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so right now a whole ass chunk of chile is burning down and it is really Fucking Bad. it hit and spreaded so fast im like. 90%!!!!! of the jardín botánico de viña del mar burned down in one night. four in ground workers died. i am absolutely heartbroken for them and the treasure in biodiversity gone. and thats just 4 out of +100? lives lost in this chaos, that is still ongoing.
because of this, i will be splitting my patreon income evenly between care for gaza and techo chile, for the foreseable future. donate if can you can! it would really make a difference
#i have lots of family members that live there but they are mostly ok thank god#but make no mistake. entire neighborhoods burned down#la quinta región looks like it was bombed. comparisons to 27f are being made#anyway!! i am about to withdrawn the monis i am a ball of anxiety etc
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I Did It
Ok, this is amazing I recently passed the Tumblr shoelace ritual. Long story short, I was at a market day in my school and saw some stickers. Gandalf's big naturals. Even as someone who doesn't really spend that much time in the LoTR/Hobbit area of Tumblr, I knew about That. I couldn't help myself, it was right There. Probably far to giddily holding that Gandalf sticker (with wasn't just a normal old big naturals, mind you. That wizard was in a laced bra, usually enough to turn me redder than a tomato)
"Which one of you designed this?" I asked on of the two people at the stall (ps everyone was selling their own sruff, so I wasn't afraid in the slightest that the creator of this wouldn't be there.)
"She did," the one I talked to responded. Oh my heart was pounding. All social awkwardness completely evaporated in the face of THE most Tumblr Thing I could do.
"I like your shoelaces." Gosh, I wish I could have talked to literally anyone with half the confidence that I had in that moment. I'm pretty sure I saw just a tiny bit of life drain from their eyes. I'm so sorry but c'mon. Gandalf Big Natruals stickers. Did you really think you could avoid this?
"Thanks. I stole them from the president." I WILL RIDE THAT HIGH FOR THE NEXT MONTH, AT LEAST.
ps. If anyone finds my new buddy (I know it's unlikely but gotta give it a shot.) Just want to let you know that their art is amazing and you should definately by something from them if they take commissions.
#artists on tumblr#tumblr milestone#support small creators#i like your shoelaces#tumblr shoelaces#tumblr culture#tumblr things#this sure is a webbed site#thank you tumblr#for momentarily shooting my social anxiety point blank#it was great
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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)
#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright#here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really#im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting#the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one#like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans#and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall#it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf#i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear#also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb#sth#sonic fanart#sonic#amy rose#nov.aart#nov.junk
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Losing my mind at seeing Twitter Discourse where a girl talks about being a waitress and how sometimes people don't acknowledge her or reply to her at all when she speaks to them and how it feels dehumanising and all the people in the replies are like UM. SOME OF US HAVE /SOCIAL ANXIETY/ You're literally an evil person for wishing people would treat you with bare minimum decency :/ like idk how to tell you this but if a waitress asks how your evening is while she's taking you to your seat in a restaurant and you're gonna pretend saying "Fine, thank you" is a horrific arduous task like. Maybe you're just a massive cunt? Maybe you're just an insufferable fuckwit?
#i loveeeeee when people use social anxiety as an excuse to be rude like lmao#i get anxious sometimes and i can be awkward as fuck#but a two word 'Good. Thanks.' really is not that fucking difficult good god#especially since she stated theres been times when multiple customers will totally ignore any greeting and bark orders at her like.#youre just rude bro thats all that is
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i got my isbn today for the book. 8 months to go. my mom and i were talking about what the next steps are. i was eating trail mix, standing on one foot, phone tucked into my ear.
