#terrified but Calm

[ruptured-love]

I am so unbelievably tired but at the same time I've never felt so much comfort and acceptance yknow like this sucks so much but its also fine

[spicyraeman]

🥺🥺🥺

[colfy-wolfy]

hello again murder drones tumblr

we love trans robots amiright

estrogen saved her life !!

imma attempt to post more MD art (and possibly other fandom art) on my main cuz I tried making a sideblog to post non-rain world art on but tags are flipping broken so.. hooray

srry bout the kinda post spamming recently to my followers btw

[fatedroses]

Two former military elites taking merc jobs perform absolutely hellish battle tactics together.

[ineed-to-sleep]

*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it

[luna-lovegreat]

Fun fact: If you listen to classical Zelda music while you sleep, it is possible to have vivid nightmares of the gloom hands

[immediatebreakfast]

9 days of not writing a single line makes me think... The last big gap was when he wrote "I know now the span of my life."

Now it's after writing that he no longer has paper, money, identity or clothes. He stops writing about anything when faced with hopelessness.

It's like when he had a panic attack with the locked doors and said he was too crushed to speak of the beauty of nature outside like he wants to. The bigger the despair, the fewer the words.

It's surprising every time, even when you read it a second time, how the horror in Dracula doesn't come from the monsters, or the vampires, or the supernatural; the horror in Dracula comes from the mundane.

Subtle threats on the person, violation of boundaries, abusive behavior, restraining of freedom, loss of privacy, every single thing that happens to Jonathan could still have happened if the Count was a regular human.

And Jonathan feels so much, sometimes his emotions seem to be too intense for his mind. Jonathan wrote before even if he knew it was pointless because he had to document what happened, for the sanity of his own mind, and for whoever could be the next victim after him.

Then Jonathan knows the span of his own life, and not a single letter is put on paper.

After that Jonathan's entries change, they are methodical, straight to the point, still as detailed as before, but the details are now different. Gone are the descriptions of landscapes, food, and Dracula's rambles, and now every single line is dedicated to document every single thing that happened.

Now Jonathan has nothing, only his travel journal, with all of the remaining unused pages staring at him back.

And the now familiar hopelessness comes back stronger.

That horrible feeling of despair ate Jonathan's hope, how can he trust himself to write, to waste pages on his feelings when there are still many things to document.

[artificial-absinthe]

Waspinator emerges from the tunnels.

Commission for @emperor-kumquat!

Scene from TFP Mercy| Discovery Storyline| Playable Story Game w Tarn Final Boss

[daily-hanamura]

[cerise-on-top]

Hii you know how you wrote about reader getting hurt because of their job please could you write that with graves or nikolai x

Hey! Sure I can!

Graves’ and Nikolai’s S/O Gets Hurt Because of Their job

Graves: On the outside he may seem calm and collected, but on the inside he’d be seething with rage. However, he won’t show you how angry he actually is, keeping it all to himself instead. He needs to be the big, strong man in your relationship, so he needs to keep his cool in front of you, no matter what. I don’t think he’d be too surprised you’d have gotten hurt, though. While he may have hoped it would never happen, that was just wishful thinking. You’ll either be on Shadow Company’s medbay or in the best hospital he can find nearby. Either way, you’ll be well taken care of. If you’re at Shadow Company, then he’ll station some of his most competent and trusted people to take care of you for the time being. You will be protected by them, and you will get whatever it is you may need from them as well. Or anything you may want, really. No cost is too high for Graves while you’re in recovery. While he may try to make time for you as well, he really does, he will also have someone track down whoever hurt you. This person will then be abducted to Shadow Company for a rough time. Graves himself would take care of them, and he can be pretty effective when he wants to be. However, if you’ve recovered by then, and are among the more vengeful people, then you’re more than welcome to do as you please with the bastard yourself, Graves has no qualms about that. In fact, he’d welcome you doing what you need to do. An eye for an eye. I think he’d become a bit more protective of you afterwards. If you’re okay with it, then he’ll leave you in the hands of some of his Shadows since he can’t always be there for you. If it was up to him, he’d combine you with his work and have you just live on base with him so he could always keep an eye on you, but you likely wouldn’t agree to that. It may seem a bit overbearing, but he will reach out to you more often and does expect you to respond within a few hours, or else he’ll get worried and send someone to check up on you, even if you’re alright.

Nikolai: While Graves may be furious, Nikolai is entirely calm about all of this. Yes, you got hurt, but seeing him panic would likely only worsen the state you’re in. He is well aware of the fact that you will pull through, he made sure of that himself. However, he won’t do anything drastic until you’ve recovered completely. That way your perpetrator has enough time to kill themself before he has to take action. Naturally, you mean the world to him, so any violence against you will not be excused. Nikolai runs a PMC, so he knows what he’s doing, he knows how to deal with violence. Violence for violence is the rule of the beasts and Nikolai’s cruelty is akin to that of a starved animal. However, that can wait until you’re alright again. He’ll visit you every day, even stay at the hospital, and bring you gifts, tell you stories and keep you company otherwise. But he won’t mention the plans he has for the sorry fuck who hurt you, those are for him to know and for you to never find out. Once you’re home again, going about your day, he will seek out the bastard himself and drag him to some place in Siberia. As mentioned before, Nikolai can be cruel when he wants to be, so I wouldn’t be surprised if he let that person run aimlessly around Siberia for a few days, hunted down by him and his people, only to capture and torture them later. Death is a kind of mercy that is not for them, though, so he’ll keep them alive for the time being. They almost took you from him, there’s nothing they could ever do to make up for that. They’ll be a new chewing toy for Chimera until they die for one reason or another. Nikolai won’t get too overprotective, but he will be keeping a closer eye on you. He won’t station one of his people in front of your home when he’s away, but he will try to make more time for you. Calls become more frequent and he will try to find some excuses to spend more time with you, even if it’s just by video chatting with you when you have the time. He won’t freak out, but he won’t forget about that incident either.

[ahappyphjl]

dnp looking at fan made content on roblox is a gateway drug to tumblr tag 4

[fideidefenswhore]

 the tudors (2007-2010) / the concubine, by christopher rae / the six queens of henry viii (2016) / zombie (2018), cover by bad wolves / the white princess (2017) / hunting the falcon, by john guy & julia fox / viii, by hm castor / the white queen (2013) / henry viii, by lucy wooding / firebrand (2023)

[jessieren]

It’s been quite a week…

Hurrah! new Shaun

Eeeek! crazy psychopath Shaun

Ooohhh dirtyhot! Shaun

😱😱😱😱fucking terrifying! Shaun

Plus ugghhh week at work

Meaning I can barely remember my own name and have no idea what day it is never mind what theme I’m supposed to be on

I���m therefore taking my lead from @librawritesstuff and declare this to be a special brain cleanse Saturday

Enjoy!

Credit: Liz P make up and Paul Cribbs - Instagram

[lloydgaymerdyke]

feel so empty when a characters only redemption is death even when they claw and beg for another ending.

[neonhog]

the fnv brotherhood of steel being such an intense parallel to being stuck with an abusive conservative family explored largely through a lesbian character whose constantly making excuses for them gighhrggurughh

[wistfulpoltergeist]

Picrew tag game!

Thank you @mwvwv-sims and @swallowprettybird for tagging! I don't look like my Sims art :D

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