#take that eating disordered brain!
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honestly having a purpose for which i wanna get fit is such a healthy motivator to work out for me, I am so glad I am doing this hike in summer! Before, even when I tried not to, working out always had the 'i wanna change my body shape' undertone for me, because there wasn't really much else to it? yeah bouldering I mostly just do for fun because its also usually with coworkers and it has a real achievement element to it (climbing progressively harder routes and you get to finish many of them in one session which feels great), but everything else was kinda that, even cycling to work when i did it, which is bonkers, cause its mostly also just transportation. But now I am training for my big adventure and the body stuff is so much less on my mind. Its more like "this will help me climb the big hills in 7 months hell yeah!". I feel like I hacked the system.
#take that eating disordered brain!#i figured it out#now i just gotta keep planning big physical adventures like this#maybe i should just hike across the alps every year lmao#so. i am doing the yoga with adriene 30 days of yoga january#and i am gonna try to get in at least 10.000 steps every day#which is great cause that means i have to leave the house lol#which is good for my mental health#and then i'm usually going bouldering twice a week anyway#and now I'm gonna add one gym day per week too i think#the gym i went to is pretty fancy and also has a sauna which is awesome#so its a real treat#except with my membership thing its kinda free#well not free#but i get the membership at a discount through my work so i pay 28 bucks and can do all sorts of stuff#i can go to several bouldering gyms too#which would usually be like 10-15€ a session#so i am very much getting my moneys worth#and i wanna start doing longer hikes with my backpack on the weekends too#to get used to carrying stuff#so yeah#lots of plans#not sure i'll be able to keep up the daily yoga long term but i'll try cause its just awesome#seeing adriene every day is also very good for my mental health
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depressed leon, BUT (this is gross btw)
he's a little too sad to remember to eat sometimes, and thus, he's a bit malnourished. not dangerously so, nothing extreme or of imminent concern, but he's not doing so hot health wise.
because of this, his post-plaga cravings get really weird and really ramp up after the malnutrition thing starts to get a little spicy. (that's what you get for only drinking alco- err.... coffee + whatever garbage carbs on the gas station shelf)
you'd think he was pregnant by the way he's craving oddities. if uh, a pregnant person wanted to gobble up roadkill pelican style.
one day he gets this... wild idea. he's embarrassed about it, so he's doing his best to hide it. and the cravings are just too strong to deny his overwhelming curiosity.
the roadkill he's snagged is particularly unpleasant. few days old, rotten and covered in maggots. it fuckin stinks. and stupid plaga-brain is fighting with rational human brain as his fucked brain chemistry can't decide to salivate or throw up.
he's craving meat. he's craving protein. salt. magnesium.... a fat steak isn't enough. greasy ass salty fries ain't doing it either.
carrion beetles, fly larva, ants, everything goes in on the grill, which he's definitely stealing after he's done. (it's a public park and he doesn't want anyone getting sick.)
it's the dead of night. he's made sure he's alone.
the mystery road meat... he can't tell what the smell is now as it cooks but plaga-brain is going crazy. even without a trace of the physical parasite, it's permanently fucked his brain.
he's got sauces with him to cover up the expected terrible taste and... well, he's fucking devouring it. no seasonings, nothing.
at least he cooked it, right?
and... he still uses the sauces. and a different sauce. chocolate sauce. why? why?? why is he enjoying this? it's a nightmare and he's snapping the bones for the fuckin bone marrow now.
the only thing he doesn't eat is the fur.
bonus: there was a bonus rat inside that got stuck when he wrapped up his free meal. like a chocolate cream egg. the rat being the cream.
#resident evil#post-plaga cravings headcanon#leon s kennedy#tw food#tw ed#tw eating disorder#i didn't describe this as disgusting as i could have? or wanted to#i think my brain was just tricked by writing that he cooks it over eating it raw#really the idea the whole time was roadkill + choccy sauce#been craving chocolate probably bcuz im not taking care of myself like i need to#im trying
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I really wish there was more insight as to why children are "picky eaters" because the way people go about "fixing us" can be detrimental to our relationship with food.
