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We’ve now made it to 2025. Quite a busy albeit tough at times year for me. I got to graduate from university on time with my cohort, got to do more solos for choir and even sing one at commencement, my team’s student film managed to win an award at one festival and was a finalist for three other festivals, got my first car ( a used one but still), landed a job, started doing commissions, and probably a lot of other things that I can’t think off the top of my head.

At least this year, I’m not ending it as exhausted as I was at the end of last year, although I was still hanging on by a thread at the beginning of this year. And when things stop being busy and you’re still working on college student survival mode™️, you tend to struggle for a bit with no knowing what to do with yourself.

That trying so hard to be in control and trying to seem like I can handle everything by myself, that ended up backfiring at times. That because it was done easily, can I really be satisfied with the outcome (Yes, yes you can future me).

Because of that, a big theme that I do wanna focus on in this new year is just taking it one day at a time and that I don’t have to stick to doing something forever. After all, people constantly evolve, and I need to give myself permission to not stay stuck. That if I really want to do something, I should just go do it. That even if I’m not perfect at something, make mistakes/am wrong about something, or something doesn’t stick, that it doesn’t make or break me as a person.

Which also ties in to me wanting to try to remember that I don’t need to be perfect, to be what I think people want, or useful for people to like me and want to stick with me. That’s more of an overall goal rather than just one for this year, but it’s good to start somewhere.

So here’s to 2025. Not entirely sure how this year will turn out, especially with how uncertain these times are, but I’m determined to live my life no matter what. Happy New Year y’all!

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Snowy stream, foraging fowl

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God I miss them so much

A little Christmas kiss 💜🎄✨

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a dance with you

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Hello, My name is Hanan Al-Salout, and I am writing to you with a heart heavy with sorrow. 😓💔

The war has destroyed everything we had, leaving us in a worn-out tent, battling the cold and hunger.

My baby Yaseen is suffering from severe infections, and my elderly mother-in-law can no longer walk without help after a coma caused by anemia. 😢

Our health is fading, and we’ve already lost so much. All I ask is for the chance to save my family. We urgently need medical supplies and baby milk and many other essentials to survive. Please, don’t let us become another number On the list of victims in this war. 😥💔

Donation link: https://gofund.me/b905b50e 🕊️

A short video to me, I hope you hear it. 🙏💚 https://youtube.com/shorts/kQWrRZFrqss?si=W4xDYuwoP8yCOBj5

Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #152)

Another Palestinian family who needs medical supplies and other essentials, please share and donate if you can

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URGENT HELP🚨🚨🚨🍉🇵🇸

Hello,

How do you do ? I hop to be in a good condition.

This is my special campaign

We hope to help us by donating or sharing to others.

Every donation makes a different even if it a small.

As you know, the war began on October 7 and lasted ten months. During this period, we were unable to obtain food, drink, or treatment because we did not have money.

There is no source of income for the family at the present time, so we are unable to buy food, clean water, and medicine, especially after we are afflicted with the ongoing infectious diseases spread in the north like Hepatitis C disease.

Our house has been damaged a lot since the beginning of the war. We are from the north of Gaza and we are still in the north and have not displaced to the south. We displaced 10 times from place to another seeking to safety .

We hope for your help and support, even if only a little.🙏🙏

Vetted by Femme intifada on telegram.

Also, vetted by gazavetters on tumbler and my number is #60

My campaign was recently vetted by butterfly effect group on Instagram and my number is #964

This is the link if you would to read our story well 👇👇

https://gofund.me/4e896ac1

Thank you all

Apologies for not seeing this sooner, but yes I’d be more than happy to share and donate.

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Hi, I hope you are doing well🌹

Can you help by sharing my story, reblog, and donating if you can, to keep hope alive for me, I'm type 1 diabetes. I am calling on your humanity and kindness to help me raise $340.

This amount will enable the approval of an insulin pump that will help me better control my diabetes. Although I am happy that I have been approved the hardest part is the money to pay for the pump and equipment, please your contribution is important. Be blessed ♥️

Of course I can, just made a donation. If any of the people seeing this could share or donate, it would be much appreciated.

