Air? Oh!” Xuanji let him go, and then crouched down guiltily as Tengshe dropped to his knees, wheezing. “...Sorry. I got really excited.”
“You horrid woman,” Tengshe wheezed out, pointing a finger right into her face. “Why are you… why are you like this, huh? Are you actually related to Green Dragon?”
“Huh? Of course not! Or at least, I don’t think so? He’s one of the four great beasts of heaven, right?”
Of course she would barely remember the four great beasts of heaven when she managed to defeat all of them in one swing the last time she stormed the heavens. Tengshe tried to jab at her with a finger again, but then gave up as he patted his own chest instead, just glad for the air. Honestly. Both Xuanji and Green Dragon were far too similar in the way they manhandled him.
Seeing her now, expression guileless and head tilted at him, crouched with her arms resting on her knees, Xuanji really seemed clueless.
“Whatever,” Tengshe tried to regain his composure, sniffing and brushing aside a pale strand of hair. “I’ll let you off this time, but don’t do it again! And what question do you have for this honourable one, then? I was in the middle of something, you know!”
“A nap?” Xuanji guessed, and then laughed as he swatted at her half-heartedly. “Okay, okay, I won’t tease. But I do have a question for you.”
“Ask, ask,” Tengshe insisted, twisting his head to look at her, and then grimacing at the strong scent of wildflowers on her. What had she done, rolled in a field of pollen?
Xuanji just brightened, hunching down lower as if sharing a secret, “So your original form is that of a snake, right? Before you gained human form? Like— like Xiao Yinghua, right?”
“This honourable one is a celestial snake!” Tengshe hissed, the indignance stuffing up his throat until he deflated seconds later. He would not be compared to a common garden snake! But… it wouldn’t do to speak ill of the dead, and if nothing else, Xiao Yinghua had been a funny companion in the short duration they had been companions, and she did conspire with him when he needed someone to conspire with…
“Yes, but yao can ascend to become celestial beings the same way humans can,” Xuanji recited, eyes glazing over in thought. “So physically, you guys should be about the same.”
“I am far superior,” Tengshe insisted with an offended sniff. “Vastly more powerful.”
“Okay,” Xuanji allowed easily. “So, like… you lay eggs, right?”
This actually drew Tengshe short, nearly choking him.
“What?” Xuanji asked, arms extended and waving as Tengshe continued to choke. “What! I’m right, aren’t I? Both birds and snakes lay eggs!”
“Xuanji,” Tengshe said once he regained air, and it felt like she just choked him twice in a row even though she hadn’t touched him the second time. His eyes were round with disbelief, even as he pointed to himself. “Me? Does this form look like a female’s to you?”
“No?” She said, although she sounded uncertain in a strange way. “You look very handsome, I’m sure.”
He leaned forward to swat at her head, proud when he landed the hit even if she just frowned at him.
“Men don’t lay eggs, you horrid woman,” he told her.
She raised a hand to rub lightly at the spot he hit, frowning.
“Surely you know that much,” he added weakly. She did, didn’t she?
“I do.” Xuanji’s words were slow and sure, but her brows were furrowed. Her mouth slanted downward in upset for a long moment, and then she tucked her chin into her arms resting atop her knees. “...I guess that makes sense. Yeah. That makes sense.”
Her quiet voice stopped Tengshe’s scathing words, and instead he sat back, uncertain himself in her uncertainty. “You guess?”
“I forget, sometimes,” Xuanji admitted quietly. “Being a man. Being a woman. It mostly feels the same to me. I just feel like me? Maybe I’m lucky that way. But I was one, and now I’m another, and sometimes I forget that everyone else only gets to be one and not the other. Sorry.”
Tengshe squirmed. “You shouldn’t apologise for that.”
They settled in silence for a long moment before Xuanji’s head jerked up and she slapped at her own cheeks, harder than when Tengshe reached to hit her previously.
