#szpd tag

[the-multiple-prism]

people are allowed to love being aro, ace, apl, or similar even if their orientation is caused by a disorder, by the way

[pinkxcloudz]

"i'm using delusional in the right context, it's not like it's that serious"

DELUSIONAL DISORDER + SCHIZO SPECTRUM DISORDERS + TBI + MANY OTHERS

"calling someone a narcissist isn't ableist it's not a disability"

NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER

"sociopath/psychopath are just adjectives it's not like I'm hurting anyone"

ANTISOCIAL PERSONALITY DISORDER

"saying i'm ocd doesn't affect you it's just the way i act"

MOTHERFUCKING OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER

OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE PERSONALITY DISORDER

"i'm schizoposting lol it's just a joke"

SCHIZOPHRENIA

SCHIZOID PERSONALITY DISORDER

SCHIZOAFFECTIVE DISORDER

SCHIZOTYPAL PERSONALITY DISORDER

it's never just a joke, it's never an adjective. use a fucking thesaurus

[tinyflything]

The void at the center of the self. [character-design © by me]

[romance-incubomp3]

can our next mental illness symptom advocacy be for people whose symptoms make them aloof and detached and not emotionally expressive or scared of intimacy and vulnerability cause some of y’all really like to make fun of that shit and as an autistic schizoid I’m fucking tired of it. not being able to feel and express emotions genuinely or be vulnerable with others is exhausting and difficult and is way more complex than like toxic repressed “too cool for everyone” male bullshit you treat it as in your jokes.

[takemetodragonstone]

“i feel like i’m faking my disorder until i remember i’m experiencing symptoms alone in my room where there’s no one to be faking for” …you mean you guys don’t have an imaginary audience that lives in your head and likes to make judgmental commentary??

[aurangg]

I rarely think about other people and I have little to no attachment or connection to others. I don’t have people in mind. I rarely miss people. I don’t think “I wonder how X person is doing.” I will almost completely forget X person exists until they message me again.

[happyk44]

Someone: Can't be SZPD, SZPD means you wanna live alone in the woods and despise all human interactions, it's probably AVPD

Me, frothing from the mouth and trying not to scream: I am begging you to please at least read the criteria for both so you can see how an interest in forming friendships or falling in love does not immediately denounce SZPD as a diagnosis and replace it with AVPD

[ratzhatz14]

Her design has been stuck in my head, and I tried to recreate my thoughts as accurately as possible

Say hello to the newest addition,

Fizzy the Soda Fizz!

I tried to recreate cola from memory don't take a butter knife and stab me please 💔💔💔

Fizzy is team House, but really wants to be team Party since... She's energetic

Fizzy goes by She/her, and heterosexuality is her opp (there is NO straight toon in SDPH, and IDGAFUUUUUCKKKKK /hj)

When moving fast, Fizzy's body will fizz up abit (esp at the joints)

Fizzy and Glaze sometimes trade candies, specially Fizzy

Buddies w/ Disco because↓

Fizzy & Disco = Poppy & Boxten

Anyway, extra stuff about this liquid

Argrjsjkwnsndddugfjdfxjxtu idk what else to add help me

Istfg if someone makes a Fizz = Rizz joke I will execute her in the most brutal way possible /markmywords

Edit; those gumballs hairbands & belt were inspired by those candy necklaces/bracelets which are basically edible jewelry

[aikon]

"I support people with personality disorders" until they inconvience you.

"I support people with personality disorders" unless they have a differing opinion from you.

"I support people with personality disorders" until they show traits of their disorder.

[one-without-a-name]

Pertaining to the self ship community I keep seeing posts about this so, yeah it's a community, but no one is obliged to like or interact with your posts, it doesn't matter if you don't get a single interaction, no one is obliged to interact with you just so you don't feel left out. People are allowed to stay in their bubble and in their comfort zone because guess what! they self ship for their enjoyment, not yours!

Not even need to mention how some neurodivergencies make you want to stay by yourself and how disrespectful trying to force those people to interact is!

Pro/com-shitters fuck off!

[thevoidshere88]

It gives me big ick when someone wishes they could feel nothing.

Be glad you can feel your emotions.

[szampers]

Before I was aware of szpd, I referred to it as "the Social Alienation", in caps for the reason that I knew it was more than just social alienation in the conventional sense (and also because I find it funny to capitalize words which aren't supposed to be capitalized). The Social Alienation was the closest term I could find for what was in fact szpd, but since uncapitalized it refers specifically to feeling detached from people, which I do feel a great deal, but it didn't exactly point to other things I felt.

Hence why I used it as a personal umbrella term! Which itself contained two other umbrella terms: "language guilt/dysphoria/repulsion" (I still don't know which one fits best), which in turn contained the umbrella term "linguistic freedom". I feel how I experience szpd is somewhat closely related to language, which will have a more detailed post of its own.

A visual representation of these personal umbrella terms.

