#tell myself i dont care

[blueskingdom]

screw the leafs have auston’s side profile instead

[saeiken]

:]

[oatmealcrisp-freak]

"shipping saiki is aphobic because he's aroace!"

stares at you with my demiromantic asexual in a committed relationship eyes then looks at the camera like im in the office

[stargloom]

im everything you hate

blood ver

[n0bluev]

- Hey, Suguru, Suguru, I could crush you, you know. - Mhm. The thing, 'Satoru', is that I doubt you would.

[young_god!AU]

[fromstormsend]

“I don’t want someone brave and gentle, I want him. We’ll be ever so happy, just like in the songs, you’ll see. I’ll give him a son with golden hair, and one day he’ll be the king of all the realm, the greatest king that ever was, as brave as the wolf and as proud as the lion.” -AGOT Sansa III

“Ser Jaime Lannister was twin to Queen Cersei; tall and golden, with flashing green eyes and a smile that cut like a knife. He wore crimson silk, high black boots, a black satin cloak. On the breast of his tunic, the lion of his House was embroidered in gold thread, roaring its defiance. They called him the Lion of Lannister to his face and whispered "Kingslayer" behind his back. Jon found it hard to look away from him. This is what a king should look like, he thought to himself as the man passed.” -AGOT Jon I

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These two summer children thought that being blonde was everything then. And there more many quotes from them that they think appearance is everything.

[spaciebabie]

at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!

[navstuffs]

It is June 27th. I wake up, turn on my phone and don't google if Sydcarmy is canon (I don't want to have my heart broken so early in the morning). Then, by lunch time, I decide enough is enough so I end up googling, is Sydcarmy canon? and when the answer comes out negative I breathe deeply, looking at the sky and telling myself:

"IM TIRED OF THIS FUCKING SHOW BAITING ME, I AM DROPPING THIS SHIT, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!!!!!!!!"

then, later that night, i end up marathoning the entire season 3 bc syd and carmy have good fucking scenes AS ALWAYS that prove they should be together though, people will insist they are just ~plAtoNIc~, they should remain frIenDS~

i still tell myself i wont watch this show ever again. then season 4 comes out and it happens all over again

[uglyf4wn]

realizing that communication actually doesnt matter as much as ppl say it does, bc most ppl glorify it and see it as a magical solution when in fact communicating your feelings/wants/needs only work if other ppl are receptible to it. which... most ppl arent, both bc many dont want to bc it requires too much effort of them and it's easier to shift blame on others not "communicating", but also bc many many ppl just have brains that arent wired to understand others, or other viewpoints and perspectives. thus, no level of communication will make someone who isnt capable of receiving it hear you. most efforts to "communicate" are completely wasted. and it's frustrating, but what can u do?

[spiralmode]

wait im rewatching saw 2004 and as a germaphobe one of the cruelest things i had to watch adam endure was dig around in that toilet ("find anything?" "no solids!" 🤢) anyway so he had just taken out the play me tape out of a ziploc bag and that stuck with me because I was like okay that's something he could use idk for what but for something, and so then that toilet scene happens and im like yelling at my screen adam!!! no!!!!!!!!! use the ziploc bag as a glove ahhhhhhh !! but he just went right in there with only one small moment of hesitation

[rapidhighway]

venting like an idiot

the main reason i dont wanna go back to uni is that i feel like i've completely embarrassed myself last year. idk, i feel horrified at the thought of returning and looking these people in the eye. i didn't do anything, i was lazy and barely finished my projects and the only way to redeem myself somehow would be to come back with some new energy and work hard. i didn't even really get a job this summer because i really wanted to rest, cause i thought i would drop out. and i just feel worse, i feel even more tired

[locallygrowndaikon]

i havent posted in a while and ngl for transparency might not anytime soon, my motivations been hitting some lows recently gang😔😔

[khaleesiofalicante]

So...

I just had a BIG self-realization.

I don't actually want to do my master's...This is such a crazy thing for me to come to terms with because, for a long time, this is what I wanted.

For context, I graduated in 2019 and IMMEDIATELY wanted to do my masters in 2020 (it had to be overseas because we don't have a master's in gender studies here). But COVID fucked everything up and I applied for a couple of scholarships which I didn't get because I only had good grades and not a lot of stuff to prove that I did a lot of work (because the place I worked for 3 years didn't give me credit for any of the things I wrote for them)

Anyway, I quit my job and started working independently doing consultancies here and there. I put away the master's plan for a while and promised to come back to it 2 years before I turned 30 (because I REALLY wanted to do my masters before I turned 30).

And now it's two years before I turn 30. So I sat down today to look at some options. I looked at a bunch of universities and scholarships. And I realized I don't actually want this.

I've loved my work (exhausting as it can be) for the last four years. I learned more from working with different people and countries than I ever did in university.

I love my job and I will ALWAYS be an activist before anything else. But I don't think I want to study it (not in such a formal way). I want to learn when and where I can.

But I am not sure this is what I want to study and this is how I want to study. If I want to learn more, I can always do online courses, or go to summer school (like I did in Croatia) or just talk to more experts in the field. There are so many different ways to learn now and I don't want to get hung up getting an advanced degree because that's what I thought was the "next step" in my career.

What I really want is to write. Write more stories. Write because it makes me happy. I don't want to do another degree.

I'm not sure how I can monetize my writing or how to move from fanfiction to original books...But I think THAT is what I should be focusing my time, money, and energy on - not spending all of it on a degree.

I don't know why I'm saying all of this here, but I'm saying it anyway. Because it seems to me that the goals you set for yourself in your early 20s aren't really the goals you want for yourself in your late 20s.

I know that. But now I've fully realized it properly. This is going to take some time to internalize but...yeah. I think this is it. This is the big life-shifting moment I'm having LITERALLY right now (Lmao I'm Every Woman is playing on my phone right now and I find that hilarious)

I will think and research more about writing original books. Hopefully, I can dedicate more time to it this year and next. I hope y'all will stay with me on that journey while I figure this out.

Dani 💚

[dan-whoell]

i keep thinking about a phandom book club, but i have no idea how to go about organizing it or if anyone would be interested or even where to host it

alternatively is there already a phandom book club i could join? because i would love that

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

[oceanwithouthermoon]

ive been unhealthily fixated on kubosai for the past few weeks, i just have no idea how to put it into words. kuboyasu aren and saiki kusuo are in love btw