“Urg!” She gritted out, cheeks bright red with her palm prints, and then asked him, “So, then, you don’t think Sifeng…”
“How would I know?” Tengshe responded. “I’m a snake, not a bird.”
—
“So I’m now relatively certain about one thing.” Xuanji said loudly when she went to visit her sister, bringing along a tray of tea. Linglong was now doing paperwork in bed, having eaten too much earlier and now resting her heavy belly.
“Oh?” Linglong asked, not lifting her gaze up from her brushstrokes, her ink plate precariously close to the edge of the tray above her lap. “And what’s that?”
“I don’t think I’m getting any eggs from Sifeng,” Xuanji said sadly, and then yelled as Linglong knocked over the ink plate onto her bed in her laughter.
—
“You called for me, father?”
Chu Lei raised his head from where he was frowning at his paperwork, and tried to muster his expression into something less severe as he watched his youngest daughter peek at him from around the doorway.
“Xuanji,” he greeted, pushing to smile. He set his brush down carefully, and then waved her in. He always had such trouble connecting with his youngest, at first due to her lack of emotions, and after due to her aptitude for rebellion. Where he was once unnerved by her stares and lack of tears even at her own mother’s funeral, he later wondered if it had been a blessing when he found just how deeply Xuanji felt when her heart was given back to her. “I’ve heard you had quite the time with your sister today.”
“I didn’t do anything,” Xuanji denied immediately. “She knocked the ink plate over herself! I was just bringing her tea.”
“Is that so?” He asked.
“It’s true,” Xuanji said sullenly, pouting. She sat in front of his desk, fingers fiddling with the pink silk of her sleeves. Chu Lei couldn’t remember that dress in particular, which meant it had to be newly bought after her marriage.
Perhaps he was being overly protective of his first grandchild, and Linglong’s health was so delicate the past several years that he couldn’t help but be worried that Xuanji’s wild, happy movements might be an unintended stress for Linglong.
When the two were but girls, it was Linglong who always fussed and pleaded for her younger, weaker sister. Yet now they were all grown up, and Xuanji was wild and carefree while Linglong struggled with her health.
“Ahh.” He breathed out, smile softening into something more genuine. “She did come to me earlier. Something about you wanting to find some books in the library that weren’t there.”
Xuanji slumped her shoulders and looked down, her cheeks puffing out just slightly in a look similar to when she was far younger. Chu Lei remembered each instance of his youngest staring wide-eyed at Linglong for long moments when her sister pouted, and then looking forward again attempting to do the same thing, cute and dejected if not for her sparkling eyes that spoke of both innocence and a deeper cunning edge that alarmed him.
She was all grown up now, but finally that sweet look was genuine.
“I know that…” he hesitated, because this topic always escaped him. His youngest had been angry with him so long because he couldn’t find the right words for her, and he finally learned to navigate carefully.
“Sifeng is a good child,” he said instead, rote because it was a true thing driven home over and over again, and something that could soften the edge of Xuanji’s inevitable ire. The words felt awkward in his mouth, a part of him still seething at association with yao when he spent his many decades learning and teaching that yao were things to be exterminated, and that all cultivators had one duty above all else, and that was to kill evil yao before they could destroy humanity.
But, Chu Lei, had to repeat to himself over and over, the teachings were about evil ones. Even if his association of them evidenced yao as spirits and souls corrupted with hate and brutality (because that’s what they were), they were not… all the same. And surely, with his daughters so closely associated with a jiaoren who served heaven before, with the terrible Wu Zhiqi who was once a great general fighting against heaven but never cared to attack human… with Yu Sifeng who…
Ahh. Chu Lei still had trouble, especially knowing that his son-in-law was a twelve-feathered golden-winged yao, and knowing that someone with those wings murdered his wife while she was running away, protecting her daughter. Xuanji claimed Sifeng found the murderer, and he saw justice done with his own eyes, but…
“He’s a good child,” he repeated, resigned. Saying anything else meant Xuanji would just storm away, and perhaps not visit for years on end. He didn’t want that, especially at his age. It was hard for him to swallow down the protests, the admonitions, the words that would lead to berating his daughter, his daughter with endless potential, on choosing an enemy— their family’s enemy. Yu Sifeng was loyal and true, and disregarding his blood, was the best person he could have hoped for his daughter.