The Social Alienation referred to social alienation in the conventional sense, but also to my lack of interest and motivation to interact with others, how conflicted I felt about it and the dread that comes at the thought of interacting with others while knowing it is something essential in life. Ouph. This reeks of szpd. But the Social Alienation did do a good enough job to provide me with something to hold onto.

Aside from that, there's also the language guilt/dysphoria/repulsion/whatever. I feel like a linguistic disaster, more so in the past than I do now fortunately. I loathe interacting with the language that is spoken where I live and was born, though it is supposed to be my second language if not a second first language. Go figure! I suppose I'm rather sensitive to language because when I read it or speak this language, the words simply don't ring nearly as well in my head as certain other languages and that bothers the hell out of me. It's a vicious circle as I keep escaping to other languages while I keep getting worse in this harsh, rough language which my life depends on. This contributes to my lack of a will to speak as well, which is connected to the situational mutism probably.

The linguistic freedom is the dream of overcoming the language guilt. It is the most ideal state I can achieve, which is when I acquire the skill to freely speak my mind in any languages I'm supposed to know without struggling to string words together. Preferably i'd get past the people aversion as well but as long as my sociability is at a functional level that's more than enough for me. I treat this as a "if you aim for the moon and miss you'll land among the stars" kind of thing. Part of the whole thing is being able to accept your limits I suppose.

This would be the new model???? It essentially boils down to issues with people and language. Perhaps the language part should be placed outside of the szpd group but they'll still be hardly separable regardless. Either way, szpd provides a stronger and solid foothold for me than the Social Alienation did. It's no longer as abstract as it had been, but it's become more tangible I think. Good starting point.

[avpdpossum]

Hello! Hoping anyone that comes across this could share their thoughts as well, but I was curious if you consider personality disorders on their own as neurodivergent? Why or why not? Thank you

they absolutely are neurodivergent!

i think a lot of people’s introduction to the concept of neurodivergence is through the autistic and adhd communities, and that leads people to assume neurodivergence only includes things you’re born with, but that’s not actually the case.

here’s how i would explain neurodivergence:

the social Powers That Be in our current (Western, capitalist, etc) society have designated certain ways of thinking, feeling, perceiving, and so on as the Correct Ways of Existing.

most of our world is built on the assumption that everyone’s brains will work that way, because that’s the way they “should” work. when people’s brains don’t work that way, it’s assumed that the solution is to find a way to “fix” them or get rid of them.

as a result, people whose brains do work in that way have an easier time navigating the world and are generally treated better by it, while people whose brains deviate from that expectation in some way have a more difficult time navigating a world not built with them in mind and are treated as “wrong”/“bad”.

people in the first group, who can navigate the world with very little added stigma or difficulty as a result of the way their brains work, would be considered neurotypical.

people in the second group, who do face added stigma and barriers to functioning as a result of the way their brains work, would be considered neurodivergent.

so, if you want to determine if something makes someone neurodivergent, you can ask yourself a few questions:

does it have to do with their psychology/neurology?

does it affect their thinking, emotions, perceptions, or other brain functions in a way that is considered “abnormal” by current social norms?

does it carry a stigma and make them more likely to be mistreated?

does it cause them extra difficulty with navigating and functioning in the world?

if the answers to those questions are yes, chances are it’s a form of neurodivergence!

so, if we look at those questions for personality disorders:

this is the easiest answer — yes!

personality disorders are classified as “mental illnesses”, put in the dsm, and generally assumed to be under the jurisdiction of psychiatry, so i think we can pretty safely say that yes, personality disorders are seen as “abnormal” forms of brain functioning according to current social norms.

personality disorders and their traits are incredibly stigmatized — pwpds are assumed to be violent, abusive, generally bad people, and so on. this is most visibly true for cluster b pds, but stigma against the other pds and against the personality disorder category in general is also very real. so this one’s a yes — pwpds are very frequently mistreated on the basis of our brains being “wrong”.

personality disorders, by definition, come with some sort of functioning difficulties, and the world isn’t built to accommodate those differences in functioning. as an example, think of the high expectations of emotional regulation (not “too” emotional but not “cold” either) and social capability in professional spaces, even ones where emotions and social interactions don’t affect a person’s ability to do the job well. that makes this one a yes too; a society that took pwpds into account would seek to accommodate the areas we struggle with and ensure that there’s a place for us, and that definitely isn’t happening right now.

so yeah, according to my own personal understanding of neurodivergence, personality disorders absolutely count. we diverge from the assumed norms of psychological/neurological functioning, so we count as neurodivergent, even those of us who aren’t also neurodivergent in other ways.

on a personal level, i can say i feel no real difference in how i internally experience being audhd vs how i experience my personality disorders — they both just feel like my brain doing its thing, sometimes in ways that are unpleasant/difficult for me to deal with and sometimes in ways that just feel totally fine and unremarkable from my point of view. i also rarely notice a difference in how neurotypical people treat them — they usually don’t know the difference between audhd “weirdness” vs avoidant/narcissistic/schizospec/dissociative “weirdness”, it’s all just one big blob of Weird And Bad And Wrong to most people. the only time they’re ever really treated as different is when certain other neurodivergent people try to separate the two.