When I was a kid, I was obviously neurodivergent, and I wasn't tested for anything and never received any support. I was a huge "picky eater" to the point that going to a new restaurant with a menu I didn't know would send me into panic mode. I didn't understand why I felt that way, I didn't understand that I wasn't a selfish, horrible kid for being unable to force myself to eat. I'd be the person sitting at the dining room table for hours because I just couldn't force myself to eat the food I was given.
I understand why parents do that. It can be concerning when you think your kid isn't getting the proper nutrition. It's concerning when a kid's pallete is overly shrunk down. But if you're going about it in a punishing way, you only reinforce the idea that food is bad and dangerous. And if a child knows that eating their food would cause them less grief and stress than not eating the food, and yet they still will not or cannot eat, that's a sign. Maybe work with children, try to understand why they're a "picky eater." Chances are they're not doing it because they personally want to spite you and they despise your very aura.
#parenting#disordered eating#disordered eating tw#and honestly the punishment of food/mealtime is honestly one of the reasons it was *easy* for me to delve into more disordered behaviours#because there was already the looming idea that food was bad but i was worse for not conforming to people's expectations of what i eat#but it could have been so much easier if i was actually asked what about food made me so ridged and 'uncompliant'#and this isn't me saying that you can't/shouldn't address picky eating. i just don't think brute force is effective or appropriate...#...most of the time. many kids do have phases of picky eating and sometimes it's for no reason and sometimes it's because of big concerns...#...that brute forcing can't address. addressing the needs of a child is complex and takes time but it's worth it to get to a spot wherein...#...the child trusts that they're safe and that food isn't an enemy - it's just fuel and we can make that act taste great#just a thought my brain was like 'here's this before i got to sleep have fun thinking on it 👍'
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i've also eaten elk, moose, alligator and ostrich. i like meat lol
#sorry for not being vegan or whatever but i simply cannot restrict any food categories#or else my eating disorder will take over my whole brain
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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying#shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl#in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated#bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not#her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet#so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive#personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd#compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from#happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is#like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil#not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am#barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me#and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them#but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and#thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard#to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds#nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of#brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but#that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer#defying the stats but for how much longer?#i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it#i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else#excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things#unrelated#ed mention#i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama#bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]
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Im in such an obey me mood today haha
other than "pls dont tell asmo about that",,,, i have questions about these freaking vegetables (im putting under the cut since im talking about food and bad eating habits/diet related stuff)
im assuming they would have to be mixed with other regular ingredients to prevent the hunger but it sounds like ppl would use them as the main component in a dish or just eat them by themselves
So does all of it get digested? No leftovers (waste) comes out the other end im guessing? is it like a magic type thing?? it has to be right? Cause if not...ur body will take the calories needed to replace the ones burnt, take the nutrients, and the rest will just get tossed out
And since it doesnt make you full, like wouldnt it be way too easy to overeat this type of thing? so you could accidentally end up making urself go to the restroom more often :/
Ig if it gives u the nutrients u need that itll be useful then. So maybe its a 'heres ur macros for the day' type dealo? but u still have to go eat an actual meal or make sure u mix it with other stuff tho
#ik its just a silly joke type text but i do like to take these things and overthink them and apply them to real life#its just interesting to me cause ik the answers will never come so its like a brain exercise or something#eating disorder tw#just to be safe#but yea..................#im gonna just go off in the tags cause im just wondering about when this would be useful cause regular veggies are the better choice to me#ig that could be useful in a very specific circumstance where you went over calories but still need certain macros..but like...its veggies#going over for some for veggies isnt that big a deal imo but if ur mostly concerned with deficit then ud cut anywhere u can...#u could also like use it to lessen the calories in the dish overall and maybe add more of the ingredients u actually like#tho i feel like it would not remove that many calories in the first place#and ud probably wouldnt even get to add that much more of what u actually want in comparison#and then...ur gonna be hungry cause u took away a big volume of the food which was the regular vegetables#but for me when im making food the last thing im worried about in my dish is the freaking vegetables#im trying to add more veggies and less of everything else ._.#i feel like this would make more sense if it was like a sugary treat#especially if this is supposed to be a thing that helps with cravings#u get to eat and enjoy the thing without consequence (for the most part) while eating a more restrictive diet#tho it would probably be even more dangerous than the veggies when it comes to overeating...#idk how the demon biology works but it seems about the same to humans but just more durable#and with asmos eating habits...i can already see in my minds eye whats gonna go down#it just seems like a bad idea all around to tell him about this!#obey me nightbringer