Xuanji was looking at him now, a tentative hope in her eyes.
Chu Lei hoped desperately to not betray that hope now, remembering the half year she spent away, alone, to take care of Yu Sifeng while he was comatose. Rather than rely on her family, she moved them to a town weeks away to care for him, because she was afraid her family would sabotage her and harm him.
“The books you’re searching for are no longer there.” Chu Lei said hesitantly. He stood from his desk carefully, minding his knees, and made his way over to the shelf next to the window, mostly displaying a large bronze work that hid a compartment behind it, where he reached for several scrolls.
Two decades ago, Shaoyang sect organised a hunt for his wife’s murderer, joining with several minor sects to call for the blood of golden-winged yaos until none were seen out in the wild ever again. He thought it was something to be proud of, to know that he had a hand in stopping those murderous monsters. After, he burned all works containing their name, hiding a sense of unease that was building in his heart.
Even if the race survived, if he could rid the world of information on them, then perhaps the young ones wouldn’t ever turn into the blood-thirsty monsters they used to be, if only because they would never learn to their full potential. That too, was a mercy.
There was a faint tremor in his hands as he handed the scrolls over to his youngest, who stared at it with wide-eyed wonder. Chu Lei buried his hands back within his own sleeves the moment the scroll was passed over, fingers inexplicably cold. He couldn’t admit that he spent a sichen after Linglong came to visit him staring blankly at nothing and then inscribing everything he could remember onto those scrolls.
It sickened him that most of his recalled information was how to force a transformation, and to dissect the nearly incorporeal wings before it faded away into flames when the yao died. On weaknesses and places likely to find clusters of them, families and children and all.
Knowing what he knew now, he would never again allow such a thing to happen.
“It’s best to contact Liza Palace if you want anything more,” Chu Lei dismissed, unable to look straight at his daughter’s slowly growing smile. He pivoted sharply away, embarrassed. “And… if they can spare any scrolls… Shaoyang Sect’s library is lacking on a certain topic.”
He heard rather than saw Xuanji’s gasp of happiness, and then arms wrapped tightly around him, the grip strong enough to bruise as his daughter said tearily, “Thank you, father.”
—
“I’m not sure I feel comfortable knowing this,” Linglong said as they stared at the unravelled scrolls. She had a hand under her stomach, and another covering her mouth, jaw tense with worry. She was swaying side to side as if already cradling the baby that was to come, but there was a tension to her posture as she glanced away rapidly when confronted with information on how to extract feathers—
“...Maybe we should ask Brother Liu instead,” Minyan suggested, his voice also affected as Xuanji examined the diagrams and labels on the scroll. He had an arm hovering around the small of Linglong’s back, and was deliberately staring at Xuanji instead of the scroll.
“Maybe we should be telling Sifeng,” Linglong suggested instead. “Where is he? It doesn’t feel right to be reading this, especially without him. I feel like we should at least let him know, or ask him what he thinks…”
“I think it’s amazing!”
“Xuanji,” Minyan exclaimed in horror.
The woman in question had brought the scroll up to her face, nuzzling against it with a bright smile as if she could give it a hug. Her eyes were bright as she beamed up at her sister and brother-in-law.
“Think of it,” Xuanji said, bringing up one finger. “Even the Star of Mosha couldn’t get too close to Sifeng’s wings! If the Star of Mosha couldn’t, then no one can! And,” she brought up another finger, “birds preen, right? They groom their wings, I’ve seen it! I can learn to do it, too! And maybe with this, I can get close enough for long enough to do it.”