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Happy National Coming Out Day y’all. It’s been about 6 years since I came out as bi, and now it’s been a year since I came out as nonbinary.

Things being scary for our community right now, it’s understandable why some may not want to come out for their own safety. Regardless, coming out is a decision you should make when you want to and when you are safe to.

As for me, I’m gonna continue to try and just live while I’m on my journey with identity. I can’t change how people might feel about it, plus it’s not my job to change people (that’s something people have to want to do on their own after all).

All I ask is that people trust that I’ll live my life the way I want to, trust that I am what I say I am. And if anything were to change in the future, then I’ll let you know.

If I keep holding back on deciding to do things out of fear that I might regret it later, life would remain static for me. If I end up regretting it, then I end up regretting it, oh well (Regret can also be the result of not doing anything. I know I have those types of regrets).

Still, I’m gonna go on this journey regardless if people join me on it or not. I do want people there, especially those that I care the most about. It’s up to them if they wanna join or not. I’ll just be here as a they/them causing mayhem til then.

To my fellow queer and trans/nonbinary friends and family, do whatever you need to do to stay safe during these times. Do whatever you need to do to keep moving forward.

For now, I offer this self portrait that I finished earlier in the week. Normally, I use my more cartoonish style. I tried that at first. I ended up switching to making it look a bit more realistic after finding it would work better. Enjoy!

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This is a 3D lighting project I did for CG360 that I did last fall. This process for getting this piece done was…interesting to put it nicely. I did put in the value thumbnail next to it so you could see where it started. There were many things that went wrong when getting the final result, such as ZBrush being hard to navigate, me increasing the topology too much to where the original Maya file became unusable, then I had only 2 to 3 weeks to model everything in Maya on top of doing work for my other classes, etc. So if some of it looks wonky, that’s just cause I’m not really a 3D modeler. The models do work for what this piece is though( thank god these aren’t being used as models that you can animate, cause in that aspect they are horrendous). Plus for being work that had to be compressed into 2 to 3 weeks, it came out better than I expected. People around me have even said that they like it because of the stylization.

Ultimately doing this project showed me, that even if a million things go wrong, it’s still possible to create something good out of it. That you can still make it work even with limited resources, you’ll just have to find different ways around it. And that part of learning is learning that sometimes, there are just some skills that are just not our thing, and that’s ok. Mad respect to any 3D modelers and rigging people out there, this stuff is not easy. It’ll probably be a bit before I touch 3D modeling again. As for these characters, I do want to explore more with them eventually. Guess you’ll just have to find out. Enjoy!

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Video description: Video of a pinkish-purple flame spinning around before hitting the ground and disappearing.

This will be a repost from Insta cause I want to upload more art on here. So this will be an art dump from my time at college/university. So with that context, here we go.

As I have now wrapped up at DigiPen, I figured I’d show y’all some of the work I did through all of my junior year through the spring and fall semesters, minus the film stuff (because it’s running through festivals at the moment), and the VFX stuff I did in Unity.

The first one isn’t really a style I that would usually draw in and it’s a bit wonky because of that, though I love Bronwyn to bits and I want to re draw her at some point.

But that does lead me to why I’m posting all of these now. I wanted to show the progression of my work to where I’m at now, even if these aren’t the most most amazing pieces ever.

Plus doing these helped me to become a better artist and to try more to get to where I am now. And there will more to come. Enjoy!

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The Terms of Service

(OPEN) So after taking time to figure out details, I am ready to announce that I am finally going to start doing commissions!!! For now, it’ll just be digital paintings. For the types of paintings I’m doing you can find the info in this post.

It’s probably not the best formatting (you can probably tell that graphic design is not my passion nor my speciality. That and I don’t know what my brand is at this point). So the formatting will hopefully improve in the future as I do this.

It is my first time doing this so please be extra patient with me as I figure this out. Like I said in the terms of service, I’m only going to do the first 4 people to request a commission. So please, don’t be too upset if you aren’t able to request one after all the slots are filled. There’s always a chance for a future commission.