"yeah," i said. "the problem is that tumblr as a market is like, not something that can be studied." there's this weird wave of nostalgia and affection for this place that came up over me: how lovely we avoid consumerism. okay, it sucks as a creator. but also? keep stickin' it to 'em.
my mother made the sound at the back of her throat that i also make, the one that means i've got an idea. "you should figure out some kind of reward for presale amounts. maybe you give out poems or a mug or a signed book or something. would your followers like that?" my mother is sweet, and kind, and i have no idea how to explain on this website you can buy someone crabs.
i put more m&ms down the hatch. i had to speak through peanuts and almonds. "if it passes 25 thousand i will print the book out in its entirety and eat it live on camera."
"oh god. no, you don't have to do that." she was anguished. "just tell them that you'd love them to read it, and that they've inspired you to write. you got started on that site, and they helped you keep going. raquel, you love these people. the community? you talk all the time about the other writers and artists and whatever else. tell them that you're hoping for their support, they'll come through."
"no," i assured her. i discovered i had dropped an m&m, but an ant had already found it, so it belonged to him now. i will let his little life have a surprise blue treasure in it, too. "i'm gonna fuckin' eat the book."
#writeblr#:)#the small secret love i have for y'all. the way i am filled with gratitude.#for the nosebleed club. for stephen particularly.#for every artist i've ever been in contact with and collaborated with.#for every person who has commented on my work and passed it along or fallen in love with it#for every silent 'just hitting like' follower and for every person who sends me dms and for each of you#i know i suck at replying bc i have anxiety. but like. you keep being here. so i keep writing.#i legit wouldn't be here without you.#thank you sophie thank you katie thank you carolyn thank you stephanie thank you jess#thank you if you're reading this#i got too overwhelmed with love and have to stop writing this FAR too early into the thank yous bc im about to cry with love
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lately i've been drinking orange juice and eating fruit and going outside in the sun and coincidentally 10-20% of my depression has vanished. must be witchcraft
#ramble#thank you to everyone who eased my smoothie anxiety#idk how i didn't realise it was bs sooner it makes NO sense#yes doing all the Health Things like getting nutrients and drinking water doesn't fix the way my adhd brain is wired#it does help though
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Step Forward - Part 3 They are going on a date!!! Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 Check out my tags for fun facts XD
Kofi
#perryshmirtz#heinz doofenshmirtz#human perry#phineas and ferb#perry the platypus#human!perry#human perry the platypus#agent p#fanart#dr doofenshmirtz#dr heinz doofenshmirtz#pnf fanart#pnf fan comic#disney fanart#disney series#fan comic#comic#artists on tumblr#prtz long comic#So sorry I took so loong#step forward#I struggled with composition and well anxiety lmao so thank you for your patience#Perry does talk in this story#He starts talking when he calls Heinz's name and asks him out#If you dont like talking Perry you can pretend that he signs all the time#selective mutism#The book/notebook doesnt hit Heinz's foot#I kinnda wanted it to happen but I didnt want to make it longer than it was#just imagine him being all shocked and then his book hits his foot and starts screaming while Perry patiently waits for his response#I have some of the script for the next chapters already
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What I mean by this is. I am neuroatypical in the So Hyper-Attuned To Shifts In Tone/Body Language That I Can Pick Up The Tiniest Social Vibe Shift With Terrifying Accuracy (Also My Brain Is Full Of Evil Ferrets That Insist The Tiniest Hint Of Displeasure Is Both My Fault And My Problem, And Attempt To Pull The Physiological Fire Alarms About It Even When I Am Objectively Aware This Is A Huge Overreaction) way. Feels a bit baffling to conclude that I am neuroatypical in the way that famously includes difficulties with reading tone/body language/indirect communication or social cues
Love and light to all autistic folks, I am not knocking it, but BOTH my parents separately suggesting that I might be autistic when my actual Issues TM are precisely the opposite of those Issues TM is really indicative of some things.
