#strange boygirl

[1-800cupidhotline]

good evening heres another au

lewis hamilton but he is bees. human host body with a hivemind. he bleeds honey. he is vegan from like age 4 when he became a host body and eats random flowers. he’s weird and constantly warm and CONSTANTLY buzzing.

he sends out his bees like scarabs in a mummy movie but not for nefarious reasons just because he’s curious. never uses the bees mid race but will use ur for track analysis.

no ones really clear on what lewis is, the consensus is eldritch horror (assume au is situated in a world where this is possible)

vaguely nonbinary as the hivemind calls him queen and uses she/her (and internally lewis uses it too and prefers it) and externally he/him is used (its the 2000s, hes black and catholic (reference: ME))

[femboyclownpierce]

if the pairing appears on multiple servers w a different dynamic, feel free to specify which one u think u'd be in the tags :)

[loves2spwge]

kyley-b meeting raven and the perfect girl by mareux pops into his head 🖤

[schadenfreudich]

Me: Do I like it/its pronouns?

Jürgen, who just appeared: hrrmmm come to the strange side!

[multigenderswag]

I'd like to talk for a bit about the genre of post that's like "sure you're a boygirl fagdyke genderfreak but do you respect [trans identity]?" I think these sorts of posts do address a lot of important points, such as:

Even if you're genderqueer and going "gender isn't real! smash the binary!" there's a real possibility you haven't unlearned or might still be upholding some very transphobic sentiments, and you should do some introspection about that

Some people only want acceptance for their trans identity but don't want to do the work to deconstruct what gender looks like, stop holding other people to their own gendered expectations, and unlearn their internalized bigotry about different trans identities

Sometimes the [trans identity] is specifically relevant to the identities referenced, such as people who will do surface level acceptance of "boygirls" but then call multigender people problematic for using "contradictory" terms like male lesbian, or asking "are you normal about intersex people?" to point out the prevalent intersexism in the multigender community.

But if the [trans identity] or intersex identity being asked about isn't related to multigender community issues, it seems a little strange to consistently single out labels like boygirl and fagdyke that tend to be used by multigender people in these posts. All kinds of trans people can be transphobic about other trans identities. All kinds of trans people are capable of fighting for their own acceptance but not anyone else's. But these posts are pretty frequently just about boygirl fagdykes.

It reminds me of posts about a "theyfab named Sock being transmisogynistic." Are there transmisogynistic FTX nonbinary people? Yes, no one is immune from perpetuating transmisogyny. But these types of posts are still exorsexist.

Similarly, though I'm not saying the pattern of "sure you're a boygirl fagdyke genderfreak but do you respect [trans identity]" is necessarily exorsexist or transmultiphobic, since like I said they do address important points, some of which actually are multigender community issues. But people do use those types of posts to be really transmultiphobic and exorsexist, but in an "acceptable" way, because the boygirls are transphobic so it's okay to hate them.

Some examples in the notes of this sort of post asking 'are you normal about trans women?":

This assumes that multigender identities are only an online thing, only a young person thing, that all multigender people look cis in real life, that no multigender person has experienced real transphobia.

Again, this assumes that no multigender person "looks like a freak" for their gender, that they never struggle with transphobia offline. And straight up saying they have a "huge issue" with girlboy genders.

Multigender labels aren't "performative titles," they're our genders. This person is just straight up admitting they think our genders are fake, that they're only "titles" and not real fucking identities.

"I tend to Not like multigender people" okay so we're just saying the quiet part out loud now

By all means, keep talking about intracommunity transphobia. It's important. But don't throw multigender people under the bus to do so.

[ilovettrpgs]

being genderfluid is so strange because. oh yeah im a boy but now im like a boygirl thing something but also xenogenderish kinda. oh okay im a gi- wait no i have no gender. and then being not having your gender change for a whole week and being like "i win!" and then the madness begins anew

[peaches2217]

Updates! Updates updates updates~

TW: mention of needles and injection

Confession: I said I would wait until my appointment next week to start taking T… but I’ve already taken my first shot. Mom if you’re reading this please hear me out: I sought out advice, and the advice was that it’ll be easier to regulate my conditions medically if I’m treated as I am, as someone taking T, rather than regulating it pre-T and then risk T throwing everything off-balance and putting me back at Square One.