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bitches be 300 lbs saying "I'm worried if I count any calories I'll get an eating disorder
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motherfucker you already goddamn have one
#takes too spicy for instagram#eating disorders are apparently only dangerous if they make you skinny#youre worried about getting anorexia when you should be worried about fuckin diabetes#tess holiday has done irreparable damage to fat peoples brains#“im battling anorexia” and winning supremely#fatphobia#fatphobia tw#i love fat ppl but i hate the delusions they get sometimes#you dont get to 300+lbs by being anorexic kween
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I wish I could find a doctor that wants to find out what’s actually wrong with me instead of recommending prescriptions to address the symptoms. I’m so tired of being recommended ibuprofen for debilitating pain. Tired of relaying my medical history to a new doctor and getting the same furrowed brow and shrugging shoulders I get every time. Tired of having so-called medical professionals ask why I need a cane if I’m able to walk down their clinic hallway without it. When will someone fucking help me?
#Leif barks#this is gonna get vent-y and shit in the tags just general mental and physical health issue TW#I’ve really given up on going to doctors atp#I used to have at least one sometimes two dr appts every week and I haven’t seen anyone in 6 months#saw a specialist in January for an MRI follow up and he basically went “wow your spine is fucked up! want some pregablin?“#I am 25yo with degenerative disc disease in 4 discs and facet joint arthritis and you as a specialist are not concerned?#because I sure fucking am!#why is my spinal column breaking down inside my body#I also developed an eating disorder in all of this mess bc when my symptoms first started at like 21yo#the only thing I heard from dr’s was “lose weight” so guess what I did#150lbs in a year and a half#and now when I go to a dr I get congratulated for losing it and then get told to take ibuprofen again#also wow getting told you did a good job at starving yourself is a crazy mind fuck#like you can look at my chart and see the weight loss in real time and that’s apparently wasn’t concerning either#I’ve stopped losing weight but now I’m terrified of gaining and I’m in this maintenance limbo that is literal torture on my brain and body#I’m just over here suffering#I tentatively started therapy again bc the depression-anxiety-cptsd-autism-eating disorder combo is killing me#and I’m not kidding I got three sessions in and she told me I’m too much for her to handle#so I guess I will be letting it kill me bc I don’t know what the fuck to do
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proud of myself for keeping up with eating my meals at uni. and eating snacks. and buying groceries. and cooking for myself from time to time. especially when my roommate is the prettiest thinnest girl that doesnt eat proper meals. so proud of myself for not letting that trigger me and make me repeat old patterns
#not putting any blame at her at all its her life and she shall eat as often as she wants. im just saying that ed is a competetive disorder#and i know me a year/2 ago would get triggered and take that as my competition#my brain sometimes still goes 'yay im hungry!' or 'i eat too much' but i always manage to wake up from the bad thoughts and just. eat and#enjoy eating :)#i wonder if those will ever go away completely. but for now im okay w battling them every now and then and winning#🌺#tw ed
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Starting pride month with the pharmacy denying me my testosterone prescription until mid-June and my doctor saying she can't do anything about it because it's a controlled substance 🙃✌️
#i should also add that it's been a week of trying to get her respond to the messages#'hey i don't want to be off my t for a month'#[full day of silence]#'sorry i don’t know why you can't get your refill but i can't do anything about it'#i am going to lose my mcfucking mind#that's not to mention a long argument where my now former friend#because they're one of those 'trump and biden are both equally bad' people who's planning on just letting trump take power again#because they seem to think that you can boycott a high-level politician in a critical election like it's a fucking soda company#for someone who used being communist as a justification for it#they sure have a very capitalist perspective on politics#i also couldn't fall asleep until literal dawn this morning because i forgot my sleep aids#and then when i did fall asleep i had a solid hour of nightmares#and tw for neurodivergence-based disordered eating for this next one#but my brain hasn't let me eat much of anything all day because it's not 'the right food'#it also will not tell me what 'the right food' is#anyways pride month is off to a pretty shitty start#OH and work changed my schedule from working mids to working primarily night shifts without telling me#and my ortho's advice for my wrist fucked it up a lot more and she hasn't responded to my email from a week ago#i'm fucking miserable#if you need me i'll be playing stardew and listening to sad gay music#personal#vent#rant
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Re Re cheating partner situation. (check my other posts if you don’t know the tea)
Finally confronted her this morning. Smashed her phone. Posted everything on her social media. I moved most of my stuff into a storage unit and am staying with a friend until my other friends flat is ready to move into. My heart is broken and I feel like a walking corpse but I just keep reminding myself that I am not homeless, I’m not broke, and despite friendship losses - I still have my friends who have really rallied behind me and come through for me.