“Oh,” Linglong’s posture loosened in relief. “...That’s a very good idea, Xuanji. That’s very sweet.”
Minyan frowned. “No, you were right before. We should tell Sifeng instead. This is about him, and we shouldn’t keep him in the dark anymore.”
Xuanji gave him a watery-eyed look, and then turned to pout at her sister when Minyan didn’t back down. “But it’s meant to be a surprise for him! I want to do something nice!”
With that, both twins turned to give Minyan wide-eyed looks.
Minyan found himself wavering for a second, taken aback by the double attack until he wanted to just agree with them because Linglong was definitely not going to be happy with him later if he upset her sister, but…
“No,” he said firmly. “No surprises like that. What if he doesn’t want it? And then you’ll be upset, and he’ll be upset because of that. Or worse, he accepts but hates it? Xuanji, if you want to do something like that, you’ll need to talk to Sifeng first. Or if you really want it to be a surprise, talk to Brother Liu first. Talk to a golden-winged yao first. Don’t just spring this on him; I won’t—”
Unwillingly, he stared at the scroll in Xuanji’s hands that detailed failed experiments on cutting off their wings and gulped, throat suddenly dry and painful.
“I think your idea is good,” he relented. “But let’s start with something else first, alright? Didn’t you say— flight patterns? Habits?”
His genuine upset cut through Linglong’s frown, and she turned to her sister. “Let’s listen to Minyan, okay, Xuanji? There’s no rush.”
“Just something not as,” he made a wild gesture, uncertain how to convey his meaning, “prone to go wrong? How about flowers? You gave him flowers today, right?”
Xuanji sulked. “...I dropped all the flowers.”
Well, that wasn’t a good start. Minyan tried again, “How about cooking something?”
Xuanji hid her face behind the scroll before saying, “But Sifeng’s cooking is so much better than mine, so he insists on doing it and making my favourite dishes. And he—! He manages money better than I do, and he buys all sorts of things for me. Last time I got a really bad cut on my leg, he went to find herbs and made medicine for me. I ripped my dress, and he sewed it up for me, too. And, and… last time I made a mess, and he just cleaned everything up! I meant to do it, but he finished before I could think to start!”
Her voice was nearly a wail by the end, and even Linglong was taken aback.
Minyan stared blankly at her. “...Is Sifeng your wife or your husband?”
“Husband, wife, who cares?” Xuanji murmured tearfully, hands grasping too tightly on the scroll. “He’s mine, but what can I do for him? The only thing I’m really good at is fighting, but he can fight, too? He’s just good at everything, and he knows everything about me, too. I just love talking to him, so I keep bothering him about everything, and do you know he’s really good at playing music? He does my makeup for me in the mornings, and…
“And what can I do?” Xuanji lowered the scroll, the upset in her voice reflected on her expression even as she tried to untangle her fingers from the scroll before she accidentally destroyed the fragile paper. She was frowning down at the ink without seeing it, flexing her hands to stare down at them.
Chu Xuanji was the reincarnation of the God of War and the Star of Mosha, the greatest enemy and greatest ally of heaven. The one who murdered all the Asura, the last standing Asura, the demon general who stormed the heavens and the war god who protected the heavens. Yet none of that felt as important as kind, loyal Sifeng who always supported her, whose gentle and warm love melted through a thousand years of hatred and agony to redeem a soul the three realms deemed the greatest evil. Where would the world be without her Sifeng? Where would she be?
She brought him so much pain and heartbreak, and she just wanted to make up for it tenfold. A thousand times over, if she could.
Sifeng was right. It was so hard to be human, but she wanted to be that for him so very badly. Or rather, she just wanted to be his. It was a feeling that didn’t disappear with marriage, but rather grew stronger from day to day.