So: ya boygirl’s officially started testosterone! 🥳🎉

I spent a solid hour trying to hype myself up, because while I don’t have a fear of needles, I still don’t particularly like them. I was of course given options, but right away I was like “Yeah, I can take the shot, no problem!” It’s not a problem until you’re staring at the needles that came with your prescriptions and realize Oh, I have to stick one of those into my own fucking leg.

But to my shock, it was… surprisingly easy? I had a harder time just getting the medicine into the vial. The infographics I was given all said to stab it in fast, but while obsessively Googling how to minimize the pain, several people suggested inserting it slowly. So I tried that, and I… didn’t feel it. Little pinch, then nothing. Tiny bit of leakage, so I put some pressure on it then slapped a bandaid over it. And that was it. Got a bit sore at the injection site that night, it was still tender to the touch the next day, and today I have to press down with a fair amount of pressure to feel that same soreness at all.

I got a huge burst of energy for the first few hours then crashed HARD, like I had a full-fledged cold. Thankfully I found a subreddit for early-stage T users, and they verified that it’s totally normal! You’re so excited about the big changes coming your way, and your doctor’s so intent on ensuring you know how to do it safely, that neither of you think to discuss what happens immediately following the injections. And the answer just so happens to be “You may or may not feel like you’ve been hit by a truck the first few times.” 😅😂

Today is Day 2 in Full, Day 3 Overall. The first effects started showing up today: random bouts of weakness, stronger-than-normal hunger, occasional weird feelings in my throat, some other stuff y’all don’t wanna know about so I won’t overshare — so I’m bringing a nice big stash of peanut butter crackers and cough drops to work tomorrow. I intend to not only survive, but thrive through this second puberty!

My body feels a bit strange and when I’m tired, I’m TIRED (right now, for example, I can’t find the energy to get off the couch), yet I’m really happy. This is happening. 🥹

[genderkoolaid]

An upcoming main cast character in a story I'm working on is a multigender boygirl, and I'd really like to (as with all my writing) make sure my characterisations and writing reflect and represent real experiences as much as possible. I've also started asking other multigender folks so I can get an even better pulse on it than just my own experiences and knowledge, so - the question.

What sort of internal experiences would you like to see expressed in the writing of multigender characters, especially boygirls?

Thank you so much for asking!!!

Some general things I'd enjoy seeingI

In general, I'd love to see the different ways people conceive of their genders. There are so many labels, now and and throughout time- I like boygirl, but also manwoman and androgyne. Some people used to use "bisexual" as a description of gender. And multigender people often have such diverse ways of seeing their genders & the way their genders interact. If one of someone's genders technically aligns with their AGAB, some might feel partially cis and some might see that gender as equally trans. I think it would be lovely to see multigender characters who are really deep and complex and feel like a full person, and also have their genders considered a meaningful part of them.

Multigender sexuality, if it makes sense to incorporate it into the story. It's something that gets very heavily policed (and I personally have had to deal with the trauma of having mine policed) and I'd love to see some represention of what it's like to have multiple sexualities/labels. There's also the complicated topic of relationships, and how multigender people interact with those. There's concerns of your partner/s being comfortable with your genders, and being respectful of them. A couple people on that other post made the good point that multigender people aren't depicted as desirable partners. At least some of us worry if we could ever be desirable, because we fear our multigenderedness makes us too complicated and strange for people to actually consider as partners. & on a less sad note, there's also how different people describe their relationships; spouse? wifesband? boygirlfriend?

Atypical medical transitions! There's still not enough awareness of how genderqueer transitions can look. I, personally, would enjoy seeing a character who is also multigender and salmacian, (although salmacians can be any gender), especially because it's so rarely heard of by people outside of porn. But you could also use stuff like different ways of doing HRT, like SERMs & other stuff (can't be fucked to find links rn but if anyone wants to add atypical HRT methods go ahead)

The daily ins-and-outs of presentation, pronouns, and names. I'm someone who changes their presentation pretty regularly, who sometimes prefers different pronouns, and generally prefers different names based on the dominant gender/s of that day. I also tend to crossdress; I dress much more femme when I'm a man and much more butch when I'm a woman, although I always stay androgynous. Some people may be gender conforming for one or all of their genders, some people may not vary their presentation at all!