We talked for hours just finally being completely honest about everything from both of us. We left things with both of us wanting to get through this as best we can and agreeing to talk more later once we’ve had some space.
There’s a lot more drama to it that I’ll probs get into in another post but right now I’m just so exhausted of talking about it. I haven’t been able to properly eat in a week bc I’ve felt so sick to my stomach and I’ve barely gotten 3 hours sleep a night. Idk what I did to myself or maybe its from crying so fucking much but my chest and throat hurt so much and I can’t swallow or talk or lay down without pain. Swollen glands?? Tonsilitis?? Idk.
I know these aren’t the posts y’all signed up for but putting this into words in the void has been helpful somehow so I’m gonna keep doing it. Maybe I’ll find the time and passion for this blog again now that I have all my time to myself.
#i literally didn't eat for 3 days straight bc i had no appetite#friend got me to eat today and it was weird it was like i couldn't taste it and was just forcing myself to take bites#eating disorder part of my brain is very confused right now nd im trying to not let that take over as well#it had such a hold on my on the trip#couldn't stop eating to the point where i was purging again#and now i literally can't eat bc i feel ill#in the span of 2 weeks#there's more to it but i need to think about somthing else rn so we will come back to this
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Chronic Pain Makes A Girl Insane
I seldom try to write while in the throes of a serious pain bout, but I'm going to try it today, because maybe it will help to distract me; and maybe it will reach someone out there in cyberspace who needs to read it, and that little bit of connection will help someone get through their shitty day with just a little more grace, and my small corner of the universe will be that much better for it.
Today is a bad one, my little Kumquats. Ehlers Danlos is a strange condition, where you just don't know where or how the pain is going to hit you, or how badly. Today, it's sharp, stabbing pains in my left breast, TMJ pain, which is probably going to bloom into a lovely migraine eventually (as it's been doing all week), pain in my uterus that feels like menstrual cramps but aren't, and joint/bone pain in my neck, thumbs, knees, ankles, and then finally, that all-over sort of musculoskeletal pain that feels like I've got the flu.
In other words, I feel like Microwaved Death.
Also, I'm having heart palpitations which makes me a bit nervous since I have both a mitral valve prolapse, as well as an aortal dilation (another gift from the EDS).
On top of all this, my weight is up to 119, since I've been taking medical marijuana to try and stave off the pain, which gives me an appetite, and so I've been eating a ton. Bulimia triggered, like a motherfucker, folks. Le sigh. Oh, don't worry, I'm not at the point where I'm sticking my finger down my throat, or downing laxatives, but I am at the point where I don't want to take the marijuana for my pain because getting above 115 always triggers my eating disorder, which is a whole other ugly ball of wax which we don't need to be getting into just now, now do we?
We do not.