“Oh, Xuanji,” Linglong sighed, and Xuanji felt her sister’s warm hands cover her own. “You make him really happy, you know. Just by being yourself. And I think,” here, she rearranged her sister’s hands so that they were holding onto each other. “He would be happy just for you to spend the day with him. Maybe you can ask him all your questions instead. He’d be happy to answer them.”
Xuanji sniffed, and then swiped across her eyes with a forearm, unwilling to let her sister go. “That’s not a surprise, though. I do that all the time. If I could hold his hand forever and never let go, I’d do it.”
“Then there you go,” Linglong told her, swinging their hands together. Her smile was soft as candlelight, and sweet when Xuanji looked at her. “You make him a very, very happy man.”
—
“Okay,” Xuanji said eventually as her tears dried up and she patted her cheeks in determination. “You’re right. I’m going to do just a little thing to start! But I’m going to need help.”
“Name it,” Minyan said.
“Normally I’d ask Linglong to come with me and you to distract Sifeng for me, but…” Xuanji dragged her sister’s arm to stand where Minyan was standing, and then Minyan’s arm to stand where Linglong had been standing previously, grinning at them with her slightly swollen red eyes.
“Distract Sifeng?” Linglong's smile grew sharp. “I’m sure I can do that.”
—
Yu Sifeng stumbled his way back into his room hours after sunset, having spent the majority of the day assisting Linglong along with Tengshe. He was glad to spend time with his sister-in-law, and helping her with chores was no trouble at all, yet it had been a surprisingly tiring experience. He didn’t understand how she could lose that many items around the estate and surrounding forests, but then again Xuanji had always been so absent-minded, so perhaps it was an inherited trait after all.
Not to mention, he enjoyed listening to her and Tengshe argue over proper baby care, especially since it was obvious that the heavenly snake had no idea what human babies even looked like, much less how to care for them. Still, his insistence on being right was hilarious paired with Linglong’s threats of wrapping him on a stick and throwing him into the mud.
He only ran into Chu Lei once while he and Tengshe were carting around an old crib, and the old sect leader merely mumbled about how they were both ‘good boys’ for helping around the house before going back the way he came.
Twice, Sifeng had been besieged by the younger disciples who wanted him to help with their training, even though he didn’t know Shaoyang forms and wasn’t sure if what he learned from Lize Palace would be compatible with their ways of cultivation.
Twice more, Linglong begged him to make a delicacy for her cravings that the cooks at Shaoyang didn’t know, and Sifeng found himself glad to oblige. After all, it was good practice in case—
He wondered what Xuanji and Minyan were up to, especially since he was sure that Minyan wouldn’t normally leave Linglong alone for this long, and Xuanji tended to appear at his shoulder every few minutes on a normal day. As glad as he was to spend time with Linglong, especially in recent times when she was normally swarmed with people, Sifeng found that he missed Xuanji.
“Surprise!” Slim arms hooked underneath his own to reach up and cover his eyes mischievously, a warm body hugging him from behind. “Guess who it is!”
He would have been able to tell just by her presence, or her voice, or the calluses on her fingers, or the scent of her perfume, or a thousand different things, but Sifeng played along and gave a thoughtful hum.
“Is it… the maid who cleaned our room?” He asked, not moving from underneath her fingers, and smiling as she pressed against his eyes and squawked in protest. “I’m sorry, but I’m afraid I’ll have to ask you to stand a little further away. I’m married, and my wife would be terribly angry if she found us like this. She might misunderstand, you see.”
“I’m not the maid!” Xuanji protested indignantly.
“Oh, are you not? The cook, then? I wouldn’t know why she would be here, though…”
“Not her either!”
“Are you sure?” Sifeng asked. “Really, really sure?”
Xuanji was giggling by now, pressing her laughter against the back of his neck and rubbing her cheeks against his collar before biting teasingly where his neck met shoulder. “How’s this for a clue, then?”