#people my entire life since I was tiny: wow you are spookily perceptive/observant/intuitive/good at reading people#thanks! it���s the anxiety!#anyway add this to the list of moments when i unkindly think (1) wow mom & dad u were made for each other and (2) wow i see why u divorced#SIMULTANEOUSLY#(the reason i am so bent out of shape is that what they both MEAN by this is ‘you are smart TM and mildly nonconformist#in a way that we find annoying and would like to pathologize’)#as opposed to the actual Brain Troubles which arguably have at least something to do with shit parenting#even tho i’m personally not that interested in legislating what or how much!#truly they are such different people except when they are exactly alike in the worst ways#anyway sorry i’m unduly annoyed about this#my posts
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#i finally got to see it#thank you disney+#this part had me dead#inside out 2#cackling#peak comedy#nostalgia literally at her finest#lmao#anxiety#mood#relatable#movie#movies#filmedit#filmedits
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Things Battinson Totally Did During His First Year of University
Using Unhinged or Odd Things I Also Did as a College Freshman :D
Note: for this list, let’s believe Bruce was living in an (admittedly expensive and swanky) dorm because it is required for first-years, especially those entering at a young age, and Alfred told him he needed to make friends. Also yes I did every single thing on this list. I never claimed to be a role model
Bruce, to his TA: I’m so sorry I’m late to class. I gave blood a few hours ago and almost fainted on the way here, but it won’t happen again.
Signs up for a class called “Age of Dinosaurs” despite it not being required whatsoever and proceeds to work his entire schedule around it
Bruce: Your mental health is super important. If you think you should see the on-campus therapist, go see them. Friend: Fine. I’ll sign up for therapy if you sign up for therapy too. Bruce: Hold on-
Finds a loophole in his housing contract that allows him to get a pet frog, calls him kermit :)
Gets a second frog because Kermit was lonely, names it Constantine after Muppets Most Wanted, then realizes that they’re gay for each other. Wonders if the rainbow-colored rocks he got them triggered anything
Swings dramatically between calling Alfred every single day and ghosting him for weeks, cries when he realizes what he did
“Accidentally” joins the student body council, doesn’t know what he’s doing, gets re-elected anyway
Molds a dragon out of Laffy Taffy instead of doing his work
Bruce: *joins Honors, gets all A’s, takes the max amount of classes, has several minors, overachieves* Also Bruce: I’m a failure.
Breaks into a building after hours to study because NO ONE KNOWS HOW TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AT THE LIBRARY
Bruce: I will not get seasonal depression this year. Bruce: *gets real and seasonal depression that year*
Meticulously schedules his day with a color-coded planner because if he sits down for too long, the thoughts will consume him
Gives a presentation to his rhetoric class on how much he likes Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse (it is 20 minutes long)
Successfully allocates funding from the student body council to pay for free feminine products in the dorms OUT OF SPITE because someone said it couldn't be done. fuck you, Andrew
Bruce: It is not an all-nighter if I go to sleep before my first class. Friend: It is 7:30am, the sun is in the sky, and your first class is at 12:30. Bruce: But I am getting sleep.
Refuses to go anywhere without his backpack because what if he needs three notebooks at once
Loses over 20 pounds because ✨stress✨ and scares the shit out of Alfred when he comes home for Thanksgiving
Argues with his TA over the one (1) question he got wrong on his Dinosaur exam
Bruce, calling Alfred: Hello father figure. How do I do taxes? Do I have to do them myself? Also, I think I’m having a panic attack.