So, I sent Max out to pick me up a bottle of kratom, since it's the only non-opiate that even comes close to touching my pain, and I'm nearly out. I'm very careful with the stuff, and made the last shipment last quite a while, but my next one won't come in for a few days, and I couldn't stand it anymore with the pain being as bad as it is, and my ED rearing its ugly head with the medical marijuana. And in any case, I LOATHE the feeling of THC, i.e., being high, so much. I can only take the teensiest amount before the paranoia and feeling of being out of control of my own mind kicks in, and I can't stand that. I have to be very careful -- as does anyone who has the Brain Cooties. I always stick to low THC strains as much as possible, but I have this goo in a syringe that was given to me so that's what I'm working with now.
Anyway, I take the teensiest amount of that once a day before bed, so I can sleep, and not actually get high. Which brings me to the next topic; I know I'm about to hit a manic phase when taking that stuff doesn't work to put me to sleep at night. And guess what, folks...
So, once again, I need to make the gazillionth call to my doctor regarding getting me a referral to a psychiatrist so I can get my risperdone prescription sorted out. If they don't get me in soon, I may have to just go to the bloody ER and get an emergency Rx for it. This is ridiculous. The mental health care in this state has plummeted wildly in the past few years; this is the first time I've had such trouble getting in to see a damn psychiatrist, and the first time my primary care doc has refused to just go ahead and prescribe the risperdone to me in the interim.
What the fuck are we supposed to do? Just...pray? To what? The Bipolar SZA Gods?
What a pathetic state of affairs this is. I feel like I am spinning my wheels, trying to do the right thing and the responsible thing for my own mental health. I KNOW I need this particular medication, but I can't get it because of the red tape and waiting lists and lack of places that take my insurance and the list goes on...
And on top of that I'm physically in so much pain I can barely think straight. I swear, it's never just one thing...it always has to be ALL THE THINGS, right?
So, if I'm not feeling better by tomorrow or Tuesday when my clinic is open again, and if they can't do an emergency prescription for me, I will just haul my carcass over to the ER and pray to the Brain Cootie gods they don't decide to inpatient me. Which I doubt, considering just a couple weeks ago, Saorsie (I've referred to her here as Kriss, I need to change that bc she prefers the other moniker) flipped out on some drug, threatened suicide, ran around the damn house naked, and the cops were called after she was getting violent and she was home that same damn day.
...can you even?
As I said, mental health care in this state...Hell, in this country...has gone to absolute shit.
If you know me at all, you know I'm the biggest proponent of TAKING YOUR MEDS, and now I'm having a Hell of a time getting the one I really need in order to get my mind right.
Let's see, what else can I possibly complain about today?
My brain hurts, my body hurts even more...well, at least my heart doesn't hurt! I suppose one must count one's blessings. In fact, on that note, I have wonderful friends, indeed. Which, it may be argued, is far more important than lovers. At least, to my mind it is. Romance comes and goes. Friends are for life -- or, at least, they ought to be.
This is what keeps me sane, you see, when I'm in this much physical and mental pain -- reminding myself what's good and pure and solid in my life. What I have that I can count on. I have Joe and Max, both of whom go out of their way to make my life easier however they can, and are kind to me (and my cats), and make living with Saorsie and her addictions (and untreated mental illness and entitled bullshit) less horrific. I have my friends, who are here for me when I'm feeling hopeless and miserable, and remind me I'm not alone, and hopeless, and helpless, wandering alone in the dark.
It's easy to get caught in this downward spiral when I'm in this much pain, and my brain cooties are chittering away up there, and I start thinking about my future, and all the things I wrote about in the last two posts...and this is why I write. I write to remind myself of what's real, and what's good. I write to navigate the darkness. Sometimes, to explore it, to make myself at home in it...
...but mostly, to navigate my way back out of it.
#brain cooties#mental illness#take your meds#schizoaffective#mental health recovery#ehlers danlos syndrome#eds zebra#chronic pain#bulimia#eating disorder#eating disoder recovery
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Besties I’m gettin real tired of the random bouts of anxiety out of the blue every couple months. I’d like to not feel like my skin is a live wire and I’ve got an elephant sitting on my chest for no reason please and thank you :/
#mental health#anxiety#generalized anxiety disorder#bipolar disorder#vent post#I just don’t get it ??? where they’re coming from ???#it’ll be like one small thing that sets me off and then every inconvenience for several days feels like a death sentence#like oh shit I called someone the wrong name ??? nbd but also I would like to pass away now please#like don’t I take medication to make this not a problem ??#and like 9 weeks out of 10 it works but then I’ll randomly be hit by a bus and down for the count#like genuinely I’ve been trying so hard not to throw up for 4 days now#I’m having trouble sleeping#im having trouble eating#and there is no root cause I just don’t understand :(#like body….brain…..please I want to fix it but you gotta give me some indication of where the fuck this is coming from
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me when. did i eat today?
