#strung out again

[neon-cigarettes-and-percocet]

From a basement on a hill Is such a good album and I’ve always said that since I heard it for the first time. I realize the more I listen to it I go through phases of really appreciating different songs on that album. It’s like the songs come with each phase in my life and then they just click and I’m so shocked at how good each song is every time I really appreciate a new song.

[qiu-yan]

as a jc stan it's now time for my shot at the obligatory shipping poll

[jt1674]

[flufflecat]

my ford homunculus is nearly complete

[francisco-castle]

he looks so scared 😭😭😭 my poor baby what happened to him????

[tiddiesoutwhenthetisout]

where's all this energy coming from

i've been running around (literally) since 2pm today and i can't sleep at nearly 12 hours later

[thousandyearphantombunker]

"just give them an aac device!"

"just teach them sign language"

"body language and facial expressions alone are good enough for communicating what you need"

Nonononono f*!k off. Stop acting like nonverbal people have easy solutions to their lack of verbality. Not everyone can use an aac device- some people struggle with spelling or can't spell at all, some people have motor skills issues that makes typing a nightmare that takes a long time, some can't articulate themselves without outside help. Learning sign is hard if you again have motor skills issues or struggle to make facial expressions that convey what your feeling (flat affect applies to more than just a person's voice- some people really struggle to make facial expressions and have stilted or strange body language- you people can understand why autistic people get burnt out from masking all day- you know often having to control their body language and make certain facial expressions etc yet you can't understand why nonverbal autistics can't just learn sign- a language very heavy on facial expressions and expressive body language?) also again spelling and motor skill issues are a pain and also a lot of families with deaf or nonverbal children refuse to learn sign for said children and I'm sorry in day to day life I haven't met many people who speak sign- yeah you can move to a community with a lot of deaf or nonverbal people that use sign but that's not always possible and its very limiting. And do I even have to explain the third one- autistic body language is confusing to neurotypicals and I hate the stereotype that its just so blunt and obvious/better than neurotypical communication- maybe that's what its like for you and your 'smart sheldon cooper/Wednesday Addams' style autism but not every autistic person 'says exactly what they mean' often times autistic people struggle with semantics and articulating sentences that make any sense! and all these misunderstandings surrounding stimming are annoying to!- spinning can be a 'happy' stim but it can also mean your overwhelmed or understimulated, a lot of people with autism have voices that lack inflections, mix that in with being unable to use words and no it does not help communicate their needs- f!*k off with acting like its easy not all autistic people who are nonverbal can spell, not all autistic people w are nonverbal have good motor skills and body language alone is never enough to convey a persons needs. Before anyone comes after me yes Sign is body language but its also actual symbols and can convey full thoughts and ideas and sentences and also body language is hard for a lot of autistic people to convey like stated above.

Not every form autistic communication is being 'logical' and unoffended because 'we're just more logical than those superfluous, shallow neurotypicals that let their feelings control them and are never direct about what they want-we value facts and logic unlike those butthurt neurotypicals' and being overly blunt- no a lot of autistic people find that communication is messy and the ways they can communicate are ineffective and your 'logical, facts dont care about your feelings' style of communication isn't as amazing as you think it is. Stop speaking over nonverbal autistics- their is no real perfect solution to them not being able to speak. And I'm gonna say it- while not all nonverbal people are low functioning or high support needs or whatever the new term is-being nonverbal is a massive disadvantage and having your disability be visible like that is scary in many situations and being unable to communicate your needs can make it impossible to meet your needs-

[bmpmp3]

Tsana + Tsana human (kind of) form i made a while back

[portmantaur]

I do think that when properly medicated, I probably seem/act more annoying, but I think mostly i just hate myself less, and so I am more Outwardly Cringe because I am not constantly shrinking myself in the hopes that I will only expose the most palatable parts of my personality.

It is much easier to subscribe the philosophy that not all parts of me have to be for everyone, and that sometimes people will see my presence and not take interest or be off-put by it, and those same people might then again a day later see my presence and be glad, at least for a second, that I am still around — or that this single part of me is still around

And that’s good enough, I think. And also I love you and I’m glad you exist.

[arundolyn]

it continues to be kinda really hard to search for reasons to just like. keep going. and pretty consistently come up with basically none. and then things just keep getting worse and worse in various ways. when will it end fr

[gentlethorns]

you know what? i'm gonna say it. i miss being seventeen. not for the "glory days," bc they weren't, by a country mile lol. if i had glory days i'd say they were in 2020. but i miss the electricity, the constant undercurrent of euphoria and deep plunging black. i miss the fight i had. i was literally known for being scrappy. i was self-destructive and coping poorly, but goddamn if i didn't burn bright and long. it took me until my twenties to finally start to fizzle out. does the candle with its wax melted down to the base of its glass cage miss when the wick was lit?

[kingofanemptyworld]

mortal x immortal relationships. you agree

[all-i-am-is-pharmacy]

[oogaboogaghosttt]

ok wrestling is dirt pits by ethel cain is sooooo raph and leo coded. to me.

[unluckyxse7en]

Watching a cat video and realizing I can't remember the last time I'd had a cat irl who had genuinely chill or relaxing moments with no baggage attached is just... kinda sucky.

[phagodyke]

I'm so annoyed and unable to concentrate at all I fucked up the trial I was doing so I'm gonna have to redo it ARGHHHH. its fine it's FINE