Joins in on a charity arts-and-crafts project that gives kids books with matching activities made by volunteers, proceeds to commandeer the project because “it’s not color-blind friendly” and rewrites the instructions for everyone
Makes a murder wall
Goes to one (1) sports game and proceeds to leave in the first ten minutes because it’s way too loud wtf is wrong with people
Professor, addressing the lecture hall: I dare you to write an essay about these two sentences. Bruce: *writes an essay about six words, gets a 100, never even read the book*
Crawls into the ceiling for some alone time
Ghosts someone after a date because he’s too scared to tell them he didn’t know it was a date in the first place and now he feels bad
Classmate: How tf does he walk across campus that fast? I go in the same direction he does on my bike, and he’s always ahead of me. Bruce: *is gay sprinting to Dinosaur class*
Refuses to let others use his Favorite Pen TM
Constantly gets mistaken for a Grad Student because he is “so wise and mature” (bestie, that’s the autism)
Alfred: *casually mentions he got into a car accident through text* Bruce: *replies with a meme while hyperventilating because he doesn’t know what to do with that information??!*
Wears a suit to one of his finals
Regularly eats non-organic food for the first time in his life, proceeds to learn about several allergies Alfred forgot to mention he has
Writes “What is a Hot Pocket?” in calligraphy and proceeds to laugh his ass off alone in his dorm because he is so exhausted he’s reached the point of delusion
Locks himself out of his dorm right before class, frantically asks the floor group chat if someone can help, proceeds to tell the nice gay man on the floor who saved him “I love you” because his social skills have hit rock bottom
Makes a little music album display next to his desk for his favorite band (Nirvana) His friends call it a shrine, and they are technically correct
Has a blacklist of people he refuses to interact with because Reasons
Counselor: What do you want to do when you graduate? Bruce: *gestures vaguely*
Refuses to take the bus because there are people in there and he doesn’t like those
Loses one of his frogs, how tf did he do that, they’re fully aquatic, oh fuck, this is probably why they got rid of that loophole a year later because unbeknownst to Bruce, he accidentally started a frog revolution in the dorms, btw he SWEARS he did not mean to do that
Has two trash cans in his room: one for the Good Garbage, and one for the Bad Garbage. Only Bruce knows which is which
Bruce: *writes a creative piece about a ship’s final thoughts as it sinks, bringing its passengers down with it* TA: Absolutely lovely, Bruce, but are you okay?
Goes on Night Walks, keeps himself safe by maintaining a level 12 resting bitch face at all times
Earns the nickname “8th floor cryptid” after pacing the halls at 3am when it’s too cold for Night Walks (honestly tho how tf didn’t he get the nickname earlier?)
Bruce: Do you think a depressed person could do this? Bruce: *has a manic episode*
Okay that's all love you BYE
#cryptid Bruce Wayne#college au#does this count if op is the au#fully nocturnal unhinged madman Bruce but make him like 17 and full of crippling separation anxiety and autism#bruce would rather die than inconvenience a professor but hE KNOWS HIS DINOSAURS#Dino class was my fav one in uni hands down#yes i am insane thank you for asking#originally this was just going to be a normal list but I kept taking from my own experience then said “fuck it I'm the captain now”#one of these was a lie tho...the murder wall was third year :/#battinson#bruce wayne#batman#the batman 2022#batman 2022#the batman#battinson needs a hug#dc universe#gotham#autistic bruce wayne
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thinking about how Nicole said Oscar doesn’t show it on his face or in his voice even when his heart rate goes crazy with anxiety/fear and how Oscar saw Lando go off in Vegas but remained calm when asked about it (also his race engineer didn’t tell him any more until after Oscar’s post race interviews) but then spent at least part of the night with Lando and then spent the whole of the night into early morning liking and replying and RTing content about Lando’s crash and Lando being okay and like the manifestation of his fear being held at bay to do his job until he could let go and actually touch base with Lando and process the crash properly <3
#inchidentallyanessay#landoscar#that night#we were all like buddy !! he’s okay !!#the little orange heart and the thanks for the lift Lando and just him anxiety scrolling
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me when phantom shift(I’m also incapable of sitting normally apparently)
#✧star drawz#✧feral things#alterhuman#therian#caninekin#dog therian#wolfdog therian#wolf therian#wolfkin#the social anxiety of posting just started to kick in I’m going to go cry#I make an audible noise of happiness every time this gets a note btw. thank you.#moment of silence for my poor dad who keeps having to hear about how excited I am about how many notes this got
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Everything that promotes LGBT will now be banned: a rainbow without a light blue stripe, all kinds of themed patches, badges on clothes, as well as parades, processions, rallies and themed parties.