If you can’t afford a commission but still want to financially support me, you can always go to my Kofi to tip me. That or buy something from my shops. Both of which are in the Linktree in my bio or pinned (depending on where you see this post). Don’t worry too much if you don’t have much money to spare right now. I appreciate any support I get including sharing my art or posts!

Be sure to read through everything, especially the terms of service. Enjoy!

Update for Tumblr: Since there is a 10 pic limit, the terms of service will be a reblog on this post.

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(OPEN) So after taking time to figure out details, I am ready to announce that I am finally going to start doing commissions!!! For now, it’ll just be digital paintings. For the types of paintings I’m doing you can find the info in this post.

It’s probably not the best formatting (you can probably tell that graphic design is not my passion nor my speciality. That and I don’t know what my brand is at this point). So the formatting will hopefully improve in the future as I do this.

It is my first time doing this so please be extra patient with me as I figure this out. Like I said in the terms of service, I’m only going to do the first 4 people to request a commission. So please, don’t be too upset if you aren’t able to request one after all the slots are filled. There’s always a chance for a future commission.

If you can’t afford a commission but still want to financially support me, you can always go to my Kofi to tip me. That or buy something from my shops. Both of which are in the Linktree in my bio or pinned (depending on where you see this post). Don’t worry too much if you don’t have much money to spare right now. I appreciate any support I get including sharing my art or posts!

Be sure to read through everything, especially the terms of service. Enjoy!

Update for Tumblr: Since there is a 10 pic limit, the terms of service will be a reblog on this post.

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So as I’m planning on doing commissions along with continuing the job hunt, I figured now is a good time to plug some of my other sites, like current website (emphasis on current), my current shops, and Kofi. That way, you can support me financially if you wish, or just share my work

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Hello Tumblr community!

This blog has been started to document and share fundraisers vetted by @nabulsi, @el-shab-hussein, and Moh'd Ayesh. We felt it would help to create a space dedicated to this documentation process.

The fundraisers we are vetting will be added to this page as well as included in our google sheet.

We will continue to reblog and share on our personal blogs, and that will not change, but this blog will help better organize these fundraisers.

Please spread this as we'd like to start using this primarily to share newly vetted fundraisers.

~ Thank you

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decolonizepalestine.com is an easy to navigate website run by two palestinians which breaks down common myths about palestine and provides a reading list organized by a wide variety of categories ranging from history and culture to media and censorship. it’s a good starting point to use if you want to learn more about the modern day situation in palestine and understand the truth behind myths that have been perpetuated about israel’s occupation of palestine.

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Anyways here is the official gofundme set up by sonya masseys surviving family if you have the ability to give her family real tangible support

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I am Ahmed Al-Nabih from Gaza, and this is my twin brother Abdul Rahman. I am 30 years old. I used to live a beautiful life with my family and my brother. The idea of ​​marriage was on the table and we were going to continue our lives in our beautiful house, but something happened like a nightmare. The war came and took all our dreams and destroyed our house. Our lives became very difficult and arduous. We lived in tents. In the extreme heat, my mother suffers from chronic diseases, heart disease, blood pressure, and diabetes. Please help me save my family and my elderly mother. I ask for your support and participation. A small donation makes a difference. I have only collected 1,60euros in about five months! Thank you all!❤️🙏

Verified by @palestinegenocide @queerstudiesnatural @90-ghost @el-shab-hussein @northgazaupdates @apollos-olives @riding-with-the-wild-hunt

Pictures of me and my twin brother before the war!

Pictures of us with my mother before the war, when our lives were beautiful and stable!☹️

A picture in the war of my mother, who is 62 years old, due to the lack of medicine because she suffers from chronic diseases, blood pressure, heart, and diabetes. Her health condition deteriorated due to the difficult life in Gaza and famine, and because we live in tents in the extreme heat.!🥹

I am during the war and my life has become arduous and tiring!😌

Now we live here, it is a terrifying life, more like a nightmare!☹️

Our beautiful house has become rubble!😢