Related to above: the struggle of everyday binarism. you are surrounded, especially as androgynes, by the forced choice between genders, especially male and female (just by virtues of those being the most discussed and compared). People expect you to be able to fall in one, OR maybe to fall in male, female, or neutral- but ime people generally don't think about you falling in multiple. It's an issue on things like forms that ask you to choose just one gender, or using bathrooms. It can be daunting to speak up about your experience as any gender, both because it might cause people to view you exclusively as that gender, and because you worry people will discount your experiences because you are multigender. People often don't think of us as fully any of our genders, in comparison to monogender people. You may not want to include discrimination in your story, but if you choose to I would enjoy it because I'm the kind of person who prefers stories that tackle those issues to ones where they don't exist.

Shapeshifting. I feel like it's a near universal genderfluid desire. Absolute ideal body situation tbh

If you have any other questions about multigender characters I'd be happy to answer them :)

[plural-affirmations]

Contradictory or unconventional labels? No problem!

Labels exist to help explain your perspectives on life, they're not hard-and-fast rules! If you use labels that seem to be polar opposites, very specific, or "strange" to people, that's so cool of you! Let's talk about it!

M-spec lesbians and gays!

Boygirls and girlboys!

Bigender, polygender, pangender individuals!

Genderfluid people!

Xenogender folks!

The MOGAI/LIOM community!

Agender people who have another gender as well!

Intersex and intergender peeps!

Neurogenders for plurality, such as systemgender and systemfluid!

You're all incredible! Please remember you don't need to justify your experiences or existence to others, it's ok to just be you!

Keep on keepin' on!

🖤💜💙💚💛

[halcantdothat]

ummmmmmmm hi new intro hi tumblr hi

my name is hal like hal 9000

i use it/he pronouns and any neopronouns also she is we are extremely close

i love robots I relate to robots i am alterkin robotkin and dogkin

i fictionkin william murderface, pyro, and data soong. i am fine with “doubles” as they say but please do not talk about it with me.

my special interest is star trek

some of my other interests include: tf2, metalocalypse, creepypasta,, horror movies, the old web, internet culture in general, architecture, and computers

some things i have a passive interest in are: philosophy (feel free to strike up a debate with me there are topics i am very passionate about), social studies, food, and anarchist theory

this must be boring so here is. A rainbow here here here

*rainbow*

yayyyyyy

here is my thingy thing thing:

https://pronouns.cc/@HALCANTDOTHAT

if you are too lazy to click that link i do not blame you basically i am an agender boygirl , i use it/its pronouns mostly. please refer to me with masculine terms if you do not know me or preferably, do not refer to me at all!!!!

oh i also have a strange fascination with wojaks so here is some of my collection:

here is a list of character i relate to:

data soong (obviously)

murderface (also obviously)

hal 9000

roy batty

dirk strider

robot jones

wheatley

sorry this post is dry i am usually much more excited but i have been #goingthroughit!!!

here is a photo of a cat on a computer to send you on your way!

OH WAIT!!!!!!

i must add that i will interact with both fandom posts, agere posts, and idk whatever posts i take interest in.

also i have a nocities site i coded myself it is:

https://halcantdothat.neocities.org

it does not look good on mobile.

anyways bye

goodbye blue monday

[no-where-new-hero]

Fire and Hemlock Readalong: Chapter 3

…in which Hero Business begins and also I realize doing a readalong is hard because the further I get into this book the more I just kind of want to respond by whistling like a tea kettle on high boil.

Much like how the original ballad has kind of three strata of normality (Janet's home castle, Caterhaugh, and the fairy realm, represented by Janet, Tam Lin, and the Fairy Queen), the novel gives us three different home structures: Polly's house, Granny's house, and Hunsdon House (also ruled by three different yet linked women--Mum, Granny, and Laurel. Threes are of tantamount importance in this book, as DWJ tells us in her essay).

And here we finally meet Mum, who is immediately coded in opposition to Granny because “home is not a Fire and Hemlock sort of place.” We get a sense of Polly’s life in her house: stifling (the curtains are like walls) and yet invasive (Mum opens Polly’s mail and doesn’t apologize the way Granny does). I find it interesting how houses that Polly feels comfortable in smell like food and home cooking (Nina’s and Granny’s), whereas Mum makes Polly get takeout dinners and subtly shoves her out of the security a young child should feel in their own home.