#genuinely dont remember#there are no dishes in my couch spot and i dont remember taking any to the sink except my coffee cup this morning#and i know i didnt have breakfast bc i had coffee first and that usually means i get nauseous and cant eat#and i dont remember having lunch bu that doesnt necessarily mean i didnt?#but no dishes over here#so idk#its dinner time so if i havent eaten today ill fix that its just weird lol#im usuallly better than this#dont wanna go back into That headspace is all#tw ed#ed tw#tw disordered eating#<- just in case#words from my weird little brain
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having did and being online in any capacity is so fucking exhausting because you literally can't go anywhere without seeing the most heinous takes about your existence or validity it's like. can we be normal. can we please be normal and Chill for like two seconds.
#HEADS UP: this accidentally turned into a huge rant/vent feel free to get the hell out el oh el#i try reallly hard not to talk about it too much here because you can. offhandedly mention the mere concept of did or osdd or any#dissociative disorder and its like. people will not shut up about how its not real or how its people being delusional or kids being cringe#like. can we go. two seconds without treating people with mental disorders like a spectacle. please. you dont have to have a ''take'' on it#idk and i also avoid online did communities bc theyre the most exhausting spaces you can ever be in and theres constant fighting about#literally anything and everything. like. maybe i would like to find a space to meet other people with similar experiences to my own.#and we dont get that!! we literally cannot get that. and this goes for a lot of mental health related stuff but like my god#and im very lucky to have other people i know in real life who also have did so i can in some amount have that support system (hah.)#but it is EXHAUSTINGG that people cannot go literally a day without saying something stupid about systems#or i can be following someone for years and unprompted they will saysomething heinous thing about did and hide it behind something like#get a load of how weird and cringey kids are getting online these days.#and CHRISTT thats a whole OTHER issue i REALLY dont wanna talk about because it has its own whole set of nuances but like jeeeesus#is it really so hard for people to grasp that brains when exposed to traumas at a young age will be affected by it in weird ways.#idk man ive been seeing a lot of offhanded disregard for systems recently and it's so normalized and it's starting to get to me i guess#i wish people could just go well this is something i dont understand and dont need to have an opinion on and move on with their lives.#what the hell ever this is all to say having did has impacted my life in a lot of complicated and intricate and hard to explain ways and it#sometimes painful and awful but other times is an incredible experience and ALSO. most IMPORTANTLY !#i should be able to make jokes about BEING FRIENDS with SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG!! in REAL LIFE!!!#and not have to deal with SUICIDE BAIT IN MY INBOXX BECAUSE OF IT!!!#WHATEVERRR !!! RANT OVARRR I HAVE NOODLES TO MAKE AND EAT#.... WITH my friend SHADOW!!!#.txt#and btw this isnt about anyone ik here so dont worry im not upset with any mutuals etc etc and all that.#in fact i love getting the chance to chat about it n it can be fun to teach stuff to people who know how to like...be normal about it LOL#<3
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anyone else have to do that terrible common core math project with linear equations that was all based around a fat girl who works at mcdonald’s having to lose weight by counting calories?
#maybe no one else knows wtf i’m taking about#but i had to do that same project twice#& it literally burned into my brain ‘there are x number of calories in a pound of fat’#‘sierra (that was her name) needs to eat x number of calories a day to maintain her weight’#‘she wants to weigh x amount by next year. how many calories can she eat a day?’#like they had us doing this as middle schoolers are you fucking kidding me#and there were people in class joking about having her eat like 100 calories a day to lose weight faster#i know i’m not exaggerating when i say that that assignment gave people eating disorders#disordered eating cw
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