#summer thought

[chronictoxicity]

Hey.

It's been a while and now Im starting to lay down all my unwritten sentiments ... I have always thought of going back to journaling recently and it just so happened that the worst time have been surpassed. I am at peace.. and now, I write.

My head has been a mess these days. I can't really figure out a way to organize my thoughts. Im kinda in a cognitive limbo I suppose. And for some reason, this phenomenon always happens when its that time of the year to get a year older.. So for the record, I just battled a sort of  intent to make a career upgrade. Which I didn’t make by the way. That’s the thing with failure. It kinda gives you a jolt to your spine. Waking you up from the reality. I haven't had that in a while. or should I say, I needed that at this part of my life. 

The thing with grieving is..(well yes, I considered it grief since a part of me was somewhat taken because of the circumstances), it changes a part of you. I dunno.. for some reason. I hate to be sentimental about it but I think I don’t really have a lot in my life right now, so I really do keep in my personal space whatever I have. Be it dreams, family, love.. of any genre as long as its mine. 

I know it's my fault. I haven’t taken it seriously. Joking about it but knowing at the backend that failure is on the verge of coming. Denying reality I guess. 

Lesson number one: If you want something, do it with every force and energy that you have. Don’t be lukewarm sentimental about it. Do it even if you have to fight againts the Gods.

I had to learn it the hard way I guess.

I’m warming up right now and I’m glad I had the perfect moment to write.

I always thought of writing as a Time Machine. recollecting my thoughts and making it tangible in the present.  A time capsule which I could read through and remind me of a certain chapter in my life. 

I’m still thankful. Though, I came to know how people differ on how they react on failure. Mine. Per se. 

But come to think of it, at the end of the day, nothing else matters except for that goal. It hurt me a lot. Yes. but I still have a chance to take it with me. To hold it in my hand. To celebrate with my family and make myself proud again.

Sometimes, when you get a wake up call from reality, It would mean you get to be more mindful of your old reality. It's a humbling experience that pulls you to the ground but not to a point of decline. It just prepares you for what is yet to come. I hate to be cynical about it but these thoughts are helpful for me to get through it all over gain.  

But I guess that’s the thing with life. That’s why it's called a battlefield. It just hones you one trial at a time or in simpler means, like a computer game that levels up your charcterter to be fit for the next stage. You can’t be level 1 forever, at some point, you have to deal with the big boss for you to know what it is like on level 2. Even if you loose a lot of lives in the process, the win would always be incomparable. 

See you at the next level Kid.

[aarabbella]

[dilfslayer1080p]

"he died for our wins" - 2024, LIDL Oil paint on LIDL canvas

[detentiontrack]

When Mabel comes out to Stan, she’s really scared that he’s going to reject her and have an issue with it, so she’s emotional and asks him if he still loves and supports her and he’s just like “??? Kid I’ve been telling you all summer I’m one of the LBTGs” and then it’s her turn to be like “wait what??” because she thinks he had never mentioned a sexuality before, and it turns out Stan had been constantly telling the kids that he’s “ambidextrous” because he thought it meant the same thing as bisexual.

[unknownn-girl]

[wednesdaysfullofwoe]

[what-am-i-doing-in-this-fandom]

I am such a big Werewolf Stan advocate I had to jump on this particular train 🙏 (but I didn't really wanna commit to full line art, you guys understand)

Oh, and you guys aren't gonna believe this, but here's part two 🙌

[fawndollette]

[its-tortle]

— taylor swift albums as months of the year —

[toyastales]

Breakfast Sandwich

[artsymeeshee]

Random idea I got this morning thinking about how small little things (mostly about missing important moments of the past) make the boys emotional and sorrowful.

[saradiation]

Aradia 🖤 

[wickedwitchofthesouth]

Do you think people have shit to say about mutants taking part in the Olympics? Are there mutant beauty influences who are campaigning for larger shade ranges from makeup companies, e.i, not just human skin tones?? Do you think there are some fashion trends that mutants start just to make life easier for them selves and at first all the humans called it ugly and then culturally appropriated it and rebranded it with some gentrified name? Do you think mutants get barred from entering churches or temples? Do you think 98% of mutants have faced violence at the hands of a human at some point in their lives?

Do you think?! Do you think? Do you think?!? because I do. all the time all I do is think

[mountainfucker69]

opal pond time

[boonjur]

Picture day

[fawndollette]