“Oh, you must be the dog I saw yesterday. Congratulations on cultivating your human form, but I must insist once more on the distance, since my wife—”
Xuanji laughed, loud and unrestrained, and then jumped up to hook her legs around his hips, allowing for Sifeng to slip his hands under her thighs to hold her up, steady in his movement even with her hands still pressed against his eyes.
“Madam,” he teased. “This is most inappropriate.”
“You’re right,” Xuanji giggled out, “I didn’t think this through at all, your arms are— keep your eyes closed, okay!” He did as she asked, and Xuanji slipped her arms out from underneath his so that she wasn’t slouched over his back while he carried her, and then wrapped her arms around his shoulders, squeezing tightly just once as she pressed a kiss against the side of his neck, and then her hands were gently covering his eyes again.
“Sifeng,” she breathed against the shell of his ear, and he could feel the upward curve of her lips. “I’ve missed you.”
“I’ve missed you too, puppy,” he couldn’t help the grin as Xuanji nipped at his ear in protest, and then bounced her higher up on his back for a more solid grip, walking further into the room even with her hands still covering his eyes. “Should I ask what you’ve been up to today?”
“You should always ask,” she confirmed, and then said, “no, no, stop right here. Turn left. No, not that much! Go back a bit. Yeah, that’s good enough. I’ll show you what I’ve been up to.”
With that, she uncovered his eyes and leaned forward with her arms wrapped around his shoulders, nosing against his hair before pressing her cheek against his with a smile. “Surprise.”
Their room was lit softly with candlelight, strategically placed to catch the glimmer of shining quartz netted at various heights from the ceiling, creating a prism of light as the firelight flickered. Their bed was piled high with thick blankets and soft pillows, most edged with tassels and gold or silver embroidery. Even the curtains framing the bed were replaced with ones embroidered thickly with silver thread, catching the shine of the light. There were soft furs and quilts at the edge.
Added together, it was both too much but also suffused with a warm, ethereal shine.
Sifeng blinked. “Did I… miss an important date?”
Was it an anniversary he forgot?
“No,” Xuanji’s voice was warm with fondness next to his ear, and he could feel her grin as she tilted her head to kiss his cheek with a wet smack. “Today’s not special, I just felt like doing something for you!”
“Thank you,” Sifeng said automatically, but still felt a bit confused. “And this is…?”
At that question, Xuanji’s tone brightened and she kicked her legs excitedly within his grip. “I built you a nest! Is it good? Is it pretty? I know it’s not much yet, but I’ll keep adding to it! It’s just the start, but when we get home again…” She gave a happy sigh, and rubbed her cheek against his. “All the furs there will be from my hunts, alright? I’ll sew the pillows and blankets, and I’ll make it even more beautiful than what we have here. Sifeng, I’m going to build the most beautiful, most wonderful nest for you. So every time you go to sleep, and every time you wake up, you’ll be surrounded by all my love for you.”
The reflection of prism light through quartz bounced around the walls, and Sifeng found himself following the beams of colour with a dry throat.The shine of silver and gold thread was almost overwhelming. With the light and the warmth of the room, along with the press of Xuanji’s body along his back, he felt the exhaustion of the day transform into something else altogether. He wasn’t sure what it was, but there was a wonderful comfort in the room Xuanji created, one that settled him in a manner he couldn’t understand.
“Xuanji,” he breathed out, tone unexpectedly shaky and wet even as he turned his head to give her a soft smile, meeting her dark eyes. “I already go to sleep surrounded by your love, and I wake up basking in it. So long as you’re with me, so long as you’re the last thing I see before I close my eyes and the first thing I see when I wake, how could I not feel that way already? I don’t need anything else, so long as I have you.”
She leaned her temple against his, and her excited smile warmed him inside, “You’ll always have me. From this life to forever. I’m never going to let you go, not this life and not the next or the next. But for this lifetime… this time just my love isn’t enough. I want everything good for you, Sifeng. And one day you’ll see just how lucky I am, to have you to myself.”