For that - up to 12 years in prison.
Hi! What! Literal murder can get you 2 to 8 years in prison. Killing a man gives you less years! Hello! Can anybody fucking hear me!
Updating this post because. WELL. If anyone, ANYONE supports LGBTQIA in here. Even if they're the straightest people ever. THEY FALL UNDER THE SAME CATEGORY. LGBTQIA ALLIES ARE CONSIDERED EXTREMISTS TOO.
Moreover, everyone could get in trouble - even if the person isn't an activist or part of LGBTQ, but speaks out that LGBTQ people must have equal rights with everyone else.
You can get in trouble for a LGBTQ-symbolic repost from 10 years ago - if the policemen can capture it after Supreme Court's decision will take effect.
And another update: this "law" will only be valid after January 10, 2024
The court decision will come into force on January 10 of the following year - unless an appeal is filed.
#lgbtq#lgbtqia#russia#bloblopost#HELLO?????#I'll delete this later because it's not that. fucked up. if you consider that these very people decided that they needed#to wreak havoc on Ukraine#but rn the feelings of anxiety are almost on the same level as they were in the beginning of the war#upd. I'm not deleting the post but I made so many translating mistakes that it's embarrassing#Anyway. thank you to fellas who corrected me.
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I think Nightow should give Sonic a pistol.
#thanks kekkai sensen discord group for this shitpost inspiration i was gonna vegetate in my anxiety instead#kekkai sensen#blood blockade battlefront#kkss#bbb#hellboy#redraw#doodle#klaus von reinherz#zed o'brien
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happy birthday cross !! it's always a delight to see your genuine smile, and i mean it when i say it's an absolute treasure to me !!
(meme src)
#10/10#cross!sans#self insert#mblue art#CM#i'm thankful i get to witness you smile like that !!#i hope you get to experience more things to smile and be happy for !!#you deserve cozy rest days with warm mugs of hot choco and delicious tacos- regular or those dessert ones w icecream in em#(i'd like to believe i always give him the same chocolate mousse cake i got for my birthday that one time <333)#(RRRAAAAH ILY POOKIEBEAR !! /insert letsgo meme/)#(syeth idc idc!! im supposed to be unapologetically simping and selfshipping on MY blog bro)#(screw anxiety i'm blocking whoever's being weird on ANY of my posts bruh)#(i'll be the sappiest mf on these posts abt my faves im already this 🤏 close to screaming abt lust being my wife on xtwt. ANYWAY)#(i may be losing the idgaf war erryday but i am WINNING when it comes to selfshipping with my fictional faves. to be cringe is to be free.)
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some WIPs from the 80s AU i never finished
#so… hi#i think…. i might start making some stuff here soon#i’ve been gone a lot longer than i intended to be#& i feel a lil bad about it bc i really miss my boys & bein here & all that but#idk it’s just been a rough month#but i’m starting to get the itch to create again#i have a very silly idea for the mbz AU#i also just really want to draw some stuff#i miss making things. i’m going nuts. i’ve hardly done anything fun in WEEKS#i’ve sort of started working on some new OCs but ngl#doing anything that doesn’t involve dhes or kel genuinely feels like i’m betraying them#but i have a concept that i really want to explore so that’s what i’m trying to do#i have been working on a few AUs here & there too but#but mostly nothing fun#i need to do something fun while i still can bc i’m starting at uni next month#& i just know i’m gonna have shit for free time then#i’m taking all in person classes which makes me very nervous#i’m trying to be excited about it but mostly it’s just causing me anxiety lol#but anyway. um. yea. hopefully i’ll catch up on everything & reply to the tags/asks i’ve gotten since i’ve been gone#if i reply to something you said/sent to me a month ago… pls just act like that’s not weird. thanks.#rainyrambles
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