The two big movements in this chapter are Seb's return as a main player and Mr. Lynn's letter. Seb enters the novel again in the guise of another game-that’s-real when Nina tells Polly she’s being followed. Already the danger from fairyland is following Polly and Nina into the real world, but in a way that’s also just real world danger: don’t talk to strange men. Don’t go to Caterhaugh. I’m paying attention to Seb more this time around because of a certain line in the last chapter, and I find it fascinating that while he’s an agent of Laurel and Mr. Morton, he’s also enough in their power to have a certain measure of solidarity with Polly. Again, he represents an intermediary between the normal world and the fairy world. He doesn’t tell Laurel about how Polly navigated the Husdon House enchantment (not eating and drinking, the vases), and he does explain a fair amount to Polly that he didn’t necessarily need to about why he’s been following her at all.

As more evidence to my claim about Mr. Lynn’s insufficient masculinity, witness Polly’s “He’s not even a man.” Like. This is a grown-ass divorcee with a job that you’re talking about. But also we know that Polly as a hero sees through to the heart of things, whatever they look like to other people.

Unspoilery letter thoughts: the mistypes always send me. Mr. Lynn’s explicit blurring of Hero’s gender is incredible? DWJ said she needed to write this book with a female hero because that simply didn’t exist for young readers in the 80s, but in a more modern context, I feel like that can be rewritten from “girls can be heroes” to “heroism transcends gender.” Same message but Mr. Lynn really decided that Polly could be a boygirl and he didn’t care. There’s more here about sight/enchantment: Mr. Piper’s insistence that if he cannot see the thing, then it cannot be real. Seeing is believing but he’s also actively trying not to make that connection, but Hero in their youth calls it like it is. I also just love this letter? The vivacity and delight in its prose is really heartwarming and does a good job I think to get to know Mr. Lynn at a distance before we meet him again in the next chapter. Minor letter spoilers below the cut.

This time around, I’m really wondering how deeply Tom knows about his gift to invent things into existence, and that’s something I’ll need to check on once we get to Part 4. If he does, then his actively creating the Hero Business as a Nowhere world for him to slide out from his curse comes across as much more manipulative than if the coming-true was an unexpected byproduct of channeling his creativity and happiness in finding someone like Polly to share that with. I feel like it might have been a combination of both—and also of course the paintings that they pick out together tie into their imaginings, so there’s a lot of symbiosis going on.

[ask-doctor-wombat]

well obviously the daddy issued boygirl likes father by the front bottoms. no way you wouldn’t fantasize with that playing in your headphones.

I'm not a boygirl (what does that even mean? I'm quite comfortable in my status as a man), but I agree, it isn't surprising that I like Father by the Front Bottoms. Their lyrics are accurate. I don't deny my daddy issues, although I do object to the phrase-- my dad being a dick isn't a failing on my part.

What do you mean by "fantasize"? If you're implying that I wank listening to the Front Bottoms, you're both wrong and strangely preoccupied with my masturbation habits (why are you thinking about that?). If you mean I listen to the Front Bottoms and feel sad about my childhood while imagining it being different, you're still wrong. I listen to the Front Bottoms and feel sad about my childhood without imagining it being different, because what's the use? Not like I can change it. If you mean I listen to the Front Bottoms and think about beating my dad up with a baseball bat, you're a bit more correct, although I've never felt very violent towards him. I didn't want to punch him, I just wanted him to either be a dad or leave entirely, instead of the weird confusing absent father who's never there when it counts but pops in occasionally to act the part of a perfect TV father when others are around and criticise every bit of my life when others aren't around.

[hauntedaether]

huh. i actually dont know if transmasc is the right word for my gender anymore. like i kind of just say transmasc to people i dont wanna explain boygirl to and it's like about right but i feel like im too girl to be transmasc it's strange

[femmedesyeuxnoirs]

Can i be a strange and unsettling boygirl for a second

[osamusbigtits]

tendou would do numbers on tumblr. imagine him here, posting about being strange and off-putting and being a boygirl and girlboy? like this site was made for him tbh

[sweetfessions]

i’m always really bewildered by people who reclaim slurs but point blank refuse to tag them or acknowledge that they’re a slur

like to be clear i like reclaiming slurs i think that’s cool and fine!

but you have to be able to acknowledge that because this is a slur, people are going to be uncomfortable with it, especially if they live in places where the slur is used as a slur. i see this a lot especially with the q slur (queer) and the bg slur (boygirl) and its so strange to me.

like again, you can reclaim slurs. but if someone nicely asks you to tag it (even just as the word itself) ….maybe do that?

Queer has been reclaimed by a majority of the community as an inclusive self-descriptor word for us. Boygirl ... isn't a slur. There's no results at all for it ever having been a slur. I don't know where you got the information that it was one to begin with.