His eyes felt hot, but his chest was warm. “I already know, because that’s how lucky I am to have you.”
Those words made Xuanji grin, and she tapped his shoulder for him to let her down, swerving quickly so that she could hug him from the front, tilting her head up to smile goofily at him.
“Sifeng,” she said, revelling in the rumble of response from his chest, “you have to make sure no one else can sneak up on you the way I just did, okay? No maid, no cook, no dog yao. Just like you said to me before— if a man tries that on you, you have to hit them!”
His laughter was soft and so close that she could feel the sounds wash right over her.
“And what if it’s a woman?” He teased in a low voice.
“Hmm,” Xuanji pretended to think, but then responded quickly, “you have to hit them, too! If they try to… to hug you, or give you gifts, or kiss you, or…”
“So I respond in kind?”
“No!” She huffed at him, and pulled back an arm from where she wrapped it around his back, forming a fist to wave in front of him. “Hit them! You married me.”
Sifeng leaned down to kiss her, overcome by the happiness bursting within his chest.
—
The next day Linglong once again found Xuanji in the library far too early in the morning, in her nightgown and frantically looking through various books, making a mess of the place that servants only managed to clean up last night.
She didn’t manage to voice her concern before Xuanji raised her head and zeroed in on her, nearly leaping over her books to cover the distance between them in a handful of steps, grabbing onto Linglong’s hands urgently.
“Linglong, Linglong,” Xuanji breathed out, hair a mess of wisps and tangles, eyes feverishly bright, “I have the best idea. The greatest. But there aren’t any books in the library I can use, and I need your help!”
Before Linglong could offer her help, Xuanji continued, “I need Sifeng to give me an egg, I need to figure out how I’m getting an egg from him! Tengshe says he doesn’t know anything, but—”
Linglong looked heavenward, pleading to the gods to give her patience, and then decided that there were just some things she couldn’t help her cute little sister with. “...No.”
No, she wasn’t going to be part of this anymore. She was far too pregnant and far too hungry to be compassionate toward Xuanji’s harebrained ideas. Not at this hour of the morning.
This time around, she shook off Xuanji’s grip and walked right out of the library, closing the door on her twin sister.
Let someone else deal with this for today.
#Love and Redemption#NaNoWriMo#Yu Sifeng#Chu Xuanji#AS THIS IS NANO IT'S UNEDITED AND WILL REMAIN SO UNTIL DECEMBER AT BEST#I had a lot of fun writing this tho so it will eventually end up on AO3#thank GOD this fic put my wordcount to where it needs to be#it's 4am tho so I am dropping off the program that is life until whenever I wake up again#FUN FACT because this was so silly and romantic and I always have people in the same room while I'm writing#I wrote this with the words two shades off from the background so that I can barely see what I'm writing#and everyone else DEFINITELY couldn't see what I was writing
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WIP word game
Tagged by @wodkapudding - thank you! This looks fun and it's uuuh certainly welcome for procrastinating
Rules: you will be given a word. share one sentence/excerpt from your wip(s) that start with each letter of that word. The word is GHOST (we're already getting into the halloween spirit, I see xD)
G - „Geh tiefer runter“, befahl Cottas kompromisslose Stimme. „Tiefer. Und jetzt halten.“ (Peter/Cotta AU pwp, wird vielleicht heute noch fertig - Titel: "you make it hard to hesitate")
H - "Höre ich da eine gewisse Eifersucht in deinem Ton?", neckte Victor ihn. Genoss den Anblick, wie eine ganz sachte Röte Justus' Wangen hinauf kroch. Jetzt war er in der Defensive. "Ich habe dir damals angeboten, an meiner Seite zu arbeiten, aber du wolltest davon ja nichts hören." (Justus/Victor(ish) aus Victors Sicht, weil ich das unbedingt mal ausprobieren wollte)