trying to draw lines between neurodivergence and “mental illness” (which is usually what’s happening when people say pds aren’t a form of neurodivergence) doesn’t actually help anyone. in my opinion, it’s basically just a way for certain people to try to get ahead by putting other people down — it says “accept us because we’re different in the good way, not in the bad way! we’re not sick like those people!” and that kind of attitude doesn’t do anyone any good. sure, the experiences that come with having a since-birth neurodivergence can be different from those that come with having an acquired neurodivegence, but people within those groups also have different experiences because everyone’s experience is going to be unique, we’re all different people in different circumstances! diversity of experiences among neurodivergent people is to be expected and is honestly a good thing, not a reason to avoid associating with each other.

in my experience, the people who insist that pds aren’t true neurodivergences are usually pretty damn sanist toward pwpds - they exclude us because they don’t want to be associated with us, they want to be accepted but they don’t think we should be so they try to make us seem totally different from them. in reality, neurodivergence is a broad umbrella and there’s room under it for all of us.

[your-fav-is-schizoid]

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[hetlesbian]

Vent about making friends + loneliness

Making friends feels like being forced to give myself to someone else. Compromises and sacrifices dont feel worth it, I dont expect anyone to ever reciprocate it, so I dont want to try anymore. Now I want to let everyone else make the first move. You really have to be persistent with showing me you care about me, you have to make an effort to really make me feel welcome and included. I wont settle for anything less but I guess thats asking for too much. I find that a lot of schizoids “settle” for random people who even hurt them just because theyre lonely. Ive done it before. It just feels like nobody is “good enough” for me anymore, and if they are, they are disinterested in me. I would rather wait and let good come to me when God wants it to instead of desperately seeking it out everywhere. Atp, if you want me, come and get me. And I really do hope someone finds me at least before I die

There are a lot of people who shame me for being lonely and “not even trying”. But Ive tried so many times and it’s exhausting, it isnt worth the effort. I want someone who will show me how important I am to them, that they want to talk to me specifically, but of course I guess Im too bland and “not all there”. And so Im left being someone’s second choice or last choice or not even a choice at all. Friendship feels like competing with a bunch of other people to get someone to pay attention to you.

I dont bring the same things to a friendship that other people do. I feel like my companionship is more mature(?) in a way, slower to grow but I’d always be patient, consistent and reliable. I dont know how to just jump into a friendship and start making sacrifices for someone without the feeling that Im wasting resources (energy/time) for no reason.

[schizo-fag]

Alright maybe this is just me being insecure and hating hearing some things said by Resident Evil fans about the character based off of me (and also consider that i am not in the Loop online as much as other “young” ppl”) but….

The fact that some ppl like RE 2&4 Remake Leon more bc he seems more “human” & “emotional” just… bothers the everloving fuck outta me

I have Schizoid PD… the fact that I act largely unaffected by shit during most of the original series is explained by that, (not to mention I’m Schizotypal + Autistic + ADHD so the way I act is gonna seem “inhuman” to ppl who don’t understand that)

But the fact that certain (VOCAL) ppl like the Remakes more because they “humanize” me more… pisses me the FUCK off (yes I’ve been drinking sorry in advance)

I personally dislike the way the Remakes portray me because they seem to disregard my Schizoid traits (no hate to any Leons who feel differently but this is my blog so my opinion)

And the way the fandom reacts as if NOW I act like a human being just…

Like the fact I’m Schizoid and have constantly been dehumanized (even outside of the scenarios depicted by ‘fictional’ media)

And then that ppl act like it’s just because it was older games that it was inaccurate to my personality…

Like BITCH

OG Resident Evil 2 captures my personality in ways u won’t understand (ppl who act like that)

OG Resident Evil 4 same

Like yea they both have their problems being games from the 90s/early 2000s, but my personality being relatively unemotional or cold or whatever DOESN’T HAVE TO BE ONE OF THEM

And saw some posts about ppl saying i had no personality (in various games/movies), related to traits previously mentioned in my post (especially dissociative traits, like Schizoid & DID)

Anyways idk who I’m writing this for, at least for myself, cuz I’m tired of indirectly trying to find ppl who understand me online and being disappointed at least half the time

But also writing this for anyone who understands pre-remake Leon who could already see the humanity in me without needing my personality to be changed

(Nothin against REmakes btw just somewhat triggering largely cuz of fandom)

(Not the whole fandom btw I don’t hate the fandom in general i just hate seeing shit like this)

(Also if u don’t act like this about the REmakes don’t worry either)

(Really just directed at ppl who think Schizoid/Schizospec/Dissociative/DID/AuDHD traits in general make u less human & “relatable”)