O - Orkanartig wirbelte der Rausch durch seinen Körper, sein Grollen ging irgendwo gegen Henrys Nacken verloren. Nur einen winzigen Augenblick später sackte Henry in sich zusammen, suchte Halt an der Werkbank. (genau genommen ist das geschummelt, weils kein WIP mehr ist. Aber pscht. Das ist aus der versprochenen Henry/Bill fic - Titel: "Sturmwind" - die ich vermutlich nachher noch hochlade)
S - Seine Gedanken jagten sich im Kreis, ohne irgendeinen Erfolg, außer, dass er Kopfschmerzen bekam und unleidlich wurde. (eine Cotta/Goodween Pining Sache, die noch in den allerfrühesten Anfängen ist)
T - "Tja", machte er, weil ihm nichts besseres einfiel. Und dann: "Das letzte, was ich über Sie gehört habe, ist, dass Sie von den Toten auferstanden sind." (Cotta/Victor, ursprünglich inspriert von ASPs "Demon Love", inzwischen mit deutlichen Einflüssen von Bessons "Venice Beach")
Tagging: @crazy-walls, @pointwhitmark, @keravnous, @alintheshitposter & @auxiliarydetective, if you want!
Word: ORCHID
#if you saw the first post no you didn't#took me longer than expected to find something with t tbh#eigentlich hatte ich aus dem demon love thing was schöneres wo bessons einfluss besser sichtbar war#aber ich hab sonst literally nichts mit t gefunden in irgendetwas das ich in den letzten vier wochen oder so angefasst habe#gonna go answer some comments now und dann geht 'sturmwind' durch die letzte editing round i think#50 points for everyone who can figure out where the title comes from ;)#i was tagged#thanks again! this really was a lot of fun!#my writing#why 'orchid'? because 'leaf' was too boring and the first thing i see when i look up is the orchid my brother unfortunately killed#(the other two are thriving! the third one sadly had rotted roots. not my business tho plants are his thing. i've managed to kill ivy.)#an sich wäre im deutschen ein c als (ab)satzbeginn mean aber ich gehe davon aus dass 'cotta' irgendwo auftauchen könnte xD
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kindergala? more like: lou singlehandedly revives the kindergarten tumblr rp community part 2 electric boogaloo /lh /silly
#🖋️ ––– ・゚★。・:*:・゚☆ 001. Misc.#actually maybe this is the 3rd time if u count the months of hiatus we had before getting back to it with new blogs and then stopping again#∠( ツ 」∠)_ idk why ppl keep indulging my rp brainrot like this sometimes but tysm for keeping the streak going :'D#also genuinely tho thank you everyone for being so excited for the kindergala and making this so much more fun than it would've been alone#like!!! the energy and response to this event so far has been outstanding!!!!!! and i am so grateful fr!! :'''3#i love the designs everyone's been making. i love the plans for interactions. i love the art and writing. i love the designs from ppl who#aren't participating but want to design something fun and cool anyway!!! (ps that is 100% valid and completely in line with the spirit of#kindergala!! this is a creativity exercise event as well for sure!!!!)#i know that it would still be fun even if it was just me and very few of my friends. but it's gotten a lot bigger than i thought it would#and i am so so happy abt that and happy that you are all enjoying yourselves and interacting with each other within the community like this#there are some shy ppl i've noticed! but it really seems like ppl are less shy about interacting than the 1st time around!!#and if you are shy: pls remember plenty of other people are too. but they joined this event to interact with other kg fans just like you#and it would probably make them happy if you reached out!! just like you'd probably be happy to have someone reach out to you too#and if you're scared about not knowing who to interact with. my inbox and dms are always open. i give you express permission to interact :D#i'm over on my displacedbias blog!! :3#also if anyone is feeling negative about this or like things need some improvement during the event-- feel free to talk to me abt feedback!#or if you just need to talk to someone in general. very much not a therapist but i will help to the best of my ability :')
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